#Still love her to death honestly

[novelconcepts]

I sort of love that Van is reliably a dick to Jackie the whole time they’re in the woods. This is a character with a reputation for being sunshine, but Jackie left her for dead ONE TIME and that lesbian was like “fuck it, it’s on sight for the rest of eternity.”

There’s an alternate reality where Jackie survives to be rescued, and Van rolls up 25 years later with booze to share with everyone, “except you. You know what you did.”

#yellowjackets #van palmer #jackie taylor #poor Jackie didn’t MEAN to leave you to barbecue! #I don’t know why this idea is so funny to me #Jackie is constantly trying to win the goalie’s affections #she’s leaving her presents. she’s trying inside jokes. she’s making pride banners to hang in the cabin. #van could not give less of a shit it is truly inspiring #like honestly that should have clued Jackie in even faster to the death vision #van is not out here joining the ‘we love you Jackie’ chorus. van is still pointing at the fire. herself. back at jackie. scowling.

[bowiebond]

Deaf Billy signing onto Blind Max’s hands and them just giggling because he’s signing dirty jokes into her palms. They start laughing harder when Max signs back, making fun of his boyfriends singing. Billy makes fun of her partners clothes because Lucas and El now exclusively wears stuff that feels nice to the touch instead of things that match and they both look a little silly.

Just Billy and Max bonding even though he can’t hear her voice anymore and she can’t see his grin, so he’ll laugh, raspy and little off because he can’t hear it himself, and she’ll be honest with her expressions, beaming at him so he can see she really does enjoy having him back.

#I hc that Billy could have gone deaf after his death because of the mindflayer ripping itself from his head #and the disconnect ruptured his eardrums and probably left it a little hard to emote properly #so his reactions are a little off or hard to read #but he really does mean well #max & billy <3 #it took him a while to learn ASL but El and Lucas dedicated a lot of their time to teaching him just for Max #so they sort of understand what they're talking about but they don't hold it against them #steve and eddie are still learning so they can't make out a lot #but they practice with each other a bunch #which just leads to them knowing a lot of swear words honestly #Max is pretty much fluent in it because she refused to be unable to talk to her undead brother #steve and eddie also learn a bunch of really cheesy phrases because they love watching Billy get giddy over it #just max and billy being disabled and still being little shits #harringroveson #elumax

[jfkisonthemoon]

they honestly couldve done so much with junpei beheaded/dismembered and im disappointed that it ended up just being mira. so much of his character and his relationship with akane is characterized by his lack of bodily autonomy, and him being openly beheaded during the nonary games would be the ultimate example of this. its perhaps the most brutal death in the game, and it never really gets explained or developed beyond the one puzzle that we get with it. junpei has been shown repeatedly to be subject to akane's plans or follow her blindly and i just think that would have been a really interesting angle to approach his beheading from. junpei has willingly signed up for nonary games in two different timelines just because he knew he would see her. he was infected with a deadly virus trying to find her. he grew desensitized to death as he took underground jobs to try and find her. his safety always comes second when shes in the picture, and his beheading wouldve been a prime opportunity to 1. exploit his willingness to let himself die/be injured for her and 2. make akane confront the fact that her confidence that junpei will always follow after her is not necessarily a positive thing.

#zero escape #additionally wasnt mira supposed to be asleep?? like i know she didnt get the forget juice but didnt she still get knocked out? #but also!! none of her other kills were like that! none of them were dismembered and she didnt touch junpeis chest #so even that reasoning doesnt make sense #kinda feels like a copout to keep the shock of junpei being disrespected in such a way - to have his very body turned into a puzzle #a puzzle that akane is forced to solve!!! without knowing that what shes looking for is his head - him! #theres so much potential there and they just didnt do anything #im not even saying that akane should have somehow been responsible for that death - only that not having her really grapple with it is such #a missed opportunity #i still fucking LOVE the imagery of it though. i really think its the epitome of the representations of his lack of autonomy #he loses all of vlr. quark. 45 years of his life. because akane decides this is best for him. he dies repeatedly trying to find her. #because she believes that she knows what will keep him safe #and turning junpeis body into a puzzle posthumously is a fantastic example of his lack of control over his body #its like hes literally become a doll. hes jumpydoll - not junpei. hes subject to these games even after he has died. #he gets no peace. no respect in his death. not when hes in these games. not when hes in the shadow of akanes whims and games. #i still love the imagery. i think it was one of my favorite parts of ztd and is honestly now a core tenet of my Junpei Understanding #but i was disappointed in the lack of narrative weight that specific death had. for him to be one of the first dead? for it to be in such a #brutal manner? like come ON. the character analysis for junpei and akane and their relationship is RIGHT THERE. all you had to do was put i #in the game #but nope. #they just handwave it as something mira did. #and dont bring up the details ever again because. plot point solved? #anyway. ive been thinking about junpei imagery and bodily autonomy a lot. obviously. #zero escape spoilers #mak no peeking #marydontlookatthis

[queenlucythevaliant]

'Yes, that old oak with which I saw eye to eye was here in this forest,' thought Prince Andrei. 'But whereabouts?' he wondered again, looking at the left side of the road and, without realizing, without recognizing it, admiring the very oak he sought. The old oak, quite transfigured, spread out a canopy of dark, sappy green, and seemed to swoon and sway in the rays of the evening sun. There was nothing to be seen now of knotted fingers and scars, of old doubts and sorrows. Through the rough, century-old bark, even where there were no twigs, leaves had sprouted, so juicy, so young that it was hard to believe that aged veteran had borne them.

'Yes, it is the same oak,' thought Prince Andrei, and all at once he was seized by an irrational, spring-like feeling of joy and renewal. All the best moments of his life of a sudden rose to his memory. Austerlitz, with that lofty sky, the reproachful look on his dead wife's face, Pierre at the ferry, that girl thrilled by the beauty of the night, and that night itself and the moon and ... everything suddenly crowded back into his mind.

'No, life is not over at thirty-one,' Prince Andrei decided all at once, finally and irrevocably. 'It is not enough for me to know what I have in me- everyone else must know it too: Pierre, and that young girl who wanted to fly away into the sky; all of them must learn to know me, in order that my life may not be lived for myself alone.

From War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy

#there are so many gorgeous passages in W&P that i could pick #why not this one in which Andrei reflects on several of them? #I've already talked about the Natasha and the moon passage on this blog. truly one of the most beautiful scenes I've ever read in any book #but part of what's so interesting about that scene is that we actually get it from Andrei's perspective. he's listening below the window #and overhearing Natasha that night is really what makes him love her #it's what made /me/ love her #and he carries that experience with him alongside his own experience looking up at the sky on the battlefield at Austerlitz #Napoleon himself sees Andrei and commends his courage but Andrei barely notices because the sky is so so beautiful #the lofty heavens which he never really considered before #but Natasha did #and so it's those moments his friendship with Pierre this old oak that renew his lust for life #life is not over at thirty. once i heard a girl exclaim at the loveliness of the moon and wish to fly away. #once i lay on a battlefield and all i could see was the beauty of the sky #and my friend Pierre believes in the future and he's searching it out #and look. this tree is still here #first time i read W&P i was honestly so relieved that so many people got happy endings the tragedy of Andrei's death didn't fully register #i mean the chapters concerning his death are beautiful and sad. the kinship between Natasha and Maria at his bedside #the peace he finds as he dies #but it really is a story in which he had decided to live fully only to die young. and that's become increasingly tragic to me as I've grown #happy birthday tolstoy #russia where are you flying to? #pontifications and creations

[kiwibongos]

i dont really infodump in general at all but im doing it cus i need some ideas off my chest. do you freak with angst? perhaps an unhappy ending?

// sdr2 chapter 5+ending spoilers ig. kuzuhina au baybee

ok im, pretty positive that if there's two people left then neither of them can get out together and just split the prize bc that'd be pretty bullshit (idek if they ever cleared it up, imo tho one man standing would be the most logical)

so what if nagito DID bomb the island, taking everyone out?

fyi ive written this nearly entirely so im sparing u with a little summary(this is not a summary)

so bombs are spread all around the islands forreal this time. after nagito's video, a chain of them went off right as they were running out of the plushie factory, barely on time. everything started crumbling around them, and all the others were downed one by one, either caught in the explosions or crushed underneath falling structures

but somehow haj and fuyu survived, the others killed right in front of their own eyes. but they ran away, retreating to the warehouse, to which they find nagitos body. and the realization hits– it’s just them now, they’re the only ones left, and neither of them know what to do

im sure u can imagine hajime was fucking RAGING at that point just breaking down and stressing out

they didnt know what to do, they couldnt do anything, but fuyuhiko was here, so the first thing they did was to get off the island since the fire was spreading. from there, they wander around, hoping maybe then something would happen, but there wasn't any sight of monokuma or monomi. all they could do was look onto the destroyed islands, before they inevitably wait in a safe spot at the military base, officially at a dead end

they just kinda sit there for a while, not knowing what to do. but they cant wait here forever, and fuyuhiko knows what he has to do

eventually, he hands hajime a pistol(acquired from the truck of firearms outside), and asks him to kill him so it could finally be over

obviously hajime refuses at first, but fuyuhiko begs him, because he isn’t a good person and he doesn’t have much else to live for, while hajime has singlehandedly saved everyones asses, he deserved to escape more than anyone else here. by now, hajime was crying, but they’ve been at this dead end for so long, he knew he had to do it or else they’d never be getting off this island. so hajime just holds em close and says his final goodbyes (maybe a kiss teehee) before making it quick for him

pulling that trigger hurts him more than anything, ANYWAY BOOM hajime is the winner, simulation ends

also postgame babey; when things end here, hajime would wake up from the simulation, and since he never got to choose his own future alongside everyone else, he wakes up as izuru kamukura. he's not entirely empty i think, izuru and hajime still would have "merged" afterwards, so it'd moreso just be hajime somewhere in there half of the time just mourning but its deeply suppressed, but thats a WHOOLE thing to get into. he just chills

#kuzuhina #bickering #fuyuhiko kuzuryu #hajime hinata #i guess what could come after is up to you as interpretation #to summarize weird izuru brain stuff just imagine that scene when izuru(hajime) cries at chiakis death #itd be like that regarding the whole situation. so he still feels. kind of. #also honestly i would love an alternative to this but in the format of soniaki(or any other chiaki ship) #her surviving as the traitor knowing her efforts and nagitos plan went to waste at the same time #so she reveals herself to sonia #and they have the same tragic ending #ive been writing/thinking of a whole lotta angst recently #anyway ill just let this collect dust here #im a one braincelled organism without a name #danganronpa #super danganronpa 2 #sdr2 #danganronpa v2 goodbye despair #danganronpa v2

[welcometoteyvat]

finished the penacony quests (I think anyways lmfao) i dont understand how genshin and hsr are made by the same company what is this terrible plot

#hsr spoilers #ramblings! #i got spoilers about the 2 deaths beforehand but uhm. ??? #at least a.yaka x traveler questline isn't important to the archon quest?.... #also ngl ro.bin was like The character i was looking forward to (along w sun.day ig but he's the sidepiece to her) #and they really just went x_x to her #'firefly is sam' 'firefly/robin only died in the dream theyre still alive in reality' honestly i dont really care #i just think that killing a character suddenly for shock value (currently) is stupid and then telling the player that you 'care' #when all we did was follow her around while not really learning about her on a personal level is dumb and lazy #generally i dont think . things were explained very well....... anyways despite not appearing for more than 5 min #mi.sha is my 2nd fav character. shoutout to falling into my type (little guy) ig #watch them pull a ting.yun though i will be so disappointed i love hsr's garbage storytelling abilities

[thegreatyin]

i love the gyrm bossfight at the end of bg3 act 1 because depending on how your first playthrough goes the reaction to other accounts of it is ALWAYS either "wait, you can do it with the hammer??" or "wait, you did it without the hammer???"

#i love seeing and hearing different accounts of progression in this game #personally i just checked its summary and noted that it only attacks the last person who attacked it #and since karlach happened to roll last in initiative order AND had a hammer equipped i had her go full jojo #1v1 dueling it to death while everyone else played support. didnt even realize the hammer existed. it was honestly really fun #yin-thoughts #baldur's gate 3 #is it spoilers if it's still technically in act 1?

[anthromimicry]

OH, speaking of misao, while i'm still here... let me talk about how she was introduced to playing instruments + why she still does it often to this day. as you may know, misao's mother — kaiyah — did suffer from mental health issues, and in ancient japan... they were very behind in terms of providing the appropriate care to those who had mental health concerns. while doing research on it, i also discovered that it was also unfortunately HEAVILY stigmatized and thought of to be caused by spirits and/or brought about by spiritual means. and so kaiyah would often have to find ways to try to help herself cope with her symptoms; one of which turned out to be music. and misao remembers which instrument kaiyah used to play vividly because listening to her play music, as well as sing, was one of the ways that they'd bond despite them having a rather complicated relationship. kaiyah used to play the biwa, which is a plucked string instrument that sort of resembles a guitar and whenever she'd play, kaiyah would sit cross-legged. and this wasn't only because that was the traditional way to play the biwa, but so that misao could sit in her lap as she strummed the instrument. and misao also remembers kaiyah just looking at her with this look that was just made up of pure happiness during those moments. which, although they were very ephemeral, kind of helped her pull through her childhood because they gave her hope that maybe she could be like this all the time at first; and then upon discovering that although that might not be the most realistic thing to think... it helped her pull through because she would believed that she rather hold onto whatever scrap of happiness she could get, rather than try to forget these experiences with her mother, because of the fact that they hurt her so badly emotionally sometimes. and this was because she wanted to help kaiyah the same way that music seemed to — she just didn't know how. but as the years passed, misao came up with the idea that maybe learning to play it could be a method in which she could assist kaiyah with feeling more... at peace, i guess you could say, and so she did.

though misao only got to play the biwa for her mother a few times before ryu was born, and whenever that happened, everything changed. but of course... none of it was his fault. all those good feelings that misao had associated with the biwa now had a sort of bitter taste to them because of kaiyah's neglect towards ryu and once more, although this conflict was a lot more nuanced than it might've appeared because of her mother's illness, misao felt this strong urge to just completely smash her biwa into pieces because she felt so bad inside. though, honestly, misao is glad that she didn't today. because it honestly is one of the few things that she still has around that reminds her of kaiyah, and although she literally cannot play it because the last time she did, misao just sobbed all the way through it — she was able to pick up another instrument that vaguely reminded her of the biwa and allowed her to reconnect with that old part of herself: which would be the guitar. but it is a very private part of herself that she doesn't reveal to a lot of people. she'll really only play the guitar around people she really trusts, as whenever she's playing it, it's almost like she's playing to her mother again.

#SOMETIMES AGAINST ALL LOGIC WE HOPE: headcanons. #NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study. #yeahhh i uh... i'm not gonna lie y'all. i might've cried during this one #it's just that the situation that misao was in as a child was very complicated and so she does realize that feeling animosity towards her- #mother probably isn't right because it wasn't her fault at all but all misao could think about was that- #she was suffering and it seemed like kaiyah didn’t care about that at all. though who's to say that she did or didn't? #like i mentioned before it is a VERY complicated situation but despite all of that misao still loves her mother. #she honestly loves kaiyah with all of her heart and wished that she could've saved her from getting killed. because in the back of her mind #she sort of blames herself for it as her powers had awakened around that point and so she could've protected kaiyah. #but misao wasn't there when she needed her. and so there is LOT of complex grief as well as guilt surrounding her death for misao- #because of that. #but yeahhh... i know this one was probably a bit emotional guys but i had to get it out. #because i feel as if i have a duty to portray all parts of misao and one of those is that she loves her mother ❤️ #tw: mental illness. #tw: complicated platonic relationships. #tw: mentions of child neglect.

[ccbatman]

I once said that I thought Steph would make a great Black Canary, and I still think that's one of the realest takes I've ever had.

Like, this moment seared itself into my head and never faded:

{ Robin 80-Page Giant }

#stephanie brown #dinah lance #spoiler #black canary #me learning about how dinah lost her cry which was as much BULLSHIT as steph's death btw okay hold on i need to get this out of my system #because they had to nerf her SO HARD for that to make sense and it STILL DIDNT BECAUSE ?????? SHE'S THE BLACK CANARY???? THAT GUY WAS A #NOBODY WITH A KNIFE ARE YOU JOKING??? and then the story that follows isnt even really ABOUT dinah it's about ollie and im so. ohhhh my god #JUST like how steph's death was largely brished aside to deal with bruce and jason's angst like. yeah i wanted there to be angst but it #wouldve been nice if it had been about HER for more than five seconds. honestly im so mixed about her death and return tbh. the way they #went about her passing was so weirdly inconsistent through the issues that bruce managing to get her to leslie in time does make sense but #then they do that weird thing with leslie and it's like ???? wha???? i go back and forth on how i feel about steph's return. on one hand i #love how she comes back more focused and stronger largely by her own means but on the other i did want #... something. i wanted her to be angry a bit longer and to deal with the complicated emotions between her 'failing' and bruce's 'failing' #and what that meant for her now. idk i love her batgirl run but it wouldve been nice if she had a bit more space to grieve herself. #anyway later in this issue dinah agrees to mentor steph for a bit and her rules are pretty much the same as bruce's when he made her robin #and if dinah had mentored steph instead of bruce she never would've died ok send tweet #wjshshsk #i love the panels of them looking at each other. dinah looking into steph's eyes and recognising the look in them. #i love how she smiles at stephanie both times. it's so gentle and kind. ily black canary #love posting on blogs where no one follows me. i can just say shit #comic ref #freya talks comics

[umihoshi]

7 Deadly Sins is so unappolagetically cringe and whimsy. It's like introducing your friends to your cat who you love so so much, cuz he's silly and funny and actually really smart. but objectively, it's the ugliest critter you will ever see.

#nanatsu no taizai #7 deadly sins #4kota #watching 4kota I finally understand the derailing of yugioh designs over the years #Percy's power is literally the power of friendship #my friend described their designs as DeviantArt OC's and I could not think of any better way to describe it #but then there's like... #Gawain being the lesbian we all deserve #and cinnamon roll tristan #and next gen characters coming from actual deep relationships and not last-minute match ups #like. Jericcho being in love with Lancelot is so messed up. but it makes so much sense! #and her bei g aware of it and ashamed of herself is so human #still don't get what's Arthur's deal but #the ep with the camelot knight who was so angry about living in peace with demons #because they fucking massacred his hometown and baby daughter! #that shit hits me man! #(surprised she's ACTUALLY dead tho. like.... death is heavily overrated in nnt) #how often did Helbramm and Malescula die honestly #also how cool is it that they all got king arthur inspired names??? #and the 4 calamities? the 10 commandments?? I'm eating that shit up #also please please please let next gen be actual gay and not just bait 🙏 #please give me percyxnasiens gawainxisolde and tristanxlancelot??

[musubiki]

how was playing hsr? was there anything that you liked in the game and the story?

ITS BEEN AMAZING AS EXPECTED!!!!!!!!! i actually havent played genshin in a while since starting it, i have no motivation to do the filler event while a perfectly good star rail is sitting there waiting to be played :')

but for mechanics, i love they have auto battle so you dont have to nessecarily sit there and invest in every little battle you gotta do....and i love that the resin (resin??) system is a lot more forgiving with a higher cap, lower cost, and allow for overflow...thats nice...i also love that the mc and starter units are very useful. im so emotionally attatched to the star rail crew so im glad they never have to leave my team !!!!

storywise im LOVING IT SO FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i started playing it at the beginning of spring break 2 weeks ago and im almost all caught up!!! i went through belabog and penacony and now im just doing those leftover intermission main quests which im only now realizing i shouldve done before going to penacony LMAO

and of course.....danmarch....im so soft for them......and also i love sampo i cant wait to see what they do with him

#besides the star rail crew and sampo im not too attatched to anyone else #im very much a (what would happen in canon) type of player so the only units i REALLY want are himeko welt and imbibitor lunae #(and sampo) #everyone else i can go without #so this game is probably gonna be a lot better for my wallet #overall it just like it better than genshin minus the open world part #i like the story and characters...i like that you can play as bad guys while theyre still bad guys???? like blade and kafka??? #cuz in genshin you always gotta redeem them somehow first before theyre playable #not here hueheuhe #also i love that they actually kill off playable characters #(spoilers from here on out) #i know were supposed to be all sad for fireflys death but honestly.......i didnt care about her too much LMAO #i was actually a little annoyed for the secret base part because her base was SO FUCKING DEEP IN ENEMY TERRITORY #i was like (damn bitch how far away is this shit??!) #that by the time we got to the emotional part i was just mad #i never liked characters where the game tries to like....force you to care about them #and its implied you have some super close relationship ESPECIALLY when you havent known them long #now if march died that would be a whole different story #but firefly??? i mean rip but i didnt really know her #im loving the penacony quest so far though #any setting where its like a place of mind tricks and gambling and spending money and sin is always so scary to me #especially the dream within a dream within a dream shit #the mind fuck aspect is always a good plot that i enjoy #i also love that theyre not afraid to upgrade units #like we have dan heng and the dragon dan heng #so characters arnt stagnent forever #everyday i hope we one day get to see a 5-star secret power march #cuz that girl has some shit going on i swear #i just did her luofu memory quest #and those fuckers in the garden of recollection............

[tsunael]

WoL Think Thonkers

8. What is one of their biggest regrets? Has it had an effect on how they act moving forward, for better or worse?

Haurchefant is a big one, of course. Canonically he is the WoL's main regret, but in Tsuna's case I have been mulling over the idea inspired by this post that she tried so hard to bring him back that not only did she perform the taboo of using her own life energy for her white magic once she drained herself both of mana and ambient aether, but that the sheer strength of her wish caused his corpse never to rot-- similar to Niellefresne's condition. It ensures that he is tethered to the world for as long as she is.

Does it have an effect on how she acts moving forward? Yes. Despite her meetings with Fray telling her that she can't save everyone, and that to sacrifice is to renounce everything. She becomes distant for a time, and quicker to anger.

Aside from the obvious canon losses that she couldn't prevent, the other regret (coincidentally also around the same time) is having a drunken, one-night stand with a certain rogue. No, it doesn't go well. It affects their relationship negatively well into Shadowbringers.

#I still don't know if I'll go with that haurchefant headcanon #his fate is so overdone and the man can only be fridged so many times but that post was soo inspiring and I love Making Things Worse #so honestly it's up in the air #I just love the drama of her being covered in his blood and hysterical. being like 'I have to put [the blood] back in' #and then her pumping him so full of her healing aether like someone desperately performing cpr on someone that's already gone #and alphinaud and aymeric have to beg her to stop #anyway uh hi #wolthinkthonkers #lore; weaving a story #queue time #cw: blood #cw: death

[nebulouscoffee]

... well it's that time of the year already. If anyone's got a Star Trek ask I'd love a distraction <3

#was really hoping the new year could be a reset ugh #but this last week Alone has been so tragic #this lovely man who used to be the watchman at my school died #he wasn't even that old #he's been around as long as I can remember... he used to remember all our names & chat with all our parents & grandparents & now he's gone #just out of the blue #& then this girl I literally played with as a kid just randomly got this massive brain bleed out of nowhere #she's YOUNG like she's only a handful of years older than me she's literally still in her 20s I think. she has a newborn baby #now she's in critical care and we don't even know if she'll make it. she's my mum's best friend's daughter we literally hung out #idk this is messing me up a bit... like #it's insane how anything can just happen it's insane how little time we have it's insane #cw death #(I don't have many followers but if anyone wants me to start tagging these vent posts anything else pls do say so lol) #(I honestly thought I'd made the last of them) #(but unfortunately people I know just! keep! dying! & I can't really complain like this anywhere else. sorry)

[lvsifer]

Anne Rice on transgender people

Writer, actor and activist Phaylen Fairchild wrote a Medium post calling Rice her friend and “first LGBTQ ally,” recalling when she reached out to Rice in the early 2000s via the email address listed on the author��s website. Not only did Rice respond, she encouraged Fairchild’s newfound writing aspirations. 

“At the time I was a navigating difficult territory of gender and sexuality, and she was the first person I came out to as gay,” Fairchild said in the piece. 

“Anne, although I never heard her voice, felt like a safe place. … She gave me confidence to live authentically, telling me ‘Your life is a story, every day is a new page. Live a story worthy of telling again and again.’”

In 2009, Fairchild came out to Rice again, this time as transgender.   

“In typical Anne fashion, she thought it was fabulous,” Fairchild remembered. 

“She told me at the time that she believed transgender people were sacred, that we possessed a unique gift of life experience that few ever would, which would allow us to see the world from ‘a view from the greatest height.’ She shared with me stories of trans figures in history that she had learned about in her own extensive studies. ‘The most fascinating figures in mythology were always transgender or genderless’ she once told me. ‘And in so many cultures reaching back thousands of years, transgender and intersex people were deified, perceived as wise and powerful.’”

“Anne Rice was the first person who made me feel that it was OK to be comfortable in my skin, and that my journey as a transgender woman was special — not because I was by any means odd, weird or different — but that I was worthy of celebrating because my very existence was ‘a remark on the magic of the complex human condition,’” she continued.

from this article.

#reading this as a trans person myself honestly just made me cry #listen this woman had her demons as we all do etc but i will love her all my life for what she has given me with her books #ofc there are things one can (and should!) criticise abt her/her writing but #next to this will always be the overwhelming love I feel for her work #and what is a writer's work if not the purest expression of their soul #also can we contrast this with fn JKR #I grew up with her books and I am currently re-reading them and I love them just as much as back then #but esp as a young queer teen in a mostly pre-internet/social media age these books expressed something so profound and beautiful #not just on a queer level but on a human level. they will forever be a part of me #i love her. #and finding this bit after her death honestly just hit me really hard #i'm really struggling w mortality and depression currently and continuously but...there is also such insane beauty in the fact that #that we may live on in others via our art #she is honestly still one of my big idols/inspirations in life #personal #trans stuff #transgender #lgbtq issues #anne rice #iwtv #amc's interview with the vampire

[commandercoriandersalamander]

she responded to the antibiotics, her energy/enjoyment levels went up, and my dad cancelled (or possibly never scheduled?) the appointment.

she's still in the end stages of her life and we're not going to do much besides comfort care at this point, but we get to keep her a little bit longer.

#cw pet death #...except not really #this is objectively good news and I am happy honestly #but at the same time kind of stunned #like I really prepared for her death and I think somewhat emotionally closed off? like in preparation? so when my dad texted me #i didnt know how to feel #still working it out honestly #because I love her so much but at the same time when he told me part of me was like 'oh. okay. now I don't have to be bracing for this news #anymore' and of course now I am again #but like. if she's happy I'm happy. and dad says she's improving for now. #it doesn't feel real? like this is the kind of thing you dream while your phone is in your hand waiting for the text to tell you its time #(which is how I slept last night lol))

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Some more Just Desserts pets, and thinking about Candy Mers again (Patreon)

Also ft. the pigeon study I did, what a cute bird!

#Doodles #Just Desserts #Been thinking about the JD pets a lot lately actually I'd really like to make a size chart sometime #But honestly a lot of it was motivated by thinking of a pet to give Cherry Shortcake - a merengue pigeon! #I know I love birds and really enjoy drawing birds but I honestly wasn't expecting to have so much fun and be as pleased as I am haha #What a cute! Love that ♪ #She doesn't have a name or an ADS chart yet but she does have the appearance upgrade so she's won at least a couple battles lol #She's a plain no-bean vanilla merengue but Cherry Shortcake opted to make her matching so she's got a cherry ''filling'' on her chest #To mimic bleeding-heart pigeons! It's very cute and highly symbolic lol #She is cute ♪ #Then a pet idea I had months ago but never got around to because I lost the inspiration source! D: #I swear I saw a YouTube thumbnail at one point of a very chubby rain frog that looked like a mochi lol but I can't find it ;; I've looked! #But it's still an adorable idea so mochi frog hehe #And then the Candy Mer stuff ♪ I legit forgot I'd called them Candy Mers and not just mercandies at one point lol #Both of the links are related because it's more worldbuilding - the second one is kind of more relevant? But it all is so #I mentioned very briefly about mercandy death at one point but never elaborated because it made me sad haha #Still true but I thought about it a bit more! About the ''natural springs'' part - once a body of water is fully saturated with sugar - #The sugar-breakdown of a mercandy's body changes from a complete breakdown to a partial breakdown - little pieces slough off and float up #Once they fill with air they turn into gummy aquatic life or - ''jelly fish'' hehehehe ♪ Which is how natural fish occur! #Depending on how big a mercandy is before she dies her body may turn into a whole school! The shape and texture is random tho haha