#I’m too embarrassed to tag this much

[strabbypreserves]

PLEASE heed the flashing warning, anyhow here’s this that I spent the bulk of last night working on

#I’m too embarrassed to tag this much #preserves.mp4 #bugsnax edit

[33libra]

i don’t have anything to say for myself . don’t look at me

#alenoah #surely its obvious but i read An Insulting Indifference and i was very much inspired #but i’m too embarrassed to outright say it or tag the creator AGGHHG don’t look at meee #my art

[crystallizsch]

a thunderstorm woke me up and now my veins are running on pure caffeine and (unfortunately) i have jamil on the mind.

so now i'm thinking about what if yuu has an extreme fear of thunder

imagine there's a thunderstorm in the middle of the night.

you've just been weirdly anxious, and when jamil inquired, you begrudgingly admit that you're afraid of thunder.

it's embarrassing. why would you be scared of thunder, they're just loud sounds. it’ll pass.

jamil had to stop himself from making a judgmental remark. even if jokingly.

he’s deathly afraid of bugs, he literally has no place to make fun of you for it.

at least with bugs you can get rid of them, but you can’t just fight the weather unless you’re a powerful mage.

so the least jamil can do is to comfort you.

maybe listening to music sharing headphones.

or make you focus on his voice instead so you don’t pay attention to the loud noises. either by chatting or reading a book together.

of course, maybe he could also use snake whisper on you so your mind would effortlessly cease those fears.

jamil would if you asked. but he’s not going to offer it himself.

(besides, it’s a bit weird if he’s using his unique magic on you again, considering whatever your relationship is at this point.)

and it’s not like that idea would even cross your mind when all you could think about was the agonizing dread of oncoming thunder.

plus it kinda sounds crazy knowingly asking someone to put you under mind control.

every time thunder boomed you found yourself clinging to jamil's clothes. burying your face in his chest. as if you were holding onto him for dear life.

he'd laugh if he knew you weren't deathly afraid of it. so he'd make soothing gestures instead.

the thunder was still unbearable, but eventually you found comfort in jamil’s warmth.

it really helped to drown it out. at least mostly.

this seemed to be a better outcome anyway than forcing you to just forget about it.

and it would’ve been easier, sure. but how many times could you get the chance to cozy up to jamil

and on the other hand, jamil kinda wanted this moment to last. how many times could he have an excuse for "relaxing" with you.

as much as it makes you suffer, him wanting this moment to last longer meant wishing for the thunderstorm to last longer as well.

jamil hopes you can forgive him for being selfish in that regard.

#hi hello i’m offering yall jamil enthusiasts something to chew on i guess??? #i don’t have a fear of thunder anymore but this was fun to think about #kinda embarrassed too bc i dont often write hsdkljfalskdj #anyways shout out and much love to all writers bc how do you do full on fics #i barely survived making this bullet point one #[— #twisted wonderland #twst #jamil viper #jamil x yuu #★ my writing #—] #what are the right tags for this uhhhh #perhaps i should stick to drawing #also my heart’s about to explode #vietnamese coffee at night is.

[teenyweenyeenymeeny]

hey I've never done an ask before but like could u do like wallace comforting regressed toddler scott cause I rlly kinda need the comfort rn n I luv ur art smm ur so skilled and especially the young neil art mwah *kisses forhead lovingly* (btw not forcing or anything do whateveru want 😭😭)

hello lovely I’m sorry I made you wait so long for messy sketches 🥺 thank you thank you and I hope you found comfort when you need it and feel at least a Bit better now

#waugh quite Embarrassing to post these ones I don’t like them. very much #but I wouldn’t want to leave an ask like this waiting for Too long in my inbox… #at some point I might clean all or at least Some of these up… not now though I’m Cursed sniffle #I’m going to tag this like an ask game answer featuring a Million characters. #🖍️ #❌ #🍸 #scott pilgrim agere #little scott pilgrim #regressed scott pilgrim #caregiver wallace wells #fandom agere #agere #sfw agere #age regression art #ask #anon

[ksksksrahrah]

#drawing #oc #this was from last month #did u watch the arknights anime? #mephisto is voiced by kohei! Amasuki! #he voices hyp mic saburo! #anyways I’m doing an oc post to talk about tags #theres a lot I want to talk about #but I don’t want to talk too much in tags #especially in fan art post #its kinda embarrassing for me.. #so I made a side blog to talk more #if there’s a lot for me to say #you can find it on my carrd I linked at the top #of my blog #edit changed some things

[the-hilda-librarians-wife]

Kinda obsessed with the idea of jealous Johanna. Jealous Kaisa just doesn’t sit well with me because the girl has self esteem issues as it is, I feel like jealousy would only be another thing to make her feel worse and instead of actually being out to defend what’s hers, she’d just go ‘yeah, I always knew Johanna would find someone better than me, guess all good things in my life must come to an end :/‘

Johanna, though. Johanna is an incredibly mature person who most likely knows how to deal with her feelings. And that’s what makes this scenario so fun to me. I want her starting off all confident only to slowly realize how many people try to flirt with her girlfriend. How there are women who only seem to go the the library to smile at Kaisa and blush and giggle. And I want to see her emotional intelligence go down the drain much to her own confusion. I’m talking going home and locking herself in her room and asking herself ‘what on earth is wrong with me’ as she does light stalking on some girl who not so subtly suggested Kaisa go out with her that day. I want to see her showing up when Kaisa is talking to a much-too-friendly patron and put her arm around her and glare at the person. I want to see her wondering what is up with her because she had never been like this and trying to get herself under control.

And I want to see Kaisa completely oblivious to other people’s attempts at flirting with her and thinking that Johanna’s little flashes of jealousy are the cutest things

#‘I want to see’ I mean in fanfic you guys #I’m not so delusional as to think it would ever be canon even if they meet eusngdnsjsbd #but like. Kaisa would be completely flattered by these (healthy) displays #bc she’s the kind of person who thinks nobody wants her #so to be wanted so much that her partner is clearly afraid to lose her would be An Experience #AND HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! #sketchbook ship #sketchbook ship hilda #this is so unabashedly sketchbook that I’m too embarrassed to put it in the kaisa and Johanna tags sisbdjdbnd

[tonariofjananda]

This was my participation piece for the @yuriolympics2023 ‘s first prompt, “Memory.”✌️

The fic covers things that will happen in Season 3 (including a theory that I’m treating as 100% canon tbh, lol) so if you’re not caught up with the manga, please keep that in mind :)

#Mizuha #Hanna #MizuHanna #Yuri Olympics 2023 #please make sure to check out this blog to find out how to vote for BestBonnist’s comic! #Fumetsu No Anata E #To Your Eternity #alright here’s a quick nova ramble #I was… VERY surprised to see Hanna had not been included in a fic yet #I mean there aren’t many fics for TYE to begin with but I never expected to be the one who made a tag for her #I’m really happy about it but I feel undeserving lol #anyway I had a lot of fun writing this and I’m excited to see the hit count go up (self-promoting always makes me a bit embarrassed tho lol) #it makes me laugh that Ray made the sweetest most adorable fluffy comic ever ;; 💕 While I went the… non fluffy route #going in I thought it would be the opposite lol but somehow all I had was thunderstorms in my head while writing it #I dont have that much to say about it tbh other than I hope y’all give it a read 🤗 #let me know your thoughts too if you have any! #Oh and again make sure to check out the Yuri Olympics blog for more info on how to vote for Ray’s kick ass comic!

[carpisuns]

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#u already saw me go bonkers over this but consider this another healthy round of me losing my effing mind: 🐝‼️✨💕🥰🫠🔥🤩🌟🌈😭🥳❣️💟

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#5

16,770 notes - Posted November 11, 2022

#4

shoutout to slow creators!

i know it can be disheartening to work so slowly when it seems like everyone around you works so fast and churns out great content left and right. i know it's easy to get frustrated with yourself for having to spend so much time on one thing and sometimes it's hard to stay motivated long enough to finish. but the things you make are so good, and taking lot of time on something isn't a bad thing. creation can be a very painstaking process, but the amount of love and care and effort and attention you pour into your work bleeds through. people can feel it. they appreciate it. they see how hard you try and they see how your thoughtful approach to creation affects the quality of the end product. speed is definitely a skill you can develop and chances are as you practice more and get more comfortable with things, you'll be able to work faster. but no matter what, the things you make are worth waiting for. keep creating! you are wonderful!

26,916 notes - Posted February 22, 2022

#3

friendly reminder for things you might have forgotten!

clothes in the washer

dinner in the oven

unanswered email/text/call

meat that needs to defrost

plants that need to be watered

garbage day

upcoming birthday or anniversary

the alamo

32,607 notes - Posted April 28, 2022

#2

guy.s

i saw a post that said it maxed out at 24. so i just. kept buying em. thinking eventually i would get a little message saying i had the max amoutn. but. guys. it didnt. it did nt

39,542 notes - Posted November 11, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

no, YOU have a microwave brain that slowly rotates blorbos. I have a washing machine brain that rotates AND soaks them and sometimes things get a little intense and it starts going THUNK THUNK THUNK and nearly breaks itself because of blorbo overload

62,123 notes - Posted August 20, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

#tumblr2022 #year in review #I was initially too embarrassed to share this #But screw it #i am a little relieved the stupid checkmarks one wasnt my number one lmao #I did turn off reblogs on that one tho #Third one is something i blazed hahaha #also. was v surprised about the toh tag bc I didn’t start regularly blogging about toh until like a few months ago I think?? Omg #I was very good about tagging all toh posts tho so my ml followers could block #I only recently started using ml by itself as a tag #Bc before that was just the default hdjddj #Anyway. It was a year here on tumblr dot com #I feel like I post and reblog so much more than everyone else DHSJSM #no wonder I’ve gotten tagged like 20 times as one of someone’s top people they reblog from LMAO #I’m the only option it’s just me and my cartoons and I never shut up about them!!

[toxictranny]

there needs to be an app for playdates. my hunt for broship has been exhausting, there must be an easier way

#it’s taking a very serious toll on me!!!!!! #i wanna go to the mall and way ‘hi’ to everyone who looks queer and/or vaguely my age #i can’t behave this way im goign to end up in jail. #also can mutuals pls turn anons on i have things to say………. #i would send it from my main but ur all assholes who REFUSED to follow my main my die hards JUST followed #smh some of these ppl have an entire syllabus for a pinned so i know i’m not typing too much #also ppl keep asking my name and so for months i thought the html was broken :| #my name is a tag ..?? ur kinda stupid #this sounds agressive but only because i want to spurr u on.. i aim to Inspire✨✨✨✨ #i’m not falling in a one-sided parasocial love?! tht would be fucking embarrassing… mutual obsession only baby. #i love u please love me #laying down again bye #toxictranny

[kavehater]

I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness

#There’s this specific part of the song #It srsly alters my brain chemistry #Anyways #i hate tumblr sm #Idk like I Gen hate being on here sm #No matter what account I make no matter if I tell ppl about it whether I don’t tell ppl I just hate this place soooo much #Like if I have a following it sucks because it’s rlly lonely if I don’t it’s still lonely and then if there’s nobody at all it’s lonely #Loneliness is what got me to discord boy so like :D #The fact I am genuinely missing him sm I’m gonna krill myself 😻🙏 #Also I think I hate talking to minors cause these kids be letting themselves get groomed all the time I’m so tired of seeing it #The creep in my course is being so weird to Raisa who is a minor … I can’t help but think it’s all my fault … I invited her to the pharm gc #To show her how messy it was …. #I didn’t expect her to follow and accept requests of everyone … #Anyways I just am so annoyed. Like I wish I could have one person just one where I can be confident in being their no.1 but every time I th #Think I’m maybe somewhere high up on someone’s list of important ppl I realise I overestimated my position even tho I’m rlly self conscious #And being myself down over that. Also I still hate Eid. I hate Eid sm. How do ppl genuinely enjoy Eid. Idk if I’ve ever been excited for Ei #It’s like I’m just suddenly getting more sick of ppl by the day. I Gen don’t like talking to ppl at all even tho I used to rely on talking #To others like its sustenance now it’s just such a hassle to me because I’m so sick of being unimportant to literally every single person I #Have ever known. Literally everyone except maybe dahlia idk. the only person who has never gotten mad/snapped at me o is dahlia #And knowing my luck that will soon be taken from me too. Anyways good riddance to tumblr i loathe this site and im sick of the mind games #All the time from just existing on here. Gen makes me feel ill. I’m so sick of that girl I like and sick of everyone. The only time ppl car #Is when I cause a scene. And ykw atp I loathe being showed sympathy and pity for these sorts of posts because it just feels like a big joke #Cause why couldn’t you just care when I was fine. Why do you ONLY care when I’ve had enough of your bad behaviour. How does one make someon #Like me go mad with all these things #Istg if I come back to this dumb site whether to this acc to the tora one or my other account everyone has permission to beat me up. #dora daily #Tldr;I HATE ppl and everyone ever + I’m just sick of pretending like everyone doesn’t suck cause how can ppl be so insufferable intolerable #Insane horrible in every way and ppl like them. How do they live with themselves when they’re this aggravating. Every day I hate ppl more #Because their mannerisms their everything is just so embarrassing. #Essay tags 😻😻😻

[lovebloods]

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#hiding this in the tags bc it’s kind of embarrassing and i need to get it off my chest #and i could journal about it but i just want someone to see me #sorry for being cringe <333 #but i don’t know what the hell i am like i don’t know if i’m even nonbinary anymore and that scares me like being nonbinary felt like coming #home after a long trip #and now i’m having all these thoughts about wanting to be a man? like near tears rn bc i want to be a guy but then when i think of actually #being a guy i freak out a bit #bc i like being seen as feminine too and i know that there are feminine men and they get treated so terribly #and i feel like all the men i see that i want to be like or look like are white! why don’t i see any black trans men like i feel so alone #and i’m scared to look/be openly trans bc there’s so much violence against people like us that it feels safer to just cosplay as a cis woman #even though i’m not #like i don’t want to be a boy but i want to be one and i absolutely don’t want to be a girl but i’d like to be seen as someone sometimes #it’s all very confusing #AND like i know i’m biromantic like im attracted to all genders and people #but im like? am i on the ace spectrum #bc i have a low sex drive am often sex repulsed and will sometimes ‘test’ #myself to see if im sexually attracted to people and most of the time it’s like #it’s like meh not really but sometimes im like sure but that’s rarer and rarer these days?? and like. tmi here but i jerk off and enjoy it #so i can’t be asexual right?? i tried looking it up but the articles just confused me #but then i also am like with the right person if i had a connection to them i wouldn’t mind having sex with them! but like. then i think #about actually having to be in a relationship and i’m like gross no but i think that’s just relationship trauma and fear of being #vulnerable #and like i know i don’t HAVE to have a label on my gender or sexuality but for me personally it helps to know What i am #and and i love butches so so so much and if i’m a man how can i love butches? like #it’s all so confusing #i feel like i’m 14 and going through puberty again

[st0rmyseas]

Sooo I’m kind of very obsessed with Robron right now and my brain won’t shut up about them so I’m gonna post about them for a while,,

#I apologise for the person I’m about to become on here #I bet y’all miss the days when I was too embarrassed to post about my love for soap operas #not that I’m not still embarrassed like I’m terrified of being judged #but I neeeddd to keep reminding myself that I’m allowed to post about the stuff I like on here #otherwise I will go insane #so I’ll post about them anyway even though I’m anxious asf about it #and if people don’t like it then they can fuck off #og posts #soap opera tag #robron tag #literally cannot even bring myself to tag this as ‘robron’ in case people go into the tag and they actually see my post #I don’t like being like this but being online is so terrifying to me #anxiety sucks so much omfg

[viatrix-glow]

I HAVE FINALLY FINISHED MY RENDERS/LAYOUTS/WHATEVER FOR MY ENSTARS OC….. and now i will dump a bunch of information about her 🤲🏽

here’s some outfits for her!! tbh the winter one was made on the spot soooo idk if it’ll actually stay

here’s the faux scout cards <3 they took way too long to make and yes i stole the bg of the second one from mika’s card (the first is also from the game). i’m not drawing a background

heres some more info about her. no organization im just gonna spout some rapid fire facts. keep in mind she is a little bit (a lot bit) of a self indulgent oc <3

-she is what i am dubbing a fill-in idol. essentially, she’s an idol who fills in for other units when they’re missing a member for a performance . this is why she works with valkyrie most often (she can take the roll of shu or nazuna for ex songs)

-her first name comes from a song (hikari by royal scandal). no real reason i just like the song lol

-she left switch on very good terms (she’s still besties with all 3 of them). she just left because she thought the unit functioned better as a trio (“you three shine brighter on stage without me~”) she still performs with them from time to time though (usually for smaller audiences, or she just joins them for practice)

-she’s been friends with mika since before they entered yumenosaki (they applied together), and became close to arashi in her first year too. she had planned on trying out for valk alongside him, but got caught up with switch

-speaking of switch! she runs into tsumugi on the day that he first visits the library (with the key rei gives him to get into the secret area) and recognizes him as one of the fine members . she goes with him to the library and meets natsume there (same scene as canon just. she’s there .) she gets along really well with him (and with mugi), which is why she ends up as a member of switch during her second year.

-she used to have a crush on nazuna (product of watching the performances and going to mika’s practices) . not really relevant i just wanted to throw it out there. does she have a crush on someone now? i don’t know

-her last name (yuuta) is intentionally the same as my twst oc, aurelia . they are sisters (aurelia is the older one by a year and a few months -(her bday is 2/2)). my thought is that when aurelia is sent to the world of twst, somehow the people who know her in her or world forget about her, so hikari doesn’t remember her as of now .

-she works part time at the same diner/restaurant/whatever as niki. he has to teach her a Lot about cooking though (she’s getting better)

-she absolutely Hates hates hatesssss rinne and crazy:b when they first start to cause trouble. she’s very protective over her friends and the other idols at es. even though she dislikes eichi for everything he did, she recognizes and appreciates the work he’s put into making es. she doesn’t like how crazy:b throws themselves into others live shows (live shows are so important and personal to units!!), and she gets very snappy and upset with them for it. however, she does her best to keep the peace when she’s around them because they’re under the same agency. after the main story stuff in !! finished though she begins to understand the position rinne +the bees were in, and she starts to forgive them and grow somewhat close to them. i would put them in the frenemies area

-i think her shuffle unit would be flambé!…? i tried to make it branco since they only have 4 members, but since she works with sora so often i think that disqualifies her. i really would like her to be in blend+ but again. same problem

-i think she’s close with anzu too. girlies gotta stick together! her, anzu and naru can go out for girls nights together

-the only unit she doesn’t really fill in for is 2wink because . the whole twin dynamic. kinda hard to replace one . and mam/doubleface obv

ok i’m running out of thoughts it’s 12am but that’s my oc!!!! if u read all of this thank you i love u <3

#my art #my oc #enstars oc #idk what else to tag this as #i’m a little embarrassed posting this and idk why this isn’t my first rodeo #but i get self conscious like aughhggfgebs am i being too self indulgent… #anyways i hope u guys like her. and the art i put way too much effort into it #and it didn’t really work u can def still tell it’s my style. but i really did try with the shading

[paladinwife]

Uggghhh I remembered that the people that wrote the Adriana letter for me included a playlist for her, and she seems to like some of the same music I do.

#it’s stuff I’m too embarrassed to discuss much publicly #but the fact that she likes it makes me- #skull merchant tag tbd

[dreamertrilogys]

hate hate hate when i realize/discover that one of my friends is hot. like can you (me) get out of here with your confusing & unwanted feelings….

#personally i don’t think i’d be able to have a crush on a friend without being too embarrassed to let my feelings fester like i’d just be #like [bland voice] oh they’re hot. whatever. fact of life #ALTHOUGH that’s the issue i think. like whenever i notice that a friend is objectively hot i can never tell if i like. actually like them #or not. ​whenever i’ve had a crush on anyone it’s always been someone i’m not already friends with or it doesn’t work. THAT DOESN’T MEAN I #ONLY LIKE UNATTAINABLE PEOPLE THO IS THE THING. because i used to sort of like this guy i only saw in the halls and then a little while ago #our respective friend groups merged and so now we’re friends and hang out and stuff but i still very much have a crush on him #but like the other day i noticed that my irl was actually like really hot but i don’t think i’d ever be able to #(allow myself to???) like her romantically bc we were friends first??? bro idk. and yet ideally conceptually i think trc was right #wait actually. maybe i’m sort of in love with all of my friends who knows. anyway #.txt #i know it’s only 1 am but i haven’t slept properly all week so that’s why i’m posting this btw #probably this belongs in the journal (private) not journal (public) #upon further consideration that irl was a bad example because i’m starting to remember that i noticed she was hot (in an objective way not a #crush way) before we became friends. HOWEVER there’s this other irl who i knew and didn’t think was particularly attractive and then we #became friends (before i just knew him from class) and i still thought the same way about him but THEN he got a really good haircut and i #realized he was actually sort of attractive and developed a crush on him for about. 12 hours before i was like what the hell #this is [REDACTED (<- his name in all caps)] we’re talking about and promptly fell out of love with him. which is weird because if the #situation (like the fact that we were friends) was different he’d probably be exactly my type personality wise and all too #irls tag #crushposting #ish?? #diary #gender diary #<- only diary tag i use

[bigbutchwolf]

started replaying dragon age 2. how cringe would it be if i started going by hawke online again

#i missed da2 so much and it immediately knocked me back to 2013 #i was a hawke kinnie once upon a time. i know like 5 other people who were too lmfao #anyway. probably won’t do it. kinda embarrassing #hawke is just very relatable to me #and i’m replaying it now bc i spent christmas struggling with the mortality of my dad and grandparents #and i know when my mum finally does die. i will be devastated even if im nc with her rn #and i know. because of how leandra’s death fucks me up everytime a little. that i will not be able to play da2 for a while. #now i don’t think my mums dying anytime soon. but i am a virgo moon and i live to overthink and prepare #if you read these tags im sorry you’re having this window into my psyche rn #slate.txt