Balmoral does fully blame Foirtchern for Faolan's fate. Like yes, she did get thrown down there but he fully believes she could have changed things. She was, at least in his understanding of her, a Fateweaver. He does think that his existence narrowed and eventually closed that path and of course, he blames his 'father' for even proposing it in the first place.
Especially because he is so sure in his head that Foirtchern did not give a shit of her chances. Odds are together, they could have escaped. But he doubted that Foirtchern wanted to remain any longer than he had to. If he had to screw over some fae to do so, so be it. And even more...it's actually interesting because Bal has his own idea of what Foirtchern is like and he's never met his Abyssborn parent until his appearance recently. But it so happens, he's a lot of what Bal did imagine.
Which probably contributes to his disdain of his parent. Like being cause for Faolan's suffering alone was already terrible terms with Bal. Side note that yes, Faolan was just as terrible of a parent as Foirtchern to Bal. However a combination of an innate loyalty as a Harbinger to her and sort of seeing an 'idealized' version of her in his memory, Bal doesn't view her anywhere as terribly as Foirtchern.
The other part of dislike, I am finding, is because Balmoral can see himself within Foirtchern. And he hates it. He hates it so much. Because he's seeing it as 'this is probably how all of them (his enemies, those he's tricked, etc) view me' and honestly? He can't blame them for not liking him if that's the case. He would want to be rid of himself too.
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need more of shuu pre-kaneki bc i think he was living in an ignorant bliss mindset and i want to feel sad.
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as you can tell by the firefighter au notes, streaming has been a lot of fun for me because it helps keep me focused on art projects while meeting new people, hanging out with friends, and also it's a space where I can unleash my Cannot Shut Up Disease and just ramble for 4 hours a week as I draw dumb memes
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leon is never going to face the consequences of his actions, and it is 100% because he is a white man with a high-ranking job in the government. he is, for all intents and purposes, untouchable. to go against leon kennedy is to disavow a national hero. he is the american agent who saved the presidents daughter, the man who survived raccoon city, and the man who works to counter bioterrorism on a regular basis. leon is so high up on the ladder he can't hear the legitimate critiques of his actions made by those underneath him, and the people around or above him are so far up americas ass that anything he dies is gold to them, so they don't even think to say anything negative about him. he can only condemn himself and his actions in his head and hope that does something (it does not)
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to any 2nd/3rd gen immigrant kids wondering if visiting the country your ancestors are from is worth it: just go. it is.
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when i started TD i was actually between working on TD or working on a bro strider postgame fic. TD won but i still love what i have written for the bro idea. Which was mostly sitting there hollowed out plus actually missing being brainwashed by a puppet. So.
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What caused Hero and Kel's falling out? You two were so close when you were younger.
📖: No, we were never really close. I always mocked him until recently for not being the favorite child, and how he isn’t as loved as me.
…..I fucking hate myself for being a piece of shit.
🏀: What Hero said, he was always an ass to me. Although, my parents were little better…… hell, mom said I was a fucking disappointment several times, whether that be at me or someone else. Dad practically just ignored my existence.
I’m probably never gonna get better……… I’ll probably push away all my friends from my own shittiness. Do you think Sunny deserves better than me?
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