#I've have a migraine for hours

[spaciebabie]

2 ibuprofen and dick from that old man would fix me

#spacie spoinks #sorry my demons #my.head hurts #I've have a migraine for hours #god #nsft #I'm going 2 bed so I can sleep for 11 hours (again) #actually I changed my mind I'm not sorry Abt anything #I said what I said

[slashthrashandcrash]

how's your vacation going? are you having fun? :)X

I took an edible last night and it fucking destroyed me in a not fun way. so i'd give this trip a 6/10 right now.

#ask #anon #like listen i have done many a Drug in high school/college this was not my first rodeo #but i have NEVER had such a physical reaction like this??? #just came out swinging after maybe 3 hrs with the WORST vertigo i've ever experienced. had to hug the walls bc i was too dizzy to walk #then spent an hour throwing up #then had a migraine all the way until like 5pm today #i didn't even get a buzz or anything ):<

[ereborne]

Song of the Day: February 23

“Inkpot Gods” by The Amazing Devil

#song of the day #'if I don't make it back from where I've gone / just know I loved you all along' #I'm setting up my queue for a more proper recommendation tomorrow but I've been rereading 'shoulder the sky' by Night_Fury #the whole series draws from various Amazing Devil lines for titles and such #'back then I was dauntless' is my favorite reworking of the Melidaan arc I've ever seen absolutely anywhere #and the title is a line from my favorite Amazing Devil song 'The Calling' but 'Inkpot Gods' is used to stunning effect in-story #and the beautiful refrain from the end of the song is playing in my head now as I keep going into the series #today was a deeply unpleasant day: the inevitable finally happened and Duncan cut himself doing his mudlarking #we'd been trying to schedule a preventative tetanus shot but several times we've gone in for the properly scheduled shot #and found out that they didn't actually have one in stock. unspeakably frustrating #and today we ran out of time for a preventative one. I woke up #(actually I woke up for work as he was going out for his walk but I got a migraine halfway through my morning meeting--no good-- #and took the rest of the day off--turns out to have been a very good thing--and went back to sleep. so I woke up the second time) #to Duncan coming back from his walk with a sliced finger and the grody plastic-and-tin swan that had done the slicing #(picture of said swan under the cut because why not. it does look neat. can't see the sharp edge in the pic though it's underneath) #and so then we called the pharmacy and got the same automated 'of course you can have a tetanus shot' as ever so we made an appointment #and we got there and they did actually have a shot in stock this time! except that they weren't able to administer it #because now he's post-exposure that's a different shot and they aren't allowed. so we had to go to the urgent care instead #all told we spent about four hours out of the house on this mission but Duncan did get his shot and some bonus antibiotic goo for the cut #and it was worth it but also bleeeeeeegh it was miserable. which is where my recommendations do come in #when I tell y'all that I spent today reading Night_Fury's fics and also looking at valiants' CoD art and it saved me #whooo I mean it. being simultaneously stressed + bored is the nightmare state for me and instead I had wonderful things in my phone

[warningstandbygo]

The great thing about being an Adult is that if you randomly get Extremely Overwhelmed by Existence, no one can stop you from going into your closet in your bedroom with your laptop, changing into a onesie, and sitting in the dark quiet enclosed space all by yourself (even though you're the only one here because your spouse isn't home from work yet).

#my favorite part being that I had a really good chill therapy session today because things have been on the whole pretty good this past week #and then I swear it was like someone just dropped a giant DOOM blanket over my head an hour later #went from having a chill convo with friends to being pretty sure they all hate me #(or at best that I was just being annoying and unhelpful and unwanted in said conversation) #nearly had a small meltdown about the fact that one of the horses got wet *before* I got outside to put him in his sheet #and then it just kept spiraling from there #one of the hay nets needs to be repaired AGAIN and I'm almost in frustrated tears just remembering that #I was supposed to refill my pill boxes after work #but then I ended up having to work late after therapy so I haven't done that #or anything else productive #I was going to try and make soup tonight but that sounds super overwhelming now #so anyway fuck this storm that rolled in about an hour and a half ago #gonna go get some rescue meds for my anxiety now that i've remembered that those exist #and some other meds for what I assume is a continuing to brew migraine #and see if I can remember how to be A Human before my spouse gets home

[battywitch]

🤕

#I'm on like hour 15ish of this migraine and nothing has helped #I'm slowly checking off as many things as i can so when i get in to see a doctor specifically about treating my migraines #i can be like ''yeah I've tried all these lifestyle changes and other medical stuff that was within my control (like new lenses)'' #and maybe ''can we please do some tests and figure out a treatment plan now'' #i am so fucking tired 😭 #i did manage to sleep a bit but i dreamed i was having a migraine and woke up with it just as intense as last night #(it's normal for mine to last 18+ hours but I've had a migraine almost every day this year so far and I'm Done)

[caramel-catss]

i played skyward sword for three hours straight just now. dizzy kirby emoji

#it's been a while since i've played a game that long without taking a break #usually i get a migraine before i get past two hours #knock on wood #did a bunch of side quests #why am i giving fledge steroids #i also wrote 1k words earlier so #productive day i guess ? #been debating if i should post this fic or wait to write more chapters first #right now i have chapter 1 and part of chapter 2 done #but goddess knows i lose motivation FAST #maybe i'll finish 2 and 3 and then start posting stuff. no schedule

[windwardstar]

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Not everyone who needs an image description uses a screen reader! I don't! (And can't, given my brain does not like processing sounds!)

I also can't read the bottom image! (And since when you click on the alt text box to view the image description and get exactly what is in the screen shot, I hope you can see why if I can't view the image, the alt id is exactly as inaccessible as the image.)

ALSO, when you click on the ALT TEXT to highlight it so you can copy-paste it into a word document in order to get plain text, as soon as you release your cursor, the site brings up the image as if you clicked on it rather than allowing you to copy paste the text! (Aka: you cannot copy-paste ALT TEXT so you can paste it into a format that is visually accessible, but also, I shouldn't have to keep a word doc open to copy paste image descriptions to make them accessible in the first place.)

My eyes do not like dark mode. It turns all those white letters into blurry halos of light, and then it makes it so I can't read anything else after because black text then turns to shadowy smears.

Like just. use PLAIN TEXT. Plain text. Nothing fancy. nothing that can't be changed by the user's theme and can't be copy-pasted and turned into whatever format a person needs in order for the text to be accessible for their specific needs.

#guess i'm doing the theme comparisons today because i've got an hour to kill and already have a migraine so i don't have to worry about it #it giving me one

[jamiebluewind]

My friend @winterpower98 is going to school to become an ASL interpreter, so we've been practicing together for a few months. I mostly just checked her signing and didn't sign myself because I was slower and didn't want to take up her valuable practice time clumsily trying to sign. Still, I intend to learn if for nothing else than having a way to communicate when I had a migraine.

Then I got sick.

I'm honestly not sure what's wrong with me, but in early January, I got a bad cough, asthma issues, and other various NASTY symptoms (leaving out to not get too tmi). The symptoms got worse quickly and I ended up at doctors and urgent cares and ERs. They found that I didn't have any of the major contagious things, but still my lungs were crap, my voice was nearly gone (just a whisper), and I was badly malnourished and dehydrated. One very scary phone call from a relative and two days of forcing my raw voice to work well enough to talk to police and relatives later, I lost my voice completely (save for little squeaks and rumbles). That was six weeks ago.

Winter and I didn't practice ASL the first two or three weeks I was sick (and I was honestly in no shape to do it anyway). Being mute was... okay at first. Annoying but manageable. But then as time went on, it got ROUGH. Being trapped in my own head and unable to convey things in real time took a toll on my mental health that I honestly wasn't expecting. Imaging being unable to even laugh or make frustrated noises or make sounds when you're crying hard and having a panic attack? It was hell! I couldn't got to therapy, see a doctor by myself (had to write a script for whomever came with me), contact services and doctors that didn't have messaging/email (they'd call back anyway despite me saying that I was completely unable to talk), tell people what I needed during a panic attack or sensory overload, or get my intrusive thoughts out (I say the out loud and work through them to see they aren't logical). When one doctor got really frustrated with me and proceeded to insult and lecture me for a solid 30 minutes (in front of my other friend who got very close to losing her temper), there was no way to report it because I had to CALL to place a complaint. I was limited to typing on my phone when I needed to communicate and even THAT was slow and not always possible (can't type during a coughing fit or if I had to leave my phone charging). Getting people's attention to notice me or read a message was also difficult, so I had to sit quietly AND patiently AND ignored so much of the time that I eventually broke down crying.

Eventually, I started doing a little ASL again. I wasn't expecting how hard it would be to sign things when I had only watched before. My movements were slow and clunky, sometimes I did the wrong sign, and I could only "talk" to one person, but the growing pains were worth the feeling of ACTUALLY communicating again. It's only been a few weeks, but I can already express my emotions/frustration and convey simple concepts during a conversation (instead of typing and having the conversation move on before I finish or just not feeling like my words were worth the effort on top of breaking the flow of a conversation). Yesterday, my bestie/roommate decided to start practicing the ASL alphabet and asked for a list of words I used the most so she could understand me too.

ASL has giving me back some of my autonomy. With a few signs and some finderspelling, I was able to tell Winter that I needed to eat, wanted leftovers, there was a bowl in the fridge, and to please add water (easier to swallow with my irritated throat). I can ask how people are, tell them how I'm doing, or just be a little goofy because I want to (like quoting NADDPOD and telling my friends "fuck you, I love you, eat a rat").

While being unable to talk for 6 weeks (and limited a bit before that) is nothing compared to the experiences of the deaf/Deaf, mute, and nonverbal communities, it made me realize how hard it is to navigate the world when your speech is impaired. It also made me develop a new appreciation for ASL. Originally, learning ASL was a novelty to me that might come in handy when I had a hemiplegic migraine (makes it hard to talk), but it was mostly to help Winter in her studies. Now it just feels... important. Like something more people should learn, be aware of, and accomodate for.

Tldr; Being unable to talk for over 6 weeks (and probably many more weeks after that) made me realize how important being able to communicate is to mental health, how society is not made to accomodate people with limited to no verbal communication ability, why learning ASL is so important, some of the struggles that people with limited to no verbal communication go through, and the fact that I am privileged in a way that I've never considered before.

#sick #sickness #temporarily mute #mute #asl #american sign language #paradigm shift #asthma #isolation #storytime #bluewind talks #sometimes I go nonverbal or get a hemiplegic migraine that makes it difficult to talk #but that's only for a few hours to a couple days #I've also had a constant woo woo throbbing sound in my left ear for years but that's just a thing #what I go through is NOTHING compared to the deaf/Deaf and mute and nonverbal communities #I have other things that require accomodations (like autism and left side weakness) so I ABSOLUTELY know how important they are #I wish this world was more accomodating for all of us #long post #rambles

[desperatepleasures]

less than a month until I'm allowed to have neurotransmitters again

#like i think I've done this taper as gently as reasonably possible but it's still like. #wildly evident every single day that i am not working with a full toolbox here #I'm like a shopping cart that seems fine at first but then you go to turn it and whoops one of the wheels was wonky this whole time #we are just over three weeks away from the allergist appt i had to do this taper for #(curse my migraine meds for having antihistamines) #and then i can start being medicated again omg...can you imagine #and then a while after that hopefully i can get on adhd meds. sigh #my health has been a long fucking journey i can really see why i ignored these problems for years #but we are making progress!! #doth oversharing hour

[seokmattchuus]

Every time a man opens their mouth, I realize I'll never be able to be in a relationship again.

Why would I want to deal with something like that when I can have my silly little delusions about men that have yet to disappoint me

#dumb fuck ted talk #the real ones just suck #aint no butterflies all i'm getting is a migraine and homicidal thoughts #gOd why do they suck so bad #ignore me work was just ass #and i need sleep but the sleep isn't needing me because i've been in bed for an hour and nothing's happened #someone kill me #run me over #put me out of my misery #pretty please #you can have all my albums #even the posters #just don't take the photocards. i gotta be buried with them bitches they were expensive

[the-yearning-astronaut]

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#nothing like ending a long day at a NASA visitor center with an hour long bloody nose #felt it start up while i had an armful of merch from the gift shop #luckily i had a mask on and a pack of tissues in my bag. so i dropped my stuff and sped walked to the nearest bathroom #which was in the other side of the building lmao #haven't had a nose bleed that bad in a long time #at least since early this year #couldn't tear off tp fast enough and every time i pulled it out my nose would empty like a faucet #absolutely distressing let me tell ya #now ive got the start of a migraine and some serious fatigue #but I've got some great friends that helped me out and offered support #i probably would have cried for a lot longer than i did if it weren't for them lol #anyway mb sc chap3 was released today and i wasn't going to read it but now i am #as a treat to myself #☉ #fox thoughts

[manasurge]

Lol I've been literally too tired to function today. I spent the entire day just trying to "wake up", but I'm still just as tired right now as I was when I woke up this morning (and is why I haven't been super active or capable enough to interact, despite how hard I've been trying). How does anyone function this time of year?! (at least on my side of the globe). I even had a nap today and it didn't help (in fact, it made me more tired). I've had no ability to concentrate and no energy whatsoever 😔

#i'm literally SO sapped of energy and sleepy it's insane #like ALL DAY sjflsjsf #why must my body suck so bad when there isn't enough sunlight??? #I REALLY hope I'm a bit more alive tomorrow bc I don't wanna waste my days off unable to do the things I like before I'm back at work again #- cuz that is SO incredibly demoralizing and just makes the depression an even worse negative feedback loop #please I hope I'm more awake tomorrow; I am on my hands and knees begging to the universe #but I've inevitably lost the battle today and am gonna give up just go to bed; ugh :/ #like imagine you had to wake up at an ungodly hour while only getting a few hours/no sleep; that's how I've felt all day #worst part is is that when I get like this I get even more sensitive to things like sound and light and I have to be careful to not trigger #- migraines (almost got one today but narrowly avoided it)

[thethingything]

okay apparently ou brain's decided to fixate on medical trauma stuff and now I'm dreading the appointment and aftermath. awesome /s

I feel like there's been a recurring thing lately of us waking up, being reminded of something trauma related, and then having to spend a few hours dealing with that, at which point we're dissociated and exhausted and then it's hard to do much else

#personal #thoughts #🍬 post #vent post #I've been awake for 2 hours and I've already cried and almost had a panic attack #and when we woke up our migraine had cleared up but now we have another one 😒 #our brain feels so fuzzy and weird and I'm trying to get it to calm down and stop feeling like we're in danger #so I guess today's just gonna be one of those fucking days but that's been the case for a lot of days recently anyway #I feel like I've been complaining a lot but like... jesus fucking christ I need a break from everything

[asinglesock]

sitting in the library actively dying of person next to me turned on his desk lamp and is making typing sounds

#a sock speaks #I've probably got a migraine but I only have 3 hours till this writing assignment is due so I don't have time to go home first

[criscura]

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#i kind of fucking hate myself right now #i cannot force myself to do the things i need to do #i can't make myself get up early #and all the times when i do manage to brute force myself into doing literally anything at a normal time in a normal way #i get sick or so physically/mentally exhausted i can't move or I get a migraine #I'm so fucking tired of my bullshit #i need to just do what i have to do #it shouldn't take me three hours to do laundry or five hours to go to the gym and then resettle myself or three hours to eat #or an hour to do dishes or five hours to make what i promised myself would be something fast #every single day i wake up dreading how I'm going to let myself down for the ten thousandth time #i wake up feeling guilty and go to bed feeling like a fucking failure #I've been so fucking depressed for so long now #and i really was doing better #but then October kicked my fucking ass because i had A COMPLETELY NORMAL AMOUNT OF WEDDINGS FOR THIS SEASON #but also i just kept on getting sick over or getting laid out for days on end #and every fucking thing #EVERY thing #EVERY SINGLE FUCKING THING I DO #EVERY #SINGLE #THING #I #DO #takes me THREE TIMES AS LONG as i expect it to #do you know how absolutely MISERABLY fucking EXHAUSTING it is making plans and crossing off half of them because #apparently #I'm just fucking physically incapable #and i can't force my body to do anything #i just stay up until 7 AM every fucking day because i am trying SO HARD to force myself to do the very basic #life maintenance every single person has to do but apparently I can't even manage that anymore

[ghostzzy]

guys. i am scared to report that i Am feeling better today.

#or at least right now. #i don't want to get too excited. but like. #my hormones are gonna be cleared up in about 24 hours. the migraine is gone. and my brain actually feels....... okay. like. Pretty Okay. #i listened to music earlier just because i wanted to. i've messaged with more friends in the last 24 hours than i have in months. #i might. MIGHT. even start my ninth house reread. #VRAYLAR?? IS THAT YOU??? #izzy.txt