#and then the RSD jumps in

[gayfishermanfive]

the one benefit to having adhd is that i get to project it onto all my blorbos teehee

#me throwing rsd at a character who already has attachment issues and a crippling fear of abandonment: #the fun part is this applies to most of my blorbos 😌 #*evil laugh* #jump speaks

[heart-of-the-morningstar]

The RSD is hittin’ really fucking hard today lads…

#rsd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #add #adhd #it’s fucking me up today #asked my friend to hang out and he legit just says ‘no thanks’ #like what kind of fucking response is that #at least try to come up with an excuse #fuck off with your ‘no thanks’ #tell me to jump off of a cliff next time tbh #trying to hang out with this guy is like fucking pulling teeth #why do I keep trying #probably delete later

[fandomssaremysoul]

#adhd #actually adhd #adhd rsd #rsd things #Meme #Kermit #kermit meme #Dark Kermit #The most Lonely aligned thing ever #Can you guess who would claim me??? #tma reference #it happens #Everytime I join a discord #I get intimidated by the fact that it was made of friends who know each other for like years and then I jump in bc I'm desperate for friends #And community and I really want that but somehow always forget that the people care for each other already and have a connection and I don't #Yet at least I could in a while but I feel like I try too hard and thats embarrassing and dumb and I'll never meet these people #I'm poor and they're too cool and halfway across the world and would probably not blink twice should I just disappear #Really the hitting the “And I am an idiot with a painted face in the corner taking up space but when he walks in I am loved” but it's #It's strangers you met on the internet giving you a line of attention in a discord group #pathetic loser

[theamityelf]

Fun thing about me is that I really dislike it when the op of any post says "This is the only good/funny/valid reply" to someone, because despite the fact that 100% of the time I have never seen the post in my life and therefore have no reason to feel offended, I still find myself thinking, "Come on, some people worked really hard on their responses."

#the rsd jumped out lol #rsd

[iron-dead]

Ah Tumblr where noone will see this

#im gonna fight everyone who ever said adhd is a superpower #i hate it i fucking hate having adhd the paralysis makes me wanna cry #i tried following every fucking trick but somedays are just so frustrating #that paired sith rsd is making want to jump from the balcony #me feeling this alone isnt helping at all

[whimsyprinx]

What does rsd mean? Google isn’t being very helpful.

sorry for the late reply anon! Rsd means rejection sensitivity dysphoria!

i suck at like wording things right so here’s a screenshot of the meaning, it’s something myself and a lot of my friends (other nd ppl) unfortunately struggle with, sometimes it’s easier to deal with than other times but like other factors in my life don’t really help, it’s jsut something I have to work on not letting get the best of my rn

#whimsy whispers #asks #anon #thanks for the ask! #one time I went like two weeks without feeling strong rsd or other bad things and it was great and I miss it #idk i feel stupid and I know I complain about rsd a lot but god #it’s just stupid because I know that no one hates me over small things that my friends don’t suddenly hate me or dislike me #but the slightest changes make me panic and assume the worst #and ofc it’s not just friends like strangers or family or like when I had them coworkers as well #it’s just really easy for me to jump to the worst scenario ig

[sunshinechay]

It hurts to watch Rain immediately jump into listing all of the faults he knows people hate about it and almost begging Phayu to be able to stay close to him

I’ve dealt with shit like that all my life

#love in the air #rain lita #rsd is a bitch my friend #and it sucks to have to go through it #knowing that there is a high chance it isn’t even about you #but not wanting to risk it #so you jump into explaining how you know you’re annoying and fuck up a lot but if you just give me a chance i can do better #cap rewatches lita

[the-chosen-half-of-one]

Tumblr, give me the strength not to fight random strangers on the internet who attack my favourite characters (and my own character as a person who likes them) on my own posts

#I want to fight so bad I want to argue but I will block #I hate people on here #being needlessly rude :( #and baselessly insulting something that the op obviously loves #fandom #it’s not even legit character criticism it’s just biased unnuanced hate which like fine whatever but make your own goddamn post #or leave people to enjoy things #also what they said I really want to just jump through the screen and counter it because it’s so wrong? #and I don’t mean this in a I can’t see the flaws in my favourite things way #I mean in a looking at literally anything in canon way and looking at things outside your own little bubble way #but I’m rambling #man rsd f—king hitting when it’s not even against me it’s against a fictional dude?? #I have so many things to say about why their insults are not founded but I won’t because that’s pouring gasoline on a fire #feeling too strongly feeling too strongly #they’re blocked I’ve blocked them #I can’t stop thinking about it #bizarre response absolutely bizarre #basically insulting anyone who likes them #it was so snobby :(

[betawooper]

you see, i think genya and nezuko could be good friends, great friends, best of friends even, they have the fucking narrative parallels and everything, but i just cannot for the life of me figure out how the hell to get either of them to talk to each other when nezuko is nowhere near as talkative as tanjirou

#also genya literally had her at knife point bc Demon in their first formal interaction #granted nezuko rationalized that as a proper reaction to meeting someone who theyre trained to kill (though ikari was a lil bitch about it) #idk i think maybe im worried about nezuko's curiosity about someone else being like her is not in character #and also shes kinda going through a huge rsd moment with tanjirou when their theoretical conversation should take place #any questions or curiosities she has of genya's unique experiences with demonhood would be overshadowed by #tanjirou going through a Mental Illness moment and telling her to leave him alone a few days prior #dude i wish nezuko was more like mitsuri or even inosuke at least then i could have them jump conversation topics more easily #gott damn #kny plot rewrite

[himbeaux-on-ice]

i'm considering manually slowing down the pace at which i publish writing for a little while. like forcing myself to space fics out more instead of just shoving them onto the audience as soon as they're done bc i'm validation-hungry. idk. i feel like i need to not swamp people

bc it's really unfair to be as invested/greedy for comments and reactions as i am when i haven't even mustered the exec function to answer so many of the lovely comments i do get lol. like i shouldn't keep putting myself in a situation where i can't keep pace with being grateful to people bc i'm publishing so much i start falling behind on comments, people can't keep up with the fics, and then i get bummed when they don't keep giving me that response right when i want it. that's not fair. i don't want to pester or guilt people or start resenting them for rsd reasons because i'm not getting the cookies i want for doing a writing. people have lives and are busy and i can't expect them to always drop everything to give me the response i crave within a day or two. idk. this isn't a pity-begging post i just need to exorcise these thoughts without dumping them in the lap of friends who are busy or who might feel guilted by it, or friends who aren't in hrpf circles so if they say "well i'll read your fics!" out of pity i'll have to be like "lol nah". anyway i'll be fine. just. need to manage this better maybe.

#idk the rsd just looks at hits going up with barely any responses and people seeing your links and then not reading #and jumps to the completely unreasonable 'they hated it and/or they're annoyed by you shoving this on them constantly' #even though that's uncharitable and there are real and reasonable reasons why they can't give me INSTANT gratification #personal #my fics #sorry

[crowshoots]

i am sorry for all the hc posts recently bc my writing brain is Not turned on except for specific people but i am thinking about the fact that untreated adhd can lead to to symptoms of anxiety & depression and just. gestures @ jesper’s entire. self esteem and image laying in tatters

#its. much more complex than that and i will not jump to putting those labels on them when they do not fit #but the untreated adhd does have an affect on how jesper saw themselves #especially when it came to bad days where things they mightve taken in stride other day feels like a blow to the face #re their capabilities & if theyre capable of doing things & not a mess yk #those (sparkles) undiagnosed adhd (sparkles) feelings (sparkles) #from someone who went underneath the same thing (zany) #if theres one thing im gonna do its project my immense rsd onto my characters lolololol

[gayfishermanfive]

i honestly should've studied psychology

#the way i try and analyse other ppls emotions and stuff LMAO #and im here like hmmmm sounds a lot like yall feeling rsd 🤔 #but alas i took philosophy and ethics instead of psychology 😔 ✊ #worth it tho that class was great #jump speaks

[apollo-zero-one]

Listening to stories of people who survived situations like being trapped in collapsed buildings and it kinda sounds like the human response to being trapped in a bad situation is to just keep going back to sleep until death comes. Thinking about depressive avoidant sleeping. Brain doesn't know you aren't trapped under rubble it can't see out of his bone prison brain just knows everything is bad and everything hurts and we can't handle this stress we need to divert all power to life support, night night.

#is that a horrible comparison to make? yeah probably in poor taste given the state of things #do I earnestly believe I am in as traumatic a situation as that? I think my brain is reacting the same way yeah. genuinely. #I think my brain has been in survial mode or death incoming mode for like. since middle school #I think I hit puberty and my brain decided we are dying slowly and painfully and has been reacting accordingly. #I think this year it got much worse tho I think this is when I hit the critical level because this is when I have been sleeping more #I hate that house and my roommates so much that I just sleep whenever I'm there. i don't eat much at home #I try not to drink much so that i don't have to use the bathroom as much and that also minimizes my kitchen trips.... I collect 2 litres of #water each morning. one for me one for my cat. his fountain stays full and I ration my water for myself and on the 4 nights a week I work #I will refill it at work. I am mostly trying to be unseen unheard in that house. Of course the dogs always hear me which is why I am so #careful. I only pass through that house twice a day: once in the morning and once in the evening. Coming and going. #on my days off that means only 2 bathroom trips per 24 hours but you know fucking what I still get bitten by a dog every time. #and wish I had just pissed in a bottle or something because they are jumping on me they are biting me there are tears in my eyes I am biting #my tongue because if I shout or tell them to stop their owner comes and yells at them. And they don't give a shit about being yelled at!! #but me??? Bleeding and anxious and trying not to piss myself?? I don't handle being yelled at well!! even if it isn't directed at me!! #I have RSD!! I used to cry in school when a teacher was chewing out SOMEONE ELSE !! and being SHOUTED genuinely at???? #i am not coping well!! i do not feel safe in this house!!! between the actually getting bitten and the yelling!!! #and the yelling is nonstop because these women have issues with each other. bro I'm so fucking glad my dad moved out when he started having #Marital Issues bcos I think I'd have like 85% more childhood trauma if I had to listen to them fighting like this as a kid #shit I'm getting adulthood trauma from these women fighting. oh my god. angie dump your girlfriend for christ sake #and sTOP MOTHERING ME. I MOVED HERE TO GET AWAY FROM MY MOM AND THIS WOMAN IS WORSE THAN MY MOTHER ABOUT THE FUCKING MOTHERING. #Stop telling me what to wear!! Stop telling me what to eat!! Stop asking if I'm seeing anyone!! #this is my own fault I put myself in this situation and I am trying to claw my way back out but it isn't as easy as it was to get in ;-; #I hate myself I hate the decisions I made that got me here

[welcometotheocverse]

as someone who understands i dont get interaction because i constantly go on hiatus (and work through those feelings on my own ) it sure is something to see "no one likes my posts and thats why i said something mean"

#yea i have rsd but also i know what to expect from what i put in #like girl #acey speaks #oc community drama #yup same as when i left #ive gotten zero likes on things and gone “huh that sucks” and that..that it #thats all i do #ive been bummed i cant create and that that means i cant jump on bandwagons or talk to ppl #which results in less traction and gone 'huh that sucks wish i could spend more time interacting; and that...thats it #i dont..i dont get it #this is an excuse used by anons A Lot and its like girl ( nongemdered) are u okay

[serethespider]

tfw when you have a deep yearning for meaningful and detailed conversations about topics you feel strongly about with people whose opinions are different than yours but also hate conflict and have trouble with making connections and finding discussion spaces

#original #personal #musings #also i don't know how to tag #so that also probably doesn't help as far as finding convos on tumblr #maybe i should just jump into other people's posts more #but the social anxiety/rsd says No Do Not Do That

[ghastbutlikegay]

do you ever look back on an interaction you had with someone and think damn, that probably really changed their perception of me

#dw about me im just having one of those 'my friends all think im stupid and insecure and depend too much on outside validation' moments #none of them probably even remember that conversation but every so often i remember it and feel awful lolol #someone sounded like they thought what i was saying was bullshit #so i backtracked and said to forget i brought it up #and then the way they reacted sounded like they thought i was like #really insecure and needed outside validation to hold up my self esteem #which is not the case #i just have very few friends and have easily triggered RSD #so the second someone seems even slightly displeased with something i said i spiral n shit and jump to the worst conclusions #(especially since i dont really have other friends to fall back on) #and then i react to things in ways that dont come off very well #this interaction was ages ago and im sure everyone forgot about it but #still #and yknow im sure that wasnt the intent with what they said but like. thats RSD babeyyy #vent #WOW i did not mean for it to ge tthat venty but. yknow