#and the rooms still dark lol

[chrono-art]

A very sketchy and experimental resh'an I did about a month ago ⌛️

#sadly hes in painting purgatory and idk where the hell i put him in my room LMAO 😭 sorry resh'an #maybe ill finish him someday when i find him but hes been lost to the crevaces of my bookshelf. i hope he enjoys it there. #ngl i still really like the way his arm looks. i love giving resh and aeph really disgusting looking arms. a little sneak peak of how their #bodies have deteriorated over the years #i think they both look like shriveled up mummies underneath all the robes... or like a hollow from dark souls 1 #btw its supposed to be him when you first roll up on him w garl in the tower. thats why hes gross and. crusty and also missing his hourglass #working on a digital valere piece rn #im gonna try to finish it today during class hopefully #ALSO DONT LOOK TO HARD AT HIS LEGS. I DONT THINK I WAS USING A REFRENCE AND IT SHOWS LOL #sea of stars video game #sea of stars resh'an #resh'an #sea of stars #sketches #sketch #small art blog #small art account #small artist #artists on tumblr #traditional media #traditional sketch #my art #traditional art #video game fanart #video game fandom

[avionvadion]

Ah, we finally have it. The holy Trinity of Doctor Who horror.

“Are you my mummy?”

“Hey, who turned out the lights?”

And now…

“My arms are too long.”

Though I’ll never forget the absolutely terrifying-

#doctor who #doctor who spoilers #weeping angels scared me so much when I was younger that one year for Christmas my dad got a mini Angel statue with a piece of paper #taped to it that read ‘don’t blink’. I was horrified #and then every night when I was sleeping he’d sneak into my room and move it to freak me out #the Vashta Nerada do still give me some anxiety though lol really plays on the fear of- #‘I’m not scared of the dark. I’m just scared of what could be hiding in it’ #in this case flesh eating darkness swarm termites #vashta nerada #and zombies just freak me out I dunno why

[hajihiko]

out of curiosity, why is the alone at night rule there? is the place that they’re staying not secure, or is it more of an emotional support time deal?

Safety in numbers, and you're less likely to let imagination run wild when you have a solid support next to you

#Basically two options: #1: If there was something sinister and spooky going on you'll want a buddy #No one wants to be alone in a cold dark room thinking there might be something lurking #2: they're just still getting over the Total Brain Rewiring 2 Electric Boogaloo and it's best to have someone keeping an eye out #Much easier to spiral into a bad place when alone and unsure what's real #In both cases: it's pretty vital they take care of their mental state lest someone relapse into murder mode #So sleep buddies it is. You can still hide away in the daytime or put up like a divider #Just don't wander too far when you think you heard a suspicious noise coming from somewhere conveniently secluded #Well that's just my thoughts lol. Projecting my sleepy problems #Not an art

[cowboy-robooty]

see actually i do like an accept content that is germany and italy shipped with other characters but it has to be done accurately ie. their lives have to be absolute dogshit because theyre not together. because i can enjoy a good rusger or ameger but only if germany is literally enduring the worst torture known to mankind and doesnt even really end up actually loving the other person its more of some stockholm syndrome shit because i in fact do believe thats exactly what would realistically happen in a universe where germany and italy dont stick together for whatever reason. like for italy he doesnt need to be experiencing actual guantanamo bay torture like germany but he does need to be living a "hate my wife" syndrome existence with the other mf. because i think italy would only not get hate my wife syndrome with germany and with anyone else eventually hed end up cheating n shit lawl

#robooty kun #robooty essay #like tbh i usually consume dark hetalia content when its not germany and italy shipped together lol #bc id love it still when theyre together idgaf that its ooc it feed my demon #but also dark hetalia content makes me able to swallow them shipped with other mfs #because all i do is go 'well to be fair this is realistically what would happen to germany if he didnt have italy' and i go yeah this is fe #me seeing germany get hatecrimed and hypothermia and pneumonia and his jaw dislocated and white room tortured and i go well tbh this is what #would happen if russia somehow pursued him romantically. so this is still good *nods head*

[sleepyseals]

[Image Description: A digital painting depicting Feldspar standing to the right of a campfire, facing away from the viewer and upwards. They are holding an arm outstretched above them and the other gesticulates as if they were telling a story. Several fireflies surround them and their shadow falls to their right. Wreathed in the smoke of the campfire is a scene of their campsite in Dark Bramble. Three large twisting brambles, the anglerfish fossil’s teeth, and three pine trees are suspended upside down, stretching downwards toward Feldspar and the campfire. A plume of stylized curling smoke stretches across the top of the scene from Feldspar’s ship in the top right corner. The ship is sparking with electrical failure. End Image Description.]

my piece for the @travelers-encore-zine !!!  I think this came out a bit more conceptual than I wanted but I still like it!

Thank you to the mods for making this happen, putting everything together and being an amazing support team!!! Thank you to my fellow contributors for being so lovely and making such amazing things and sharing this project with me, I'm really happy I got to be a part of it!!

#I'm so late to posting this omg sorry!! I got stressed abt writing the caption bc its hard getting the words out of my brain sometimes #but its already been a few days since the zine came out I can't believe it #expect some sort of process video or post for this maybe!! as soon as I figure out how I want to do that haha #idk I put a lot of work into this that I don't want to leave unseen but I don't know how I would even go about formatting smth like that #I dont know how to feel abt this piece lol I definitely got very tired of looking at it by the end but I think I'm still happy with it #there's so much going on for me atm but I'm happy! I'm so happy I have things to be passionate about #crazy how life is messy as ever but so much more manageable when you have something you care a lot about #videos game. <3 <3 <3 #I’m interested to hear people’s thoughts on what this means like symbolically ::] #both lonely and claustrophobic #Stories are the basis of so much in game but give feldspar room to breathe god damn it #I have to go to class and stop rambling in the tags now #outer wilds #feldspar #dark bramble #my art #outer wilds spoilers #ow spoilers #how did i forget spoiler tags... smh my head XD

[paranorahjones]

you know it's bad when you start journaling about him

#for clarity this is NOT the guy that i've vague-posted about before #the one that most assuredly does not like me #i'm still dealing with that #this is a different fella whom i've somewhat known for a little while and may be getting to know better in the near future #maybe #i don't know he's just really sweet and funny and his smile warms up the room and makes me smile and idk #and he goes to my church #idk idk idk #i'm ready for a new crush to completely take over my life lol #tired of the blue-eyed blond that gives me the WORST mixed signals i've ever experienced #we're moving on to dark eyes and brown hair

[bunnyb34r]

Still baffling to me how somedays I get a physical ticket at the movies and others I don't

I dont think it's based off of when I use my movie credit, bc I didn't get them most of the times I've used it

But I know I got one for Oppenheimer, I think shrek 2? Idr, and I got one today for Kingdom of the Planet of the Apes

Movie was okay. I mean it was good, but I don't think I'd watch it again. I might see if i can find the previous movies and watch them, bc the overall lore seems cool

Got to cut in line for snacks lol bc there was a middle school class there and the kids were weaving in and out back and forth in line and there was like me and 4 other adults that didnt come with the kids in line. So one of the teachers/chaperones escorted us (by slipping under the rope barrier lmao) to the front which was really nice

I mean I was early early to the show today anyway so I could have waited (would've been annoyed but I'd have waited) but it was really nice. I hope the kids enjoyed their movie day though

#marquilla #im gonna put my physical tickets in my scrapbook when i finally get back into that #not that i really did much aside from taping stuff on scrapbook paper and putting it in a scrapbook binder #but i had saved all my ticket stubs from when i went in high school with my friends #anyways while i was annoyed as hell with the kids weaving in and out of line the other adults (not with them) kept our mouths shut #bc we know that's just how middle schoolers are and it was an exciting field trip for them #but god were we relieved when the guy let us go 😭 agdggdgdg #i should write down the movies ive seen this year lol it has to have been like 7? at least? idk i go a lot bc it's something to do and only #$6.00-8.50 per movie since i go at like 10am so im not like dropping $20 a ticket every other week yknow dgdgdgd #plus its exposure therapy bc i had/have anxiety ab movie theaters since what happened in 2012 with that batman premiere and then #the general gun violence here so being trapped in a dark room with only 2 exits and being potentially crowded by strangers is a big stress #but im working past it... trying (meaning i go but that fear is still in my mind)

[opens-up-4-nobody]

I desperately need to be a scene kid for Halloween this year

#idk y but i suddenly realized that im an adult and could potentially buy the goth bullshit at hot topic #that 12yo me desperately desired. and then i was like oof but i like the contrast of color #like i think i really wanted to be somewhere between scene and emo really #but thrn i was looking at scene outfits and im like woof. this is the kinda cringe i love. all thr fucking patterns. all thr colors #i even have thr 1nvader z1m graphic tees in my closet... i think #i just dont kno how tf to do that to my hair and also i dont have actual makeup lol #but i must be a scene kid for Halloween. i want the most ostentatious outfit. oh god im gonna have to go to the mall #i havent been to the mall in ages. i need to go to hot topic and claires. is pacsun still around? do they still sell skinny jeans? #i feel like everythings all bland now in stores. where tf do i go to get early 00s and 2010s clothes #good will maybe??? oh god. its like 3.30am and my hormones r all fucked up so i was experiencing like the type of fear you have when youre #like a little kid in a dark room by yourself. its not fair. when my hormones shift it goes: im so depressed to im full of rage ill kill u #to the world is so fucking beautiful im gonna kill myself. like in a not worrying way idk how else to express the feeling. to the type of #unhinged and undirected fear that belongs to a kid who doesnt kno shit. also lil heart palpitations and sometimes feeling like im gonna die #its bullshit. y does my body hate me? ugh. at least ive got a Halloween plan now #unrelated #oh god. dont let me cut myself bangs. im trying to grow my hair back out lol. im an emo with no bangs

[3fingersbreak]

i made a contact sheet for my animation! all 24 glorious frames laid out for your enjoyment 😘

now that you know the number of frames, let’s play a fun game called Guess The Frame Rate 👀

plus here’s a treat cuz i feel like spoiling y'all: a lil different version of the og animation under the cut

i love how sparkly this snakeskin border looks but the og is more recognizably Majima Snakeskin™

#has anyone done dark room photography? it made me obsessed with contact sheets #there’s something magical about seeing film you developed being printed tiny n cute for preview #im still lookin for a dark room near me #i was lucky to have been able to do it at school but alas #i no longer have those resources lol #majima goro #majima fanart #yakuza 0 #rgg 0 #like a dragon #majima x nishitani #y0 majima #yakuza fanart #nishitani homare

[aeide-thea]

[psychiatric/pathologizing terminology, holocaust imagery, slurs, in-group/reclamatory deployments of]

i've seen people complain in the past that the term 'paranoid reading' is ableist, and i thought, μέν i'm always open to refining the framings i use for things, δέ maybe i should, you know, actually go look at the sedgwick before formulating an opinion—only it turns out 4 in the morning is not, shocker, actually the best time to be trying to wrap yr head around anything complex? however at first glance it does seem worth noting that whatever one's stance on psychiatric-flavored terminology, the original essay is not in fact deploying it accidentally or, i'd argue, wholly appropriatively—it's very explicitly connecting the label to its history of use against queer people to pathologize queerness. so my initial instinct here is that while i do still see why the term might make people flinch, it does seem like sedgwick's deployment of it was deliberate, informed, and in a certain sense reclamatory. doesn't mean it's therefore invalid to flinch at it! but does make flinching at it fairly analogous to flinching at deliberate, informed, reclamatory deployments of the pink triangle, or of language like queer, fag, dyke, etc—id est, something it's valid to want to avoid, if it triggers you, but not in fact categorically inappropriate.

it obviously gets more complicated as we move away from 'queer [still at the time of writing literally pathologized in the DSM!] theorist discussing/attempting to practice antihomophobic theorizing' towards 'people of unspecified positionality applying sedgwick's concepts to arenas farther afield from either queerness or pathologization,' and i do really want to be mindful here of how comparatively little i've personally been subject to this sort of involuntary pathologizing labeling and how that positions me vis-à-vis this discourse, and also of hierarchies of psychiatric pathologization more broadly, but. my initial sense (while still not, to be clear, having fully digested or even finished reading the sedgwick piece!) is that the action item wrt this particular language is less 'strike it from our lexica' and more 'be mindful of its potential to twist in our hands and cut people, and use it with the respect any knife is due, and with attention to our safety circle.'

which is really, i think, the answer more often than not: we often seem to want things to be an automatic, no-thought-required yes/no, when in fact there's very little that has no potential for harm and requires no thought, and also very little that ought to be categorically off limits. most things are situational, really, and deserve more active (re)examination than they often get; but we do so love our thin-slicing!

#lol this is. so long and so unnecessary #however. it's still dark out. coherence and concision are daylight goals #(this stuff sucks bc like. there really are very genuine competing needs here and that's always hard!) #(would be easy to say 'no one ever gets to use language that's been used to hurt people' but like. #for SO many reasons that can't actually be the answer.) #(but like. as often i think the problem here isn't actually this language— #it's when people use it who don't give a shit abt pathologized people #and even then the problem isn't primarily that the language usage itself is appropriative or ableist‚ so much as that it's like #SO untethered from the original concerns abt pathologization #that it's like. oh i see: the only way that issue is making it into the room is as a spectre of itself harnessed to describe other concerns #these tags are becoming as much a mess as the post itself but i just do think a lot abt like. things people want to label Inherently Bad #and how often it's like. less that they're actually Inherently Bad and more that they point up the badness of something adjacent #and press on the bruise of that #if that makes any sense! it's of course splitting hairs but we love that around here. aspiration: machined levels of precision.

[paeinovis]

Me: boy howdy I sure am relieved that my poster presentation is over ! Now I'm going to take a siesta so I can rally for tonight's events :-)

My Body: you want a break ? you wanted a break ? [becomes ill even though there are two more days for this conference]

#I HAD THINGS I WANTED TO DO TODAY . AND TOMORROW. AND THE DAY AFTER. #text #paersonal #ten days of nonstop Doing Things maybe it's not surprising my immune system is giving up the ghost soon as what I Need To Have Done is Done #anyway missed the dark skies open house and the LGBT meet up and the astro on tap thing (which overlapped but still) #so many networking opportunities 😭😭😭 #and I wanted to drive out to see the milky way and the day after go to the botanical gardens but E. #idk I guess I Can I just hate being sick . and I don't wanna get anyone Else sick #and I have a mask and everything but y'know... #also tbf I was already super exhausted but making myself do things but if I'm sick on top of that the motivation is just entirely #sucked outta me body and replaced with In Bed Disease #at least the room service here looks p good cause it's a tapas place downstairs #And I don't have to pay for food lol <3

[depresseddepot]

the hollow places by t kingfisher was fucking terrifying

#i read kingfisher first through their fantasy books (the clocktaur series is one of my favorite books ever written) #and ive read a LOT of their books now #so their writing style feels comforting almost #and i read a house with good bones a couple weeks ago and it was great #but this book was fucking terrifying #very very well written but i am going to have trouble sleeping in the coming weeks #some horror books are fun bc the fear is separate from you. like if i read a scifi horror book set in the year 4500 w flying cars etc #the fear is still there but it is separate from me #the idea that i could knock a hole into drywall and have such horrible terrible awful things happen is. god it makes me nauseous #if you've ever heard of the backrooms its a little bit like that. but things move in your vision #and they're in the 6th dimension or whatever so you can't see them but they can see you #fucking hell. what a terrifying book #i just finished it and am sitting alone in a dark room so maybe ill have different thoughts later #but it was so scary that i almost think i didn't enjoy it #like. if i read slower i might've had a panic attack lol #what a terrifying but phenomenal piece of writing. god i love t kingfisher SO MUCH

[icewindandboringhorror]

waow.. found a Beautiful Orb at the store today (giant ferrero rocher). I don't even want to crack into it and eat it.. I just want to hold it.. rotate it in my palm thoughtfully like I am an evil wizard who has just been delivered a Very Plot Significant magical gem and is scheming how to use it 

#I'm pretty sure it's hollow inside so I also have a compulsion to break it like I could crush it in my palm #also like a cool evil wizard lol #but I just want to admire it mostly #A chronic personality trait of mine is that I love things that are too small or too large ESPECIALLY food items.. #like a miniature version of a candy is cool. a large version of a candy is cool. normal sided version? who cares #BUT thats why I always loved like dolls and things like that. I wouldnt give a shrimp about the dolls I would just get them for the small #stuff. Like miniature food and clothes . love tiny representations of things and little strinkets #I like giant things less but they're still cool. I have a comically large wine glass even though I don't drink alcohol and have never drank #in my life but someitmes I have like.. coffee or orange juice or something out of it and it looks very funny. I also have a few of those gia #nt holiday themed pencils. and I had a giant apple once that was like the size of a football #This fererro rocher is not actually very big compared to a normal one but it's mostly special because it's dark chocolate #NOT Rond Noir though which are the best ones (out of normal fererro rocher. rafaellos. and rone noirs. the Typical Three) #So I was very disappointed that it's just a giant dark chocolate ferero rocher shell instead of a legit giant rondnoir :c #BUT at least it's dark chocolate lol #OH currently playing catch with it because it's like the size of a baseball and this is great #I think everyone should get a giant fererro rocher and unwrap the foil outside and then just throw the raw chocolate orb around #by 'catch' i mean more like... juggling but with one ball. I love to throw things up in the air and try to catch them #like maybe throw them across the room a little and see if I can run to the other end of the room in time to also catch the thing that I thre #w lol.. playing solo catch instead of two people thworing objects back and forth #THIS IS WHAT I MEAN!!! how do people experience boredom???? i do not understand. it's one of the Base Human Emotions that I seem to be #lacking like.. I genuine have never felt ''bored'' the way that people describe it. I can always entertain myself. I could throw a chocolate #ball back and forth with myself for 2 hours I bet if I didn't have other stuff to do . when I was a kid I would sit in my room laying on my #back kicking pillows and laundry baskets up in the air and catching them for like an hour straight. no tv in the background #no nothing. just getting lost in a repetitive physical task. i still LOOOOVE peeling carrots like if I just had a big pile of carrots I coul #d peel. or cutting candle wax into little balls or something. I am entertained by the smallest things. and even if I can't physically #do something and was locked in a blank white room for hours like.. doesn't everyone have a mental landscape they could entertain #themselves with? I spend legit half the day talking to myself and making commentary to myself for fun. there is ALWAYS something #interesting to do or think about like.. I just love everything a lot lol. I think thats part of why I'm also so detail oriented I just pay #attention to everything. I can spend 15 minutes admiring the way a piece of fabric folds at the corner of my sleeve or whatever #ANYWAY.. genuinely overjoyed throwing chocolate around. I wish I didn't have other stuff to get done so I could just Do This for 45 min lol

[hellhoundlair]

I am 1000% serious when i say that supernatural the animation handles sams s1 and 2 plotlines better than the original show. I think every sam fan has to watch it at some point because it def scratched an itch for me. It is NOT perfect and idk how people who wouldnt die for more sam content would feel about a version of supernatural that has so much more focus on sam than in the original but i cant and wont ever get over the attention and love and care they gave sam. I am eternally grateful for it.

#i talk it up a lot. its bad. ITS BAD. but from a sam content perspective its everything. #there are some iconic moments in the anime that are just. SO iconic that i trick myself infor forgetting theyre not in the actual show #sam using his telekinesis to fuck up max's room instead of just opening a closet. #sam EXPLODING AN ANIMAL WITH HIS MIND smthing similar happens in the comics and i wasnt expecting them to do that but make it gory-er #THE CONFRONTATION IN THE IMPALA IN SKIN??? #i fkn love skin but the anime vers of that episode does a 'whos the shifter' confrontation and it fucked so hard even tho we knew who the #shifter was #THERES LOTS OF BAD IN IT THOUGH TOO. very anime typical racism like at points its like MY GOD how did they do this #little things like making lily from ahbl not a lesbian lol?? she just had a 'roommate' instead and its like. okay whatever #the fact that they only have like 2 songs play thru the entire anime and theyre the most generic grating things ever #they paid their bg artists 2 dollars a day and it shows #BUT. you get an episode while sams at stanford. u get an episode of john hunting alone #u get two episodes focussing on the special children who didnt get episodes in the original show #and even if those two episodes suck the idea is still there and its appreciated in theory #the anime has a big focus on sam descending into violence and darkness. it just has a big focus on sam tbh thats why i love it so much #pls watch it if u can ignore the bad. u can skip all the Anime Original episodes if u want bc theyr all kinda shit #but the episodes that are based on pre existing spn episodes just take the originals and improve on them and make them anime af #which i love #the animes very awkward tho too i feel like having it in written form would be better bc the timing the music is all off a lot of the time #but i still love it and appreciate it #its also more bloody than the original show especially by the end. but its good man. so cool. #and u HAVEEE to watch the dub if ur going to watch it bc jared plays sam and jensen plays dean in the last episodes and its everything #this is an open letter to dean familyishell but honestly to everyone who is considering watching the anime ❤

[oatbugs]

sometimes u have to walk around venice w ur classmates to go to ur seminar room and learn abt everything all at once and ask ur professor for a cigarette lighter .

#sometimes ur in a seminar room and dying of heat #caronte personally kills us all . also had my first not-conversation-but-talking in italian yesterday #would u like a bag-no thanks-itll be 21.99-okay oh sorry my card isnt working-its alright-okay there we go-oh glad it worked-rly sorry abt #that-no dw abt it-okay thanks bye-bye ! #the fucking archives are so massive #saw a harvard professor in there studying some of the archives #half an hour left of this seminar . hmm #my biggest flex after this will be knowing my way around venice vaguely #btw the number of ppl who are like. u go to the universita ca foscari i studied [insert dark academia pretentious but cool subject] there #anyway i miss my friends lol #theyre having fun back in the UK im having holy but lonely but still holy experiences here #my coursemates are lovely tho . some of them . theyre talking abt spritz w selekt now how did we get here

[wonderlandmind4]

No insomnia brain. I will not entertain that little spark of a Daredevil drabble/fic idea. No. I have to get up and work in 6 hours. I refuse. REFUSE.

…fuck.

#fuck you just insomnia brain #why can’t I just sleep #instead you have to be like: #ooohhhh what if we start it off with PAIN. #just that one word. PAIN #BECAUSE THATS ALL HES EVER FELT UNTIL NOW #lol no fuck off #don’t make me start jotting things down in my notes app #I have to massage people in dark rooms in 6 hours #I NEED TO BE WELL RESTED #I swear if this idea continues while I have my massage brain on #THEN MAYBE I’ll try to put something together l #MAYBE #fuuuccck #i still have the DS drabbles to finish #and Ana and Bucky are death glaring me wondering if they’ll ever reunite #daredevil fic idea #fic idea