#all my big papers are coming up

[skitskatdacat63]

Can someone assure me it's okay that I haven't finished any drawings in over a week 😭😭

#apathy :) #its like. impossible to assure myself its okay to take a break #yknow you see other people post so frequently #and you somewhat feel like you're falling behind #i cant keep up waugh #lol tho i wonder if I'll have a sudden desire to draw once finals week starts in a couple weeks #i assure you that when i have to work on a bunch of big assignments #my brain will suddenly be like DRAW DRAW DRAWK #its just annoying when you have a good amnt of freetime and you cant kick your brain into gear #I've been sketching but ahhhh just a lot of concept stuff #i have an idea for a chibi comic but i want to pair it w a full drawing #so uhhh thats never happening dhfjkg not happening for a bit ig #i need to come up w more chibi comics #easier and faster to draw and they dont kill me :) #it just feels lesser idk why #tumblr is my diary atp sry djfkkglg #i used to write down on paper or my notes app when i was in a bad mood #but god that shit is sooooo bitter and i cant reread it at all #theres smth about knowing im putting myself out there that keeps it a bit calmer #and it feels more comforting :) #catie.rambling.txt

[skunkes]

OMG you like moral orel?? who is your favorite character :]c *Blinking and fluttering my eyelashes beautifully*

i watched the whole thing in a few days, ended yesterday. My faves are nurse bendy and joe (together and as a unit), stephanie (individually and then as a unit with the reverend but i dont like him individually), + danielle, of course

#idk how to feel about it in general i know there was more planned but it got cancelled but it still ended too suddenly ykwim #i liked what we saw at the end with orel finding family elsewhere (before he grows up) #i like orel himself outside of the wacky edgy adult themes of it all as a Kid who is Good #when i was watching that last episode i got a bizarre kind of emotional bc when he first poses the Big Question i Knew #that the answer was that the only good thing abt his father was that he had a hand in making him #i get so sad with stories involving children like dis 😭 #i feel like even if it was fully complete the show had more potential ykwim....i know the Tonal Shift makes the impact more...impactful #but i feel it cldve been handled differently or in different amounts. idk! #skunk mail #pawzcore #i also get its bc the eps are short but nature 1 and 2 didnt impact me the way it did others #like. idk. i knew beforehand it was the serious moment(s)/episode(s) but it wasnt presented in a way that #actually shifted My mood when watching it...clay's nonchalance from the eyes of me as a viewer #just comes off as humorous rather than serious ykwim? not that its funny but it doesnt feel high stakes at all #the whole thing didnt feel high stakes or serious unless u remove it from the context of the show youve been watching #for 2 seasons #its fucked up when you see it on paper but then in the show its different....if that makes sense

[cypric-rat-hyperfixation]

As my following grows and as I meet more and more people who have rats, had rats, know someone who has/had rats, and love rats...

increasingly I wonder if/when a day will come... a day that I'll express rat enjoyment to someone and they'll enthusiastically ask me if I've heard of This Funnie Little Rodent Blog they like, figuring I may already know it or will enjoy it if not...

and it's.. my blog... and then I have to come out as popular Rat Tumblr blogger that they follow and now know IRL.......

#/lh #I'm saying this like it's some big deal but I'm just exaggerating for comedic effect adjfgsbkdfj #no idea what the likelihood on that looks like. based on statistics of people estimating statistics? probably likelier than we all think #anyway that time I posted a survey for a university research project here and you all wound up comprising 2/3 of our sample was so funny #I had to actually say in an academic research paper that one possible flaw in our study #was bias that may result from 2/3 the sample having come from a niche and extremely specific demographic of people #due to the fact that they flocked in from One Of The Researchers' Substantial Online Following Centered Around A Particular Theme #And Selected Specifically To Have Only A Certain Kind Of Person On It Via Boundaries And Blocking #literally you all made up 98/150 respondents (but that's assuming all digital responses were from y'all-- we had 52 paper responses) #ah but the research symposium was the best. in the paper I was able to remain that generic about it #but at the research symposium. well it's a glorified science fair. so participants have their own stations set up and observers tour them #as the participants speak to their audience; directly providing a summary and then answering any questions #some of the audience/observers are faculty and most are fellow students #so real scholarly scientific types yeah? so they had questions. thoughtful questions #long story short I confessed to numerous listeners throughout the day that the sample's bizarre gender ratio is probably my fault #around 57% women; 21% nonbinary adults; 17% men-- an unusual proportion #so I had to academically tell my professors... underclassmen..... my classmates....... acquaintances.... foes.......... #... that I'm big famous in Rat #and it was so. djkjSBCJXHQKRIGAJFSHF

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#im still procrastinating so bear with me #ive just been thinking abt something. like the idea of a support system #bc as a 1st year grad student ppl around me r like: it must be hard being away from ur support system or ive left my support system when i #moved halfway across the country. and like i dont really feel that way bc idk the idea of a support system is sorta odd to me #like for me i guess it would just b my parents who i kno love me but im just so weirdly asocial that i never really talk to them #like i hardly ever text them. we talk maybe every couple months. so like i guess i theoretically have support but its a bit abstract #and like i have friends i guess but again im a bit weird and dont really feel connected to ppl so i dont feel that close to anyone #surface level friendships i guess. i dunno. i just feel weird not not having a support system but also having it b hollow #i guess i cant feel it more now. like i feel like getting diagnosed as bip0lar made my problems seem more realized to my parents #like i dunno i just assumed they knew i was doing awful most of the time but maybe that wasn't the case #its such a weird thing to b diagnosed with. like the conotations feel a lot heavier and i feel like im not supposed to talk abt it to ppl #bc theyll think im unreliable or something. like it wouldnt b that big a deal if i was just depressed but the sometimes buring out of my #skin makes me somehow scarier. and i still feel conflicted bc i do have a bip0lar mood profile but i have very very high impulse control #and even when im going high my mind is still super rational about it. which seems weird bc low impulse control is common with #the diagnosis. its also y i dont fit an 4dhd profile. not that it really matters. i fit the criteria enough to be on the bip0lar spectrum #its not like someone's gonna come yell at me for not being bip0lar enough. i just feel odd about it is all #still feels fake i guess. hard to imagine feeling any different to how i feel now. which is weirdly stable. so i guess the meds r working #sigh... ok enough i need to go to sleep at 7pm so i can get up at like 2 to finish reading a paper. for some reason my god forsaken brain #works better in the early morning rip #unrelated

[iceskatingmobsters]

been working on my own headcanon timeline of owv's early years, so have a little bit about hornfels:

hornfels is just as adventurous and mischievous as slate and feldspar are when they're hatchlings, but is much less bombastic about it. despite their insatiable curiosity (or perhaps because of it) they're a pretty quiet kid. consequently, they're warned to stay well away from Danger Trio's wilder schemes and spends most of their time around the older hatchlings and the adults as a result. you know the quiet kid who was labelled as "mature for their age" but was kinda socially inept? that's hornfels. they don't have anything against the other members of their cohort, though; slate scares the shit out of them but they think slate is stupid smart, gossan seems funny and cool, and they are enthralled by feldspar's reckless curiosty. but they don't wanna get in trouble, because they're responsible or whatever. don't worry about the burns on their hands, they definitely got too close to a campfire and they definitely weren't messing around near the ghost matter patch again. for sure learned the first time not to be anywhere near the ghost matter patch.

they join in for as many shenanigans as they secretly can, anyways. those three are onto something, even if none of them -- including hornfels -- know exactly what, yet.

the old archivist/museum curator, gravel, sees a bit of themself in hornfels and takes them under their wing. gravel is of the firm belief that remembering the past and holding to tradition is what keeps the hearthians and their culture alive -- every archaic item from their past, every story has a lesson to be learned and is worthwhile to keep and remember. that isn't to say that they refuse to move on with the times, that would be a different sort of stupid, but to ignore the lessons of the past is, at best, idiocy, and at worst, deadly. needless to say they kinda hate the "space program" because the whole village knows what happens to people who stray too close to the geysers.

hornfels kinda loves the space program, which is a fucking problem. they start out as an occasional consultant -- they're easy to find most clear nights with a telescope, anyways, so they're Danger Trio's best source for questions about potential space travel who will actually give them the time of day, as long as it's out of gravel's earshot. and then it became hornfels seeking the others out, asking about their progress, offering their own ideas and advice and theories and and and...

here's the thing. hornfels likes archival work and history work, they do. they took gravel's stance that every moment deserves to be remembered and learned from to heart. but space calls to them in a language they can't ignore -- the call of endless discovery, of new technology and flora and fauna, and not just studying the stars on clear nights but being out there, with them, and maybe even finding other people out there in the great expanse if they're lucky. hornfels thinks they will be. there's a couple odd skeletons in those ruins in the mountains and with the expansiveness tektite described, there's no way those were the only ones of their kind out there.

hornfels stakes their claim on a spot as a member of ventures, proper, after feldspar blows themself up the first time (unfair of them to think that way, on second thought, that accident wasn't really anyone's fault) under the condition of utmost secrecy. which is fine! they'd snuck out to cause trouble with the others when they were really young, and the other three have been working in relative secrecy ever since the first barrel they threw into a geyser and got really serious about the whole thing. they're a lot more flippant about it than hornfels, is, though, because getting caught just means less resources and tighter works schedules, for them. for hornfels, not so much -- despite their disagreements on risk-taking and the price of progress, hornfels deeply respects and cares for gravel, and going behind their back like this is necessary and painful. they'll lose a lot more than a week in the hatchling cabin if they're well and truly caught. they want to tell gravel! they're going to, eventually. they're just gonna wait until they've got something physical and successful to show for all of ventures' hard work to bolster their case.

they don't get the chance. gravel dies a few short months before ventures is ready for their first launch, when things are getting really hard to hide. it's a silver lining, to not have to scramble so hard to hide their involvement in gravel's least favorite project in the village, but hornfels is crushed under the weight of what was left unsaid.

they find themself preoccupied with a new project, too. gravel left behind a veritable mountain of unsorted donations of old hearthian paraphernalia that they never got around to putting on display -- truth is, most of the stuff they kept isn't really worthy of display. it's too busted up, usually, or not particularly noteworthy. hornfels had offered to help sort it all, time and time again, but gravel had always refused them, saying it was their responsibility and they shouldn't have put it off for so long. they aren't here to refuse hornfels, anymore, and the pile seems insurmountable. gravel believed that every object given to them had a story and a lesson, and hornfels believes it, but they don't believe everything has to be kept pristine and behind glass to take what you need from it. it feels wrong, to throw away gravel's collected bits and bobs, but hornfels doesn't have much of a choice.

they step away from ventures for a week and a half, to sort through the old donation pile, and their guilt and grief along with it. when they come back, museum more organized than it's ever been, the grief isn't easier, but it's quiet enough they can focus on other things.

feldspar launches a month after that and comes back with a singed rocking chair. hornfels had cleared a space out for an entire ship, outside the museum, but a rocking chair is just fine, because it came back with gossan's ideas for new safety protocols, slate's plans for the next ship, and feldspar's wonder at what they saw, out there in the cosmos. hornfels learns what they need to, preserves what they can, and gets ready for what's next.

#outer wilds #emmy writes #'haha yeah just gonna jot down some bullet points on hornfels so I don't lose my train of thought' 1000 words later this is a ficlet. #gravel has been bouncing around my head for a min. happy to get them down on paper at least a little bit #they come from a line in poisonhemloc's 'gabbro loses a hatchling' talking about an old hearthian loom #it functions exactly like their modern ones but hornfels has it on display anyways #got me thinking about who and what made hornfels into who they are in canon #and here we are #now I get to go rewrite big chunks of my current wip to make room for all these headcanons : ^) #maybe you'll hear more about the first time feldspar blew themself up in a few months. just sayin

[shadowbender19]

Ruby Doesn't Know What Happened to Penny

Just finished V9 and they never brought it up on screen.

First of all this is all from memory, I watched episodes weekly and haven't done a rewatch but...

Weiss told Ruby Yang and Blake that Penny 'sacrificed herself' back in episode 1 (maybe 2) and while Jaune was very torn up about it, his only line regarding it was "I was the only one on that bridge, the only one who could do it" (not verbatum) back in his paper-pleaser break down.

I can't see this being a off-screen consequence-free chat, so are we going to see it next season or just not at all? Will Winter be the one to spill the tea?

So yeah, feel free to correct me if I'm wrong or just stew in the knowledge that they don't know and the apprehension of what'll happen when they find out.

#rwby #rwby spoilers #rwby9 #rwby penny #penny polendina #jaune arc #rusted jaune #rwby8 #this has been the main thing on my mind all season #I thought it would come up in the big fight after the paper pleasers but no #wait do the kids know about clover

[thebirdandhersong]

Hm

#i wonder sometimes. we have so many profs who specialise in studies in sexuality or whatever #and have done papers publications classes whatever on sexuality or eroticism in X body of literary work #SO many of them in the eng lit department #i was telling my friend about something my prof said in class once and she just stared at me with big eyes and i was like... i'm not kiddin #though i WISH i were. it wouldn't be a good joke at all though #sometimes i wonder. should english profs and majors go and touch grass every once in a while? #because it strikes me sometimes that if someone normal (i.e. not an english major) (i call upon my own state as an english major #as grounds for having rights to make Comments about english majors) comes into a classroom and listens to the stuff #prof and other english lit peeps continually pontificate on. and just walk away feeling deeply disturbed #do they not realise. that some of this stuff is downright perverted #i don't know i wonder what the inklings would think about english departments and their obsession with sex these days #i doubt cs lewis would have good things to say about it. much less tolkien #anyhow i feel like i'm being uncharitable once again but it IS perverted #and by golly we should NOT be bringing up sexuality so much in class. there are better things to think about #and better ways to analyse a text. my word

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

i had a dream last night where i was trying to put together a piece for an art final in one afternoon (because apparently i was taking an art class? i kept having lucid moments of hey i’m not even taking a real art class but i was content to still do the project) and actually i remember very clearly what i was planning and i have all the stuff for it i think i should recreate the dream art final piece

#i was doing a giant collage and i was cutting up bits of colorful + textured paper and running them through a printer over and over #again so that the words were overlapping to make an interesting texture and i was moving them around to make an image and i don’t #remember exactly what it looked like but it was an underwater scene and i can remember a few of the fish and coral structures in relative #detail so i think i’m gonna do it why not i do not have a big enough canvas (it was bigger than me in my dream) but i do have some #30in x 40in canvases (originally bought for giant self portraits of me bc i’m vain lmao) but perhaps one could be spared for this? #i also do have a giant sketchbook but i’m unsure if the paper could hold the weight of what i’ll need to do to it. hmmm #i also have a wall….. but i think i was only granted permission to paint over it smoothly and i hate painting smooth i need texture and i #doubt glued paper would be easy to take off if needed. sad. i really do want to do something to a wall some day. maybe i should just build #myself a giant canvas so it can be moved? it would have to be able to fit through the door though :/ #what about a bunch of smaller canvasses that slot together to fill the whole wall? that would be kinda cool i can work with that #maybe not for this project though that would be a lot of work bc if i’m gonna do a whole ass wall i’ll need to measure it n shit and then #i wouldn’t want the canvases to fit as squares i’d want them to be cool and interesting shapes so i’d have to build them myself #hmmmmmmmm. i will think about that later perhaps when i get my own place . it will be epic though i assure you #so i can add some supports to my giant sketchbook paper to keep it sturdier or perhaps i could use a giant canvas. decisions decisions #i will think abt it after i get her up how much colored/printed paper i have (a lot bc i get some every time they’re on sale at micheals #because i have a problem) and i should cut them all to like 8x11 so they’ll slot through the printer so i can cut them up after? #or perhaps i will cut them up before so i can get the vision right? there will be a lot of layers to this i know the pov of the one in my #dream was from the sea floor but near a reef so i will need to work on perspective a bit so maybe a nice big preparatory sketch for a rough #placement of everything then extra details i can come up with as i go? the fish and things will need to be layered a lot but once the base #colors are on i can’t really sketch it out. hmmmmm. i’ll contemplate some more i think

[fionnaskyborn]

one day when i am not busy dying on the inside and out i will write an honest-to-god essay about how people are, for the lack of a better descriptor but simultaneously for the lack of a more perfect one, too edgy about five.

#like yeah five is an edgy game and the darkest in the series and gloomier than all of its predecessors but. i lack the words for it now but #there are important little moments in five where light shines through the carpet haphazardly thrown over a pile of garbage that oft get #ignored in favor of pushing the agenda that everyone in five is filth down to the core and that's just not true #i just- deeeeeeep sigh. people are so shallow sometimes man #this is how we get those characters that do not resemble the original in the slightest that either take one trait of the given character an #then bloat and exagerrate it until the character is a caricature of themselves OR projections of what the people would like these character #to BE in order to... be able to wrap their heads around them and their motivations more easily‚ i guess?? #i don't know it feels to me like people just don't want to bother with the intricacies of complex characters and that's how the wood plank #versions of characters get created and then passed around ad infinitum #sweet grouchy baby boy who never did anything wrong ever. man who is either an innocent little big guy or satan himself. guy who is #objectively one of the most flawed individuals in the series being worshipped as a hero (griffith syndrome). guy who is either depicted as #an obnoxious playboy who only cares about getting laid and having as much skin exposed as possible at all times or the most vile man on #planet earth while being neither. the fucking. masochist cyborg thing. i'm gonna explode #oh and if you point out that there needs to be depth to any analysis of these characters if you are to do them justice you end up with a #gaggle of people saying oh yeah of course everyone in here is awful and they all have pig hearts #and i'm just wondering why this is the default conclusion most come to and not‚ you know‚ the thought that complexity does not inherently #imply rottenness but rather that even in the most horrible of situations you can find something good #i'm not the happiest or the most fortunate of individuals but i still refuse to believe in the idea of inherent evil that's being sold for #cheaper than a copy paper pack these days #but that has nothing to do with this my point is if you're trying to do media analysis you've got to look beyond... i don't have a word for #this... i guess you could call them fanmade stereotypes? no that's not it‚ my point is that people need to open their eyes to how complex #motivations and circumstances and human connection are and face that complexity head on instead of rubbing the story with sandpaper until #it's satisfiable to them #logs

[waugh-bao]

*

#was a paper respondent for a big workshop for the first time and didn’t totally fuck it up! #(I mean. an old guy told me to speak up #but that’s par for the course. I’m not talkative and my voice isn’t loud at all even when I try) #I was stressing over this for weeks #b/c everyone who comes to present here is a tenured prof or a fellow from an Ivy (which. we are too #but still) #and it was on early modern ottoman coinage regimes #the presenter thanked me and multiple people complimented my summary and questions #so we’ll call it a win #me stuff #not the stones

[mildmayfoxe]

i was feeling absolutely awful earlier (in the brain) but made myself leave the house & take a little walk to to catch the closing sale at the local employee-owned art store before it’s closed for good and while there i got some different papers and, miraculously, some relief ink (fully expected it to be wiped out) (half price!) (see below) PLUS i also got the phone number of the manager who’s a friend of a friend & ive run into at markets- she told me she’d put more ink aside for me if i let her know which ones i was thinking about 😭

and then on my walk home i accumulated various food objects:

and then when i GOT home there was a box from my sister full of christmas gifts incl. LOTS of tea from both my siblings (i asked them for local chais) & a bunch of the snacks i’d got from nuts dot com for THEM that they apparently tried first & then sent to me

so all is not lost. peace & love on planet earth

#the bubble tea is a new place i hadn’t been to & the pizza is my old corner shop place in my old neighborhood #the bread is from the community fridge!! the mysterious bread benefactor had been there again #i think it all must come from a whole foods or big bakery day olds or something bc whenever they’ve come by they leave a TON #and it’s all always fancy & wrapped nice individually like this #the big ream of white paper is just so i can make some little journals to print covers for & sell #did you KNOW the speedball professional is an oil based water washable?? because /i/ sure didn’t!! #i thought it was a straight oil base so i’ve been ignoring it entirely & this whole time i WOULDNT need solvents with it #anyway suffice to say i feel much better now. and it was a nice walk #i can’t wait to try all this TEA #chatpost #photo record #the two pictures of the box of gifts are weird because there's a twitter filter on them sorry #to try to make up for how damn dark pictures are that i take at my desk at night hahaha #i'm also very excited for the norwegian crackers bc i asked for those special; my sister lives in nyc & she has a place that sells them #they are so GOOD !! #long post

[aflawedfashion]

I wonder if the gang comes together in the finale to print Richie's photos of cops targeting gay men, and they all decide to blow up absolutely everything because they have nothing left to lose now that Constance has control and they choose do the right thing

That would be a good ending

#in the trailer Constance stops the presses on something #everyone runs into the room and it looks like they're up against Tina #but then Tina's in the last shot where joyce says everyone will know what we did #Richie is holding papers that say something about police #Doug's missing from the group but he's in shots with Constance #so he could be on the inside while everyone cause chaos behind the scenes #it's photos of cops brutalizing gay men #this is beyond minx #if the show gets renewed maybe they start a new company #all together #if they start over everyone can be in the positions they want to be in #if everything is gone it's just the six of them and they build what the want #blank slate #the magazine also felt like it got too big so if they're forced to start over it'll bring that underground underdog feel back #wait hold up stop me I'm writing the fanfiction ending I want to see #because if that's what happens I'll accept some of the things I didn't like about the season #it'll pay off #I've been holding out with some of my thoughts to see how the season ends #please let it come together #minx #aff watches minx #minx spoilers

[hychlorions]

pov you’re my friend and it’s just another 12am on a monday

#.docx #you get it. #speaking of math do u guys wanna hear about how the penrose theatre is such a good name. #it's named after the penrose triangle!! popularized by lionel and roger penrose in the 1950s #roger penrose some 20 years later will come up with something called penrose tiling #it's a type of aperiodic tiling and other ways needed 100+ shapes to tile aperiodically #which in simple terms is like. you can't copy-paste a given pattern and have it fit without having to rotate it. smthn like that #they got to whittle that number down to 6 overtime. roger penrose got it down to two #interesting stuff but that's unimportant #now. a previous version of roger penrose's aperiodic tiling had a shape called a justice cap #it looks like a little paper boat. that's also unimportant #now penrose theatre appears in the magical turnabout #and you know who the lead defense attorney is there? Mr justice himself B) #anyway these are all probably just little coincidences and i sound a lil insane rn #but in a boring way #did i make this post just to ramble in the tags bc this penrose thing has been on my mind since last year? maybe #so i'm sorry if u read through this and thought i was leading up to something big lmao

[marmorenshud]

should I go to ikea tomorrow, saturday, or monday

#caw #tomorrow is payday #saturday is probably gonna be loads of people there #monday is so far away #i dont like to go on payday bc payday usually happens not all at once but throughout a couple of days #and i like to get it in order forst bc i have to transfer internationally #altho this motnh i dont bc of erasmus stipend #also i just googled it and looks like its not usually that busy on saturday after 1500 #which is probably when ill go anyway #so. mystery solved ig #thanks for coming to my absolutely inconsequential decision making process #that for some reason takes way too much for me to decide #does anyone else do this? #a psychologist (like an actual one not some tiktoker) said it *can* be bc of trauma #tho i do not remember his exact reasoning i have to look it up again #does anyone else do this where a very inconsequential decision is like the biggest decision ever #but very big decisions are not that hard? #this should be its own post really this is getting long #is anyone still reading #like going to study abroad in norway? no problem ill sign the papers right now #going to ikea friday or saturday? oooh boy ooh boy oooh idk hmm oohh its hard wait let me google and research hmmm ooooohh #thank you for reading this mess #bye

[malxshrine-a]

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#hahaaa so quick update on rl situation #started a new job at a factory and already the area ive in has been goving me a static charge that has me being shocked #on EVERYTHING / ANYTHING metal and ive got to use buttons that have electricity running through them #one button doesnt even have a proper plastic cover on it so to turn it on i have to stick my finger inside it to actually hit it #imagine that. imagine getting shocked for my entire shift EVERYWHERE in little doses and by these buttons w electricity yu know? #ive been there two days and already have to remember 6 machines and im gonna learn more #10 all week despite the rest of the department doing 10 just on sundays and 8 the rest of the week. by the third day they wanted #to have me alone. they didnt even have me in the system to clock in / no badge / no time cards / dodnt tell me all this until monday #here i am thinking shits usual shift time and its not. came in two hours late #hypertension / heart palpitations / high blood pressure just from dealing with knowing i have big gaps in training and they want me alone #me getting shocked to high hell. and knowing even if i WANTED go skiddadle that i COULDN'T #my poor heart been going through it. dealing with them ive been going through it. #NO WONDER PEOPLE NO CALL NO SHOW ON THIS AREA AND YOU CANT KEEP TEMPS #nah cause fuck me running up a damn tree for acorns. tryna relay im being shocked and the girl training me not believing me #til i lit her ass up by touching her on accident through her gloves AND mine. i cant even use my gloves to help #i TRIED THAT. so like she didnt believe me til i made her see had to go to the doctor to not feel like #im being subtly gaslighted into thinking im making a big deal out of nothing and im crazy #i CRIED in the bathroom / before my shift / and after bc i feel off and my anxiety about being shocked is enormous #now i have to deal with paper work while feeling like my chest is being beaten on and squeezed. HAHAAA #im mentally / physically / emotionally going through it. but thank you for coming to my ted talk

[lingeringscars]

Rec me things to read & watch ❤️

#it's my spring break #which unfortunately means i need to work all day tomorrow before aa and aahc #and then start doing my school readings Tuesday #for class the following week #but for once I'm not trying to write a big paper over break #that'll be a later weekend issue #i just have to dive deep into newspaper databases for my gaship #and come up with some potential paper ideas to write with my advisor #and figure out if what i want to do for my proficiency paper will actually work #✌️✌️✌️ #but rec me things for my abundance of spare time 😂 #ooc. #tbd.