#but it actually took my knees out

[lemongogo]

i dont think im gna finish this but vol.13 elendira means everything 2 me 🤭

#elendira #elendira the crimsonnail #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun spoilers #my art #u can tell i struggled so hard w her outfit (did not use a good ref LMAOO) #also idk i hate backgrounds like the thought of actually rendering one out made me want 2 die #so i hope this shows enough of what i was going for HEHHAAHAH #ughhhUGHHHHHGFHHG love her i love her #actuakky idk how much i like this .. hrmm.. this and one of my wws i might axe them both t b and h #but i omly have like 0.2 trigun drawings in my tag so maybe i should just suck it up and keep them😭 #fr now.. BUT YEAAA WHEN SHE TOOK OFF HER COAT MY JAW DROPPEDDD #BE MINEEEE (begginh on my hands and knees s)

[mishapen-dear]

skeppy who?

#mishapen draws #bbh #badboyhalo #qsmp #badboyhalo fanart #basically a study of narcissus by caravaggio but bastardized (badstardized) #sketched it freehand and then laid the sketch over the painting to fix it up #had to fix the positioning of the right arm + knees but overall not a bad bad #this is from that 5 minute bit he had with foolish near the end of stream on the 11th(?) of july where he drank a love potion #and fell in love with himself #took 5-ish hours #so maybe i'll redraw it one day and see if i can get it done faster #part of it was designing him on the fly #and figuring out the physics of fucking. clothes #which turned out to be really fun actually i think im starting to like them #if i were to do it again i think i would make his face even darker and use the helmet/his eye shine to denote where his features are #but it's also dark enough rn that it's hard to see on my phone so maybe not lmao #this has been: your artly scheduled mishapendear ramble #goodbye

[reel-fear]

Hey if anyone wants to check out Moving Pictures Redrawn [a fan-made remake of the first chapter of BATIM that Mike n Meatly may have ordered to be taken down? It's unsure at the moment] Guess who downloaded a copy before they did that~

#batim #batdr #bendy and the ink machine #bendy and the dark revival #honestly if they did order the take down um lmao tbh #I guess Id do the same it must be embarrassing for a fan to make a better game than you did literally improved your damn #flagship title bc it fucking sucks #but yeah in the name of preserving this piece of art this person mustve spent forever making hmu if u wanna download it <3<3 #its genuinely so cool I hope it turns out someone was posing as the bendy devs bc like this is so awesome #to have it taken down just feels so shitty #idc if its just a better batim if I could fucking sue Meatly n Mike for selling me a piece of shit of a game #thats not fun to play buggy as hell and has some of the worst storytelling ive ever seen #then took this down bc actually we cant let ppl play chapter 1 for free anymore ugh its just salt in the wound of how shitty they r #this remake is so cool I cant believe I got it to run on my computer #the way they redesigned the general areas is so damn cool too this is genuinely such an improvement and meatly n mike should be fucking #begging on their knees for the fans to forgive them if they did take this down fuck them so so much #mike literally has flaunted his fucking wealth in the past do we really think he needs the extra 20 bucks from some poor soul #buying his elaborate scam of a game that has a broken save system really? Does he need that money? No the fuck he doesnt #ramblez

[chiropteracupola]

it's ALISON!

#em makes stuff #the flight of the heron #alison grant #ewen cameron #adventures of tiny keith and ewen #and alison too!!! #I actually made her in december and january but it took me until now to actually get around to taking nice photos #you may remember that the last time I drew her I put a very specific pattern on her dress and This is why! #my knee currently feels like it's being chewed on by animals but that could not stop me from taking them out to the gazebo last night #over the weekend I saw some people taking prom photos or whatever there and when I was thinking of locations I thought it would be Funny #also because I left it until quite late and I needed somewhere where a building wasn't casting a shadow :/ #anyway HEY it's MAY and that means HERON TIME HOPEFULLY #want to work on fic but my brain has been and continues to be Soup. #per hap I will post some other photos of alison now that I have done these ones... #have one phrase for you and it is Functional Stays With Boning In Them

[mumblesplash]

absolutely had it with 'skeletal structure'. "oh your joints are stuck like that now they're fused there's nothing to be done your ankle dorsiflexion is stuck under 10 degrees forever" "you can't change the angle of your knee joint" yeah well that's what you think. i can and will make my legs whatever shape i want. bones are a choice

#mumbling #going to be able to do an unassisted deep squat in the next 2 years or die trying idc #i already did the knee thing just by moving differently and it only took like a year #the human skeleton isn't immutable and too many people have called my ankle a hopeless case for me NOT to fix it out of spite #topsys can be a little unhinged about exercise and nutrition science as a treat #actually my various investigations into the fitness/'wellness' industry have never failed to make me feel like i'm losing it #and the more i try to make sense of it the more that feels like it's by design #mostly the nutrition/weight loss aspects of it #everything is lies wrapped around nothing wrapped around bullshit it's actually unreal #at least the skincare industry seems to finally be imploding a bit

[elizabethrobertajones]

I'm actually kind of mad after wearing a knee brace (with patella support!) for 2 days because I just went down for breakfast not wearing it and my kneecap was wobbling loosely in its socket like it's done for years and I could FEEL how wrong it was and just had the biggest "you LIVE like this??!" moment and now i GUESS I am wearing a knee brace every time I go near stairs forever because it turns out it's not ideal if parts of your body have their own plans for every joint movement.

Mobility aids <3

#mad at myself for not even noticing it was weird even though I've known I have the stretchy joints for years now #honestly I need a full like. Scientific observation from behind glass hooked up to machines and doing silly little tasks for science week #please find out what is happening in here #I also got 1 ankle support and out of curiosity slept in it last night #and omg one foot resting upright made me realise how much the other was flat on the bed #when I lay on my back #the same thing that got me diagnosed in the first place #the rheumatologist who'd just told me I don't have cancer because of the bloodwork had me lie down to examine #he took one look at my flat fuck friday feet and like actually yelled in alarm and recoiled #which took some explaining #anyway he poked and prodded me but he already had said 'oh you have hypermobility and it's given you fibro' #this is why specialists also have to keep up with all the other medicines too :P #(i spent a weekend with my medic friend recently and she has Stories oh my god) #(was too busy talking to look at my feet even as I told her I'd dislocated my ankle and knee as we talked XD) #POINT IS I'm very slow to notice things about my condition #I quit chocolate for a year because I worried it was giving me migraines #and was too busy having migraines to notice the chocolate wasn't what gave me migraines

[runefactorynonsense]

Cozytober - Day 26 - Catnap

#Cozytober #Margot's RF Art #rune factory #rf1 #rf #This sketch was actually done back on June 6th of this year. I was knee deep in my Seattle vacation planning/stress and never finished it-- #I think I'd just found Home Run Derby tickets finally?? Or not long after that. And I was still scared to death I was making a mistake. #Silly past Margot! It was the best day of your life! #So I remember I did this sketch as just general human pose practice after someone else did the 'tree nap' pose of their OCs. #And so I grabbed it for today's prompt because!! I still liked how the anatomy turned out! #Context my brain goes with; #if I subscribe to the 'Raguna on the run from the Empire' theory then I strongly lean toward the Lynette pairing. #Safe life in Kardia- doesn't feel like the right context most of the time. Not bad. Just. Not as interesting a story. #On the run- This feels like just... a smart choice. Group up once those Empire targeting efforts escalate. #Perhaps he has to deal with the painful compromise and necessity of her lethality because he might be more likely to survive #And he WANTS to survive #AKA- if you can escape. Escape. He's good at it. But if the situation comes down to it.... Lynette can make sure who walks out. #And to reverse the pov- maybe a bit of atonement on her part? All the blood is only on her hands. She'll keep it that way. Let her do that. #He shouldn't have to. It's all her fault anyway. #Also please laugh at me as it took me half an hour to remember the word COMPROMISE. I was so mad. #Rune Factory Raguna #RF Raguna #Rune Factory Lynette #RF Lynette #another ship tag to fill #Raguna x Lynette

[thefirstknife]

Peeked at twitter again unfortunately, and apparently people are mad that this week's seasonal story update was shorter? Literally it's a season that launches with the expansion. Every single one of those was smaller and lighter on the content.

Personally, I am enjoying that this season's storyline isn't too demanding. Clearly I love when we get a lot of lore, and we still get the usual initial dialogues, a lot of new weekly mission dialogues, ending dialogues and radio message + 2 lore pages. I have so much shit to do with Lightfall AND the exotic mission launched today which added so much new stuff to do so I was super glad that I was done with the weekly story in like 20 minutes.

Obviously the story was shorter due to the exotic mission launching alongside it. This seasonal story is also shorter in general, with only 6 weeks (6 lore pages to earn) which I am honestly relieved about because there's so much Lightfall content that I'm barely catching up with and there's the pinnacle grind that's kicking my ass because I don't want to die in every activity because an enemy looked at me. I get so overwhelmed with content when an expansion launches and there's also seasonal content. Sometimes I wish we got no season with the expansion.

So many people want things to slow down a little because we simply do not have time to grind 24/7, but then there's strange people who want a weekly update to require 6 hours of investement I guess. And of course everything in those 6 hours has to be brand new content, never before seen. If I see a single blade of grass that has been used as texture before, then Bungie is lazy. Obviously. /s

The only legitimate problem with this setup is for people who didn't get the expansion and only have the season. Their season is then not the exact same quantity as others. But it's never those people that make these complaints.

#destiny 2 #destiny 2 spoilers #season of defiance #season of defiance spoilers #i'm just. there was an entire secret exotic mission??? that has multiple parts and extra bits to do?? #and it will continue for a few weeks as well?? #i got my weekly update done and was relieved i can go back to grinding stuff i still need to do #then the exotic mission was found. by the time i finished it already took several hours of my time #people are begging on their knees for less grind but then some players are just like. 'no. release more content every week.' #actually no. release less content. #and the best part is. they didn't even skip out on any lore. we still got everything we usually get in an update #and we're getting two lore books this season #i guess it wasn't anything groundbreaking so clearly it's bad #'we just got some conversations between characters!' yes. #i think a lot of people constantly complaining about this have never like. watched a tv show without binging it #GENUINELY feels that way #idk do people expect something bombastic must happen every week? when was that ever a thing? #'if the plot doesn't move forward spectacularly then it's a bad story.' it's time to calm down #it's just more FOMO. I'm glad this was short and easy on my brain #also it'll be less of a pain to replay it with other characters

[currentlyonstandbi]

defeated laxasia 😭

#i am a little proud to say it only took 4? attempts . i got close on the first one and then fumbled it lmao #during phase 2 when she was hitting with the hard and fast attacks i actually kept perfect guarding out of sheer knee jerk terror #and for a second was like man this isnt so bad . ahha. ha. hubris #puppet string attack my beloved it really saved me there at the end #2 more major boss fights . nameless puppet scares me BUT i have made it through every fight so far . i refuse to give up #lies of p

[hussyknee]

hi! would you happen to know any communities (tumblr, discored, something along those lines) for people with autoimmune disorders? not like a i hope we all get better toxic positivity thing because we arent going to get better and neither a place that kinda sends you into a spiral ig? i'm looking for a community where i would be able to share my struggles with people, listen to theirs, and ultimately just exchange tips on how to make life better for ourselves.

Hi. I just usually followed the #chronic illness, #ableism, #cripplepunk, #disability, #spoonie tags and also @thebibliosphere and @naamahdarling. @compassionatereminders is a general sort of positivity blog by a disabled person, I also follow @cbspoons

To be honest, nearly all my mutuals are disabled and mentally ill in some way so I've never felt the need to go out and actually find anybody? 🤔 I've stopped actively following the disability tags on here a while ago because I was so angry and depressed that seeing other disabled people in the same boat started to depress me more. And if I want info on something specific I just search the tag on here. Goldmine of info I swear.

If you want information however, you really can't beat Disability Twitter. It hasn't gone anywhere, Muskapocalypse notwithstanding, and it's been a huge convergence point for information sharing and advocacy for Long Covid in the West. Iman Barbarin would be your starting point, she's @crutchesandspice on Tumblr but more active on Twitter. The Fat Doctor is also an essential follow (except their tweets are protected so they have to approve your follow request) and so is Kivan Bay. Honestly there's a huuuge overlap between Trans Twitter, Fat Liberation and Disability Twitter because they all come under the disability justice umbrella. Downside as always is that it's all very US-UK-focused.

You can follow me too if you like (Inflammatory Bowel Disease, chronic fatigue, arthritis, bipolar, salad bar of mental illness), but fair warning, I am extremely suicidally depressed rn, even though I've been getting a lot of help finally. I put all my downspirals under a cut and tag the shit out of those posts, but this blog might not be the best for your own mental health just fyi. 😬

Followers feel free to add any blogs you can think of!

#Oh! Hugely ironic – Ive been told that Jordan Peterson's daughter??? Is a vocal twitter advocate??? On autoimmune disorders???? #Apparently she doesn't agree with her Dad's views but respects he has the right to be a dickhead blah blah #nothing stood out to me in her actual TL #but it's pretty hilarious just the same. #i hope this made sense i just took my sleepy pills #asks #knee of huss #disability #disability justice #cripple punk #autoimmune #pots #mcas #ehlers danlos syndrome #chronic fatigue #chronic illness #spoonie #mental health #mental illness #inflammatory bowel disease #crohnsandcolitis #lupuslife #medical ptsd #medical gaslighting #long covid #cfs #fibromyalgia #idk throwing everything but the kitchen sink in here so ppl will see #apologies if thats annoying

[polygondotcomvideoproducer]

see there’s kinda an issue with the doctors being named after the actor because hurt’s and martin’s doctors already have alternate names without a number plus then you have to use numbers anyway for tennant’s 3 doctors

I mean, I think the war and fugitive doctors having those unique names isn't necessarily an argument against just using the actor names, necessarily. I think it is v polite of them to fit into the catalogue of doctors without fucking up the numbering of the doctors.

Whereas if you consider stolen earth tennant doctor and journey's end doctor to be 2 separate doctors, well then you're just causing problems on purpose, aren't you,

#like to be clear I don't think that using the actors' names is the only efficient way to do it #it still has the problem of specifying which tennant you mean nowadays #but it cuts off that numbering pedantry at the knees #there are at most 2 actual david tennant doctors and if u disagree then u are nitpicking and I won't have that on my good christian blog #so I'd rather just specify that I mean the tennant that came after ecclestone or whittaker than indulge in their needless discourse #it's not the best system it is just the least annoying to me #for the record: I am a whittaker-13th and gatwa-14th believer and will not change my mind about the former #and I will not consider changing my mind about gatwa until we get those new episodes and we understand what the fuck is happening #but to me. whittaker regenerating into tennant doesn't affect the order any more than whittaker regenerating into dhawan did #they happened in the same damn episode and affect the numbering just as much to me #which is to say - by fuck all #I got this ask and started responding to it immediately btw. it just took me several minutes to compose my thoughts #like the ask got a complete rewrite at one point while I ironed out what I actually think on the matter lmao

[nexus-nebulae]

brrrrr (/pos)

#weight talk #<- just in case even though this is pos #but like. okay ive been. SEVERELY underweight all my life #like i looked like a skeleton you could see all my bones it was AWFUL #i just. I've literally always hated looking like that i hated looking like a walking corpse i mean i looked ILL #but recently i started taking remeron for anxiety #partially bc my anxiety keeps causing me to not eat properly bc i feel sick constantly #so i kept ending up in the ER for malnutrition and dehydration and my liver getting messed up #well i started the remeron for the panic attacks bc daily panic attacks suck but the psych mentioned it could increase appetite #and it???? did????? I'm eating on a slightly more regular schedule???? I'm eating more than once a day???? #and like. ok I've always weighed like 100lbs #highest i ever got was 111 when i was 16 #and then it dropped 10 #and then dropped 10 more in the span of 3 months while i was in and out of ER #and i was genuinely starting to panic over it bc i could PHYSICALLY FEEL my muscles getting eaten bc i had no fat left #like i was getting drastically weaker by the day my knees still won't stop buckling #but in the about three months I've been taking those meds I've. gained 10 back #I'm actually gaining weight like me and my mother are genuinely SHOCKED this genuinely hasn't happened since i was fucking TWELVE #and just now i took off my shirt and noticed. holy shit. my stomach doesn't go CONCAVE when I'm hungry anymore #like whenever i couldn't tell if i was hungry before i would just look at my stomach and be able to tell if it was too curved inwards #but now!!!!!!! it doesn't do that!!!!!!! and I'm genuinely fucking ecstatic like oh my god i don't look dead anymore #I've always wanted to gain weight i feel like i would be 100% more comfortable in my body as a fat trans man #and i can't talk about that to anyone bc they always say it's either self harm or fetishistic #when no i just genuinely feel more comfortable in my skin thinking of myself that way #and now i have confirmation that i would genuinely be happier that way with this bc the sheer joy i have at not being underweight anymore #i mean I'm still a bit under but at least im gaining SOMETHING like at least i dont look like a drowned street cat #seeing the very slight rolls and folds in my stomach when i move the right way makes me happy

[drunktuesdays]

Lea! We have never interacted but I first found your blog during the Teen Wolf days - loved your fics 😍 - and your blogging voice is peak humor to me. No matter that we haven't shared a fandom since then; I can't imagine how e.g. actually watching wrestling could bring me half the joy that I experience from chortling ignorantly over your posts. Anyway, last week I came across this whiteboard in an elementary-school hallway. I thought of you immediately and I'm still perplexed over what it could mean... No need to answer this ask; I just wanted to finally say hi and share my confusion with you! ❤️

THIS MESSAGE HAS ABSOLUTELY FUCKING LAID ME OUT. first of all thank u very very very much for sticking around and finding my blog funny despite everything. but what is going on with this white board????

one of your elementary school teachers left a problem up as a little test for anyone brave enough to accept the challenge. a young brilliant and directionless janitor passed by it and said live audition? buff men? bald shaved heads? PAPER TOWELS????

IT MUST BE auditioning pro wrestlers.

#THIS DIAGRAM ACTUALLY TOOK MY KNEES OUT LAST NIGHT #what does it mean #what was someone trying to communicate #WEARING THE SAME THING #HAS TATTOOS #???????? #wrestling

[mycological-mariner]

All the fun hobbies require me to be in some kind of physical pain, I just wanna wave swords around in peace, man, not sit out when my heart isn’t pumping or just push through when my knee is screaming. Madness I say.

#it’s so much fun #but I admit there are consequences for fun #I took some pain killers before I went in today and they only wore off about 2hrs in #so by the time the second class came in I was ready to pass out #ended up fighting left handed for a while bc my leg just couldn’t take it #luckily I was only demonstrating and doing some group fighting #my knee is warm lol #frozen peas + topical pain stuff #boom #tomorrow is gonna HURT #the heart thing was really my fault lol #I forgot to drink any salt and bc of my heart condition my heart just won’t pump blood?? #unless I consume horrendous amounts of salt #great turn out though #mostly new ppl #so it was really a Back To Basics #which is good but I’m always itching to do more #(I say in the same breath as complaining about the physical toll) #at LEAST I have conquered the art of falling without actually causing any harm bc… I fell a lot today #did a ton of dying #one class had 6 people and we were joking we had enough ppl to recreate Sharpe’s Waterloo #I’ve drawn the guy I work with into it it’s great #but yeah. flamenco fight choreography — why can’t I pick up something like knitting? #even sailing was never this bad on me #(fight stuff is free to do and sailing is very much not so.) #I’m fine but I should probably go to the gp again since it’s been flaring up even without putting insane amounts of stress on it

[falderaletcetera]

was anyone going to tell me that benoit blanc was the originator of "compels me though" or did I just have to see that in the film myself

#it was this fantastic moment of ''is he quoting the tumblr meme?? wait. is HE the tumblr meme?'' #and I'm thrilled for us honestly #knives out #falderal speaks #hello this is a lot of fun actually <3 #determined not to get too distracted as my habit of repeatedly pausing things to have thoughts Continues #this line just took me out at the knees and it's going to take a little effort to get past it without skipping back to listen again #COMPELS ME THOUGH. sir.

[nellectronic]

i don’t want to do this i don’t want to do this i don’t w

#trying to figure out grad school applications. idk what im doing #i dont feel like im ready for grad school but at the same time im extremely done with undergrad #mostly just the way my institution specifically is always like ‘We Have Resources Available For You!’ #but then they never seem to have the resources you actually fucking need #yes this is about the time i got sick this past summer and i had to call campus safety to take me to urgent care bc health services were #closed and the whole ordeal made me want to die #and the fact that they dont provide meals on weekends to summer housing students and there isnt enough kitchen space for everyone #and its also about how most of the residential buildings on campus are super inaccessible and they dont seem eager to do anything about it #and its also about how there is one (1) first aid kit in my entire dorm as far as i know and i just took the last large bandaid and idk #where else to find them #which is going to be a problem bc i scraped my knee pretty badly yesterday and it still hasnt fully scabbed over #idk i might delete this later i am just. so so tired right now. and i need another large bandaid and maybe a little treat or something #screams into the void