#and i'll delete right away!!

[ofgentleresolve-a]

👍 😉 💯 👠 for Patrick! (Is someone going to take notes...pERHAPS IWUHEDUEHD, ALSO I hope this didn't get send more than once, dumblr's glitching on me IUWHEIDHWDE but if it did, I apologize! HOPE THESE ASKS ARE OK BUT PLS FEEL FREE TO SKIP ANY YOU'D LIKE! Have a great day, Ferre! :D)

time to put my muses on blast ( ft. sex+romance headcanons meme w/ @jeoseungsaja )

👍 Does my muse prefer to be asked on a date, or would they rather do the asking?

mmmm considering that he did the asking when it came to felicity, i do think he's more than comfortable with taking the initiative with starting a relationship if he has SOME INKLING that his feelings are reprociated. that being said if we're talking with regards to hyuk though, he would a hundred percent not mind if hyuk does the asking as well considering that a. by then these feelings have gone unspoken for so long, by the time they get to that point, everyone else is probably like 'it's about f-ing time' JFKLSJDFKLJ and b. well it's his best friend, how can he be upset about the way it unfolds?

😉 was answered, but lemme embarrass him some more ( for hyuk :D ) 😉 What are my muse’s fetishes/kinks?

JFKSLDJFLJ ALRIGHTY THEN ALEX, so you know he probably likes teasing and edging his partner, has great patience(tm) and would love to see how much he can get away with before they snap and drag him somewhere ( all consensual tho- if they're not comfortable with the teasing he'll stop no questions asked ) but for the most part, he is rather more on the vanilla side, less likely to be pushing for him and his partner to explore new forms of intimacy....he does like the idea of body worshipping his partner though, kissing all the parts he thinks need the most affection ( ie. the scars- yes, this applies to both verses :D )....and considering that he is a literary professor i feel like?? he'd be really good at sending dirty texts? but like classy raunchy texts and best part is that it can be done in public and no one would know for the better...JFKSLDJFL

okay, i just realized i talked about what he would like to do to his partner, but not necessarily what he would want done to him 😂 does this surprise me? no not at all considering that patrick tends to be the kind of person to think more about what can he do for his partner first than what can his partner do for him in bed, but honestly, if you make him feel wanted, loved, and safe ( esp. in black knight verse- he might get teary if you do that bc he hasn't felt that way in YEARS, it's really all about the emotional vulnerability here :'D ), that's all he needs to be content....also let him hold you in the aftermath, he's all for cuddling ( and cuddle him too he would like that even if he's not the best at asking for it PLEASE )

💯 What is my muse’s ideal date?

hmmmmm, as much as he does like books, i wouldn't say necessarily going to a bookstore simply bc?? he can already do that in his freetime and plus i think he would want to do something that's more interactive with his partner...i feel like he'd be big on window shopping simply because there's always something to comment on while looking around....he also likes the idea of going to the beach even if it is on a cloudy cold day. perhaps a good balance between these two would be walking on the boardwalk then??

in black knight verse, patrick's a lot quieter and exhausted so i feel like any activity that doesn't involve too much moving around or too much convo would be ideal for him....feed the pigeons with him. or take him somewhere where he can forget about his worries for a little bit ( the beach is a great starting point ) 🥲

👠 What was my muse’s last serious relationship like?

it was with felicity!! it was incredibly loving and sweet and not mention playful too...the two of them were always bantering/playing some kind of prank on each other...it was a bit like a competition in that manner too 🥲 that's probably the most openly playful patrick's ever been through out his life as felicity really opened him up and not to mention, helped him loosen up too. so when she passed away, he shut that side down real quick....got ten times more serious in the immediate aftermath 🥲

and because i feel like exposing patrick some more:

🍬 Is my muse a sub, dom, or switch?

in this house we switch or die- just kidding! although seriously, i do think he is a switch in that he's more than happy to go with whatever his partner wants to do ( for example, felicity tends to be more vocal and gungho about what she wants in bed and therefore he tended to be more submissive/a service top ) BUT also i do think once he gets familiar with his partner, once he knows what he wants, he will go for it :D it's really up to his partner though ( basically hyuk what r ur preferences, patrick would like to kno so he can make them happen- jskldfjsl )

#jeoseungsaja #( nsfw. ) #( headcanons: patrick. ) #can't help loving others ( headcanons. ) #i just wanna say i did not expect to be using the n*s*f*w* tag on this blog specifically for patrick...but here we are sJFKLSJFLKSDJ 🥲 #but also alex!! did u and hyuk take notes?? pls know patrick in both verses are both very embarrassed and i know i should feel bad... #but also i'm his mun and therefore HIS ADVOCATE :D #but also why do i feel like if/when hyurick ever sleep together their first (few) time(s) are like...awkward?? bc s*ex?? #how does that work again?? also bodies!! are weird JFKLSDJFLKJS #but also we're talking about patrick who already gets SO FLUSTERED when hyuk's shirtless #dear god how's he gonna manage anything more JFKLSDJF XD #okay but also just the thought of patrick holding hyuk as close as he can while stroking his hair both during the act and #in the aftermath has me #🥺🥺🥺 #anyways!! thank you so much for sending all of these in!! we definitely do not have to incorporate any of these in...and also #if anything with hyuk involved mentioned here makes you uncomfortable do let me know!! #and i'll delete right away!! #pls have a wonderful day alex~~ <3 #under the same sky ( queue. )

[slasherscream]

really wish people would read blog rules more, it makes running blogs like this very low reward and you feel like a machine if people aren't commenting and aren't even abiding by one of the, honestly, very few and politely phrased rules i even have

#then i'm left trying not to respond like a bitch when the rules are there in the first place so i don't have to have negative interactions #with the people who come to this blog #like keeping it 100 you write for yourself but you write for ENGAGEMENT and COMMUNITY #and these days in fandom there really is no community #for any fandom across the board #people see something and move on #that's bad enough at killing fandoms #but the fact that a creator can have really only one super hard rule and it gets disregarded every day #day in and day out! and i really mean it this rule gets broken in my inbox DAILY man! #i write for a lot of small fandoms or smaller characters i love the characters i'm happy to do it #but i have an adult job. college. friends. family. my own original creative projects #and even if i don't respond to the asks where people are blatantly violating /again/ #one of my FEW rules #it's exhausting to even see it !!! #it makes me not feel like a person #who cares what the girl behind the screen asked me not to do? right?? but i'm about done #i'm only at my breaking point because i've had this blog now for what three or four years?? #and no matter how i phrase the rule people break it #no matter how many reminder posts #it's exhausting because it's an every day daily thing #idk maybe i'll feel better abt it in the morning but i'm getting exhausted tbh #exhausted as in this blog might be going BYE BYE i wont delete i think you'd have it up until tumblr goes away but i am getting pissed off #TRULY pissed off bc it's been years of me asking cmon now

[athousandbyeol]

i just want to say that mew is one of the most beautiful and breathtaking characters i've ever seen. there's something so sensual and alluring about him that speaks so much of the mysteriousness he embodies. that heavy-lidded eyes, those deep gazes, his little smiles, his voice, a book nerd, stern and opinionated; everything. mew is just stunning.

#this is me falling in love with another character played by p'book #my first love will always be cher saran #but mew is coming for the second place so easily #he takes my breath away #mew if you can give me a chance; i'll love you right #so if top fucks up; i'm here boo #i'll treat you better #(i still haven't properly rested so i'm a bit delirious) #(i'm letting my intrusive thoughts win again) #probably delete later #mew only friends #book kasidet #na rambles

[potential-fate]

me: wow I really want to work on finishing more writing, and also I want to make more pear fatmorphs, and also I have this cc I want to do and also----

me when I actually have time to do anything: ----------

#my posts #someone kill me please #delete later #idk why I'm being so.... hm. #“unproductive”? #not the right word cause I try to not care about productivity much but #I'm irritated because I'm too tired to do anything even the stuff I WANT to work on #and instead am doing nothing besides scrolling tumblr and/or losing hours of time to nothing at all #yay #hi thanks the tags are giving away the ~mental illness~ please ignore me #I try to not post that nonsense on main but here we are #I'll probably delete this later lmao

[salmondragonart-archive]

Assortment of my past Fl4k (and others!) drawings

#borderlands #fl4k the beastmaster #amara the siren #claptrap #salmondragonart #I have some other Fl4k drawings that I'm not posting right away because I really wanna do redraws of them and I'll be waiting on that #if any of these look familiar its because they were posted on my old blog before i deleted it #the fl4k and claptrap family dynamic is so underrated. i mistakenly thought it was canon this whole time but its fanon iirc? #its canon to me though :]

[dngrcpckwithmurdericing]

Having a serious George Michael moment at two am.

#we're having serious family problems #the kind you should call the cops about if you trust the cops #instead i called my dad #i have never asked him for anything #not in like thirty years #and i begged him to come as soon as he can in the morning #i can't be the only adult here anymore #and my abusive dad who has religious delusions is my only option #and for literally the first time in my entire fucking life he's coming to help me #i think i scared him with my crying #i don't think he's ever seen me cry in like the last thirty years or so #i am terrified though #so I'm listening to George Michael because he and Elton are the most comforting music i can think of right now #maybe I'll add some Madonna to this playlist #anyway everything is hard right now and i truly don't know what to do when the systems society has in place for this aren't an option #and my cats are like an hour away #i really might delete this later #I'm just so upset??? #i needed to write it out for a third time in a third place

[daughterofhecata]

Got my writing session yesterday cut short by a visual migraine that got to the point where I couldn't see the keyboard anymore, and now the damn thing is *back* and idk yet if I'll be able to write later -.-

#and i can't very well keep chugging coffee at this time of day to make it go away #there's still some coke in the fridge that i'll try in a sec (although it's probably flat as well by now) #but i'm in suuuuch a mood to start the rbei!bob prompt fill for january... #this is mean. i usually *never* get this shit two days in a row #let alone at this intensity #...i'm pretty much blind rn. at least on the left eye the right is a bit better. #i can deal with a headache but this static shit in front of my eyes is *really* annoying #kaj rambles #to delete later #if anyone knows any home remedies i'd love to hear about it because my only one is caffeine and i would like to be able to sleep tonight

[fols-eli]

⚠️ ⚠️ ♂ 🔁 ♀  ⚠️ ⚠️

#based off a commission #probably deleting later (?) #if someone's uncomfortable with this; [gender swap] #do tell me and i'll delete this right away #doodles #heck what a week it's been!! my country's getting the son of a former dictator as our president #[sad yeehaw]

[zukkaoru]

bsd has me writing things i previously would not have touched with a ten foot pole

#ngl i've typed this post out and then deleted it like four different times now #because it Keeps Happening #this show has something IN IT i swear i don't know what it is but. it's Something for sure #put this in my drafts three weeks ago.... you guys are never going to guess what happened Again . #there is not a single line in this fic that is any semblance of normal and sane. i don't know what's happening #i made a joke TO MYSELF three days ago and now they are playing with knives in fyodor's basement #whatever. WHATEVER. just gritting my teeth until i exorcise the demons this fic idea gave me and then i'll shove it away for three weeks #so i can work on the things i actually need to be doing right now #hello grace here #someone get the bsd characters OUT of my mind this is a CRY FOR HELP

[ox1-lovesick]

sorry for being ia I just haven't been in the best place mentally

#just trying to work through some stuff on my own at my own pace #social media gives me a lot of anxiety so I felt it would be better to stay away from most of it until I feel better #I honestly don't know if I'll come back to blr #I've been thinking about deleting my blog altogether #I do love writing but I'm not sure I want to continue writing fics #If I'm being completely honest I feel like I've been growing out of (?) reading and writing fanfiction #I'm not really sure what changed it just doesn't appeal to me anymore #Which is kind of a problem because the whole point of this blog is for me to read and write fics #Also writing is very stressful for me and I do not need something else to worry about right now 😭 #But I hope you all are doing well an taking care of yourselves <3 #Please eat well and stay hydrated #I just need to figure myself out ig #But I'm doing a lot better than I was a while ago so #Merry late Christmas 😭 #sorry for the rant aum 🧍 #That's all I have to say

[ask-the-bone-boys]

(scarf asker) sorry i saw the 'rude asks allowed' rule and went a bit ham 😅 i thought it'd be funny like he finally has his debut and immediately gets a tomato thrown at him but i can send a different ask

[[don't worry about it!! i can totally see where the confusion came from lol, i mostly put that in bc ppl would sometimes be TOO respectful of the characters when i wanted them to be pushed farther for the sake of talking about things they otherwise wouldn't! but since this event's only just starting it's been kinda jarring for like half the asks i've gotten to be straight up hostile right off the bat. we gotta work up to that first!]]

#ooc #i'm just about to go to bed rn so i don't really know how to edit that rule just yet & idk if i wanna just delete it #bc there IS going to be a point yall are gonna have to be invasive and pushy as hell #BUT FOR NOW i will simply ask that you try to focus on context clues & the general vibes of the conversation as you send ur question :> #when it gets to the points where it's good to be rude hopefully i'll be able to write them well enough that you'll be able to tell lmao #for now just treat it like any other new character that's shown up! it's harder to start getting to know him if you're mean right away ykno #(also it's harder for me to make work in a narrative sense if the tone shifts too rapidly but pllghghhphphp you get it)

[luciality]

iggypan

#shut up luci #delete later #i cant keep thinking of alice going to japan for a meeting but deciding to arrive early to do some casual tourist things bc its been so long #since shes done tourist things. anyway this is like the early aughts or late 90s whatever. she goes to the bridge to see all the cool fashio #fashion and maybe take pics like a rude tourist. maybe even check out the shops and buy something cute. and shes like WOAH so many cool styl #styles. heavily inspired by me england i am england i invented punk me personally i did that. and goth. whatever the hell this lolita is #is also clearly inspired by european fashion. and vw's mini crini line. #she just thinks jfash is neat. doesnt rly get all of it but she likes it. its cool. but then as shes taking picture like a rude person #she notices one girl look straight at her and then duck and turn around and speedwalk away. and iggys like oi wait im sorry i'll delete the #picture im sorry miss i didnt mean to be rude! and when she catches up to her shes like ?!?!?! sakura??? why are you dressed like this??? #and sakura is like ahhhh i didnt know you would be here. sometimes i dress up when i am not working. it is fun i have some friends who like #to meet up here. yes humans. ahhhh >_< i really didnt mean for u to see me like this..... and iggys like oh its no big deal i dont mind. #i think this whole lolita thing suits u. hahaha remember when i used to dress all punk and gothic and whatnot? what you wear outside of work #is your own business. plus its cute :3 like u :3 hey maybe next time we can dress up together and go clubbing or to a concert. er... #a live as u say. haha lol. and sakura is like mmm perhaps. that might be fun. and then alice is like Right now how do i get to the maid cafe #from here. and sakura is like >_> ok um which one. #i love them

[musical-chick-13]

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#will probably delete this later but I needed to get it out somewhere #like I am so goddamn lonely. and it is making me feel LITERALLY as if I'm about to descend into genuine madness #but the PROBLEM is that. in order to not be lonely. you need to find other people. and you need to have reason to believe that those #people will keep wanting and making an effort to communicate with you #and the thing is THE THING. IS. that you cannot control what people do or feel. I have no say in what people think of me. #I have to rely on other people to build new relationships. and that is just not. something that I can do. #it's not something that makes SENSE for me to do anymore. so I try to figure out how to just not want human connection at all #you know maybe if I intentionally isolate myself or grow my cynicism on a regular basis I'll get desensitized to the point #where that's just genuinely not something I want anymore. so then I'm not lonely but I also didn't have to rely on anyone else being #trustworthy and accepting and willing to care about me to get to that point #but. I mean maybe some people can do the denial thing but I can't. I've been trying for years. and that carved-out-hole in my chest #hasn't gotten any better. it hasn't filled up or healed over or gone away. it's just gotten bigger. #but if you're genuinely convinced that you're just built in a way where no one is ever going to really love you...what the fuck do you do? #if connecting with other people is something I want but it's (in my probably-biased estimation) completely inaccessible because I am #an inherently shameful and unpleasant person just by virtue of existing...then I'm just stuck at an impasse. and I'll always be crying #over something I can't logically ever have. why bother pursuing it if I am just going to be rejected or hurt or disparaged or tossed out or #neglected or sidelined or any number of bad outcomes? if that's how pursuing any kind of new interpersonal relationships is going to end #then why bother? the only thing to do would be to learn how to be completely unreliant on other people in any way forever right? #but THAT'S not logistically feasible EITHER and I've already proven that I can't fucking do that so what's left? just always be miserable? #I DON'T WANT TO RESIGN MYSELF TO THAT!!!! #sorry. it's. getting to be late december & around the new year is when it always gets Bad™ so we're just. gonna be like this for a few week #In the Vents #ugh all of this would be better if I still lived near Best Friend™ #anyone who gets to live near/with their Person™ PLEASE know how lucky you are and don't take that for granted

[mattodore]

hi! would it be ok to ask for a link to matthias' pinterest board? thank you

ackk..... my ocs board is private atm bc there are some ocs in there that are still wips... but i can give you a peak at matthias's board for sure. et voilà <3

#river dipping #asks #anonymous #matthias evanoff #matthias core #echthroi #YES my oc board has like twenty-three subsections and over three thousand pins YES it's still a wip #i unprivate it sometimes!! but i have a good amount of followers on pinterest bc i've been there for yearssss #so i don't unprivate it often bc i'm pretty sure that floods all of their homepages with all the pins from the board??? #since like... i reupload almost every pin in the character sections so that i don't have to worry about the op deleting them #plus i also hate the way captions and comments look on pins so when i post them myself i don't have to worry abt 'em #this used to not be a problem before but a few years ago pinterest suddenly decided to make titles and captions always visible #it's ugly fr sdfhnkjkjd now i'll look back at old boards of mine like my old tlou board right #and there'll be a pin in there of just like. a broken down bus and some overgrown grass... and then the caption is something like #''steve x tony'' in aesthetic font like ???? go AWAY. pinterest have made so many changes over the years that have annoyed tf out of me #and yet............... i'm still on there making boards #the man you see reoccurring in matthias's board is jeremy dufour btw... he's the closest faceclaim i've ever been able to find #i've thought abt editing matthias to look more similar to him before... but i'm kind of attached to matthias's current look idk #and i could never part with matthias's little evil villain eyebrows #i wish i could find a faceclaim for theo but it's literally impossible like trust me i've looked

[winchestersickness]

I hate hate HATE how the narrative is always on Dean's side, how he can do no wrong, how even when he's objectively the one who fucks up the other characters (Sam more than anyone else, of course) still come back to him to apologize. He deserves no apology! Sometimes he deserves a punch on the mouth!

#This is about him killing Amy (Sam's friend) he was awful? Almost ooc for how awful he was but STILL. #Maybe it was bad writing but he didn't act in the right way #And when he delete Lisa's memory I don't think I'll ever get over that honestly #OH ALSO #WHEN he accuses Sam of lying to him for not telling him about the hallucinations he's sooo fucked upppp #That's not lying...... Dean when you're telling your brother you let her friend go away ALIVE that's lying........ #Anyway. I'm absolutely fine with characters being fucked up and wrong and everything else but I hate how the narrative is always on his side #And explicitly says “he's the one who is right he's the older brother he knows better his younger brother is crazy is dirty is a freak you #Need to trust Dean always for whatever reason even if he doesn't give you any“ #Grrr #m #supernatural #dean

[daz4i]

speaking of tinder last time i used it i mostly saw 1. guys looking for something serious (my loves you will not find it on tinder i can assure you) 2. guys hiding their face bc they're closeted. mostly soldiers. which is fair 3. one guy who openly declared being a kinky furry 4. this:

#the one that got away. i should've slid right #not that i did anyone. i downloaded it. saw i got 40+ super likes in one day. got my confidence boost and deleted the app #p sure it was pre-covid wow that's old #I'm p sure this is what nudged me into realizing I'm ace lol i was like ''if i see someone truly attractive I'll slide right'' and well. #as you can guess. no one was. turns out I'm more than just picky it seems