#and you may see the proof of that.

[antigoneblue]

[ image description: a three lined magnet poem. there are spaces between each word and each phrase. the magnets say: "live but liquid / sacred yet soft / listen / girl is boy when time is flowering" /end ID ]

#poetry #poems #spilled ink #writers on tumblr #world poetry day #my writing #magnet poetry #magnet poetry is actually really hard ok #you have very limited options #also i haven't written poetry in a very long while. i am rusty #and you may see the proof of that. #all the same #trans poetry #transgender #transgenderisms #pfft. #queer poetry #okay i dont know how tags work

[pittsburghhockeybirds]

It has been 78 days and Enola is still proud of her nincompoop dear dear lord sir boy 𝙢𝙖𝙣 𝙤𝙣 𝙤𝙘𝙘𝙖𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣

bonus +++

#she will marry the f*** out of Tewkesbury #look at her face #tell me that's not what she's thinking in this moment... GIRL is PROUD! #talk about a glow up #the Enola Holmes fandom may be dead but I still remain #this is proof that Tewkesbury can do anything and Enola will fall harder for him more.. girl we see you #also the fact that Enola has more than one nickname for him and it's everything BUT 'boy' #and and anddddddd it seems Enola calls Tewkesbury his nicknames when it's only her and him #no wonder Enola refuses to call Tewkesbury her boy in front of Eudoria and Sherlock #enola holmes #enola holmes 2 #enolaholmesedit #viscount tewksbury #lord tewksbury #holmesbury #enola x tewkesbury #louis partridge #millie bobby brown

[drosims]

seeing ppl praise a creator, calling them lovely and shit, when you know first hand that said creator is an abhorrent POS is 🤮🤮🤮 i and multiple other people have actual ptsd from how said creator (who we considered a close friend) treated us. i know she got all ya'll fooled and it's not ya'll's fault because she presents SO differently than she really is. and if you were currently considered a friend she'd be able to convince you to believe she did nothing wrong because she is an abusive manipulator and she is good at it. She is 100% why I don't engage in the community anymore. I cant go through anything like that again.

#if you're in my discord you likely know who im talking about #i dont wanna be vague but because i have no screenshots or anything for proof i dont want to directly call her out #since i cant present proof i cant truly prove it and like any random person would be in the right not taking me at my word without proof #oh also i know for a fact she steals meshes from “friends” and claims them as her own #:) #yeah she's a MAJOR piece of shit #sorry i dont post much here anymore #i miss it but i see her mentioned EVERYWHERE and i just cant #its literally triggering #which may sound dramatic but if you knew th efull story you'd know

[im-sorry-what-ii]

switching my google doc from a cute lil fic to my cover letter hits like a slap in the face

#genuinly painful i think #guys its getting pathetic ive been looking for a job for literal months #not even the customer service wants me 😭😭i dont know what im doing wrong #id give good money that my extremely eastern european sounding last name doesnt give me bonus points tho #their main question is always DO YOU HAVE AN ACCENT #DO YOU KNOW ENGLISH #which i get bc obviously yeah but. there is no need for it to be the first question i get asked in the goddamn interviews. #let me open my mouth first #do you not see in my cv that ive gone to not just nz primary and high sschools but LOCAL ONES?? SINCE AGE 8?? #bitch english may not be my first language but i guarentee you im better at it #i already anglicise my first name for you you bitch otherwise my whole name would be unpronouncable to nzers #and i have experience in this is that not enough proof that i can DO THE GODDAMN JOB #rambling #logging on to say this then disapear

[tennessoui]

do you know when we’ll be getting foolproof’s update, kit? Just wanted to ask bc I have a super stressful day today and I’ve been excited about reading the new chapter as a reward for getting through the stressful stuff for days 🥰🥰🥰

ahhh this is fair this is fair

ive actually reached the point in the chapter where it could very much be split into 2 halves seeing as i'm at 6.5k with about roughly 4 very crucial scenes to go, which would double that word count and then some....

but those are words that aren't there yet (for a time and tide update, i once just split a 12k chapter into 2 parts and posted them at the same time), so i could post what i have --- the current completed scene would be a stopping point that makes sense and it'd be roughly 6k --- or i could wait to post until i have what would be the full chapter and then split it into 2 parts and post them at the same time (that might be up to another week?) --- or i could post 1 very long chapter that does what i want it to do but could be overwhelming to read

literally went on a thirty minute walk today to try and think this through because trust me i do want to give y'all what's coming asap but i also have a vision, which at this point contradicts my stance against 14k chapters (they're gifts from god but also i get lost in them!)

#asks #stacy's mom au #i could see myself splitting it tonight and posting but honestly its been 6.5k words and anakin and obi-wan haven't even talked #but this would be where i'd split it if i had the 14k #its just youd have to then wait another week ish for the second half #but i would also feel disheartened if people waited to read if they saw the part 1 #feeling strangely vulnerable and unsure about my writing in ths chili's tonight #but if you send me an ask to say you want it #i'll start editing now #and i wont update another project until i give you part 2 of this chapter #it just may not be what you think #in other news i bought tickets to italy for next month and booked hostels and learned a LOT about naples #and applied for 2 jobs and covered for my coworker so she could on leave #started dating this guy and had a picnic on my living room floor because of a sudden thunderstorm #i dont say any of that to make you feel bad for asking i dont want you to feel bad for asking #i have been trying to promise ths updatee for a solid week #but i promise the delay isn't because im working on other things or secret projects or anything #when im writing its proofs for work memos for work writing warm ups for tumblr #or this chapter #i just want so much to happen

[carcarrot]

im going to be so petty tomorrow

#fuckin supervisor at work that continues to criticize my work in front of the ppl we work for and my manager like in a meeting w my manager #shes saying there are complaints about the way things are left and that it clearly must be the result of something im not doing #so now every single day im going to take pictures of how things are before i leave for the day and send them to her #since youve been implying that im lying and not doing my job. here. so now you can see that its clearly bc of the dumb people on that floor #that spills are left or the coffee area isnt clean #my only question is whether i should also send these pics to my manager. or even the entire coffee group chat #i understand a conversation if something more has to be done at a job. thats fine #but every time this has come up her manner and behavior to me is always mean and its like shes treating me like im a child #if we're all adults here then treat me like one i know she probably doesnt act this way with the other people that work there who are older #its bc im younger and she thinks that i can be pushed around well no longer! proof every im doing my job #until she finally gets it. anyway #i may not ever want to do my job but ill never pass up an opportunity to be petty. lol #good night all

[pasteldnp]

Drop your favorite dnp head cannons that you have no proof of other than the fact that you just really want it to be true

Phil proposed in Japan 2.0 on the day they went to the red gates. But they had some kind of life commitment before then and probably wont get any kind of traditionally married.

There have been detailed research plans to get a dog for as long as they have been working on the house.

They dont say I love you a lot and say and do other things that they understand mean the same thing.

(Honestly i think most intimate communication they do is probably in their stupid made up language and is about 7 inside jokes deep and you’d need the fucking golden compass to actually understand the truth of their relationship, are you happy dan.)

I think they both have artistic or personal hobbies/endeavors they don’t share on the internet or want to try and incorporate into their careers.

Phil has more sensory issues than just the cheese stuff.

Dan is incredibly protective and dotting over Phil’s health and it scares him when he’s unwell and thats why he was so yappy in the superglue video because he was defensive (and i definitely think Phil’s health stuff is worse than he lets on and i wish that wasn’t true).

Phil actually did his best and tried not to kill those houseplants (and Dan’s jabs are a defense over how much he missed Phil and not over the plants that he knew would be dead because he wanted Phil to be with friends and family)

They don’t actually spend that much time around each other during the day and utilize their own private offices or general house zones to be productive and to have a healthy relationship, and lockdown while moving and downsizing into the one smaller filming flat at the end before the house was complete did put a strain on their relationship.

Those rich bitches built a big nice shower in their place so they can actually shower together.

Dan loves being an uncle but he wont talk about it and we will rarely if ever see him with Freja.

#dnp #i have a fic about the first one that just needs written #that video of phil walking backwards under the gates #it changed my brain chemistry #basically that whole day he was in that striped sweater #ive never looked harder for ring proof in my life #also the sensory thing may be a projection lol cause same #cheese hating twinsies #dans straight up says he uses humor to cope and deflect #it became part of their relationship because of how necessary it was #hence how fucking weird they are #also cause dans commitment issues #i would die for my dnp and freja content pls cornelia feed me #love being included as you can see I have thoughts

[aroaessidhe]

2023 reads // twitter thread

If I See You Again Tomorrow

YA contemporary/light sci-fi

follows a boy almost a year into a time loop, who has almost given up on finding a way out

until a new boy shows up at his school - which has never happened before - and he’s motivated to step out of his monotony and maybe find a way out

exploring loneliness and social isolation

#If I See You Again Tomorrow #aroaessidhe 2023 reads #ok i enjoyed some aspects of this like the MCs personal journey and mental health stuff i guess. friendships. #but the romance was annoying and unnecesary. not just my bitter aro ass saying this a lot of other reviews do too lol #the love interest is convinced that you have to find your soulmate to get out of the time loop for no logical reason??? & the MC (and me) is #like what the fuck man that’s stupid. #but then also he’s like we can’t hang out; you just think you Like me because we’re both in this time loop; focus on finding your soulmate!! #LIKE WHO CARES ABOUT CRUSHES? #YOU’RE THE ONLY TWO PEOPLE IN THIS TIME LOOP WHY WOULD YOU NOT WORK TOGETHER TO FIGURE IT OUT………. #this is more me being frustrated at the character than the author but i feel like. the author could have thought of some better reasons for #him to avoid the mc i guess lol. or at least lampshade the stupidity #it……sort of ends up being soulmatey anyway #or at least he decides they in love anyway but lol u guys spent one day together then didn't see each other for 2 months or whatever??? #so the end was definitely disappointing #I think it would have been way better if he did all his friend and family goodbyes then went to the place #and nothing happened and it turned out that after 365 days you just. pop out of it; problem never ‘’solved’’. #but then he goes to find beau anyway and they start something on their own terms #(bc like getting ‘trapped forever’ after a year would mean there’s instances of two people disappearing forever at the same time - they have #no proof for that either? I guess they would also have instances of people saying they did just get out of it after a year too but. well may #be if that happens you have amnesia. which wouldn’t work for this book. but anyway) #idk #also him hating his mum made me cringe because that was Obvious. i feel like a little more time could have been spent on that #and like i did enjoy it overall for the majority of it that wasn't the romantic thing! it could have been so good if it removed that #and gave everything else its full focus

[jiraidanshi]

fantastic news : google was kind of misleading and you do not need to pay for a special membership to add someone to your amazon prime . so my best friend added me to theirs . now i just need to secure the photos of me and my aunt that i left behind [i think i was splitting on her at the time so i left them behind OOPS] and the also the photo of my dads parents which my dad has a copy of but i think its weird my mom has it because she never let me see them . then i will need to do a lot of hyping myself up and by that i mean probably just type a bunch of shit into a google docs and copy paste it into a text and then block her number and PRAY she doesnt show up at my house [she has done this before] . and also i am NOT above getting a restraining order i am being so serious . she literally has not given us any money to help pay for things EVER at ALL and the one time i asked her to drive me to a doctor appointment she " forgot " [she apparently " forgot " dates where my aunt needed help with her too but she never forgets her own appointments] so i will not be losing out on anything except for like 60 dollars a year

#file type: .txt #chara♥ #i dont think my dad will raise too much of a fuss about it HOPEFULLY because hes always like ' shes your mom and she loves you ' #but he is also like ' if you dont want to see her you should just say so ' #funny that people are like i think you secretly like your mom i dont think its about the amazon prime memembership / you got offended when #she didnt invite you to her birthday lunch so this will be proof to people who think i somehow have normal human emotions left after all #that like i dont know how to tell you i am money obsessed it has ALWAYS been about the subscription services #its just so insane when people are like i think you love your mother because yes i have gone back and forth on my aunt and grandma for #various reasons and i have a mild soft spot for my dad because he is not The Worst [my mom] and he may scream and me and be deeply ableist #but ever since ive been an adult he has respected my boundaries minus the no driving thing #from age 15 i have felt nothing but a deep hatred from my mom completely unrelentingly

[fox-guardian]

whata up with the time travel fic?

that's a very good question! *walks off stage*

#fg's answers #asks #listen. listen. things have happened in the nebulous outline i have in my brain void for this fic #in short it needs to be rewritten. not that much was written. idk maybe ill leave it #but ultimately. Ultimately. i am not primarily a writer. idk if y'all noticed. #i dont wanna put out a few chapters and then leave people hanging when i have a long fic planned #however. i also dont write very often. perhaps you see my dilemma #if i ever post the fic. YAY! but also if i don't. apologies for having hyped it up so much alsjaksjsk #also if this comes off as annoyed or smth thats my bad. im not upset im just Very Sleepy and am about to go to sleep lol so i might be Off #might change my blog header about it idk what id make it tho #edit: realizing this person may not actually know What The Fic Is. hm. #in that case: BASICALLY i had a fic idea back in 2020 made a couple comics about it said id write it #and then Never Finished It. or posted any chapters anywhere. #its at like 30k words now and it's barely started. idk if thats good or not. #anyway thats proof of how sleeby i am gn

[whisperofthewaves]

I know I’m like two years late to this, but it’s really interesting rewatching the bg3 cinematics again after playing the early access. I only now noticed there are unconscious/dead illithids in the nautiloid and I wonder if there’s different factions of them at play on that ship. not that I know a single thing about their lore. but I’m about to go on a google search

#bg3 #bg3 spoilers #nothing important #I'm also idly wondering why do those absolute novices attack you when you say you're from that crashed ship #since you both seem to be on the side of the mind flayers #hence - different factions. probably. maybe? #we will see ig #those dead illithids may be just there bc the gith are hunting them maybe #but then there doesn't seem to be any physical proof of combat on the ship which is why I don't think it's their work #we'll live and see #I'll also do another playthrough this time trying for the goblin side #bc I think there's a whole bit I didn't get to see in the goblin camp

[2003toyotaprius]

#this movie feels very #straightforward #characters tend to literally ask questions you may have #and some scenes really really want to be sure you know what they mean #like yes in a sense photo camera can steal his virtue as in fame can spoil him #and people are following Lawrence's image rather than Lawrence himself #certainly it makes me feel good about my movie analising skills #regardless if it's true or not #anyway i liked how the first part was about a man who always felt like he's extraordinary #so when he had a lot of luck he was quite eager to see it as a proof he really is exraordinary #i heard that's one of big factors making people keep gambling #and ofc the second part seems to be even more about the discrepancy between a man and his legend #which ofc is a dingle mgs also tickles a lil bit #not mgs #lawrence of arabia

[yeleltaan]

//One thing I’ve never explored in depth is the possibility of Cayin entering the Hunter’s Nightmare as he seeks further information on the events leading up to Yharnam’s current situation. I imagine it to be a significantly harder place to reach than the main game’s Yharnam, so Cayin (not able to afford the luxury of having an amygdala grab this sneaky spy) would need to take some special measures to get there.

It’s definitely something that I’d like to explore sooner than later, since it would open up potential characters for him to interact with (well, I’ve always been open to him interacting with muses from the DLC but I think a more concrete idea of how he gets there and what he’s looking for would help when plotting those interactions).

#ooc #hello! I'm almost at the finish line the last exam's on Friday and then I'll be free #-well. The next semester starts immediately after fsdhfsdjfhd BUT that will be a new beginning and be immensely better for my mood #it's been a bit rough (nothing too extreme) though I'm actually handling it better this week #also partially because I've made up my mind that I'm gonna see a psychologist I've been recommended as soon as the last exam's done #I've been hesitant but I think I've had enough proof that while I'm getting better at this I still need help to learn how to handle stress #and with that keep working on improving my focus. Make the most of time and keep doings the things that bring me joy even when I'm busy #anyways I'm not quite at 100% in terms of writing. But I do want to try to broaden my current interactions a bit #be around more often and engage more with the community #may this week be kind to you!

[pepprs]

ok mutuals. i am waiting for my first layer of paint to dry (it looks like shit rn lol but if this turns out good i might post it) and im still debating whether or not to say anything now that ive written the letter. like to say that this sucks. there’s that post i just rbed that’s like don’t hold back bc you think it’s cringe but then i saw another post tonight abt a Very specific situation that is not fair for me to be thinking abt in this way but the jist of it (removing the context) was that u shouldn’t burden ppl w ur grief when they make necessary decisions that make them happy. so it’s like ok. and again this is me taking that latter post completely and inappropriately out of context but realy shouldnt / doesn’t ir apply to all situations where someone is making a choice for their own happiness that takes their idealized version of you away from them. grief and everything that comes with it is burdensome and makes the other person feel guilty when ultimately it isn’t even about you. and i know bc ive been on the other side of this situation so many times and have been angry and frustrated when (specific) ppl grieve me for not being who they needed me to be. but this is my first time EVER being on the other side actually in a way that is actually real and not just in my head or metaphorical lol. i fear it literally all the time ofc but this is the first time in my life where someone is leaving me (and CHOOSING to) and not when im leaving either by choice or by like… by virtue of having to progress into a new school or mandatory study abroad or whatever. and it fucking sucks so bad.and if it was me doing this i would want her to talk to me abt how hurt / angry / sad she was and *i* would be hurt / angry / sad if she felt like she needed to hold back but… she is wired differently and needs different things and i truly think me telling her that this is dealing me psychological damage i will carry with me for the rest of my life is only going to be unhelpful and make her angry and uncomfortable. lol

#if i had a relationship w her where we talked abt feelings (like everyone else on our staff team but me 😍) then it would be ok. but in order #to tell her this i would have to be making like a huge leap of saying yeah no we haven’t talked like this before and im forcing us to. and I #uhhhh do not think she would react well to that. i would do it if it was anyone but her but i am terrified of burdening her with me. which I #have proof of btw like she just.. idk. i mean it’s not proof. but every time i have talked abt emotional stuff when she’s been present she h #has like… idk. checked out. visibly and tangibly. i can’t go into a lot of detail abt it LOLLLL but this is a pattern. and then i hear abt h #how she ***** ** *** ***** and like…. i sound kinda jealous talking abt it BECAUSE I AM! i do not see that version of her at all. and that #is literally all i want if i talk to her abt it. to just say like.. hi. we have not talked like this before but you are about to leave and #it has destroyed everything including me. this is hurting me for particular reasons some of which may shock you. i need you to know that. an #and i want us to start telling us things and being close even though you’re literally leaving and won’t be an everyday figure in my life #anymore like you have been for the last 4.5 years lol bye 😍😍😍😍😍😍 like that’s all i want. is just to establish the closeness and make plans t #to maintain it. idk. it’s like cringe and creepy. and i KNOW also that if we talk and i try to tell her how i feel i will do that thing wher #where i cry so hard i can’t even speak through it which im almost certain i will do in front of her tomorrowanyway LOLLLL so. but yeah i #don’t think she is gonna be very comfortable with that and i can’t make her u comfortable or burden her bc she needs to do this for her and #i want her to be happy even if it’s not here. but it hurts soo fucking bad like do you realize how important you are to me and how i was #looking forward to this so much and you fucking pulled out the rug from under us and i don’t know how to be without you. lollllll. CRINGE #purrs #delete later #ok my paint is almost dry lol! win #but also there’s like. ok i will shut upi promise. bit there’s also like… am i thinking this thru clearly / rationally or am i projecting #and assuming things and like… fumbling my way thru this situation for the first time bc ive never been in it before and don’t know what to #do or what’s helpful and what’s not. i know i am depriving myself of love and comfort and things that would make this easier to cope with b #but is that the right thing to do or is it stupid and foolish. i don’t think there’s a right / good / painless way thru this. lol #<- freak <- irredeemable <- embarrassingly immature and naïve given requirements of current job let alone life experiences to this point