#but i care and its my blog so im sharing lol

[allylikethecat]

Just a little PSA- I didn’t have time to edit tomorrow’s All the King’s Horses chapter tonight and I have fifty thousand things do to tomorrow, I’m going to try really hard to get it edited and posted tomorrow, but if not I will have it up on Saturday! I’m so sorry!!

#allylikethecat #ally’s thoughts #ally’s creative process #or lack there of #ally status update #that no one asked for or cares about #but i care and its my blog so im sharing lol #all the king’s horses #equestrian au #not gonna lie i kinda forgot that i didnt edit it/finalize it #and i went to save the draft and was like oh… oh no #and i dont have time to like sit and fix it all tonight #and tomorrow i am SWAMPED #i’m going to try and get it done #but i’m really sorry it will probably be up on Saturday instead #i know like there is only like what five of us that care about this one lol #but equestrian fictional!matty and fictional!george are my current favorites #and i feel bad i didnt get them finished properly this week

[good-beans]

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#<- she is so eepy and so full of emotions #good ones #like ive been a mess but that makes me sappy adfghh #really feeling the Neurodivergence TM and burnout lately -- ive struggled with so many conversations and tasks and workload #but i am emotional about the people who live in my phone!!! #you guys are so cool and so kind #i love getting little peeks at successes and struggles -- im rooting for you!! #i love seeing so much talent and collaboration and care poured into shared interests #were cheering one another on in our creative endeavors and real life ones #im so grateful for the kind words people have been leaving on my writing ;---; #and i get so excited about all the art and writing you share #i love the sharing of songs and recipies and tips and all kinds of recommendations #its just been so lovely and im so grateful #oh and we pass around little letters saying how much we love each other!!!!! #i got a sweet chain ask (that ill post tomorrow so i remember lol) but that's just such a fun thing! #im getting together my secret santa blog stuff and just remembering how well that went #and just thinking in general of how cool and talented and kind and strong everyone is #anyway im sappy and ily all and hope everyone is chillin rn!!! #goodnight!! 🌙✨️ #rose rambles

[guinevereslancelot]

4071?! How do you do it?! 👀 I follow 562 blogs and I'm REALLY hesitant to follow more!

idk i just follow blogs that post content i like and i've been here for like ten years 😂 i actually hit follow limit a while back and had to go unfollow a bunch of inactive blogs. i do unfollow people from time to time i swear but i follow so many people it doesn't make a noticeable difference in the amount of content on my dash lol

#very often i come across a blod that posts nothing interesting to me and figure i followed them a fecade ago when we shared and interest #and i usually unfollow unless i actually know them #but there's so many blogs i follow lol #i would unfollow the inactive ones its just a pain to scroll thru the list and find them #probably a lot of them are inactive tho #lizzie answers #daughter-rhaenyra #usually i still follow people if we share no interests unless their interests start to annoy me lol #i also unfollow people who post too much discourse bc im too old for that and want to keep my dash peaceful and nice #so many people i follow post almost exclusively abt stuff i do not care abt or like and i just blacklisy the tag but i dont unfollow #bc i am fond of everyone on here lol

[marcmorrigan]

i want to keep drawing... but my tablet pen is dead and i havent slept yet... so i SHOULD take a break and get in bed probably... but i WANT to keep working on that ryou and marik piece... waaaAAAAAAHHH. is how i feel about the situation

#marcnotes #im having SO MUCH FUN drawing fanart again hsdfghjkl... zero pressure and self indulgent and fun to experiment with #and like just BEING really self indulgent with it and taking my time but making an effort to finish things #is so nice... i lov making art and i love SHARING the art i make #oh i was gonna post this on main but maybe it can go on my art blog lol. since its about art #even though its a little silly!!! im allowed to be silly on here hsdfghjkl. who cares #it is kind of funny to say 'drawing fanart again' on here when the gap in me drawing fanart #is not smthng rlly reflected on this blog... i dont post most of my original work! which is a shame bc its really good #its not because i dont want to its just bc i never finish any of it... hence the effort lately to Finish and Post Things #with 'finish' being a relative term! #also to all the death note fans who followed me recently: dw i have more mellodramattic in progress. The Boys Will Continue To Appear Here #im actually jumping between that ryou/marik piece and a big matt/mello piece (which i have posted a wip of here already) #the matt/mello one is closer to done! but im doing a whole bg for it so... its an undertaking lololol. like i said! experimenting!!! #its very good tho im excited to show yall. i went crazy on the faces they look sooo good

[irradiatedpiratebooty]

i think what really bums me out about tumblr hitting the shitter, is that no other site offers the same kind of engagement. said that in another post, but lemme explain a little further. yes, theres other fandom sites. yes, technically speaking other sites have the same features tumblr does. but the way they encourage the use of these features are not for actual engagement. its for gathering a follower count, gathering silent likes. getting an audience so you can make a profit. but what if you dont care about follower count? dont care about being your own business? dont care about trending or how many likes you got? what i loved about the engagement from tumblr was that, it was encouraged to respond in *some way*. whether it be just a quiet tag of a keysmash, or just a "lol" or maybe even a full paragraph to add onto a post you liked and wanted to share. i posted my art, not to gather a huge audience and a follower count, but to make people laugh, or smile, or just relate a bit. i also posted art to express my own interests, especially since fallout and pirates are a hyperfixation of mine. (not using that as a buzzword, im autistic and struggle engaging with people outside of these interests.)

silent likes, silent retweets, a hot take here and there, hell even comment sections arent the same because theyre really only used now if something is controversial for an argument, dont give the same kind of engagement or feeling of community.

i want a space where i can be "weird".people talk to me about my interests with the same kind of excitement i have, where we info dump without fear of being yelled at because "i thought that was obvious?" and "lol everyone knows that shut up." but now, everything has become sterile. even if you are openly neurodivergent, you have to be the kind where youre ACCEPTABLE, and more importantly, profitable. you cant be weird about anything, because then youre mocked and ridiculed by the same people who say "youve got to be more autistic about things". everything is public on other sites, your likes are public, your blocklist is public, your bio has to include personal details otherwise people dont want to engage with you. you have to keep up with everything and make sure youre "acceptable" to be around. TLDR: i miss the days when i went to the internet to escape, where i could drop the mask and be myself. without feeling like im being watched, or judged for just enjoying something. I miss the days where you had your own quirky blog and found people who enjoyed the same niche series you liked, and they had the same enthusiasm as you did even for the details everyone already knows.

#personal posting #social media is going to shit #i mean it was never good #but it was better than it is now #not by much but at least i express myself without feeling annoying

[devotion-disorder]

Hi!! I don't know if anyone has asked this before, but-- How did you go about posting your yan OCs for the first time? I absolutely LOVE yours and would love to share mine like how you post about yours, but It's soooo nerve wracking to start it... Lol, sorry if this is weird! ^^;;;;; Do you have any advice or anything?

Hihi!!!! I understand it is kind of nervewracking like oohhhh these are my silly Original Blorbos if any of you guys care. but the world could always use more yanderes!!!!!! so we do in fact care !!!!!!!!!!1

I will say that a while ago my blog was mainly DoL-centric with the exception of the occasional yan post reblog- but i honestly wish I branched out into that more early on, for some reason i was really fixated on keeping my blog centered around one thing only. At some point I just realised that. it's my blog. i should just do whatever I want lmao. and I think that's a good mindset to have tbh - its your house your rules babey

I don't know if there's anything in particular with how I did it that's remarkable in any sense, but I suppose I just tried to make sure i was presenting my oc's in a way that leaves a strong impression and is easy to digest: so a list of facts about them, some are just basic info, some are lore-motivated and some are just things i think would be funny LOL. and yanderes at their best are when they are being their most creepy irredeemable selves so I drew something extra for that too (in fact it was kind of a last-minute addition lol). but anywho i was just hoping to establish a strong impression of their characters ig.

but yes! the only real advice I stand behind is to do whatever you wanna do and have fun with it. that is easier said than done, but I think that my enjoyment of drawing and posting has really took off ever since i just stopped caring what others might think. Good luck to you and your oc's, im sure many people will be very excited about more yanderes in this world!!!!!!!!!

#ask #anon #i really get that feeling like #like it may be seen as '''cringe''' to be into this sort of content #but honestly im having so much fun and fulfillment from it so like whos really winning at the end of the day #but then again I also feel like ive been into yan content for so long im just kind of desensitized to it all lol

[thesleepysystem]

system introduction !

hi, we are the sleepy system ! we are a traumagenic did system and are recently discovered

ive (travis) been questioning on and off for about three years, i think ? im making this acc to interact w/ other systems and document my experiences, as well as get better at communicating w/ my alters.

travis / samuel - https://www.tumblr.com/thesleepysystem/742866365813276672/host-introduction?source=share

sarah - no intro, caretaker, 23, she/her

jack - no intro, persecutor, he/him

red - no intro, avenger

loki - no intro, fictive, all pronouns

choso - no intro, fictive, he/she

rot - no intro, unknown role, he/him

info abt us !!

we have autism, adhd, multiple mental illnesses, and are physically disabled.

we're artists !! we'll start posting art eventually lol

im (travis) not very good at talking so please dont dm / pm us unless its important ;_;

we support para's but are anti-contact for harmful para's and encourage ppl w/ harmful para's to seek therapy, we dont want MAPs to interact with us due to trauma, we also do not care abt radqueers and are completely neutral on them, we follow both radqueers and anti's and also allow both groups to follow us. DO NOT INVOLVE US WITH PARA OR RADQUEER DISCOUSRE THAT INVOLVES MAPS, GROOMING, SA / CSA / COCSA, ED, SH, OR ABUSE, IF WE WANT TO INTERACT WITH THAT DISCOUSRE WE WILL DO SO ON OUR OWN TERMS.

we post abt syscourse and queer discourse, if that makes you uncmfortable then i dont recommend following

our blog is VERY reblog heavy !!

i'll add more if i think of anything :)

DNI: right wingers, bigots, anti-endos / sysmeds, transmeds, anti-shippers, anyone who interacts w/ cringe culture, ppl who think transandrophobia does not exist / is transmisogynistic, MAPs, i'll add more if i think of anything.

#actually did #did #did alter #did osdd #did system #did host #actually plural #dissociative identity disorder #plural #plural system #plurality #plural community #sysblr #system intro #alter intro #system #dissociative system #traumagenic system

[erwinsvow]

I know this isn’t the usual speed around here but slightly pathetic whimpery s1 Rafe is to die for!! He’s obviously cocky and entitled but it’s in a more spoiled and almost bratty way so he throws his little temper tantrums when he doesn’t get his way… I think s1 has seriously overlooked toxic Rafe potential

- 💓

wait i know im allllll about season 2 rafe like hes loml seriously but i just started rewatching season 1 and i dont like his hair lol but hes so toxic and gross. i know everyone on here has been talking more about him and like fratboy rafe and i usually refrain but something about being his gf through all of season 1..... im hornee.

in particular im thinking of like how he acts so douchey with everyone in public but its so visible he has a huge soft spot for you.. waves you over when he's just hanging out with his friends to check in that you're doing okay, goes and gets you a fresh drink before giving you a kiss and sending you off back to ur friends.. makes some gross comment about how you were screaming for him in the back of his truck last night after you walk away... kelce is like bro. i always sit in the back.

you'd be lurking in his bedroom when he goes down to 'have a chat' with his dad, like when he gets yelled at about the generators. comes back all angry and literally folds you in half and fucks you until you cry because you are his favorite way to calm down <3 ... (i have no idea what the vibes on this blog are and i dont wanna make people mad but he gets so manipulative... esp if you're just like i don't feeling like fucking again right now or esp in public!!!! which he looooves.... starts going on a tangent about how he provides for you and takes care of you and he's the man of the house and if he needs to relax you should be on your knees already.... sorry omg if ur reading this n youre starting to hate me i apologize in advance. i never talk about scummy scummy rafe but hes real and hes so hot. fully wants you to be like a hyperactive horny bunny just waiting for his dick at all times.... i would 110% start doing it too... ANYWAYS)

he's so spoiled so he likes spoiling you with anything you want... most of the stuff he gets you is pretty much for him tho... gets hard because you wear an RC necklace.. lots of pretty lingerie and babydolls that he likes to rip up...handcuffs because duh.. it's almost always you in the handcuffs but every once in a while he can be convinced to get in them lol

but the temper tantrums are soooo real like especially if you're out with friends or made plans with your parents. like he seriously loves making you abandon your plans to come see him. but then youll show up and hes at a party and selling or ignoring you and ofc you cry because it's like he made you come here and not even giving you any attention... then he'll drag you out by your hair and fuck you SOOO mean in the back of his truck talkin about "just needed this dick, yeah? s'okay, dad's gonna give it to ya hard. then you'll be good as gold won'tya?" ugh. hes so mean.

im still in my rewatch but the scene where him and topper beat up pope:( this especially hits sooo hard w my pogue reader but i can just imagine that being the cause of your first real fight, like you're so upset he can be that cruel but there goes his manipulation tactics.. telling you he needs to be a proactive man to protect you and his friends and his turf. he's not letting anyone walk all over him, regardless if you like them or not. fucks you until you forget all about your pogue friends, and then you end up bandaging his bloody hand for him.

ooohh and when they go to that movie showing.. can just imagine curling up on a lawnchair with him under a blanket, him n the boys are on high alert for jj and pope but he keeps a tight arm around you, goes and gets you a soda and popcorn which you two share.. you don't want him to leave and you whine when he does.. can just imagine the scene where jj and pope turn back to look at him when kie tells them rafe is right behind them. rafe is staring so hard at them while ur tryna feed him a piece of popcorn. LOL

#waiiiit i love you babe you just made me actually want to write for s1 rafe. bye HAH #do you prefer like these long winded explanations or a real full on drabble in reply? #love u ! #📮 asks #💓 anon

[t0bey]

hi i just wanna say i appreciate you for a few reasons!!!! first, its such a relief to see an artist with "proshippers dni" in their bio. i feel like a lot of people dont really care about that. i keep having to unfollow people for posting stuff with proship undertones lately.

ALSO, ive been following you for almost four years, and even tho we dont share a fandom anymore (i followed you for danganronpa content, lol) your blog has always been sort of safe for me. i love your chihiro art, and also your kazuichi art - some of my favorite drawings of them were done by you!

anyway all this to say i think youre cool!!!!! :DDD

GAH this is so sweet, tysm for sticking around so long!!!! im happy u got to like my chihiros in the time i was still into dangan 🫂

#ask #anon #full confession chihiro was like. the character i enjoyed drawing the most shes so easy

[allylikethecat]

An Ally Update No One Asked For: I do have a Tuesday update for y'all tomorrow but it's probably going to be an afternoon / evening update. I have decided to rewrite the ending and probably won't have it fully finished the way I want it to be until later because I have given up on it tonight and am going to bed 😊

#allylikethecat #ally's status updates #that no one asked for #and probably no one cares about #but as always *I* care #so i'm sharing #because this is my blog and i can do what i want lol #also apologies its not the christmas fic #that one is still slowly chugging along #i think my issue is im not ready to be done with infection verse fictional!Matty and fictional!George #so i am subconsciously prolonging the time i get to spend with them lol #also i kinda burnt myself out trying to force it all out before the holidays #so im trying to just ~enjoy the process~ now #but yeah anyway no one panic!! i do have an update for yall #its just gonna be an afternoon one not a morning one

[iliveforyouilongforyouvesuvia]

OMG i get to talk about khamgalai ive been dying to talk about khamgalai im so fucking mad at khamgalai

i have said stuff about it on this post (sorry im only putting it here cause i started looking for it on my blog and couldnt find it until i went through a post sorter site and i got so upset about it fhdglh so ill have it here just in case i guess) https://www.tumblr.com/tetsuooooooooooo/710065228547866624/anyway-anyone-wanna-hear-about-my-muriel-tired-of?source=share

aaaand liike i started replaying the route recently partially cause i wanted to find anything that would prove me wrong in this matter and i am only halfway through but its Not going GREAT

because it wouldve all been perfectly fine if they didnt choose to establish that she apparently knew the whole time where muriel was and what he was doing. i dont know how much she saw but like. she saw it.

cause this bitch really saw muriel. child muriel. baby. possibly last of her kin. fucking living out on the streets homeless starving getting kicked around god knows what happening to him

and went aw lemme get a snapshot for the family album and just LEFT HIM THERE

AND IM LIKE BITCH I THOUGHT YOU LIKE CARED ABOUT HIM OR SOMETHING I MEAN SHE FOOLED ME WITH ALL THAT CRYING AND THE THINGS SHE SAID WHEN WE MET HER THE FIRST TIME BUT GODDAMN I GUESS SHES JUST AS MUCH OF A "PAIN BUILDS CHARACTER" BOOMER AS MORGA

cause okay even if it was like future visions n shit like thats their magic thing theN LIKE YOU STILL KNOW MORE THAN YOU DID BEFORE YOU KNOW THERES A CITY IN THE NORTH NOW YOU KNOW WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE AND WHERE HE CAN BE AND ITS A COUPLE WEEKS AWAY BUT YOURE A FUCKING NOMAD AND NOT THAT OLD YET

like WHAT is the reason she absolutely would not even attempt to come get him other than The Story Needs To Happen this is spiderverse all over again except now im on miles side i hate this hichjgs and like yeah ok the story needs to happen he needs to be the way he is and destiny and whatever but like when were in a story where we know theres a whole 5 other ways to go about solving this problem and its all choice oriented and stuff it kinda just. ya know. it doesnt glass my onions very much vnxviydy i dont know how to put it but u get it

and like

YOU THOUGHT WHAT?? WHAT THE SIGNAL CUT AFTER HE GOT OUT OF THE FUCKING CAGE HE WAS LIVING IN AND YOU COULDNT SEE HIM ANYMORE AND YOU THOUGHT WHAT THAT HE DIED??? girl dont FUCK with me you aint give a shit if he lived or died ok that was harsh im getting really heated this is so messy lol

its probably gonna turn out in a minute that she said something in the ghost realm that makes it make sense but i dont remember that all i recall is us hangin out and her calling me out for being a furry and them being all "u saw me over there and u still like me?" " aw of course i like u come give ghost grandma a hug" thats how i remember that going down fhxhyietfh so yeah ill find out soon enough

Ooh, I think I remember wondering about that when I last played Muriel's route! I'll leave it to other Muriel fans to share their thoughts on it too, since my memory is a bit fuzzy at the moment XD

@tetsuooooooooooo that makes total sense to be upset about though, especially when you're seeing all of this from Muriel's side! T~T I'll be curious to hear what you think as you keep playing the route! ^.^

#ask arcana brainrot #the arcana #muriel the arcana #muriel of the kokhuri #the arcana headcanons #the arcana hc #the arcana game

[matuto1ypea]

some recent stuff i've done, me n ben been developing a lot of stuff and new characters, so some of these (like. lady on 5 and the guy on 6 lol) arent mine.

im fighting for my life artistically but at least there are guys in my brain.

idk should i post pinterest boards or some other stuff i make for them? i kinda dont rly need a blog for archiving its all for sharing w others but idk how much anyone cares lol

#mirakae #idk do i even tag them ughg

[ottiliere]

hello! ur posts on the vagus nerve and its connections to digestions have encouraged me to do a lil mini dissertation thingy kinda focused on it/around it, ur big thread on PVT and everything really piqued my interest when i read it and i just held onto it for like a year or smthing until like last week when i started the project. Ik u said recently in one of ur posts i believe that ur not going to post the big dirk PVT post and im not here to be like yo post it because i also think u said that ur kinda moving away from like hs/dirky stuff rn ?? (im forgetting if i saw that sorry) but yeah i just wanted to say thank u etc etc, like ive never done an ask before so sorry if this is phrased weirdly but ur blog is just like one of those blogs that fundamentally changed how i view certain things in life for the better lol, like whether its ur beautiful representations / depictions of mental health in like just beautifully painted art (seriously the way u make it look like idk how to word it cartoony/really 2d but then it stands out against the background + if u zoom in and see the tiny pixel details == it makes me mad) or just like the huggeee long form posts that i like to chew on and save cuz theres so many details that AFFAAT like the way you talk abt the topics u portray has made me concious of how i would want to do so in the same way ig u get me. anyway this got really long and idk if i come across coherently, but ur just a random person on the internet whos art and written thoughts that u decide to share makes me happy when i see it == makes me pace around my room and distract me from this fat essay lmao so tldr: i really appreciate what u do + i hope like that ur doing well and that u keep arting and thoughting no matter what it is that u choose to focus on

(uve made me comitted to reading jthm, playing psychonauts and giving jjba w/ dio another go lmao) 🫶🫶

Hello! I’m sorry this reply is coming so late, this ask in particular is very sweet and has stuck out to me.

I’m really happy to have introduced you to PVT, this is something I’ve heard from a few different people on here and it’s very sweet… I did my thesis on it in college and the time really flew by while working on it, things you don't think could possibly attributed to "nerve issues" being nerve issues is always an eye-opener, isn't it? being able to research things that interest you & access information in general really is a privilege in this day and age.

“The topics [I] portray” are very important to me, so it’s heartening when others take interest in spite of the obvious deterrents. A lot of what I love making art about is unpalatable to most, and while I do understand the reasons for that on principle, it can make things feel a little insular. I genuinely believe there’s a lot of value in depicting tableaus of misery.

The last year has brought a lot of very unforeseen changes, and my life is quite different from when I initially made this blog to post about him! That’s also part of why I’ve been so sparse here…though I’m working to change that quite soon. I love sharing my work, and I’ve had the privilege of meeting some truly wonderful people through this website. That said…with where I’m at now, I’m not sure I’ll be posting the Dirk essay anytime soon, I’m afraid.

I’ve undertaken a few ongoing projects, one of which in particular is an original project I plan on sharing publicly here hopefully within the next month or so. I hope it’s something you & anyone else who’s stuck around with me here will enjoy, but failing that, I’ve really enjoyed working on it thus far.

Thank you for the sweet ask, take care, and good luck with your project!

#ask #I'm not afraid to admit that my fondness for dio is entirely contingent on things I made up about him in my head over the years. #there's a draft here filled with thousands of words about him that I started writing up in response to some ask I got earlier this year #but I never finished it... :( and I also never posted the dozens and dozens of pictures I frenetically drew of him either. maybe someday #on another note: I did my yearly reread of johnny the other month. I'll do something big with him one day but this year is not the year #similarly sasha answers in the queue. I'm glad you enjoyed psychonauts it's one of the greatest games ever visually and re: gameplay. etc #lucy art

[thelov3lybookworm]

*death staring in anger* look at this!!

https://www.tumblr.com/highpriestessgwyn/745931855248982016/another-incredible-artist-gone-and-i-dont-blame?source=share

What has this Fandom turned into.

-🦋

this is so heartbreaking to see because not only could these books have been someone's safe place but also because, basic human decency??

im so tired of antis and ship wars 😭like, why cant we all just be in our lil corner and be happy interacting with our moots and besties? people who like or agree with similar things as us??

and its not even the shippers im sad about, its also the antis.

ive had a bad experience with ic and rhys antis and its not even their opinions that hurt me. i couldnt care less about the differences in our opinions, its the way they chose to go about having these opinions, like they were always so mean about it when people did not agree with everything they said

i was just having a talk about it yesterday with one of my moots, and we talked about how people like these are the reasons people leave.

whyyyyyy cant we just keep to ourselves and only interact with people with similar interests?? why do we have to go onto someones blog we know doesnt agree with our opinions to spread hate??

aight lol this turned into a rant but in short, lets just keep to ourselves and be happy about the books that we love please 😭

also if anyone wants to know my experience with these anti ic's that were mean to me NOT WITH THEIR OPINIONS but with their default mean girl mode who is out for murder all the time, text me in private so i can warn you about it and help you be safe around this place 🫶🏻

#acotar #asks <3 #🦋 anon <3 #🦋 #anons <3

[rubberhoze]

ive had thoughts abt this for a while now and i guess im finally voicing this but

for so many years before i had so many concepts and ideas and aus for like toon content (yknow me yknow this blog) but what i did ever end up posting was a very very small fraction of the ideas i did have. like i was very inspired in that time and i was always thinking of like neat concepts and ideas but because i was so afraid of backlash or people thinking im weird or """cringe""" or taking toon content too seriously i never ended up posting those ideas (and the stuff i did post was once again a very small fraction of all of it) and they ended up forgotten in the many many folders i have on my computer.

once in a while ill go through and look at my old art that ive saved over the years and ill think like.. damn!! this rules!! why didnt i ever share this!! and i guess in theory i Can still share those but because of both memory issues and also loss of interest i wouldnt really be able to tell you about all the neat little concepts i had in my head in that time, not the way i could have back then. and its just a shame yknow?

i really wish that back then i had the confidence to really express myself and my ideas through my art (i did do that back then and i also do now but i know i also had So much more back then that i never showed) and on that note i really wish that during that time on the internet people hadnt gotten so hostile to like.. genuinity and all that you know? sincerity? i feel like its gotten a little bit better since then (or maybe i just curate my stuff better lol) i do see many artists express themselves they really want to which is honestly different to the things i saw back in the mid-late 2010's. everyone was so full of irony back then (and theres still a lot of irony-poisoned people to this day BUT I DIGRESS) and im just so tired of that

id rather be genuine and sincere even if it means that ill be like cringe or embarassing or whatever. who cares!! sure peggle make phone calls who gives a shit anymore!! im tired of being afraid of the reception i will get if i post the content that i really truly feel something towards, even if its something like a silly au or whatever, if it makes me happy i should be able to post it to my own damn blog without being afraid of what responses i will get

overall i really regret not posting things that even if they were silly they Did make me happy back then or brought me comfort or anything. maybe other artists feel different about this but i really wish i had posted more of just whatever i wanted!! maybe if i did i probably would have been a little embarassed but i feel i wouldve been happier still than not sharing anything at all

so if you see this post and maybe youre afraid of the same things i did back then, take this as a sign to let loose and do whatever the hell you want. as long as youre not harming anyone and you just want to have fun then you can use your blog however you like. and if anyone harasses you or bothers you or questions you about it ill bite their head off ok? im cheering you on forever 👍

#sorry for the long post i suddenly started thinking abt this again #my interests have shifted the past few years (hence the inactivity) #but i do hope when i come back to it i can post my old content :)! #txt #i hope this is coherent also. its 8 am and i only had 4 hours of sleep LOL

[divorcedwife]

hi! i love your art SO MUCH and i check your blog like the morning newspaper to see if you’ve uploaded anything new (you always have and I LOVE IT!!! thank u for keeping us fed) anyway i was just wondering if you had any advice for actively creating so much? i used to draw all of the time but i find it so hard lately to make even one tiny thing, especially something that i like…..but when i look at your work and how much you create i am always so inspired! i hope this makes sense eeeek anyway have an amazing day and thank you for sharing your incredible work with us!!!!

thank youuuu thank you so much!!! ;___;

i totally get that, and it used to be my number one problem, creating at all. i remember being in art school surrounded by people who were always drawing, and me, i just couldn't, and i couldn't explain what made drawing so difficult for me

and i think what blocked me is that i was paralyzed by indecision - too afraid to waste my time making "bad art" to do anything, or the wrong type of art, art that' won't look good in my portfolio, art that's too silly and specific to me. so in the end i made nothing

what's really been helping me lately is that i have dramatically lowered my standards for myself. i sketch every idea i have, even if it's just putting down three lines, even if it's self-indulgent and silly. anything that excites me and makes me want to draw, i follow that excitement as far as it will take me. maybe that's a fully completely illustration, maybe just a sketch, or maybe somewhere in between

if the goal is to have fun and not making a masterpiece, i feel less pressure and i end up drawing more. and drawing more leads to drawing better! if you make 10 sketches and really pressure yourself to make them great, that's torture. if you draw 1000 sketches, some of them will turn out amazing

when i have ideas i sketch, and when im low on ideas, i have all these already made sketches to revisit, and as i draw i find new ideas! this avoids me having to face a blank canvas and desperately scratch around my brain for ideas. creativity does not like being scrutinized like a bug, it vanishes under pressure in my experience

i find that creativity can be a negative or a virtuous circle. not drawing leads to less ideas and more pressure to deliver something good which will keep someone not drawing. but if you find something that gets you excited enough to draw again and keep going, then you will get more ideas along the way. follow them! draw the same character 1000 times in a row. i tend to focus on mostly one of my characters at a time - i draw her, i think about her, so i want to draw her more, and so on. that's fine

if there's any part of drawing that you like more than others, maybe try leaning on that more, and remember you don't need to do anything you don't want to do. if doing lineart sucks, don't do that. if coloring makes you want to stop drawing, use black and white

but also, where i've also been very lucky is having people like you around! :-) having people respond and connect to my art with such enthusiasm and such kindness, it's incredible

genuinely i owe more to people online who like my art than anyone does to me for making it. i would probably still make art if i had no one to show it too (which is what i did in middle school lol), but it's very lonely. it's harder to create something if it feels like no one will care. and i've been there, i spent years on deviantart having zero followers and attention. so i think every artist needs supportive friends they can show their art to for encouragement

some people feel shame that they don't do art just for its sake, that they want followers and likes and all, so i just want to say it's normal to want that :-) like i do make my art for an audience, if it was just for myself, i'd look at it in my head

i hope any of that helps!! in conclusion, i think any kind of art is worth making. and it should be fun. i also hope this makes any sense - i have to go to work soon but i wanted to reply before that. and thank you again for your kind words!!!!! <33333333

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