#also to further clarify: no i don't mind other takes but this anon was being fucking weird and

[pichlive]

Your reaction to the Narrator and what he says is really funny. You’ve basically gone:

I don’t trust you!

Okay, I think you believe what you’re saying. However, I think you’re wrong so I’m going to ignore you.

Wait, where did everyone go… SHIT, was the Narrator right!? Did the world end!?

The Narrator, the Hero and the Smitten are all gone. Are they dead? Did the apocalypse happen!?

Oh, never mind, the Princess is here. The world might still have ended though…

Meh, sometime things need to end for new things to start AKA I don’t care that my choices may have led to the premature and possibly painful death of every man, woman, child, animal and possible the universe itself. The Princess is here and that’s all I care about. Plus, maybe something else with come after this.

Oh good. Things have reset… and the Narrator’s back warning me about the end of the world again yawn

Wait, maybe the Princess made him like this

God, I hate this guy and how he’s – checks notes – doing the thing that the Princess might be making him do. Anyway, I love the Princess and she can do no wrong!

Don’t get me wrong, your reactions are completely understandable. It’s hard to believe a random voice that goes ‘go murder this person or you’ll condemn everyone else to die.’ Anyone would find that sus. Not to mention, while you are being told the Princess will end the world, the only person you’ve actually seen is the Princess and she asks you not to kill her. I do wonder if you’d have been so blasé about the possible end of the world if you’d seen some of the people you may or may not have damned.

It’s just funny that you simultaneous believe the Princess might be the one making him like that and that she’s worth saving but he isn’t. If you’re right and the Princess made him like this, he’s very much a victim but you don’t care because you’ve choice her side.

You’ve said that you’re going to try to save everyone, with the possible exception of the Narrator who you think might be a lost cause. It sucks for the Narrator. You think he believes what he says, that he might even be right, that the Princess might have made him like this and he’s still the only person you aren’t bothered about saving.

oh boy-- outside of the game content! Looks like i've unlocked the voice of The Anon!

so this little dumpster fire of an ask has been waiting in my inbox for… quite some time.

my initial hesitation to answer, more than anything else, was because, sincerely-- the tone of this anon made me think they might pipebomb me with spoilers to prove whatever little weird point they're making here-- if, in hindsight, there even is one worth making.

and also not give you the immediate satisfaction either-- if you even are still here (hi i guess?)

but now that i've finished the game…

well okay for one all i'm going to say is i can tell you haven't even finished the game. maybe even barely watched the demo.

Or by this point, might have gotten beyond that-- given that one ask i also believe you also sent me (from the way you... apparently think my reactions are so '''funny'''), you'd probably have tried to spoil me even more... because i wasn't getting to the points you thought i should???? what is your fucking damage?

but the first reason i wanted to 'answer' this was to show off how completely fucking bonkers you are.

the fact that i KNOW on some level you had to have based all this JUST on my playthrough-- and opinions-- of the game.

my very… incomplete perspective and playthrough of the game at the time you sent this in, btw.

the very… condescending way you word… all of this. because i have a spine i find this more cute than anything, if very annoying and weird.

the fact you seem to make judgement calls… on my morality? from how i play a game? with very Not Real Characters? I mean yeah it wants to draw you in and my choices/opinions for the most part have been genuine but i think ya'll get what i mean here

also i can further tell you have Not Played The Game because of assumptions even I haven't made? or at the time hadn't made? or if you have, uh… well. um. hm. alright then.

but again like-- your assessment of me based on… what was at the time a very incomplete playthrough with what information i had-- and if anything now that i have completed the game, uh, yeah, i'm pretty firm on my perspective.

but also other than shaming me for… beyond siding with, sympathizing with a character… the game wants you to sympathize with and bond with and not getting along as much with a character who, at every corner… listen i don't think he's technically a liar but gaslighting and condescension isn't that great of a look either. but also shaming me for liking her so much when the game is stated outright TO BE A LOVE STORY. DO YOU ALSO GET WEIRD AT PEOPLE WHO PLAY FUCKING DATING SIMS AND LIKE THE CHARACTERS, ANONTHY?

also your weird judgement of my impressions in general. like. it's almost that's what a liveblog is?

'the only person you aren't bothered about saving' is. also interesting. all i'm gonna say is um. anon. genuinely. what the fuck am i supposed to do here to even SAVE the narrator?

but also the insistence i'm playing a game 'wrong' that…… outright says there ARE no wrong choices, just different perspectives (which, i suppose also technically applies to me here-- but my point here being this anon is kind of weirdly fucking judgmental).

hell, even the creators have stated they won't answer any lore questions outright BECAUSE they want it to be interpreted in a variety of ways!

which, speaking of the creators.

i don't know them obviously, but, uh. anon?

i don't… think they'd want you acting like this. like thank god this game is so popular.

i say this because…

let's imagine, for a moment:

i have a weaker spine, and this game is far less popular, and still by an indie studio (granted if it was less popular i might not be playing it but that's beside the point).

let's say i recieve this and decide, at 'best', to modify my playthrough… not according to what i want. but because of some random guy on the internet who's being weird.

suddenly it's incredibly ingenuine for a game that wants you to make YOUR own choices.

or, a step further: i just stop live blogging it. if people think i'm making the 'wrong' choices, why show that, after all?

maybe, at worst, i even stop playing.

anon, if this game HADN'T of gotten the reach it had… how do you think this kind of attitude would affect it? or, hell-- even as popular as it is… this is still… pretty fucking rude to do to other people, and by proxxy the creators to a point.

like, there is the 'don't be a fucking dick in the fandom' part, obviously. shaming other people for their perspective on a game that WANTS you to do so is, uh. pretty boggling.

but there's also the other point that doing this DOES hurt indie creations. not that oh you have to treat them like glass and never debate with each other no no-- but treating people like this when they're publically helping talk about an indie game… is kind of shit, actually!

and to clarify-- i'm not holding myself up as some like, single beacon of the slay the princess fandom, like, god no-- there's a lot more influential people here who have done that way better than me in terms of hyping up this game.

more so that-- well, this isn't for anon. i know i'm not gonna convince them, whoever they are. and, hopefully, since the ask you sent after this, that I can tell is you because you use that cute little condescending indicator of thinking ways i'm playing you don't like/think is 'right' is ''''funny''''-- i've finally been able to block your ass. good riddance to someone who bafflingly was apparently following someone's content they don't really like all that much and don't know how a fucking block button works on their end.

like. are you like this with any friends you have? do you look at them and also like, similarly act like god's rudest little asshole about however they play a game? interpret a media? if you're allowed to determine my apparent entire morality from a short view of my play session i think i'm allowed to determine from this short (unfortunate) window into you that you sound pretty fucking insufferable.

no, this is moreso me-- other than making fun of anon and gawking at them-- going don't fucking do this. not JUST because it's rude-- but it can actually be VERY detrimental to other indie projects, even this one to a point, that's SUPPOSED to have discussion and different interpretation.

don't be this weird asshole.

#hoping people get what i mean when i post all this #this anon has just been like. in my inbox almost the entire time and like. i've been just kind of looking at it like man wtf #anyway hopefully my point gets through here #pichlive answers #also to further clarify: no i don't mind other takes but this anon was being fucking weird and #in hindsight very fucking stupid and obnoxious about it #if it was just saying i might be too judgemental or jumping the gun on the narrator or hinting there's more going on or even disagreeing #thatd be perfectly fine! but implying i'm some kind of idiot for not immediately playing the game some rando wants is. uh. well #its something else #and i am not intending to speak for the creators i just get the vibe that. this ask spits very much in the face of what they may have #intended #or how they'd want people to like experience the game in terms of playing it freely and forming their own views

[nyarlathotep-thecrawlingchaos]

Hello, I'm the anon that spoke about autism, sorry about the asks being so close together, but I just read your response.

I entered the Psychology field to be able to treat patients from a ND's point of view and offer a different brand of understanding and comfort than I've seen myself and a thousand others (especially people who have schizophrenia, Tourette's and DID) be given.

I have a newfound brand of respect for you ( I am clarifying, because text is tricky, that I already respected and quite admired you as it is, it's simply increased) for the response you've provided. Thank you very much.

Autism, even nowadays, has a ton of misconceptions even for professionals who are biased. It is still diagnosed as Asperger's (even though the term has been in disuse and was taking out of the official Psychology term and had the reasoning well explained, due to its disgusting story), and nobody bothers to tell patients about it, or even worse, people don't care enough to know the difference or change their view of it even when told. This, paired with the whole view that Autism is an illness, that vaccines can cause it, and a thousand other misconceptions, make it so even getting a diagnosis becomes detrimental to people getting a job in the future, and so, people become isolated. The way you've immediately pointed out that both children were vastly different even when they were both autistic is heartwarming and it is the reason Autism is an spectrum. Once again, thank you.

Because I have no personal knowledge on your own case, nothing but textbook understanding from my field of study, I won't comment on it, but I agree with you wholeheartedly. Even as someone who does not have to live with it, it is disheartening to have to constantly see, both in cases and in day-to-day life, how any kind of mental illness, neurodivergent, etc, ESPECIALLY Schizophrenia in any capacity, becomes the go-to for shows and movies' killers and bad guys, or is boiled down to either comedic relief and/or something 'quirky'. It seems to never be taken seriously and talked about it maturely, and I despise it. Please, know that at the very least one of your followers is deeply understanding of this and that you should feel free to speak about it without fear of judgement.

You've made a safe space for us, allow us to make a safe space for you too. You're a very kind soul and I wish you the best.

Your writing is wonderful, and you've made me feel incredibly secure and comfortable in reading any other set of headcanons you've made for the rest of the characters (especially Mihawk in this case), because now, thanks to you, I know how they're going to react to my ND and my mind doesn't get to try and be self-detrimental. I know it seems silly, but in a way, you've done something extremely important to change a small part of my life and I sincerely thank you ❤️.

First, please don't feel like you ever have to apologize for asks here, close together or otherwise. I'm always happy to respond when I'm able to.

Second, it's my dream to be able to go into psychology as a profession, for the same reason, to be able to help people with similar problems who are often misdiagnosed and misrepresented.

Third, on autism specifically, the fact that there are STILL people who believe it can be "triggered" by vaccination honestly disgusts me. It's misinformation that leads to people keeping their children from getting protection against potentially deadly illnesses, and as a result potentially exposing other children to said illnesses. Absolute bullshit.

Autism is a fucking mental health disorder. It's not "triggered" by anything. It's also not something to be feared. It's a thing that happens, something that some people are born with and some aren't. The only reason it's more prevalent now than it was in the past, in my opinion, is because neurodivergeant kids in the past were just dismissed as "probelm-children" and given no further attention, so it just wasn't given as much attention in the past. We've come a long way since then, but that ideology does still exist and it frankly disgusts me.

So fourth, I do thank you for your understanding, regarding schizophrenia. There are a lot of people who consider "schizophrenic" synonymous with "psychotic serial killer." Definitely not the case here. As I said in the last post, my main symptoms are auditory hallucinations. Most of my auditory hallucinations revolve around insulting me and making me feel insignificant. It's like there's an army of little goblins that live in my head and exist for the sole sake of second-guessing everything I say and do.

I hate it, but it's what I deal with.

And I don't want anyone else to have to ever deal with that.

I want everyone here to be happy and comfortable.

[decompose1]

hey i've been seeing these 'object shows' here and there but i don't really know what they're about. i tried getting into hfjone and i don't think it's for me. but your analysis of a phone character's morals was really good and got me interested in them! could you explain the premise of these object shows very briefly? and recommend any series that have good/complex character development? it'd be really appreciated!

Aw sure anon!!

So ONE is definitely. This is a weird thing to say about silly object cartoons and i don't mean it in any elitist way at all, but ONE is what i'd consider an "advanced" object show. It's definitely sort of meant for people who already know the genre, because it works as a deconstruction of common object show tropes!!

I'll cover some of the big ones here, otherwise this is gonna get MEGA long, but know that there are a lot of object shows, and they vary a lot!!

Battle for Dream Island:

The one that started it all! This was the very first object show... ever!

Created by twin brothers Michael and Cary Huang in 2010, when they were just 12 years old!

Based heavily on shows like Total Drama Island and Survivor

The object contestants are competing to win Dream Island, which is a luxury island with lots of cool amenities.

This is both the oldest and longest show to date, i believe. It started the whole genre, so i DEFINITELY recommend starting with it if it seems up your alley!

General vibe: A more lighthearted, silly, whimsical show with a few hard-hitting moments and topics.

4 seasons

Deaths: Not usually serious. Characters die often for slapstick comedy, and are usually just revived without issue. There are only a couple times a death or near-death is ever plot relevant, this show focuses more on interpersonal conflict within alliances.

S1 is hosted by the Announcer, an alien in the shell of a speaker box. He's cruel and monotone and pretty funny. I cant say much on S2 without spoilers for the end of S1!!

S3 was cancelled after only one episode because Cary went to college

S4 is the longest (split into 4a and 4b), and is hosted by Four and X, two aliens taking the form of algebraic symbols ("algebraliens"). They're a lot more like.. wacky and strange as hosts, i like them a lot.

Inanimate Insanity:

My personal poison of choice. I make no claims about you liking it as much as i do. HEHE.

Created by Adam Katz in 2011, inspired by BFDI and TDI.

The second object show ever!

3 seasons (2 of which are ongoing. S3 is a side season that isn't canon to the timeline of S2!)

Contestants are competing for $1,000,000

General vibe: About 50/50 comedic and serious. There is a LOT of comedy, the show is generally pretty silly n goofy, but they also tackle some extremely serious, very real subjects (including capitalism, abuse, mental illness, and queerness. Yes i'm being serious)

Deaths: Mixed between comedic and serious. There's a fair bit of slapstick, but there are also some plot-relevant, upsetting, and/or permanent deaths. MePhone4 is the only method of recovery.

Hosted only by MePhone4, who is essentially this universe's iphone (4). There are other MePhones, but it's only 4 who actually runs the show (barring 5 specific episodes in which he isn't able to).

S1 is... quite old. It definitely shows its age. I love it to death and still recommend it to those who choose to watch ii, the plot is good, but please keep in mind it does have a few offensive jokes. The creators were bein' dumb kids, they've grown!

(I can clarify further, should you message me (feel free to! i'm friendly!). I have a CW list for those who'd need it!)

Late S2 is where it really picks up. It starts to take a much kinder hand to the characters and their problems. I will warn you that season 2 gets extremely dark. I went in blind, expecting it to be like BFDI, and ended up experiencing. like. the doki doki effect. Legitimately shocking. The topics brought up in late S2 are handled very well, though, IMO!

S3 (Inanimate Insanity Invitational/III) is a lot more lighthearted and silly as a breather while the crew finishes the darker story of S2. It's cute!

The Nightly Manor:

A smaller, shorter, but extremely serious and tragic object show.

Created by Allen Lee only a year ago, and still ongoing!

There are only 5 episodes out, but they contain multiple original songs and have already made me cry. TEARJERKER SERIES.

General vibe: Starts comedic, quickly turns to a murder mystery and then a tragic story about grief. It's so fucking good.

Deaths: ALWAYS serious. TNM does not have recovery.

A non-competition show- this one is a mansion murder mystery.

This one is a personal fave.

Honorable mentions i don't have a solid list for right now:

Sacriverse (particularly Obsolete Battle Show and Happy Star's Guide to Object Shows)

Animated Inanimate Battle

#hope that helps! #this isn't exhaustive and is just my takes!!

[officialtayley]

after some thinking i realize my initial ask probably comes off far snarkier than i intended it to be. i 100% understand why you wouldve assumed that the post was about you, as i probably wouldve too. i just wanted to clarify to you because one i hate being misinterpreted and two i dont want you to think i believe you did anything wrong. as i said i do appreciate you defending me, as well as addressing that i was in the wrong(which i wont deny, i definitely let it go further than it shouldve). i guess i just wanted to let you know bc i do feel guilty that i made you think you were wrong or like you needed to make a post clarifying where you stand. thank you for reading to me ramble aimlessly, yall have every right to feel however you feel, same way that i do.

i assume ur the person from twitter so i'm going to address u as such. if ur not then.... oh well.

i wouldn't have thought there was any issue with me had i not ended up blocked by you and also soft blocked by someone i was moots with. that, to me, and probably to anyone if they were me, looks like i am being blamed in some fashion and naturally does look like i am responsible for what my anons say or i uphold their opinions on it all.

i watched it all happened in real time, i had to figure it all out in real time. all i saw was that someone i was moots with saying "oh you little shit" and about not being in their messy era etc etc and immediately i was soft blocked, saw i was unable to see someone's reply and learned it was you (i assume it's u from twt based on how this is worded) and was told about the few tweets.

you can block me for any reason in the world, who cares, it just caught me completely off guard to be the one blocked when i didn't actually do anything for once in my life. keeping all that in mind, there's not really any other way to interpret the tweets considering the actions that came with it, knowing there was discussion about it on my blog & it still very much looks that way.

anyway. this is long so i'll shut up, i just don't like being the one to basically take the heat for what my anons want to say. i don't know what ur initial ask was (idk if it sent or if i answered it and i don't remember what one it was) but i appreciate you sending this in. i'd also like to apologise, and apologise for ppl judging you so harshly.

#anon #answered

[stuckinapatriarchalbullshitland]

Enzo anon here - the more this era is progressing, my theory about gaymila being used as damage control and for profit seems to be happenening.

I have some thoughts that I know many other CS share, i think it would be good to summarise what i’ve seen on different blogs into one post as well as adding my own theory. So this will be a long one but i hope you guys find it insightful and Stuck thank you again for giving me a space on your blog!

Let’s look back on CC2 and the aftermath of its release. A quick disclaimer : I’ll only be addressing her situation in terms of the social/PR aspect as we have no idea what other factors might be at play such as contracts and money etc.

It’s fair to say that C was and is not in a good place reputation wise. Señorita was of course a smash hit but was mostly used to promote S. Her fans complained about C almost becoming a double act with S. These fans understandably signed up for C, not S and so subsequently most of them unfollowed her on SM and stopped paying attention to her to escape the constant Showmila. For the GP, Showmila became a mockery and so it’s asking a lot from her fans to stay when she was constantly embarrassing herself to the point that it made it uncomfortable for them. Of course with this comes the racist controversies also involving Normani which brought back the entire 5H feud. This put C even further than she already was against LAND and so the narrative that she was hated by the other girls for being obnoxious and attention seeking was further reinforced by her being racist towards N. All of this made/makes Camila extremely easy to hate, to the public she seems like a privileged straight girl who has never once had any sort of difficulty or obstacle in her life.

On the CS side of the fandom, many having left after having enough of the Showmila circus, leaves very few CS to fight back against the narrative. Even more leave after Lauren’s bombshell of a podcast. For example, this graph from google trends show how searches for “camren” or “camila cabello camren” are/were decreasing.

We know that CS are a very large part of C’s fanbase so who are we left with ? Many solo C stans all have converted into SS accounts and again even then S takes the main focus, not C. So… its not looking good, having people being fans of yours only for your relationship is a risky move business wise. We’ve all wanted Showmila to end for a long while and we definitely can all agree that the end is long overdue, infact a lot of us believe that had there not been the pandemic they would’ve broken up a while ago. So where does C stand now? Well, in my opinion, after this entire circus (which unfortunately is still ongoing) C is in a very vulnerable position. How does she promote her upcoming album with so much of her fanbase gone? Perhaps a big break up album? That option doesn’t sound great when she most likely will get the short end of the stick narrative wise and be further disliked by the little fans she does has left. If Camila doesn’t have Shawn anymore, the SS will most likely all disappear leaving her with a very limited amount of people who have the guts to actually publicly support her. Another option she could have is to keep riding on this relationship until people get bored, only that’s already happening and Showmila does not have the punch it once did to get a second Señorita. What about a fake pregnancy or a marriage? God we hope not and I really believe that Camila would do anything in her power to avoid that as we’ve seen how extremely unhappy she seems just being his girlfriend. For all we know Shawn might be very against this idea too and even if they did go along with it would it really be enough to promote CC3 ? After a few weeks the excitement would have died down again and leave them both back to square one. Not to mention that C getting married/pregnant would make even some of her most dedicated fans leave for good and would still not be enough to get her out of the racist accusations.

This is where my theory comes into play, however i think her team will only follow through with this if they are smart and if they aren’t actually sabotaging her. This past year I watched as Taylor Swift released her two albums and broke numerous records and achieved incredible success. I do not think this success would’ve been achieved had it not been for the insane rise in speculation over her sexuality due to her new songs. T is of course a household name, she’s earned her place amongst the top artists of this generation but people were starting to get bored hearing dramatic songs about her oh so difficult love life being a straight white girl. This is why when folklore and evermore came out there was so much buzz and excitement about T possibly being LGBTQ to the point that it found it’s way to the GP. People were wondering what these gay songs with gay lyrics were and so they went to listen for themselves. Eventually tons and tons of extra streams and talk generated from people who would’ve otherwise never paid attention. Myself included. You can see below on google trends the massive increase in online searches for “gaylor swift”. The gaylor side of tumblr also expanded as there had never been so many songs with so much queer interpretations to analyse and discuss and more and more of the GP were getting curious enough to read the blogs. Regardless if you think Taylor is gay or not, the general public discussing it was an essential part in improving her image for Gen Z and promoting her albums thus creating $$$ for her team and label.

Keeping this in mind, I believe that C might (not having many options left to salvage her career/reputation) take a page out of TS’s book and have an era that will attract more LGBT fans than ever before. We’ve seen how camren is slowly coming back. Even just by C liking a picture of L’s it was enough to bring back out a whole lot of fans who had abandoned her. Her team see this, they know this, they are aware. If talks of Camila being gay will generate more $$$ they will use that to their advantage and push out the new gay narrative as much as they can. I don’t think she will explicitly come out any time soon, and i don’t think that they will “confirm camren” but this era will definitely set her up for it in the future like the way it has for TS and it will give her a stable fanbase for a long while, which at the moment she is in dire need of.

Although C would’ve probably liked her relationship with L to remain private I think she may have no other choice but to use it more than she ever has before to save herself. Sadly no amount of self improvement and apologies will ever erase her racist past, it will follow her forever and people will never stop talking about it, unless there’s something more interesting to discuss. That’s the way the internet works, a photo of camren together in 2021/2022 would generate more buzz than anything Showmila related. Not only would all of the CS who left come back but all the anti-CS would be talking about it too and an entire wave of new fans would be interested enough to join. There would be no room to talk about Camila Cabello being racist when Camila Cabello is actually gay/dating Lauren Jauregui is the new talk.

Of course this entire process will not be instant but we can see that they are building up to something like that. Perhaps Camren being public friends again which would still generate a ton of talk as it did back in the 5H days. She will not instantly break up with S and then be seen making out with L the next day but I do think that although it wasn’t her or her teams plan to use her relationship/sexuality, i think she has no other choice if she ever wants to gain favour with the public again. Let’s not forget that the rest of 5H seem to be on their way to having new music out very very soon and just as camren worked to promote 5H in the old days it will work again in 2021/2022. This would encourage her team even more to follow this route as it would suit everyone, even if they no longer are a group they will always be connected.

We shall wait and see what happens, of course circumstantial situations may arise to cause them to switch up their plans but for now all this 5H, camren and gaymila interactions are no coincidence. That’s for sure.

This concludes my very long post! thank you to anyone who took the time to read this, thank you again to Stuck and if anyone has anything else to add that i might have missed or any questions don’t hesitate! I love hearing what everyone else has to say. To clarify these are all my personal thoughts and speculations and I am not claiming to know anything for certain.

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Wow, I didn't expect to be a window into another great submission from my dear buddies, but Enzo, I loved your post. And I really totally agree with you in what you mentioned.

The truth is that it is true, Camila has been selling her LGBT + agenda of hers since 2020 and even long before because I always had the theory that she would be let out after having a big heterosexual PR circus. This PR circus with the diva is that circus and what we have been seeing, because it checks all our theories.

As for Gaymila, she has always been there. More crushed with the fucking circus shit maybe, but she's always been there and one thing I want to emphasize is that most of Camila's fandom other than SS or homophobic, would accept Camila out of the closet, ALWAYS AND WHEN NOT WITH LAUREN.

That is why I think Camila would have more followers if the aforementioned are left aside, because they would have no problem supporting her and we would be more, considering that those clowns are partly paid fans and bots.

I don't think she will even give him permission to leave her, but if she does it is because that would also be part of her contract. Of her agreeing to do all this theater of the absurd with the circus, as long as they let her out at the end.

The fucking shit hole that is the industry knows that it has to please its LGBT + audience because we are the ones who support artists the most. The main audience for them may always be heterosexuals, but when they get bored and look for something else, the ace up their sleeve will always be the community and with the examples that you have given my dear Enzo, that is proof of it.

The thing with Camila is that she's never been in the closet. They forced her into a closet and that's different. Camila always felt good being herself and they have tried to cover that with different types of circuses since she was in the band because it is what suits business.

What we are seeing now with Camila is that, a double agenda, that of the circus managed by the idiots behind it and Camila's own agenda that lets us see Gaymila from time to time.

And when I talk about an agenda, I do not do it in a negative way but as something that she must have already planned.

My theme now is that it will come in that aspect. I don't think I'm waiting for a circus engagement or a lavender marriage, but I do hope that Camila can set Gaymila freer every time. Unfortunately, everything else is still very screwed up and this circus just represses it more and more.

The problem is that as long as she does not regain some control over her career and her image, no matter how small, nothing will change.

#submission #enzo anon #love you buddy

[becausethathappens]

Will you please write a super angsty fic where Link is freaking out because he thinks the wedding vows he has written aren't good enough and Rhett helps him go over them and make corrections and says they're perfect but also, just says the vows he would say for Link if it was them like it should've been because he's heartbroken and Link can tell but their hands are tied and they don't know what to do so they soldier on without saying a word, but wordlessly communicating lifelong love and misery and everything, maybe comfort as well?

i'm really really sad and i can't shake it off and i really want some good angst and hurt/comfort and i really love you, maura, you're awesome

I don't do unhappy endings, anon. I'm confident you don't either. In fiction or otherwise. So, pardon this if it’s not what you expected.

Please enjoy? This was done a little hastily to share it with you (and I should be writing other things per usual) but I've had a rough week and I want to hopefully make someone smile. (I have way angstier stuff in the drafts and I will be sure to get those out eventually, too.) You’ll feel better soon.  🤞  Thank you! 💞

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now or forever

4k - Rhett writes Link vows.

If you were my boy, Blue

I’d bathe you in honeys (sp?)

I’d sing write you a love song

I’d shoot you a star**

If you were my boy, Blue

There ain’t nothing in this life I wouldn’t give

From my heart, to my toes, to my fingers, my nose (**)

Whatever it takes just to watch you live 

continue to ‘ ’ grow with you like a vine ‘round a rose 

If you were my boy, Bue

I wouldn’t want you all for myself

There’s no star bright enough to match your lightin’

In sickness, blue, so certainly while we have health

Hand in hand, no longer fightin’

What’s destiny (**)

You and & me

If you were my boy, Blue

I'd marry you

&

Thank God for Rhett. Giving him, delivering him, blessing him with Rhett.

Link is in the middle of a spiral (what he’ll later recognize as a panic attack) when Rhett arrives, the eve of his wedding. Bailing him out of this with pen, paper, and a smile.

Link has always been good at improv.

Though Rhett tended to find the words to start. These were his own vows and Link has been putting time to sit and start them off for weeks. Now that he has to, he’s dumbfounded, despite being deeply in love.

Amidst all the planning and chaos, writing his vows was such a given that Link left it as priority sixty-seven on a list of many more.

Unfortunately, even as busy as they’ve been, that list was shredded with the “who gifted what” tracking sheet (both literally, accidentally, and figuratively) back around the bridal shower and it’s been anarchy ever since.

So he thanks God for Rhett, who’s here, to stop another needless disaster from happening.

That same generous God, however, watches him plagued with thoughts of utter devotion at Rhett’s willingness to drop everything on a weeknight and rush over to help Link find his words.

His lyrics, really, is what Link has in mind. Since they used to write songs together and this felt much the same. He’s been floundering all night and now that Rhett’s here, he knows he’ll at least get what he needs done. Even if it’s not all he wants, right now.

That same God seeks judgment on his every decision or flinch against His will, for any reason, to spite him.

For this reason.

He wants to smush Rhett’s face and kiss him. Deeply. He doesn’t.

Even if there were sometime in the past that he could get away with a platonic smooch, now he can’t. He simply could not prevent that from escalating.

So, he merely tightens his grip on the wrinkled scrap paper in his hand and scrunches his eyes.

“Why can’t it be you up there…” Link bemoans, loudly, in his frustration.

Rhett’s eyes widen, in horror, and Link slams his other hand at his mouth, rolling his eyes. “Not like - I mean - why can’t you go say my lines for me. You’re so much better at this kinda thing.”

“Let me read what you’ve got,” Rhett says.

After some review, Rhett sighs, not unkindly and sits down next to Link. “Let’s just talk through what you’re trying to say because, yeah, this reads like liturgy.”

“Ain’t is supposed to? It’s in a chapel!”

“What do you like about her?” Rhett asks, ignoring his nitpicking. “Christy?” Rhett stares at him, waiting, too upset for Link to chastise but clearly wanting to.

“She’s patient,” Link says, reminded by the similar. Rhett folds over the book to an open page and clicks the pen in his hand, writing that down. “A-And she’s kind. Like considerate, ‘specially with babies and little animals. Sh-She does this thing where she immediately drops to their eye-level to make sure they don’t feel unheard or seen. Probably ‘cause she’s always been so tall…”

Rhett’s still writing.

“Then when I’m sick, she forces me to rest. You know I hate that,” Link says, voice rising a little, at the memory. “But you know I need that. You won’t be the last to make me stop and smell the roses or take a break, once in a while.”

“Her hair, write, her hair - the way it looks in the sunshine. Like warm caramel with flecks of gold. She’s a vision, an angel. Especially when she’s wearing all white, like,” Link says, pausing to point to Rhett’s undershirt and pale grey sweats. “Makes blondes look ethereal-like, always has.”

“Oh, and her voice. Sometimes, the way her accent catches, well, you know she don’t like to sing like us, never has, but when she says certain things, asks a question the right way - it’s music. The way it harmonizes with my answer, reminds me of singing, reminds me of us.”

Rhett keeps writing, quiet, and focused.

After a short time, Link can’t stop and wants to crane over to see what he’s come up with. Rhett hands it over after crossing a final “t” somewhere on the page.

“Those’re good, Link, but I think you need to keep closer to what I wrote, leave out the stuff about me.”

“Stuff about you?” Link asks, having spoken in a stream-of-conscious style, Link forgets most of what he even said

Rhett looks away, shakes his head.

Distracted by the desire to read the rest, Link abandons the lingering questions he has about Rhett’s suggestion and response.

“These are great, man, thanks,” Links says, pushing a soft hand into Rhett’s side.

His eyes scan to the bottom where Rhett’s added a few lines about the journey, the marriage, all the ceremonial aspects of the day for him to close with, but then something more.

Something about him.

Rhett catches him catch it and looks further away. “I know Christy pretty well, too, y’know. Y’all are just alike, in that way. She might need some back-up vows, to have and hold.”

Link reads them.

“You know, just in case.”

Link looks up and tries to laugh.

He doesn’t laugh.

He goes back to reading them.

Rhett shifts uncomfortably, touches the back of his neck, and shuts his eyes.

“Rhett, these ’re…”

“I know, bo, you can forget ‘em,” Rhett excuses, still not meeting Link’s gaze. “You want me to… I can rewrite the others on a different - I can turn the page and write ‘em there so you can just…”

“Hey, hey,” Link interrupts him, mad at Rhett putting down his best friend, and eager to explain his actual thoughts. “Rhett, these are perfect. These are… I’m sad I can’t say anything as nice in return to you.”

Rhett finally looks up to acknowledge that and their gaze heats and lingers.

“Not that I…” Link stutters to clarify. “Y-You’d have to be a - if that’s something that was gonna - you know - if that was gonna work…”

His mind does it’s usual jump to a visual for the worst case scenario depicting the implication he stumbled across. Him out eight grand on the wedding. Not to mention a wife, a family, a future, a faith -

a friend -

Link gulps, pushing that back away, pushing them both forward, in his estimation.

It’s too much to bear to think about for another second. When he glances at Rhett, he can’t get a read on his face what he thinks about it, and that’s scary enough for him to want to abandon the concept altogether.

“Christy’s gonna love them.”

It’s enough, saying his fiancée's name, to ground him again. Enough to make it okay for him to grab Rhett’s palm and squeeze it in thanks, between them.

Rhett’s made his choice to give up on film school.

Link’s made his choice to give up on whatever schoolboy obsession he has with monopolizing all of Rhett’s days and nights. 

He’ll stick to the days or every other weekend, however they can still fit time together, is fine by him. This ceremony, tomorrow, feels as much about his graduation from friend to husband, and all that that entails.

They’re adults.

They both know there’s a lot of sacrifices to be made and this feels like the first time he’s really acknowledging how hard they’re going to be to make. He hopes they’ll still see each other.

He hopes their kids will get along.

He has a lot of hopes.

All of them involve Rhett.

There’s a lot he should write down for when Rhett finds his own bride to wed.

Link notices, suddenly, that Rhett is crying. The same part of him that's nearly broken the headwind of these conflicting emotions turns back to comfort him.

“Hey, don’t cry,” Link soothes, realizing he’s also still holding Rhett’s hand.

“‘M sorry,” Rhett intones, the words bubble up and out of him simultaneously, sounding like water draining in a filled sink. “And the night before your wedding, good Heavens.”

“Hey, I’ve been crying all week,” Link says, waving a hand at the stress that planning a wedding has kept put on him. “Nothing I haven’t seen in the mirror.”

Rhett laughs, rubbing a thumb over his own thigh in a way that brushes upwards against the place Link’s clasping his hand. Link nearly pulls his hand back, thinking Rhett’s trying to get him to sense his want for space, but when he meets his eye it’s clear he’d like nothing less.

“I think I’m just -” Rhett starts to say, trailing off. The light from the lamp on the far coffee table is the only thing on in the room. Link drops his gaze a few inches to try and see more of Rhett’s downturned eyes as he hems and haws. He squeezes their hands together, again, this time clasping it more firmly, still pressing Rhett’s large palm down from above. “I think I’m just a li’l jealous, is all.”

It’s the quietest admission he’s heard from Rhett since he told him he failed their chemistry mid-term in eleventh grade.

Link is also so lost at the innocence of the admission that he can only think of follow-up questions. “Of me?”

Rhett looks at him for a long, long minute and finally, when Link’s gaze remains confused for the whole length of the pause, he shakes his head, no.

Then he waits. 

He waits for Link to realize what he means.

But he’s still waiting when Link, oblivious, moves onward trying to comfort Rhett, instead of understanding him fully.

The tension in the room is palpable as Link talks, but only to Rhett, it seems. Only Rhett pictures air bags being deployed in a car safety video as metal hits cinder block. Only Rhett moves his hand, though it’s all it takes to dislodge them from each other completely.

“I know you’re gonna make an amazing husband some day.” Link is saying.

Rhett’s hand aches where cool air now surrounds it.

“I know your wife is gonna get to hear you say such wonderful things about her.”

Rhett wipes his hand of the misunderstanding on the cotton of his pants.

“I know she’s gonna say the same kind of things about you, when it’s your turn up there.”

Rhett mourns the idea that this would ever be requited.

“I know she’s gonna love you, just as much as I do, so she’ll have plenty to say.”

Rhett looks away, wiping the last of his tears from his eyes. 

 “I’ll make sure she has plenty of ideas where to start.”

Rhett pats Link’s leg, in camaraderie, and nods.

And that’s it. They shoot the shit, they make a plan to meet up at a donut place for the groomsmen’s breakfast to thank them for their help, before the ceremony, and they’ll talk things through if Link’s feeling jittery still. Then Rhett’s gone.

It’s not until the next day at eleven on the dot (everyone has an agenda to follow and every moment is accounted for) that Link understands Rhett’s pain.

His mother straightens his tie and flattens the edges of his suit. “You’ll wanna know I heard Christy looks like an angel in her dress, from the girls upstairs.”

“Those actual angels you been talkin’ to, Sue?” Rhett jokes, where he’s twisting his cummerbund around every so often, bored.

“Very funny, honey,” Sue ribs back. “From the cousins, Beth and Hailee Sue. Remember they’re friends with the hairstylist you got to do the curls for Christy’s hair, today? She was over last night getting Christy ready for bed with how to wash and dry it a special kind of way. They were there, too.”

Link starts to tune her out, since there’s a lot on his mind, but then she says more.

“She says the hairstylist was talking about how jealous she was of Christy, all night, getting to marry you,” Sue relays.

“Oh, mama, please,” Link dismisses. The compliments he’s been getting have felt faker than the toupee on his uncle Bruce. That girl has never even met him. “I’m the only person here people should be jealous of, who would be jealous of Christy,” he says, trailing off, muttering his reasoning as he did. “Marrying a trainwreck like me.”

Link looks up in the mirror where some of his friends continue to mingle in various states of undress. Rhett is already dressed, however, and staring straight at Link like he’s been caught with a hand in a cookie jar.

Link’s about to ask what’s wrong when he remembers his words. Then looks again over the planes of Rhett’s face.

Last night’s words slam back into his mind and Link’s mouth drops open.

The church organ belts out an opening flurry of notes before Canon in D begins playing loudly through the sound system built into the rafters above them. Link looks up to see one of the church staff at the door instructing them to join the bridal party to line-up.

Link’s mom dashes off to where she’s paired with her nephew, Link’s favorite cousin, to be escorted down the aisle.

Rhett sees Link’s face rushing through a wash of emotions from a distance, he nods to the staffer in silent understanding that he’ll handle it, and then they’re alone.

He walks up to Link and takes his hand. He squeezes it.

“Hey, you gotta go. We gotta go. It’s showtime,” Rhett insists.

Link looks around like a bomb went off, since in some ways it did, and he doesn’t know what to do.

Rhett seems to pick up on that. He squeezes Link’s hand again.

“I’ll get over it, Link, it’s okay,” Rhett whispers, on the verge of desperation.

That confirmation is enough to fully shatter Link.

Only for a moment. 

The music continues and Rhett keeps his hand hold.

They are adults. They are in love. They have to marry. 

None of these things can be helped.

“I’m gonna be so jealous of Her, too,” Link whispers back. He squeezes Rhett’s hand one last time, as they part.

They leave.

They walk straight.

They part again.

Until later.

They move houses and cities and states.

They move mountains, inside and out.

They move together.

Much later.

They join again.

They run crooked.

They return.

To one another.

Link has spent years worrying a ring that means too much to too few people.

In the beginning, when he cries himself to sleep at what he thinks has been the mistake of a lifetime, it’s His talisman. It reminds him of the expectations upon this life he’s made.

As the years pass, however, the adherence to the bogeymen of their childhood’s rules wears thin. It starts to strictly represent love and patience.

Sacrifice.

It begins to feel like a burden. A representation of what’s been lost, not what’s been found.

He contemplates taking it off, but believes that to be a betrayal of all that it stands for to the people he stands for. 

Then, one day, (surely mid-spin) he hears Rhett tell a story about wanting to change his ring.

He watches the silver twirl as Rhett explains.

He believes he was rushed into a certain type of marriage and a certain type of life by a certain type of person.

It’s a life that he’s grown to love but the ring represents a union forced by custom and not one that’s grown through devotion. 

His ring reminds him of that too often to be good for him.

Link twists his again at the admission.

So, Rhett’s thinking about replacing the ring.

Link returns home that night in a stupor. He’s sure he said one too many things to Rhett to emphasize how wild it felt to hear him talk about changing rings.

Any memories of that day, their wedding, bring up a rush of emotions that he’s never been good at sorting through.

Today’s admission makes him feel the same spur to make use of idle, betrothed hands he feels when he cleans the fridge.

He wants to clean the slate.

He finds an old DVD copy of their wedding ceremony that he paid to have converted from miniDV some years ago. Now he struggles to find a place to watch that DVD. How quickly time has flown by.

Eventually, he ends up in his son’s room - no one’s home for the remainder of the night but he and Christy - now, he’s sitting on a bean bag, squinting at the game console’s controller trying to get the joysticks to move to “play” on screen.

The ceremony bursts to life and, like it was yesterday, Link’s nerves fizzle awake.

About halfway through the video, Christy finds him like that and sits down next to him in a thwump absorbed mostly by the stuffing of the chair.

They watch themselves smile happily at each other and Christy takes his hand.

“Should I be happy or scared to find you alone watching this on a Saturday night?” she asks, wryly, squeezing his palm.

Link doesn’t know what to say. He’s caught up in Rhett’s bygone script being spoken on screen. Words about Christy and about Link that were not their own, declared loudly in front of the congregation.

“I don’t know,” Link admits, shrugging. He doesn’t. He squeezes her hand back.

“You wanna tell me what’s eating you?”

Link hesitates, but relents. He wants that clean slate, after all. “Rhett’s getting his wedding ring replaced.”

“Replaced?” Christy asks, balking.

“Replaced, yeah,” Link responds, sure he didn’t misspeak.

“With what?” she asks.

“Oh, some new one. Fancy thing, very cool, made of trees or something. Honestly he wears the other one, the slick black one more than his wedding band half the time. He says it feels like the old one? It’s the kind of ring you get in a bauble at a vending machine crank. So, he wants a new one.”

“Jeesh,” Christy says, making a face at the screen. The camera catches Rhett stealing glances at the couple, then at the crowd, beaming at all with unbridled pride.

“Wouldn’t you be mad if I did that?” Link inquires, still baffled at the idea.

“Well, no, but don’t you love your ring? Heirloom and all that,” she says.

Link cringes. “Yeah, yeah. Honestly, I do.”

“So?”

“So, I still kind of want to and I’m not sure what that means.”

They watch the screen together.

“Do you wanna stay married?” she asks, in a small voice.

“Yes,” he breathes out.

There’s a long pause.

“To me?” she asks, her voice even smaller.

“Yes,” he breathes in.

She squeezes his hand, her confidence built back up. She begs him to join her.

“And him?” Christy whispers.

They both look the screen, the lens centered on the two of them, but their gaze is mutually torn to where Rhett stands wiping a tear from his eye at Christy reciting the last of the vows that he wrote her. Wrote him. Wrote them both.

She squeezes his hand again.

“Yes,” he breathes out.

She leans her head on his shoulder.

“You should probably get another ring, then,” she jests. “We shouldn’t have to share everything.”

The slate is clean.

There’s a lot he wants to say to Rhett about it, but just as before, he’s relied on Rhett to give him the right words to say. So, instead of words, he starts wearing Rhett’s ring.

Then, a new one, when he realizes he can match him separate from the other, all told. Have something of Rhett’s, all to himself.

In his unspoken push towards something more, their hands now match along with their steps, as they walk forward.

On the last week in July, they get ice cream at the fifth place that month to mistake them for husbands, but the first one he hears Link crow an affirmative in response.

Rhett waits for him while he triple-tips the cashier (for the guess) and pays for their cones.

“Bad joke,” Rhett says, softly, but firm.

“Who’s kidding?” Link parries back, a smirk dancing it’s way across his lips.

Rhett watches him with a wistful look of disbelief.

“Link, we’re married,” Rhett warns him.

Link shrugs. “I know. I’m just waiting for you to figure that out and minding my ice cream here, all right?”

He’s got a mouthful of vanilla bean and extra cookie crumble, the next second, so his vow ends there.

Later, at home, Rhett startles Jessie awake when he fully realizes Link’s words.

He shakes her awake. He shakes them both awake.

“I’m in love with Link,” he says, like it’s a confession.

She kisses him because so is she. So are most people.

“What’s wrong?” she asks.

Rhett repeats himself.

So does she.

They stare at each other under the cover of silk and moonlight.

“We’re married,” Rhett whispers, touching his hand to hers. Their rings clink, new and shiny.

“Yeah, and so are we,” she whispers back.

They fall asleep smiling.

The next day, Rhett sneaks up behind Link while he’s working and causes him to spill his cup of coffee. He gets the stink eye for only a minute because it’s the same length of time he can stand Link’s grumpy mug before he has to swoop down and kiss him on the lips.

“You figured it out,” Link says, grinning.

“I did,” Rhett chirps as he kisses Link more.

They take a car to their house. It’s filled with their love and the history of it; before, during, and after.

“What’s this?” Link asks, dazed in their post-sex glow, naked and alive.

He spots an old chord book of theirs from last time they wrote music.

“Oh,” Rhett says, bashful. “I came looking for you here this morning, hoping you slept over again, but, uh,” Rhett stalls, looks away and tries to take the songbook from Link’s hand. Link pulls it far enough he can’t reach. “You were already at the job.”

“And?” Link asks, using his spry, sinewy body as an advantage to slink away from the bed out of Rhett’s grip. He still has the book in hand.

“Those are your vows,” Rhett explains.

Link looks down and squints, confused. These aren’t the vows that Christy read at their wedding. He’s seen that video only a few months back and is sure of it.

“Our vows,” Rhett whispers, explaining further, at Link’s puzzled look.

“It’s a love song,” Link notes, marveling at the gesture. What it means to a young version of himself that once felt like they had surely cut out and mourned the possibility of this - all of this - ever happening. To have that thought coexist with the image of a nude, hulking tree trunk of a husband laid before him smiling up adoringly felt panoptic.

“So are you.”

Link begins to cry.

“Play it for me.”

Rhett wipes his cheek.

“Get my guitar.”

They sing twice more that night, always in harmony (not always in lyric), then spend the rest of their lives together doing much the same.

#things i wrote #@anon #i hope you are doing well soon #💙 #rhink

[genshinboys]

oh my goodness, i wouldnt be anon anymore if i shared

but not like it matters because i just started out anyways, so no one would know who I am💀

i should clarify that it’s not Childe and Thoma separately. It’s Childe x fem reader x Thoma. cause… why not?

i am absolutely shameless

also, there’s another fic on that blog that is divided (?) in the fandom. it has to do with ChiLumi but it isn’t a nsfw, it’s a dark content/angst kinda thing (idk how you feel about that, and if it makes you look at me different - i’m sorry 😔😔)

but if you’re okay with that, i wouldn’t mind sending you a link to the ultimate malewives dominating reader and exposing myself to you 😳

- 🐚

🐚

Oh, anonie!

Fear not, I would never look at you differently. I hate shipping wars and as long as the ship doesn't involve a minor or a direct family member, I'm fine with that.

And yeah in my honest opinion, just to clarify things here, the traveler is definitely not a minor, and to take the matters further, diluc and kaeya are no damn brothers in my world so yeah xD

People can now bash me for that but I don't mind.

So, no I'm not gonna judge you for anything and yes I love chilumi. My only problem is that I'm such a weak hearted blob that I cannot read angst and I avoid it like fire xD it makes me bawl my eyes out 😭😭😭

Any other story? Oh please anonie just send it my way 🙏❤️👀

Also who cares about being anonymous, let's be friends 😊😉

[naruto-general-opinions]

Hi mod, I'm the Anon that suggested a possible set of rules for people who do not wish for others to get involved in their post. I've been reading several of the replies and I'd like to clarify a few things, as it may have caused some confusion: I'm simply a bystander and avid reader of the blog. I haven't disclosed my ethnicity in any posts either and I didn't intend to for the sake of neutrality, however, I’ve recently seen an anon post on the narutoblogcallouts where someone expressed being upset about it and not feeling safe as a poc within the fandom because of that post. So, if it makes them feel any better, I’m not white either.

Despite this, I still don’t agree 100% with what’s being said in the original post - I have a right to those reservations. I didn’t intervene in that post, I wrote a separate one in lieu of what I’ve seen, with a suggestion in mind: just because I am non-white doesn’t imply I have to automatically align myself with OP’s take: I am and always will be someone who advocates for free speech (unless it’s actively harming someone) for everyone.

Still, I really didn’t intend for this confessor to feel unsafe, I’m so sorry for that and maybe it’s because I came off too harsh, but I also think they misunderstood the point I was trying to make.

Anyway, the reason why I suggested a possible DNI option was because it's become apparent that some people feel the need to share an experience without hearing further discourse regarding other people's. Most probably the majority of yt people within the fandom don't fully understand OP's plight as a poc ; on the other hand, everyone has a right to expression, be them of whatever color; it's also worth noting that the anons who came forwards are not all white either, several have stated they're pocs themselves. All in all, the entire thread is a bit of a mess.

Viewing this from the outside, it seems that interactions such as these, especially when little context is provided in a confession, generate confusion and arguments in which people reduce themselves to name calling. It also leads to harmful generalizations and patterns of fallacy because the go-to assumption is that anyone questioning the OP is by default yt (which is ironically what's happening here with my post too).

Conversely, I think that if a person just wants to vent, doesn't wish to entertain discourse, or wants their post to stay strictly on topic, then they should have the DNI option or a “keep it relevant!” message at the end of the confession. It's frustrating for a poc to give their testimony of an experience with a portion of the fandom and have everyone jump the post, because this tends to erase their voice in the matter.

I would however think it's worth it to underline one thing: if a person is going to make an accusation of any kind, then they should back it up with an example/explanation. People (and obviously so), jumped the post because it was lacking context - it's a generalized accusation with little to no evidence, no one takes anything at face value. I also get the impression that some of the anons asking for clarity are either new to the fandom and haven't had a chance to interact much; some were poc but maybe from a different part of the fandom and wanted/needed context to understand how to recognize yt sasuke stans. My suggestion certainly wasn’t to silence pocs, it’s the exact opposite, it was to give pocs the chance to showcase their experiences without having to entertain discourse or feel like their post is being derailed. It’s sad that this person thought that and also thought that you (mod) would be happy to agree to this.

I don't know, make a poll on it maybe? That way it's a democratic choice and not taken by one person? Make what you wish of it mod...

I'll see what everyone else thinks an go with the best possible option. I certainly do want everyone to have a voice. Well, except the obvious nasty people, of course.

The DNI seems like a good idea. I do think people come here to vent about a topic but don't want to engage in debates, explanations and so on - only wanting their post to be aimed at those who understand what they mean.

We'll see if something can be worked out.

[thetriggeredhappy]

Uh, 7: Speeding Bullet/Spydad fic based (if you don't mind) on that iconic scene from 22 Jump Street plz?

anon you’re a fucking genius. not gonna go word for word but that’s just an incredible scene as a basis (warnings for just SO much cursing and some extremely saucy implications, but no actual saucy scenes)

7.) “I don’t understand.”

Stumbling into breakfast ten minutes later than he usually did earned Sniper some glances, which quickly transformed into stares.

Shuffling to the coffee pot and not even bothering to check what brand was in it, Sniper poured himself a cup. His shirt, the same shirt he wore the previous day, was rumpled halfway to hell, collar sitting all wrong and sleeves half-pushed onto his elbows. His boxers were equally mussed up, and as Sniper tipped his head back to chug his mug of coffee, hair sticking up in every direction, Heavy and Medic glanced at each other with raised eyebrows as a bright red mark under his ear became fully visible. Pyro was clearly trying their damndest to further muffle a laugh. Sniper just rubbed at his eyes, clearly still half-asleep.

Sniper plopped down in one of the two empty seats left at the table, the one to the right of Demo, who had to bury his face in his arm to keep from laughing, his shoulders shaking wildly, as the room got a view of his neck under his collar, still unbuttoned, which appeared to have been attacked by a wild animal.

Sniper didn’t notice the barely-stifled laughs of almost everyone else around the table. He also didn’t notice who was sitting directly across from him and looked about five seconds from committing the real kind of murder or exploding.

“Good morning,” Spy said, voice perfectly even, facade of calm almost perfectly intact except for the various muscles in his face twitching with hardly-repressed rage.

“Mmhmm,” Sniper hummed, voice slightly hoarse, head falling to rest on his arms.

Further chuckling from the table. Engie tried to hide his smile behind his mug, glancing at Spy, whose rage was somehow still growing.

“So Scout is late,” Spy observed neutrally.

“Mmm,” Sniper agreed, blinking at his coffee cup a few times before burrowing into his forearms.

“Any idea where he might be?” Spy asked, voice the kind of perfect calm that nobody in the world used.

Sniper’s head slowly lifted, revealing a mask of horror. He glanced around the table, suddenly fully awake, and for the first time noticed the way the whole team seemed to be mere seconds from collapsing into laughter.

Demo, still nursing a hangover, suddenly connected that last pair of dots, and started laughing in earnest. “Aye, finally got around to it, did ya?” he cheered, knocking his elbow against Sniper’s, who tried to repress his own grin under his coffee mug. “Took ya long enough, Mundy!”

“Stuff it, Tavish,” Sniper replied back easily, rolling his eyes, not without fondness. “Not anyone’s business what goes on in my bedroom.”

Heavy needed to gently hit Medic on the arm as the doctor almost collapsed under the force of trying not to laugh. Spy was going beet red under what little skin his mask showed of his face. He was clenching his fists so hard the leather of his gloves creaked. Neither of the pair across the table from him noticed.

“Wait, really?! Thought you two just had a pash, you’re tellin’ me—“

“Leave it, Tavish,” Sniper said, shaking his head to himself with a little grin.

“Can’t hardly! One’a my best mates gets with another of ‘em, can’t expect me to tone it down!” Demo protested. “And that’s not hardly an answer! Yes or no?”

“As if I’d say yes here in front of everyone,” Sniper huffed.

Demo was off and laughing again, rocking back in his chair with the force of it. “Damn well right! Up top, you saucy assassin you!”

Sniper took the high-five, his reluctance act slipping for a moment and showing that he was indeed clearly rather proud of himself.

Engie’s willpower cracked for a moment, collapsing forward with a short wail of laughter in his place on one side of Spy. Suddenly Spy’s hand was on the inside of his own suit jacket, and Engie hurried to take his shoulder as he tried to stand. “He doesn’t know, Spook, c’mon now,” he protested quickly even as he continued laughing, “he doesn’t understand!”

Spy shook him off, and leaned both hands on the table before him, cigarette case in one of them.

“What? What doesn’t he know?” Demo asked, looking over at Spy, eyebrows raised.

“I don’t understand,” Sniper agreed. “What are you lot still laughing about? What’s funny?”

Spy set his jaw, taking a deliberate breath to calm himself. “Bushman, being that I hate you more than every member of the other team combined, and that likewise you have no particular fondness of me, there is something that I believe you should know, should you decide to continue this behavior,” Spy said stiffly.

“Yeah?” Sniper asked, mirth fading a bit.

Spy opened his cigarette case, maintaining a venomous eye contact with Sniper as he fished through the slips of paper that made up the space behind the cigarettes themselves. No, not paper—photographs, Sniper realized as Spy slapped down two photos on the tabletop in front of him and Demo.

One, the one on the left, was a picture of Spy, a woman, and a baby. Spy looked largely the same, albeit a bit more lively, even in the faded photograph. A phrase in French was written at the bottom, and while Sniper had no clue what it said, Demo hummed in confusion, glancing up at Spy, who looked stony.

The second photo was something else—a picture of a boy, surely not even in his teens yet, wearing a baseball uniform, grinning widely at the person holding the camera. A distinctive pair of big, buck teeth and slightly-too-large ears were what really rang a bell in the back of Sniper’s mind, and he suddenly realized who the person in the photo was, and through a few more leaps of logic, what is meant that Spy had these two photos with him at all times.

He went white as a sheet, staring up at Spy with a horror unlike anything he’d ever felt before. A muscle in Spy’s jaw ticked.

It took Demo another few moments, his hangover fighting him all along the way. But suddenly he understood, and he was out of his seat in an instant, positively beaming.

“HOLY CHRIST,” Demo shouted, “SNIPER FUCKED SPY’S SON!”

Sniper was frozen in much the same way that most prey animals froze in the moment before they were killed. Spy appeared to be earnestly trying to murder him with a stare, and those around the table couldn’t be sure he wouldn’t manage it.

In the mean time, Demo had started in on some almost hysterical laughter, and a good portion of the rest of the team was following behind him.

“SNIPER FUCKED SPY’S SON! LADS, SNIPER FUCKED SPY’S SON!” Demo repeated over and over, taking a lap of the table and high-fiving everyone in turn. “HE FUCKED SPY’S SON! HIS SON!!! SWEET SHITE—“

“Understand that every time he shouts it,” Spy intoned to Sniper below the sound of Demo and the team hooting and hollering and making a ruckus, “I will kill you one more time, each more painful than the last.”

Sniper was still frozen, and therefore didn’t reply.

“LAD, YOU BRAGGED,” Demo insisted, shaking Sniper by the shoulders for emphasis. “YOU BRAGGED ABOUT FUCKIN’ HIS SON, RIGHT IN FRONT OF HIM! RIGHT ‘ERE ACROSS FROM HIS EGGS! YOU FUCKED HIS SON LAD! YOU HIGH FIVED ME OVER IT!”

Spy drew a pistol from within his jacket, putting it on the table next to his cigarette case.

Demo cleared his throat, sitting back down. “Not funny. Not funny at all. Very serious,” he amended, voice quiet. “Very serious situation.”

“I, er,” Sniper began, eyeing the gun on the table. “I feel the need to clarify, that’s not what happened.”

Spy raised an eyebrow. Demo blinked. The remainder of the team followed suit, each recovering quickly from their own laughter. “What? What d’you mean, lad?”

“The, er, the other…” He spun his finger in a circle, then thunked his forehead against the surface of the table, scratching idly at the hickey beneath his ear. “Other way around.”

A beat of complete silence before utter pandemonium, and the first of several times that Spy killed Sniper following the incident.

#sniperscout #speeding bullet #tf2 #team fortress 2 #spydad #shut up me #my fanfiction #my writing #galaxy brain takes anon

[soofection]

jenkai discourse in retrospection

 (long post)

to take a slightly more light hearted break from all the updates regarding the burning sun case, I propose a discourse of jxk in retrospection after gaining all the new knowledge exposed by the media recently

dont read if you dont want to, if you read please dont come attack me for posting what I want on my own blog 🥰

In no way is what I type facts, and I am NOT comparing burning sun case with jxk (jxk is so insignificant and jxk is not a criminal case) yet I will make references to what the media and companies are capable of doing as proven by the exposure from the b. sun case regarding similar behaviours.

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we now know that the kpop world is not what some once thought - an ideal fairytale land where idols/ the media never lie to us.

The truth:

We finally realize for sure that in korean ent. industry, sexual favours (in exchange for sponsors, promotion via media manipulation, basically fame and safety), offering prostitutes services... all in all using SEX is commonly used in return for connections / power / protection from the 'higher ups'.

why did jxk happen?

I propose: to cover yg x jni sex/sexual activities and jni has sponsors rumours (updated). After knowing yg is to a certain degree (personal assumption: large extent) involved in B.Sun and gangnam clubs, it makes sense to suspect that the jni rumour could be real. look up yg's past history, how he obtained his wife (emphasis, obtain). 12 years older yg 'fell in love' the moment he saw his wife as a second year middle school girl, recruited her at 16, ruined her career and married her. who knows how exactly yg treats his younger girl employees? Who is there to protect them?

but its just a 'groundless' rumour why was yg desperate?

to propose reasons: 1) it could be real, if so he HAS to camouflage it before it blows up further. 2) even if its not real, he didnt want to put bp's and his own name's reputation at stakes since bp is his most money earning group right now 3) if he doesnt make a deal with dispatch, who ofc are capable of digging deeper and they hate yg (proven by their ability to obtain kkt chats and exposing b.sun evidences) to supply them a fake scandal to cover ygxjni... dispatch WILL expose him. (also keep in mind jni has other sponsor rumour that might or not be true). and 4) - suggested by anon: yg could be taking precautions before b.sun scandal blows up. As we know b.sun revolves around sex crimes, Yg must get rid of the 'boss had sex with employee' label before b.sun blows up. Or else he will get dragged, it would be like adding oil on fire.

this theory is reinforced by allshitpop stating a media outlet discriminately announced 'the yg x jni rumour was false.' why purposefully mention it when no one asked?

but why ji?

main reason: hes an artist from sm. Yg desperately needed a scandal impacting enough to satisfy dispatch (releasing small unconvincing sandals will discredit dispatch's liability and reputation. ) But what to do when none of yg's male artists are popular enough to create a fuss nor any male groups's careers mature and stable enough to withstand the scandal pressure from the general public? the obvious solution is ofc to beg other big companies - sm or bighxt.

Most popular boy groups atm is still btx and ekso. honestly yg wouldve prefered btx due to their crazy fame, and jni will be their first dating scandal... the reactions would be DRAMATIC. yet in contrast to ekso, btx didnt really need to take that risk in hopes for more popularity. (rmb there would always be adverse effects when being involved in a dating scandal despite positive reactions and large no. of supporters). Also, even if btx has any scandals to cover, bighxt's recent merge with cj-enm (described as 'a powerhouse' aka very huge powerful company) means btx's any potential scandals can be taken care of for now. so that leaves ekso.

Who in ekso fits ji's image the most?

(hence will recieve 'positive' reactions and make them more aesthetically believable. without a doubt, its ji and his on going promoted sex appeal.) Reasons for ji and not other members: 1. theres no harm in giving him a beard (personal belief, ignore point 1. if you think homosexuality/kaisoo pairing isn't plausible) 2. to raise his popularity for his potential upcoming solo. 3. if someone who was involved in dating scandal before came up again, they probably predicts the pairing to be more positively recieved --> more supportors and a more hyped response from the public.

but none of that happened, the scandal was managed poorly. The paris evidence was made in a rush (dates didnt match) park pictures were too ambiguous (again dates and time didnt match), even when dispatch posted a pic of ji in a carpark supposedly came back from hawaii to give jni presents after landing - we learned from ji's own ig live that the day he wore the outfit in the photo, he had already returned to korea a few days ago, was around town shopping and went no where near the airport. Besides these failed attempts there was absolutely no other proof that jxk is real.

why was it poorly managed?

bc this is a rare collab between two big rival companies. Yg was the one begging at the start yet sm wasnt able to take full control of this scandal. Conflicts and disagreements upon makng many decisions were highly likely to occur between these two rivals.

The break up

a lot of fans were shocked when jxk broke up just after 25 days. (brand new record). what else is weird?

sm personally confirmed jxk broke up abruptly. Usually when couples break up, fan rumours start to float around first. But not this time, no rumours surfaced yet sm all of a sudden definitively stated that jxk broke up. Back then I already predicted it maybe because yg or bp got into trouble hence sm wanted to distance themselves as far as possible. I still stand by that idea.

Sm must get away from yg and b.sun case for the sake of theirs/ekso's reputation. sm def dont want to be dragged into the mess. Remember, sm as a huge company themselves def have their own dirt to hide, getting dragged means huge consequences if the investigators target them.

so why did sm agree in the first place? I assume its bc altho sm knew that yg had dirt to hide, they did not know it was something as serious, severe and big as b.sun case / tax evading case. Therefore, what are the coincidences that sm announced breakup shortly before dispatch sparked reinvestigation into b.sun by posting crucial evidences? (the first chats)

its highly possible that dispatch warned sm, (which makes them sound like the good guys but no. remember sm is dispatch's source of money and partnered with them many times. b.sun indeed aint directly related to sm, (as for now) dispatch has no reason to ruin sm) Or, sm could have found out through other sources that b.sun case will blow up soon. they quickly cut their collab with yg early, and announced break up probably without telling yg first. (since telling them possibly means giving dispatch away).

this also suggests that dispatch hates yg but anyway.

The benefits of ji

Comparing the two, jni seems to be the one who gained more from the scandal. She got most of media and the public's attention. there is an explanation for this - shes the 'rookier' one, and the trendier one out if the two since bp is still rising when ekso has reached their plateau. However, ji did gain his own lesser share of attention (indicated by the gained followers on his ig).

I have always said that when idols agree to be involved in a scandal, they are likely to get a 'reward.' but now thinking about it, agreeing to scandals is part of ji's contract, rewards are bonus but not obligations. Besides, the scandal itself supposedly helps ji gain popularity for solo and gains a beard, sm didnt NEED to give him more bonus. Often when idols get more modelling jobs / solo etc after scandals is bc sm uses the risen populairty from scandal as an opportunity to maximise profit by giving them more jobs, it might not be bc sm wants 'pamper' them.

Plan cut short

unfortunately for ji who is not getting his solo soon, the jxk plan flopped due to poor management, and was cut short due to b.sun case. The scandal did not fulfill what it was supposed to do and ended prematurely . Followed by the apparent troubles in sm negotiating contract terms with ekso, (delayed ekso schedules),chxn suddenly getting a solo, and the blowing up of b.sun case, ji might have missed his chance again. Or hes simply still preparing.

to summarize i want to clarify a few things.

- none of these are facts, but an overall picture forming one huge speculation.

- I dont try to defame bp or shame them. i also am not trying to state that girl artists def had sex with the hihgher ups. b.sun has shown us that men always have more power over women, and they rarely get protection.

- I want people to realize the dark side of kpop. The kpop industry is full of conspiracies, media manipulation and lies. What you see on tv is not who your idols are portrayed to be on camera. Don't impose your ideal vision on them and hurt others when reality suggests otherwise.

side note: this theory conveyed reinforcement to statements I've made before

- conspiracies are real and true. Look at all the dark and shady events involved in b.sun case

- media play, mass manipulation exist and are common practice.

- dispatch and sm collab and are partners on a case by case basis.

- idols lie on interviews all the time, their tv persona is different from the real them.

- companies offer protection for their idols

- it is indeed common practice to use one scandal to cover another

ANYTHING can happen in the world of the k ent industry. dont lightly dismiss any possibilities. We must analyse the sum of the situations - the full picture of any events before believing anything we are told.

#kaisoo #jongin #jennie #jxk #analysis #myposts #jxk1 #jenkai

[poipoi1912]

I don't disagree with your points about SVU and how it never got out of the 90s but I disagree that we let it stay there. And I think it's great that people are speaking out about it. I don't think you're trying to say people shouldn't do it... But it did strike me as coming close to saying that, which is disappointing since some people are rightly passionate about it and have invested time in it. Love you and get where you're coming from. Just a little disappointed.

Thank you for this ask, anon, because I should clarify: as I said in my original reply, I think those videos were necessary. But I also think they fell on deaf ears.

They are necessary to create a dialogue within the fandom (because I do have faith that some viewers can change their minds about the topic of representation), and also because the people who create them have every right to have their voices heard. I certainly appreciated both videos, and I also appreciate the voices of those who choose to tweet about this, or post about it in general. It’s important

But I do not think the SVU writers (at least those who have relative power) or Dick Wolf himself are willing to listen, and I have zero hope that SVU will give us any kind of representation that’s meaningful. Amaro was the first and the last fully developed POC we ever had on the show (by which I mean, he had a life outside the precinct and we were privy to his own thoughts and feelings), and he joined the team 6 years ago, and we have literally never had a non-straight character with an actual personal life (and before people say “SVU is not about that”, how many times has Rollins offhandedly mentioned her exes? How many times has Fin? Sonny? Even Barba? Huang never even did that. He wasn’t allowed to. We weren’t even allowed that much.)

So, to reiterate:

I am in no way saying that people shouldn’t keep making these videos, or that we shouldn’t keep talking about them, about these important issues. I love hearing everyone’s thoughts and I think it’s necessary to call shows out for being behind the times (to put it mildly). I think those videos are absolutely necessary for us all, for us to watch and digest and discuss.

I am, however, saying that I personally refuse to give credit to SVU execs for listening (i.e. doing the literal bare minimum), and I also don’t feel like giving them the benefit of the doubt in terms of “doing better”, because they haven’t earned even that.

Basically, whether or not we want SVU to stay in the 90s, that’s exactly where it’s going to stay. The only progress they’ve managed in 20 years is in terms of their treatment of white victims, and I fully credit Mariska for that, not the writers and certainly not Dick Wolf. Let’s not forget Stabler’s hot takes in the late 90s, you know? I’m glad to be rid of those, and I’m glad SVU now highlights the need to believe the white victims. But that’s all. I have no hope for any further progress. Now, if progress does come, I will beshocked pleasantly surprised.

But I do not expect it.

And I will not ask for it, because we shouldn’t have to ask for it, not when so many other (and better) shows are doing a stellar job at having the basic human decency to be (gasp) inclusive, and when even more shows are putting in at least a little effort. We shouldn’t have to prove why representation matters, and we shouldn’t have to ask for scraps. But we do, unfortunately. So I fully support those of you who do ask. Who do speak up. Keep talking, and maybe someone will listen.

Me, I am a little more jaded, and a little angrier, and a lot more done. I care a lot about representation, but I find it hard to care about SVU specifically. It’s not giving me what I want, on any level (cases, character arcs, acting, dialogue, you name it), and I have accepted that. I do, however, care about the community we’ve built, and I love you all, so I’m still watching, and I’m still here, and I still try to find some humor when I write my analyses because that’s fun (for you, hopefully, and for myself, definitely, lol). The show itself is an afterthought for me. Does that make sense? I hope it does, and I hope this clarifies my position.

That said, don’t let my own bitterness either color your perception of the show, or dampen your enthusiasm about talking LOUDLY about the issues about which we all feel strongly. Me, I prefer to write my episode thoughts and touch upon the issues/diss the writers via that route. For your reading enjoyment, and for my own sanity. Those of you who prefer to directly reach out to the writers, I applaud you. And I wish I shared your hopeful attitude, but sadly I do not.

Thanks again for this ask

#svu #in other words #keep doing what you're doing #but be cautious about the response from SVU writers #because they want to appear woke #but most of them don't actually give a fuck #like we've seen in the past #i don't know #twenty years #i mean #the new showrunner is an old white guy #and his input is #let's bring in a new straight white guy #that's just what SVU needs #not enough of those lol #so yeah i have zero hope #for representation #but if i'm wrong #i'll gladly acknowledge it #so let's see what happens #anon ask

[kewltie]

I've been confused about CD for a while. So if you don't mind, could you explain the relationship between donghae and hyukjae's identities... And what do hyukjae's identities know about each other. It's one of my favourite verses of yours ;;;;

Hi anon!!! Sorry it took me so long to response ///o\\\ I had work all day and then i fell asleep typing this up ;A;. 

Anyway, I AM SOOOOO VERY HAPPY TO ANSWER YOUR QUESTION... but this might take a while so buckle up guys and here we go: 

so i just want to make it clear hyukjae is jae and eunhyuk (the regis) as jae is eunhyuk and vice versa. they’re one and the same and though they may act, look and carried themselves differently, at their core they are the same person. they want the same thing for esse to thrive and prosper, for their ppl to be happy, and for their consort--well ya :P. to really explain it we’re going have a little history lesson about esse and the role of the regis there. 

the regis is a holy figure in esse. he’s their god made flesh and their king so yea esse is v v v much a religious and incredibly devout state compare to the rest of the world. everywhere else where the gods are dying as technology advance forward where ppl are less likely to rely on the whims of god (why pray to the gods for your family member to get better on the chance that they actually listen to you when you can have actual medication to actually do it, etc) but in esse they thrive there bc a variety of reasons but mainly bc of the existence of regis. 

so esse is a stronghold of traditions and magic bc the gods hasn’t fail them. they protect them, guide them, and gave them a king who act as their voice and ears to the gods so it’s kind of a circle lmao bc essein values their gods greatly as the world abandoned the old gods which lead to the gods protect and guard them which LEAD TO the essein to revered the gods even more which make esse the land where the gods still walk the land. AND bc esse is a large country with thousands of surrounding islands and how it managed to maintain it’s severe isolationist policy and kept out of conflict for so long relied on the fact that it surrounded by an extremely strong barrier that protects it surrounding this barrier is constantly renewed yearly by the blood of the regis (who powers are blessed by the gods, SEE ALL THIS CONNECTION WITH THE GODS???) and that’s one of the reason the regis and his bloodline is so revered bc they alone keep the country from invaders and from possible annihilation by others that want to destroy them. but this come at a cost bc the regis can’t ever leave his country let alone the palace without being heavily guarded bc enemies come both from in and outside of esse (there’s more than one reasons why the majority of regises all have short life). 

of course this is unacceptable for hyukjae personally bc hyukjae is not an idle ruler he wants to get his hand dirty and not just be a king sitting on his throne and just throw a few commands and have others obey. he has never been that type of person who doesn’t get personally involve bc in his eyes how can he be an effective ruler if he doesn’t see and hear it all in person. he wants to be there in person but he can’t do it as the regis so that’s how jae began. 

so jae is somewhat of a separate entity from the regis but at the same time it’s all hyukjae. he get to leaves the palace and go beyond the borders and get involve in things (i.e. conflict) the regis can’t touch bc politic. as eunhyuk, aka the regis, hyukjae constantly being put in the spotlight and is the anchor and pillar of the nation as he’s the one holding them up and carries the burden of ruling but as jae hyukjae doesn't have that heavy responsibility force on him 24/7 and doesn’t have to worry about how every little action might cause rippling effects. jae is just simple ‘normal’ person who ppl expect very little from while the regis is this larger than life figure who cast a huge shadow on everything he does so as jae he has SO MUCH MORE FREEDOM than before. 

they both understood they have a role to play bc ultimately jae is a tool in the service of the regis--he carries out mission and duty that are beneath the regis’ attention and do it all in the regis’ shadow. he has v little purpose outside fulfilling hyukjae’s dream for a better esse while eunhyuk is stuck as the holy symbol of his nation and is made into something mortals can’t reach--when you’re put o a pedestal and hail as their god it’s hard for ppl to really wrap their head around that you can make mistake, cry, and laugh bc that seems so... human. also his actions & words are constantly being scrutinized by everyone like if he extend donghae a helping hand as the regis ppl think he favor/biased toward donghae and that donghae is weak to be relying on the regis for protection so he’s always tough with donghae as the regis bc of this and bc he thinks donghae has potential but jae?? jae is free to help donghae and he often does in the shadow assistingn donghae on task and freeing him from his troubles lmao w/o other ppl reading too much about it. so yea hyukjae’s actions and words often carry weight as the regis which limit on things that he can do BUT on the other hand jae with all the freedom he has he lack the power and position that the regis has. like what can one ordinary person do against an entire group of ppl trying remove donghae from his consort seat by ya know getting rid of him altogether or how can he persuade an entire nation to accept donghae. there’s a limit to what one person can do while the regis’ has swaying power that can do this bc jae can protect donghae from one assassination attempt after another but he can’t provide donghae guarantee security of his position only the regis and all his nearly limitless power can do. 

so ofc there some resentment and jealousy b/t the two roles bc while jae is free to be himself and do things w/o the looming fear of consequence as the regis over him eunhyuk has to prioritized the nation’s best interest first so he can’t put his anyone above it let alone his own heart. this mean when it’s a choice between millions of ppl and one person, even if that person is the love of his life, he would chose the millions BUT jae doesn’t have to do that. jae is only a person and he get to be selfish for once and can choose donghae instead.  so YEA eunhyuk is jealous the freedom that jae gets while he’s stuck in this role that has no room for selfish love. ON the other hand as the regis, eunhyuk is legally bind to donghae in a marriage, so he has claimed on donghae before jae and even if marriage wasn’t ever their choice willingly they are bonded in the eyes of the gods and to the public they’re married couple so they can hold hands and kiss and do ALL COUPLE-Y things but jae and donghae can only live in secrecy bc as long as donghae is the consort and jae as the regis’ shadow, they can’t ever be together in public like that :P. 

but at the end of the they are are the sun and moon that balance donghae’s world and they both are just shades of a very complex man that donghae is only scrapping the surface of. 

SO ULTIMATELY how is hyukjae able to do all that??? how does hyukjae maintain his role as the regis when he’s constantly under watch while he’s also running around esse as jae??? well that’s spoiler ;P.  

i hope that clarifies thing up for you! if you have any further questions i’ll be happy to answer :D. Thanks for your interest \o/!

#fic: cerulean dreams #this turn out looooooooong #who is SURPRISED NOT ME NO SIR #Anonymous #reply

[gettin-bi-bi-bi]

This is my first time on this blog, so I don't know if anyone has already asked a question similar to this, but if they have, I'd love to possibly see links because I don't want to feel alone. ...I'm a woman with a 90% preference towards women, but I have good self control and nip the feelings in the bud and refuse to ever act on it and just over fixate on any attraction I (naturally) get for men, even if it's much more rare. (1/3)

(2/3) I feel the need and desire to fit into a heteronormative box, not so much because internalized homophobia but because, you know... Same-sex attraction is really scary sometimes, and if I have the chance to not experience that fear, I want to take it. I've practiced a lot to not force my feelings for men despite all this.

(3/3) My question is for any advice on how to live that way easier but also I have a lot of conflict in my head because I feel like a truer "Me" when I'm flirting or interested in women, and I don't know how to find that version of me while I'm with men.

Hi anon,

You’re probably not going to like my advice. As a trans person, I am the last person you should be asking about how to repress your truer self. 

If you only feel like your truest self when you’re with women, then it’s possible that you’re never going to feel that with men. Trying to change what you feel and repress it doesn’t strike me as a healthy thing to do in the long run. 

Same-sex attraction can be scary sometimes, but that’s mostly because of homophobia, both external and internalised. You might not think that you’re influenced by internalised homophobia, but that’s the thing about internalised prejudices. They are inside everyone who grew up in a homophobic society and you can’t always identify how that’s affecting you. 

I know you don’t want to hear this, but I don’t recommend repressing your sexuality if you can help it. If you live in a place where you feel like it’s not safe to act on your attraction to women then, by all means, don’t if it’s too scary. But the inside of your mind should be the one place you can be totally free. It seems you’ve already identified that you’re mostly attracted to women, that you feel like yourself when you let yourself be, but that you’re trying not to feel these feelings. My advice is to let yourself feel. Nobody else has to know about it. It’s your mind and it can be your secret if you’re not ready to share it.

But I know from personal experience that being yourself and feeling like the truest version of yourself is a great feeling when you’ve been repressing it for so long, and I hope you don’t decide to continue this. If I’m misunderstanding something and you want to explain further or clarify anything then please respond. I don’t want to have misconstrued anything.

Maddie has been here much longer, maybe she knows of any other asks like this one or has some advice of her own? But you might have to wait for her to wake up.

If I’ve offended you and you want to talk to only Maddie about this then just specify in your next ask and I’ll respect it.

- Max

#bisexuality #bisexual advice #bisexual help #bi help #bi advice #max #Anonymous

[rabbitindisguise]

Is it bad if I think that the reason I'm aroace really IS because no one likes me? When I was a kid, I used to get lots of crushes all the time. I crushed on at least half the people I met. But every time I got rejected (which was anytime I confessed attraction to someone), my attraction faded away more and more. Ever since I turned 15 many years ago, I realized I wasn't attracted to anyone anymore. And since I still don't have any takers, I guess it's just as well.

Is it bad to . . . identify as ace? Fuck no.

Maybe one third to one half the reason why I'm ace and aro is because I have social anxiety. I mean, I can offer some questions:

Does identifying as ace make you uncomfortable?

Do you wish you had a partner, but think it's unrealistic?

Are you pissed/upset/disillusioned/unpleasant emotions about getting rejected?

And the main question I can say to all that is: do you want to be ace?

Because the thing about being asexual is the identity has taken in a lot of people. AVEN's official stance has always been that asexuality is open to anyone that feels they benefit from the term. As a shorthand, as an umbrella, as a cover, whatever someone needs. That means aspec people, people that don't necessarily fit the definition of asexuality (little to no sexual attraction) but maybe have low libidos, or little sex for many other reasons. Fighting against the stereotype of unassailable aces, or aces that aren't mentally ill or have "other explanations" for their asexuality, has been a multi year process that I've always taken seriously. So the only real stance I can take on "is it bad to be ace" with regards to self identification is "fuck no." This identity is open to you regardless of your personal history, anon, no matter what that history is. It's up to you to pick it up, but if you choose it, it's yours for keeps.

And, ultimately, the entire narrative of your identity is up to you. It's not bad to "acquire" aceness, if that's what happened. It's also not bad to change your mind. It's also also not bad to decide that despite the evidence you were ace all along, or aren't ace now despite identifying as it for awhile, somewhere in the middle, or whatever else you want to say about yourself. There are a million possibilities and all of them are up for grabs here.

People may or may not accept these things like I will, but it's not your obligation to do or say or think things about yourself to satisfy them. Even me! Don't feel obligated to try and satisfy my questions with answers, even. They're just an attempt to help you clarify your own feelings for yourself, a process I am most definitely not a part of and can only chest on from over here

But if you want my ace-ssment as an ace™ that feels 0% conflictions or confusions about my aceness in case you do want to be ace and need a nudge to feel secure in your place in the community . . .

The line:

And since I still don't have any takers, I guess it's just as well.

really jumps out at me

Because I've talked to people who have gotten lots of rejections that are allo. Not saying you can't be one of them! But one thing I noticed was that rejection often . . . increased their desires? It might be a personality thing, and that I'm more likely to hear complaining from them over allos that have accepted their face and still ID as allo, but that's honestly just further proof you can do what you want. So if you do want to be ace, and you want some validation of that decision, I gotta say I don't typically hear "and then I felt less interested in the thing I wanted and didn't get" in any song about sex ever unless it was about slighted exes talking about a single instance of attraction. Correlations? Not causations. Sexuality can be fluid. Not bad at all to come into being ace through a less common narrative.

Hell, I lost my virginity long before asexuality was something I was using to describe myself. I've experienced sexual attraction more after identifying as ace than before I began to identify as ace. The world is chaos. May you have a cat, loved plant, or pal in some shape or form that can keep you company in the times ahead, because you sound rad as heck anon

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