#and I still don't love it but w/e

[nattikay]

Neteyam and Kiri all cozy in their little baby basket, lined with soft yerik hide and mama's blanket

#avatar #avatar 2 #sully family #neteyam #kiri #my art #i had another version of this done in my more typical style with the colored lines and stuff #but i was just. really unsatisfied with the outcome #one of those cases where i really liked the sketch but something got lost in translation while trying to finish the piece #so i noodled around to make this version to hopefully bring what i liked about the sketch back out #ehhh i still don't *love* it tbh but w/e #at this point it just is what it is and i wanna move on to other stuff

[stardestroyer81]

Can I offer you a nice transfem sheep in this tryin' time? 💙🏳️‍⚧️✨

#⭐ Star's Art ⭐ #Micah Vandenburg #Sheep Fursona #Fursona #Furry #Chibi #Cutecore #Kawaiicore #Trans Women #Transgender #Coolness #I had to write the image description for this drawing FROM SCRATCH three times thanks to tumblr's incompetence. #With that brief vent out of the way... behold! W O M E N ! ! ! ! ! #It's been some time since I've drawn the 'chibi version' of my main fursona so I thought I'd indulge... #... in a style similar to Namco's trademark 'broken line' artstyle no less! #It's not 100% accurate (More so inspired) as I don't have a rectangle brush but I still quite love it for what it is #Plus I'm fairly certain this is the first time tumblr gets to see my fursona's usual outfit... #... which is interestingly based off of a very real outfit I've worn out and about before! Bi heart necklace and all! #I A C T U A L L Y drew this for a super secret surprise coming up very soon... #... so if you'd like to know what I drew this for specifically... stay tuned 👀 #Anyways like this post to boop my snoot and reblog to give me a nice big hug 💖✨

[gimmethatagustd]

👀

#i also feel like i need to weirdly make it clear that i'm not a shipper?? #like people aren't separating fiction from reality #while also lowkey being a lil homophobic but i don't have the energy to address THAT #anyway yeah my fics aren't based on any shipping preference or w/e? i write them cuz i don't like writing reader-inserts or ocs #but i still write reader-inserts for y'all cuz ik you like them #are vmin in love? yeah probably but that's besides the point #jai talks

[valeffelees]

only bad thing about being in a fandom where one of the characters canonically has wings is the painful lack of classic wingfic. where is my everything's the same but people have bird wings watford au where one day baz notices simon hasn't been grooming his wings bc of an injury to his ribs so he sits on his bed and makes a whole fuss about how "i'm not doing this to be nice, snow, your wings are just a travesty to look at" and then proceeds to carefully and lovingly tidy his feathers in drawn out silence while they both pretend grooming someone else's wings isn't one of the most intimate things you can do for another person. will this heartbreak never end

#i have an old wingfic that never left the zero draft stage and it was suuuper fucking plotty #simon was still the chosen one in it but not in a weird sex magic kinda way like he was just home grown like that so no humdrum #so lucy is alive and he grew up with her and the mage (and they have a dog!) (simon named her ''little simon'' lmfao) #meanwhile baz isn't a vampire but natasha still died when he was five bc ok i don't know how to explain the lore behind this #bc it has to do with a skeevy blackmarket trade involving human wings like it was kinda dark ngl #but the long and short of it is that baz and tasha are kidnapped and tasha is killed keeping baz safe but baz's wings are damaged #pretty severely and so one of them never grows to full size and it leaves him flightless #n e way simon and baz don't get on bc the mage is still the mage and the old families are still the old families #but they are roommates as usual #and half-term their eighth year pitch manor is raided by blackmarket poachers and mordelia is kidnapped and the whole grimm family is #in shambles so baz goes right to simon about it and there's this reverse of the simon-showing-up-at-baz's-door scene #where baz shows up at simon's door a complete WRECK to ask for help getting his sister back #and simon is like. why are you asking ME for help? #and baz is like. bc you're the only one i know who can #and then they fucking steal one of the mage's cars and hit the road [so good right now by fall out boy starts playing] #and then it's just kind of a normal mission fic about them finding mordelia and saving her life and baz falls out a very high window #and simon catches him etc. #i love wingfics so much #sighs wistfully #i think i need to be alone w my gdocu for while #valen and the void

[nuclearanomaly]

🐱💕🐱

#ffxiv #Ninira Nira #Estinien Wyrmblood #Estinien Varlineau #estinien x wol #I drew this ages ago #and really really hated how it turned out #I shelved it and thought maybe I'd go back to it #i am not going to revisit it... #I still don't love it #but it doesn't make me as miserable as it did #so I'm just gonna post it bc w/e #anyway I think they deserve to be cozy and in coordinated outfits #thanks for coming to my TED Talk #art: mine

[sage-nebula]

I've decided to make my own post because I am not an idiot, but full disclosure that this post is 50% based on thoughts I was having while I was driving home from the auto repair shop yesterday and 50% a response to a post I saw just now that conflated "redemption arcs" (things fictional characters go through in fictional stories) with "community support" (things real life people offer to other real life people in real life) and how this relates to "fixing people" (making someone who mistreats or abuses themself or others not mistreat or abuse themself or others anymore).

Read my words very carefully.

In fiction, it is more than okay to like whatever type of toxic or fantastical relationship you want. If you like to read stories about toxic, codependent people who are absolutely horrible to one another and will never, ever change, you read those stories. If you like to read stories about a tortured man who just needs The Right Person to teach him to be better, and then he is, sometimes exclusively only to them though, then you read those stories. Sometimes you want to read stories where the main character says "I can fix him" and fails spectacularly, and sometimes you want to read stories where the main character says "I can fix him" and succeeds spectacularly, and either way, you read whatever stories you want, whatever makes you happy, I'm sure it's somewhere in this vast Archive that we call Our Own.

However, in real life?

First of all, "arcs" aren't things real life people have. An arc is something that has a beginning, a middle, and an end. Real life people don't have those, because our stories don't end until we die. Unlike a character, whose life presumably continues even after their story ends (except in circumstances where they die at the end but you know what I mean), we have to keep living day by day, with all the rises and falls that come with it. Now, this does not mean that a person cannot change, or that a person can't get better and learn from their mistakes; but it DOES mean that we can't have a "redemption arc" where we complete a checklist of story beats and then suddenly we're a better person who has experienced the necessary growth to be forgiven. First off, no amount of growth or change ever requires any victims to forgive. And second, that's just not how life works. That's not how change works. Change and growth are baby steps taken each day, and sometimes you go backwards, and you get angry with yourself, but then you pick yourself up and you try again the next day, and the next, and the next. It's an ongoing journey that does not end until you die. That's life.

But second and more importantly, the real idea that I think the original post was trying to get at, but missing the mark on was . . . okay.

So, the original OP of the post (and the person who replied to OP) got angry at the idea that the strawman they had invented (the person who had theoretically said "you can't fix him!") would deny support to someone who needs that help to grow and change as a person. The person who had replied in support of OP added that the strawman clearly believed in punitive justice over rehabilitative justice as well. On the surface, I can see where they are coming from. After all, on the whole humans are a social species and do need support networks in order to not only thrive, but survive. People such as drug addicts need support and assistance in order to get into better places in their lives, and the prison system has been proven to be far less effective at preventing repeated offenses than rehabilitative programs. This is all true.

However.

The reason why "you can't fix them" is still true, and needs to be said and understood particularly by those who are susceptible to falling into abusive relationships (e.g. people who have been abused before, particularly in childhood or adolescence) is because of free will. Specifically, the free will that each of us has, but specifically the other person. Person A can want so, so, so badly to "fix" Person B so that they stop being an abusive alcoholic 75% of the time. But if Person B doesn't actually want to stop being an abusive alcoholic (even if they say they do during the 25% of the time they aren't smacking Person A around), and refuses to put in the work that it takes to become sober and be a better person, then guess what? Nothing Person A does will ever make them be a sober, non-abusive partner. They will be unable to fix Person B. It doesn't matter how much time, energy, money, or commitment they pour into that person. It doesn't matter how much they genuinely, honestly, earnestly love them. Because unless Person B wants to change, and will put the work into doing so, then they will not change, and Person A, for their own health, safety, and sanity, needs to exit that relationship.

Now, does that mean that if, ten years down the line, Person B decides they are ready to put in the work to get their alcoholism under control, no one should help them? Of course not! They should absolutely be put in touch with sober counselors, support groups, medical professionals, friends and family who can help them. Person A could potentially forgive them, if Person A chooses. But that willingness to change and put in the work has to come from within Person B first.

I've been in the position where I've seen people in awful situations just tanking their lives, people I loved and cared about, people I begged to just listen to me and get help, only for them to not . . . and ultimately I had to accept that I couldn't fix them. I could be there to offer support when they were ready to fix themselves, but the core work that needed to be done had to come from within themselves. I couldn't provide that. Not because I was inadequate, not because I didn't love them, but because I couldn't force them to do anything they didn't want, or weren't ready, to do.

So at the end of the day, "you can't fix them" isn't about not giving support. It's about recognizing your limitations as a human being. It's about knowing that:

You cannot force someone to do something they do not want to do.

You cannot force someone to do something they are not ready to do.

Not being able to help or save someone is not a moral failing of yours.

Not being able to help or save someone does not mean you do not love or care about them.

Providing support should never come at risk of your own health and safety, physical or otherwise.

When you love someone, it can be really hard to accept this. You think, "I know I can make them want to try. I know I can inspire them to want to change. I know they love me, so if I just love them a little harder, they will want to change." Nine times out of ten, though, that is just not true. And if someone is abusing you, it is not worth the literal risk to your life to keep trying. You are worth more than that. You are more than just someone else's band-aid.

Keep yourselves safe in 2024.

#not an abuse scenario but: my mom died of covid-19 #it's relevant to this discussion bc she was a trump-supporting republican who refused to get vaccinated #bc the far-right propaganda shows she watched told her the vaccine ''wasn't a real vaccine'' #and i know this bc when i literally BEGGED MY PARENTS to get the vaccine my mother LAUGHED IN MY FACE and TOLD ME ''it's not a real vaccine #so anyway both my parents got it. my father almost died from it #my mom seemed like she was doing much better . . . except she CONTINUED to smoke heavily while both having covid #and recovering from covid #and once again i said hey don't you think you should not smoke cigarettes while recovering from a serious respiratory disease #and once again she laughed at me #anyway 2 months later her heart gave out in her sleep and she died #bc her body couldn't handle the stress of the cigarettes + alcohol (she was also an alcoholic) after covid had done its thing to her #she was only 56yo #so this was a case where i wanted to fix my mother. i tried so hard. and i've similarly tried to fix my father (who is still alive) #but i can't! my dad almost died and my mom DID die and my dad STILL won't get the vaccine #I HAVE BEGGED THIS MAN. WHO IS NOW 73. TO GET VACCINATED. AND HE STILL WILL NOT. #you can't fix people!!! you can't!!! you can offer them support if they want to fix themselves #you can help them fix themselves but you can't fix them. you just can't. no matter how much you love them #and in abuse cases it can be really fucking dangerous to keep trying. #anyway. that's my TED talk. thanks for attending or w/e it is they say

[byanyan]

oops, got myself thinking again about byan having a little hoard of weird and random trinkets and shiny things hidden away under their bed in the same way that some cats have collections of bottle caps under furniture.

like, none of it is particularly meaningful and they don't wear any of the jewelry that's under there, but they like to pull it all out once in a while to look at and are always adding more

#there's a lot of jewelry but there's a lot of other shiny things and weirder stuff too #like there's a heart shaped rock they stole from someone in elementary and some pretty feathers they've found on the ground #but then there's also a wrapper from a cute snack they had and a bone from some random animal they found in a park #colourful buttons and cute ribbons and a trading card from a game they've never played #and probably also a pink bottle cap tbh #literally just a random collection of Stuff they like but have no use for #it's a collection they've had to rebuild a few times too #bc staff/caretakers at the group home(s) would find it all sometimes and throw away whatever looked like junk or trash #tbh it's a collection they still have and add to even after they move in w sol and start sharing a bed #and they still keep it under the bed ofc bc it's habit at this point and honestly I'm not so sure they've even told him it's there 🤔 #...im rambling bc I'm kinda buzzed but like. idk I love byan and their pile of random shit #I think part of what got them started was want to actually Have Things bc they grew up not having much #and they would ABSOLUTELY get jealous of kids at school who had all kinds of belongings #who could have coherent collections and all the cool toys and shit #so they just started collecting anything that caught their eye #even if it was labels off of bottles or those cheap erasers shaped like animals or food or w/e that don't actually erase anything #and it's a habit that persisted after they started stealing basically anything they wanted/needed #and will continue to persist even once they have a job and money to buy what they want #god I kept rambling even after trying to wrap things up smh #this is the shit I'm talking about when I say I have weirdly specific and detailed thoughts about inane and unimportant aspects of byan #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don’t @ me.

[adelle-ein]

saw some old stuff i wrote about 3h and man. i really used to love that game huh

#fandom killed it and spat on its corpse #genuinely that was the worst fandom i've ever been in the middle of. nobody was immune from the consnat fucking discourse #the moral judgements the racism the misogyny the homophobia the ableism the raw INSANITY #i've never seen a fandom so obsessed with ''morally ok to like these characters/morally evil to like these ones'' #and ofc everyone had their own list that they would then frantically alter to please each other and it was just insane #still is but i refuse to interact with it anymore #but yeah i can't even stand to look at claude anymore i used to love him but now. eugh #i just associate him (and almost every other character) with the Discourse and the ''if you like hilda kys'' types #don't even get me started on bernadetta and the number of so called friends who treated me like shit for being hurt by her portrayal lol #or the number of again so called friends who would bully people for not liking ede/leth #just. horrendous. horrendous fandom #i pretty much only care about flayn now #not that she didn't get her fair share of disk horse but like. it was never the quantities that almost every other character did lmao #other than the people talking about how she was a disgusting nepo baby they wanted to stomp to death or w/e. there was a lot of that #txt

[edgepunk]

idk if it's been confirmed but I've seen a post on IG that apparently Netflix is making a live action Naruto show with The Witcher Netflix writers

#t #not only are the twn writers a bunch of braindead incompetent hacks #but I don't think naruto is good for live action #unless you have an insane budget for the special effects but still #that's not going to work #this sounds so bad #watch the writers completely miss the point and turn the characters into terrible stereotypes with one trait #(not that female characters were written well in the first place but w/e NOT THE POINT) #sending flowers to the entire fandom ~ with love the witcher fandom

[betatrolls]

look at my pinterest board boy

#mind all the gauges im obsessed w gauges forever. i put them on any board i can #i love this aesthetic now?? does this even have an actual name idk #lore moment; this spawned because i saw the glasses that are the first pin on that board and i was like these are so interior decorator cor #and then after saving them to a different board i went to go watch youtube and ended up watching a sims build #and i LOVE looking at the finished sims houses but i h a t e actually building them and then i was like WAIT you can do that irl. oh my god #and now i think I'm gonna be an interior decorator. and then once i decided that i made a board for interior decorator core #because i have a very clear concept of what the Average Interior Decorator looks like even if it's inaccurate #and then while making it i was entranced by it so I'm totally dressing like that forever now #ANYWAY #look at my cool board perhaps #post #EDIT there was another piece of lore i wanted to add #the only reason this board is still on topic at all is because every time i save a pin to it i imagine myself wearing the thing in the pin #with the glasses and if it doesn't look right i don't save it. #unimportant but i think it's silly #shit i forgot an e way up there. whatever

[yotd2009]

going from "i like ayaka but i'm going to pull for her brother instead bc i already have a cryo sword user + i want to replace my barbara w a 5*" to ayaka's biggest wanter and a ride or die barbara stan who doesn't even use ayato. every day i regret my decisions made during 3.5

#he's at level 39 w a dull blade and random artifacts. i originally just threw whatever on them but then harvested them for other characters #also my anti barbara era was soooo pathetic like. i just wanted 5*s for the sake of having 5*s despite the fact that barbara Literally Is A #5* under the 4* label (she was meant to be a limited 5* but then hoyo realized that they never gave us a free healer so they changed #barbara's rarity and gave her out for free. which is the reason why she's the only 4* w a 5* burst animation) #also 'i don't need ayaka when i actually use my kaeya' was dumb too. you Can't be playing genshin w only one functional team it's just not #sustainable + not as much fun. genuinely this was during the period of time when my kaeya was lvl 80 and everyone else was ~lvl 40 or lower #bc i wanted to replace them and i just had kaeya solo everything and wondered why i couldn't complete the rank up quest/do big numbers #n e ways. now that i've forgiven qiqi for the crime of not being scara + fallen in love w layla + still am a kaeya main + actually #understand how genshin team comps/building characters work i've realized that a. cryo sword users have my fave gameplay and b. you can make #a fully rounded genshin team w just them (ayaka is a main dps. kaeya is a sub dps. qiqi is a healer and layla is a shield) and i haven't #seen anyone else use them all together that way and i want to be the first. but first i need ayaka. #+ all their signature weapons bc. c'mon. how much cooler would that be (read: i feel like i'd get more clout for it) #romeo.txt

[valla]

look away

#negative #shut up val #this is a me problem but w/e 😭😭 #i think at this point i'll have half of fetwt muted bc they annoy me #it's either dogshit takes or people genuinely not having fun anymore #yapping complaints all the time instead of yapping what they love abt their fave games #i understand critically consuming medias you enjoy but some of them just like discourse for the sake of it #i have an oomf in law by 5 times that i blocked bc they were clowning a fic to their many followers #being a hater on main when nobody asked them to read it bitchass you are creating your own problem #it's okay if not everybody likes edie or whatever it's not the end of the fawkin world #the birds will still sing and el will still be beloved by many. it's not a personal attack on you if people hate her. stop it #and the need to complain about engage my god it's okay if you don't like it. it's okay to feel disappointed it doesn't have a deeply comple #story like houses. but are we seriously forgetting that it's supposed to be an anniversary game? it's meant to be silly and fun and #lighthearted and not depressing like whatever tf houses is #and the depth/complexity of a story doesn't mean it's a story not worth telling

[just-about-nothing]

damn hellloooooo~~~

[image description: supergrrrl from superboy (1994) issue 61. she is blonde and white, with a rat tail. she’s wearing round sunglasses, a punk leather jacket, a blue unitard with the superman S-shield on it, red leggings with a gold thigh holster, two studded belts and black calf length boots. she also has chunky red gloves. the outfit is essentially kon-el’s outfit on a blonde woman. she radiates an aura of confidence. end description]

#i rant #dc #superboy #Kon-El #i like. hate most of this run but and it was not worth wading through like 50 issues of bullshit for this but still #and supergrrrl is such a stupid name but i love her anyway your honor #tbc i am very clearly allied w the third wave but like god. it's dumb. i mean i know kara's probably around in this universe but still #yes that is wonder woman in the background wearing like. cassie-esque jeans i don't get it either #this ISN'T the genderbent universe bc batman is batgirl here (???) and he should be batwoman & diana should be a guy but w/e

[sillyprettyfairy]

Things that are bothering me about the Enna racism scandal - 1

No one's going to read this and that's okay. I just wanna write my thoughts out in a formal way while this is still fresh in my mind and in the news in general so I can point to it in future possible situations.

Situation summary: Towards the end of a collab stream between Kyo Kaneko and Enna Alouette, both of Nijisanji EN, Enna spews some serious antiblackness in the form of stereotyping and othering. My thoughts on the situation and response to it by not just Enna but others under the cut. ⚠️ If you are looking to start a fight with me over this or be a weird racist weirdo on this post or in my asks, it literally isn't worth it because I will not engage and will absolutely just block you or clown on you. ⚠️

The circumstances are absolutely poetic in the worst possible way. Enna is the focus of this controversy, as she should be. What I haven't seen enough people bring up though is that Kyo being the other half of the interaction makes this incredibly ironic and even a little darkly comedic. Kyo uses/appropriates aave (African American Vernacular English) as an admitted white man and has cute little blaccent to pair with it. Him being the center of the antiblack comments made by Enna and having to be the one to "educate" her on how what she said was harmful genuinely blows my mind. The argument that Kyo simply grew up in an area with Black people and that is why he speaks the way he does is...a flimsy defense based on past life information I won't share on this blog. All I'll say is that there is evidence supporting that he only started speaking the way he currently does recently and even if that were not the case, there is a discussion to be had about him essentially being a straight-up minstrel show just by being a member of a major vtuber corpo who is not Black, but uses Black vernacular and speech as a part of his brand to entertain a mostly non-Black audience.

2. Enna and Kyo created a perfect storm for this entire situation to occur, unintentionally. Enna constantly makes inflammatory comments on stream and is constantly apologizing, doubling down, or joking about said comments eventually getting her "canceled". This has obviously aged poorly. Kyo, as stated in my feelings towards the first point, is also someone who will never understand the experiences and culture of Black Americans, no matter how much "that's crazy" comes out of his mouth. Despite this, he is perceived by many to be Black. Hell, when I watched his debut live one of my Black girlfriends and I were almost 100% in our automatic assertion that he was Black and that he was likely the first Black member of Nijisanji, which excited us.

The nature of Kyo's performance of Blackness as a white man happening parallel to Enna's constant controversial tongue getting her into mini-scandals and leading up to them becoming a duo with a perceived fun dynamic as a result of their friendship was probably the most unfortunate concoction of circumstances that created this entire scenario. It was inevitable that, on the path she was taking, Enna would say something so foul that it'd be legitimately deeply problematic. It was also inevitable that Kyo would have to engage and contend with the fact that he is a non-Black person who, because of his performance of Blackness, is now perceived as such or at least perceived as having some sort of proximity to that identity. Their becoming friends simply caused both of these things to happen faster and at the same time with the other person's assistance.

3. Why is everyone saying "POC"? This is a BLACK issue. What managed to annoy me the most upon further inspection of the reaction to Enna's comments is that even other Black people, many of which have decently-sized platforms in the vtuber space, are not using the word Black when talking about this and other similar situations. This has nothing to do with people of color in general in terms of who the targets, victims, and affected are. This is about BLACK people.

Enna was not thinking of anything other than Black people when she made comments about Kyo sounding like he listens to Snoop Dogg and eats fried chicken with his friends. She was calling on old and tired stereotypes about Black people that she likely learned from media depictions of Black people and culture as well as the societal normalization of those ideas.

Black should not be a scary or dirty word to use. When we are talking about issues that specifically affect Black people, seeing everyone say that it affects "POC" genuinely ticks me off because it's a term that was made with the purpose of describing the experiences of more than just one particular group of people but is being used now in place of just saying which particular group's issues you are talking about.

What Enna said was anti-BLACK. Vtubers are constantly being exposed for anti-BLACKness. The issue is anti-BLACK racism and not something that applies to all people of color in this particular instance.

I believe that a lot of people are not equipped with the words, knowledge, and information to engage with this discussion in a way that is deeper than acknowledging that it happened and was really shitty for like a week or even a month before we move on to a new vtuber controversy or graduation or what have you. Obviously, Enna is not the first and will not be the last vtuber to say some very anti-Black shit. But I think there needs to be a wider community discussion for both vtubers and fandoms about why this continues to occur and how to get it to not happen nearly as often. Or at the very least when it does happen, there shouldn't be people en masse defending whoever perpetuated harm by calling people "sensitive" and "thin-skinned" for being hurt by literal racism.

The hesitancy of vtuber spaces to discuss "politics" has caused a weird perpetual cycle of something fucked up happening involving a vtuber's words or actions relating to social justice and political issues getting them massive hate and/or being defended by others at the same time with a surface-level discussion of the grievance being had, but ultimately not going any deeper than "this is good/bad and vtubers should remain apolitical beyond saying hate is bad".

This cycle is going to continue for as long as everyone wants to pretend their oshi doesn't have or shouldn't have any sort of political opinions, ideas, or beliefs. But instead of any sort of effort being made to address the inherent issues with this way of looking at content creators especially, we talk about it as though we care for a bit and then go hee and haw about Vox getting hate for saying water tastes like piss on Twitter or something. It's incredibly frustrating and I know the same thing is gonna happen here, which just makes me feel tired.

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I honestly have a lot more thoughts but this post is already an essay so I'll probably make another post later about my other thoughts because I have Many.

#vtuber babble #more like a rant but w/e #nijisanji #nijisanji en #enna alouette #kyo kaneko #vtubers #also before anyone says anything i am not a hater #i'm genuinely just a frustrated black vtuber fan that's it #i love vtubers so much #but there's a reason i don't interact with the fandom much at all #and i absolutely have something negative to say about a lot of the biggest names people bring up #but in the same way every fandom has incredibly toxic aspects and I still enjoy the media #i can love and enjoy certain vtubers while being critical of the fandom and creators in the space #tag babble

[lorephobic]

this comment has me tearing up like i literally cant imagine going through that i would've gone postal

#if i had watched all of mindcrack in real time and then had to sit through two years of nothing i would have lost it #etho would make an offhand comment about bdubs in his singleplayer world and i'd start crying #like ive seen some nasty cc breakups where theres obviously hurt feelings and bad blood and thats why two creators dont interact anymore #but that shits got nothing on watching two people who very obviously care about each other and enjoy making content together just. stop. #because it doesn't work anymore. man. #nothing in this world more heartbreaking than two ppl who love each other realizing they just don't fit into each others lives #bro if i was watching that shit in 2015 or w/e i would feel So Hopeless #like if these two can do everything right by and for each other and still just drift apart then #how can anyone have hope for meaningful relationships ykwim #but!! seeing it in retrospect is so. idk like it's such a good lesson in patience. #wait this is already getting so rambly but whats the fucking. whats the wilfred owen quote. #'you have fixed my life -- however short. you did not light me: i was always a mad comet; #but you have fixed me. i spun round you a satellite for a month #but i shall swing out soon #a dark star in the orbit where you will blaze.' #thats. thats the ethubs break to me. #ethubs is stored in the gay love letter wilfred owen sent to siegfried sassoon in 1917 #where the fuck was i going with this

[byanyan]

hhhh okay i have a couple more of those late night prompts left... i wanted to finish them up today but i'm feeling so meh this evening that i think i'm gonna call it there and try to get them done tomorrow instead. ...and then get back to my drafts bc i'm falling even further behind again lmao

#that said ur still welcome to send more prompts from that meme (or any meme) if u'd like bc i've been having fun with them #i just need to get better at collecting my shit around here lmao #think i gotta delete some more really old stuff in my drafts that i've been TRYING to hold onto but might as well let go of at this point.. #but i'll figure that out another day. not tonight. #...also want to update my google site and i've been MEANING to for the last like four days but w/e w/e i'll get there eventually too #I LOVE YALL thanks for ur patience with me and honestly thanks once again for engaging with my weird glittery little creature here #i appreciate u so much i hope ur all having a good week ♡ #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.