#and then. she cut herself

[movedtodykedvonte]

Simon not knowing where the Bus was going and Betty turning into Golbetty right before it leaves is less to say her fate is ambiguous and unknown to even her but more so Simon and her can truly no longer travel together, more so he can’t come with her.

And that he finally realized that.

#he’s stops himself from going despite Betty projecting the happiness it would’ve brought her #cause it’s not how they were and it’s not what he did #as the entire series he was trying to switch the roles #Betty is the chaos embodied natural world now #her fate is that of the aggressive unknown itself #it’s not a great date but it’s pretty cut and dry that’s what she is and forever will be now #and I thinks it’s good cause she gets to make all her choices for herself without feeling swayed to sacrificial cause she is the sway now #simon petrikov #Betty grof #adventure time #fionna and cake #fionna and cake spoilers #petrigrof #last post I need to sleep

[kash-phia]

#pokemon #Trainer leaf #Rival blue #Rival green #Blue oak #Green oak #Conflictingshipping #Kashart #Pokemon frlg #It's not easy cutting off your childhood friend #Especially not one who's been with you all your life #Like your other half #The separation hurt green but it hurt leaf just as much huh #Maybe a part of her blames herself for their fall out; she isn't the best at expressing her feelings #Ultimately she decides to go back; maybe she realises she was running away from her problems.What she needed to do was properly confront hi #Man rambling in the tags is so fun #I'm so glad no one reads these ever(definitely)

[stellernorth]

2x21 All Hell Breaks Loose

DVD commentary:

Sera Gamble: I really I love the scene. I love that we gave dean a vision because there's like a sub text too--I mean, it's not even really subtext--he does everything but say, "I'm not a ffff-freaking freak," when he's accused of potentially being- so his prejudice against um—

Robert Singer: I actually think you wrote that Sera, “I'm not, l'm not, I'm not a freaking psychic,” and Eric and i talked about it, i think it was me that said, you know, that's being a little rough on his brother, so actually this idea of that he doesn't quite get it out...

Sera Gamble: But he thinks that.

Robert Singer: He thinks it and you can see that.

#i know realistically by going ‘ffffffreaking’ she was cutting herself off from saying ‘fucking’. but 😈 #post i made #i <3 fantasy as a metaphor for difference #spn backstage #spn s2e21 #dean winchester #winchester brothers

[prettycoolducks]

decided to quickly redraw/draw over an old (and I mean OLD) GLaDOS drawing. I liked the idea I was going for! It's GLaDOS standing over Cave Johnson's corpse lol. Original drawing under the cut (:

#art #my art #art of duck #portal #portal 2 #got distracted while packing and just started looking through all of my old digital art files. #I actually had redrawn this before but I never finished it #GLaDOS #cave johnson #I did a lil thing with the . the chassis. looks kinda like a halo. but also horns? glados be like i can be your angle or ur devil #I have no idea when this is from #I like the idea of making android GLaDOS's hair like Caroline's but choppy like she cut it herself or something #portal fanart #Im a sucker for GLaDOS as a ghost symbolism #she was driven to kill everyone in the facility for what they did to her but she DOESNT EVEN REMEMBER WHAT THAT WAS. until the end of p2 of #its so good. gotta replay portal 2

[possamble]

do you have any particular thoughts regarding marcille being a half-elf? its interesting to me considering the fact that she seems self-conscious about being a half-elf, but denies it when its brought up

i remember marcille looking visibly uncomfortable over laios simply asking her how old she is, which i think the only reason she might feel nervous about this is because it might reveal her as a half-elf to him.

she's never corrected anybody whose called her an elf either.

never mind the circumstances of the reveal, in which thistle goes on about how half-elves are inferior and accusing her of wanting to become full blooded elf, she seemed particularly upset like he struck a nerve-

i wish the half-elf thing was built upon more. also, underrated marcille line:

okay so i revisited this sequence just to make sure I could back myself up and it's just... man. there's a lot going on.

the first reaction we get from Marcille is this huge panel that takes up half of the page

she is viscerally affected. flushing to the tips of her ears with the intensity of it. and we see it again, a few pages later

so it might seem like she's embarrassed about it and lying to herself, but... I really think it's just that Thistle is accidentally hitting sore spots. If you really look at what he says to get these reactions

"you'll live out your entire life [...] and die that way too"

"a hundred years from now, nobody will be there"

Hear me out. I think, if he stuck to harping on about her inferiority without bringing up how terrifyingly long-lived she is, she wouldn't have been as bothered. But right now, Thistle is accidentally hitting all the marks on Marcille's deepest fears-- and this is after the Winged Lion promised her that her dreams could come true in an extremely vulnerable moment, so it also hits her slightly guilty conscience as well.

I do truly believe that Marcille isn't bothered about being a half-elf the way that people assume she'd be bothered by it. To her, the biggest problem with being a half-elf is that it's isolating.

On one hand, it's not hard to imagine why she'd distance herself from elves in the west. A lot of them can clock her as a half-elf on sight, unlike other races, and therefore she's always branded with this weird stigma of being Othered -- I would even say that she considers herself lucky for being born outside of elven culture instead of having to grow up in it. I mean, just... look at the way elves talk about her.

Skipping past the uncomfortable implication of what 'not tolerating the existence' of half-elves would actually entail, this is incredibly fucking annoying. You can see why she wouldn't want to be around elves much. You see a lot of Marcille reacting badly here, but honestly, almost all of it can be attributed to her freaking out that her bluff completely failed. She's honestly more paying attention to Izutsumi's footsteps and trying to coordinate an opportunity to escape.

And in the end, you see her built-up frustration at being asked if she wants to be a full-blooded elf like 2-3 times in a row.

Yeah, yeah, "the lady doth protest too much," and all. But we know Marcille. We know that she's a lot more embarrassed and horrendously unconvincing when she's being prodded about something she's actually self-conscious about.

Moving onto the flipside of things, it might seem weird that she "pretends" to be a full elf around other races, but it's not really that strange if you think about it. Again, people are weird about her being infertile or whatever, and a lots of them don't even know much about what sets half-elves apart from everyone else. I mean, look at how uncomfortable Laios is just asking her about it

and look at how exasperated and resigned she looks

And like... she's right. Where would that come up in normal conversation? Why would she go out of her way to tell them? She's functionally a normal elf to other races anyway -- got the ears, the abnormally long "childhood", and the huge mana capacity. Unless it's directly relevant or important for people to know, I don't think it's all that strange or indicative of insecurity that she prefers not to bother with it.

(This combined with her sense of being an "outsider" to elf culture also explains why she thinks elf superiority is embarrassing. She sees the way elves treat short-lived races from the "outsider" perspective nonetheless, and thinks it's obnoxious; especially more so because she usually has to play the elf around short-lived races and deal with the reputation of arrogance that elves have built up.)

The sad thing is, this all means that... she doesn't actually fit in anywhere. She doesn't like going out West much because of how elves treat her. But she's also an outsider in the continents she was born in, treated like this exotic long-lived alien choosing to live among short-lived races for some reason. She is always an outsider, the Other, no matter where she goes. Add in the fact that she'll live longer than literally anyone she knows, and it's honestly kind of heartbreaking.

And I think that's the crux of it. Marcille really doesn't act like she's at all self-conscious about being a half-elf because of any feelings of inferiority or being half-made or whatever. She considers herself a perfectly legitimate being and might even, in some ways, consider herself superior to normal elves because she's not blind with elf supremacy or whatever. (And whatever "elven biases" she displays, all of them are born more out of the fact that she's kind of bad at conceptualizing how other races age and mature compared to herself, not that she actually considers herself better or more mature simply for being an elf.)

I think that whatever self-consciousness Marcille has about being a half-elf is, instead, related to terror and loneliness. The reminder that it ensures she'll never truly belong anywhere for the rest of her very long life. The reminder that, in truth, even she's not actually sure how old she is by other races' standards (hence the discomfort when asked how old she is). She doesn't want to not be a half elf, or be a full elf or full tall-man-- in her ideal world, she's still a half-elf. She just gets to live out her life at the same pace with the people she loves and doesn't have to say goodbye again and again and again until she dies.

and one last very important panel, right after Mithrun tells her that all her desires would be devoured

In her ideal world, she's still a half-elf and reality magically starts marching at her pace. But failing that, the second best thing is that she's still a half-elf-- but one who is able to accept reality and let go of her fear.

(But the rest of the story pans out the way it does because, to Marcille, taking reality apart and reshaping it was less scary than simply and fully reconciling with it.)

#asks #dungeon meshi manga spoilers #marcille donato #manga panel analysis #this is probably riddled with typos sorry #readmore cut bc it got long lmao #i ended up babbling about it bc it's such an important character detail to me #bc like... wow. she's so normal about it. she's literally just chilling. #the only thing that really bothers her is the material reality of it and how people treat her #the stereotypes the stigma etc. etc. #otherwise it just.. #literally doesn't factor into her criteria for self-worth at all #the basic truth is that marcille likes herself on a fundamental level #she's not plagued by a deep and festering self-loathing the way a lot of characters in her archetype are #she likes herself and is proud of her successes and accomplishments #its just that shes terrified of failure and can have *episodes* of self-loathing when she fucks up #but who doesn't yknow #i know its a very slight nuance that makes very little difference in how her 'overachiever' problems manifest but its there #the sword of abandonment issues that hangs over her head has nothing to do with her self-worth or self-esteem or meeting her own standards #it has to do with the fear of not living up to *other* people's expectations and not being useful enough to be worth keeping around #she's good enough for herself but she's always so so so scared that she's not good enough for other people #i wont say much about what ryoko kui is saying using this as an allegory for real world racial biases but #dungeon meshi's treatment of marcille's relationship with her being half-elf is so incredibly important to me because it gets it so right. #a trauma about inferiority or being a half-being isn't inherent to the experience of being 'of two worlds' at all #that's something that's unfairly drilled into people by their environment #the *inherent* anguish is the loneliness. the constant longing. the fact that you are always homesick no matter where you are #always just a little bit of an outsider and never fully at home #and dungeon meshi gets that. #edit: cleaned it up a little

[salemontrial]

Why the FUCK didn't Sasha apologize to Quinni.

#no im so pissed about that. #dude you don't give an autistic person a meltdown that big over something that hurtful #and just #walk away scot free #last time someone gave me a meltdown that hardcore I cut them off for a month. #that might just be the bpd tho #but still #quinni doesn't seem like the type to just. be chill without an apology and hearing sasha explain herself #and then she makes her her vice?????????? #she already acknowledged sasha is only in it for the power trip #sasha didn't even do anything in the investigation she just followed quinni around #which as she should #but she hasn't made up for how she treated quinni AT ALL #in fact she's just gotten MORE of a performative activist #like why the fuck was she such a bitch to missy abt spider #i get it yea. ur friends sometimes have dogshit taste in men but you don't need to make them feel like trash abt it #and the way she was like 'he fetishizes u for being black omg its probably asian girls next omg i dont feel safe' #THIS ISNT ABOUT YOU????????. #also she 100% jumpstarted quinnis identity crisis #with how she was constantly switching between infantilizing her and undermining her autonomy over her own decisions #and treating doing things quinni wanted to do and the specific way she needed to do them as a chore #and then victimizing herself!!!!!!! #like from experience that relationship dynamic IS abusive to autistic people it just is #idk if nt people get it but it's really fucking awful to come from your partner #anyway. until sasha apologizes to both quinni and missy this will continue to be a sasha hate page. #heartbreak high #heartbreak high season 2 #quinni gallagher jones #sasha so #missy beckett

[marzipanandminutiae]

me, fuming that my mother wouldn't let me wear long skirts or grow my hair much past shoulder-length until my mid-teens but also aware that that WAS how things often went in the late 19th century, wherein I now get most of my aesthetic inspiration:

#personal #historybounding #historical costuming #I joke but the motivation was very different and I actually had a maximum allowed skirt length until I left for college #like we had a screaming fight over me wearing a short skirt to high school graduation; age 18 (she wanted it; I didn't) #she thought if I wasn't dressing at least somewhat 'sexy' I was 'wasting my youth'. let's not get into the Makeup Policies #suffice to say that convincing her that lip balm was makeup made my life much much easier #also frequent threats to forcibly cut my hair herself if I didn't brush it many times a day #BUT I DIGRESS #(she's mellowed out somewhat over the years. also I don't live with her now which helps massively)

[theriverbeyond]

bowlcut baby Gideon is so important to me (the nuns were NOT doing her favors with those shears) but consider: tweenaged Gideon holding up a picture of her favorite comic hero and begging Aiglamene for a Cool Haircut and Aiglamene (has had the same crewcut since she joined the cohort aged 14 and has been maintaining it ever since) is like: Okay Kid I Will Try My Best (it does not look good)

#terrible gideon haircuts are so important to me #gideon nav #Aiglamene #trb.txt #tlt thoughts #i think she eventually cuts it herself in the bathroom. but before the #then* #but like. u know #when you bring in a photo of an anime boy into the haircutter and they are like :|

[fizzytoo]

she's my everything

#delete later #OUGGHHH #there will be a few more posts before she shows up w this haircut :( #she tried maintaining the blonde and now her hair's fried but we begin again ! #im obsessed w how choppy it looks like she definitely cut her hair herself #crying shaking throwing up in the bathroom mirror

[rambrandt-the-painter]

Not to sound like there's something wrong with me but I do think a lot about my girlfriends bones and organs which is why I relate to ram getting too involved in her friends business about their insides and such

#if you know ram personally she will invest herself in all the weird things your body is doing #she knows like healing magic she doesnt need to cut people open or anything

[ghostaholics]

no but ghost with a guardian angel who’s been protecting him all this time, and the only reason why he can see her now is because she lost her wings and was expelled from heaven for falling in love with him

it's the golden rule: don't harbor romantic feelings for your human charge

#°˖✧◝(⁰▿⁰)◜✧˖° 𝘴𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘯𝘢 𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘬𝘴 #ewb!simon has my heart but the angst ahh yes #screaming because he sees the mutilated flesh on her back where her wings got cut off #and he has to clean them with antiseptic because she can’t reach them herself #the tagline: did it hurt when you fell from heaven? yes immensely #she literally fell from heaven and the first thing she did was look for simon :( #how does she even explain herself to him?? idk IDK #still tries to watch over him even though she doesn’t have her powers #worries about him 24/7 #because he’s her purpose #as she adjusts to her new body and normal life

[deatharmonics]

Mandy's bowlcut birth.

#she tried cutting it herself poor thing #saw #saw franchise #amanda young #john kramer #I didn't think about if this would logically fit in with the timeline I just thought it was silly #ms paint

[prettyboykatsuki]

I’m so sorry if this is out of pocket but I need to know how hairy fujoneet reader is……. You mentioned her having bush already but what about everywhere else…

JKSDHFJS i do not want to get too detailed so people can still project but she virtually doesn't shave at all so do w that what you will. she tries one time for rin after they start dating and it hurts so bad she cries to him and he ends up finding her so pathetic they fuck again while he explains he could not care less.

so all in all as hairy as u wish to believe. her skin is too sensitive for that and rin would huff her no matter what

#return to sender #fujoverse #rin catches her snivelling in the bathroom because she cut herself with a razor trying to shave #he like. helps her out of course and then fucks her to the point of stupidity cause he found her sniveling sooo endearing he wanted to die #i love them so much because like. fujoneet reader in particular makes rin act like a caveman #he is not like that. at all. he is a civilized and normal and every other person #he's ever had anything with would describe him as kind of detached #turns out rin just was never all that into them at least not even close to how much he likes her #fujoneet reader turns him into some kind of beast and he HATEEEES himself over it and it IS so funny. i have to write them soon

[hilacopter]

I'm really curious what people's answer to this question will be:

(please don't just vote for your favorite character vote for who you think is the most of a protagonist this is serious research hereeee)

#pete gets the most of an arc and he's the most of an audience insert #steph has so much potential for development but she barely gets any scenes to herself unfortunately #i feel like grace gets the most screentime out of all of them??? maybe not the most but she does get quite a bit of scenes to herself #i don't think ruth and richie really make the cut but they do have their moments so i let them in #tbh i think i'm voting grace #peter spankoffski #stephanie lauter #grace chasity #ruth fleming #richie lipschitz #nerdy prudes must die #npmd #hatchetfield #hatchetverse #team starkid

[werewolf-cuddles]

I suppose this was inevitable. That big fuck-up a few months back really did put the Crush Crush devs in an awkward position.

Removing Ayano from the game entirely wouldn't have been feasible, despite there being multiple calls for the developers to do so, so replacing her with an expy was probably the best possible outcome here.

And now we know why it took the developers so long to respond to the allegations. Re-doing her art, and re-writing and re-recording dialogue to use her new name, that must have taken a while.

#crush crush #yandere simulator #i was wondering if they'd recast #given her VA has cut ties with yd now #but it looks like she stayed on to voice ayeka #or at least to re-record lines where she refers to herself by name

[sweetest-honeybee]

Some people do kinda suck but I find a lot of joy in giving people really specifics compliments at my job and it makes their whole day sometimes c: 💛

#I had a very enthusiastic conversation about a lady’s hair and the way it was cut #she cut it herself! #I often like to tell some women that their purse is very nice and they’re usually very proud of their purses I’ve found #I will tell some people sometimes that the color of their shirt is so fitting for their skin tone and was a great choice that day #I expressed once to a customer that I loved the prints of his shirts and he came by one day in this one particular shirt #hoping I’d be there apparently because he wanted me to see the shirt because I love his style! #it’s so nice #I had a lady blushing once from head to toe because I said she looks like the perfect example of a woman #that face every artist draws for that reference #she was so beautiful #haha I like compliments on men’s facial hair too! #they’re proud of their facial hair a lot of the time #even soemthing as simple as they look amazing for their age which I’ve said many many times #like I said some people suck and I have yet to truly meet the bad eggs but man I just really like seeing them light up #when you compliment the littlest things they put hardly any effort into and think maybe nobody will even notice #I like pointing out those things