#and what am i supposed to do for so fucking in the car ill go fucking insane i was literally folding clothes and thinking what am i even
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what is wrong with my dad i hope he dies man wtf😭
#tickets didn't get confirmed so he's like gaadi se aa jao??? bc akal nahi hai kya car se aayi aisi journey jisme train se 12 hr lagte hai#mujhe nahi jana car is so suffocating and i feel sick and i hate trips longer than like 3 hours#and what am i supposed to do for so fucking in the car ill go fucking insane i was literally folding clothes and thinking what am i even#doing with my life why am i alive i need to kill myself end it all its all pointless#the only way to stop these thoughts is being busy and studying doesn't help and watching 5 hours of netflix doesn't help#now im supposed to be alone with my thoughts and my phone and my depressing music#and be anxious in the car all the time because he is mad at me cause i haven't been studying so idk what he'll do when i get there#probably make me drop out of those tuis or be like you stay here with me in the middle of nowhere#great just fucking grand
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more things need text-based options. like phone call texting without frustrating secret rules
need to do stuff that is time sensitive. also not really able to talk atm. emails don't usually work out well also there r Rules to how emails work and like pls I just want to communicate quickly and get shit sorted without talking and taking several hours doing Email Rules and Expectations to achieve less than I need at a higher exertion cost
#being mad mad and frustrated and just want to get a fucking answer without playing phone tag or Social Norms The Written Edition(tm)#because if you dont do the email 100% according to the proper norms even if u are barely at baseline of function#you get delayed and run around games and bs#venting and negativity#dude im qbout to say fuck it and go live in my car i stg#bout to just fucking Neurotypical Advice myself out of having chronic illness and neurodiverse/mental health issues#just go fucking eat kale and take a walk and stop depending on silly things like insulin and medication#not necessarily by choice bc if i cant fucking work or get assistance for meds im not going to be able to get them anyway#tiny angry man made out of fire is stuck inside a robot box because shit isnt set up to be helpful!! and rules arent clear!!#except the rule that i am not allowed to be mad about it!!!!#i am so mad and so tired of only being allowed to be mad at myself!! i am mad at myself that i cannot meet what is expected!#i should also be allowed to be mad when the systems that are supposed to help qre not set up to help!!#or when they are all loud about how good they do and how they do better than they need to and dont even meet the bare minimum actually!!
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Heart to Heart
super thanks to @lilmaymayy for all the help 🤍
ONE. TWO. THREE.
warnings: mentions of death, car accident, hospitalization, and surgery.
wc: 2.8k
Y/N L/N had it all. A perfect life, a loving family, friends, you name it.
She's a beautiful woman with a heart and soul to match it. But, she's dying.
Her heart, it's killing her. She has everything, except a heart donor. Her heart has a hole, and it's keeping her from living her life.
“M-Mom..I-I can't breathe, it hurts...” Then everything faded to black.
Y/N woke up in a room with clean white walls, crisp white bed sheets and the sickening smell of disinfectant. The only thing she could hear was the silent beeping of the monitor, she was in the hospital—again.
Y/N closed her eyes shut, she didn't want to be in this place. She had already spent all her life in hospitals, she didn't want to die in one. Then, she heard hushed voices—one of which was her mother.
“Doc, is my daughter okay? Will she be okay?” her mom asked, her voice shaky.
“I'm sorry, Mrs. L/N.”
“H-how long?”
“Six months—a year, if we're lucky.”
Y/N's mom let out a shaky exhale, “Is...is there any other way?”
“The only way your daughter can survive is a heart transplant. Your daughter's condition is very critical, and there may be some complications if the transplant isn't done as soon as possible. That six months? It could be possible that she'd die today, tomorrow, next week, next month. Anything can happen, and if I were you I'd find a donor as soon as possible.” Then the doctor left, leaving Y/N's mom to break down silently.
“M-Mom?” Y/N asked in a hoarse dry voice.
Her mom turned around, and forced a smile—her cheeks were stained with fresh tears and her eyes were red and puffy—probably from being sleep deprived.
“Mom, am I going to die?” Y/N whispered, her voice breaking. Her mom quickly rushed to her side, hugging her tight.
“Mom, I'm- I don't wanna die! I can't die! I want to chase my dreams, Mom! I want to live-”
“It's going to be alright, sweetheart. I won't let you die, I won't.”
Y/N felt the whole world crumble. She was too young to die. She was barely even in her early twenties—she was only twenty three—and already spent her life in hospitals. She wasn't even finished with college, all she wanted to do ever since she was a little girl was to be a lawyer, and now with her declining condition it would be a miracle to reach 24. She isn't supposed to die, she was supposed to live her dreams—not be stuck in a hospital room or six feet under ground.
It has been two weeks since Y/N's diagnosis. And still, she had no donor. It was honestly nerve wracking—simply knowing that your days are limited, Y/N had no idea if she'd be alive the next day or even the next hour. It was torture, her heart and chest aching every minute of day. She couldn't get out of her bed—or even eat for that matter.
Y/N L/N had a lot of things on her list she wanted to do. She had dreams, big fucking dreams. Y/N dreamt of becoming one of the most prestigious lawyers the world has ever seen. She was a bright kid growing up—she always had good grades and usually never let her illness get the best of her, but when it did she made sure to still make an effort to complete each and every homework assignment. And now because of her illness, she'd lose all of the good things in her life. There were so many things Y/N still wanted to do, and one of them was falling in love.
Y/N sighed, she was tired of her life being a complete opposite of what she wanted. She grabbed her phone from her nightstand and scrolled through her tiktok, hoping for a bit of good news around the world—like world peace or maybe mother earth is healing.
“Timothée Chalamet's girlfriend, dead on the spot in a car crash!”
“Poor guy.” Y/N muttered as she read the comments on the video. Why was life that cruel? Sure, Y/N didn't know the guy, but based on the comments he loved his girlfriend.
“Y/N, darling! It's time for dinner! You still need to take your medicine!” Y/N's mom called from downstairs. Y/N slowly stood up, her vision was suddenly blurry—her chest tightened and her heart felt like it was stabbed—this wasn't like any episode she ever had. She fell to the floor with a loud thud, her eyes fighting to stay open.
The last thing Y/N heard was her mom screaming for help before everything went pitch black.
Timothée woke up with a terrible feeling, like something had happened—or something bad was going to happen. He had just gotten home from Paris fashion week and he was still jet lagged. Timothée brushed the feeling off, yawning as he got up from his bed, walking to his bathroom to get ready for the day—even if he had nothing to do.
Suddenly his phone rang, it was Zendaya.
“What's up, Z?“ Timothée asked, his voice still groggy.
“Are you okay? Fuck, I can't imagine what you're feeling right now, Tim. Condolence-” Timothée's eyes widened, “What the hell are you talking about, Z?”
“Oh shit, you don't know yet?”
“What do I don't know, Zendaya? You're scaring me.”
“I'm so sorry, Tim. Check the news.” Timothée quickly ended the call. He opened every social media account that he had, until he found the news.
“Timothée Chalamet's girlfriend, dead on the spot in a car crash!”
Timothée felt his whole world shatter. He felt numb as tears prickled against his eyes, beginning to stream down his face. Timothée called his girlfriend's best friend, frantically asking what hospital she was taken to. He grabbed his car keys and bolted out of his house. Timothée was shaking, he wanted to kill whoever crashed into his girlfriend's car. He drove as fast as he could, his vision was getting blurred by tears—but he didn't care. He needed to get to her. He needed to get to his Kaylee.
As soon as Timothée arrived at the hospital, he parked his car—not caring if it was too far from the entrance—and ran toward the hospital.
“Where's Kaylee Jenkins!?” Timothée practically screamed at the nurse on duty.
“Timothée.” He looked back and saw his and Kaylee's friends, Tom and Hannah.
“Where is she!?” Timothée roared, grabbing Tom's collar angrily.
“Calm down, Timothée!” Hannah snapped at him, pulling him off of Tom.
“How am I supposed to calm down!? My girlfriend is dead! The love of my fucking life is dead! Tell me where the fuck she is before I fucking lose it!”
“Timothée Hal!”
“Tell me!” Timothée yelled again.
Tom sighed, feeling hurt for his friend, “Take him to Kaylee. I'll wait for Zendaya and Kaylee's family.”
Hannah led Timothée to the morgue. As soon as she opened the door, Timothée saw her—the only body inside of the morgue—covered by a white sheet. He let out a shaky breath before he slowly lifted the cloth covering Kaylee's face.
His beautiful Kaylee, bruised and bloody.
“I'll leave you alone for a bit.” Hannah patted him on his shoulder, before walking out and giving him time with his beloved.
Timothée stared at Kaylee, the woman he loved for three years, the woman he wanted to marry—gone—taken away from him. He touched her lips that he always kissed, her nose that always scrunched when she got annoyed, and her once rosy cheeks that he loved to pinch. He kissed her forehead, for the last time.
“I love you, Kaylee.” Timothée whispered, tears streaming from his green eyes. “You're so unfair, Kaylee. You said that we'd be together forever, you said you'd never leave me, but you did. You promised we'd grow old together, that we'd build a life together....” Timothée sobbed, “I will never forget you, my love. I love you so fucking much, you're the only girl I will ever love like this.”
Y/N woke up back in the hospital. Her mother was smiling from ear to ear, “What happened, Mom?” Y/N asked.
“You fainted again. Don't worry, you're okay. You finally have a heart donor!” her mother smiled, “You're going to live!”
“Really?” Y/N almost squealed, “H-How? What happened?”
Y/N's mom softy smiled and kissed her daughter's forehead. “Sadly, another girl passed away, but her parents agreed to donate her heart for you. But you're going to live, sweetheart. You're going to live and be able to grow old.” she whispered.
“Thank you, Mom.”
Y/N finally felt hope for one, hope for her future, hope for her life. She finally had a chance to live, without worrying if one day her heart would just stop. It was a miracle—a chance to know how her life would turn out. A gift she'd be thankful for the rest of her life.
Y/N asked her mother who was her heart donor. Her mother said it was from a girl who died in a car accident. Y/N was first on the list of donees, and her mother had already talked to her donor's parents—they agreed, because somehow they could feel their daughter's presence even if she's gone, because I'd have her heart. Everything was ready, she would be operated on as soon as possible.
After the operation, Y/N woke up with her mother beside her.
“Mom?” Y/N croaked out.
“Y/N.” Her mother smiled at her, tears were forming in her mother's eyes.
“Why are you crying, mom?”
“I thought I'd lose you forever, Y/N/N.” her mother sniffled, “I'm so happy, darling. You're alive and well, what more can a mother ask for?”
After a week, Y/N finally went home. She'd continue her recovery at home, and day by day she was getting better.
Six months later.
“Y/N, darling? Go get ready, we're going somewhere.”
“Where are we going?” Y/N asked.
“The parents of the girl who donated your heart wants to meet you.”
“Oh, okay. I'll go get ready.” Y/N smiled at her mother before turning to get ready.
She was going to meet the parents of the person who gave her a chance to live again.
Y/N and her mother drove an hour and a half to a house in the Bronx. As soon as Y/N got out of the car, she saw a man with beautiful green eyes and chocolate brown curls looking at her. Her heart suddenly started pounding in her chest. The man gave her a small smile, before walking away. He looked miserable—like he hasn't slept in days—months even.
“Good morning, Mr. and Mrs. Jenkins.” Y/N's mother greeted an older couple—they were around their late forties.
“Oh nonsense! Call us Marian and Adam.” the woman—Marian—smiled warmly. “And you must be Y/N, right?” Y/N nodded, “Yes, ma'am.” Suddenly, both Marian and Adam hugged her tightly. Y/N stumbled back a bit, but she let them hug her. She assumed it felt comforting—maybe because they could hear their daughter's heart inside her.
“Sorry, I hope you don't mind,” the older woman apologised as she pulled away from Y/N, “It's just, it feels like I'm hugging Kaylee again and-”
“No worries Marian,” Y/N smiled, “You can hug me as long as you want. I may not be Kaylee, but I can be like a daughter to you.”
Marian started to sob, “Thank you, Y/N. It means a lot to me, to us.”
Then suddenly, the man who Y/N saw earlier came up to her and hugged her tight. She didn't know what was happening, the man was hugging her tight—tighter than what Marian and Adam did. But, Y/N didn't pull away. His hug felt like coming home. Y/N felt her heart beat rapidly, like banging drums.
After a few minutes—yes, minutes—the man pulled away from Y/N. The two locked eyes, and Y/N felt time stood still around her, like everything was a movie.
Marian and Adam led Y/N and her mother to their backyard. They talked for a bit—told her to take care of herself and always stay safe. Of course they'd say that, because their daughter's heart was inside her.
Y/N found out the name of the man who hugged her. He was Timothée Chalamet, Kaylee's boyfriend of three years. He's a famous actor, but Y/N didn't know him. How would she even know him? She spent all her life inside hospitals—she really didn't have the time to watch movies or Hollywood dramas.
“Hey, it's been great meeting you and, uh-this may be an awkward o-or forward question, but, uh-do you think I can get your number? I'd like to get to know you better.” Timothée asked, a hopeful look plastered on his face.
“Yeah sure, it's no problem.”
Ever since Y/N and Timothée exchanged numbers, they’ve been texting each other back and forth. It even became Y/N’s routine to start her day with sending him a “good morning” and ending it with a reply to Timothee’s “goodnight”.
Until one day Timothée texted her, asking if she'd like to go out with him.
Hey
What's up, Tim?
Do you have plans tomorrow night?
Uh, none that I could think of. Why?
Can I ask you out?
What?
On a date. Or maybe just hang out? I don't know, we can do whatever you want.
When Y/N read his offer to go on a date and she squealed into her pillow, kicking her feet up in the air at the excitement rumbling in her stomach. She knew it was wrong. He was-or is still grieving, he just lost his girlfriend of three years in an instant. But with his charming words, his sexy voice, mesmerizing green eyes, and his perfect face she couldn't help a slight crush forming. She was talking to a celebrity, and it felt like a dream—like something you'd see only in movies.
“Mom, Timothée just asked me out.”
“What? Really? Y/N, that's amazing! You're going on a date for the very first time!” her mom teased.
Y/N has never exactly been on a date before but this is how it would be like, right?
The next day, Y/N got ready for her date—or to hang out with Timothée, as a friend— or maybe something more? hopefully anyways. She was giddy, she was going on a date with a handsome guy who just so happened to be a famous actor. Who wouldn't be excited? Y/N wore a simple off-shoulder blue dress that flourished just above her knees and some white strappy wedge heels. Her hair was braided to the side with some simple lip gloss, foundation, and blush for makeup.
After waiting for what felt like hours, their doorbell rang. It's him, he's actually here, picking her up for an entire day together. When Y/N opened the door, she saw him wearing a white shirt under a leather jacket paired with denim jeans. His hair was perfectly messy—Y/N wanted to run her fingers through his curls so badly. Timothée Chalamet is undeniably handsome, as if he was carved by the gods.
“Y-you look beautiful, Y/N.”
“Thanks, you look good too.” Y/N chuckled nervously. Timothée led Y/N to his car and opened the door for her. Timothée took Y/N to one of his favourites. Buvette Gastrotheque—a small french café in West Village. The place was cosy, quaint, and there weren't a lot of people. Sitting down at a small table, Timothée ordered the COQ au Vin while Y/N got the Salade de Poulet. They paired it off with red wine, and chocolate mousse for dessert. As they waited for their food to arrive, Timothée and Y/N talked about life, interests, favourite foods, and surprisingly—they had a lot in common.
“Y/N?”
“Hm?”
“I know we've only been talking for a month, but i need to tell you something.” Timothée grabbed her hand, intertwining it with his, “I'm….. well, uh- starting to see you a little differently.. You know? I just-” he sighs, “I feel something for you, Y/N. And I wanna know if you would ever feel the same way.”
Y/N felt the world around her stop, her eyes locking with his. Ever since he asked for her number she knew she was going to love him, but she didn't feel as happy as she thought she would be. Instead, she felt a pit slowly sinking to her stomach.
It was wrong.
Absolutely wrong.
It's been less than a year since Kaylee passed and he's already moving on, what if he doesn't actually like her but rather the heart she now wore. Y/N was speechless. She couldn't utter a word. She wanted to say she was slowly getting feelings for him too, but she knew she couldn’t.
“Timothée....”
“Y/N, please. Think about it. Give me an answer when you're ready. Just....please give me a chance.”
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pairings - |Dom!Kate| |Sub!Reader|
cw: first person pov! 18+ SMUT bimbofication, Degradation, praise, mommy kink
I was at Kate’s game. I was wearing a cute outfit just for her! My heels were so high, but I didn’t care. I mean they’re so cute! This guy next to me kept staring at me. I didn’t really mind, I mean I don’t believe it’s any ill intent. Of course I was recording my girlfriend #20 play!! She looked so cute on the court playing. She blew a kiss at me & of course I blew one back. But then this random guy interrupted our talk across the court. He tapped my shoulder & said “Hi, you’re too beautiful to be all alone.” I looked at him & said “Thank you, I’m not alone.” Him saying “May I get your number, you’re very attractive.” & I said “no. I have a girlfriend.” He turned around & laughed with his friends saying stuff like “Threeway?” & making jokes like “Oh I’ll fuck both any day.”
I just waited till the game was over. It took mad long, finally the game finished & of course IOWA won!!! I walked over and gave Kate a big kiss!! Kate lifted me up & kissed me back. She put me down & asked “Baby, you saw me hit that three pointer? I did it just for you!” While kissing me on the cheek. Kate walks off to talk to some interviewers. I just watch from the sidelines because she looks sooo good!! She finally finishes & I tell her about the guys that were bothering me while I was sitting down. Kate was eyeing me down & She said “Really? I’m gonna make you forget all about those bitches once I’m done with you.” I felt my face start to heat up. I started to feel myself get wet.
As she has her hands on my thighs rubbing them up & down. She kisses on my inner thighs. I stop her to say “Kate, shouldn’t we just wait till we get home?” & She says “Alright fine. c’mere mama.” Kate grabs me by my waist. While we are walking to our car. I sit in the passenger seat (duh! we are always passenger princess in this house <3) Kate puts her hand on my inner thigh, playing with my skirt. She drives to our house. We get inside & I run up the stairs! Kate leaves the room to put on the strap. I’m just waiting for her to get back, I’m laid out as she would want me to be waiting for her. Kate walks over to me & opens my legs up & pulls off my skirt.
She starts to put the strap inside & tease me. She keeps putting the tip of the strap in. I start whimpering & saying “p-please put it all in..” Kate just laughs at me & slaps me across the face. I start begging again saying “Please mommy, I’m so sorry.” With my eyes tearing up & me looking up at her. Kate says “Baby, you didn’t do anything, why are you apologizing?” While getting closer to my neck. Leaning to kiss on it. I say “I don’t know.. but I love you & I want you so bad baby, please can you put it all in.” Kate finally puts it all in.
She starts kissing me. I nut all over her strap. I beg her to go faster. To which she says “baby, are you trying to tell me what to do?” She rolls me on my stomach, so that my ass is laying arched up on her thighs. & she starts beating my ass with her hand. As I’m crying out! All that I’m thinking in the moment is just Kate. Nothing else just her. Kate starts to stick her finger in. She starts to finger my clit very fast. I cum about two times at her fingering me. She just sits there smiling. I try to move away from her lap & say “No more mama, please it’s f-feels so good.” Kate puts me on her chest so I can ride her face.
Which I go on her face & she starts eating me out & bumping her nose on my clit. I start saying “mo-mommy, please!!” Kate looks up at me & says “please what, baby how am I supposed to know what you need if you’re not telling me?” & I just get quiet & start to whimper & moan again. Kate continues which leads me to cum 3 more times in her mouth.
She eventually stops & lifts me off of her. Kate gets up to take off the strap & kiss me on my forehead. She asks “Baby, are you okay?” I’m just whimpering & shaking. Kate taps me & says “baby, you okay?” And I say “mm-m I’m okay.” Kate grabs a towel to wipe me off & she lays down next to me. She kisses my forehead. And we fall asleep together.
I hope you enjoy this story!!
#kate martin x reader#kate martin#Kate Martin smut#Kate x black fem reader#Spotify#iowa basketball#iowa wbb#iowa hawkeyes
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ANDERS HILDA???
STUPID IDIOT MOTHERFUCKING ANDERS GOD DAMN FOOL ADVENTURE COLLECTING DUST EATING RAT OLD BASTARD SHITHEAD IDIOT AVATAR OF THE WHORE BIGGEST CLOWN IN THE CIRCUS LAUGHED OUT OF TOWN COWBOY MOTHERFUCKING ANDERS
STOP PINNING ME WHEN I TALK ABOUT ANDERS I HATE HIM SO MUCH WHY DOES HE HAVE SO MANY FUCKED UP RUNNING AWAY TENDENCIES WHY DID HE DECIDE TO FUCK AROUND AND FIND OUT JUST SET THEM LOOSE IS HE DEAD IS HE A BASTARD MAN HAS SUCH A VISCERAL AFFECT ON ME NOT EVEN IN THE ROOM NEVER SEEN THIS MANS FACE AND I KNOW HE HAS THE WORLDS SHITTIEST MUSTACHE GET AWAY FROM ME
if i wanted to get into heaven and god said Anders waiting inside i would piss on gods feet for the sole purpose of getting sent back down
if i have to deal with Anders speaking one word in person on voice in the series not only will i close Netflix i will delete my tumblr blog out of spite and have to rewatch the entire series again for the experience of being able to skip all the times when he is mentioned or alive
i dont even know why i hate him so much. he escapes when he’s overwhelmed but i am just mad because i am angy
he better have some fucked up backstory to explain this if hes just some broke shithead whos a fan of child abandonment and wanted the best of both worlds ill go ham
BETTER have had a book make him kill a man cuz if he didnt Im going to make him
paypal.com/IFuckingHateAnders
episodes not even about him. vaguely mentioned what is supposed to maybe be his getaway car and I lost it
where the fuck is Anders if hes still alive im going to so deeply wish he wasnt
crusty old man
ill punch Anders and his sad frail old man twig bones will simply flake apart under my epic huge meat fist and he will disintegrate until all thats left is one final shitty bar receipt he kept on him at all times simply titled Now You Fucked Up in ancient yiddish
im not breathing im hyperventilating at this point
i hope theres a date given for when Anders dies or will die so i can make it a reminder on my phone
everyday once a year i will see it and do anything but pay respects to the man who had so many fucked up if true “”adventures””
(Source: if you know you know)
#pov I’ve never even listened to tma VSKBDKDBDJ#I just have a blessed friend who sends me the best stuff from the media he consumes#Anders Hilda#Hilda spoilers#Hilda s3#Hilda season 3
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Never Tear Us Apart
Summary: A relationship throughout the years and a song that always felt right
Warnings: Drug use, drug abuse, sobriety, rockstar!Eddie, smut, minors DNI OR ILL YELL
A/N: Please send me requests! I have me time today and im gonna use it to sm*ke and write!!
1973
I was standing
You were there
Two worlds collided
And they could never tear us apart
“Hi..” A small voice comes from behind you. You quickly wipe at your tears and turn to face a little boy with a toothy grin and long black hair.
“I’m Eddie…” he says and sticks his tiny hand towards your own.
“I’m Y/N..” Eddie smiles brightly, you shake his hand, smiling back at him.
“I’m sorry the boys won’t let you play with them, we can play together?” he questions as he looms over you.
“Yeah, I’d like that Eddie..”
You sobbed when you fell and scraped your knee.
1987
Don't ask me
What you know is true
Don't have to tell you
I love your precious heart
“How long,” you ask, nervously picking at the edge of your sweater.
“Fuck- baby forever,” he groans as you drop yourself up and down on his cock.
“Say it again,” you whimper, hands coming to clasp behind his head, tugging softly at the curls that lay at the base of his neck.
“I’ve loved you since forever..” He thrusts up into you, nipping at your neck as his hands gripping at the pudge of your hips.
You sobbed when you came, his name on your lips like a prayer.
1988
We could live
For a thousand years
But if I hurt you
I'd make wine from your tears
“What do you mean you’re going to California for school?” Eddie yells, the door to his van being slammed shut.
“I mean I’m going to California for school, Eddie.” you counter, your hands on your hips as he stares down at you, his chest heaving with anger.
“How am I supposed to deal with this?” He asks, voice now much quieter. “We just figured this all out.. We had the plan of going to New York, together. You said you loved me and now that's all gone for California?”
You sobbed when he didn’t show up to say goodbye.
1995
I told you
That we could fly
'Cause we all have wings
But some of us don't know why
Eddie sat in the green room of some old dingey arena, his name on the lips of thousands of strangers. The bottle of whiskey in front of him and the line beside him made his stomach turn.
Ignoring all the thoughts racing through his head, He takes a long pull from the bottle and leans to his right, his nose following the line of powder.
You sat on your couch, your cat at your feet, the Live Aid Telethon on TV and using the music drowning out the rain falling outside. You waited and waited for Corroded Coffin to come out after Motley Crue had finished their set.
The announcers give some excuse as to why the band is taking so long, your heart kind of hurts as you wait for any scrap you can get of Eddie, but he never shows up on your screen where you so desperately need him to be.
You sobbed when you realized he was gone.
The Eddie you knew was gone, replaced by some sorry excuse for your best friend. He was the one to ruin what little bit of a relationship you had. You were going to California for school, He was going to New York to be discovered for his music. You had just confessed your feelings for eachother in the backseat of his van and gave all of yourself to him the day before you got the letter for school.
1995
I was standing
You were there
Two worlds collided
And they could never, ever tear us apart
You dry your eyes before getting up and going to the stairs, you're about to step up when the phone begins to ring.
“Y/N..” the broken voice on the phone says. You immediately notice the rasp on the other end.
“Eddie..”
“Y/N I’m in LA and ‘m so lost.. ‘m so lost baby..” He cries, the slurring in his speech making all the pieces come together.
“Eddie.. stay where you are I’m gonna come get you..”
You sobbed until you found him.
1996
You
You were standing
I was there
Two worlds collided
And they could never tear us apart
You sat on the hood of your car, waiting for Eddie to exit the local library in Hawkins. It was getting late but you didn’t mind, this was a big day for Eddie and you were going to be there for him.
Just as the air begins to chill you to your bone, you hear the door before you open, a loud “WOO” resonating in the small parking lot. You smile up at Eddie once he makes it to the car.
“One year sober..” he says as he wraps his arms around your waist. “I couldn't have done it without you, lovely..”
He places a soft kiss to your lips, your belly bumping into his, the sun setting behind you and a dream you never thought would come true.
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starting o segredo na floresta now, im either gonna finish this in a week or its gonna take months good luck me
update - i love joui
joui, its a little cloudy out, roll for sanity. joe, you stubbed your toe, roll sanity. joui did you just frown???????? roll a sanity test with disadvantage. that was cool joui, you gain 1 sanity. just kidding somewhere in the netherlands a child tripped and scraped their knee, you lose 10 sanity.
i think im going to put my updates under the cut instead of spamming posts B) beware of spoil
UPDATE
if cellbit takes liz or thiago from me ill never forgive him
this bar has to be its own paranormal entity, thiago would have died if the gun had a bullet in it and cristopher nearly got knifed to death in their first fight loll
EP 2
npc thiago about to be the most useless mf ever i swear if he dies to a stray ant or something ill cry just put him in a box for safe keeping
what would i do without the mental image of joui dropkicking every monster he sees
liz why are you finger painting with the ooze monsters remains and why did it give you 1 hp ?????? NEVERMIND
EP 3
RACCOON bro has 8 health but he sure is happy
faz um teste de sanidade
when i said thiago was gonna die to an ant i didnt actually mean kill him with giant spiders
cristopher no please dont climb a tree these are spiders they can climb nah bro cristopher is dead af im gonna miss him. bro cellbit just kill him already bros dead 2 hp
damn
ep 4
at this rate luba doesnt even need to roll sanity we all know hes gonna fail anyways joui's having the worst two days of his life
jesus christ i just woke up i cant handle this shit cesar's punching a hole in my itty bitty heart bones
please stop talking about leticio's cacetinho
EP 5 how long is too long for a tumblr post btw
the starting soon screen replaced cris with arthur notlikethis
cellbit is far too happy about them going to this house i hate it i hate it
i would like for them to leave a casa now :))) they got gregório time to go :) DAMN JOUI JUST GOT STEAMROLLED BY THAT ZOMBIE ROLLED A 99 VS CELLS 1 jesus christ thiago LOL NO WAY GREGÓRIO IS DEAD AF bro was just taking a nap in the car and this is what he gets
that was horribly stressful its 3 am how am i supposed to sleep after that
to be fair, if i was rodolfo and liz didnt use the tazer, i would have just dragged gregório in front of arthur and killed him in right in front of his face soo...
ROLLED 100 LOOOOOOOOOOOOL a caverna
COOL GUY ALERT HOPE HE DOESNT KILL BRULIO HAHAhahaaa
EP 6 I HAVE GREAT ANXIETY THIS MESTRE GUY IS ABOUT TO KILL HALF THE SQUAD
luba i know youve been rolling absolute dog shit the last 5 episodes but this one really counts buddy brulio :(
most stressful hour of youtube ive ever sat through i cant believe they all lived
A PORTA FORTE
EP 7 im so glad they're going back to the house im so happy ive never wanted anything else this is great nothing could go wrong in this house nothing
7 episodes in and ive just now realised that he keeps talking about circles and spirals and those have significance with a certain element and now i want them to leave carpazinha go back home forget this ever happened
undressing with the homies in the haunted basement next to a dead old man
not thiago canonically talking to a bookshelf after complaining about joui's whispering to his shotgun
THIS GRAVE IS SO COMPLICATEDDDD I BET ITS FUCKING EMPTY THEYRE ARGUING ABOUT HOW TO "knock out" AN OLD LADY AND ITS PROBABLY JUST WORMS AT THE BOTTOM OF THE GRAVEEE
this whole graveyard scene has me in tears thiago staring at nothing while they try to get him to unmute, old guy on the phone, joui picking up the old lady i just laughed so hard i feel ill
the one time joui doesnt fail a roll he loses 6 SANITY?? 8 SANITY?????????????? SENHORA VOCE TA BEM????? YOU JUST CHOKED HER OUT JOUI WAIT SHES GONNA DIE??????????? SHES GOING TO DIE???????????? THE GASOLINE IN THE MOUTH??
grounded from the shotgun for 1 week
EP 8
Thiago's pants are still fucked up from last episode btw
about to have a tpk over alchohol poisoning
if cesar survives this campaign hes gonna put as many points possible into forgery
a caverna im goign fuckign crazy the god of tdeath pr spomething is in this cave theyre gonna walk inside trip on a pebble and get eaten by hundreds of tiny cave beetles
Victor is absolutely about to get his face eated by a spider and/or be swallowed by the cave
ok but santo berço looks kinda cool like i would live there
EP 9 he just (re?)released osnf merch but i refuse to be spoiled by absolutely anything ive done so well i will not be tainted by cesar's really cool green on black long sleeve
wait i love the gatekeeper its a shame this town is probably a hallucination and theyre all actually slowly dying in the middle of the forest GIANT COWS I LOVE THE GIANT COWS WITH REGULAR SIZED HEADS
????????????????????????????????FELPS??????????????????????
buttery butter
thiago this is why you should have quit smoking
?????FELPS?????????
EP 10 so if thiago hadnt used the lighter would felps still be alive, probably just would have died later B)
bro joui has got to buy new dice this is crazy
this is gonna be the average 2 star motel experience BRO JUST DABBED ON CESAR liz is about to get bodied by the hallway ghosts this is just like a regular motel HUH UHHHHHHH
no joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy joui kill the hotel guy
mom i want to go home i dont want to stay in santo berço anymore jesus christ
EP 11 how am i supposed to just start the next episode after that i think the mental image of brulio beating arthurs skull in is burned into my brain space
sandwich sandwich
i love the giant cows so much i want one GIANT CHICKEN LAY GIANT EGG I LOVE THE GIANT CHICKEN intimidating the human sized pig
EP 12 still thinking about how cellbit thought new zealand was so close to europe, he was so sure of it that he was making me unsure of where i knew new zealand was
both times thiago was played by cellbit some horrific shit happened so with arthur being an npc this episode im prepared for the worst also this starting soon screen is fucking wicked
are you telling me joui's max sanity is now 12 bros been losing it for so long hes stuck like this joui is the "damn, you live like this?" meme
CELLBO ROLEPLAYED TOO HARD HIS HEADSET JOINED AS AN ENEMY AND BEAT HIS SETUP
"that sounds like a book title" bro let the intrusive thought win
baby nidere
no way the cow has been suffering this whole time ill cry
theyre about to rp their way into an angry medieval mob when they get found with the body of the dead gatekeeper B) does santo berço have dungeons, bc if they do thats where theyll be sleeping tonight nvm the gatekeeper has demons inside him sorry joui HUh no way they killed the gatekeeper dude wtf
EP 13 chat's a bit excited to go in the cave guys if anyone reads this what am i supposed to do once i finish this season. what do you mean i just have to go onto desconjuração. what do you mean i have to leave this story behind. please let me keep all the characters in this one.
THE CAVE MAP IS COOOOOOL THE LIGHT MOVES WITH THE MINER everyone struggling to flip their characters 5 mins into the cave made me laugh so hard i had to pause to breathe
I LOVE MOLES DUDE THEYRE SO COOL ok but i dont love this many moles BRO I LOVE MOTHS TOO THIS IS AWESOME wait no i hate bats THIS MOTH IS SUFFERINGGGGG
THE SUCC hes about to kill them all with the Succ out of spite thiago never mock one of cellbit's monsters again ARTHUR ZIUM
door door door door door door door door door door the gatekeeper is alive???
ih arthur nah dude let go of cesar :(((((((((((( gotta hand it to arthur hes survived two of these situations now get it, hand it to him, CAUSE HE LOST HIS FUCKING ARM WTF HIS ARM DETATCH LIKE A LEGO sorry i vote we still kill the gatekeeper just in case just to be safe
EP 14 did cellbit have a past traumatic experience with a vacuum is that why he created the Succ
agatha?????? bro agatha's life sucked big pp
every time cellbit says hes excited for something i grow more afraid
if they kill and eat the gatekeeper would he also taste delicious just wondering
i think i might know the reason why 12 sanity joui has a funky grey form but 55 sanity thiago doesnt, but maybe im crazy nevermind thiago had the funky grey within him this whole time wait does that mean hes gonna die if santo berço dies DAMN
joui just really wants to see thiago naked also hes just blatantly stealing arthur's knife he really is losing all his sanity that was possibly the most unconvincing "nada" ive ever heard
EP 15 before i start a new episode i always go to the vod on twitch and watch the memes first so i can go "hehe" for five minutes, and then go "oh no" for the next 4 hours
hypothetically, if joui managed to get the symbol on him before anyone noticed would he have just lost all 12 of his sanity and gone mad cuz that would have been crazy :,)
this is it cellbit is finally going to kill npc thiago joui is so very happy about his shotgun i thought maybe he was getting better but hes whispering to it again
alright whats up with cellbit and the outwards opening doors because i swear i have never seen a door that opens out instead of in, are all the doors like that in his home these doors are made to have creatures attack from inside ih i just checked like 3 times to make sure i was on the right episode lmaoooo
"pobre martha" DAAAAAAMN MARIANA ICE COLD
one buff woman vs all 3 equipe kelvin who will win (1 woman) crazy that equipe kelvin managed to accomplish what took our group 9 episodes to get to lool they even got the leticio cacetinho dlc, but they did skip the spider boss fight and the entire house level
THE BLACKSMITH IS MIGUEL AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
EP 16 the joui, liz, and arthur cosplay look like theyre going to a nice dinner meanwhile thiago, kenan, and cesar just look homeless
idk if thiago's making it out of this one :,) maybe we just take thiago's weapons its not like he can do much to help anyways kenan wants to skin him listen brother i dont think thats gonna work im at the 52 min mark and cellbit is acting sus af the blacksmith is about to appear and stomp them all or something
joui would roll a 99 and nearly knife cesar and liz is trying so hard not to metagame her way to the explosive backpack loving how trigger happy joui is right now go on guys give him more explosives what the worst that could happen
is kenan also a wellspring do they have to kill him cuz thats gonna be kind of awkward and on that note since thiago has the symbol on him does that make him a wellspring too ill cry i will cry
NOT JOUI APOLOGIZING FOR LYING ABOUT HIS SAMURAI ANCESTRY
damn that scene between joui, liz, and thiago was the best in the entire season
i would like to take this moment before they all get swallowed alive by some horrible sludge tentacle monster to proclaim my absolute hatred of Santo Berço. I know i said at the end of episode 8 that i thought it looked cool but im over it ive moved past that point in my life i hate Santo Berço
BIG GOOEY MEATBALL
"the people are happy here!" says the blacksmith as he currently has 5 people forcefully locked up for decades that have gone mad with probably no way of ever regaining their sanity i just realised miguel and the old blacksmith fucked so hard they had a kid
final boss aboutta come crawling out of the meatball please stop trying to skin thiago the symbol isnt gonna come off
THAT WAS SICK AF THEYRE ALL DEAD AS HELL
???????????????????? "kenan you have one last sane move before i take your character and throw him off a cliff"
:(
post i made after i finished osnf (made like 3 days later because i was so so so so so so so so so so sad)
https://www.tumblr.com/safetyobstacles/739056899257942016/i-finished-osnf-after-almost-2-months-and-you-know?source=share
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i was supposed to get my wisdom teeth out today but they messed up with scheduling so now its happening on friday so thats just great
im going to tahoe tomorrow way too fucking early but its fine ig honestly dont even like tahoe that much i just dont wanna be ditched so im going
also do you have any fic recommendations i wanna read something (preferably angsty) but i dont have the energy to find it and ill take something from tumblr wattpad or ao3 i really dont care rn
this also applies for tomorrow while im in the car (please nothing with sex or anything)
anyways how are you??
i never truly appreciate the fact that we can move text lines so easily here (i have no idea if that sentence makes sense but im tired idc)
What is Tahoe?
You should probs take some pain meds until your appointment to help with pain
Idk what mold your in but I was recently reading bridgerton fics (they’d be one of the most recent things on my profile)
I’m goooddd (I’m anxious for school tomorrow. I’ll be in your inbox soon. And I started my period today and cramps are beating me but I have a heaating pad in me rn)
I’ve been listening to court or most and fury. My hold is up later tomorrow and I’m only 60% through the book buttttt I am loving it so far. I’ll let you know once I finish it 😭
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bitch post time!!!!!! many revelations ok last night's vibes were HEINOUS but it provided so much for me and lydia to talk about and now i am gonna share with you yippee storytime
k so we plan to go to this valentines day showcase thing that the college radio is putting on last night. mind you at my place of work where i pretended that i had a family emergency and had to go home cause i didnt feel like going into work yesterday morning lol idiot... i was so paranoid my boss was there in disguise or some shit it was stupid. sorry um. yeah so ok i was largely like this could be a chance for friend groups to come together and maybe ill be able to talk to sams roommate and also like i do want to see more live music and it's free! so. anyway ok wait let me tell u abt the first part of the day
so me and lydia drive over some wine bottles to sam for him to use as props in a film. and sam and the roommate are sitting on their porch and we chat a little bit acc sam said as i walked up 'you always look so suspicious' and i was like 'ok u guys were literally just staring at me' cause they WERE and roommate was actually really nicely like 'oh no you're okay' and generally was just kind of inserting into our convo which well i had fun with naturally. um anyway and then who comes running up but teko! our buddy teko. and sams like have yall met and im like Of course and teko gives me a hug and i cant lie it was actually so sweet. i am also extremely touch starved but it was a nice hug. anyway. then i had to help roommate pick shoes alongside teko's fit and then i was like um Ok Bye. when i got back in the car lydia was like so i saw a neon sweatshirt... and i was like yeah <3 that's my man <3 sorry ok vibes get worse as the night comes
me and lydia end up getting to sam's late to 'pregame' this show and ig it was supposed be like. it was encouraged to dress formally. and i was wearing a dress that was too small and my chappell red tights and docs. kind of a serve but me and lydia were serving much more valentines day than formal. anyway. roommate does swing around to be like hi! and THEN i see my girl chloe i looooove her shes so fuckin funny and weird and we made this weird little short together in class last semester and i was kinda intimidated by her so i was so happy shocked when she was like I was so excited to see u :D WEEE shes so cool guys and has the funniest fuckin laugh and well honestly the high points of the night were us and lydia fucking around and dancing and being weird and offputting wallflowers cause again this thing SUCKED. ok
we did also smoke beforehand and i accidentally took this huge hit and then thought id be fine w a little more but brother was i feeling funny. did not eat enough and didnt take water it was atrocious. so. we get there and let me tell you if I WAS WORKING i'd have been able to fix the fact that it was soooooooooo fucking loud in there like bad bad bad audio distortion etc i wanted to kick this dude off the mixer but like what ever... it hurt so bad. and the lights were mostly on until chloe and sam duped this guy into dimming some of them but even still it was giving middle school dance. without the fun cheesy music. some of my instagram gay people are there. um but sorry there was simply no way i was going near that dance floor like the bands lowkey highkey sucked (i mean it was just a bunch of white college dudes and they did not slay. shocker. sam kept being like 'they're so good' and we were like um haha... straight face emoji)
we acc disappeared for a while to another floor for the br and just chilled for like half an hour (and security came to find us lmfaooo but ended up just leaving) and i was feeling odd and out of body and too aware of how i looked and it was just not great i was like we're the only bitches serving cunt here... um. anywho. so like later theres a slow dance and roommate is dancing with this other girl i only know from instagram till this point and i suppose if i was really feeling myself i could have tried to make a move but i was not. once again. vile vibes in this place. like i dont mean to be a pussy i typically would be much more charming and fun if i wanted to flirt and kinda felt the vibe from them but i was not really enjoying myself LMAO
then some more of the friend group shows up at the end and sam's like 'drama is actively going down' and im like Wuhhhh the fuck and i feel like a few of them r looking at me and i was just like get me OUT of here but for some fuck ass reason was still like nooooo we should go over and have pizza w sam and them. forgive me for thinking they had like frozen pizza or smth and i could get some free food out of this no we had to sit there and wait for dominos or whatever
AND THE MOST ANNOOOOOOOOOOOYING AWFUL TERRIBLE GROSS MEN YOUVE EVER MET SAT THERE AND JOINED THE BRIEF SMOKE CIRCLE AND THEN WERE JUST THERE AND LIKE YOU COULD JUST FEEL THEM TAKING UP SPACE AND US 'GIRLS' WERE MADE TO FEEL SO SMALL ON THE FUCKING COUCH I WAS SOOOOOOOO TIRED. had to get a sweater cause i felt so uncomfortable. girl i really was only there in case i could have a saving grace moment with roommate im so serious. well and for chloe but otherwise me and lydia shoulda been outta there
literally chloe was so excited to show our little video to people and sam cut us off from getting there to show us the fucking fidget spinner game he has on his tv. girl get out! oh my fucking god. finally lydias like Cool anyway so - like sams misogyny jumped out in previously unprecedented ways. it was bad. these boys were truly making me want to kill myself im sorry like it was so bad i have curated my experience so as to be away from that for so long it was really jarring. and what you need to understand about sam is that he's almost died twice and kind of has a funny little gender vibe going on and so for a while now yeah we've gotten along through silly odd things we relate through but holy shit....... that was so offputting i cant even wrap my brain around it
also sam very much walked me into like yaoi-fying him and his best friend and then was like haha noooo why r u calling us gay ur so weird bitch just fuck him already im tired and also dont care.. hes so attention seeking and not used to um not being the center of attention. sorry! oopsies anyway so
so then im like ew like i kinda need to reassess um. the people im around. and again cant stress enough how gross and judged and just kinda old i felt surrounded by these ppl even tho theyre all like within a year of age? and like roommate still seems maybe cool but since we didnt actually talk and they were off w the other roommate/other ppl i cant help but associate them w the odd vibes but like. honestly idk i might just try to uh slide into their dms rlly casually. bc. well idk how the friend group is fracturing and it wouldnt surprise me if they were annoyed with sam esp living with him but obv i dont really know. but again let me stress this friend group has been friends since their freshman year like what r yall doing yeah u do need to break up....
so i figure since they're hot (and kinda tiny i cant tell if they're shorter than me or just right around my height) (but also they kind of scared me by giving Instagram face while posing for a pic last night i cant do any more people giving off dorian gray rn. but i was also under the influence so um that didnt help) i could just yeah be brave see how it goes and worst case scenario it's not a vibe yk. and best case scenario i get to hang w them and teko. teko so gives francis. anyway
OH also sam and the friends insisted on listening to this ai generated… thing like idk guys i think i was in hell fr
also had several men yell out of their cars at me and staring at me as we walked to the bus stop :/ so men really do ruin everything btw
um. so. that was the night! thx for reading if u did. i am excited to be around other fun silly cool queer people god bless fuck these people
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hidey hodey neighborinoes i know i may or may not have disappeared for like half a fucking year but brain does what brain do. since i am now willing to admit that i likely will not find the motivation to write a full length fic like i would want, i wanted to post the “outline” (re: complete gibberish only past me could understand). at some point i’ll try to compile all the tidbits i had sprinkled across drafts and docs and try to clean it up a little but, well, im not even sure what i meant in some spots. hopefully ill pull the writers block out of my ass one day but until then, take this word vomit:
(for clarifications sake, r= red/ranboo, g= green/charlie, b= blue/sneeg, h= hetch, sfm= showfall media)
retelling of ep three from hetch’s pov. mask broke sfm doesn’t know. reset after stab still aware of what he’s doing but can’t control himself. hopeful ending with planning to save the trio and get them out?
the closet sfm is onto hetch so he has to do damage control ran receiving no instructions. things settle scenes been dragging he panics and basically controls r to kill ethan
maybe broadcasted to a different universe. problem w family and friends recognize
maybe broadcasted to rich assholes like in the purge/gladiator type deal?
the face of the hacker wasn’t actually supposed to do things but did anyways
follow up w/ rgb saving him g and b reluctant. r insist they won’t let anyone else die because of them. idk burn the mall maybe torch it like a fuckin wasp nest
employees stop at the door mannequins little nightmares two.
all four struggling down the road maybe r passing out carried by g or b
hot wire a car
traumatize gas station clerk
fire department from fire alarm
hetch flag down car 2 options:
car sped off but called police for them
offered ride to hospital
hetch the sidewalk isn’t wide enough fourth wheel type deal mostly unscathed compared to rgb but smol bean has anxiety and left over programming. weak little noodle arms can’t help shit. b sending hella death glares
b wouldn’t want to help hetch
r electrocuted from attempted mask removal
through the power of friendship and laws of physics or electrical plasma whatever it isn’t fatal hoorah
hetch stunned doesn’t help gb fuckin pissed at him
paramedics confused about what happened to these very dedicated cosplayers that are found half dead barely hours after the live finale
r wakes and is terrified thinking they’re at the box and start screaming for gb. hetch freezes g n b have to be held back by police
hospital r coma from noggin surgery (medically induced for healing cause wtf) g and b want to kick hetch’s ass only stop cause of r
prob not ccs maybe r foster kid hinted maybe
b needs to get to punch someone. american healthcare so probably a doctor or a nurse
hetch medically released first<irrelevant travel distance. hetch watching charlie and sneeg have friends and family going in and out but r has no on so hetch goes
others not allowed in camp out in waiting room. ran wakes up and freaks. competent doc allows them in and r calms down. good doc fights for them to be able to stay in the room psych health. special accommodations are made no tv in room gets a double room for more beds/couches <<needs special room post brain surgery op icu maybe nurse/doc maneuverability <<< maybe one allowed in at a time
^the nice doctor thrown in for pity maybe philza if crossover? detective techno? or both detectives that almost beat the shit outta the responding cops for fucking up the most important case they’d ever get
sfm sends an employee pretending to be ranboos mom. the others are scared but also she is acting like a mom that lost her kid so maybe it’s okay??<< others not allowed in the room since family only? nope ran wakes up freaks cause that bitch ain’t momboo (dead question mark? orphan? don’t tell techno)
employee tries to strangle r no loose ends: doc pulls her off; trio breaks in hetch proves himself?; r is a bamf and defends themself (hitting? reverse uno they strangle her? rips out iv and stabs her?< needle to weak would have to be in eye)
r scared to sleep from cabin electrocution and execution hold hand 👉👈?
carousel saved NO FIRE IF CAROUSEL perhaps a group meet for victims ranboo and hetch reluctant to enter cause they think they’re their murderers. eef spots r and runs to hug him others follow positive to r wary to hetch b says hetch is the one responsible for saving all of them bada bing bada boom happy ending
#generation loss#genloss#gen loss#generation loss ranboo#ranboo#yell at me if i need to remove some tags im still a newbie#this draft has been sitting on my conscience like a tungsten cube and i just wanted to get it out#hello person sorting by new scrolling through the tags i hope you have a good day
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Meeting A Magical Man Pt. 8
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“Remind me to use the bathroom at home before going on a stakeout,” Marvin grunted as he sat back in the passenger seat of Chase’s car. He got his hand sanitizer and used it even more since he didn’t think the bottle left outside the porta-potties was good enough. “Those things are disgusting.”
“They’re not that bad.” Chase shrugged.
“They smell like shit.” Marvin scrunched his nose.
“Gotta shit somewhere during the work day.”
“Why don’t you just go home and do it?”
“I don’t think the boss would approve of a thirty-minute shit break.” Chase checked the time. It was only a few minutes till who they were waiting for were supposed to arrive. He wasn't sure why he agreed to spy on Yancy and Illinois’ with Marvin, but it seemed fun at the moment, better than staying home alone on a Friday night.
“Thirty-minutes? You only live less than a five-minute drive from here. It’d be like fifteen tops.” Marvin moved the car’s visor down and checked his hair.
“How fast do you shit?” Chase asked with a laugh.
“How slow do you?”
“Can we stop talking about shit while I am on the phone with you?” Henrik’s voice came out of the car’s speaker. Chase had connected his phone to the car and used it for the call.
“Sorry, Hen,” Chase said. Marvin rolled his eyes and worked on braiding a section of his hair that was being difficult.
“I still can not believe Marvin set up a date for those two.” Henrik playfully scoffed.
“Not a date. I’m setting it up so they at least fuck, and if the two end up dating, that’s not on me.” Marvin clicked his tongue.
“You told him his ‘love’ would have a yellow rose, not a ‘good fuck’.” Chase pointed out.
“They both give off that energy of needing some sort of connection before going to town, and I figured I’d give an extra little push since they are both clearly crushing on each other.” Marvin used some magic to create a little plastic band to tie off the end of his braid.
“For someone who does not like relationships, you are determined to have this one go well.” Henrik teased.
“Just because I’m not looking for anything like that doesn’t mean I won’t help others if it makes them happy.” Marvin started another braid to match the other side of his head.
“Since when did you care about making others happy without payment?” Henrik’s voice had a sing-song tone to it.
“I’m a bitch with priorities, not an asshole that never cares.” Marvin huffed. “Acting like I don’t do you favors because I want to.”
“We have known each other for over a decade. I would hope that you at least somewhat like me.” Henrik chuckled.
“I’d like you more if you grew a pair and sucked Edward’s-”
“Stop it!”
“You’d be able to get all that stress out if you’d bend over and-”
“I am going to hang up.”
“There’s Ills.” Chase stopped the argument and pointed out where Illinois’ car was parking across the lot.
“Of course, he has a convertible.” Marvin giggled a little and was tying off his other braid.
“He owns several companies. He’s got the money to spare,” Chase said.
“We’re getting Yancy, a sugar daddy? He owes me for sure now.” Marvin picked up the binoculars from Chase’s lap and peeked through them. “I don’t need one. I have enough to be a sugar daddy on my own, but it still sounds fun to be spoiled.” He watched Illinois get out of his car, dressed up somewhat nicely. “Although, how I like getting spoiled differs from most people’s ideas.”
“You’re talking about sex again, aren’t you?” Henrik asked with an annoyed groan.
“Yep.” Marvin popped the ‘p’ and kept watching. “There’s Yancy.” He handed Chase the binoculars.
“That is one yellow flower,” Chase commented when he looked through and saw Yancy making his way down the sidewalk. “What about his curfew? Doesn’t he have to be home by nine? If this does work out how you want it to, won’t that ankle thing go off?”
“Not unless he has special permission because he’s doing charity work~” Marvin tapped at his cheek to play up a fake innocent act.
“I don’t think…you did something with magic, didn’t you?”
“Maybe~”
“You’re going to get in trouble.” Chase chuckled.
“He has before,” Henrik commented.
“It’s fine. I know what I’m doing.” Marvin waved a hand. “Now, are they making out yet?”
“They just saw each other.” Chase passed the binoculars back so Marvin could look again.
“And Illinois looks flustered as fuck, perfect. Who knew a little twist of faith could get someone to go for it? Oh wait, I did.” Marvin grinned and tried to adjust the binoculars to see better. “I can see Yancy’s blush from here. It’s cute how he gets so worked up with just little things. Reminds me of you.” He teased and lowered the binoculars so he could wink before looking right back through them.
“Well-I wouldn’t-I wouldn’t say that-uh-” Chase fumbled a bit.
“And there’s a kiss!” Marvin cheered. “Damn, I’m good at this wingman stuff. Henrik, you’re next.”
“I am not next, do not get me involved in that.” Henrik protested.
“Talk to you later, bye-bye~” Marvin pressed ‘end call’ on the car’s screen.
“I can’t believe that worked.” Chase chuckled as he turned the car on, hoping they were far enough away that it wouldn’t spook Yancy and Illinois too much.
“Nice. You just made Yancy nearly jump into Illinois’ arms. It also caused the ‘protective side’ to jump out of Illinois. Oh yeah, they’re definitely fucking tonight. I can place bets on how it’s going to go. Twenty bucks on Yancy having a praise kink.”
“Having a what?” Chase felt his face going a bit warm.
“You have it too, big time.”
“I don’t have that. I don’t have any kinks. I’m just-”
“Bullshit, you don’t. I called you a good boy, and you-”
“Okay, okay, okay, point given.” Chase buckled his seat belt.
“I can prove the point again tonight~” Marvin purred his offer, getting a kick out of seeing Chase blushing deeply. “All this hard work sure has me thirsty~”
“You want to get a drink first? We can stop by…you’re talking about the other kind, aren’t you?”
“Yes, darling, I am.” Marvin giggled and playfully tapped the bill of Chase’s hat. “It’s been a few days. Want to play again?”
“Yes.” Chase cleared his throat, his excitement causing his voice to squeak.
“You are just too cute. Let’s go to your place this time.” Marvin hummed and gently rubbed at the top of Chase’s back.
“Okay, buckle up, and we’ll go.” Chase leaned back against Marvin’s touch.
“Really?” Marvin giggled.
“The car doesn’t go unless we’re all secured, I’ll turn it off, and we’ll stay here all night.” Chase chuckled his ‘threat’.
“If your backseat was a little bigger I wouldn’t complain.” Marvin squeezed Chase’s shoulder but did move away to put his seatbelt on. Chase had been the same when he picked him up earlier. He also noticed how careful Chase’s driving was, almost overly cautious. Everyone has something they’re like that with, so Marvin wasn’t one to judge. “Alright, I’m strapped in.”
“Good.” Chase gave a big smile and started driving off.
Marvin often preferred to go to his own place to play but had another motive for wanting to go to Chase’s. Yes, for the fun night, they would have, but he also wanted a peek around. He’s been dwelling on who in the world Stacy is. He could look it up on the internet, but there were so many results for the name alone, and he wasn’t in the mood to dig like that. He liked getting his hands dirty, and the best way to find out which Stacy was a part of Chase’s life would be to look around where he lived. If she was important, even if it’s been years since whatever caused her to no longer be an emergency contact, there had to be something lingering behind.
He will find out who Stacy is.
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Tags: @brokentimewatch @bookwormscififan @d-structive @rainymae523
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heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy melon :) so about that little ask game of yours,,,,,,, 2, 14, 16, 27, and 31!!
i will ignore your previous transgressions for the pure sake of silly
silly ask game!!!!
2. lighter or matches?
i am a stupid little person and thus my fingers fail to cooperate with my very few coherent thoughts and for some reason when i like yk drag the match over the little strip thats supposed to light the fire it just. doesnt. light??? like back all the way in the elementary days we went to like this camp and i could not for the love of me start a goddamn fire and then i got marshmallow stuck in my hair because someone fucking flung it and the half-melted thing catapulted instelf onto my poor locks ... :( ...my past haunts me. that, and also lighters are more aesthetic and sillier to draw so. lighters. mmm
14. do you love the smell of earth after it rains?
id love to be all dreamy and misty eyed and be all "yes, its my favorite thing in the world" well smiling absentmindedly facing the pale light shining through the window with my chin resting on my palms but i could only say that if i went outside long enough to smell the wet dirt lmoa.
( yes, yes i do. and the name for it like petrichor or smth is so pretty too... although my love for freshly cut wood, printer paper, and those brown paper towels triumphs all. )
16. can you drive?
haha. no. lmao. because ive been putting it off for the sillies. that, and my family dont have another car since its my brothers till he gets shipped to college next year <33 besides hes basically my personal chauffeur anyways <- lie he does not put up with my shit nearly that well
BUT YOU BET WHEN THE DAY COMES WHERE I HOP INTO THAT VEHICLE CRANK THE KEYS AND DRIVE OUT INTO THE OPEN, BEAUTIFUL WORLD THAT ILL CRASH STRAIGHT INTO A TELEPHONE SERVICE POLE ANd BE BLOWN UP IN A SHOWER OF GLOWING SPARKS !!!
27. about how many hours of sleep did you get?
haha anyways next question
31. what kind of music keeps you grounded?
uhmmm hrmmm i like to listen to really fast paced (BREAKCORE ML <333) or very layered music where theres just a lot going on because for some silly reason it quells my thoughts that are a little too silly. if it does not fit my very specific and petty requirements i usually take multiple songs. and yk. just. play em at the same time. at max volume? i think the max ive done is 8 or so? believe me animal ( specifically amane milgram cover )+ god-ish + loli god requiem + meme (MIKOTO AND JOHN... i offer you my beating, bloodied heart <33) + im your treasure box (beware, she moans a bit., and the mv is a lil... m) + ussewa + judas (NOT the lady gaga ver) are actual bangers when you play em all at once with each one at like x1.25 playback speeeeed
... wait hold on just one moment. lemme do something rq
ah. okay maybe just one more for good mesaure haha
maybe... this... means something. yea no lol lmao what am i on about
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I wanted to write something - before editing and fully posting on ao3.
TW/ Gore
PART 1 - OF (TAINTED LIES.)
The blood trickled down his forehead, blurring his vision, the wirring sound of the machine cutting into deeply into his skull, Alec felt disorientated, as blood was tricking down his face and dripping onto the white floor.
He couldnt scream, couldnt move, he felt someone over him, cutting at him, until his vision went black.
"Alexander." A voice called out from the darkness
"ALEC GET UP." He awoke, startled and sweating, hands checking his head, for anything, but felt no blood or cuts.
"Alec, we are leaving in five." His sister said, closing his bedroom door.
It was just a nightmare, a vivid nightmare. He swung his legs over, and stretched grabbing a brown shirt and jeans and pullig them on, he grabbed his bag, and headed downstairs .
"What time do you call this Alexander?" His father questioned, he ignored his dad, and grabbed a piece of toast from Max's plate.
"HEY." Max swatted Alec's hand.
"You look pale?" Maryse gave him a kiss on his cheek.
"Hm. Im fine." Alec headed out. He was in his third year of college doing Law, he keeps to himself, and has a few close friends, including his sibilings. Jace and Isabelle were in their first year, Izzy doing forensic science, and Jace studying Sports Psychology.
"Be careful, they found seven bodies in Brooklynn last night." Isabelle said getting into his car.
"I heard." His dad was working the case, he heard him talking about it to his mom, he thinks its two people working together.
Jace ran up to the car and got in, he started the car and headed towards the college.
"I had a weird dream last night, about mermaids. Creepy." Jace shuddered.
"Same." Alec repsonded, both his sibilings gave each other looks.
"You had a dream about mermaids?" Isabelle questioned.
"What? No! I had a nightmare about someone cutting into my head."
"Well thats weird. Did you know who it was?"
"An asian male, hazel eyes, kinda amber, was smiling, dont know who that is." He vividly remembered the nightmare, the sound of the machine, the taste of blood.
"That is weird." Jace hummed, as both were now on their phone.
They got to the college and they both went sepearte ways.
"Hiya Alec." Aline ran up to him.
"Everyone is tense today. When the hell are they going to catch him." Aline mumbled, her father was one of the victims found, his organs missing, and he was stiched back up. Its been a year since her father's death.
"How are you?" Alec asked, they both walked to their lecture.
"I am okay. Mom is doing okay. Its been a shitty year." Aline mumbled, Alec gave her a small hug, its been a shitty two years, the body count was already at 49 and those were the bodies that they had found.
"I heard you and Johnathan had broken up."
"We mutually broke up. It wouldnt have worked out for us." They were better of as friends.
The lecture started, about ten minutes in, Alec noticed a taller male trying to look for a seat, he raised his hand and patted to the seat next to him, the man smiled, and sat next to him.
His eyes were amberish, just like in his nightmare.
"Im Magnus, I just moved from my Psychology course."
"Alexander." He eyed Magnus
"You have nice eyes." He blurrted before averting his eyes from embarssment.
"Thanks got them from my dad." He chuckled, taking out a laptop.
They sat in silence, both listening and typing notes.
"Okay, so you will need to work in pairs for this assignment, ill send you all the link. In the mean time, I got an annoucment to make." The lecturer cleared his throat.
"In light of recent events, and some of you may know, that one of our law professors. Lorenzo Ray has been one of the confirmed bodies that was found last night. Now, if you have any questions and or want to talk to someone my office is open, and counselling will be advised"
"Fuck." Aline whispered, Alec and her looked at each other in shock. Lorenzo was a great teacher, he was supposed to be on holiday, Magnus got up, and gave Alec a quick smile, before leaving, as some students were leaving.
"This is full of shit." Aline said, getting up and heading to the lecturer, Alec joined her.
"Sir. Why? Why havent they caught him."
"Questions we dont have answers too, im afraid. Its been a shock to this campus." The teacher said, sitting on one of the chairs, as students lined up.
"Can we do anything?"
"We are going to do a memorial in the front in two days." Aline mummbled something and walked towards the exit.
"Its shit. Why target the lecturer?" Aline asked.
"The victims were not connected, probably Lorenzo was at the wrong place, at the wrong tine." Alec saw Magnus walking towards them.
"This project thingy, im workng with you lot." Magnus shoved his phone in his pocket. He was kinda hot. Alec thought. Stop that. You barely know the guy.
"Yeah, was wondering we can do it at yours." Aline looked at Alec.
"Oh um...cant im afraid, Max is home the whole week, and he will distract us."
"We can do the project at mine, if you give me your number I can text you the address."
"Yeah that would be great." Alec and Aline took out their phone as they swapped numbers.
"Well sent. See you today, at 5." Magnus smiled, as he walked over to what seems to be his friends.
"He is a bit weird." Aline stated.
"Nah, he isnt." Alec was now smilig like an idiot.
(PART 2 SOON)
OHHHHHHHHHHHH IM HOOKED
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Sonic Movie 2 Rewatch Live Reaction
tSame deal as the first let’s GO
OUGH THIS MOVIE MAKES ME SO AUTISTIC
It was what properly got me into the fandom and made me wanna write stuff I’m sorry
MUSHROOM PLANET
I love the opening so so much
“The question is, for whom am I narrating this?”
DOES HE STILL HAVE THAT QUILL AT THE END OF THE MOVIE? I CANT REMEMBER
Eggman absolutely kills three people in the beginning of this one
God I have such fond memories of laughing about the probable death count with friends
KNUCKLES LOOKS SO BIG
Oh I want a size comparison between him and Sonic and Tails IMMEDIATELY
Sonic absolutely ends up shorter than both of his brothers absolutely
Imagine if the third movie opens with Eggman finding Shadow and Shadow starts manipulating him to parallel this
SOniC
Hi hi Sonic my friend I love you mwah mwah
This movie makes me so so so happy
That drawer has a lot of stuff in it I love it so much
So does he um. Does he get traumatic flashbacks to the moment BEFORE everything went to shit with Longclaw?
Ooookay so like. Sonic loses his first night of sleep when he does the crime stuff. First night of no sleep plus using his powers plus physical activity. Loses his second night of sleep when Eggman and Knuckles attack the house. Second night of no sleep plus using his powers plus physical activity plus getting hurt. He does get in at least a couple hours in Siberia but considering they arrived when it was already dark, spent probably a couple hours partying, slept in a probably not super comfy spot, and then woke up in the day I’m willing to bet not a super great quality of sleep and not super long either. And then a SUPER long day of adventuring in which Sonic almost died multiple times. Boy must have passed the fuck out after getting back home. Hmmm. Do I add insomnia to the list of mental illnesses
Poor Tom and Maddie trying to properly parent Sonic must be really hard
On one hand. Hearing Sonic say “You’re supposed to be my friend, stop trying to be my dad,” breaks my heart. On the other. Lol lmao Sonic friendzoned his own fucking DAD
Tom’s EXPRESSION
“Being a hero is about taking responsibility for other people” oh okay so Sonic is Tails’ hero and Tom is Sonic’s hero okay cool I’m totally not gonna go bawl my eyes out
“You don’t choose that moment. That moment chooses you,” So nic choosing Tom in the first movie.... oughohgsuru my mental illnesses are going CRAZY rn /pos
“My dad taught me this lesson in this very boat and now I teach it to you in the same boat.” “Okay bestie”
Portal scene is os so so cute
LOVE LOVE LOVE THE SEQUENCE OF HIM PARTYING AT THE HOUSE
TAILS MY BEST FRIEND TAILS
THEY GAVE HIM LIL EYELASHES
HIS TAILS ARE SO FUCKING FLUFFY I WANNA CUDDLE HIM SO SO BAD
Tails arriving in the human world and immediately stealing a cop car vs kleptomaniac Sonic stealing everything he’s ever needed or wanted in his entire life FIGHT
“So whatever is is you’re doing I’m sure you can undo it by the time we get back-”
Third time Sonic has been attacked/threatened in his home :(
Oh he’s going RIGHT for the kill
Sonic’s tone when he says “I get it,” sticks in my head 24/7
Brother meet brother
Insane that Sonic met Knuckles before he met Tails
Idris Elba arrived on set ready to give the best vocal performance of the century and I am so happy about it
Second time his home has gotten destroyed by an echidna :(
Second time it’s gotten destroyed by Eggman too :(
So if the powers can be activated with emotions does that mean Knuckles is always either in pain or angry
TTAILS
TAILS MY BEST FRIEND TAILS
I LOVE HIS VOICE INI THIS MOVIE SO MUCH
Okay so if Sonic’s got the eye glowy thing. And Knuckles has got the eye glowy thing. And powers are triggered by strong emotion/personal revelation. What if Tails gets the eye glowy thing after the “because you just told me, fox boy!” scene in movie 3
WHAT IF SHADOW GETS THE EYE GLOWY THING AFTER HE SEES MARIA DIE IN FRONT OF HIM
Rouge gets the eye glowy thing after seeing the Master Emerald
AW HELL YEAH ITS THE SCENE WHERE THE GUY WANTS TO CALL AGENT STONE A SLUR
Me and my friend were losing our MINDS when we first saw this scene
Ah yes time for the Eggman yassification scene
“Earth is my turf, g. If you don’t know how to floss you’ll be lost without me.” “I understand nothing of what you just said.”
So uh did Wade know about all of this and then just NOT contact Tom?
Sonic absolutely has some trauma from Knuckles so sorry
When my friend saw the Master Emerald she said “oh my god is that the thing Sonic uses to turn blond?!”
Is that the first time Sonic ever heard Longclaw say that she loved him
TAILS. HIS EARS ARE SO FLUFFY
He has the same little belt things he uses in the games cus his gloves are too big
THE FUCKING LATTES
Can’t believe Agent Stone outfruited Sonic the Hedgehog
In this world we don’t say “I love you” we say “I never stopped steaming your Austrian goat’s milk”
“trained in all forms of lethal combat” does Knuckles know how to use a gun
Sonic in the first movie: I want a friend (gets a friend)
Sonic in the second movie: I want... multiple friends (gets multiple friends and also a dad and a mom)
Sonic in the third movie: I want... a BOYFRIEND (Shadow breaks down the door and attempts to kill him)
I don’t even ship Sonadow all that much but PLEASE it would be so funny. I know they’re gonna make him have a crush on Amy but pls I want the writers to trip ass backwards into implying he has a thing for Shadow as well it would be the funniest possible characterization
“Don’t worry! On Earth, people are very welcoming and love taking complete strangers into their homes!”
Sonic DEFINITELY got grounded for lying directly to Tom about where he was
DANCE SCENE
The. The freaks scene. Oh so many thoughts too little words
Unironically love the dance scene. Especially since everyone in that bar was probably completely smashed at that point in the night
ADVANTURE 1 POSE
If we get any adventure 2 poses in the third movie I’ll cry and scream and sob and wail and vomit an
I wanna see Rouge do some of her poses please it would be so cool
THE SCENE! THE SCENE WHERE SONIC TELLS TAILS THAT HE REALLY IS HIS PAL AND HIS BUDDY AND THEN TAILS HUGS SONIC AND SONIC TUCKS TAILS IN FOR THE NIGHT LIKE HOW TOM DID TO HIM AND THEN TAILS COVERS SONIC WITH HIS TAILS
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
LOVE the animation in this movie
When I saw the chaos emeralds for the first time in the movie I screamed out loud cus I knew we were getting Super Sonic
Just realized Longclaw’s entire existence implies the Babylons. Oh I want a Riders movie so bad I wanna see Wave beefing with an 8 year old so bad
Imagine if there was like a little side pod on the thing Eggman rode in for Knuckles. That would be so funny
Sonic hurling the missile at Knuckles. Oh that was a murder attempt. Or at least he did not care if it killed Knuckles
Get therapy the both of you
Second movie feels like so much more of an ADVENTURE i love it
KNUCKLES BACKSTORY MAKES ME SO SAD. HE WAS ALIVE TO WITNESS EVERY OTHER ECHIDNA IN THE UNIVERSE DYING
You can visibly see Knuckles start to reconsider when he sees Sonic go to help Tails instead of for the compass
Skipping wedding scene because second-hand embarrassment bad
Oh my god I forgot Sonic got tased right in front of Tom and Maddie. And then shoved into the cage. Btw it’s my personal headcanon that the cage was electrified so he couldn’t get out without hurting himself. Or maybe they’d threatened to kill Tom/Tails if he tried to escape
Oh just realized the compass has gems which are the colors of the Chaos Emeralds on them. Maybe it’ll be used next movie to find them
Sonic deciding to run across the ocean for hundreds of miles all alone against the wishes of everyone else despite knowing it could KILL him is something that lives in my head rent free. Baby girl there is something wrong with you and that thing is self destructive behavior bordering on suicidal impulses.
“I’m not letting anyone else get hurt because of me” :(
DID TAILS HEAR THE END OF THAT CONVO?! OH HE MUST FEEL SO GUILTY
AH YES. THE LEGENDARY EGGMAN MAID DRESS SCENE
THE SCENE OF SONIC RUNNING ON THE WATER IS SOMETHING THAT CAN BE SO PERSONAL
He really went from running across a lake while clinging to a boat while his dad was there to having an argument with his dad and then running across an ocean for hundreds of miles ALONE in a storm and almost drowning
He has two almost drowning sequences in this movie MAN
Movie Knuckles is SO SMALL compared to humans but also SO BIG compared to the other Mobians
Rouge has gotta be at least as tall as him in the third movie
Robotnik coming up with like. Innocent sounding nicknames that he says in a mean way. i HAVE to include that in Empty Space and the AU that is slowly forming in my head
THE SOUND SONIC MAKES WHEN HE CURLS UP INTO A BALL AND REVS HIMSELF UP. SOUNDS SO COOL
Robotnik. Fondness for electricity. Hmmmm. Sonic with electric looking powers. Hmmm
“Because my destiny is to protect my friends and family.” HE SAID FAMILY ALREADY
SONICS SPINDASHING SOUND IS SO COOL
Only thinking about Knuckles giving Sonic fighting lessons after this movie
The scene where Sonic beats Knuckles into the rock is so FUCKING cool they better give him even more cool scenes in the third movie I wanna go apeshit in the theater
Thinking SO hard about the one shot where Sonic is holding his arm after Knuckles almost kills him
The brief hesitation before Knuckles says “friend” breaks my heart
“Chaos is power”
Sonic actively diving into water to save someone who just almost killed him. Oh my god baby you are a hero
Idk why but Sonic’s mild obsession with being perceived as manly comes off as very transfem to me. I’m making her transfem now you can’t stop me
Did Knuckles have to drag Sonic both up out of the temple and then all the way back to the island? That must have been traumatizing for Sonic
Sonic throwing sand at Knuckles immediately... I love her... love them so much.
Movie Sonic having brothers now is something that can be so personal to me. Everybody either adopts her or she adopts them
Knuckles starting to rib Sonic immediately after bonding with her is something that can be so personal to me
Transfem movie Sonic meeting Amy in third movie and having her egg cracked is something I HAVE to write as soon as that movie comes out. Like she meets Amy and goes “oh that dress looks so nice I would look good in that dress” and then goes “WAIT”
Trans man Eggman and trans woman SOnic. Trans mlm/trans wlw violence
Agent Stone and Eggman are SO fruity on main
Wade gets so much shit in these movies and he’s just vibing.
Trans fem Sonic realizing she’s trans and then immediately being like. Well now I have to be the prettiest girl sorry Mom it’s a competition now
“Doctor! Take me with you!” and then Eggman DID
If the Master Emerald did turn thoughts in reality the world would be SCREWED if I had it
Big brother Knuckles and little brother Tails and middle sister Sonic is something that can be SO personal to me specifically
Sonic just got SMACKED off that plane holy shit
STONE IS FUCKING DEAD
Movie Knuckles is like twice the size of the other Mobians I love him so much
Better see Knuckles being a protective older brother in the next movie
Also I still love the idea of movie Sonic being like 13-14 and the others being their normal age. Knuckles is horrified when he learns what Sonic’s age is and Sonic doesn’t give a shit and just starts calling him an old man
I FORGOT SONIC CALLED HERSELF THE GROIN HOLY SHIT
RENT FREE
I LOVE SEEING THEM ALL FIGHT TOGETHER
Sonic experiences SO much in this movie like leave her ALONE
Maddie and Tom are so ride or die for their daughter I love this family unit so much
WAIT I FORGOT SONIC WORE A DRESS FOR A HOT SECOND IN THIS MOVIE TRANS FEM REAL I CAN PROVE IT
Movie Sonic realizing that she is loved and has a family seconds before “dying” vs Tails seeing the person he’s come to view as family plus extended family “die” in front of him
Movie Sonic comes out as trans to Robotnik and Robotnik sighs and goes “guess I have to make Metal Sonic a girl now” and Sonic just go “wait what”
SUPER SONIC
SUPER SONIC BRAINWORMS BATTLING TRANS FEM SONIC BRAINWORMS
SUPER SONIC IS SO COOL YOU GUYS SHES SO FUCKING COOL
MOVIE SONIC IMMEDIATELY TRYING TO COMMIT MURDER. YES GO GIRL
Trans fem Sonic not giving a shit about pronouns but every time someone refers to her as a girl she gets the most intense wave of gender euphoria
So she definitely sent the Chaos Emeralds into space. Hope we get other zones in the next movie
MOVIE TAILS IS SO SMALL
Oh my god everyone but Sonic is so dirty. She stays winning.
I FORGOR ABOUT THE BASEBALL SCENE
DAD
DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD
Dad
Main movie over. Credits look so good tho and I LOVE the song
POST CREDIT SCENE THAT MADE MY FRIEND SCREAM SO LOUD HER VOICE CRACKED
SHADOW SHADOW THEYRE HERE
Movie over I am going fucking INSANE I love them all os much. Trans fem Sonic I am holding you so gently.
#sth#sonic the hedgehog#knuckles the echidna#tails the fox#tom wachowski#ivo robotnik#agent stone#shadow the hedgehog#maddie wachowski#sonic posting#prin posts
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It's breakdown time again.
My mental health hasn't been great for a while. Tbh, it started tanking after I worked as a vendor selling my handmade jewelry at pride shows in June.
Which went great!! I had best-selling shows and people were really excited about my art. It was awesome.
And then I had to go back to work.
I work full-time, at a desk job in a corporate office. The company is in an industry often used to represent soulless antagonists in movies. My job itself is a specialized position that requires a lot of mental labor. Finding time and energy to create is a challenge, even in the times where things are balanced.
And lately it's been really tough, because the work that needs doing is what I, a person who suspects myself to be on the autism spectrum somewhere, find hellish: I have to navigate bureaucracy and act as a diplomat. I have to coordinate projects between different people and act as a liaison. Most of my job isn't doing anymore, it's figuring out who I need to reach out to, and when, and how do I phrase this so I don't offend anyone? It's inefficient, circular, and often requires me to dance with office politics.
I'm. So. Exhausted.
So, after dragging myself away from the laptop where I've been sending emails and updating spreadsheets all week, I was so excited, because last weekend, I got to escape to my favorite fantasy world: Good Omens. To a life in color, to an eternity ever after.
You all know what happens.
It opened the floodgates. I started losing focus at work, couldn't remember where we were at on projects, who I was waiting on, who I needed to contact - hell, I couldn't even remember to bring my lunch.
I was thinking about GO, but not about the story itself. Instead, it was about how, best-case scenario, it will be 2+ years before they get their happy ending. About how leaving them in limbo for so long fucking hurts.
About how 2-3 years is a long time. Long enough for Neil, David or Michael to have an accident, an illness. About how it would never be the same if they had to recast, or if someone else wrote. Imagine GO without Michael's microexpressions, without David's face reading like an open book even with glasses on. Without Neil's love for the world he shared with Terry pouring out into every single frame of it.
2-3 years is a long time. Long enough for me to get in a car accident, to develop cancer. I already had a cancer scare in 2022; luckily, I was fine. One of my best friends got lymphoma around my age. She, luckily, is also fine now.
But one of my other best friends, who had a heart attack, just a few years older than me... He's in a wooden box in his wife's living room.
And his 10-year wedding anniversary was on July 27, 2023. The day GOS2 was released.
So here I am. A week later, trying to keep it together and failing, thinking it's just a fucking TV show, it shouldn't matter so much...
But it's never just one thing. Every pain carries the weight of all the pain that came before it. I'm carrying the weight of Karl's death, of Steph's cancer, of the family members I've lost that would take too long to list here, several before even David's age.
And I'm struggling to even draw now. Or make jewelry, or sew. The creative pursuits, the things that are supposed to make the rote office job worth it, the things it supports... I feel no joy for them. Even simple things like screenshot studies are excruciating, taking far too long. My problem-solving skills are completely drained at work, and that makes drawing so much harder.
I see so many others creating beautiful things from the pain and getting well-deserved recognition for it. But the ideas aren't coming for me, and even if they were, where would I find the energy?
I don't know how to dig myself out of this spiral. It's so very tiring, and so very, very lonely.
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fuck it discord rant with no context (feel free to ask for context) about my last session
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ok little context: mark and cassidy driving home from mission where the anarch party they were investigating got raided by camarilla so they have to take the long way home. also, mark juts got a text from sampson that they need to talk. otherwise good luck making sense of this if u havent heard mark rants before.
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Mark learned: -Cassidy turned in 1853 california
-loves older western movies, NOT spaghetti westerns except once upon a time in th west
-loves detective novels; steven king
-has larger goals that he doesnt want to say due to mark's sire having a short leash on him lol
-guessed mark was about 5 years dead, mark told him it was less than a year. cassidy was pretty surprised lol
-cassidy asked marks goals and what he wanted. mark talked abt goals of stability, and knowing whats going on in the city. talked around it but basically said he also wanted someone he felt he could actually talk to T_T This is what inspired lighter covnersation abtmovies and books
-cassidy invited him to WATCH A MOVIE W HIM AT THE CINEMA LOVE WINS (NOT A DATE FOR SURE UNLESS?)
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Now its time to talk to sampson on the next night
due to something julius did mark has to shelter some anarchs in the sewers on his territory. he made it clear the SEWERS only. theyve been moving in.
anyway marks goes to the bar. theres some sketchy ppl outside .oh god. anarchs not listening to directions? THATS CRAZY. Anyway the bar is closed early. it has blinds. many locks. sampson lets mark in and is like. dude. wtf are these people around. ive been seeing htem around and we figured out they were vampires and you said htis place would be safe?? i cant keep doing this???
he's like i know its not all always your fault or things happen in spite of you but what am i supposed to do? i cant live like this again? what am i supposed to do?? And marks just like look anarchs have been moving in city wide ill deal with this and . sampson presses and hes like deal with them how. and marks like IDK kick them out? kill th- and sampsons like YES KILL THEM you killed that one random person cant you kill kindred on your territory?
like OOF that 1 ONE murder lives in his head dsakjfsfdkjds
he's crying, also, ends up saying 'after all this i dont want to talk to you again, i know you bring me stuff to keep me alive' and then be breaks down MORE like REALLY sobbing
so mark gives him a little time to compose himself. then gets all cold and is basically like. so be it. ill still have to see you monthly, but we can try to limit it. but then sampsons like. "I dont know. I just. dont know what to do. i cant sleep with these guys out there all the time" and mark is like "do you want me to deal with them right now?" and smaspons like "yes" so. mark leaves to deal with them!
he grabs piece of shit tony who is supposed to be helping manage this territory. tony says the guys claimed he invited him there, so mark has to explain how they are allowed in the sewers but no where else. and that he wants the three in front of the plaza dealt with Tonight. they work out a deal. tony drives around collecting ghouls and plays this song.
the ghouls are wearing ski masks and have various weapons. he assigns them an order. and turns up the music and they start FUCKING those guys up. first guy modified his glock to be semi automatic? one gets downed immedaitely. 3 other ghouls approach with melee weapons. one gets killed sadly but all the kindred who were loitering by the bar get torpored in short order. Tony is pissed and yells at a corpse about whose gonna pay to replace his ghoul? Ooffff. but yeah mission done. tony says to mark to get out of his car.
He does so. returns to bar. SESSIONEND
SESSION END!
THEY WERE ABOUT TO GET TO TALK! im sure they are shook by the Incredible Violence outside but whatever
DSLKFJDSLFSD
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