#Live a Thousand Lifetimes

[laynefaire]

I was tagged by @allwaswell16 to post five fics of mine I really like (despite her knowing how very much I struggle with self-promotion). I’m going to tag @so-why-let-your-voice-be-tamed, @evilovesyou, @a-brighter-yellow, @haztobegood,and @crinkle-eyed-boo because sharing is caring . . . .

  Live a Thousand Lifetimes (57K)

It’s 2025.

After secretly writing and producing their first album in ten years, One Direction is weeks away from releasing their first new single and announcing a world tour.

With the whirlwind about to begin again, Liam re-evaluates the last ten years - the fame, the money, the people who changed his life forever - and the person who walked away.

I don’t even know where to begin talking about this fic. It started out as something that wasn’t supposed to be more than 4-5K words, and somewhere along the way this is where I ended up. I anguished over each sentence, researched way more than I probably needed to, and cried buckets of tears when I finished. This was also the story that reminded me that I am still a writer, even if the stories only matter to me.

Let Me Be Your Everlasting Light  (12K)

Harry Styles and his partner Louis Tomlinson have been dating for four years. Over those years, he has always known that Louis' biggest dream has been to see the Northern Lights in person. Harry arranges a trip to Norway as a gift for Louis, but little does Louis know Harry is also hoping to make his own dream come true, too.

While I much prefer to write Ziam, there are a few rare occasions where a Larry fic makes it’s way out of my brain. This story was intended for @kingsofeverything​’s 28 Proposals fest in the winter of 2019. Unfortunately, between a hospital stay, a trip to England, and Live a Thousand Lifetimes demanding my undivided attention, I didn’t finish it in time. However, finish it I did, the following spring, and dedicated it to Lauren for her friendship and patience when dealing with my unreliable arse. This is another story that I did an absolute tonne of research for because I wanted the details to be as perfect as possible.  

Untamed Hearts (68K) 

It could have been the heat of the summer sun; it might have been the silvered sheen of an early harvest moon. If he dug deep enough, Liam could find every reason ever needed to explain away what happened. In the end, though, it all came down to two meddling friends, a touch of Prince, a bit of Keats, and the moon over the ocean. Its a recipe for disaster. Or love. Probably love.

I started writing Untamed Hearts in late 2013, after two of my fandom writing friends challenged me to do it. They both left the fandom not too long after, but whenever I see the posts for this story, I remember them and all the fun we had together. They encouraged me to try my hand at writing in this fandom, and if I were to dedicate Untamed Hearts to anyone, it would be them. Thank you Sam and Jesse, for always believing in me.

For Evermore (17K)

A Beauty and the Beast AU in which Liam is the Beast, trapped in a world suspended in time, and Zayn is the only one willing to look past the facade of enchantment to find the humanity of the man hidden within.

Beauty and The Beast is my favorite fairytale and my favorite Disney movie.  When the mods for Disney Direction were looking for pinch hitters, and this story was still available, I jumped at the chance.  Being able to recreate it with my OTP was was like a dream come true, and having it received well by those who have read it has been amazing. 

Shadow Dancing (169K+)

As a small child, Liam Payne dreamed of being a firefighter. He took up boxing to defend himself from school bullies, but never lost sight of his dream. 15 years later, Liam is set to be the youngest brigade watch commander in his district, and his recent boxing win puts him in line for the British national title - if he can learn to get out of his own way.

Zayn took his first dance lesson at 5, after watching his sister's tap class. At 18, when an injury derails Zayn's dream of dancing professionally, he sets it aside to attend university, but the lure of dancing proves too great to ignore. He becomes an instructor, and eventually, the owner of a small dance studio, where he encourages other dancers to chase their dreams.

When their worlds collide in a cacophony of misunderstandings, Zayn, confronted with his own biases, realizes there’s more to Liam than meets the eye, and offers to help him prepare for his upcoming fight.

While Liam learns to dance, Zayn learns the art of compromise, and along the way, they find each other.

And when tragedy strikes, Liam finds that Zayn’s love will help him face the shadows of his past, and give him the courage to believe in himself and his dreams for the future.

Shhhhhh! Yes, I know it’s not done. Yes, I know it’s been a while since I updated. It doesn’t make me any less proud of this story - what is already posted, and where it is going. Once again, a story I have done a literal shit tonne of research for - there are over 100 links in my research folder. And while yes, they do fall in love, this story is more a journey of self-acceptance, and as I have explored the dynamics in my characters’ lives, I’ve also done a good deal of introspection on the ones in my life, as well. 

#5 fics tag meme #self rec #fic rec #Live a Thousand Lifetimes #Let Me Be Your Everlasting Light #For Evermore #Untamed Hearts #Shadow Dancing

[ash-and-starlight]

one day, in a thousand years

#I THINK I HAUVE COVID #oh to meet your love after a thousand years at a museum exhibit of your past lives #thinking about them makes me so sick so ILL DISEASED #I AM NOT IMMUNE #spc i’m cursing u forever for this wtf. WTF bro wtf #ouyang’s last thoughts were a desperate plea for esen to wait for him. #he has NEVER called him by first name he has NEVER asked him anything #and his last thought is asking him to wait #and esen does. bc he would have given ouyang anything he asked for #god i hope u get rawed so good it makes up for all the lost lifetimes u earned it #he who drowned the world #she who became the sun #the radiant emperor #general ouyang #esen-temur #(zhu also present in the golden imperial dragon and the golden light of gayness that brought them together again) #my art #not super proud of how it turned out tbh tbh it looks better in my head 😔😔 #would’ve stayed in the drafts if not for my need to feed this 4 ppl fandom #and if not for robin motivation nfngdjfb ty kissa you forever #id in alt text

[buck1eys]

goncharov was THIS YEAR are you fucking w me rn

#tumblr wrapped #goncharov #genuinely i have lived a thousand lifetimes in this year #most of them mid and boring #not st

[heftbyjapanesebreakfast]

im sorry im the one you love

#the hunger games #catching fire #mockingjay #katniss everdeen #peeta mellark #everlark #thg #my vid #m #okay. the vision for this is like. katniss's perspective and how she sees herself #bc i don't believe that 'she could live a thousand lifetimes and not deserve peeta' bs #but by mockingjay she believed that about herself!

[zlobonessa]

one aspect that always fascinates me about the witch cult is how much they are used-to-be humans-but-now-not-really-are. they were just people who sometimes were good in the way people are and sometimes were bad in the way people are. and then their lifes had been altered by powers so fundamentally that they just. lost touch with any humanity that they had. how do you comprehend being a hundreds years old? how do you comprehend being able to kill a human as simply as a mosquito? how do you comprehend being beyond time, beyond aging, beyond life and death, beyond your own body, beyond your own memories? it's a horror scenario accepted willingly, horror where instead of running from monster you shake its hand and convince yourself that that's all you ever wanted, because the alternative? the alternative is the existence so miserable you'd rather die than go back. the existence that may ask you to take responsibility for your actions, navigate your own life, change who you are as a person.

they cannot do that. they never could do that. they live for years and years, having powers to do literally anything and yet led by instructions in the book, further and further conservating in the state they were from a start, the moment they took a deal.

doomed from the beginning. never having a chance to escape. never wanting to escape, instead allowing your humanity to slowly seep away as a price for not bearing the weight of that it means to be human. damn.

#re zero #sorry for being barely comprehensible myself i just think about this. a lot. #like the sheer fact that all of them lived either literally or technically (lye) for thousands years #and yet they still hold grudges for stuff that happened lifetimes ago #never progressing never changing despite the fact that their whole life is now technically about Progression To The Goal #to do more work! (nobody except petelgeuse actually cares about the cult goals on the personal level) #to collect more names! (there are never gonna be enough names) to collect more wives! (same thing here) #to be loved by someone who could never love you back because he stucks in his own role and unreachable goal #to be loved by everybody even though you are completely disgusting by your own volition #none of this matters but hey if you convince yourself that it does it doesn't suck so bad! #and if you admit that it doesn't then the only option is to ask yourself what am i doing here actually! and you not gonna love the answer! #well i sure am talking A LOT about them. sorry. #also that's the part where i'm slowly pointing at regurein- [I'm shot at the back of the head] #[my bloodied hand still draws “I'm a monster who hunts monsters” in sand tho]

[anqelbean]

I see all these post that are like "wow I can't believe 2023 is almost over" not me. Whenever I see 2023 written anywhere I think "Oh! Last year!" then and I stare in horror because I realise no, it's this year. 2023 isn't a real year, silly.

#i am 100% serious #time is so weird. i feel like i've lived a thousand lifetimes this year #I blame taylor swift for it #anqels ramblings #eva.txt

[fernsensei]

there is nothing more beautiful than a cow

#yesterday at 3am i was watching minecraft videos and then there was a segment with mods where are thousands of different cows including> #>mooblom #and then i decided to look at my foulder that is full of cow photos #and i thought. man. isnt life just great. how can a world be doomed when there are such beautiful creatures like cows sheeps piggies sharks #the world is cruel and unjust place #period #but i guess it worth living on just to see once in your lifetime those beautiful eyes

[trainingdummyrabbit]

nothing as heartbreaking as seeing a beloved character in a poll and the propaganda submitted is bare or nonexistent.

like where is your love. where is your adoration. i want 75 paragraphs of infodumping with a mandatory readmore in this tournament STAT.

#does the thousands of lifetimes worth of hell and desperate reach for a future in a life of no agency mean nothing to you. #does the retroactive tie of searching for something to live for and finding that in each other w/ the fervent plea to hold on mean nothing. #*does her sillygoofy demeanor and delight in violence and carnage mean NOTHING TO Y--* #piktalk

[softpine]

here's a bunch of half baked coco theories after rereading a bunch of posts:

- she got a lot of money after liam's death (a wrongful death settlement?), moved to vegas for a short time and spent it all

- dropped out of high school after liam's death, developed an addiction problem, relapsed on the fourth anneversery of his death and did something that resulted in probation

- still close to and protective of liam's younger brother lewis

- the court case is her helping someone get custody of xena or against diamond films

- the princess tattoo is about xena, or the person who inspired xena's name

hope you don't mind getting these i just like going through frozen pines posts like a truffle hog hoping to sniff out future plot line clues for fun

dude i LOVE hearing theories!!! thank you so much, this is the highlight of my day 🥺 and well...... i may not be able to tell you all of the guesses which are correct, but since these ones are less consequential, i can tell you that you're absolutely correct about coco still being close to liam's younger brother lewis (she's still close to the entire family), and yes the princess tattoo is for xena!! i can't speak on the rest just yet, but if i had to give you a letter grade overall i'd say.... a strong B!! and i love that you're making all these connections 💖

#she has lived a thousand lifetimes in her early 20s alone lmao #asks #anonymous #nonsims #brandi answers

[epersonae]

🪩

The other big clue about the 1700 Cascadia quake, aside from that tsunami, was something called a "ghost forest" - a collection of dead tree stumps all killed at once by inundation with salt water when the land dropped by six feet all at once. Tree ring analysis in comparison with trees still living nearby dated the earthquake to sometime around 1699 or 1700, which matched up with that "orphan tsunami"!

[send me an emoji and I will send you a fun* fact about my special interest(s)] *“fun” is kind of relative here tbh

#I love both of the phrases 'ghost forest' and 'orphan tsunami' #the estimated magnitude of that quake was 8.7-9.2 #which is FUCKING ENORMOUS #in the same range as Sumatra 2004 or Alaska 1964 #(yeah we might get one of those someday - could happen tomorrow or not in anyone living's lifetime) #(the weird thing about geological disasters is that they tend to happen on geological timescales) #('often' is measured in hundreds or even thousands of years) #(which tbh is kind of why I'm so chill about quakes) #(also I was in a bunch in SoCal plus Nisqually 2001 and most of the time it's 30-90 very dramatic seconds and then it's fine) #ask games

[sophisticatedswifts]

A year ago today, I was listening to Taylor talk about the All Too Well short film at the Tribeca Film Festival

#I still can’t believe she pulled a guitar out of thin air and played ATW10 #I feel like I’ve lived a thousand lifetimes since that day

[windup-dragoon]

this love is supernatural

#|| Heart Eater AU #|| Tiger Prince & The Stray #ffxiv #hien rijin #hien x wol #hien x kiri #ff14 #HEART EATER AU LIVES RENT FREE BABEHHH #scene: first kiss #setting: kiri being an absolute pest because they drank all afternoon and she demands attention #hien calls her a glutton and greedy but they have a sentimental conversation about why he isn't afraid of her #he explains that he can see just how lonely she is and that he wants to see her smile #theN THEY KEESS #i could have written this but I am lazy and haven't written anything in a thousand lifetimes

[hyunjining]

.

#remember when i was massively excited for dwd and so ready to see harry as a villain #acting alongside flo #and now the movie’s getting shit reviews and the cast is awkward with each other and harry is still in a fake relationship with the director #i’ve lived a thousand lifetimes being in this fandom

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

you’re telling me. outer banks season 3 came out less than a year ago. what.

#have i not lived one thousand lifetimes since i was complaining about how it looked bad #that had to have been at least a hundred years ago

[vixlenxe]

Here's the ship tag masterpost that I actually need to keep track of these, so please don't mind the @ spam!

『Fell for these Ocean Eyes ❤️ TiffaniexAkihito』 @thelazyeditor

『Been through Four Thousand Lifetimes; Searching for a pair of Ocean Eyes ❤️ TiffaniexDurante』 @diegesis-x-dolonia

『Standing tall in the Dark; We carry on Together ❤️ TiffaniexTobias』 @bloodylariat

『Bleed and Cried for a Missed Life on Each Other’s Shoulders ❤️ TiffaniexAuryn』 @tetsuwan-atom

『I don’t need a Monster; I only need You ❤️ VioletxNera』 @frznkingdom

『You are my Sanity in my Mind most Mad ❤️ VioletxHermes』 @strykingback

『I’m being Dragged down into Hell and you Jumped in to be with Me ❤️ VioletxTheo』 @diegesis-x-dolonia

『Out of Hell and into Heaven ❤️ VioletxOni』 @tetsuwan-atom

『Where the Moon goes; the Sapphire Star follows ❤️ MaxiexBowen/Madman』 @tetsuwan-atom

『The Pain of the Past fades with You ❤️ ElixMadman』 @tetsuwan-atom

『I'm Supposed to be your Ender; yet still You are my Savior ❤️ VioletxBowen』 @tetsuwan-atom

『The Universe’s Strongest Power Couple ❤️ VioletxAccelerator』 Legacy tag

『The World gave you Pain; I gave you Heaven ❤️ Goddess!VioletxBad Future!Leon』 @fctedivided

『You’re everything I Hate; yet my Heart holds only Love for You ❤️ VioletxEdward』 Self tag

『Survived on Spite; Lives for Love ❤️ VioletxXaos』 @prettyboywarrior

『I’ll teach you to make Room for Darkness in your Heart ❤️ TiffaniexRokuro』 @tetsuwan-atom

『Two Terrible Troublemakers ❤️ IvyxAuryn』 @tetsuwan-atom

『Your Heart; Your Soul; That’s What I Adore ❤️ RusexSakura』 @akumanoken

『You Lived and Died with my Heart in your Hands ❤️ IvyxHaurchefant』 @diegesis-x-dolonia

『A far reach from Home; but I feel I belong with you ❤️ ZenxYiska』 @diegesis-x-dolonia

『Beauty lies in the Eye of the Beholder; and you’re my Goddess ❤️ IvyxYua』 @petiteamores

『A Hero’s Love… Higeki o Motarashita ❤️ IvyxRayos』 @prettyboywarrior

『The Dahlia's home in the Fern's Heart ❤️ TiffaniexG'raha』 @s1lxcs

#『fell for these ocean eyes ❤️ tiffaniexakihito』 #『been through four thousand lifetimes; searching for a pair of ocean eyes ❤️ tiffaniexdurante』 #『standing tall in the dark; we carry on together ❤️ tiffaniextobias』 #『bleed and cried for a missed life on each other’s shoulders ❤️ tiffaniexauryn』 #『i don’t need a monster; i only need you ❤️ violetxnera』 #『you are my sanity in my mind most mad ❤️ violetxhermes』 #『i’m being dragged down into hell and you jumped in to be with me ❤️ violetxtheo』 #『out of hell and into heaven ❤️ violetxoni』 #『where the moon goes; the sapphire star follows ❤️ maxiexbowen/madman』 #『the pain of the past fades with you ❤️ elixmadman』 #『i'm supposed to be your ender; yet still you are my savior ❤️ violetxbowen』 #『the universe’s strongest power couple ❤️ violetxaccelerator』 #『the world gave you pain; i gave you heaven ❤️ goddess!violetxbad future!leon』 #『you’re everything i hate; yet my heart holds only love for you ❤️ violetxedward』 #『survived on spite; lives for love ❤️ violetxxaos』 #『i’ll teach you to make room for darkness in your heart ❤️ tiffaniexrokuro』 #『two terrible troublemakers ❤️ ivyxauryn』 #『your heart; your soul; that’s what i adore ❤️ rusexsakura』 #『you lived and died with my heart in your hands ❤️ ivyxhaurchefant』 #『a far reach from home; but i feel i belong with you ❤️ zenxyiska』 #『beauty lies in the eye of the beholder; and you’re my goddess ❤️ ivyxyua』 #『a hero’s love… higeki o motarashita ❤️ ivyxrayos』 #『the dahlia's home in the fern's heart ❤️ tiffaniexg'raha』

[falled-over]

remembering truganini is enough to ruin my day.

#i kind of want to make an art piece about her but i do feel weird using her as a basis for it. so it just exists in my head #its not like a 'i would need permission from palawa people to make it thing' i wouldnt do it even if i got permission. its not mine and #doesnt need to be #im sure the person reading this doesnt know who she is so heres a small part of her story; #she came from lutriwita tasmania. during her lifetime she personally witnessed an estimated 96% genocide of her people. #in the 1830's george a robinson towards the end of the 'black wars' (attempted palawa aboriginal genocide. it was very much #a war) travelled to offer a 'peace treaty' of sorts to the very few remaining (from an estimated 6-20 thousand to around 1-2 hundred) #saying they could go and live on an island where they'd be given flour and tea and a 'good white man' to protect them. truganini was asked #to be his guide to ensure he wouldnt be killed when attempting to speak to people. her reasonings for accepting were of course never #recorded but she did. and helped round up those people. almost all of whom died in the horrible conditions they were forced to live in on #that island (wybalenna). 16 made it back to lutriwita. #she saw the graves dug there for her people looted by settlers. #looted for bones. and skin. so they could be studied like specimines #the remaining people were sent back to live in an ex-convict camp in 1838. 8 years on that island. most died. as was the intention #even on her wikipedia page she is credited as 'one of the last full-blooded tasmanian aboriginals' which is a phrase highly contested by #living palawa people today. but she knew her reputation. she was considered the last tasmanian aboriginal. #upon the approaching of her death she took a trip to a nearby river and pointed to the deepest part of it #asking to be buried there #she had seen how her friends family and people had had their graves robbed by white settlers and knew the same would happen to her. she #wanted to rest in peace. in the bush. in the deepest part of the river #born around 1811-1812 she died in 1876 #and the last piece of her skin was returned to lutriwita from a british scientific association in 2002. #126 years later #her skeleton was on display in the tasmanian museum (still in operation i might add) until the 1940s. some 70 odd years. and remained in #the museums storage before being returned to the palawa community in 1976. 100 years after her death #she asked to be buried in the deepest part of the river. where no one could touch her.