#anyway!! i feel crazzy

[likesummerrainn]

#impact wrestling #decay #crazzy steve #black taurus #my gifs #marie #first of all. every impact promo exists in 270p. second of all. i think the more obnoxious the coloring for steve the better #third of all. do you guys see taurus' horns are also painted green to match steve's gear? do you see that??? do you??????????? #FRIENDSHIP!!!! BROTHERHOOD!!!!!! FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #DECAY IS ABOUT FAMILY. BECAUSE DECAY IS A FAMILY. #anyways i haven't screamed about steve in a while so it feels good #my boys my babes

[claiai]

Ppl like get so defensive when i say i dont eat lunch….like yeah i wana eat at home not in the staff lounge full of smack takin ladies……

#I literally hate eating in a staff room so depressing #theres no good food places near by #I dont wana spend 20mins of my lunch just driving #Anyways staff members r always like 😦 where is ur lunch ur crazzy arent u hungryyyyyy im soo hubgryyyyyyysbshk #I can wait to eat its not hard 😩 #Hahha tumblr rant time #Im also like the youngest employee here i feel silly in the staff lounge

[diinotrains]

I need D10 and Lady to have a crazy ass fight ok. I need violence between them I need them to be and unfair and I need them to BOTH be in the wrong and suffer the consequences of what they have reaped upon themselves after hiding it for years and years and years and the reasons why they did it are so fucked up and yet you can see why they did what they did you know.

"She deserved it" D-10 <- extremely insecure and takes out his bottled up anger on those who have better lives than him or those who he thinks are lesser than him due to undressed mental problems and does not confront what he has done because he fully believes he has the right even though he really doesn't because none cared and they never ever cared about his class they never did. To have your name stripped and everything you know taken away from you is an anger that cannot be fathomed. And while she may have done irreparable things she never held violence upon you. Your anger is justified but you took it to far and now you're fearful and it only makes it worse for everyone of class type. You have failed your brothers and your sisters and you know it is your fault but they don't know that. They don't know anything. As long as you don't get caught your fine. Your safe and your fine. If you get caught you are dead.

"I was defending myself I didn't mean to get out of hand" Lady <- not lying about but you almost killed him when he begged you to stop and found some sick twisted enjoyment in it and the guilt is eating away at you so heavily that you hide like a coward and do not confront what you have done because you know it will make you look bad and your saving face so you don't get thrown in the scrapyard with the rest of them you couldn't save because you were to busy relishing in the attention that came with being worshipped like a god. and now all you feel is regret and you know nothing will make this right and so you try to wipe away anyone and anything to uphold your reputation and if it means putting fear into those so they stay silent you will do it even if you have to bear the guilt because anything is better than getting caught. Anything is better than not being worshipped anymore.

And in the end all both you have is each other because you both dug your shared grave without realizing it and now that the tarp has been revealed there is no going back to once was and nothing can justify what you have done in the name of your own reputations survival

Anyways the make me CRAZZY!!! literally mental you should follow me for more crazy posting

#this was a demon ive been keeping inside my soul for the last century and needed to let out at once #I LOVE MAKING FLAWED CHARACTERS I LOVE HAVING CHARACTERS WHO ARE RIGHT BUT DO THE WEONG THIND GRRRRR #diino talks #diino's writing #diesel 10 ttte #ttte diesel 10 #diesel 10 #lady ttte #ttte lady #ttte au #technically but its more of a shitty unedited character analysis #tatmr #THEY DUG THERE OWN GRAVVVEEE AND HAS NO IDEA!!!!!! #i find a character i like and put them in the chambers of wrath/silly

[minnielvr]

DIE FOR YOU - chapter 2 : "right guy"

while y/n and her 5 other friends were hanging out and drinking in their dorm, just a few miles away was the party hyunjin and his friends were throwing. y/n looked out the window and wondered why so many people were walking towards the frathouse, so she asked her friends.

"h-hey guys..why are there so many people walking that way" she said in slurred words while pointing out the window

"oh chris told me that they're throwing a party" intak responded, "i was gonna go but you guys invited me first"

"we should go so y/n can get some dick" yunjin said and took another sip of her drink while leaning on her boyfriend

"i-im down" when y/n said that everyone was surprised, but then again she was drunk and had no idea what she was saying.

"since when does y/n agree to stuff like that?" hanni asked

"aye a-all i know is that...a drunk mans words are a s-sober mans thoughts" haerin said with slurred words and put her hands up

"well shit then we should go, i mean rarely any of us go to parties anyway right?" keeho said

"well yea but maybe y/n should sober up a little before we go, just so she doesn't do anything she'll regret" yunjin suggested

"oh cmon let her live a little" intak countered

"n-no guys i'll drink sone water then we can leave 'kay?" y/n said and got up to go sober up

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meanwhile at the frat party, the boys were playing and intense game of truth or dare. christoper spinned the bottle and it landed on hyunjin, he smirked.

"hyunjin, truth or dare?"

"hmmm..dare" everyone was now very engaged in watching the game.

"okay...i dare you to make a girl fall in love with you. and then break up with her on halloween." his smirked stayed on his face the whole time.

"WHATTT, NAHHH, NO WAY, THATS CRAZZY" everyone started cheering

hyunjin just leaned back and crossed his arms, "pffft, lightwork. who should i do?" he asked

the boys started talking amongst themselves to pick a girl.

"ooh i think you should do y/n, i heard she hates people like you, but wait until she sees your charm" jeongin suggested

"hmm okay but you guys have to give me some money if i pull her." he countered

everyone said yes and hyunjin started telling everyone as soon as he sees her he would make a move.

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after y/n and her friends sobered up they walked accross campus to the party. they walked in and were met with the smell of alcohol and sweat, and heard very loud music.

"uhh guys just to let you know im not actually gonna get dicked down, i was drunk and didn't know what i was doing." y/n warned everyone, she was feeling a bit uncomfortable.

"boooo boringgg" haerin gave a thumbs down

"okay that doesn't matter guys lets just go have fun" intak said and pulled keeho with him

they all split up in pairs and promised to meet up at that spot in 2 hours.

yunjin pulled y/n with her and said "cmon lets go find you a boy toy"

"bro i really don't want one like chill" she was was now getting pissed off when someone said that. can't they take a hint?

"oh..sorry. i didn't think it was that big of a deal i won't say that again." yunjin apologized.

while the two girls were walking around the house they spotted the 8 boys, yunjin suggested they should just go and say hi to be polite.

"yunjin no one comes to a frat party to be polite to the hosts..."

"ugh cmon!!! just to socialize you know?" she argued back

"fine.." y/n agreed

the two girls walked up to the boys and yunjin tapped on felixs shoulder, both y/n and yunjin knew felix a little bit so they were comfortable with him

"hey felix!!" yunjin said with a big smile and waved

"oh hey you two!!" felix looked a bit surprised, he had never seen them at any party except for a few.

changbin looked at felix to see who he was talking to and immediately told hyunjin that y/n was there. hyunjin looked at her and smirked, forming a plan in his head.

he walked up to felix and put his elbow on felixs shoulder.

"hello ladies, fancy seeing you here" he looked y/n up and down

"hi.." both girls said with an uneven tone

"say, y/n. would you like to grab a drink with me?" he tried to make a move

"uhh no i wasn't planning to drink tonight" she responded

yunjin then nudged her and reminded her of what intak said, 'live a little'. so, reluctantly, y/n said yes and walked next to hyunjin to the drink table. hyunjin thought to himself 'this is easy money, shes so easy'

they made it to the drinks and hyunjin grabbed a bottle and two red cups. he poured them a drink and gave one to y/n

"cheers" he tipped his cup

"yea...cheers." she tipped hers and drank it

when they both finished hyunjin realized y/n looked uncomfortable, obviously he didn't care but for the sake of the dare, he acted like he did.

"you look a little uncomfortable, would you like to come outside with me?" he put on his best caring face

y/n was shocked to say the least, how could he pick up on something like that? still, she was skeptical. she acted like she was giving it some thought and said yes.

they walked outside and sat on the curb, the wind was breezing and the moon was full.

for some reason, which he did not know, hyunjin felt comfortable with her, hell even a little vulnerable. so he decided to just relax and make conversation.

"so uh, whats someone like you doing here?" he turned his face to y/n

"someone like me?" y/n raised a brow "whats that supposed to mean?"

"well, i didn't mean it in a bad way, it's just..you know....you don't come to parties very often." he tried explaining

"wellll... yeah but my friends told me to 'live a little' so i decided to give it a try" she looked back infront of her

hyunjin nodded his head and hummed. then the two just sat in silence for a while.

and for some reason, which she did not know why, y/n felt a little comfortable with him, maybe it was because she had alcohol in her, but whatever the reason was, she felt safe.

hyunjin started thinking more and more about y/n. why was she never at parties? why was she always hanging out with the same people all the time? why didn't she have a boyfriend? she was pretty, nice, and he heard she was smart too.

so he decided to ask her.

"hey y/n?" he turned to her and asked

"yea whats up?" she turned to him, their faces were inches apart.

"do you believe in love? i mean, i've never seen you with a guy you know? except those two friends of yours."

she was kind of surprised he was asking that, why would he? but she still decided to answer.

"of course i do, it's just that, i don't feel like anyone is right for me. either that or i don't deserve them..." she realized she was saying too much about herself. "but you know, i think i'll find the right person one day"

hyunjin started thinking about how he could use this as an advantage and act sympathetic. in the inside he was smirking, she is SO easy.

"well....maybe i can be the right guy." he looked into her eyes.

before she knew it he started leaning in and he put a hand on her chin. but she instantly stood up.

"yea. no. DEFINITELY not you." she dusted her pants off and looked around. "im actually supposed to leave now, bye." she didn't even look back, she just started walking back to her dorm. not bothering to go tell her friends.

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[dykevanny]

haz i know absolutely nothign about zeno rpg but ur zeno au has intrigued me and im curious about it,,, i saw smth abt like. meomory loss and being handcuffed together and ik they eat ppl but thats it 😭 explain the au if u want ig bc im interested and i think thye look so silly. also bc u put vanny n will in my brain and they wont leave im shooing them with a boom and they are not moving

OK LET ME GET THE INFODUMP<3

So ummm Zeno au<3 I’m really normal. Allow me to give a brief explanation of what Zeno is first You see, Zeno is a fictional disease sort of thing that makes people cannibals. Specifically an oneset is caused by traumatic events/extreme cases of unrequited love(specifically mostly familial) and the only cure is eating the flesh of someone else with Zeno.(not widely known.) It’s also transmittable through biting like zombies. there’s one specific facility with scientists dedicated to getting to the bottom of how to cure zeno, also housing ‘patients’ (or, people with zeno being used as lab rats). Now onto character lore.

So william and henry were good friends right. Yeah. Considering that they even have a small diner together. Well one day will got zeno (oh no!) and started slowly picking off kids going to the diner. He even accidentally attacked Charlie, who escaped in one piece luckily. Charlie went to the afton household to see if he was doing okay (because will’s like an uncle to her and all! And also what if everyone else got hurt?) only to find will ate them all oops. And yeah same happened to her, but since he transmitted zeno to Charlie he was cured! How convenient! The people in charge of the labs ended up roping him and henry into being scientists for them through shady shady means and well the two aren’t on good terms and avoid each other like the plague. Henry’s still sore over the ‘you ate my fucking daughter’ thing. Luckily he has his assistant/the archivist (tape girl) to keep him company. So Vanessa right! Crazzy I know. Nessa as we know comes from a broken family. In this specific au I’m mixing her backstory with the character who’s place she’s taking (hi kuro) so basically her parents. Neglect her. In favor of her younger sibling because she was born from her mom’s affair and blablabla… she grows up basically taking care of herself. Eventually she develops zeno and starts you know. Killing and eating random girls as you do. When one night she comes home and is confronted by her parents about this!! And well you can guess. What happens to them lol. She gets captured and taken to the zeno facility where she’s specifically studied/talked to by William! They’re funny bc nessa hasn’t had anyone willingly spend so much time around her and be so nice to her. Will … well she’s a specimen to him lol. Since being cured himself zeno has been a subject of interest to him, he’s thrown himself completely into his work (under the guise of feeling soooo guilty for his actions which henry can see right through) and well. He’s realized the consumption of human flesh has something to do with it, since eating Charlie cured him. So he’s been …. Robbing the morgue/killing people when needed to feed vanessa every time they meet. Which, she’s more docile when she’s not hungry so it kind of works but she’s not like cured you know. It has the side affect of her being hungry when it’s time for someone to chat with her though which was funny the one time henry had to go in will’s stead cause he offered her a granola bar and she was like 😐 ew.?? Anyways will has gotten her total trust because he also plays board games with her yay!! He’s the only one not enforcing the whole straightjacket-dog muzzle combo also so she’s like woah !! He sees me as another human unlike these other guys :DD (needless to say zeno patients are not treated very humanely.lol) there was also one time tape girl had to be a substitute for william but nothing of note happened they just kinda chilled and ness threatened her in a backhanded and mildly gay sort of way.as you do.

Anyway yeah so basically Henry’s been experimenting with treatment through amnesia and totally surely unrelated note at the actual start of the story, Will and Nessa wake up in a strange room with no clue who they are or how they got here, and have to navigate the now bloody and corpse-strewn facility while handcuffed together with nothing to guide them except each other and the only clue to their pasts is tampered resumes which effectively switch their backstories!! Nessa is under the impression that she’s the scientist (the whole cannibalism part was left out) and she thinks William is the serial murderer/cannibal. Which was funny cause she read her own resume like wow… I’m kind of a big deal huh :) and then read Will’s like ERM.OKAY… Will didn’t read either of the resumes. Also tape girl gave everyone code names and said code names were swapped on the resumes also! So ‘bonnie’(nessa) and ‘vanny’(will) are just kind of cluelessly walking around like damn this place is really… corpsey:) until henry starts showing up and trying to kill them (he contracted zeno big surprise) and also tape girl (assumed dead) shows up sometimes just to see how things are going. Lots of shenanigans and also murder ensue.

The game also has multiple endings so. sometimes nessa ends up killing william lol. Intestine jumprope…. … ……… Also side note.will found out it’s specifically zeno infected humans that need to be fed to patients to cure them but kinda. Didn’t cure nessa on purpose<3 because she’s sort of entirely dependent on him in this way and she’s kind of his only friend.the same way he’s her only friend……wacky wild!

Tape girl is having a fucking.day. Because henry mentioned he was going to do something but likeee. She didn’t expect to be caught in the crossfires of a HUGE MASS MURDER CANNIBAL EVENT.AS LIKE ONE OF THE 4 PEOPLE STILL ALIVE IN HERE,.. once he chilled out henry explained himself and she agreed to help out (she also decided to distribute some of her recorded notes.just for fun…after the two get separated for the first time ‘vanny’ listens to them and is like woah… i was a patient here⁉️ And bon was my unethical doctor⁉️⁉️ which is funny) but like. She is the only one NOT infected in here and would like to keep it that way so she’s having quite the time. Seeing vanessa walking around unrestrained keeps jumpscaring her LOL. Once ness’s zeno symptoms start returning well ofc will as the only one she’d encountered here who she cares about is the first target but tape girl nearly gets chomped too lol.

Zeno has an interesting affect on the subjects mood which is funny. Basically when an oneset happens and the person with zeno is running around eating people they’re in a crazed manic state which. Is really fun.will and nessa are wandering around handcufffed and he’s like uhh bonnie you okay cause her facial expressions.well they went from the example on the left to the one on the right.

It’s funny bc. The memory erasure actually technically did work… her symptoms only started returning bc she got bit LOL

Pre-the amnesia incident the other three’s interactions with vanessa were pretty.limited. Considering she’s theeee most dangerous patient. Will talks to her for like an hour daily but Henry only really knows her as ‘william’s mutt’ (he was especially not a fan when he found out will had been FEEDING HER HUMAN FLESH.) and tape girl is afraid of her but also. Kind of endeared from their two in person interactions. The second one in which vanessa tried to convince her to let her cannibalize her but hey she was very polite about it..!! Henry and tape girl are both shocked and stunned that she’s actually pretty chill when she’s not insane and eating people.

TL;DR

^these fuckheads are almost all cannibals and beating each other up forever

#zeno au #yippie!!!!!!

[wrestlingisfake]

Triplemania XXIX preview

This is traditionally the biggest show of the year for AAA. For the first time since the pandemic started, AAA is doing an indoor show with fans in attendance. The show starts at 9pm EDT tonight, but it's only being streamed within Mexico, because AAA's international broadcast rights are tied up in a lawsuit. Noted lucha libre reporter thecubsfan plans to get around that, though, so you might want to check out his Twitter for more info.

Psycho Clown vs. Rey Escorpion - This is a lucha de apuestas, so if Psycho loses he must unmask and reveal his true identity, and if Escorpion loses he must have his head shaved in the ring. There are no higher stakes in Mexican wrestling that putting your mask on the line, and the only thing that comes close is risking your hair. So if you're wondering why this is the main event and not Kenny Omega vs. Andrade, that's why.

The backstory here goes all the way back to 2013, when Escorpion was in CMLL and defeated Psycho's father, Brazo de Plata, in a hair vs. hair match. That was supposed to lead to another of Brazo's sons, Maximo, getting revenge on Escorpion, but the match never came together. Escorpion ended up going to AAA in 2017, starting a long-running feud with Psycho. So now Psycho has a chance to do what his brother couldn't, and avenge his father. Coincidentally, Brazo de Plata (aka Super Porky) passed away a few weeks ago, and I assume that will be incorporated into Psycho's motivation here.

I don't follow AAA closely enough to keep track of the regulars, but I know Psycho Clown is one of the biggest stars in the promotion and he's no pussycat. I would expect a wild brawl between two guys who can't afford to lose. Of course, in a match like this, I tend to think the favorite is the guy defending his mask, since hair grows back. So look for Escorpion to finally get his comeuppance after all these years.

Kenny Omega vs. Andrade El Idolo - This is Omega's fifth defense of the AAA mega championship since he won it in October 2019. Kenny went on to win the AEW men's world title in December 2020, and the Impact/TNA world title in April 2021, becoming a triple champion with four belts. However, he lost the Impact and TNA belts to Christian Cage yesterday, which has him looking particularly vulnerable. If Andrade wins the AAA title tonight, Omega will have lost three of his four belts in about 24 hours.

Andrade was best known as La Sombra in CMLL until he joined WWE/NXT in 2016. After requesting his WWE release in March 2021, he appeared on a May 2 AAA show and challenge Omega to this match. A month later he debuted on AEW, in a baffling storyline where nobody seems to understand how anything works. As far as I can recall, AEW has never once mentioned that this title match is happening, even though Omega, Andrade, and the AAA belt appear regularly on AEW programming.

Andrade's post-WWE career has not impressed the pundits, raising questions about whether he can reclaim the greatness that got people to care about La Sombra in the first place. If he can't have a great match with Omega, that discourse is likely to dog him for a long time.

Within the world of AAA, Omega has planted seeds for a match with Hijo del Vikingo, and Andrade has teased the idea of a match with Psycho Clown. I would think AAA would rather have the title involved in Andrade vs. Psycho, but that doesn't necessarily mean they'll go that route, or that they'll start setting it up right now. I'm leaning toward a title change happening, but either outcome won't surprise me much.

Faby Apache vs. Deonna Purrazzo - Apache is the AAA women's champion, and Purrazzo is the Impact women's champion. Both belts are at stake, so it will be champion versus champion, title for title. Deonna is already booked for a title defense on August 28 against Melina Perez, so it's not clear what would happen to that match if she loses here.

There's not much of a story here--Purrazzo just wandered into an AAA show to confront Apache and issue the challenge. This comes across as AAA's big idea to get their belt on international TV by putting it on a top foreigner, similar to what they did with Kenny Omega. It doesn't really feel like Impact is even involved, outside of their office approving the booking. I'm not sure Impact has promoted or even mentioned the match, although I haven't kept up with it lately.

Apache is a big star for AAA, but Purrazzo looks to be the heavy favorite to win. She's gotten a lot of buzz for her in-ring work, and Impact recognizes that and presents her like a big deal. It feels like they've got a destination in mind for her later this year, and I can't believe they'd disrupt that to have her lose her title in Mexico. I can believe, on the other hand, that AAA would send their women's title to the US and forget about it for six months.

Pentagon Jr. & Rey Fenix vs. Hijo del Vikingo & Laredo Kid vs. Taurus & ? - Hey, remember when the Penta and Fenix defended the AAA tag team title in the ladder match at AEW All Out 2019? They've had those belts this whole time! I totally forgot. Anyway, they're defending them here in a three-way, so whoever scores the first fall will win the title for his team.

Vikingo and Laredo were once teammates in Los Jinetes del Aire, but that was a couple of years ago. Taurus normally teams with Crazzy Steve on Impact Wrestling, and he holds the AAA trios title with El Texano Jr. and Rey Escorpion, but for this match he's got a mystery partner. It remains to be seen if this is the kind of mystery partner that's a big surprise, or the kind where it's just some guy that wasn't worth advertising ahead of time.

I don't keep up with AEW's Youtube shows, and Penta and Fenix haven't teamed on Dynamite in months, so I haven't seen those two really go nuts in a long-ass time. Vikingo and Laredo have a lot of buzz, and I keep assuming they're about to sign with a major American promotion, but they still haven't from what I can tell. So this could get pretty flippy and wild, especially with Taurus there to, like, be huge and catch people and stuff.

If I thought AAA gave a damn about keeping their belts on regulars, I'd expect Vikingo and Laredo to win. If I thought the priority was to deliver a big surprise to pop the fans, I'd expect a win for Taurus's mystery partner. But as it is, these belts belong to the Lucha Bros., and I expect that's where they'll stay.

Pagano & Chessman & Murder Clown vs. Puma King & DMT Azul & Sam Adonis - Azul used to be Diamante Azul in CMLL, but he recently jumped over to AAA to team with Puma and Adonis, who are also ex-CMLL guys. Together they're La Empresa, an unofficial CMLL invasion group. So the other team is fighting for the honor of AAA, but Pagano and Chessman are nuts and hate each other, so the big question is CAN THEY COEXIST~? My guess is that they can't, and La Empresa will pick up a win to build steam for this storyline.

Copa Triplemania battle royale - This is basically an undercard battle royale featuring everybody that isn't booked for some other match. The rules are kind of like WWE's Royal Rumble, but frankly I've watched several of these and I've never been able to figure it out. "Copa Triplemania" translates to "Triplemania Cup" but I can't remember if there's an actual trophy or any kind of stakes to this. As I recall it always comes down to a babyface and a heel and then somehow the heel referee is always in there, but somebody clobbers him and the good guy wins anyway.

Marvel Lucha Libre something something - For some reason Marvel has a promotional deal with AAA, wherein AAA books matches featuring wrestlers dressed up as Marvel superheroes. It's hard to believe this is going to sell even one extra ticket to a Marvel movie, but okay. Anyway, I remember seeing one of these with Captain America and Spider-Man vs. Thanos and Venom, which you'd think would be awesome, but it didn't really hold my attention. I don't know which characters will be represented this time, although if AAA wants to book the Loki and Sylvie vs. Kang and Renslayer, I promise to mark the fuck out.

#aaa #triplemania #triplemania xxix #psycho clown #rey escorpion #kenny omega #andrade el idolo

[phati-sari]

Part-1 hi phati sari!!! First of all i want to give u a big virtual hug for ur latest update of charade. It made my whole month!! I had a shitty month and was generally mopping around all depressed but i literally jumped and did a happy dance (yes i am the one who commented on ur wattpad story vidhisanghpal). After reading ur update i had one question but i thought tgis place is better to ask question so i didn't bother u on wattpad. This is gonna be long so i am writing part 2

Part-2. Hey vidhi again. So basically i really liked the way u wrote the intimate scene b/w arnav and khushi it was practically khushi discovering her own sexuallity and arnav giving pleasure to khushi. As arnav had to “take a shower” and also commented that khushi seems to not know anything about his condition. I have a question that does khushi really dont know anything abt sex. I am what do u think in cannon who innocent in this context khushi was?? Part 3 coming upPart 3. As a millennial and having full access to internet. I cant really relate to small town environment where khushi grew up well i wont say lucknow is a small town but u gwt the giat right. So what do u think khushi would have at least gotten some sex education in her school or even from her mom or something. I dont know if u will answer to this as it is my first ask. Anyway i am sure u r having a wonderful day as i am sure u will be showered with love for ur update. Part 4 coming!!Part 4. Dont be alarmed. I am not crazzy. This part is only for ur praises 😅. I want u to know that i wait for ur updates on charade and tubler with same intensity and enthusiasm that i wait for GOT season 8 😁. And this is the highest level compliment i can give to anyone❤. I love reading and IPKKND has been my go to serial when i am feeling down and when i stumbled upon ur tumbler i was so happy to know that so many people share my passion for IPKKND. I love charade and all ur work!! ❤❤😍😘

Hello Vidhi :)

First of all i want to give u a big virtual hug for ur latest update of charade. It made my whole month!! I had a shitty month and was generally mopping around all depressed but i literally jumped and did a happy dance

You’re welcome! Thank you very much for reading, and for commenting both on Wattpad and here.

I have a question that does khushi really dont know anything abt sex. I am what do u think in cannon who innocent in this context khushi was??

Canonically, we know her knowledge about these things is lacking. She dressed Lavanya as Arnav’s bride, set her on his bed, then hid in the bathroom to peeked out. This is not a woman who knows what happens on a Suhaag Raat.

Her conclusion that her lust was acidity and dhak-dhak also showcased how little she understood about this.

So what do u think khushi would have at least gotten some sex education in her school or even from her mom or something.

It would’ve been offered at her high school. Definitely. But there is a huge difference between knowing about reproduction and knowing about pleasure. She might know the “insert Part A into Part B” aspects of sex, but she doesn’t seem to know about passion.

Plus, the character I saw in the serial wouldn’t be inclined to find out. It’s not so much about lack of access (though I’d say she didn’t have internet connectivity until she moved into Shantivan), but rather a sense of what is proper and right. Khushi has some pretty screwed up views on morality that make her insufferably judgemental in the beginning of the serial.

In my stories, I tend to set her level of understanding regarding lust according to what the piece needs. Secret Romance explored the experiences of a woman who is left to her own devices, as happens too often in our culture. In Veritas she’s so terrified that it’s a one-time thing that she buries all her fears and doubts. In Touch she knows what’s missing in their relationship and practically begs for it.

In Charade, she is aware of her lust, aware of the things she wants and needs, but hasn’t really thought about him. She knows his body reacts in a certain way and isn’t afraid of it but hasn’t realised that he needs more proactive support in that arena.

I’ve talked extensively about the serial’s depiction of Khushi’s lust here.

I want u to know that i wait for ur updates on charade and tubler with same intensity and enthusiasm that i wait for GOT season 8 😁. And this is the highest level compliment i can give to anyone❤. I love reading and IPKKND has been my go to serial when i am feeling down and when i stumbled upon ur tumbler i was so happy to know that so many people share my passion for IPKKND. I love charade and all ur work!! ❤❤😍😘 

Thank you very much! I don’t think I’ve ever been compared to GOT before, that’s extremely flattering!

IPKKND is also my happy place, I’m very glad to have established a small corner of the internet where I can share this feeling with like-minded people! Thank you for reading, and for leaving such detailed and kind messages both here and on Wattpad.

#ipkknd #iss pyaar ko kya naam doon #arnav singh raizada #khushi kumari gupta #arshi #analysis #anon ask #answered #ff: charade

[lilyhoshikawa]

I'll stop messaging because I'm really ambarrased and blushing like crazzy but anyway you're cute and pretty and good and kind and I'd do you!

Ahh ok anon, if u want! But its nice talkin to ya so feel free anytimeI super appreciate the compliments yknow, it means a ton to me

[x-puerbulla-x]

Im drainned dude

hi 10:33 18/08/2019

i need to vent my minds a mess idk, i havvent stopped in months and it has been very draining so i guess idk i didnt wannaa sounds cocky saying all the things i did but for the sake of me wanting tto le it out i will and all of this to lead uo tot he present that was me being eith my dad today and how it was, how i feel about it i guess. So it all starts back in may, 3 months ago, where i was trying to survive with my grades i had to make sure everything was gonna go smoothly in my desenho exam and then i also was starting to feel pressure cause june was coming uo and tbh june is just streeeessssfull, theres first mels birthday on 1st June and one week before we took her to the tosquia too, then theres Beas burthday but also my sobrinho santiago was born, on the 5th an then beas birthday is on the 6th, then theres the aniversary off bea and i's first date in the 16th wheere we had previously planned wed recreate to celebrate and then theres bea and i's actual birthday on the 22nd and we went to pride but i was all very hard cause idk i guess we wanted our first birthday to be good (or at least i really dis which gave it some pressure), but it happened;; we celebrated at pride cause we were lucky enouh this year it was on he 22nd, the 2 days later its my moms birthday and i usually dont do anything but this time i decided i was gnna do something and i did, i recreated her gradma's torta, clean the whole house spotless and then i recreated a card i had made for her back in '06;;; on top of all of these ne is exam seasson and i had to hardcore study for gd everyday trying to reach a unreachable goal of 67 exercises, with so much gd i ended up forgetting a litte about portugues and had to study last minute, luckly i knew what i was doing cause m aware i know pessoa pretty well so my plan was just to study the rest but i dont think i gave it enough time sinse i had an 8, the to desenho i didnt study cause cockly, i dont need to, i had a 13,4 which i wasnt happy with but thats life i guess, it wasnt woth the money tryng to ask for a revisao, well, and at gd i had a 5, when i needed a 10 cause i was aluna externa this resulted that after this hell of a month i had to suffer another one cause i neeeded to learn everything i didnt lean in 1 and a half years id gd, in les than a month so i had to stuy like a crazzy person, this time i didnt have to do 67 exercices it was a lot less but still i couldnt do it and i did as much as i could and more i broke down 10000 billion time ad i thought i couldnt do it i didnt fee prepared and tbh i was terrafied cause if i faied this exam i didnt have my 12th grade done and it as a pain in the ass to think about but still after madess of stdying gd all day and until 5 am i did it only with a 11;;; but i didd  it then that hell of a month ended and we get to this present moth but before that had sams birthday coming up and i wanted to surprise him with a cake cause bea and i had offered him cookie cake not knowing he was vegan now and it was dissapointing when we were like ,,, so you cant have it? cause we didnt know we wasnt jus veegetarian anymore blah blah blah, i had to do preaparations for his birthday and it was stressful, i wanted it to be good, the the day after we celebrate sams birthday im still not able to sit and relax a little cause its 2nd august and bea and i are going to veiros, dont get me wrong i was the one deciding to go but god i was tiring, i had more fun than last time i was there but theere wasa lot more stress too cause renataa was trying to cionvince us to go to university the whole time and it was a pain tbh cause i didnt know what to do but i ha a slight ide that i did wanna go bt then the problem was that because of that they ere all using me as an eexample to convince bea and i felt pressure to be like yeah im absolutely for sure going;;; at the end of the say i didd decide i wanted to go but then i was more stressed cause the dates were ending an i didnt havee my passe for dges cause there was a problem with it and my fcha enes was stuck to cause apparently you had to do thing in the secretaria to pik it up so i emailed the help line of dges for the password and asked my mom to go to school to ick up my ficha and ii did manage to have the pass in time but then the lady lied about the time the secretaria was open apparently cause when lena and my mom went there it was closed and i gess that meant that steess was over but id didnt manage to do the cadidatura in the 1st fase,;;;; which later on i found out i couldnt even do in the first place cause people with exams in the 2nd fase cant do the candidatura in the 1st fase soyahhhh unnecesary stess and now i need to wait until 9th september to do my candidatura and pray im accepted indesenho or pintura cause i do not want escultura as a everyday thing or at least i dont think i do ~ so;;; were n veiros also therees tension in the air cause tia tania an vo rosa are mad at each other, we did a lit of things everyday ehch made it less boring but i was so tired already that doing so much stuff wasnt my favourite at times now we came back 4 days ago but i still havent stoped and im tiredddddd, i think i only stayed 1 day home and it was to clean, we arrived in the 12, i slept in beas house and stayed ther the 13th, then i was home on the 14th, then there was the attempt to go to school take care of the ficha and it as closed but then spent the day with david and sof and bee, then my brother invited me to go meet santiag and then i actually went to school again and go stuff done and then the day arrived and i spent the day with andre and the baby, a friend, lena and rafaela, and her mom too for a bit (she was nice). all pf this leading up for today and this week, today i met with my dad just outside my house, he had miriam and pff idk he was having a talk to me cause we walked shiro and he was just saying o ho mirriam remind him of me and how were very alike and idk what to think of that, he said or drawings are the same and that she has my feitio, asked me to go to his place some day and all and idk it was confusing, he made me remember memories i was repressing, good ones but idk if itss good for me to remember those things, he reminded me of when i used hus bike and surprised him cause i was sall and he used to be on a bike aand id always ask like you could let me use it and etc etc and he was like come on mariana podes la tua andar com a bicicleta do pai its too big and all that and i told hm i couldnt go on it alone cause it was to tall but if he put me up there i could ride it and he did probably just to shit me up and i rode it to the end of the street did a cirve and got back and he was choked and all of this cause he said he really wanted miriam to learn too. he compared me a lot to her and talked about ho he still has lots of my stuff;;;;;;; i complainted about my doctor octopus;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; i guess it was to avoi talking about the situation with lena but he did meantion her at all ot as little as possible and it was weird cause that made it so that the way it was talking it was like i was his only daugther or that lena was never there which made me wonder about things idk i guess i never realised to what degreee i was ay closer to my dad than lena, its no surprisse we always knew lena got the looks of his side of the family but i got the personalty thats why me and andre get along so well (also andres sun is my moon cough) im pretty sure me seeing my dad makes my mom sad too, understandably so i dont plan to do it often, not everyone can be happy in this story and its definitely not my mom going to be the one thats not happy, i own her everything i ever had and tbh i only acceot the times i do see my dad out of ity and guilt and cause admiditely i do miss and crave having a dad idk i guess i never had one for real but id like to, but it doesnt sound very realitic so im not too expectant i dont believe i is ever going to happen i hope days fro here forward are a little more chill although i doubt that, at least for a week or so, maybe a few days if im lucky but today im meeting bea and sleeping there se if thats a bit relaxing, then tomorrow im supposed to go soewhwere with david and sof and then the day after with david, sof and sam so yah know, a bit busy i wanted to pint and to draw do thins in my sketchbook cause there hasnt been much time ffor that or cabeça i guess and knoowing myself i feel like that might work on making me a little better before the mess starts again cause of the candidaturas in like 2 weeks

anyway

12:46 18/08/2019 bye

[likesummerrainn]

IMPACT | 09.29.22

#IMPACT Wrestling #Brian Meyers #Crazzy Steve #Decay #my gifs #Marie #i am just so. like yeah sure steve didn't win i didn't expect him to hoenstly #honestly** #but any match of theirs is always a good one for me #because i do enjoy them both #i will never admit that i love brian but i do feel something adjacent to love for him #anyways i'm in love this match is a few weeks old who cares i had fun

[oneworldnetwork]

So, tonight was their very first match as a team. They had done a few matches on their own. A few chances to interfere and make sure everyone remembered that they were there. They didn’t plan to go anywhere. They planned to have a bit of fun spread a little chaos. The usual thing for them when they were one their own for the most part. Well one of them was just getting sick and tired of some of the actions around here. Aleister had a couple of people that could have been called friends here. Well in a way. But now? He had been feeling some of the old Death Squad stuff stirring for months now. He just guessed that now was the time to let that back. Steve was coming in for the first time. He was going to make things fun that was for sure. Crazzy Steve had a way of dealing with things that could set people on edge. Draven was coming back. He had been the one that talk to the other two. Get them to move to getting things moving. Here they were now. Each other them holding or wearing a mask as they made their way back to the locker room. When they got their they were greeted by the familiar face of one of the backstage interviewers. Alicia Atout. Yeah that would make sense after tonight. They did just get out of a match against the Bucks and Hangman, they were probably one of the biggest names in tag wrestling. So, they should have known they would be hearing from someone. Aleister kept moving into the room, allowing the other two more of a chance to start talking. He’d speak if he thought there was a need for him to, but for the moment the two of them had to make either an introduction or reintroduction. Alicia didn’t seem to be the least bit phased by them. Being around so many people it takes a lot for her to notice much. Draven had put his mask on while on the way back. The others were carrying theirs. Draven stood looking at her. Knowing they were going to have some questions to answer. Steve had his back to the wall while Aleister was messing with his bag, back to the camera. They didn’t have plans to let this go on long. But it would be a good way to get things started. After all this was one match. They had a lot that they could do after this. A: Hey guys. First time seeing you guys as a team and you took on the Bucks and Hangman.  -Adjusting his mask for a second before anyone opened their mouths to talk. S:Shocking isn’t it? Group like us able to beat big names like them? -His voice had a mocking note to his as he spoke. They were aware that they hadn’t been a team for long. But they were good at what they did. All of them, at least two had been on teams that had made good names for themselves and Draven was a great fit for them. A: What made you guys decide to become a team? Draven you’re making a comeback into the company. Was there any reason on forming a team with Crazzy Steve and Aleister Black?  D: Well why not? We’re a similar group of guys. Steve was a good add, he works well with us as you saw out there. Why not bring him in? Aleister, felt the need to let things out a little more. Me? It all just seems like fun doesn’t it? See where things go.  -Draven’s voice is a little muffled since he hadn’t taken off the mask.  AB: Draven approached me about the group. Apparently had some idea of how that conversation was going to go. Planned out a few things. Didn’t think it was necessary. With everything I had going on by the time he had spoken to me I was looking for something anyway. Since Abagail and hell even a little with Devitt, things have been spilling out a little more. With this, don’t have reason to hold back to it? Shouldn’t have to start with, just seems I put something into my own head. -This was the first time Aleister had said anything and he hadn’t bothered to move closer to the interviewer or even look at the camera. He shifted to look slightly at Steve who was of course laughing about something. The clown always seemed to find something fun. A half smirk on Aleister’s face before motioning for him to say something. Might as well give an answer to. S: We’re all just here for a little fun. Don’t have to have much planned beyond that. We’re just going to see what happens. With this group it’s bound to really stay interesting.  A: So who are you guys planning on getting a match from next? AB: Whoever we’d like or whoever would like a chance. -Aleister looked back to the camera this time, he didn’t care which team it was. There were plenty of teams in the back in this place. Any of them could come at them. That was the point right, see what came their way. A: What’s something we can expect from you guys later? Since it seems that you plan to keep things interesting for a while. D:What you saw tonight for a start.  S: Probably things getting a little weirder? If that’s the right term. At the very least probably a bit darker.With a team like this what do you think is going to happen? AB: Think that’s good for the time being. We should be going. -Picking up his bag standing next to Steve he looked at the two. Honestly, he was just ready to go. Seeing if the other two agreed with him. Getting a shrug from Draven who waved and turned to walk off camera Aleister turned to follow pushing Steve along with them.

[youarenotwelcomedhere]

Day 6: coo coo for coco puffs // 10.26.18 0212

Today started out ROUGH. I started at 1700 today...felt like my whole day was gone before I even started the shift LOL. Right before I even left the house, I was in this weird grumpy mood. When my mom came home, I was already like distressed and annoyed at her nagging at me. When I drove my car out of the driveway, I hit the car that was parked in the parking spot in front of our house...like wtf. They obviously did not fit in that spot...and literally their bumper was sticking out into the driveway. ANYWAY, I thought that was my fault because I was already flustered and not thinking. BUT, when I got back home today, the car was still there, and I checked...his car don’t even fit in that spot. So I feel better about crashing into his car LOL. 

Anyway, I felt off. I got on at 1700. It was such an odd time because we usually go in at 1500. We were float nurse today, so I got to witness a new vibe. Towards the end of the shift, we got our own assignment because we were short nurses. Anyway, Kelly did break relief for Fran, the charge nurse, and it was crazzy...so many different ambulances were coming in at once and no one was discharging their patients, leaving rooms filled to capacity. 

On top of that, there were a bunch of psych patients in the back...SO MANY. It felt like I was on my psych rotation again. It was sad because there were many young teens that were admitted for suicidal ideation. It’s really sad...they were only about 14 or 16 year olds. One was 16 and he had hx of autism...he waited in that room for a whole day to get admitted to PES. I got to see the PES locked unit, and it is so sad...all the rooms are literally seclusion rooms and the nurses don’t talk to them. 

When we got our own assignment, we got all the psych patients except for one room. That was kind of my patient for the day, and it was good. I felt more autonomy being able to acknowledge orders, etc. It was cool :) The cases were super minor though, but it was ok. I also go to to see a stroke alert, and it turned out she really did have a stroke. She kept moving and going cray, we had to give her hella Versed. Anyway, I took Dr. Smith’s advice and just put on my gloves, and just helped. Normally, I would step to the side and watch people clean, put in IVs, take vitals, etc. But I was just present. I put on gloves, helped move the patient, hand the nurse stuff, etc. I did something! hahah. It was hectic, but I felt I was a part of it...which was nice :) 

something sad...

When we were at dinner, Kelly received a phone call from someone...she talked about someone she knew being in hospice upstairs in Med-surg floor. I’m thinking her relative or her boyfriend’s relative. I was so sad to hear this happen to her. I didn’t know what to say. She rushed upstairs during her break. I told her afterwards, I’m here if she needs me and just put my hand on her. I’m so bad at this kind of stuff, but I hope she knows I’m here. I try not to bring it up too much, but I hope she’s ok. On my way home, I prayed for her. 

Middle school teacher

So I think I saw my middle school English teacher, Mrs. Sayle...LMFAO. I can’t. She wasn’t the patient but she just accompanied this woman (idk if its her friend or sister or whatever). The patient’s last name was like Sagel, so it’s pretty similar! I remember Ms. Sayle was the scariest English teacher ever. I remember she taught 8th grade English, but there were a few of us 6th graders in the class. She rarely smiled. But in this ED, I saw her smile, which was nice.

Acrylics

I saw an acrylic nail cracked in half......this woman’s nail was crushed by the window at home...looked gnarly. It was bleeding and looked hella painful. 

Nice nurses 

It always ceases to amaze me that there are no mean nurses on the unit that I’ve met. Everyone is so nice. Jaclyn asked me how I was doing, etc. It was nice of her to ask, and she even shared that when she was a student, she was hella scared to do IV push. It felt nice to have someone empathize with me. 

Good and bad apples

During my shift, I saw two other students. First, I saw a student from USF, I think. She was so awkwardly following Whitney, kind of reminded me of myself on the first day LOL. She was quiet, and kept to herself. She didn’t quite know how to insert herself, just like me. It felt nice to know that we all go through that one time or another. 

Then, I met this girl from SMU and she was in the BSN program. She wasn’t wearing her school uniform, so I didn’t say anything to her. She saw me in my uniform, so she said hi. She was also doing her preceptorship, and today was her first day. We talked, and then I was like oh you don’t have to wear your scrubs? and she’s like “i didn’t ask” and im just like........you gon get in trouble (in my head). LOL. She was just wearing blue scrubs...I mean what if her CI shows up unexpectedly. And honestly, you hella not representing us well. Then, I would see her follow her nurse...She literally just sat there and was on her phone the WHOLE TIME. I couldn’t take it. I was in SHOCK. Shookethhhhh. I can’t. That kinda stuff just bugs me because it shows how uninterested you are, how much bad work ethic you have, and how much you don’t want to learn anything from this experience. It was so annoying seeing that. So immature. In my head, I’m just like this world is so unfair to have these people pass their class...LOL...people who don’t do their damn job or work hard. 

Today was an overall OK day, glad I’m off for the weekend!! :) 

[hurricanetortilla5ever-blog]

i got a few things on my mind , idk maybe i should let it out , i should really stop stalking trcy , it aint doing me any good sneaking thru her profile and trying to compare myself to her , i mean it doesnt make sense , its the past , people really dont think about their past like that right ?

 i mean looks are a big thing but theyre not everything , and if i think that i need to match my looks to her to keep  bryan stuc to me , then hes not the one for me , so i guess the uglier i get and as logn as he stays , i uess i know then that he loves me but i mean , there is the downside that ill get uglier , i digress ... i have a tiny feeling , that his breakup with her wasnt so long ago , well at leat not as long as he gives it to be . he says its been a year but like i think la that he might have been with her during like feb ish last year , cause like them pictures i see his car and stuff , anyways it dont matter , its a small detail but its not really wrong i guess feb to this jan is about a year , damn my tum is rubbling . how ong more do i need to suffer wtf , it feels hella weird , i feel like im in aliens and an alien is just gonna eat my stomach from the inside , we went to play ps4 today , it was fun , real fun . when im with him , i cant stop staring at him , it really sometimes feels like im staringat him for the first and last time and im just drinking in evry detail , i could listen to him talk for hours and not get jaded

but when im not with him , sometimes i just overthink . maybe moving in with him might even be a good idea , but i dont know if wed both want it tho , it seems scary but hes my best fwen and i dont mind spending all my time with him ,  just dont want him to get bored of me i guess , idk why im so afraid of loosing him , i thn because its been a long time since i felt so , at home , so in love , lie my heart is connected to this human and i dont want it to stop , idk im being super exxaggerated , 

i can go on about this bitch . hes passionate , when i see him work its hella cute because hes just doing him and being a total nerd whcih is cute as fuck , he dreams big and i wanna suceed with him , i never wanna hold him back but be by his side , succeed together , it aint that hard i guess considering we lie the same shitt , its cute that we do , i guess i kinda click more with people that are in the same feild , tho soem pople might think that if you were different people youd have toa lot to talk about , i mean its true , but i see his vision and hopefully he sees mine , at least i wanna see mine first , god knows what my vision is  

i wanna do well so bad  , i wanna be successful , cause i really idk , i might maybe wanna have a family and if that happens , well i only want them to have the best , and for me too , i dont wanna be working from hand to mouth just so my kids can live a mediocre life , theyd be spoilt as fuck tho but idk ,it might help . kids are a crazzy thing but i thin ill be a great mother if i ever was one , 

idk what other thoughts i have , ill proly sleep r soemthing , i wanna get back into music dude i swear , but yeah conclusion is , someday  might need to just cut out stalking tracy then maybe i wont overthink cause im done innit  

[b-eezyhoe]

Shes the girl of my dreams , face so adorable , cute lil booty , fun sized , smile like the sunrise , helped me save money i anyway , held me down when it was rough , took care of me like no other. And i fuckin’ lost her . if you ask me ill say idk how it happened but honestly i know exactly how it did. its crazy cause i usually get tired of girls but this one i never did.  Even tho i’d always be late on the way i loved doing whatever with her. we canjust sit in the whip all night and not even need to have sex but i had a great time just talkin’ . but back to what happened .. So much was on my mind to where it was no action just sitting and over thinking. Its crazzy cause my family moved to another country. They told everyone it was to start a business. but in all honesty i knew it wouldnt happen. see my parents didnt even work.. or even think how a business mindset would . i know the reason they moved is because they didnt want to start working. LAZY SHIT LIKE THAT i feel scared my young ones for life. yea it could be a good experience but would you have wanted to move your first year of hs ? My parents took my younger siblings and forced them to move right when they got into hs. high school was one of the best times of my life and i cant even imagine what my life would have been if i had to move. let alone move to another country where i dont even speak the normal language. so that ate me alive along with my family being gone and not here. i was a momma boy my whole life my mom always had the answer. but see i always held that grudge so i kind of stopped talking to my mom & pops. i was never good with communication i started really keeping EVERYTHING to myself once i stopped talking to my mom. i wouldnt tell my girl anything running my mind and why im not the same person. i would just say i miss my fam. but i kinda stopped doing all the cute things for my girl when i would just sit n mope bout this situation. next thing i know my dads trippin’ and my parents separated. i really brushed my girl off and just put myself in a dark place. she was always there when she could tell somethings bothering me. but i put myself so deep into that dark place to where i thought i haad to do this on my own. This as in fix my family either get my parents back together or my youngs back to america. i felt so bad because i was barely thinking of my girl. where to take her on dates , remembering when we set something up. i wasnt treating her like i should and i could tell i was hurting her and it sucked. i know towards the end i could have treated her better so i left.. i feel i had so much to fix , my future ( i keep dropping out of school cause i just think about my family ) , my parents back together and how to get my brother and sister back. and also things with my girl. but now that we’ve been separated i realize she was the best thing that could have happened to me. she came into my life when they were in the process of leaving. she never left me and was always there. she wanted me to open up and talk about it but i never wanted to. she really had a shoulder for me to cry on. i could wake her up if i wanted to talk and she wouldnt talk cause i needed to she wanted too. Ive never made a more stupid decision in my life. she was nothing but good dont ever get rid of good people cause there arent that many left in the world.

[homestucky]

jus!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!! everything is just so much!!!!!!! you have no idea the insane monologue thats just been going through my head the past 10 minutes its just been so much like the most ridiculus stupid dramatic thing and literally over nothing like over nothing like over NOTHING and then i get the oportunity to say the things ive been thinking about to the right person and i just say nothing and its just like??????????????? good. why did i ever thinks asayign anything would be a good idea like its just so much better to bottle everything forever and bother no one IM SO MUCH BOTHER TO EVERYONE ANYWAYS im really at my best when i shut my mouth and keep to myself and try to affect as few people as possible its just so much better this way i mean you guys have to deal with my venting all the time like im sos os soryr but atl least if i keep it bottled irl then not everyone who communicates with me will suffer like ,, SOO bad bcaus of me lmao 

lol im so frikcin glad this happened to me right befor e i have my phone appointment with wellbeing tomorrow bcaus i was actually in quite a good mood earlier and if that had stayed then when i talked to them i would have vfelt like a big fraud liar and had nothing to say but now if im in a stupid bad mood then i can whine at them and feel like i have stuff to say!!even if it is big stupid nothing!! i need someone to pay attention to me irl!!!!!!! preferably someone who gets paid to deal with me and my foolishness!!!!!!

and i dont sleep enough and i dream too much and i wake up feeling sick every day and sweaty and gross and i try to improve myself i try to study but i feel stupid and unmotivated and tired and i try to exercise but i ache all the time ALL the time and yet im still not good enough i feel gross!!!!!

ud laugh if u knew what this was about, its so stupid, its literally about some maths question i was finding hard, but then it blew up in my head to mean, everything, about everyone i know, and everyone i affect and just my whole life and future and it was so crazzy how big it blew up and im feeling abit overwhelmed hhhhh i have so much to say to someone and i just want them to go and run out of my life before i use them up because i have Chosen Them for some reason and i just want to tell them my whold life and cry on them and luckily i have not done this yet but it makes me so anxious of what i will do in the future i dont even kno this dude that well but i just kno he should get away from me lololololol help

im

such a 

huge

DrAma 

QUEEN

#shut up!!! shut up!!! shut up!!!!

[likesummerrainn]

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#they have so much going on. and this is the only way to explain it. #their souls are intertwined. #cause their first interaction on screen was the forehead touch #and everything they've done since that first moment #is touch foreheads and plot the demise of mankind #which is so hot of them actually #i feel a lot for them and like #the more Marie and i talk about them and the more we watch Decay matches the more we're like #oh they've got something special. that once in a blue moon kinda special. that intertwined soulmates kinda special. #wish it were me tbh #anyways i was gonna make this a set and then i was like 'but what if i made one big gif???' #so here we are #decay #rosemary #crazzy steve #my gifs #marie