#I'm so happy I could go there again!

[pinenappo]

Thank you Tales of Festival 2023 for a tree boy and his bouquet of plants 😭👌

#I'm so happy I could go there again! #Literally teared up seeing Rays' DotNW announcement on the big screen in Yokohama Arena #Truly an experience I'll never forget 😭 #Emil Castagnier #Tales of Symphonia #Dawn of the New World #Knight of Ratatosk #ToS:DotNW #Nappo Posts #Nappo Draws #PineNAPPO

[sysig]

Permission to headbutt: Granted (Patreon)

#My art #UT #Sans #Papyrus #Ft. something smol and I do on a regular basis ♪ #This could be Handplates or it could be classic Undertale I leave that up to you lol #I definitely picked up a lot of the style quirks lol - but there are some of the ones that I like myself! Like Papyrus' darkmode clothes lol #And Sans' shorts having the stripe in the front haha - little details ♫ #Realistically it probably is Handplates tho just based on where my head's at lol - I love the Handplates dynamic :D #Handplates #I talked myself into it! Pfft ♪ #I found myself relating a lot to Sans especially while rereading - I want nothing more in the world than for my siblings to be happy! <3 #So I gathered up a bunch of ideas of things especially me and smol do together and this was the most obviously cute one haha #Easiest to do! Tho I did still go a little extra on this lol #I'm trying to do more digital stuff ♪ It wasn't the best art day and I'm still a little nervous to jump right in :') #Not doing any sketches on paper beforehand feels weird but I guess it is thematic in a way lol #And I'm still pleased with how they turned out hehe #It really does feel nice to be drawing them again <3 #And doing silly sibling things! Hehe #I dunno how clear it is since it's so ingrained into how smol and I talk to each other lol family language! #One of us will literally just announce ''bonk'' and the other will prepare for/lean in for a headbutt haha #She is a tiny bit taller than me - it's not quite /this/ extreme but she does lean down for me! S'cute <3 #I like to think Papyrus would do the same hehe ♪ Let your lazy brother headbutt you! He can only reach so far! #On minimal effort anyhow hehe #It's just a fun way to be silly together ♫♪ #Also yes I did show this to her and she cosigned lol - ''Cute'' -smol

[tasogareta]

haikyuu new year's illustration by matsunaka susumu, director of the upcoming film

#haikyuu!! #happy new year #i'm actually starting the new year while in the midst of rereading haikyuu in japanese #spent my september rereading the entire series and a couple of days ago... felt the itch to do so again lmao #but doing it in japanese this time #never thought i'd reach the point where i could do that comfortably but here we are 🤗 #and while it really hasn't been long since my last reread i am so invested again #haikyuu ilysm #tried going through the haikyuu tag to see if this was posted already and man is it ever an ordeal to do so #i gotta start blocking those x reader fantasies and whatnot posts more extensively lmao #ハイキュー!!

[ricksoo]

For once, actually it's only been the 2nd time but-

I've remembered it this time...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY @xxtc-96xx ! YEAAA 🎉

It's a new age cycle for you to experience more events ahead of you! (Especially your birthday celebration lmao)

Seriously though, your Mew/Mewtwo drawing makes my day everytime when I take a look at it... 😭

Please keep making Mew/Mewtwo drawings, they're the reason I don't feel as depressed 😂

Oh yea and uh

Thanks for creating THAT Green Bean Xd

Here's a lil drawing that I've made, can't really find any suitable reference other than your pokemon trainer character ^^' (Ft. Mega Huey)

Hope you liked it ^^

#Idk why but I'm nervous posting this #Normally I would post this before going to bed so that I could worry less :P #Again... happy birthday TC. Hope you have a great day during your birthday! #mewtwo #mewtwo oc #xxtc-96xx #This is my first time actually drawing a humanoid character AND a mega mewtwo #Honestly? I'm happy with the results!

[loserbigsis]

In retrospect i think a lot of my aversion to people hitting on me unprompted or right away or getting a little "too friendly" too fast has less to do with actual discomfort with that kind of attention and is more of a trauma response to having been used, abused and instantly thrown away by so many people. I myself am extremely forward and flirtatious when i like someone and don't think it will make them uncomfortable, and when it comes down to it i don't think i dislike receiving that kind of attention in kind.. i just have gotten used to it always being about surface level sexuality for them, it being less about me as a person and more as a freak that can fulfill whatever taboo kink they otherwise can't engage with, and it's never about that for me (because y'know... being an ace autist lol) it's always about feelings and emotional connection and i think that for some reason scares people as much as i dislike being approached purely as a sexual object. I think i would have been better able to fit into this environment of casual and friendly sexual/intimate interaction if i hadn't had so many people take complete advantage of how willing i was to give that and fulfill that role in exchange for basic human kindness and interaction at such an early age..

#lamentations of chava #rant #i feel like i got hurt so bad and so many times way way too early (starting at 6 years old...) in this specific way #that it broke something in me #and now i don't feel like i can't trust other people even when they genuinely mean well #and that i can't trust myself for wanting to open up again knowing i'll probably just get hurt again #i wish i could just go back and be the carefree happy gender euphoric girl i used to be #but i can't #and i think i'm the one who killed that girl #most days i just feel like the ghost inhabiting her grotesque corpse ..

[gideonisms]

I made my eldritch monster girl mad hope I die (she ate me ♥️)

#slay the princess #i'm sooo tempted to go back and see if i could have picked a different option that would have made her happy jgjhjj #i just wanna see her in the void again ♥️ #she was so sweet #anyway no spoilers please i'm not done with the game!! i have been busy this week

[forestofsprites]

in such a kiss everyone on the lips and cradle them gently sort of a mood

#im so sorry for going on #it's just such a win #it's an ending to the year that i could never have predicted #i really Really didn't think i was making it out of april i really didn't #and i know i've gone on but i was so sure i'd die with so much unfinished and incomplete #by the Bad Day all i was really thinking about was waking up the next morning and yelling i love you at everyone i've ever loved #but before that it was the fear and the sense of loss for what i never did or had or whatever #to be where i am right now? to have had a day like today? #it's beyond anything i could have ever hoped for #i don't know when my health will turn again. or how this cancer thing or tachycardia thing will play out #but right now i'm just so !!! fuck i'm everything ever #i'm so intensely happy #and fuck- a glass of orange juice makes me happy #so this is #just wonderful #it means i can afford to do a masters. and have the time- probably- to do it part time #it's beyond a gift #i'm so fucking happy #so happy to be here for it

[lady-a-stuff]

I finished writing the book I've been writing for four years and I'm so proud and also thinking everything is shit and confusing but I FINISHED and it the feeling it's like I just eat my favorite food and I have all these neurotransmitters telling me I'm happy

#i have the need to go through it all again and edit cause i feel like it's pire crap but i'm so happy i finished #i never thought i could finish something ever #lady a speaks now*

[muninnhuginn]

li tianxi blaming herself for her parents not divorcing and because they don't things escalate past boiling point. blaming herself in the first place for the tensions between them because she has needs and not everyone is willing to try and meet her with them. li tianxi choosing to look away and not say what she sees anymore so this won't repeat. but in the process just ending up enabling tianchen as he spirals down and down.

li tianchen blaming himself because he wanted to fix things for his mum and do what she couldn't but instead he gets her dead. and tianchen just wants to protect tianxi like he failed to protect his mum but he doesn't try to actually *understand* her. so instead his efforts eventually drive her away because there's only so much she's willing to take. she didn't want to be 'protected' like this.

they've both lost their parents and tianxi doesn't want anyone to suffer as she has whilst tianchen wants everyone else to suffer as he has. everyone except tianxi.

wanting to protect someone but not giving them the agency in the decision. in whether they even want to be 'protected' in this way.

#me as always linking it back to the shiguang dynamic with that last sentence huh #link click #link click spoilers #sth again about cycles of abuse. tianxi the eternal victim. tianchen the victim at first but needing the control to never be a victim again #calling it 'hunter' bc that's what he's been told and it's what he clings to bc if not he's just another wild hurt beast #I don't know how much is intentional but the way that the twins' roles are gendered is kinda interesting? #not totally sure if I'm a fan (esp w/ what happened to ltx) but I can see what I think it's getting at #when they had ltc refusing the phone call bc 'no one in the family is mentally ill' + qj's arc having those toxic masculinity vibes #qj taking the role that li fan originally held so even when the twins escape they never actually do. they're held in these roles. #also. it's interesting that ltx was always considered disabled before anything else happened. + then the mutism was the trauma response. #like. her very existence she felt was the cause of tension and she had that knowledge but wanted them to stay as this happy family #that probably never even existed. + like I said not a huge fan of how her chara was treated but she represented hope for a reason #she had that hope within her back then and held onto it until now. it could only die with her. and that's why tianchen lets go. #shiguang daili ren spoilers

[ageless-aislynn]

Doctor Who "The Giggle" spoilers

It took 15 years but finally, finally, the awful pain inflicted by DW s4x13 "Journey's End" was healed in my fangirl heart. I'm not even saying that facetiously, my friends. Donna's ending in s4 hurt. The fact that here in the year 2023, Donna not only got her memory back, but she got the Doctor back? And the Doctor finally stopped running? And he found a home, found a family, and it's with Donna?

I can hardly believe it.

It took so very long but they got the happy ending they were denied back in 2008. I can't even tell you how happy I am right now. 🤗💖

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #dw spoilers #spoilers #okay yeah if you knew me in my dw days then you know i'm a ten x donna shipper #but this ending is just SO much better than how they were left previously #i don't even care that it wasn't left as them in a romantic relationship #he's HAPPY #she's HAPPY #they're together #they have a family #they love each other #that's just so much more than we had previously #her without her memory sent back to how she was when we first met her #him standing in the rain running away alone yet again #and then look at them now #this was a gift i never expected #i honestly thought he'd just regenerate and she's go off with her family and that was as 'happy' as we could expect #but they're together and they're happy and i just appreciate that so very much #my bbs are happy #i'm so glad #i wish i could let 2008!me know that they were actually going to fix it in canon #i would've never believed it #ageless aislynn

[todayisafridaynight]

it only took one look

#rgg #rggo #ryu ga gotoku #ryu ga gotoku 3 #ryu ga gotoku online #yakuza series #yakuza 3 #daigo dojima #yoshitaka mine #minedai #snap sketches #i dont even like this tbh !!!!! #i dont hate it im just conflicted on what i could do so i could like it more so im posting it now and leaving it behind #i knew i wasnt going to be totally happy cause i can never commit to wholly colored stuff like this but i had to try #i thought about doing black and white but i just felt like that wouldnt hit the same- not that i know if this exactly hits but w/e #i was thinkin bout drawing entire rggo stories last night and while i will absolutely not do that i will stil think heavily about it #ive been wanting to draw this scene for a while i could just see it so distinctly in my brain #tho Again idk how i feel bout my execution but W/e W/e i'm happy enough #also i just wanted to quote a song hehe #ok bye

[sysig]

Just a bit indulgent, no harm in it, surely (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #DAX #A bit of scene a bit of speculation silliness and another song! Yay! :D #Gods their casual possessiveness of each other Straight Up Kills Me <3 <3 #And ZEX doesn't even just stop at ''his [title]'' he goes for DAX's name too I'm so dead about it ♥ #Holding hands agh they're so cute <3 Reassurance and comfort! #Hehehe I love ZEX just being all ??? about DAX being in Dexter's body - feels weird to be shorter! #Just wait til you find out about these bodies' ages ZEX! Hehehe #ZEX's type strikes again - okay but like?? Max /is/ in there somewhere this is established so is it similarities to Dex?? Is that anything?? #Granted ZEX tends to go even further than that haha but still! Curious :3 #Takes the credit for DAX's body despite already having met Dexter lol yes definitely the case Admiral haha #I fell so hard back into Strawberry Blond agh #I blame the Moomins animatic it's too good I can't help it #Literally just the inverse of Max waking up to look at Dexter - DAX looking at ZEX like he's everything <3 #Wants him so badly! Wants him happy and whole and lovely ♥ #This song could definitely also apply to Dex about Max and into the original meaning of the lyrics in their case - at least partially #Their lives and positions and what it would be mean to be together agh #They're too lovely you know

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[leafy-m]

I got Witch Hat Atelier Kitchen volume 3 a little early and guys.... GUYS!! THIS is what Kitchen in English should be like! 💥💝💖

If you like Orufrey, you have got to get volume 3!

#I don't know if the homophobic supervisor or whoever got moved to another project or what... BUT THANK YOU! 💝💝💝 #FINALLY! SOME GOOD FOOD! #I mean I am still side-eyeing the end of chapter 30 because Olruggio's line Should be about how they're finally living under the same roof. #BUT OH MY GOD what a difference everything else makes #They mention alcohol! They admit the loop chalices are usually for wine!! #The word choices for how delicious the food is is so great! #I'm gonna have to look up wtf the bananas are named after but aside from that!!! #Qifrey and Olruggio can actually say each others names and they're so friggin adorable!!! 😤💝 Mr I can go all day!! #I'm so happy ya'll I can't believe it 😭💝 #I feel so hopeful for volume 4 now #Also I'm half-way wondering if maybe they could revisit the translations for volumes 1 and 2 and maybe release an updated version maybe? #because I would absolutely buy those again if it were less censored and had better word choices. Just putting it out there! ❤ #Like maybe after volume 5 do a box-set with a little bonus item maybe and secretly slide-in the more accurate and better translated version #I'd buy it! I'd be first in line!! #Just sayin! #Witch Hat Atelier Kitchen #Witch Hat Kitchen #Orufrey #Witch Hat Atelier #Also there's some REALLY cute moments with the girls #(I say; as a total afterthought; sorry I'm so transparent lmao) #Jade talks WHA

[juriyuna]

"is shii or kei the one getting cucked?" - the greatest thread in the history of forums, locked by a moderator after 12,239 pages of heated debate,

#edit: whoops i meant to save this as a draft #low-effort shitpost night it is #i have seen people talking about this (not in these exact words) on JP twitter though #on the one hand: you could def read yuu/shii as romantic #which is a little awkward because kei is still technically around and seems to be keeping tabs on yuu #and like... she and yuu essentially promised to meet again in every lifetime #so while kei is physically dead and yuu Could date someone else-- would that count as cheating given their prior commitment? #on the other hand: despite how clingy and affectionate yuu is with shii #yuu is still totally smitten with kei even if she can't remember who kei is anymore #(copying kei's speech mannerisms; going by kei's old nickname for her; remembering that there's A Certain Scent she adores (kei's)) #(... and there's that one homescreen line yuu has about getting the shivers over pretty necks.) #shii was NOT happy when nagisa tried to remind yuu about kei either #which i'm sure was because she was scared that yuu would abandon her if she remembered her past but still #all in all i can see how people are reading this as an unfortunate accidental love triangle lmao #magia record

[softshuji]

Any men out there wanna pretend to be my bf to get my parents off my case about marriage? I am so so serious right now.

#my mom gave me a really really lonf lecture and upset me because her and my dad want me to start thinking about settling down ans getting #married. again. cos this comes up all the time. ans I reiterated that i do wanna marry and have kids. i know im 26 years old why do they' #think im also not aware of this??? like i suddenly forgot my own age and have my head in the clouds all the time. and i got so heated cos i #said they only believe in that in theory. in reality neither of them have accepted the idea od my leaving home or the idea of mw being with #a man. and they start freaking out if they even find out i talk to them so to say they want me to get married is so fucking naive #ans when i mentioned this and that they're more than ok w mt brothers talking tp women she said that if i wanted to settle down she could #talk to dad and they could “go about finding someone for me” and I've never been so pissed #i got so upset. why does everyone keep saying this to me. as if anyone my dad knows could ever be a half decent man #and the truth is they don't care if im in a happy marriage they've accepted that i won't be they only care that im gone and saving face in #front of family. that's all. it's always reputation it's always “what will people say?” #not once did love come up. not once did shw even imply that i should marryfor love #or that they hope i love someone and marry them. because they're more happy with the idea of me marrying for the sake of it than #they are at the idea of me finding genuine lovw #im not a fucking broodmare im not here to push out babies for the sake od reputation. #and then i said nor being married isn't the end of the world and she said “it's important that you settle down” #and i said im unwavering in my principles. she can call mw high maintenance like she loves doing but I'm not wavering on the #kind of man i want to be with and when i do marry him i want it to bw genuine. because be loves me and vice versa not because im ticking off #somethin from a damn checklist to appease them. and if being unwavering on my principles means staying unmarried then so be it. #my obligations are to god and myself and that's it #and y'know what??? i am in love with a boy already #and yet they don't care that i wanna be in love at all. no im just a puppet to follow a certain narrative in life live according to evergone #else has and that's it. #im done. #and then she tried to apologise by getting me a slice of cake and that somehow made me feel worse. #i dont want an apology. i want to be heard and actually listened to for once. i want someone to ask what i want. to actually give a shit #and love me cos it's me. not cos im some thing to further an agenda. or some toy or puppet that does your bidding. #is it so much??? to just want to be loved in return? to marry and live according to how i want to?? ans not want anyone to make these #decision's for me? #ruined my whole day.