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ultrvmonogamy · 3 months

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https://www.tumblr.com/ultrvmonogamy/739438281616474112/person-follows-me-person-messages-me-wondering-abt

I’m pretty sure, based on our very brief interaction, and your cold responses, that this is about me. And the reason I unfollowed you is because I could sense I was making you uncomfortable.

For the record, I had been following you for a long time, from every iteration of my blog. You just never noticed me. I ever sent you an ask when I first discovered you like over a year ago about your knives. I wasn’t hiding. I was just a girl with a longtime crush who was nervous to talk to you and didn’t know what to say.

I just wanted you to know that.

oh goodness. okay, well, if that post related to u, then i'm not rly sure what to tell u. from my perspective that was a v unnecessary n weird sequence of interactions from beginning to end, n i don't at all feel like i was the source of that weirdness.

to be fair, i am frequently awkward n am well capable of creating weirdness, n so i do have some sympathy towards that too. still, that was extra weird to me, especially considering one of the first two or three posts on ur blog at that point, which was clearly abt me. u say i was cold, n that's ofc v subjective, but i do recall explaining to u that i was v leery of following/interacting w ppl i don't know and why (or smth to that effect).

soon after that, u were asking me to identify someone's blog, which is in my eyes a pretty big ask. i was actually happy that i couldn't have done so even if i'd wanted to, bc i'd checked just a day or so earlier n it appeared to be gone. also, if u've been following me for quite awhile, u've likely seen me mention that i am loathe to discuss other ppl in such a manner, and i avoid doing so unless it seems absolutely necessary. regardless, i gave u a truthful answer that it no longer exists as far as i know, to which u replied (iirc) with just 'ok'. i literally do not know how to process that in any manner that draws from me a reply. i mean cognitively fr. maybe in ur mind that response required a reply in turn, idk.

anyway, i try to respond to most of the dms i receive, but i tend to lose track bc they're quickly buried by others, n from my perspective the next thing i knew of u was that u had unfollowed me. i don't how much time passed in between. a week? almost certainly less than a month, i think. whatever the case may be, it felt overall like a confusing n pointless exercise that i had been put thru, n that i had neither initiated nor terminated but rather had been subjected to. at some point i vented abt it as representative of smth more general. enough ppl seemed to relate that it lent me or maybe rather affirmed my perspective in a manner that i appreciated. i did not intend it as a personal attack on u, n i do feel for u that to u it seemed that way.

i do not mean to discount how that made u feel, but i think this likely stems from holding on to a longtime crush in silence for someone who u do not actually know at all on the internet. probably even the sense of my responses being cold relates to having developed what amts to a one-sided relationship n thereby developing some unnatural sense of expectation for a level of intimacy w someone who may not even know u exist let alone feel some special warmth towards u. i do not wish this experience for u or for anyone else, but from my side it does not exactly feel appropriate to put me thru the other side of it either, n i may sometimes vent abt that for my own health as well as for other ppl that might be going thru the same kinds of things.

i hope that makes sense, and i wish u well.

#mail #anon #parasocial #oc

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souljournaler · 1 year

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Ive managed to gather an interesting group of ppl to witness via the twitter equivalent of this blog

Sorry I'll have to put a readmore later bc I'm on mobile and havent figured that out yet

Anyway

It's mostly like, three or four (maybe five??) people that I'd love to be friends with but am intimidated by how cool they are so I'm just ok to witness and Like their tweets when i Can Relate(TM)

Usually on twitter i dont feel like anything i have to say is important or meaningful enough to add, so i simply Dont. I usually rt things or Like them if i vibe-- i dont feel particularly compelled to rephrase things in my own way if someone else already did it well enough. Sometimes i post OC too but it's often venting or journaling.

Some of the ppl i follow on the twitter equivalent of this blog are just,,, people who i admire about some things but would never expect to be friends with. Like, sometimes, they say some rly profound shit that is really cool. Sometimes they say some shit that makes me wonder (& assume a little bit) if theyre white & from california or portland or phoenix or smth. Like... sometimes it's rly "never have i ever read something so brazenly White Cis Dude Who Values Anything That Happens In Silicon Valley" but with a Buddhist twist, and I'm like "wow.......... live ur dharma my guy" and i Must Step Away. Nuance in all relationships ig.

Like... have you ever met someone who is Post-Cringe about liking something? Like, they know it's silly and temporary, but theyre having fun, so they love it anyway and have some absolute dogshit takes while theyre at it. Yeah. Thats these guys. In a way that prevents me from ever pursuing a friendship of any depth, but also still keeps me reading their tweets just in case they say something cool.

I'm hoping to build a much different community online going forward. Like, yes the whole wide internet is out here, and anyone really can find this blog if they know where to look, but i want to treat my blog and the twitter equivalent of this blog more like a little corner, where just we see the stories that unfold. It'll just be us for now, and i like it that way.

So yeah

It's nice to meet you. Let's get to know each other.

- Sol

#journal #sol rambler

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angeltrapz · 3 years

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saw ur post 4 saw asks n im here to deliver!! (also fully gonna answer the one u sent me i just had a busy night 💚) — hmmm would personally love to hear more abt the Matthews-Faulkner-Stanheight-Blank family dynamic? esp maybe Daniel + Art, but rlly just anything u wanna talk abt there! maybe if they have any sorta family traditions, what holidays look like for them, that sorta deal

shfajs tysm!!!! (also tht's totally okay, take yr time!!!)

also oooo I love this question okay. so like u mentioned this when I asked abt what Eric n Daniel's relationship would b like post-trap, but I think it's very very good fr Daniel 2 like. see tht Eric has ppl who love him n who don't mind helping him when he needs it n who are THERE fr him bc again, like you've mentioned, seeing a parent so utterly shattered th way Eric was after his trap is incredibly difficult, esp for a kid (though Daniel is like. at least seventeen? still). knowing tht his dad has a good support system n is surrounded by ppl tht care abt him helps put him at ease bc he knows he can trust Adam n Art. he knows they'll keep Eric safe n tht they'll help him to heal, tht they love him n want 2 see him do well n get better. plus, Daniel knows tht if he needs to talk 2 some1 abt how difficult seeing his dad like tht is, he knows both Adam n Art r there fr him and tht helps a lot. of course, he also has Rigg + maybe Hoffman (until th whole. u know.), but they don't live w Eric. they don't see him every day th way Art n Adam do. that's not 2 say they don't know Eric is struggling, but there is a difference btwn them n Eric's boyfriends. basically, Daniel is very much grateful fr Art + Adam.

I feel like Art wld be VERY good at lending an ear fr when Daniel needs 2 talk. whether that be abt their trap + tht whole experience, Eric's trap n the consequences/rough aftermath, just plain venting, etc.; Art is there 2 listen to them + offer a solution if they want one. most times I think Daniel just wants to b listened to, esp when it comes to what they went thru in the Nerve Gas House - tht's smth they don't feel comfortable discussing w Eric right away fr obvious reasons, but therapy can only do so much. I think th two of them have more in common than they might realize at first, bc hey, Art Killed A Man Because Trevor Was Going To Kill Him If He Didn't, and Daniel Killed A Man Because Xavier Would Have Killed Both Them And Amanda If They Didn't. I feel like Art is like. very reserved abt th details of his first trap + how they affected him (and th second one tbh; it's not smth he vocalizes often at all), but fr Daniel he wld gladly talk abt it if it meant Daniel didn't feel alone. if it meant it could help them, reassure them that hey, it wasn't yr fault, u did what u had to, n I know tht can be hard 2 believe right now n that's okay. u need to process things at yr own pace.

and so Art tells them abt the Mausoleum, bares a part of himself he keeps locked away where he doesn't often give it much thought/actively ignores it. n I think tht's healing fr him too, maybe. there's solace in tht shared experience, as horrible as it was in th moment. 2 know there's someone out there who has even th faintest inkling of what u went thru + what u had to do to survive. of course Daniel relates 2 Adam fr this reason too, but like. Art will use his Lawyer Voice n make sure Daniel understands tht what they did doesn't make them a bad person or confirm tht Jigsaw Was Right And They Deserved It. n tht's rly important fr Daniel 2 hear, esp early on. it's honestly one of th first times Art is truly honest abt his feelings on th matter + the Mausoleum, n it's just. a step tht much closer to healing for both of them.

family traditions!!! they do have a few! in the summer, every sunday they have Daniel w them, Eric Art n Adam go out fr ice cream, even if they get it at the drive thru n eat it in th car bc none of them want 2 be around all th people/sit outside in th muggy weather. it's a good way to get them all out of th house fr a little while, something enjoyable tht doesn't require too much energy or even interaction. it's just smth nice they can do where they're all together n chilling n just enjoying each other's company!

this is mostly a Daniel one but every year around April Fools he just. puts fucking googly eyes on everything. n every time some1 discovers some, it doesn't matter where in th house he is, u can hear him cackle abt it. Adam thinks it's an absolute delight n has assisted on multiple occasions. tht's abt as far as pranks go fr them, bc none of them like surprises like that, but god is it ever hilarious 2 hear Eric frm the kitchen while Art Adam n Daniel r in the living room when he says "I found another one!" while he's looking fr smth in the fridge kjdkfsf.

holidays!! every Christmas they all sit down in th living room n watch a couple of movies w the blankets spread out on th floor w snacks n hot chocolate. the first Christmas following his trap, Eric was sat on th couch between Adam n Art while Daniel chose to sprawl out on th floor, n he just looked around at his boyfriends n his son n the fake pine tree they had all decorated together n he like. needs to take a moment bc this is it. this is all he cld ever want out of life right here. this is a level of peace Eric never knew he wld ever be able to reach after what he went thru fr those six months. n he just sort of presses his face into Art's shoulder n breathes thru it. he doesn't even have to say anything fr Adam n Art to know what he's thinking bc Adam's hand is on his arm n Art's resting his cheek against th top of his head, n he might cry a little, but he's happy. surrounded by th ppl he loves n who love him, love him enough to keep the lights down low n the volume on th television soft, to use subtitles so he doesn't get overwhelmed, Eric realizes he has a home n it's just. oof.

fr Valentine's Day, this one was actually Adam's idea initially: wht they do is take sticky notes n write little affirmations on thm fr each other, n stick thm in places where they'll see it. sometimes Daniel joins in on this one, but usually it's an Art Eric Adam thing. so like it'll be little things, like a note frm Adam telling Eric how proud he is of him, or one from Art letting Adam know he couldn't have had a better best friend, or th one from Eric that thanks th both of thm fr helping him w his rashes + helping him 2 accept tht part of him n start to see it as nothing to be ashamed of. it starts on th first day of February and ends on Valentine's Day itself, n sometimes they get those packs of cards u get fr kids just to write goofy shit on thm to pass back n forth n make each other laugh. they also get th discounted candy!! (Adam steals all th twix bars tho. tht's okay bc Eric likes snickers anyway n Art is fond of reese's peanut butter cups. they share th sweet tarts + conversation hearts!)

Halloween is when they get a big bowl of candy 2 leave on th porch fr the kids who're trick-or-treating while th three of them stay inside (+Daniel sometimes!) n watch some classics, like their Christmas tradition. they Also add in some bad movies 2 mix it up a lil bit bc sometimes u just need a laugh. I am like in Lov w the idea u had abt Eric n Adam sometimes building cozy pillow forts, so they do tht n the three of them just vibe in there n lay together n look n talk. n like it's So Much Fun 2 have ppl to like. discuss movies w while yr watching them! esp when they're ppl who won't be annoyed w u when u wanna share a thought! like Eric n Adam will get into this deep discussion abt horror movie decisions n Art will just lay there n listen bc he loves them so much n loves hearing them get amped up abt things. he'll offer his own two cents if asked too! mostly he listens, but he can definitely contribute.

inevitably at some point, someone's hand ends up in Eric's hair n he's just. asleep not too long after that. usually on someone's shoulder or against their chest, n depending on who's still awake, they either try 2 move to th bedroom or they just sleep in th living room (i.e.: Art will try to convince Eric n Adam to come to bed properly, whereas Adam will just b like "fuck it" n pass out right there. has this led 2 them waking up sore b4? absolutely. but it's like. "we r adults who live w our decisions n this one happened 2 be sleeping on th floor" so.

n then a minor one is on their birthdays, some1 (usually Art, to be completely honest w u) will cook tht person their favourite comfort food fr dinner n they all help make cake/cupcakes/cookies/something dessert-related of their choice. so like Art rly likes brownies, Adam is fond of strawberry jello poke cake, n Eric can make some RLY good carrot cake cupcakes w homemade frosting too. it's just smth fr them to do together + like! it's celebrating! they've all been thru so much hell but they're still here! n that's rly th focus for the three of them. sometimes they have ppl over too - like Rigg, Gibson, Brit, Mallick, Lawrence, William (all of them best-case, obv); it's nice 2 have a lil party sometimes! after what they've endured they've kind of earned it I think!

thank u sm!!! this was so fun 2 think abt fjdkjsk

(lil random hc: when Daniel was little, Eric used 2 write letters to him frm Santa. eventually Daniel got "too old for that," but honestly? they cherish tht memory. I wanted 2 include it bc it makes me kjehfje!!!)

#thank u so much I love getting asks frm u!!!!!!#mutual support hours <3 #saw #eric #adam #art #daniel #others r mentioned #listen. a family can be u yr dad n his two boyfriends n yr all traumatized but yr coping together.#it pulls u together instead of tearing u apart.#which is a concept I desperately wish we could've seen more!! it's what they all deserved damn it!!#long post #asks #gnna go thru n tag these w that so I can like. maybe make a masterpost l8r?#if any1 is interested in tht!

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bannedyouth · 3 years

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rules: answer the 30 questions and tag 10 blogs you'd like to know better!

thank you @lemon-bat for tagging me!! <33

1. name/nickname: char / jude

2. gender: female

3. star sign: cancer

4. height: 5'5 but literally everyone in my life argues with me about it so i could be shorter lmfao

5. time: 6:02 pm

6. birthday: june 22nd baby!!

7. favorite bands: metronomy, gorillaz and the front bottoms, they all hold a special place in my heart

8. favorite solo artists: wayyy too many, rn i’ve been listening to a lot of willow smith, ariana grande and doja cat tho!

9. song stuck in my head: wiley - too many man, don’t ask why it’s just really been scratching the right part of my brain recently

10. last movie: mitchells vs the machines! (highly recommend its such a sweet n fun movie)

11. last show: bojack horseman

12. when did i create this blog: 2013 in august apparently,, my blogs nearly a decade old we love to see it

13. what i post: anything i want honestly, mostly things i find funny if im feeling down!! also any cool art i see C:

14. last thing googled: new girl order

15. other blogs: @ufotears but i haven’t posted in like years i think??

16. do i get asks: not anymore but asks make me kinda nervous anyway haha

17. why i chose my url: it was really just how i portrayed my life at the time, i felt like my youth was being prohibited from me and all i rly had was tumblr to vent abt it. it feels kind of edgy now i wanna change it pff

18. following: 226, defo wanna find more ppl to follow tho!

19. followers: 544

20. average hours of sleep: 6 or 7, i try to aim for 8 but never get it

21. lucky number: i don’t have one!

22. instruments: i can play a few chords on a guitar, gave it up ages ago tho

23. what am i wearing: bambi pjs

24. dream trip: I want to go to madurodam in the netherlands so bad! also shopping in tokyo!

25. favorite food: chili vodka pasta has my heart forever

26. nationality: irish

27. favorite song: rheya - wild nothing

28. last book read: percy jackson and the titans curse

29. top three fictional universes i'd like to live in: any sanrio universe. that’s it, that is all.

30. favorite color: red or peachy pink or baby blue, it changes between these three a lot

i’m gonna tag @nofunatall cos they’re cool & @bossbabysassistant if they ever see it lmaoo but that’s all !! peace out thanks again @lemon-bat for the tag <3

#tagged #long post

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chelfierambles · 5 years

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About my personal relationship with attachments

Some reflection and venting of long-held feelings I’m finally getting off my chest. Disclaimer, this isn’t about starting discussion or discourse. And though some things I’m gonna say have unfortunately involved real ppl in my life, this isn’t about others as it is about myself and my own relationship to this topic. So yeah, pls don’t comment. And frankly, I don’t even really care if anyone reads this, I just need to write this for myself and say it in defiance to myself for staying silent for so long.

So yeah getting right to it then . . . . .

This is a topic I’ve been, for a very long time, too fearful to talk about publicly. In a strange way it feels like a coming-out post... like at this point I’d be more comfortable telling someone I’m trans then talking about how...

I’m a very unattached person.

And it’s a weird, seemingly ridiculous thing to be ashamed about! And yet it is something I’ve held a deep silent shame over despite it being a very integral part of who I am that I took for granted. I’ve vented about this occasionally behind closed doors to just my sibling from time to time, thinking it was just something I was uncomfortable with, but UUUUuuuuuuuuh after getting a universal butt-kicking, I now realize those little vents and rants weren’t little. It was a serious sign that subconsciously, I was unhappy with something going on that I was unable to see at the time.

But what do I mean by unattached?

By that I mean how much do you want to hold on to something? People, things, ideas and ideals. Generally, I’m very stubborn with doing things a certain way, but when it no longer suits me, I have little trouble to make a complete 180 overnight. Like as a kid I’d wear my hair a certain way for years, then one day, I just felt like cutting it and cut it off one day and just showed up with all of it chopped off. Cuz I felt like it. That kind of attitude. I roll with things.

And yeah that sounds fine and all, but then it gets sticky when people are involved. Both others, myself, things I’ve perceived about myself, how things are supposed or “should” be, think or feel. What’s the right or wrong way of doing things? I think there’s a tangled mess I got caught up with that made me ignore the kind of person I really am. I had to end a close friendship I really cared about recently. Things happened. Things I felt wronged by. Things I fucked up (big time). And I look at it now and realize that so much of the issues wasn’t even about what happened but what has been underlying for a long time that I just couldn’t see until the whole mess unearthed everything about myself I never wanted to admit.

Now I look back at it and I feel like a lot of my frustrations were born from me at a subconscious level already trying to leave a dynamic I wasn’t happy with and felt trapped by. And it’s that dynamic of attachment that comes in different forms and different names.

There’s several factors I think were at play. My own standards I upheld myself to, my subconcious methods of interaction, and messages I internalized from outside and media representation. For my own standards, I had my own rules to uphold for “How to be a good friend” that I followed by. Always do your best, communicate, listen to what troubles the other person and when helping, try helping at the source as opposed to surface level comfort etc. Nothing wrong with this, but ultimately I wasn’t really good at figuring out when my own boundaries were being crossed by giving too much of myself (gotten better but still got a ways to go) or compromising on things I thought were compromiseable but now I realize actually... weren’t. For interacting with others, I’ve always had a tendency to mirror. What you give me is what I give back. Also sounds harmless. But once again, I realize by mirroring... I’m not actually behaving as I naturally would. I’m giving what I perceive is wanted on the other end. For someone who has a history of identity issues, this... is not ok to do to myself. And then lastly, media representation. oh I have a bone to pick with this. I read so much bl so this trope is rampant, but I suppose this occurs in a lot of romance tropes in general. But... SO OFTEN is it portrayed that clingy jealous behavior is perceived as cute, a sign that someone really cares. And whenever I read that I think about if it were to happen to me, I would nope so fast out of there. I don’t want to be clung on to by anybody. If someone were to be jealous and possessive over me, I would feel trapped and chained up. But it’s just happening so often in those narratives that all I see over and over again is someone being clingy and possessive is romantic. HNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn no. no it isn’t for me. [Short side tangent here, this is not at all dissing these traits. I’m not criticizing people who have these traits. I’m just saying how it’s not me, and not for me. ]

But ppl have different ways of showing affection. So what happens now when, I got my view of sticking by loyally and being good friend, while mirroring *someone else’s* means of affection, while getting messages over and over again that TO SHOW SOMEONE YOU CARE YOU HAVE TO SHOW HOW ATTACHED YOU ARE. And being a good friend, having so early on hearing the other person’s fears of abandonment as: listen to friend’s woes, attack at source --> fear of abandonment means don’t do anything that can be perceived as abandonment --> WELP. CUE SWEATING NERVOUSLY AND SHOVE AWAY THAT DETAIL DEEP DOWN I’M NOT VERY ATTACHED TO THINGS IN GENERAL. And yes. People too. The closest people in my life, if life were to separate us, sure I can get lonely and miss people, (and I am very passionate with my feelings) But I go with the situation that’s in front of me. And so long as I know the other party is doing alright, I’m ok going on my merry way. I just want the best for the people around me, even if I’m not involved in it. Best example of this, in grade school I had my close knit group of 3 other friends. Like this was my besties group. Come time for the first big decision of choosing a high school, *I CHOSE* to go to a different school than my other three friends who wanted to stick together. I went with the school that seemed right for me. Like... that’s me. I don’t have problems separating even from my closest family and friends.

But now I just see... because I REALLY did care how the other person felt. because I REALLY did want to be the best person and friend I could possibly be. I wanted to make this person as happy as I could and ultimately that meant... not being true to myself. Because I was so so ashamed to admit that I just... didn’t care about things in the same way. I was ashamed to not be the same. And during a really bad time, I’ve developed a feeling of responsibility over negative consequences that could happen if I slipped up. I think that additional fear of what could happen and possibly physical harm or loss happening really solidified the need to hide these aspects of myself and this was the hardest to let go. But as I’ve been working on myself for a while now, trying to becoming more true to myself, and the more I do, the less I have been able to handle and go about things the way I used to. Because thinking about it... it’s just such a fucked up thing TO DO TO MYSELF. And I’m tired of living that way. I’m tired of my own shit. Tired of thinking there’s something wrong with me because I don’t feel very attached even to the closest of people. And, true to my non-attached fashion, even my own ideals, I will throw them out overnight if they no longer work for me. So that’s why, I’m spiting myself. The self that was too scared to say any of this. I’m going to just say it unapologetically. Get it out so I can finally move on. I might have to relearn a lot of how I go about doing things now but I’m rather hopeful. Once again proven that the more I do for myself the better it will be for the people around me anyway so I can avoid making the same mistakes again and communicate better (and faster if I actually.. ya know.. know what I want and don’t want). I don’t want to live for anyone else anymore, I just want to live for myself, and live honestly. Own the fact I’m an un-attached person. Own the fact I roll and flow with whatever life brings. Never compromise on how important my space is to me. Never compromise my own freedom. Go back to being who I truly am. AND HEY ZODIAC PEEPS SHOUTOUT TO FELLOW VENUS IN AQUARIUS! (<-- and that my friends, is the punchline to all this WHY THIS IS KINDA HILARIOUS) So yeah, that’s my spiel. Get it out so I can let all this go and go back to just having fun again.

#personal #venting #rant #attachments #friendship and relationships #friendship breakups #personal realizations

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undertale-rho · 5 years

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Underearth: Book 1 - Chapter 26

The outside of the elevator was relatively cooler than back down on the first level. A quick investigation from Frisk showed why, as this new level is much higher up, far from the magma below. Just outside the elevator as well was a small flame with two arms, two legs, and a face. As Frisk looked at it, the face of the flame looked at him.

"Heh. I'm Heats Flamesman. Remember my name!" the flame said.

"Uh, alright." Frisk responded, not really sure on what to say.

After the interaction with the flame Monster, Frisk flipped around and walked down the narrow passage, a precipice on either side of him. Not long after, Frisk ran into a slightly wider area that boasted two Monsters holding hotdogs, and what appeared to be another sentry station holding Sans behind it.

"Hey buddy, what's up?" Sans said to Frisk when he approached the stand.

"Not much. So, you've got another sentry station up here?" Frisk responded.

"Nah, this ain't a sentry station. It's a hotdog stand. Speaking of which, wanna buy a hotdog? It's only 30G."

"I would, but I've still got no money." Frisk said a bit disappointedly.

"Heh, you should get a job. I've heard being a sentry pays well." Sans said jokingly.

"Yeah, I'll think about it"

Frisk, wanting to get a move on to get back to the surface, turned to face the pathway opposing the one he'd come down. "Anyway, I'm gonna get going."

"See ya, then."

Frisk began walking down the pathway.

The pathway was long and mostly uneventful. Frisk looked around at the area while walking, noticing several strange red-glowing things off in the distance. As he progressed, his phone began going off from status updates. First one from Alphys was a picture captioned "dinner with the girlfriend ;)", the picture was of a catgirl figurine next to a bowl of instant noodles.

The next update was from a user by the name of "CoolSkeleton95". It was another picture captioned "ARE WE POSTING HOT 'PICS???' HERE IS ME AND MY COOL FRIEND.", the picture was of Papyrus flexing in front of a mirror wearing sunglasses. Giant muscular biceps were pasted onto his arms, which were also wearing sunglasses.

"LOL, CoolSkeleton95! ... that's a joke, right?" Alphys replied.

"THE ONLY JOKE HERE, IS HOW STRONG MY MUSCLES ARE."

Ain't that the truth.

Just up ahead was a branch in the path, heading left. Not much further and Frisk received another notification. "NAPSTABLOOK22 has sent you a friend request."

"Who?" Frisk racked his brain trying to figure out who this was but couldn't remember anybody who'd go by the handle "NAPSTABLOOK22", so he rejected it, and stashed the phone back into his pocket.

The area he had entered appeared to be a dead end, with an apron lying on the ground. The apron itself had a large heart embroidered onto the front of it, taking up most of the area, and a big, brown stain on the top of it. Frisk decided to leave it be and get back on the correct path.

Another little bit down the path and Frisk came upon a set of conveyor belts, one going outbound, the other inbound. Frisk phone began ringing as he approached.

"H... hi...! It's Dr. Alphys. This p-puzzle is kinda... um... timing-based. Y-you see those switches over there?" she was referring to three red dots that ran along the outbound conveyor. "Y-you'll have to press all three of them within 3 seconds. I'll t-try to help you with the rhythm!"

"No thanks, Alphys, I've got it." Frisk responded.

"A-are you sure?"

"Yes. You don't need to help me with puzzles. If I need help, I'll call you."

"O-oh, alright."

The phone-call then ended.

Frisk got onto the outbound conveyor and pressed all three buttons easily, de-activating a force-field covering the exit, allowing him to proceed.

The next puzzle was right after the previous, just barely down the pathway. As Frisk reached it, he got a notification of a new status update from Alphys.

"that's the last time i try to help with a puzzle lmao"

Good, about time you gave up trying to help me. Frisk thought.

Frisk then looked at the area, which consisted of multiple islands with steam-vents pointing in all four directions on each island with a large switch in the middle. Three conveyors looped around the left side of the area allowing for those that wanted to to backtrack without entering the islands, but the only way forward was through them.

Frisk looked at the puzzle for a while before making a move, touching the switch located next to the steam-vent on the section he was on. This caused some steam-vents to de-activate, but a few to activate. With his collected knowledge, he then spent the following minutes preforming the puzzle, eventually solving it, and landing on the other side. Once there, Frisk proceeded down the pathway.

The pathway here was just as long and uneventful as the start of the level. This of course means, by just as uneventful, that Alphys was constantly posting updates to her status.

"OMG? ppl think Mew Mew 2 is better than Mew Mew 1? LOLLLLL that's a joke right..." and "omg... DONT THEY GET IT RUINS Mew Mew's ENTIRE CHARACTER ARC" - "My Mew Mew 2 Review: Mew Mew Kissy Cutie 2 Is Neither Kissy Nor Cutie. It's Trash. 0 stars"

Funny how people here are just as opinionated as back on the surface. Frisk thought to himself.

Further down the pathway, Frisk heard a deep, slightly muffled voice call out "Hey! You! Stop!" to him. Frisk turned to see what the commotion was. Behind him he saw the same two soldiers that were blocking a branch back before he entered Alphys's laboratory.

"We've, like, received an anonymous tip about a Human wearing a striped shirt." The one with what looked like armored bunny ears said. "They told us they were wandering around Mount Hot right now... I know, sounds scary, huh? Well, just stay chill. We'll bring you someplace safe, OK?"

Frisk stood still, as he wasn't wanting to go anywhere. "No thanks, I'll be fine." he told them.

"Hey, like, we've got a job to do, so if you could please co-operate with us, that'd be nice." the bunny-eared one protested, all while the other, who looked something like an armored lizard, just stared at Frisk.

"You're wearing a striped shirt." the lizard finally said, causing the bunny to look at him. They both remained quiet for something like a minute after until the bunny finally spoke again.

"Bro... Are you thinkin'... What I'm thinkin'?" The bunny asked the lizard, who just nodded. "Bummer. This is, like... Mega embarrassing. We, like, actually totally have to kill you and stuff." This last one was directed at Frisk. Next think he knew, they'd both drawn swords and readied to attack.

Frisk got ready to be attacked by them, and waited. These two Monsters were heavily armored in plate-mail, just like Undyne, meaning Frisk didn't have a weapon that could kill them. Then a thought came to his head. If I could get a hold on one of their swords, I might just be able to kill them. Frisk got ready to counter and maybe disarm one.

"Team attack!" They both said, nearly at the same time before lounging at Frisk, who backed up just out of their reach. When their swing had finished, both their arms were just hanging out in the open. Frisk too advantage of this and struck the back of the bunny's hand as well as the inside of their wrist at the same time. This caused his sword to fly out of his now half open hand and land on the ground not too far away. Frisk dived for the sword, grabbed it, then swung around and stabbed the bunny in the chainmail on his lower abdomen. The bunny gave a horrible shrike as Frisk pulled it out. The lizard stepped back, hesitating as the bunny dropped to his knees and Frisk cut off his head. The lizard looked on in horror.

"Robert..." the lizard then looked straight at Frisk. "you...!!!!" he then charged straight at Frisk, swinging twice, then jamming his sword straight into the ground, getting it stuck there. While trying to pull it out, Frisk took the opportunity to cut off the guard's left arm at the elbow. The guard recoiled from pain, stumbling backward and collapsing onto the ground. Frisk approached with the sword to cut off his head as well, but mid-swing, the guard brought up their other hand and caught the sword, pulling it out of Frisk's hands, then batting him away with the stub of his left arm. Frisk hadn’t flow far, fortunately, as the path was narrow and the drop was far into magma.

The guard regained his composure and picked up the sword of his fallen ally and approached Frisk with it, who too had regained composure. Frisk dodged the relentless swinging of the guard until one swing that left the guard wide open, allowing Frisk to shove him. Hadn't done much and wouldn't have done anything if the edge of the path wasn't right next to where the guard was. The guard saw how close to the edge he was and lost balance just enough for Frisk to shove him again over the edge. The guard screamed the entire trip into the lake of magma below, and everything fell silent.

Frisk sat back to catch his breath for a few minutes before going back and trying to pull the sword jammed into the ground, but to no avail. After trying for a minute or so, he just decided to once again press onward. Wasn't long before his phone went off again with another status update.

"oopswait how's the humnan doing"

What have you been doing this entire time Alphys!? Frisk thought to himself.

"Top 10 Shows That Make You Froget To Do Your Frickin Job"

Frisk kept the phone in his hand as he went forward, as he figured Alphys was going to call again. Just ahead after a bend in the pathway was a barely perceptible thick black curtain covering an entire section of the pathway, an opening in the curtain corresponded with the path.

Must be Mettaton again... Frisk thought as he entered into the area, resulting in a pitch-black view of everything. Frisk readied himself for yet another adventure with Mettaton.

A Whole New World : Mount Hot

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jooheonies · 7 years

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what are some tumblrs you admire from afar?

@inkyuns gOsh i love georgie with every fiber of my being. she rly is the only reason im still on this website sjdhfkj she just sits there sometimes and calms me down idk what i would do without her. hhh but beyond that i also admire georgie a lot for her writing pls she’s pHENOMENAL like sometimes i read her stuff nd i just sit there in A W E at how beautifully she builds scenes and creates personalities. everything in her writing flows seamlessly and i reALLY WISH SOME PPL COULD SEE THATDSFJKJDH. pls i just really love everything about her. she’s so mature and calm but also rly sweet and cute and gOsh i just love her. uhh she also just has The Best Colors imo and its so amazing like i cant tell u how much i just love talking to her. im not that talkative online w people but georgie and i stay up until 4am just talking about whatever and like i message her all the time. shes so easy and chill and honestly ?? we’re always raving about how we’re the cutest ship and nobody appreciates us pls ship #warie !1!! uhhh im gna stop now bc i rly dont want this to be a Georgie Love Post so i may not admire her from afar but i def love everything about her.

@03hoseok uhhhh i just rly love my baji. jhfkjd marvin is one of the few ppl i wholeheartedly trust on this site bc a). she has Good Colors and b). shes rly just so sweet and like an actual older sister. um idk shes like rly chill nd nice nd she deals w me sending her weird gifs and calling hoseok a brony and she let me call the bee movie a contemporary masterpiece. also one time i called her a haraami nd she rly reacted like a big sis ilu. uhm shes a Scientist but u Adult Nerds r so fake like ur not suffering the way us high school Scientists have to suffer with plastic aprons and diluted bases gOsh. hfkjhfkj im jk i love how friendly she is w everyone and how sh says shes a hoseok stan but all she dreams about is kard and washing machines (u Fake). uhhh marvin is a safe nd secure baji ilu.

@hitchhikingbabeh uhhh okay lOOK annie is an actual EM P E R OR OF writing like girl what??? shes rly too cute nd she Gets Me when i suddenly drop off the face of the earth bc im a #classiclibra and uhhh shes always the cutest like?? her love for jaehyun is what got me into nct like can u believe. i, the one who stans exactly three (3) boy groups and every single girl group out there, rly started liking nct bc of her love? rip. hfkjsdhf annie is rly the cutest person alive i love her. furthermore, i think ive read saudade like ten times and i Die every single time its rly an amazing piece of writing, like i admire annie for her writing nd her personality nd just everything shes so sweet ilu.

@vitaminmoongie uh i dont like u. like at all. u fucking suck u l0$3r. she writes rly fekkin well and she doesnt piss me off like certain ppl do ok wait i have more things to say abt this Dumbass she rly loves lee minhyuk more than anyone in the world and she went so far as to get rly seriously sad when we went to the concert bc she was like “narwhal…i dont deserve him im not pretty enough” like bitch u seen him? hes lucky u looked his way. gosh i cant believe im saying nice things about u. anyways, she also would kind of die for jongup (different than minhyuk tho she has an irl crush on minhyuk) but rly she writes well and half the time she sees dumb shit all she says is “im so over the bs on this blue hellsite” and if that aint the Biggest Mood then idk what is.

@1leeminhyuk ily didi! uh dari always makes me feel so happy bc they rly just want ppl to always feel safe and comfortable like wow wtf. they do this Thing where they listen 2 u vent and it never seems like theyre waiting for their turn to talk and interject? they just listen and when ur done venting, they have such a calm and chill feel like i rly lve dari. 2ari is rly the cutest thing (i get CREDITS FOR THIS SHIP NAME FAJITA DID NOT THINK OF IT!! I DID)

sO looks like i lied bc i remember someone i like even tho i dont think ive ever spoken to them?

@teeyongs ohmgoodness i love her writing shawna honestly is my Favorite Writer on this website wtf. i aspire to write that well like ?? how even?? she has so many phenomenal works and i read her fics to get thru the day im not even breathing shes such a good writer. i have post notifs on for only her like wtf everything she writes is pURE GOLD im cryinf theres only so many ways i can say her writing is the Best. i admire how sweet nd cute nd kind she is like wtf u write amazing but also ur personality is amazing?? anYways im done fangirling i just rly love and admire her from afar

uhhh thats it i dont rly know very many ppl sorry!!

#Anonymous #do yall know how much time this took #im prorastinating on summer assignments tbh #i dont wannt write anymore abt pablo neruda

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sleepless-obsidian · 7 years

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Tag game;

Rules: Complete the survey & say who tagged you in the beginning. When you’re finished, tag people to do this survey. Have fun and enjoy!

I was tagged by @gohegdo (oml sorry i have no chill lol)

1. Are you named after someone? no but zoe means life and my middle name is the french word for sun, so when my mom had my little sister she named her eve which means life and luna which means moon so that’s cool 2. When was the last time you cried? i angry-cried from stress sometime within the last month.. i think. idk i don’t cry that much anymore 3. Do you like your handwriting? most of the time 4. What is your favourite lunch meat? ham? idk, i dont eat deli meats anymore; 5. Do you have kids? no, thank god 6. If you were another person, would you be friends with you? hA i post on vent about this a lot. the answer is no bc i’m rlly annoying, but also maybe bc i’m clingy and clingy+clingy=cling to each other woo 7. Do you use sarcasm? yeah, but i exaggerate my tone irl and use the 🙃 (upside down smile emoji) or say i’m being sarcastic over text 8. Do you still have your tonsils? yea 9. Would you bungee jump? nonononon 10. What is your favourite kind of cereal? holy heckie there’s this one kellogg’s cereal called cracklin’ oat bran and i fucken lov. other than that i like to scoop cocoa pebbles into my mouth this thing just skips 11 i guess? 12. Do you think you’re a strong person? physically, sure maybe. in any figurative way? hell no who do you think i am? emotionally stable? 13. What is your favourite ice cream? cookie dough, strawberry, or any kind of cheesecake 14. What is the first thing you notice about people? attractiveness,,, it sounds terrible but at least i don’t really think anyone is unattractive? like i don’t notice the “ugly” stuff unless the person’s personality is gross (triggered jokes stay tf away from me) 15. What is the least favourite physical thing you like about yourself? the shape of my shoulders rn 16. What colour pants and shoes are you wearing now? blue jeans and black and white shoes (my shoes are rlly cute and semi-new and i love them) 17. What are you listening to right now? nothing currently, but i would be listening to danse bacchanale since my orchestra’s masterworks concert is coming up. the last thing i listened to was the trndsttr lucian remix 18. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? not to be emo but probably one of the grays 19. Favourite smell? the warm day, fresh breeze smell during the beginning of spring and fall and sometimes during summer days. it’s rlly nostalgic for me 20. Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? my mom, she calls me when she leaves work. 21. Favourite sport to watch? figure skating bc i’m yuri on ice garbage and i don’t really like any other televised sports 22. Hair colour? bleached-blond, growing it out and haven’t been touching up the color so there’s like three solid inches of my natural hair color (dark brown) 23. Eye colour? not to sound scene but it’s either hazel or blue with orange/light brown central heterochromia 24. Do you wear contacts? my contacts are the wrong prescription, so i wear my glasses whenever possible. also my glasses hide the dark circles under my eyes while my contacts leave my face bare for all the world to see so fuk em 25. Favourite food to eat? [bangs fists on the table] chicken kiev chicken kiev chicken kiev chicken kiev chicken kiev 26. Scary movies or comedy? comedy; im not opposed to scary movies they’re just,, scary,,, 27. Last movie you watched? kung fu panda 2. i wish i were joking 28. What colour of shirt are you wearing? black (with a TIGER on it hell yea hell yea hell yea) 29. Summer or winter? summer 30. Hugs or kisses? please, for the love of all that is holy, give me both and in abundance 31. What book are you currently reading? i’m reading the great gatsby and welcome to night vale for english, but i follow a couple fanfics too 32. Who do you miss right now? a Lot of ppl, mainly friends 33. What is on your mouse pad? 1) on mobile, 2) don’t even have a mousepad 34. What is the last TV program you watched? miraculous ladybug i think? i lurk on youtube more than watch tv shows 35. What is the best sound? yooo, low E-flat or B-flat on a string instrument (bonus points if the next note is a half step up/down) 36. Rolling stones or The Beatles? i can actually name and know the lyrics to a couple beatles songs so i guess the beatles 37. What is the furthest you have ever traveled? florida;; for reference, i’m from wisconsin 38. Do you have a special talent? in orchestra i’m pretty good at feeling rhythms, keeping time, and coming in on time without keeping track of what measure we’re on (bc my other special talent is getting distracted by literally everything) 39. Where were you born? oconomowoc, wisconsin : ) have fun pronouncing that @ anyone not from oconomowoc

i’ll tag @nonbinary-to-the-max bc i tag you in everything anyways h Aha and @halfdead-ghooostchil since we’ll be hanging out today anyways and i need conversation topics lmao

#this was a MESS to post on mobile #at least i know how tedious html is now holy fuck #lmao #zoe no #that's my personal tag but idek if i even use it whatever #tag meme

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oftextmessages-a · 6 years

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Odd numbers for that question meme?

this is hella long bc i just can’t ever stop talking once i start so it’s under the cut and i am sorry to all u mobile users u don’t deserve this bullshit

1. Are there any characters in your fandom or faceclaims you refuse to RP with? Who and why?

not within my fandoms specifically, but it is related to musical theater; i won’t write w/ any muses from h.amilton, and it might sound a little petty, but a lot of it is that i really don’t like the fandom.

i don’t mind if individuals like the show or the music, even i used to listen to the album while i was working on music theory homework or doing other college things, and it is the show that got me hyped up about broadway in general, but i don’t like it when say, someone makes an informed post about how it’s problematic bc it’s anti black, and then a third of the fandom jumps down the op’s throat about how it’s not anti black and then proceed to total hypocrisy by claiming that op shouldn’t be taking the musical so seriously bc it’s a work of fiction, despite the fact that they take the op’s accusation just as seriously as anything else that was said.

as for other fandoms and faceclaims, i don’t really have any banned characters or faceclaims? i would stay away from actors and internet personalities that have been accused of serious crimes or blatant disregard for the well-being of other people, tho. so like. no pa.ul brothers or l.ena d.unham or anybody similar to them. yikes.

3. As a mun, what are three of your biggest flaws when it comes to being someone’s RP partner?

1. my insecurity. i’m so anxious about making a good impression but also trying to stay true to myself and just be myself but also be a better version of myself than i am bc i don’t think i’m that great by default and i just get in my own way a lot. so that prevents me from trying to reach out to my rp partners a lot of the time and i get worried that maybe they don’t actually want to talk to me or write with me and maybe they’re just humoring me or else maybe they feel obligated to write with me and i’m always stressing myself out over the concern of ‘oh god what if i manipulated them and that’s the only reason why they’re still writing with me?’ and just. yeah.

2. my second flaw is that i have a bad habit of procrastinating and i almost never get anything done on time either because i have intentionally procrastinated or i unintentionally got distracted. i’ve been trying to be better about it this year but so far? it’s not working so well. refer back to no. 1 for details on why that is.

3. i may be a writer, but i am so lacking in creativity, especially when it comes to thinking of original plots, or trying to do things w/ aus where two characters who canonly know each meet for the first time under different circumstances. i’m so bad at it. hence why i tend to stick with pre-establishing familiarity w/ characters rather than try to do the whole first meeting thing. which in a lot of ways is very counterproductive bc i know i can’t really get better at it if i never try, but i don’t want to subject anybody i write with to godawful writing.

5. Have you ever RP’d with someone simply because of their character’s faceclaim, even if you did not like their character’s personality?

nope! I’m aware of that being a thing that some ppl do, and i can understand why they do it, but i don’t think i have ever followed anyone who practiced any kind of face chasing and it has never occurred to me to try it.

7. List three honest flaws your favorite character has and talk about how those flaws make them problematic.

so alana has the tendency to be impulsive and act without thinking about how her actions will affect those around her ( i.e. putting the emails and evan’s note online without evan’s permission )

she also has trouble, even though she is hyper-empathetic to the lights of others, with relating to them in a way that is considered socially acceptable. i think that’s most apparent in her interactions with evan throughout the play. she starts talking about her own accomplishments or her own feelings before evan has scarcely finished a single sentence about himself. i doubt that she does this in any kind of malicious way, and i think it’s really important to differentiate between a character who is narcissistic and cares only for themselves, and one who is hyper empathetic and very aware of their peers emotions but has trouble relating their personal experiences to them in a way that feels supportive of them, like with alana

third flaw is kind of more just a personal observation than an actual flaw to me, namely bc i do not want to make any kind of blanket statement that resembles anything like ‘uh social media = bad’ or anything like that, but alana is so so so wrapped up in social media to achieve the validation she wants/needs, and i wonder about how that affects her offline.

9. What has been the biggest mistake you’ve made since you started RPing?

not having my blog(s) be selective or at least semi-selective in terms of who i partnered with, so i would try to write with everyone who followed me regardless. in some ways it was good and it opened me up to a lot more people than being private and selective does for me, but mostly it was just way too stressful for me to handle. i don’t want to be a control freak, but i need to be able to exercise some level of control over what i do and who i write with

11. What’s your biggest pet peeve when it comes to RPing?

uhhhh trying to police someone else’s blog if they’re genuinely not hurting anything by it is a big no-no to me. if somebody is having a bad time and wants to vent ooc, you should not be sending anon hate telling them things like ‘i followed you for your character portrayal not to read your ooc whining’ or telling them that no one cares or that they should get over it and get back to writing. i think it’s extremely disrespectful when people do that and it comes across like they really just don’t care that there’s an actual human being behind the things they want to enjoy.

and then i’ve only seen this maybe once or twice the almost whole year i’ve been rping, but i don’t like it when people try to start like…writer clique drama over nothing. so they say things like ‘um do you ever write with anyone or talk about anyone other than [name]?’ it’s not a crime to have friends who you talk to or interact with more than other people.

15. Without naming anyone, have you ever refused/simply avoided another RPer in the fandom because of things you’ve heard others say about them, or because of their popularity? If so, why did you feel the need to?

not that i’m aware of. i’ve seen mutuals call out blogs that they knew and were familiar with and provided evidence that said partners have done horrible things like manipulate their partners or defend and try to justify things that nobody should be defending, but i’ve never really had to go out of my way to refuse or avoid anyone bc they’re usually blogs for muses from fandoms that i don’t have a lot of interest in anyway

#Anonymous #long post //#tbt.#this is so LONG i've literally been writing it all day

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