Omg fam ur so not alone about the sleeping thing, my partner has both some health issues and also just a completely different sleep schedule from me that makes us sleeping together difficult, and a small apartment that makes it difficult to separate ourselves. And like. It's not his fault but its FRUSTRATING so I feel u ❤❤
😔😔😔Its frustrating bc its not her fault but also it kinda is bc i keep asking for basic communication
Im like hey are you coming to sleep in the next hour
And shes like in twenty mins
Which turns into two hours and im not going to dog her or ask again so i have to roll with the concept shes showing up whenever
I also sleep light so without fail if she comes in three hours later i wake up and it takes a while for me to return to sleeping
Its just a combination of stuff that makes this scenario like she doesnt say anything like dawg all i want is for u to poke your head in or msg me like im not gonna sleep yet but she gets mad abt it like its not super late!! FOR YOU ITS NOT you also work from home :/
Thats it and ill just bury myself under the covers n hope i dont wake up when she does come in
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I managed to not get sick (not even a cold) for the last 3 years even though I LIVED in a house with 2 people who got covid, and everyone else I know has been sick multiple times. I'm really, really careful.
We've been staying here for less than 6 months and I've gotten sick twice. I haven't stopped being careful. But my friend's dad? He is THE most disgusting man I've EVER met. Hands down. I don't say that lightly, he is atrocious. He constantly has pneumonia and doesn't wear a mask because "it's not covid." He sounds like gollum. He can't stand up without passing out. He is constantly saying he's FINE and NOT SICK.
He has an open wound on his foot that he doesn't take care of and he bleeds all over the floor/rugs in common areas and then LEAVES IT THERE. He bled all over a roll of TP the other day and then just... left it like that for everyone to use! No big deal!! His wife scrubbed the bathroom floor the other day on her hands and knees to get his bloodstains off of it, and the NEXT DAY he bled all over it again.
He popped his dentures out of his mouth, with food on them, and LEFT THEM ON THE KITCHEN COUNTER. WITH FOOD ON THEM. FOR HOURS. The past 2 days, he's had a steak that is TWO YEARS out of date "thawing" on the counter for 10+ hours each day (it was not frozen!!!!!!). He always does this. He will leave leftover food out on the counter at room temperature ALL DAY before he eats it. And then he'll leave his leftovers on the counter knowing they have mice. (Four of the five of us have been trying desperately to get rid of the mice for months. Guess who's not helping!)
He also doesn't wash his hands. I don't mean "I've caught him doing that." I mean, he'll like, stick his whole hand in lasagna sauce and then open every door in the kitchen with that hand and just leave sticky handprints on everything like a toddler. This happens DAILY. There are FOUR other people who clean up after this man. You can clean everything in the kitchen spotless and go back in there tomorrow at 9am and he'll have fucked it up already. He dumps his old coffee cup into the sink OVER TOP OF THE CLEAN DISHES IN THE RACK. He does that OFTEN! Not just once! Like, regularly!!!
Like yes he's letting us stay here for free. The toll it takes is psychological. Truly I don't even think he notices that other people inhabit Earth with him, let alone his own house. He could not be bothered to care about anyone else if you paid him. We've told him repeatedly that we're staying here because we're disabled and thus homeless, and that we are immunocompromised, and he keeps going "oh, yeah!" And then insisting he doesn't have to change anything because it's "not covid." Like, buddy, I don't care if its covid, RSV, pneumonia, swine flu, or some yet undescribed mutation of a virus that melted out of the ice caps and flew up your nose. I DONT WANT IT!!!!!!!
Anyway I have really good reason to believe that it's either the conditions in the house and/or Pat's fault that Bel and I both keep getting sick, because we both had this shit on lock for YEARS before we came here. We cannot fucking wait to get back to the woods in no small part due to the personal space it will afford us from people
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having been sick the past couple days means anytime i am reminded of The Sickness (sneeze, cough, feel like shit when not resting in bed doing nothing, etc) my brain just blasts "i think i hauve covid" over and over again until i get distracted with something else and forget about The Sickness again. then repeat.
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still immensely floored that i havent seen anyone else talking about the fact that throughout the pandemic, services like doordash, uber eats, instacart, etc were and are counter-intuitively more likely to spread covid because youre sending this one person to many different public spaces. meaning they were able to easily spread it store to store as opposed to you going to the one place and coming back.
On top of that, theres a solid chance you get a driver that doesnt care as much as you about covid safety meaning it wouldve easily been safer to go yourself
Naturally if getting covid would be particulerly bad for you, youd still be less likely to catch it yourself ordering online. But its easy to assume "less likely to catch doing"="less likely to spread covid doing" when it didnt.
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girl why is EVERYONE being cavalier about this. i just found out i literaly was sitting 3 feet across from someone who was symptomatic with covid for 2 hours yesterday. she was masked and i was wearing an n95 but that is not a guarantee that i didn’t get it. I was exposed 30ish hours ago but if i got it it hasn’t incubated yet probably so i May n out be symptomatic yet but i could be. and my family who made my life a LIVING HELL back in 2020 and 2021 over being afraid i would give them covid suddenly don’t give a single shit about it when this is the most significant way i have ever been exposed. they think im being irrational and don’t habe patience for me panicking over it and not wanting to go be around them and act like everything is normal. um maybe im panicking for good fucking reason because i don’t want to get you sick and i don’t want to be sick myself? like someone please tell me im not fucking crazy im about to lose my shit
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I was struggling for nine years, and finally got better, finally overcame the circumstances and my own internal barriers and was making a good life for myself. I had a year. And everything on this stupid website reflects that - every motivational word, every twist on perspective, every last thing, is about the adolescent struggle for self-esteem, confidence, ambition, balance. I really thought, I REALLY THOUGHT, that was it, I was finally going to have a couple of years to build and grow and enjoy a good life. There is no motivational word, no twist on perspective, nothing, for death, for losing someone you love permanently. Just isn't. I'm so angry about - after 9 years of struggle, and finally, finally - and now I won't ever be happy again. Just struggle, again, and this time there is no way out. Just struggle, no 'done', no good life. Completely futilely furious.
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