#I’ve had issue with this in the past

[spittyfishy]

Is it just me or.. KAITO X MAKI X SHUICHI REMINDS ME OF THE..

BISEXUAL FLAG.

That’s because all of them are Bi and in love

#I’d know I’m bi and they told me #that’s mostly a joke lol #I am bi tho #also just like a disclaimer if someone has a different head canon for these three please don’t argue with me about it #everyone gets to have their own head cannons! #I’ve had issue with this in the past #I don’t think it’ll happen here since y’all are much nicer then the tiktok folks but still #covering my bases #training trio #ndrv3 #danganronpa #maki harukawa #suichi saihara #kaito momota #danganronpa ships #danganronpa killing harmony

[figofswords]

has anyone tried loop earplugs for auditory processing issues, especially and specifically while working a retail job? I know originally they were for helping with overstimulation but the noise levels at my job aren’t enough to overstimulate me so I’m not really looking for anything that’s going to muffle things too much. the issue is if there is more than one conversation happening or if we’ve opened the door to the street I completely lose the ability to process what’s being said to me, like I’ll stand there absolutely fighting for my life trying to process the customer spelling their name for me and having to have them repeat each letter four or five times before my brain understands it, or fully checking out of one conversation and into another without noticing it and then having to fight my way back to figure out what the other person said, or even trying to figure out what *i’m* saying if I check out mid-sentence. my manager recommended I try loop so im wondering if anyone else with adhd and auditory processing issues has experience using loop in a retail setting and whether you think it’s worth it or not

#it’s literally so bad I feel like I’m wading through water against the current trying to stay on top of a conversation #I’ve always had some auditory processing issues but if I’m with friends or family I can just be like wait sorry I checked out repeat that? #but at work I’m standing there the customer is spelling their name two letters at a time #I cannot hold onto those letters for long enough to type them into the computer #I ask them to repeat they repeat at the same speed same volume and don’t break it into single letters OR syllable groups #each of which would be easier than two letters at a time #and the only thing that changes in their tone or face is a subtle expression of ‘oh this person is stupid’ #IM SORRY OK MY COWORKER JUST LAUGHED ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE ROOM MY MANAGER JUST YELLED SOMETHING FROM THE BACK #A GROUP OF FRIENDS WALKED PAST OUTSIDE TALKING LOUDLY THE BUS JUST WENT PAST #IM TRYINGGGGGGG

[sugarsnappeases]

thank you for the tag @fxreflyes this is so cute, except the format is trying to hinder my propensity to ramble, so i’ve rectified this in the tags lmao

i’m over 5'5 / i wear glasses or contacts / i have blonde hair / i often wear sweatshirts / i prefer loose clothing over tight clothes / i have one or two piercings / i have at least one tattoo / i have blue eyes / i have dyed or highlighted my hair / i have or have had braces / i have freckles / i paint my nails / i typically wear makeup / i don’t often smile / resting bitch face / i play sports / i play an instrument / i know more than one language / i can cook or bake / i like writing / i like to read / i can multitask / i’ve never dated anyone / i have a best friend i’ve known for over five years / i am an only child

no pressure tags for @static-radio-ao3 @inevitablestars @itsjaywalkers @carniferous @orbitfalls @transsexualpriest @futurequibblerjournalist <333

#i'm like 5'7 i think. fun fact i used to wear glasses when i was like 11 bc all my friends were getting glasses and i wanted some too so i #lied to my optician. lol good times. don't actually need glasses tho soooo. #this is me coming out as a natural blonde guys….. like my hair hasn’t been blonde in a good year or so and it hasn’t been my natural blonde #in like three/four years but still in my heart of hearts i identify as a blonde. like i get confused when people don't count me as one #i have my ears and nose pierced and i would love a tattoo but unfortunately i have both a fear of needles and commitment issues so. #not sure if that’ll ever happen… would be very hot and sexy tho. also i'm one of those freaks with green eyes lol it's appaza quite rare #my hair is currently like dark dark brown… have been getting the itch to dye it again tho like a kinda reddish colour idk yet we’ll see #i had braces for AAGES. i have freckles in the summer and i paint my nails whenever i remember to. rn they’re a very chipped lilac colour #i think i have a resting bitch face but i can never tell tbf like it might be more of a resting 'dead to the world' face lmao #okay technically i don’t play an instrument anymore! but in the past i’ve dabbled with the cello the oboe and the xylophone. singing too #spanish and italian baybee although ig if this means like fluently then that’s not me but this is literally my degree it’s my whole brand #yes i like to read but also the only things ive read in like the last few months have been either books in spanish/italian for my degree #literary criticism for said span/ital books and… fanfic. so. also i like writing but it's my worst enemy rn the thoughts aren't working :( #i have many best friends that i’ve known for years!!!! in fact i've known some of my friends for like my entire life it's very cute #okay sorry for rambling i can never help myself and i also literally could go on icl like there was Some restraint applied here #kara lore #bc there's quite a lot of it in this one lol #tag games

[werebutch]

I didn’t want to come out to my mom because I didn’t want her to have any more troubles on her plate. With everything else I didn’t want her to also have to worry about me and grieve over me. Cause none of her kids are normal. But of course my dad has to go and tell her, and now it’s even worse because she has the burden of me being like this, but also the burden of knowing that I didn’t trust her enough to tell her, and that she was the only one who didn’t know. When she thought that we were super close(and we are I just..fucked up..) Ughhhh

#I’ve never felt guilt over being trans and gay before because I grew up on the internet w mostly accepting people. so I never had an issue #like that with my family.. it was just like well I’m this way idc if you like it or not… but with my mom like #she’s got so much to handle so much going on and we’re really close the past couple years #I feel really guilty about it. idk 😓 #I also lied to her over and over about it bc she would ask. and I’d always deny. I feel bad for doing that too #I know it’s not on me realistically but I still feel horrible about the whole thing

[no1ryomafan]

I said I was gonna talk more about MM on this blog again and I will probably eventually do analysis stuff I just need to prep this shit cause those post take time for the ones that are more coherent and not just my usual word vomits, BUT I do need to word vomit for a second about one thing that plagued my mind again today.

One of my biggest peeves with the series lore is how reploids and humans hardly have interactions, more so in the X series as Zero makes a bit more effort in this regard, given it’s a huge deal how reploids are seen lower then humans for the longest time- but what has dawned on me more of another factor that really sucks about this is how reploid society itself is ALSO unexplored.

We hardly have any idea of what makes them different from humans, we can only grasp basic details from what the games provide us but it’s unclear if there society is either “very much identical to humans but still has changes to make it different given their machines” or “completely different down to how they live and are treated”. I can’t speak for every robot media ever as I haven’t consumed them all-that’s a impossible task as some are bound to not interest me lol-but I feel like ones that are primarily having sentient robots and multiple of them rather then stuff like mechas where they don’t have much of a personality (usually) or the cases like Aigis in P3 where she is a robot in a mostly human society and therefore learns to become more human, they usually try to give the robots some kind of established society but MM only gives us breadcrumbs.

Like I know transformers is a bigger series so it got more chances to be incredibly fleshed out but I think about how my friends had told me about it and it’s society from just the comics is incredibly detailed that you even know they have religions n shit. And I’m not saying MM has to go to that extent even if it’s had metaphors of that in the later series, but more context to what reploid society has and doesn’t would be nice.

If they actually do need to eat and we aren’t supposed to guess that the energy tanks n stuff are there equivalent, if they ever got to have hobbies or jobs besides serving under humans especially when they have free will, etc. More of how they operate would be really nice to know but alas much like many things in this series lore it’s never going to be deeply elaborated on so I have to throw darts at a board.

#meg text #mega man #lore rambles #I hate how much I rotate this shit because the main issue with mega man world building is the game formate #and not because it’s a platformer because I hate that take that platformers can’t have stories they can #but it’s rather how it’s so non linear and while that makes it’s identity it really hurts a lot of story potential #even if Z/ZX worked around it well there still was issues (and also barely any room for world building) #Also hate to be a nerd but it’s disappointing to see how this is handle when you see what MM is influenced by #I’ve only seen kikaider still but wow despite the fact it took a similar route to Aigis it was clear how robots are seen #I know it takes from old anime and anime as a medium gets more advantages but I wish it could do more #once again sad the platformers did not get animes because the world building would’ve benefited from it #oh and this comes to mind because I’ve been writing MM stuff again (kinda) and reploids get mentioned a bit #even if I’m in ZX where they’re basically human a lot of the past is still touched in what I’m working on #and I wish I had more context other then “uhhh I guess they just became more human over time?”

[chilapis]

Last post before I crash and no-one hears from me until I return from my first final the morrow’s eve (a changed man no doubt) but there’ll never be anything funnier to me than consistently being viewed as a composed and calm saviour by peers while I’m, actively and uncontrollably losing it.

#not said sarcastically or as a vent by the way I genuinely find it so terribly amusing. you think I have it together ? aw <3 you fool. #i’ve been pacing around my room like a starving lion since the past week in whatever free time i’ve had. #and i keep getting people in my messages begging me for last minute help ? which is endearing but. i’m hanging on for dear life myself #helping isn’t foreign to me; i have 4 (?) people in my class who almost exclusively refer to me as ma’am and even refer to me as a teacher. #but helping last minute is so. deeply chaotic. #and I have this issue with me where having others around me makes me immediately drop into a ‘role’ of sorts? #i’ll be freaking out but then someone else starts freaking out around me and my immediate response is to just. #hey. we are going to make it out of this. it’s easy as pie. do you see me worried? no right? <- on the verge of hyperventilating #there’s this one guy in particular who got so excited to find out we have the exact same examination set-up tomorrow. #i gave him like basic pointers and i don’t think i’ve ever been thanked so earnestly and desperately in my life. #i remember during mocks my friends would message me what I wrote in questions and then they’d immediately go oh thank Fuck. #they’d literally just act like they’re absolutely going to pass now just because we had points ​in common. #as if i’m some sort of fucked up correct answer sheet incarnate. #it’s genuinely really sweet to me though; like i’m not posting this ranting or such. #having so much faith in another to the point that you can put yourself completely at ease says. alot i think. #and i’m glad i can be that person for so many. #and I feel like it helps me in a way too because i become so concerned with others that I forget to drown myself in my worries. #i forget that I’m worried because there are others to care about and console and help. so i suppose they help me in a way as well. #but also who is going to be that person for ME. who is going to console ME. im going fucking neurotic /jest #<- woman with ego issues & control issues who would rather die than accept help. #sigh. oh well. I’m sure we’ll do just fine. cannot wait #🥀🍷 — colloquy.

[age-of-moonknight]

House of M: Avengers (Vol. 1/2007), #5.

Writer: Christos N. Gage; Penciler: Mike Perkins; Inker: Andrew Hennessy; Colorist: Raul Trevino; Letterer: Rus Wooton

#Marvel #Marvel comics #Marvel 58163 #House of M: Avengers #Moon Knight comics #Moon Knight #Marc Spector #Iron Fist #Danny Rand #I guess I wanted to give these panels their own post because there’s just….something about them I wanted to discuss more #this is diving dangerously close to «personal opinion» territory (so please feel free to ignore all that follows) #but I guess I just wish this point had been developed a bit more because for the past 5 issues Marc’s refused to change because the cowl’s #«spiritual significant» to him and I’m (again personally) of the idea that something that important to someone is not easily foregone #idk this is probably stemming more from the long conversations I’ve had about «when outward displays of faith become dangerous #when should you start changing what you do? Should you ever? Is it a greater show of faith to continue on despite the danger? #Do you only practice in secret? Or is doing whatever you must to survive a greater show of endurance #living and working to make the necessary changes within the system so that one day you might be able to practice openly in peace?» #sorry for getting philosophical and sorry for being perhaps unfair to a friggin comic book particularly for a minor character #but I’m feeling a little uncharitable because I was dodging violence against women/close up shots of women’s rears this entire series #(if this post looks a little weirdly cropped it’s because I chose to exclude the panel where unlike what Danny + Marc get here #there’s a very male-gaze look at Angela and Felicia undressing) #and again! (at least on that second point because that might have been entirely Perkins’ doing) I might be being a little unfair #but that sort of content doesn’t inspire me to believe that the creators were asking complex questions when they had Marc hang up his #spiritually significant hood but maybe were thinking things like «is spirituality really /that/ significant compared to tactical efficacy?» #something that…gets me when about a guy who has demonstrated that spirituality is uniquely/complexly important to him #anyway this is entirely my opinion on something that is very much up to reader interpretation so please ignore me rambling #(and quite possibly simply blowing things completely out of proportion) in the tags hahaha

[barnespls]

Still going through and posting my older Apex art… the hypebeast skins get me <3

#miroctane #apex #apex fanart #apex legends #mirage #octane #so I’ve had issues with tumblr and my art in the past so I’m hoping posting it now will actually yknow… stick #this one was one of my faves though

[soulsxng]

I’ve got more additions to the picture offerings, I had to do some emergency maintenance on my desktop real quick. So gimme like…ten more minutes and I’ll be back for that and some writing!

#[what is she getting us into now? -ooc-] #it’s been giving me some graphics card related issues the past few days and I’ve been too lazy to fix it #and then right after I posted that thing for Jas and JJ (Or Lir and Jai anyway) #it caused some other stuff to completely crash #so due to my own laziness I now have to fix more than what I would originally have had to in the first place 🙃 #anyway it shouldn’t take me too much longer!

[d0d0-b0i]

it’s weird how much lighter my life feels now. not that i don’t have any issues (because there are many in my life, as i am sure there are in yours), but they’re just so much more manageable than they were a year ago.

​what’s more; i love myself now. i may not be perfect. but i am trying my best, and i can tell that i am! i see myself in the mirror, and sometimes i just examine myself, and my features, and i smile. i feel so much more authentic when talking to people, not worrying about how they view me, because i don’t have to anymore. i wish i could’ve told 15-year old me just how good it’s gotten so far, i know that he would’ve loved hearing about the shitty sideburns we’re growing out right now :’)

#it gets better :) #i used to think that transitioning medically wouldn’t lessen the sadness and depression i felt #and to some degree it is still there since t isn’t a cure all #but by the gods it is so much fucking easier to deal with everything #when a major reason for my mental health being the way it was has been abated #it’s like the fog cleared enough for me to actually see the road i’m driving on #instead of assuming blindly that i won’t crash #once i get top surgery. #idk. i wonder if things will be even easier? #i’m almost a year in and already my life feels so much brighter. yeah there’s problems with keeping the house. and yeah #i don’t have an income yet and i don’t know if the internship will even be in the cards for me #but. i just feel that everything will work out. enough for me to enjoy the time i have here :) #sorry i am being sappy but god! i love and i love! so much now!! i feel so much and i enjoy nearly every day despite the Issues #the world is getting worse but still i find reasons to love and live #so maybe one day it will get better? maybe one day my love will have helped even #if you’re reading. i love you. even if you’re just a follower #even if we’re mutuals that haven’t talked before #i think about you often. i wonder where my oldest mutual went after they stopped posting years ago #i don’t think i can forget. and i love you. and i wish i. could give you a hug. we all need one from time to time #i love the friends i’ve made and the friends i’ve had. i love. and this past year has opened up my floodgates of emotion

[bookwyrminspiration]

HATE when I get asked a question I know the answer to but I can’t process it fast enough to respond to it it makes me feel like such an idiot

#shitpost #auditory processing issues #the SIMPLEST fucking question too #it’s getting to me more because it’s the end of tbe first week of school #so I’ve had a lot going on compared to the past month #so I need to like. stim an acclimate #but GOD #i swear I know my stuff I just need a couple extra seconds to process the question

[lesbiansanemi]

I think… I have figured out the reason I never get gendered as a guy anymore and it’s making me have…. A lot of really complex feelings

#most of my life I’ve been VERY androgynous #and ever since I cut off all of my hair when I was 16 and started dressing in men’s clothes #I tended to get gendered as a man or woman p equally by strangers #(until I talked because my voice tends to be a give away which is a whole other thing I have Thoughts about but that’s a different issue) #but in the past oh… idk… six months or so? I literally NEVER get gendered as a guy #it has happened ONCE #like sure ppl will ask for my pronouns but I know that’s just cuz I look like stereotypical genderqueer afab person #it’s not cuz they can’t tell what my gender is… #and I’ve been wondering what’s so different. why don’t I ever get gendered as a man anymore #I haven’t changed how I dress I still have a masculine haircut most of the time my facial features obviously haven’t changed #SO WHAT DID #I… I’ve figured it out…. #I’ve gained weight. but only in my hips and thighs #all my pants that I’ve had for YEARS are suddenly too tight and too small around my hips and thighs #I’ve NEVER had curves anywhere before I was always stuck straight and now… I do #and like part of me wants to be happy. I’m gaining weight!!! I’ve always been so horrendously underweight #and I’ve battled severe disordered eating for so long that was the cause #this past year I’ve actually very steadily been eating three meals a day instead of one #I can eat whole portions without getting sick #and I’m really proud of myself for that like I’m def not upset I’m gaining weight #it’s just. it’s just that it’s literally all in my hips and thighs #and it’s giving me a more feminine figure which I’ve NEVER had before #and I know your body goes through more changes in your twenties and that’s probably part of it too #it’s just. I don’t want this. I don’t like this. #I haven’t felt genuinely dysphoric in a long time and now I want to crawl out of my skin whenever I look in a full body mirror #cuz I see it now. I see the change. and I just. do Not fucking Like It #but I can’t do anything about it 😭 #and idk what to do #ugh #kaz rambles

[shima-draws]

Tfw you’ve got a weird dental thing going on and you’re not sure if you need to go see a dentist IMMEDIATELY bc it’s an emergency or if it’s just a little thing that’ll go away on its own and you can wait another two months for your next dentist appointment

#Hmm. HMMMM #Shima speaks #Good news is it doesn’t hurt. Which is a good sign #I think there’s some weird jaw shifting going around in there. #I don’t wanna go too into detail in case it grosses people out lol but #I’ve got a weird bump on my gums and it’s like. Hard. Like there might be bone under there or smth #It doesn’t hurt like I said. It might disappear within the next few days who knows! #Or it could be a tooth trying to poke out down there. Hell if I know WHY tho #Anyway it’s weird and it bugs me and I’m a little concerned but again I’m not in pain so. Not an emergency (yet)? #🤔🤔🤔 #I’ve had so many dental issues in the past like YEAR and I’m just. Bro why. Stop that #I take very good care of my teeth! My mouth just hates me!!

[eredins-a-king-aint-he]

Right, I’ve made an 18+ discord server specifically for witcher book/games fans— but I’m currently in NYC for a few days, so I’m not gonna open it at all until I get home. Reply on this or send me a message if you’re interested tho so I can keep track.

It’s gonna be kinda a tight ship bc I’m old and tired and have no energy for bullshit, so be forewarned. As long as you’re down to be respectful and polite then we’ll get along fine👍🏼

#cedar rambles #discord #the witcher 3 #the witcher #the rules are long but it’s all stuff I’ve had issues with in the past #tentatively accepting people I don’t know but y’all better behave #there are so many other servers to kick off in #hundreds of them I bet #if you don’t like my rules please feel free to make your own server #they’re all perfectly reasonable tbh some people just aren’t reasonable these days lmao #anyway if you’ve got reservations after checking it out my dms should be open

[no1ryomafan]

My brain has gone back and forth on between which anime if arma or new is my favorite. Cause even with all its issues Arma means a lot to me, it’s the reason I got into getter and helped me through one of the worst times of my life- But then new is objectively better written and it drives me nuts compared to arma it’s not talked about ENOUGH despite all the stuff you can poke at from it’s plot and I’m trying to pinpoint that reason since the general consensus is “no one hates new and it gets a lot of fanart in the Japanese community yet it’s never deeply acknowledged so it feels unpopular”

So my standpoint is “do I keep investing into the popular iteration despite its issues or do I invested into the less flawed unpopular iteration when it comes to introducing getter to new people?” cause man as much as I’m a critical person of media I still can forgive some messy writing if I have a good time with it and can clearly tell the staff had fun making it, which is definitely armas case. (Though they absolutely had fun with new too)

#meg text #getter robo #this general philosophy I have is why im not harshly critical on SVN next to “I think it fulfills it’s purpose” #and a few other mechas I’ve seen but not gonna tag because I don’t wanna put them in their tag when this is just getter #I was tempted to make a post asking about what people don’t find appealing about new but it be on twit and blegh #I’d ask it here and if anyone has input feel FREE to put but my following is way to small to generate the feedback I want #but on Twitter people are dumb and I’m not taking the “new has bad animation” take any longer bc it’s cherry picked #next to “we all know this is better animation then arc LOL” even if that whole debate as stupid #but past that point I’m trying to understand what people don’t like to find new unappealing when it’s flaws aren’t turn offs #like Musashibo not having a proper character arc and the villains not being consistent is a big one but doesn’t make the show bad #especially because there’s still good from those issues being Musashibo still a fun character and the villains don’t ruin the pacing #you could maybe make the argument new starts off slow but also all of the introduction episodes are engaging?? #there’s not a single thing about new-let alone getter when it’s paced right-that feels sluggish #Also for a 13 ep show picking up in the middle makes the MOST sense in comparison to a longer ep series #the middle is when shit hits the fan tbh #im gonna be at war until I hear someone’s in depth opinion but I just WANNA figure out what turns off people from new #cause when I also watched it in a group I had irls drop out of it midway through but I could chalk it up to they weren’t huge on mecha #Even if I argue new is the PERFECT mecha show to recommend to someone who’s skeptical of the genre but I digress

[seagull-scribbles]

COPICat COPIKit

#sth #kit the fennec #kitsunami the fennec #was experimenting with some copicat marker textures I’ve had for the past two years #just for a warm up but it came out alright so here it is #I really love kit and issue 50 hadn’t changed that #so it was nice to doodle him a little before I get back to Comissions #sonic idw #idw sonic