#because theyre sad sometimes?

[craycraybluejay]

Me if I ever get a really bad psychotic episode and think my friend is a hulking scary monster so hit them with a chair: whoops, had a psychotic aggression moment after being psychotic this past month. Might want to find a better way to keep myself and other ppl safe in case it happens again

Some people: no!111!!1!! That's just regular aggression!!!1!1 stop talking bad about psychotics!!1!!!!! It was ur fully lucid and self aware choice to hit ur friend with a chair!!1!!!! Literally there's no such thing as psychotic aggression1!!!!1! Kys op!!

#narcissistic abuse #discourse #mental illness #actually psychotic #actually schizospec #literally yes mental disorders can drive u to do bad or stupid things. why do you think people seek help for them. #because theyre sad sometimes? #even low grade depression or anxiety can make you suicidal. and being suicidal can make you careless and stupid bc u stop caring ab shit #so like. maybe stop pretending mental disorders cant drive u to harm ppl and start addressing how to stay safe #and make sure others r safe around u #me if i say i got mad jealous bc of adhd related rsd and was mean about it bc adhd related impulsivity #people: OH NO UR SAYING THAT ADHD MAKES PPL ASSHOLES GO DIE RN #literally. go away. mental illness is an illness and not a quirk. bad shit happens. people do bad shit to themselves and others driven by #disordered behaviour and thought patterns #and you know what helps prevent this? talking about it honestly and spreading awareness so we can all get the kind of help and coping skills #that we need. so those who need meds or therapy can. so ppl can realize #'hey i felt super offended over this thing someone did that wasnt about me and hurt them! thats a pattern for me!' #'maybe i should talk about it with a therapist that specializes in stuff like that or try to use calming coping methods- #to calm myself down when i get really angry and see if it's worth hurting someone over!' #please take a moment to reflect #who are you helping by denying the disordered nature of mental illness

[sonknuxadow]

i got so excited when i saw this shot like 1. its really cool and 2. oh my god he has FANGS. onscreen in a game. hi sonics fangs i havent seen you since 2008. too bad you only appeared for like 2 seconds

#well 2008 was as a werehog in unleashed and he didnt have them during the day in that game so it only half counts #i specify onscreen in a game because a lot of the characters who have sharp teeth only have them Sometimes and only in 2d art #when the 3d models and promotional art for most characters used to have fangs back in the earlier 3d sonic games #but with sonic specifically i think they just straight up stopped giving him fangs entirely sometime in the mid-late 2000s #its sad really. i think little animal guys should all have fangs as a treat #sonic frontiers #sonic frontiers spoilers #sonic frontiers the final horizon #sonic frontiers update 3 #sonic frontiers dlc #sonic spoilers #using more tags on this one than usual because its an extremely spoilery screenshot rather than a textpost #but i think its been long enough for me to be allowed to post screenshots as long as theyre spoiler tagged #for the main game i waited like. a week i think? and its been almost a week... and the dlc story is much shorter than the main game

[orcelito]

Wild that anytime I post an update a lot of people read it and are even excited about it and have their own thoughts and reactions to it that I'll never know.

Comments are only the very tip of the iceberg with it. And I am Very grateful to commenters for letting me in on it. But in the same way that I'll be excited with my friends when a fic we love updates, it's likely that Other people enthuse with Their friends when my fic updates. And it's just so strange. An experience I'll never have access to.

Everyone's relationship with my fic is unique. So many different people with so many different circumstances and preferences... and the number of people that have told me that my fic is one of their favorites, some even saying it's their Favorite favorite... every single one of them have their own relationship with my writing.

It's just interesting to me. I think and think and think on my writing. I have my plans for basically the entire fic, the way I want it to end already thought out, all the major plot beats and the relationship progressions, All of that thought out. I love my writing so very much, but I'm on the inside looking out. This is my mechanical horse, and I'm in here laying out the groundwork and pulling levers and constructing limbs, puttering away making the horse move. Forever and always, my relationship with it will be more intimate than anyone's, and yet more clinical. Because I know it better than the back of my own hand, but I'll never have the experience of reading it fresh. Of reading it without knowing everything that's going to happen from now to the end and beyond. I won't have the thrill of the plot twists I have planned, the delight at seeing things progress, the horror at seeing things go wrong...

This is my mechanical horse, and I'm making it move.

I just always wonder what it must be like to see it from the outside. I hope to others that it's a pretty horse.

#speculation nation #itnl shit #didnt mean to write this much about the concept but i really am so... #jealous almost. id love to be able to read my fic as a reader. #because it's tailor made to my tastes Exactly. #and i know it's good writing. i surprise myself even sometimes with how good things end up. #it's never a doubt in my mind that i'll make things good. even the harder things . while bringing trepitation . i know i'll figure them out. #the relationship a fic writer has with their own fic is so... yeah. intimate. but still somehow emotionally removed. #but thats how it goes with any art piece i think #the creator sees all the bits and pieces that went into it. remembers the thoughts as they made it #they know their work better than Anyone Else. but they'll never be able to experience it like an outsider. #is my fic helping someone through a rough breakup? is it something someone rereads when theyre sad? #is it a fic that people stay up way too late reading? the fic that someone discovers and consumes all within a day? #that voracious love. ive experienced it many times with other fics. but i can never experience it with my own. #but in the end. that's okay. i will just continue to do as i wish with it. and maybe people will continue to like it. #it is my goal to make a fic that people will never forget. what that may mean differs depending on the person. #i want it to be the best fic it can be. and i will make it so with every brick i lay down. #puttering about for days and weeks and months. it's Most of what i think about. it's my impact on the world. #and it's sitting for 3 hours after work in the storage room writing until im shivering but Satisfied with a productive writing session #it's writing some of my most emotional scenes while sitting for an hour on the toilet #no one else knows what the toilet written scenes are. but I Do. such is my relationship with my fic. #(the focus in the Quiet Rooms cannot be underestimated. the bathroom is indeed one of the Quiet Rooms lol) #& man. ive rambled so much now. but i just love my fic so very much #i'll never be an ITNL reader. and that's okay. because i'm its writer. & that's a status that No One Else can boast. #even those people who state that it's their Favorite favorite cant rival the intimacy of my own relationship with it. #I Am Its Writer and that means so very much to me. #i... really do love my fic y'all

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#sorry im thinking abt death again #because it's weird to think that ive been in the room. maybe a meter away from someone as they died #that someone being my mom. its just weird. the time in the hospital feels like it happened in some dark little pocket universe detached from #time. a calm room and then the soft blips of a monitor then the nurse rushing in to say she'd passed #i dont kno y ppl use that phrase: passed on. i mean i do. it softens the topic. makes it sound peaceful. ive yet to use it. i just say she #died bc thats what happened. is that insensitive? i dunno. when i was home i realized that i come off as much stranger than i think. the way #my family see me doesnt fit how i see myself. i dont kno what to do with that. i dunno. theyre all together today #for an early easter. and im halfway across the country again. nose so stuffy ive had to mouth breathe for the last 3 days #and again. everything feels the same as it did before but also profoundly different. sometimes i cry in the mornings. or when i think abt #future vacations she wont be there for. bc in the end she quickly slipped away in a way that couldn't be described as peaceful until her #last half a day. and all i can think about in that tiny room is how scary it would be to lose control like that #and how its not fair and she didnt deserve to die only halfway through a lifetime. but its not about fair and its not about deserving. #sometimes bad things just happen. that's life. and now i own a book called motherless daughters. and now im standing with the countless #others who've lost their moms too early. ive already become aware of 3 ppl in my daily life who are in the same club #i keep thinking about this moment that happened between my parents at the hospital. apparently my dad was helping her get cleaned up and her #stomach was so bloated she looked like she had a bby in there. which my dad said. and my mom apparently said: but it's a baby no one want. i #dont kno y that upsets me so much. all the things i heard abt her being in the hospital before i got there upset me. and the rest of my #family was there to see it. so i have the least traumatic version of the story. and i got almost 27 years with her. except my sisters #probably got more time with her bc i spent so much time away. or maybe not. i dunno. #i dunno. im just sad that shes gone and sad that it was drawn out even a little bit. 6 days isnt long but im sure it felt like an eternity. #again not fair. nothings fair. 53 years of unfairness culminating in a tragedy. she would hate me characterizing it like that. she lived a #full life as they say. full with an asterisk on account of length #unrelated

[caffeinatedopossum]

I hate that people associate being old with being bigoted, I actually love old people so much

#i know the whole 'old people are wise' thing is a little cliche but its true #not only that but there are some things that can really only be healed by talking to your elders #like. sometimes im so scared for the future and im so sure everything will be like this forever or ill die young #but then you hear about what your elders went through and they survived and its like 'wow maybe its not hopeless' #it makes me really sad when people are mean to elders for no reason #like they dont deserve that. theyve already all got chronic pain and probably a lifetime's worth of grief too #but theyre still hangin in there #it makes me so happy how excited older people can get when someone just talks to them #but its also kind of sad because its clear they dont get that a lot

[bl00dw1tch]

God. God. God. Holy fucking shit i love Avatar so fucking much

#horse.txt #im being so real right now it breaks my goddamn heart that so many people hate it on principle and go into it waiting to be disappointed #like. god. seriously? how do so few people seem to see the shit im seeing? how do people not GET its RIGHT THERE??? #idk man im like. high and the hd release is out so it feels like Christmas but this shit has been on my mind and its at like a precipice #its one thing when ppl just aren't into it but the absolute LOATHING and DISDAIN people harbour for these movies is just. baffling #i cant understand it #i hate statistics. why did it have to pan out this way #how can anybody hate this production literally decades in the making? the fucking DEFINITION of a Passion Project? #the labour and love and inventive GENIUS that has gone into these films--and #you know what? the writing ISN'T that fucking awful. its not perfect because no movie is ever fucking perfect and sometimes you #have to give a script and characters breathing room. room to make mistakes!!! because this fucking obsession with #'characters dont have to be realistic!' is BULLSHIT. and NO saying that does not conflict with the idea that Characters=/=real ppl in #discourse!the ideas can fucking coexist! having realistic characters is GOOD its fucking GOOD when theyre stupid and do shit you dont like! #because thats what REAL PEOPLE DO thats what makes them fucking COMPELLING thats what youre SUPPOSED to let draw you in!!!!!! #but noooo no no no no keep repeating your smurf pocahontas jokes and roll your eyes at anyone who does like it like theyre stupid #because you can't be assed to give something a chance just because everyone Else is calling it stupid #and you dont want them to roll their eyes at /you/ #i know this is dumb to be so heated about but im just. im sad man. im happy im having a great day!! but im sad #about how few people i can share it with yk..???

[corvidcall]

sometimes you see a bad tweet and it makes you upset all day but you cant interact with it in any way because then twitter will just be encouraged to show you more bad tweets. but it did ruin my whole fucking day

#anime life #the tweet was something like #'MAYBE when trans women talk about how bad testosterone is its because of their own trauma #and its not about trans men because literally nobody was talking about you guys oh my god' #like... ok...? #but trans men can still HEAR you tho.... #i don't think its fair to act like trans men are self obsessed professional victims or whatever just because you said something shitty #like yes it's from your trauma and not about trans men but. yknow. #if i post about how ugly my fat body is #just because its coming from a place of trauma and societal abuse doesnt mean my comments don't hurt the other fat people who hear it #anyway i think part of why it's stuck with me all day is because it made me feel so sad #sometimes it feels like no one cares about me but me yknow? #like no one cares about trans mascs but other trans mascs #and no one cares about fat people but other fat people #and no one cares about disabled people but other disabled people #i KNOW that isn't true!!! #factually that is false #but sometimes it really feels like people only care about me in as much as they care about telling me i better not start thinking i matter #as much as they do (people whose lives and problems and societal marginalizations ACTUALLY matter) #and then if you try to talk about your problems to explain how theyre real you just get made fun of #oh well. time to get under my weighted blanket and get real small #and try not to get entirely black pilled by the world lol

[mpekamitzii]

nobody talk to me i finally watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind i am a different person now

#mitztalks #this movie destroyed me and i need to rewatch it again sometime because i missed so many details #oh the beauty of appreciating things.they would do it all over again just to experience it for the first time.again and again... #and they KNOW theyre going to fuck up because they can never healthily be together long term but they dont care.all over again and again #days like this in the end of the week when u get a bit lonely and sad you put on a sadder movie and then take a shower afterwards #drink water and have something nice to eat. and maybe tomorrow will be different

[redrobin-detective]

Duke Reminder for when you get back from your run or whatever you’re doing (probably actually running but idk 🤷‍♂️)

Im sorry friend this is so late, it got buried in my ask and I forgot.

I've obviously lost most of the energy of the rant but I'll sum it up with: Duke's origin with the We Are Robin (WAR) movement marked DC doing something different with the Robin title. These weren't specially picked Chosen Ones. These are kids of Gotham trying to take back the city, being inspired by the heroes to do what they can to spread their own light in the darkness.

Duke being a leader of that movement, having met Batman early on (Zero Year) and making his own way apart of but still adjacent to the Batfam. In my mind, Duke would be like cousin Kate, in that he's absolutely a Bat, but he's not like beholden to Bruce and he kinda does his own thing. The idea of the WAR being almost like Baker Street Irregulars, like street level heroes to do good and if it gets too big, you call in the OG Bats. This is the perfect space for characters like Harper/Cullen Row, Maps Mizoguchi etc to fit in. They could have their own separate stories that occasionally link up with the Bats.

Duke is serving as a leader/Oracle like figure watching out for and organizing the Robins. When Bruce realizes he can't stop Duke or the others, he ropes Duke in and gives him equipment, training and generally helps the kids. Because Bruce is looking to the future, the future he won't always be able to save but if he can save these kids and empower them... then they can save themselves and Gotham. So Duke is a Bat, no questions. Its a joke amongst the WAR that Duke knows the Bats personally, sees them outside of costume. He and Jason vibe really well and Dami respects him for the good hard work he's doing.

Idk, I like Duke as a character but I will admit it eats at me that this kind of exciting, bold, progressive new character was kind of tosses aside for the same old 'nice kid, dead/unavailable parents, becomes Bruce's ward, slap him in a costume and fight crime'. It doesn't matter that oh! He's dayshift or Oh! He has powers!!! It's still the same formula. I love making jokes about Bruce's revolving door of kids but at some point it's gotta stop. Duke being his own dude, alongside the Bats making real change in Gotham. God that would have been So interesting guys and I'll forever be upset about it.

#like the we are robin stories are themselves bad #but the concept guys #do you KNOW how weepy eyed I got at the idea of gotham kids looking up to Robin and saying 'that could be me?' #and not waiting for Batman to magic them away and Choose them #they ARE Robin #even if theyre only Robin for a block of Gotham #they're filling in the cracks the big guns miss #and form a cohesive network of kids who are sick of the city failing them #Duke being charming charismatic bold and decisive as a leader #like hes a Bat but he has the freedom of not being a son #Bruce tells him No at something and Duke is like whatever #He has his own people! his own responsibility! Bruce and co are just there as support and backup! #Im sorry thats one reason I cant get into canon Duke #because they stripped him of his parents and his home built community #and threw him at bruce as a sad orphan who Chose him and made him a hero #its just............ its just the same thing #and sometimes god bless I want something different

[boxwinebaddie]

i need to know how stan proposed to kyle in Sixth grade Omfg😭😭 i bet he was so cheesy my Sappy king!

oooooooh you already knooooow!!!!! lover boy antics

( this got long, i'm sorry i get really excited when i get to talk abt rm and esp all the stuff from the past bc LORE )

so, before i get into it, in accordance with ncuniverse stanon, all my stans meet kyle and are immediately madly in love with him.

the difference between pep!stan and rm!ravenstan is that pep!stan could not distinguish the difference between platonic/romantic love so stan basically just thought it was completely normal to be unhealthily obsessed with your best friend/think everything about him was perfect...and also he dated wendy on and off his whole life which made things...v complicated.

( wendy is in rm, but wendy is NOT from south park, so that OG canon doesn't exist in rm, but she's definitely coming into play soon and i mention her in the next chapter in a small way so ;) keep your eyes peeled for that my friends )

but, uh...oh my god. so rm!stan helped kyle move in and was...immediately In Love with him and KNEW that. in(stan)taneously. it was...On Sight. *stan vc* Wowza

like kyle broflovski tapped stan on the shoulder, hit him in the face with that New Jersey accent and it was OVER for stan. like the skies opened up the angels were singing he was like that is my husband dhsksk heeeelp it was also extremely obvious to literally every single person in south park that stan was madly in love with kyle…

...Except For Kyle.

like obvious to the point where when little stan was in the hospital after the hockey puck incident

( which...that is MY FAVORITE FLASHBACK YOU CAN TALK TO ME ABT THAT ANYTIME )

he was largely unresponsive and pretty miserable, but kyle came in with flowers and soup to say thank u ( he was stuttering the whole time my god he was so nervous ) and stan smiled so hard and got so excited to see kyle that he ripped...all his stitches open and had to have his jaw REWIRED shut....unbelievable....pack it up Gay Boy! that's right! i know what the fuck you are!!! ashdsad MAN!! RELAX!!!!!

also multiple people have brought it up to kyle and he is genuinely confused abt it bc his self confidence and body dysmorphia was so bad ( eric cartman i will fucking kill u ) that he cannot even fathom stan having a crush on him being Not a really cruel joke :( sigh

part of it is that all my stans are very conventionally attractive and frighteningly beautiful, which i think is so funny because to offset that i just make them soooo fucking gross that it is offputting slkdsa

( also stan never grew out of his nasty boy antics, like management is like...raven did u...accuse the prime minister of france of 'ripping ass' on national television and high five him because it was a '9/10'...and call him 'broski'...and raven is like...it was actually an 8 but i didn't want to be rude so i gave him an extra point and management is like RAVENSSKHLHD!!...if ur waiting for the day ravenstan is not in trouble...ur gonna be waiting a long time...hes in tabloid jail 25/8 )

BUT ANYWAYS! BACK TO STAN BEING BEAUTIFUL AND GROSS!

despite being gross...his eyes are too blue and pretty unfortunately so people are willing to let that go...he has pretty privilege help

and by age 11 stan had been asked out/proposed to like...over 22 times ( mostly cartman, die cartman )...all declined. he used to be really nice about it, but recently if cartman tries it and uses his deadname and the wrong pronouns stan just...looks at him blankly and is like "who?"

and then sees kyle come out of his honors english class with all his books and is immediately like all over him, chatting excitedly aw aw

the second gag is that rm!stan does not think kyle is in love with him but hes willing to be super best friends with him forever and never tell him if that means he can stay close to him...only wants him to b happy...even if its not with him....AAAAAa....i hate it here :'(((

with that in mind! sixth grade! cartmans mom was getting remarried to some really rich guy and cartman was flexing hard like "listen up peasants and poor people my mewm is marrying into royalty sluts!!"

and kyle was like...lmao "congrats on ur moms...what is it? eighth marriage? my family lost count after wedding gift number 5"

naturally this pissed cartman off and he was like "oh yeah, jewboy??? at least my mom got married!! actually my mom got married eight times and you??? you're nothing, you're disgusting!!! you'll be lucky if anyone pities you enough to marry you once!!! i bet by the time i've got grandkids, you'll be still be miserable and alone. choke, fatty : )"

kyle was unfortunately used to this behavior and was like whatever!! marriage is a social construct you idiot!!! and tried to play it off but stan Over Heard it and was MAD AS HELL! he took that shit HELLA PERSONAL!!!! he was like hell no absolutely the Fuck not, you trick ass bitch!

and hatched a stan plan

*narrator nina vc* Stan Always Had A Plan.

and that plan...naturally...was to propose to kyle. in an extra way.

( yes all my stans propose to my kyles in extraneous ways smh...dramatic bisexual boy behavior i am embarrassed )

( another small side bar, i think at this point in rm stan is...about as happy as he gets and i don't even feel bad about talking about this because i was going to mention it in kyles letter but i forgot...

so in rm stan had really really reaaaaally long hair like had never ever gotten a haircut and it was a large part of his gender dysphoria and stress for him...so as a birthday present...sharon cut his hair to about shoulder length ( which was...a big deal...ill go into it later ) but stan was SOOOOO HAPPY!!!! it was so :')))) he like started wearing his hair down and smiled so much he was so happy omg my son my son

also him and kyle went as coraline and wybie for hween it was so cute like...stan in the yellow raincoat and the boots...kyle in the iconic black and white fit...love them )

ANYWAYS! MIDDLE SCHOOL STANS PROPOSAL PLAN

so he spent 2-3 days, as is natural for my stans, doing a craft, getting something ready to give to kyle smh

and then texted him and was like "do u want to go to starks pond?" he also used !!! three exclamation points and the :'D face...gay ass...smh

they had a cute little picnic and the tiny ring box was burning a tiny hole in tiny stans pocket but he panicked...like he had a song and everything...he got too nervous help!!!!

stans last ditch effort was that he asked kyle to skip rocks with him and was like "dude!!! hang on ur shoes untied!!!!!! let me get it" ;)

and kyle was like "oh thanks bro--WHA " :O

bc...there is stan...on the bank of stark's pond...in all the rocks and mud and dirt and grass...with the stars out...and alll the fireflies flickering around like fairy dust...on one knee and...

he hollowed an acorn out :') and made a little rope hinge out of twine and stuff so it opened and closed....he also...painstakingly weaved pine needles into a tiny little ring perfect for kyles finger and hot glued a little fresca bottle cap on there

( when they met kyle asked him for a bottle opener for his fresca and stan opened it with a lighter and said 'I Am The Bottle Opener' which...yes is a Metal Boy Thing...also yes kyle was in love...also yes stan kept that bottle cap...wow )

in shop class he also engraved their intials on it...like on stans old bed....gross im crying so cute...ew ew ew

and stan was like!! "haha STUPID!!! you're wearing rainboots dumbass i cant believe u fell for that" ( while literally proposing )

and kyle was panicked and freaking out like "w-what are you doing?!?!?!?"

and stan was like "what does it look like dummy shdlka"

( heeeeelp )

and kyle was like fully in shock like

"aRE YOU PROPOSING TO ME??????????!!!!?!?!?!?!?"

and stan was like "well i'm Trying to! Jeez! but it’s gonna take forever if you keep INTERRUPTING! ME!" unserious omg and is like "look, i couldn't ask you to the dance, so i decided to do the next best thing…which was to ask you to marry me!!! so what do u say?"

( a very reasonable and logical next best step help )

poor kyle he was not ready for this, this is like an insane dream he's having...yes he's had this dream before...they were older in it tho...yes stan looked like raven...i dont want to talk abt it

hes like

"whAT???!?!???!!!! STAN YOU CANT /ASK/ ME TO MARRY YOU!"

and stans like "why Not!!!!>:( i mean...ugh ok!! so it's Not Legal, but it will be! Eventually i hope! until then, it can be our secret! <3"

kyle is like "Nononono, i mean like...were in MIDDLE SCHOOL, stan!!! Adults get married and Have kids!!! Kids Do Not get married!!! also why -- why the hell would you want to marry Me of all people???"

he is sweating and shaking oh my god also stan is like wow so cute but also hes also....really nervous bc hes worried this is going Badly...poor stan...his luck with proposals going smooth is...rip

and stan is like "first off all Mr Technical! we are Preteens!!! and people say you're supposed to marry your favorite person in the world!!!! and YOURE my favorite person in the world!!! so why wouldnt i marry you if you're my super best friend???? but…”

*stan sigh*

“Ugugugh...Okay.

if you're That worried about us being too young to get married..."

stan, still freezing to death, soaked to the bone is like

"temporary me."

*flustered confused kyle vc* what????

and stan is like "temporary me!! like Temporarily Marry Me. like as a trial run? i'll propose to your right now and then in like ten years, when were adults and they've legalized gay marriage, come find me, bring me the ring & box back and ill replace it with a real one :') <333"

then continues

"but like...you're going to get into fancy schools and meet lots of rich smart successful people...so if you find someone else that you actually really love, that...that's...o-okay...you can just give everything back to me and wash your hands of it...just let me know which one haha! i guess...that's a little confusing? sorry! shdslahd whew!"

but kyle is still processing like "temporar...but what if you find someone else YOU love and want to be with instead???"

and stan just smiles and is like "i wont"

and kyle is like "stan!!! be seroius!!!!"

and stan is like "i Am being serious. I Wont."

( AAAAA MY STAN IS A ONE MAN MAN WHAT CAN I SAY! he is being so FR too like…im crying ur honor )

and hes like "okay but is that a yes....my legs are going numb"

and kyle is like "yes of-of course, but sta--"

and stan is like "SWWWWWWWEEEEET!" and slides the ring on kyles finger and gives him the box and then his watch beeps and hes like!!! "oh shit i gotta go catch that last bus or my mom will kill me!"

but before he goes he gives kyle a kiss on the forehead and is like "see you later, kyle marsh!!!"

and kyle is like "b-bye!!! s-stan broflovski!!!"

stan rings the bell on his bike at him and disappears into the night and kyle is just sitting there...looking at his hand...

A Temporaried Man

( also present kyle...does look at it often in The Stan Box...aka stans open casket aka the stuff they didnt bury with him rip...

also stan made that little ring so it fit on a much larger middle school kyles ring finger but...present kyle can wear it on his PINKY...as an Adult...so unfortunately...i think that says a lot about how kyle is doing with his...ed...unfortunately...im sad )

but yeah!!! my sons are married!!! anyways!!!! style world domination!

ok wait Actually i think before he left little stan was like

"ky!!! stop making the freak out face, dude!!! just breathe! relax!!!"

*rm stan vc* smile pendejo ;)

AAAAAAAAAA RAVESEY WORLD DOMINATION BABY!

-uncle nina vibing at 7am drinking a monster energy

p.s very inchresting that it’s been ten years…hm…

#idk if this makes sense because its like 7am #BUT LITERALLY MY SON THE ROMANTIC #like rm!stan is so cute because he was in love in love with kyle #like zero hesitation like he took that hockey puck in the mouth he carried all of kyles books ties his shoes #like it was so unserious and so Sad because stan was just like its ok i dont want to lose him so i wont tell him!!! hahaha we are Friends : #ALSO NOT THEM BEING TEMPORARIED #THEYRE SO CUTE #sometimes when people hit on him #bc kyle is super fine #but hates people #he says hes married #also says my husband #and also says stan #delulu behavior but its ok...he can be delulu bc actually...Hes Right #that doesnt happen that often for delulu people but it is actually happening for kyle and stan is a FIONE PUNK ROCK STAR CELEBPRETTY #so he actually fucking won #also little stan and kyle...so cute...love them

[thebewilderer]

seeing people claiming that wanting the volume on an even number or a multiple of five is an ocd thing and getting violently angry

#no the fuck it is not :) and youre a fucking idiot :) who is making light of the struggles :) actual people go though :) #fucking instablock but I'm still so fucking furious #i thought it was only tiktok 14 year olds and the idiots who have no idea what mental illness is #but this person was deadass about it #and i wish the absolute fucking worst for them #the ABSOLUTE fucking worst #ih #god i hate these fuckign assholes #who pretend to be all enlightened about mental illness #and then go ahead and diagnose themselves with ocd #because they like the volume on even numbers #or madd because they daydream sometimes #or ptsd because someone broke up with them and theyre sad #im just. so angry. #grow up. consider not making fun of disabled people for once in your pathetic attention seeking life #fuck #pers #ocd #actuallyocd #im entirely serious in that if anyone comments with some bullshit I'm blocking instantly #''oh but for some people-'' I'm blocking you. #edit: went through the notes and blocked everyone there too and feel slightly safer

[faineant-girl]

i wish all addicts, in recovery or not, a life free of sorrow forever

#.vent #kinda. im not gonna delete this one though #i just. i sure am thinking about this a lot. #i listen to like. trip report videos or whatever and like. the comments section on every single one. just nasty #theres no sympathy for an addict to be seen. unless they're also an addict or are recovering #my dad is a recovered addict. hes been clean for 6 years. i love my dad and hes a wonderful person. #i obviously still have trauma from when he was actively in his mess. to deny that addicts have caused others trauma is to be reductive. #addicts can cause trauma because theyre people. and people can cause trauma all the same #but the lack of understand or care or basic respect to anyone dealing with addiction is just. appalling. #im sick and tired of hearing the same old fucking phrase that its the addicts fault cuz they decided to take the first hit. like #man how fucking cruel can you be. how heartless ya know. #like its obvious hardly anyone commenting abiut this knows anything about what being an addict is like. like. #i know i dont. ive been sober my whole life right. i do not have the same experience. #but. i have a compulsive disorder that makes me perform a task that is 1 harmful 2 almost entirely out of my control #and i cannot describe to you how difficult it is to ignore that urge. for your mind to know what youre doing is harmful. but #your body physically is not listening to you. #like. its a different thing when its addiction. but being compelled to do something you know is hurting you isnt unfamiliar to me #plus with addiction the added factor that your body becomes physically dependent on a drug and it hurts you for a long ass time to try and #stop and withdrawl can sometimes literally be lethal. its so fucking sad to see people hold not even. like an ounce of sympathy ya know #if an addict has abused you im not saying you need to forgive them. you dont. but not every addict is youre abuser #and while you do not need to be involved. every addict deserves a good life. everyone deserves a chance. #just. god. makes me mad. makes me upset. #if you are an addict especially if youre not in recovery. i hope your days go well. i hope the world gets kinder to you.

[yuridovewing]

Feel like one of the best ways you can convince someone that no, villains with compelling motives that have sad backstories are not terrible writing compared to straight up born evil villains who just want to kill everyone and be done with it, is to tell them that Warrior Cats writes born evil villains constantly while literally preaching “That’s how evil works, you can’t CHANGE, you’re either touched by demons at birth or you aren’t!” and it blows chunks

#brokenstar tigerstar hawkfrost darktail one eye etc etc would all be so much more interesting if they werent so one note #and just had ‘’born evil’’ slapped on as their explanation for being evil #‘’ew why are you woobifying tigerstar’’ because i think a villain who feels emotion besides ‘’evil’’ and ‘’angry’’ and actually does care #about his clanmates but is also a bigot that deserves to be beaten down is more interesting than canon #to get like real world political here… abusive people and bigots like. are not one note born evil demons #they have loved ones and reasons for turning out the way they did. and im not saying that to go ‘’so you need to give them grace!’’ #im saying that because the line of thinking that every bad person is a super obvious mustache twirling villain with no soul #makes it so that people justify abuse and crimes from REAL people. like ‘’oh my friend says some racist things but he isnt BAD! he loves me! #would an abusive person be nice to his wife in public? of course not!’’ #and its rhetoric like that that lets abuse and bigotry thrive. if you put the world in categories of born evil and born good #then you will dismiss all the ‘’good’’ people in your life who have done horrible things with ‘’but she donated to charity once’’ #i mean. hell this LITERALLY happens in wc where the ‘’born good’’ characters are abusive and murderously xenophobic #where characters like clear sky and blackstar just get a sticker like ‘’oh you cant be TOO mad at them! theyre good at heart!’’ #‘’ignore all the times they killed vulnerable people for the crime of being born somewhere they didnt like! they were nice to a kid once!’’ #the message there is literally ‘’bad people cant REALLY be bad if theyre nice to people sometimes’’ #like. im not even mad at clear sky being motivated by witnessing his loved ones starve to death for why hes such an abusive control freak #thats an interesting reason to become a villain especially since the change happened when he was put in a position of power #the problem is not him having a sad backstory. the problem is the erins think his sad backstory means he was never that bad #and anyone who’s upset at him can go eat shit and die cause he looked sad #like. i get this line of thinking often comes from writers doing this for abuse apologism and just wanting to see abusers be held accountabl #accountable #but how exactly does it help victims of abuse to portray abusers and bigots in a christian ‘’touched by the devil’’ light

[stupid-dyke]

stayed up til 3 when I have an 8am again. I do this because I hate myself so sos sososososososososo much. It's really funny because I don;t fall asleep in class thanks to my meds but I've noticed every time I go to class after 4 hrs sleep people act weird around me which is how I know im acting really weird. And I am so extremely angry at myself. I spent 4 hours. well 8 hours. Well all day. Pretending I'm going to do homework and distracting myself with various other things on my laptop or crying on the phone to my parents. Got zerooooo work done at all i stayed up most of the nihght for literally no gain whatsoever this is pure self harm. Which I do becauase again I hate myself. Because I didn't do my work. Which i won't do tomorrow either because i'll be so tired I wont be able to string a sentence together even though I'm supposed to give a presentation haha. My favorite activity is staring at the clock on my laptop getting later and later and later. new high score etc. Who's a hypersomniac now. Imagine how much easier this semester would have been if I'd gone to bed before 2am ever. I'm so fucking angry at myself I'm not sure I'll be able to sleep now even. If I fail my classes again my parents are gonna make me live at home forever and say im too crazy to live on my own. I know I was supposed to get a therapist but I hate them all so, so, so much. I think people get that job bc they feel powerful telling some pathetic person what to do knowing I literally cannot do it and will come back week after week admittingn failure and paying

I know I was supposed to take the new experimental FDA approved drug for IH but the list of side effects is fucking terrifying and I live and sleep alone so i really don't want to take a super powerful sedative that can make you stop breathing. So I'm gonna keep taking stimualnts and lying to myself that today is the last day I stay up extremely late for no reason.

#it's really sad I'll skip the meds sometimes to try to sleep and it doesn't even help. I just feel worse while awake. #The real reason i can't sleep is because im screwing myself over by doing no work and im terrified im going to fail my fucking classes #and theyre all going to say im crazy if I fail my classes. theyre going to say im crazy and I self sabotaged on purpose #bc i dont want to succeed. Dad says that every day #Dad loves telling me everytjhing wrong with me multiple times a day every day so i never ever forget #hes so helpful. He's trying so hard to help. If i dont answer the phone he starts worrying ive committed suicide #again i was suicidal one week in 2019. Get the fuck over it. You've literally threatened to kill yourself multiple times. Fucking hypocrite #a bunch of my friends are going to graduate this semester and best case scenario i graudate next semester and then I'll lose touch with eve #ybody #and then the good times are over and life is boring and hell forever and ill get more disabled every year until I can't work and then I'll #run out of money and die #you know when I talked to my genetics professor about the alzheimer's results he said somethign will kill you eventually and it #wont be that unless you live to old age which will be good! #so true bestie. so ture #Guys lets be real here. Why the fuck. Do we live. why. It is so goddamn hard. Maybe it;s easy when u get sleep . But that hasn't happened t #me for a while #all my classes end next week and i havent done most assignments since spring break #also over spring break my parents met w a lawyer to revise their will adn afterwards dad told me im executor and explained to me what will #happen after each person in my family dies. #the assumption is that I will outlive everyone. they don't think my sister will live to old age adn they are already old #the lawyer apparently has clients with the same disability as me and all of them had the same thing happen. Once they get another disabilit #and get older it becomes impossible to manage IH and they cant work til retirement age #i just spent an hour typing this shit instead of sleeping. 4am-730am sleep lets go. I should kill myself #i hate my parents fucking advicce bc they;; be like well when i was ur age I was married it sure must suck to be single!!!! fuck you guys f

[eggtwobroes]

followers i come bearing good news. ive finally started feeling less nauseous over certain things related to hlvrai. more good news: i dont think ill be posting hlvrai as my main thing anymore. sayonara you weeaboo shits

#explanation: i tend to mentally sever connections between characters and their source materials and their fandoms #a divine force has finally freed me from my shackles and done this with hlvrai #for this reason ive decided to steal 4 of the characters and turn them into my ocs #and move all my darzenrey+gordon streamer group over to my mainblog #so like. if you like how i draw darnold benrey gordon and forzen ur not out of luck. theyre my friends now #if you liked how i drew any of the other characters ur kind of fucked. sorry #might beblog some stuff onto here sometimes but its not my main shit anymire!! im free now #it was fun though my art improved alot and i met good friends and discovered alot about myself as a person #wont miss you guys though. lighthearted #ALSO i will keep tagging my darnold and benrey art as darnrey because i know you guys are sad and hungry #i will protect you... thats all though #ok thats all

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

its so important to me that william is a jealous petty little bitch. its so important to me that hes an absolute shithead about it. you go girl be so toxic<3

#im allowed to say this because i was like this #literally “youre the most jealous man i know” “YOU KNOW OTHER MEN???” #no but fr. i like that hes shitty and jealous and petty and mean about it. i really really like that #william wisp is like if danny phantom was me in middle school and i will stand by this fact until i am proven wrong or i die #whichever comes first #i cant put it into words much but. representation for the jealousy bitches without completely villifying them immediately <3 #is it cool to do? no. is it mean? yeah absolutely. does it hurt other people? sometimes!!! #but also sometimes youre a teenager whos been hurt by the world in more ways than you can count #and the one person whos had your back through a lot of it is now #spending all their attention on other people and treating you like youre invisible (<< a particularly harsh jab for this specific case) #you thought what you had was special but it was never really *dating* was it? #so technically theyre not doing anything wrong but that doesnt make the knife in your heart hurt any less !!!!!!!! #sorry im having ghostknife emotions tonihht i just finished episode 5 its so important to me that william is petty and shitty and jealous #reaction time #i BETTER see some fics out there with this. #you people are not allowed to sand him down to be the sad quiet emo softboy. #which he is but like hes more complex than that. let him be shitty and mean.