Pls excuse the overtired late night post that I'm gonna drop like clothes on the floor that I took off before bed & will probably regret leaving here in the morning but
I feel like people think I don't empathise with yearning bc I have 2 partners but... 1 of them doesn't live in this country & the other I get to see every couple of months if I'm lucky
And actually I just really miss cuddles. I miss someone stroking my hair while I put my head in their lap. I miss someone running their hands over my back. I miss waking up next to someone & not wanting to get out of bed bc I just want to be next to them. I miss kisses, and whispered adoration, and tender touches
I haven't experienced this for years and uhhhhh... is it really to much to ask, universe?
i loooooove homewrecker megumi so much you have no clue 😵 this is also a pipeline to toxic ex! Megumi >.<
He listens to 'boy is mine' by Ariana Grande n 'kill bill' by SZA and immediately starts thinking of you. Just all that listening/ lecturing from gojo n toji he must've gotten growing up completely wrapped his perception of relationships.
you two were dating in his mind long before he asked you out and date farrrr longer than what you think because he doesn't count (-all-) the times you've broken up
ok so here’s the thing i’m really bad at envision any kind of exes/ex-relationship with 90% of the jjk boys because there’s no… there’s no getting out of that LOL you’re locked in for life with them. most of them would, quite literally, rather die than break up
the exception to this in my head, personally, is toji. he’s like, the fun ex to have around. you two can joke about how he’s been inside of you, and how you know he drinks tea with his pinky up but also be completely platonic. there’ll always be a funny kind of sexual and romantic history, but if you need a cheeky friend in your life, keeping toji around is the way to go. also if you ever just truly want a one-off hookup, he’s your guy
but megumi and infidelity… goes a bit too hand in hand i fear. especially megumi as your best friend… he couldn’t care if your current boyfriend lives or dies, so there is no moral weight on his shoulder knowing or acting on being in love with you. him being in love with you/dating in his head so true… you are not just single to him if you’re in a relationship with someone else, you are, inevitably, going to choose him and honestly, he’s getting tired of waiting for you to realize that he’s right for you; no matter how good of a match your boyfriend might be for you, the simple truth is megumi is a better match. you can realize that on your own, your boyfriend can realize that for himself, or megumi can step in and help you <3
tested negative for covid friday and symptoms are definitely improving (:
asthma like i predicted will be suffering a lil harder for a while, and im still congested and sluggish/slow/tired as FUCK so i’m not remotely myself yet
but i’m getting better 🖤
thank you everyone here for dealing with my vents and absence 🤪😅
me: i really really really don’t need a new band with complex lore and characters to get invested in i don’t have the time or mental capacity idc how cool they are or how much presence they bring to their performances
also me seeing sodo from ghost playing a white guitar so hard his fingers bleed and smear all over it and he KEEPS PLAYING: um. umm