#and then i lost 8 hours of my day

[z-1-wolfe]

and then they kith :)

#rwby fanart #frostbyte #weiss schnee #penny polendina #zenta draws #i was possessed #i just sat down and when i woke up behold #[sobbing] it was just supposed to be a quick doodle #but thrn i was like hmm maybe color #but i was too lazy to do lineart #so ofc i was like lazy rendering #and then i lost 8 hours of my day #drawing these two is my safe space #WEISS IS NOT TALL SHE IS ON A BOX #SHORT QUEEN SLAAAAAYYYY

[itsjaywalkers]

it is my pleasure to inform you that the iwtywmm sequel is officially finished <3 i mean kinda i still have to reread + edit it but !!! the worst is over

anyways to celebrate u can send me a word and i'll give u a lil snippy that contains it or ask me any questions about jeggy/any other characters ur curious about or even just tell me about ur days really <333

#it'll be posted in the next few days #i'd love to have it tomorrow but . i have work . a 8 hour shift specifically . so it's gonna have to wait a bit #but very VERY soon #also i think it's time to start using its actual title #fic: i will take the sun in my mouth #(not super fond of the james is the sun metaphor) #(even tho it depends on how it's portrayed) #(but believe me the irony isn't lost on me)

[bootlegfrank]

Now I'm not going through two pairs of sticks a song anymore Click for HQ

#this is my first time painting like this digitally. this took me so many hours spread over 8 days #bob bryar #bob bryar fanart #that is a vic firth american classic rock stick btw which are the sticks bob used until switching to vater in 2007 #tw blo0d #fanart #digital art #bootlegfrnk art #i lost the original source of the reference image im sorry

[hella1975]

im having a nap and then i WILL do my bi-annual inbox cleanse this is a promise and a warning

#no it’s not actually bi-annual but somehow the reality of me letting it build up until i frequently bulk answer 60 in one go is worse #the way the tbos account is also a state. what is my problem #i literally love answering asks as well like not even just the inherent joy of knowing people are going out of their way to interact #i also like the routine of it like i get a cuppa i put on a playlist and then i just. answer my little asks #but i get behind so quickly these days (which is a wonderful problem to have!) and the amount of times i go in my inbox #like ‘todays the day!’ just to answer a couple and then tap out is abysmal 😭 #so im hoping posting it here will hold me accountable #if im not clogging ur dash in 2 hours time pls shout at me #im so sleepy though it’s absolutely a terrible idea to have a nap at 7pm but im doing it anyway #i left the flat at 8:30am and was in an exam until GONE TWELVE #AND HALFWAY THROUGH BLACKBOARD FROZE ON ME AND KICKED ME OUT! I HAD TO EMAIL THE SCHOOL OF BUSINESS! THEY RESET IT! I LOST ALL MY PROGRESS! #appalling scenes truly. they wouldn’t treat an animal like this #so yeah. bedtime then play fetch with the cult for a bit <3 #hella goes to uni

[shamera]

okay, FINE, I will catch up on the Fontaine Archon Quest in Genshin.

(so there are, like, a dozen gmvs for Genshin to the song Gods and they are all FIRE??? Literally the perfect song for the game.)

#I stopped in the Fortress of Meropide because I kept getting lost #also because NaNo and no time to play catchup #I have avoided spoilers successfully can you believe it? #well okay fine not really because I have Neuvillette #BUT OTHER THAN HIS SPOILERS I have avoided story spoilers #and I need to do character quests too URG #I love this game I really really do #but I started playing from day 1 #and I will tell you that 1.0 update had like 1-2 hours of new content #I cringe now because each update has 8+ hours of new content and I cannot make myself do that #I am currently not streaming my playthrough because my computer is sucky now #please I was trapped for like 3+ hours in the courthouse when I last played seriously #FUCKING TRAPPED I COULDN'T STOP PLAYING BECAUSE THE QUEST WON'T LET ME LEAVE #so now I cringe at the idea of continuing the quest because I don't know if I wanna play 3+ hours at a time anymore #but I really need to catch up #so I will. this week. somehow.

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

one thing abt being disabled/chronically ill that some people don’t get is that sometimes body maintenance that ensures you have the absolute minimum amount of function can also be something that takes away a lot of control and autonomy. you can argue till the cows come home that making those decisions to try and help yourself (or realistically to try to make sure things aren’t worse than they already are) is something that exhibits control and autonomy and stuff, but they can be so limiting in practice because they’re things that take up so much time but have to be done to do anything else

#i have to sleep a lot. i’m at the point where functioning requires 8 hours of sleep if not more #I should probably be getting 10+ but i’m a student and i work so 8 is the minimum. but then also getting ready for bed is a whole process s #the whole thing can take 10-12 hours depending how much im sleeping. just to make sure i can do anything #that is time in my day i cannot use for anything else. it’s not ‘oh but i can push through it’ because i can’t without spending the next da #lightheaded and nauseous and vaguely dizzy and with such intense brain fog I can’t think with my fatigue so bad i genuinely don’t know how #get myself to work a lot of days. my abled peers don’t have to deal with this at all. they have unlimited study time if they want to #and yeah it is a choice i’m making that’s true i could just not do. except i would lose my job and fail out of college because i would not #be able to get to classes or do my homework or think. but being told ‘but you are making choices about your life’ when i have lost so much #of what i used to be able to do because i am spiralling down and continuing to get worse is so. #literally last year i would wake up at 6:30 and then go to school till 3 and then go to my internship until 10 and get home at 11 and be in #bed anywhere from midnight to two in the morning and then wake up the next day and do it all again. i graduated with a 3.9 gpa and made it #into my top college while dealing with my cancer symptoms and then the two surgeries about it #but now i lose half my day to just making sure i can get out of bed. i can’t go anywhere because my body is physically too exhausted #any extra time goes into doing homework or occasionally time to myself #not decimating my health by doing minimum body care responsibilities isn’t freeing. occasionally i have a good day which is freeing but tha #usually goes into just. other things outside class or work or eating. I don’t go do something for myself or go do something fun on good day #because I still can’t. good days just mean i don’t want to lie down on the pavement when i’m going somewhere #I just. I don’t magically have control over my life because i try to get enough sleep. i lose half my day to doing that and ultimately it’s #just a bodily function that would have to happen anyway #this is a vent post im just having a really hard time right now because it feels like im in exponential decline. it was nowhere near this #bad last semester. my grades are tanking and i have no free time because anything outside of sleep is either work or school #vent tw #yall can rb this just ignore my tags completely #disability #chronically ill #i keep trying to explain to people how pots works because that’s all logical but there’s no way to explain what it’s doing to my body or ho #i feel all the time. the last time i felt this bad was when i had a bad flu or immediately after surgeries because i don’t react well to #anesthesia and always come out of them feeling like shit. and now i just feel like this all the time and it’s only getting worse #I can’t even stay up late anymore because my body feels like it isn’t counting the sleep even if I get 8 hours #I can deal if I have a free day the day after but that just leaves Friday and Saturday nights and I usually still have to do homework

[pilotstreets]

i have GOT to stop wearing tøp shirts to appointments related to my mental health oh my god

#it's just my fashion is all #first appointment for adhd diagnosis. wore a tøp shirt. other diagnosis appointments. tøp shirts. firsy day of therapy. tøp shirt. now im #in the waiting room for an appointment to see about getting on antidepressants. and guess what im wearing. TØP SHIRT. #also i ordered another shirt off ebay and im very excited about it because i already have the same shirt and it's my #FAVORITE pilots shirt ever but i LOST IT last year and i think someone might have stolen it at camp #or it just went to a different dimension when i got back and unpacked because it's GONE #so i ordered another just like it AND it was $8 less than my first one 😋 and if i find the other one then i'll probs crop the new one #also. every appointment has been a different shirt because i own like 10 shirts BUT 3 of them i cannot #bring myself to wear outside of the house. im sorry i cant do it. #im rambling a lot in the tags sorry im just really nervous and im gonna be in the waiting room for my appointment for an hour. anyway #should have brought my headphones so i can listen to the mtv unplugged 😔 sad. sad #;malls;

[xwiredearbuds2014x]

Help me my hatred for my job is making me evil

#on my feet for 8 hours doing dishes im covered in a layer of sweat and chemicals and slime #after I had finished all the dishes and was cleaning the sink a guy brought MORE THAT HE FORGOT #white hot rage #I want to quit every day but I can’t until one of the jobs I’ve applied to gets back to me #there have been times when I’ve kept working even though I’m injured/crying/covered in blood and NOBODY gave a shit #there was a good 6 months or so when we were always understaffed so I had to do the work of 2-4 people constantly #even with lines of customers out the door #one time a while back I told my manager I was feeling overwhelmed and asked if I could go on break #he yelled at me and berated me and basically threatened to fire me. I wasn’t the same for the rest of my shift #I apologized profusely but mentioned how long I’ve been there and everything I’ve given to this place #he said that was just the expectation #even though I know for a fact almost no one works as hard on me. other people slack off #and I have to pick up the slack because they know I can #and they know I won’t stand up for myself when I am mistreated #I guess even though he can be cold and distant and vindictive #I always assumed that he HAD to appreciate me. but I know that is not the case #I lost all respect for him at that moment. there have been other times when he’s yelled at me and belittled me #and I’ve just had to act like everything’s fine because I can’t get fired

[bookwyrminspiration]

it only took an extra five hours but we made it :)

#quil's unholy underworld #it was literally a one hour flight #that was like eight hours waiting for one hour #but we did it :) #complimented some people along the way #the flight attendants liked my bear #(I’ve been carrying it around all day as emotional support) #unfortunately lost a glove in this process like a week ago :/ #but i can make another #it’s just annoying since that one was my good glove #oh well #I’ll just have to make it better then I guess #it is. midnight #we were supposed to be home by 7 #8 at the latest

[wavernot4love]

alright second foundations anniversary post because i did perhaps just remember i took this questionable quality mostly out of focus skeleton gerard foundations fancam at toronto 1 aka my first show

#taken out of pure shock this band was standing in front of me after 8 1/2 years of being a fan in a city i had never been in until that day #distinctly recall quickly sending it to my cousin (who was back @ home) w a horrifically misspelled caption meant to say “SKELETON GERARD” #then completely going off the radar as i lost my mind in the middle of the floor of scotiabank arena for the next hour and a half #mcr #my chemical romance #gerard way #mcr toronto #mcr posting

[gaytobymeres]

If I don’t sleep tonight I’m genuinely going to lose it

#8 days of not getting to sleep until 2am or after and also then getting up at 6.15/6.30 #I feel awful girlies #also I have no focus at all as a result el oh el #didn’t get to sleep until 4am this morning :( #also like I’ve been busy normally I’d be exhausted and get to sleep easily but it’s like I’ve completely lost my ability to actually fall #asleep. just hours of feeling tired but not sleepy whilst tossing and turning #-_-

[dancedance-resolution]

on one hand i do want to travel and see the world etc. on the other hand we are going to be 4.5 hours away from home for four whole days and i’ve already had multiple anxiety episodes about it

#we have to leave schuyler at home and i like. i haven’t been away from her for more than 8 hours in years? possibly ever? #i don’t know what to do #and also im terrified for my plants. there’s no way they’ll all do okay for so long and last time my dad took care of them for me when we #were gone for 3 days trina was at the brink of death (still hasn’t recovered even a quarter of the leaves she lost) and agnetha was horribly #burned. #idk i know it’s not worth getting this upset over but im just. so concerned

[freebooter4ever]

i get up so early every day how am i always five minutes late? D:

#Journal shit #The real question is how in the world did i survive when the work day was 8:30am to 8:30pm #I mean i wasnt surviving i was crying in my car everyday after driving home and getting barely four hrs of sleep but #The one good thing the pandemic did for me at least was get me decent work hours #Of course it also means i lost the respect of all my peers but fuck it i get more drawing time to myself

[dreamlanddoll]

kinda wanna quit my job lowkey

#idk #its either im up super early and spend 8 hours in a gross wet backroom cutting up almost expired fruit #or im stocking groceries but have to go through a swsrm of flies bc a nest just hatched bc its fucking summer god i hate it #and I just hate it idk I hate having to lift so many heavy things like boxes of pop and cans through out the day #also i get super bad panic attacks in the morning??? for some reason??? #like Ill wake up at 4 get ready for work everythings fine and theb #oop im breaking down in tears by 6 #idk why #i know that a spencers i live kinda far from is hiring and I like going there but #idk like what if i dont get along with the other employees as well as the ones here #or what it they arent good abt mental health like my managers here are #bc like despite all the actual work i hate my bosses are super forgiving and understanding when im having a bad mental health day #idk..plus my healthcare LITERALLY JUST kicked in 2 months ago for my meds so #i dont wanna have to go through abother 6 months of trial at another job before i get them for free again #idk guys #im so lost on what to do rn #and i think my mom would loose it if i quit my current job ngl

[meownotgood]

told myself I was gonna work on some writing today but I actually spent the whole day playing genshin impact..... I'm sorry

#allow me to rant about genshin in the tags #I played for like 8 hours today cause I had the day off #and omg sumeru is so fun #it's very pretty I love all the new enemies and environments and the music is amazing as always #exploring new regions and areas will forever be my favorite part about genshin so when new areas are added I always play like crazy #I spent $50 cause I really wanted tighnari and I lost 50/50 so I spent $50 more to get him lmao #but I think it was worth it he's soooo cute #I love his big ears and his hoodie and ugh the whole aesthetic of dendro just appeals to me greatly #I also love collei I never read the genshin manga so I don't know much about her but her design is awesome #she has a little cat thingy I can't it's so cute #and her outfit is amazing it's adorable and really nice for a four star character honestly #the only thing I don't like about genshin is that you can't skip the dialogue for quests..... #like I have to take a break because my fingers hurt from mashing the space bar #okay I'll shut up genshin is one of my favorite things so I can talk about it endlessly haha

[voulezloux]

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#i am so stressed rn #like i’m constantly stressed all the fucking tiem #i somehow am keeping up with everything i have to do assignment wise for school #while also simulaneoualy feeling like i’m falling behind and i can’t get everything done #like it shows in my grades that i’m on top of shit #my lowest grade is a 92.9% in my law class and that’s still a fucking A #between work and school i don’t have a lot of time for myself #i need to write but i’ve been so fucking exhausted that i cannot even process writing #i’m barely processing any fic i’m reading #or textbooks that im reading #my life since january has basically been playing uber for my mom #driving my dog to and from the sitter’s #going to work #doing school #and going to all my fucking doctors appointments that i have every month #and i don’t mind playing uber for my mom i really don’t #but i’m also not getting a lot of sleep on top of everything #like at most i’ll get 7 1/2 hours on a good day #but i’m averaging 4.5-5.5 hours a night #because i stay up until midnight doing school work and i usually have to be up by 6a to drive my mom to work #i don’t go to bed usually until 1a because i’m still fuckign wired from the day #because i haven’t been able to stop and breathe #i’m p sure i’m developing some kind of eating disorder or at least disordered eating #bc since jan ive lost 22lbs #compared to march 2023 to jan 2024 where i lost 16 pounds #and i know i’m not eating enough or im not eating routinely enough and im diabetic i can’t go long hours between eating #but i’ll got like 6-8 hours between the time i eat lunch to when i eat dinner #i have to get my big bang done by the 28th bc it posts the 29th #and i have so much shit to do for school i do not know how the fuck i’m going to make it to the end of the semester #idk life sucks and i want to cry but i don’t even have time to cry