#but i also can’t abandon him

[songtwo]

idk i think my bf might be developing a drinking problem and i just don’t know what to do…..

#it’s been going on for a couple of months now but he promised he would stop and he had been doing well until today…. #and it’s like. on one hand i never wanted to be w an alcoholic and i told him straight so he promised it would stop #but on the other hand i can’t just abandon him #and it’s like we used to go out a lot and party but like. that was it but ever since he met this guy he just gets lost when he drinks w him #and the thing was he got like aggressive like he didn’t do anything to me and i can’t really explain it but he just wasn’t himself #and like. we talked about it a million times and it’s not like it happens every week #it’s been like 5 times since december #but 3 have been on the past month alone #and two weeks ago it got bad like he almost got into an accident #and like i’m not even physically w him anymore like we really only see each other once a week since i moved #and from the very first time it happened i told him i couldn’t be w him if it kept happening #and after that incident two weeks ago he swore it was the last time but it just happened again #by the way he and that guy get wasted it really is a miracle they get home alive #and like. idk what to do #i really don’t want to be w someone like this #and i hate feeling like this like if i were to think only about myself i don’t want this i hate feeling like this #but i also can’t abandon him #like not even bc i would miss him or whatever i just wouldn’t feel good leaving him alone #but like i don’t want to live like this #maybe i’ll ask for some time to just figure things out #but it’s gonna suck so bad bc we were supposed to see kendrick lamar next week and then we already had plans for his bday and omfg #i don’t wanna leave but i don’t want things to be like this either #and i asked him to stop and gave him multiple chances but idk #i just don’t know what to do #i love him endlessly but i need to put myself first but i can’t abandon him:( #and our 1.5 anniversary was also next week….. #but i think time is the sanest and safest thing right now

[rystiel]

rewatching season 3 for the first time in forever rn and. the doctor and jack make me so sick dude. i feel sooooo unwell about them. like imagine you meet rose and the doctor, these amazing people that you find yourself traveling with and coming to care for, then one day you end up left behind by this man that you trusted, alone and fundamentally changed forever—back from the dead. you wait for over 100 years, searching for him, and when you finally find him you learn that he abandoned you on purpose. that he views you as something wrong, something that he can’t stand to look at. a fixed point, something not meant to exist. this guy that you loved and trusted, telling you all of this right to your face. like that’s crazy

#likeeee ily doctor but dear fucking god #i feel so bad for jack 💀 #like ok martha’s also going through her unrequited love arc but jack??? #this man was changed forever. he literally can’t die #all because he traveled with the doctor #and now this guy who was essentially responsible for his fate (somewhat) just… abandons him #treats him like something fucked up. yknow? #like shittttt dude damn #PLUSSSS HE THOUGHT THEY LOST ROSE #like DEAD lost not parallel world lost #these 2 people he cared about so much. like. he lost them #one of them he didn’t really even have to lose. like the doctor’s right THEREEE he FOUND him #and yet #tragic shit man #doctor who #doctor/jack #tenjack #?? #captain jack harkness #hello everypony :3 feeling awesome. very normal

[kingofanemptyworld]

hey you know what would be fun? a fic where the Royal Guard follows through with their plans to make Ichigo the new Soul King and Grimmjow promptly loses his shit because what the actual fuck Ichigo has already given these people literally everything, twice, and this is how they repay him? recruits Nel and Harribel and Urahara and Yoruichi (after Nel sits on him for a while because Jesus Christ Grimmjow you can’t storm Soul Society by yourself no matter how much you’ve powered up) and it’s the Ryoka Invasion all over again except with pissed off arrancar instead. I just think it would be neat

#king’s court #bleach #grimmichi #orihime and Chad are also there #Ishida is questionable considering the timeline and his feelings about soul society in general #I just have this perfect image in my head of Grimmjow finding out and just going to town on the shinigami over it #like ‘no one in all three fucking worlds deserves that self righteous asshole martyr #but he chooses all over you. over and over again. and for what? how many fucking times have you abandoned him? #my plans haven’t changed I’m gonna tear his throat out with my teeth #but I can’t fucking do that if he’s locked away like some fucked up fairytale princess now can I?’ #Nel in the background laughing to herself because wow grimmjow nice save there definitely no one suspects you’re soft for Ichigo #other shinigami come around to help but grimmjow trusts zero of them besides Urahara and Yoruichi so. toss up if he lets them do anything #anything important anyway #okay I’m done #I haven’t read CFYOW btw I just know this is a thing that’s talked about in it #also I know a fic like this exists for ichiruki but I’m deep into my grimmichi era so

[vinillain]

DALLY HOURS TIME

#bro so good he’s more popular then Yugo himself in France 💙💙 #okay but his character is deeper even though most of the time it’s depicted very shallow #he and Yugo are best brothers I love them so much #The main reason Ad killed him in s3 was because of the Ova and that he was chosen over him #And adamai who has been abandoned so much and left behind kind of snapped #also it’s mostly played as a joke but this guy has had a fkd up childhood 😭 like jesus #I like to think Yugo taught him how to cook and he taught Yugo how to sword fight when he gained that power <3 #wakfu #wakfu dally #wakfu percedal #wakfu pin pin #wakfu yugo #wakfu s4 #wakfu adamai #wakfu art #also shout out to puck for the traingle eyebrowns I can’t draw him without them ❤️

[puppyeared]

XIN YA MOMENT

#FINALLY. TOOK ME TWO FUCKEN DAYS TO DRAW THIS DUDE #I made it way too detailed cause I wanted em to look fancy but I’m probably gonna simplify it any time I draw them anyway shfjgsg #i changed my mind way too many times trying tk figure out Colors for them. I’m actually happy with how this came out!!!! #if you squint the sash and jinbu is a reference to sailor HEHE.. I tried to make it stand out without contrasting too much so you can tell #-that it’s not part of Xins aesthetic more like a piece of him they carry around with them <3 they make me ILL #I should also mention they can’t nock arrows for shit. they just use em to stab and cut things apart hence the lack of a bow #it was left by one of the scholars before the island was abandoned so they were like ooh stabby stabby #I just realized I put braces on both their arms and legs but I’m too tired to do anything abt it. I’ll just symmetry win this time #still need to make a quick ref for their pelt pattern and coat. I’ll slap em on artfight when activity dies down shjdgbd #my art #myart #my oc #oc #lmk oc #Monkie kid oc #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #fan character #Xin Ya #furry #I guess??? #reference #reference sheet #artfight #artfight 2023

[velvetjune]

Can’t stop thinking about that part in the Alan Wake dlc that’s—

Alan: did you create me?

Zane: no im not the writer of your story

Alan: what was with the page you wrote about my childhood then

Zane: uhhhhhh oh man bad reception got to go bye! [disappears]

#that and the introducing scratch ending are the two most suspicious things Tom the Diver did #like yea he might just Not Know but also. him abandoning their conversation because Alan slightly questioned his existence #was too funny. just completely ignored him #alan wake #alan wake 1 #thomas zane #I don’t remember this part exactly and can’t find it online. I think it was in the second dlc

[zeb-z]

Cellbit who places flowers by his sons empty bed and wonders why he works for the federation if he can’t use it to his advantage, if all he does is end up alone. Who could barely handle when him and Roier were fighting, who was so grateful when Foolish would stick around to build for him when he was making himself public enemy to gain favor with the feds. Who pleads with Forever, who is so very clearly out of his mind, begging him not to leave him alone, not like this, not now of all times.

Cellbit who is keeping himself as calm and as balanced as he can, because he knows what it’s like to lose yourself, and he knows how isolating it can be. Who’s there for every one of the islanders even if it’s spreading him far too thin, backpack bursting with notes and photos and evidence with all the problems he’s relied on to help solve. Who’s building the Order to make sure that no matter where their allegiances lay, no one on the island will have to deal with the federation on their own. So they’ll have a place they can come together and rely on each other.

Cellbit who just doesn’t want to end up alone. Not again. Not anymore.

#today and yesterday is a combo that has knocked me the fuck out man #placing that flower at Richas bedside song of healing in the bg as he’s like why must i always end up alone where is my son #his voice cracking as he begs and pleads with forever to get through to him desperate because he can’t just leave him alone. not now of #all times. not with the stakes so high #who likes when people stay around him while he’s building. who seeks out interactions. who purposefully seeks #to create community between them #also the egg bears worth mentioning too like. finding that room and an egg who was abandoned and died alone #always remembering it. fuck man #I’m just. I’m so fucking upset dude #sorry guys I’m mentally ill abt him and etoiles and I won’t shut up about them <3 #mcyt #qsmp #Cellbit #q!cellbit #z speaks

[wibble-wobbegong]

michael is my absolute favorite character in the entire show. if he has a million fans im one of them. if he has ten fans im one of them. if he has one fan it’s me. if he has no fans, i’ve been shot dead and had my soul put in a meat grinder. if the world is against mike, i am against the world.

#yes he is my special little tiepsny but he’s also one of the most interesting characters to analyze and his story predicts so many things #also he’s one of the most complex characters that never actually toes the line between good and evil #he’s so clearly good but the way he’s been framed as unlikable so the reveal in s5 of his pov hits harder is gonna be insane #he is not kind but by god is he loyal and full of love #he’s such a spiteful bitch but it really does come from a place of love #like he really does love lucas and that’s part of why he was so pissy about him trying to be popular but you see him try to be a little #understanding when he and dustin confront him about the game #obviously he was a huge dick for not actually going to the game but from his pov lucas was abandoning them for ‘balls in laundry baskets’ bc #eddie skewed his perspective about the whole thing in his rants about nonconformity #honestly the way lucas and eddie have directly contrasting roles in mike’s life is something i can’t wait to talk about in the big analysis #mike wheeler #byler

[captain-lovelace]

Playing Nu Carnival and I haven’t started the recent event or gotten anywhere close to finishing the story yet (stuck on the bear fight in Blade’s chapter) but I’m gonna be honest Huey sounds like he fucking sucks

#Nu carnival #Like. He MADE aster and Morvay just to abandon them. #That business with blade sounds super fucked up #Quincy lives in the middle of the fucking woods alone and I know #part of it is because the people he knew started being suspicious of him when he didn’t age #But I also fully believe it isn’t for no reason that he’s so suspicious of anyone like Huey #And Kuya. Man where do I fucking start #I really can’t get over the aster and Morvay thing I know he’s done worse but #I was doing uh. What’s his face. Casino owner version of aster’s story #And the fact that he keeps going ‘maybe Huey will come back if I clean the house enough… maybe he’ll stay if I make sure everything’s #perfect’ #my god that alone made me want to kick Huey’s ass #Something about that hurt me really bad

[kitkatsudon]

Hi if u don't mind I wanted to ask you how did gon saved yeong in ep 16 i mean what happened after he saved him how did other royal gaurds react . I know no information is given in the drama so pls if u can make something up or anything I think could have happened pls share this question has been bugging me for years

ooooOOh a very interesting question, especially considering I haven’t really gone back to watching Episode 16 in any great detail after I watched the show for the first time - and that was because it annoyed me how, as far as we know, Gon left Yeong to die there. He said in his internal monologue that he needed to go back for Yeong, but we never saw that on screen, and I was in a sour mood as I watched the episode all the way up until I saw Yeong alive again and realised that because the timeline reset it wouldn’t have mattered anyway.

Do I want to watch Episode 16 again? No, not really, it will remind me of how angry I felt the first time, so this is going to be based on what I can remember from Cheonjongo in 1994 (Yeong got shot, he was lying with little Gon, and older Gon gave him a nod and left him to bleed out as he went to find Lee Lim) and what I can remember from the end of the show (Yeong was alive and well, and still working as the Captain of the Royal Guard. Also he had siblings).

After defeating Lee Lim and obtaining the whole Manpasikjeok, Gon went back for Yeong, as he said he would in his internal monologue. He sprints through the forests around Haeungung Palace back to Cheonjongo, praying to any deity that will listen that his Yeong is still alive. Maybe it should have occurred to him that Yeong would have lived in the reset timeline, but he can’t think about that. And even if he had realised that, since the timeline had been changed, who knew whether this reset Yeong would be the same as the one he loves now?

He has to save his Yeong. His Yeong has to be alive.

He storms back through the palace, not caring about the palace staff giving him odd looks. He doesn’t get stopped - Cheonjongo has already had enough chaos for one night, and he could easily be a member of staff running in to aid in the rescue efforts. No one gets a good enough look at his face, and they’re too exhausted to care. So Gon rushes in, yelling out for “YEONG!”

But Yeong isn’t there. Not many people are left, and those that are there are giving him weird looks. Gon then remembers a crucial detail: one of the first things that the royal guards focused on after the treason was getting the injured young king to hospital. If they took his younger self, they also would have noticed Yeong, and would have taken him too.

So that’s where Gon goes next. Again, it’s busy, it’s hectic, the royal hospital has never been this busy, but now there are injured and dying royal guards filling the rooms, and their worried loved ones milling around the rooms and the corridors.

Yeong is in one of the rooms, hooked up to some machines and sleeping peacefully. Gon can see the pulse of his heart beating steadily on a screen beside him, so he’s alive at least.

The problem is the guards standing outside his door, and his wrist that is cuffed to his bed frame. Because in 1994, Yeong wasn’t recognised as a member of staff, he wasn’t the renowned Captain of the Royal Guards… he was a stranger, and anyone that was a stranger must have been a traitor. As if he wasn’t comforting the new young king, and doing all he could to preserve his life when they found him.

Gon can’t take him, not like this. But he can’t leave him, either. He can’t leave him to be arrested and treated as a criminal for saving his king’s life, and more importantly he can’t let him stay in the wrong time. Gon has to take Yeong back to the moment they left, so the timeline can continue - just like how he himself travelled through time before, he needs to do the same thing with Yeong, taking him back to the point where they left so they can continue where they left off.

Praying that the doctors had done enough, Gon goes to find Yeong’s room from the outside, and uses his skills from entering and leaving his quarters undetected to get in through the window of Yeong’s room. He quietly picks the lock of the handcuffs, and gently wakes Yeong up, covering Yeong’s mouth when he’s surprised at the new surroundings. Gon knows that they won’t have much time once the people outside his room realise that his heart monitor is no longer beeping, so he keeps Yeong connected for as long as he can, helping Yeong up, finding him his shoes… and eventually they make a run for it. Yeong is slow, so until they’re in relative safety, Gon thinks it’ll be faster if he carries Yeong there.

It’s hard, but Gon hardly notices. All he can think about is getting Yeong back to the kingdom in their timeline, so that’s what he does. The Manpasikjeok feels this desire and helps him go where he needs to go: Haeungung Palace, 2020, the Kingdom of Corea that they call home. It’s certainly a sight - the security team watching the CCTV cameras are shocked to see Captain Jo leaning against the king, a bloodstain visible through the hospital gown he’s wearing, and they send out a team immediately to receive them and to get Captain Jo the help he so clearly needs. The staff try and ask what happened, but Gon won’t answer, so they eventually give in and accept that they won’t get an answer.

And after that… well, Yeong recovers, and things return to normal. Normal-ish. There are things that are different, but Yeong at least can blame his “amnesia” on his “mysterious accident.” And Gon… well, Gon is used to people telling him things that he’s expected to have already known, and he’s used to putting on a smile and thinking on his feet, and this is no different for him.

…is that any good? It’s nothing super in-depth, I’m not sure how much you wanted, but I think that’s a rough play-by-play of how things could have gone :D

#tkem #jo yeong #lee gon #of course if this was something I wrote properly it would involve a lot of complicated and difficult feelings from Gon #staring in a non creepy way at Yeong in the hospital and hating how he could let this happen to his oldest friend #but also knowing that there’s no way he could have stopped him #and vowing to make sure this never happens again #maybe with a dash of realising how much he’d been abandoning Yeong since he met Taeeul #realising how he was taking advantage of Yeong’s loyalty and friendship and realising that he can’t let things go on like that #because Yeong will always sacrifice himself for Gon in every way #and Gon realises that he needs to work harder to show Yeong how much he loves him #something something gonjo ensues but if this is a canon explanation then i can’t throw that in there and i think it works well enough as is #kitkat answers asks

[wereshrew-admirer]

sangfielle 2 on the horizon….. have to get hustling on that sf54 animation

#maybe i can finish my pinch hit tomorrow night #then it’s funeral time then maybe normal life can return and i can go go go #getting scared lol.. i love you sangfielle i can’t wait to hear from u but also…. #gonna be miserable without chine lol #can’t wait for them to never mention him again #just pls pls pls let them treat It like a baby and not like a dog (or not exclusively like a dog) #this is my most basic wish #forgive the pessimism i’m Going Through It and my brain is projecting grief all over the place #i have no idea how my brain is going to react to chine-less sangfielle.. dre u better have something good cooking #or something completely unremarkable lol #yike yike yikes #this post brought to you by a jdq cohost post abt season planning #grant me strength to not abandon all my WIPS once the new season hits and the first thing duvall says is #.. idk - meeting up with lyke and thanking him for old yeller-ing chine #or something #ok ok ok goodnight tomorrow i will be less negative #if not tomorrow then uh.. next week

[dreamofbecoming]

thinking about how my dad graduated high school in 1984 and went to college in boston, and he used to stay up late to snag free tickets on the college radio station to basement shows with like. the cars and fuckin. john gorka and shit. and how he used to hang out at coffee shops and bars and listen to tracy chapman play right before she made it big.

thinking about steve and eddie visiting nancy at emerson and catching a coffee shop open mic. thinking about how fast car would probably hit them both like a truck, for similar and also different reasons.

just thinking.

#my dad’s music tastes are. let’s call them eclectic #lots of folk lots of dad rock but also throw some punk and early grunge in there #and some broadway soundtracks for good measure #i grew up on tracy chapman and the indigo girls and steely dan and the pixies and the talking heads #and something about him being the same age as steve and eddie makes all my steddie musings feel v personal #like whatever dumb 80s teen shit i imagine my blorbos doing is also stuff my actual father was literally doing #i should ask him questions for fic research lmao #anyway. steddie. fast car. it would be a thing #failed love abandoned dreams never getting out of your small town ending up like your parents #you can’t tell me that wouldn’t fuck them both up to high heaven #i’m right you know i’m right

[finntheehumaneater]

Little snippet of the script from an idea I had while listening to “Two-Headed Mother” :)

Bill is so fucking done with that boy.

#Ethel is like bill’s daughter even though he’s barely known her and he does not want to watch him look at her like he wants to fuck her #In the middle of the woods near the lake out by an abandoned trailer park #They’re staying at one of the old trailers since Ethan is at the house and he’s fucking batshit crazy and murderous and mutilated #And Ethel can’t bring herself to shoot him because Ethan is her brother #Also why did she have to take off her shirt to bandage her wrist? #Reasons and also fucking tight old fashioned puff sleeves that can’t roll up properly and keep sliding down #Trust me I would know I have experienced this #By His Hand #Finn Writes #My post #⭐️

[mangora]

Jake and Ashley allying with Fiore because Jake’s insecure and wants revenge for perceived wrongs no matter the long-term cost and because Ashley wants to hold on to someone she barely knows because they’re the closest person she has to a friend even though she knows Fiore is bad news. God

#Jake and Ashley abandoning their morals arc when #I need them to get worse. and sad #also Alec and Fiore still caring about each other but not being able to admit it. sobbing. father daughter duo come back to me #also Gabby’s monologue to Ellie. and Tom tackling Jake. and Yul and Grett genuinely seeming to like each other #aughhhh. Episode(tm) #disventure camp spoilers #Hunter was also so fucking annoying this episode can’t wait for him and Ally to ramp up #(annoying /endearing. huntally divorce now tho)

[midnight-moth]

Stupid majestic jerk

singemfrc on YouTube

#Hoarding more Miasma videos as one does at 3 am on Sunday #like why does he touch his chest like that #why does he move his arms that way #I can’t stand him #just put him away #also I finally emailed back one of the therapists #now I need to sleep for 5-10 business days #which means the phantom/dew wip is temporarily abandoned #hopes and prayers or whatever that I’ll finish it

[valoale]

I wanna change my profile pic but I’m too emotionally attached to my Ron to do so

#I’ve got real issues you see #I can’t abandon him he’s too confused to survive alone out there so he must stay #also bc he’s my spirit animal #vee talks