#but like i'm kind of chill with it now

[beelzzzebub]

me every other day almost accidentally posting my real name on this site because for some reason i keep forgetting that y'all don't know me irl and this is supposed to be a sort of anonymous blog

#it's whatever #although i did have a nightmare once that i like posted my full name and location and a bunch of like really important information #and then wasn't allowed to delete it for some reason #and i was like super panicked about it #anyways it's chill #but also lowkey a bit sad bc i do really love my name and i wish i could share it with some of you guys! #but also like #anybody i know or have known irl would totally be able to id that #and i'm also super paranoid in like internet safety terms #so i def don't feel comfy sharing that just like generally #but also i'm like so happy that bee is what i ended up being called on here bc that's like really nice :) #anyway #i've thought a lot in the past about what it would be like to have another name #i always liked the thought of a gn name like dylan or something #or maybe not having a name that people consistently mispronounce #but like i'm kind of chill with it now #like i have my grandma's names and i never met her but i really appreciate that #anyways this has gone really long and off topic #sorry lmao #ok bye #boink

[magicaldreamfox1]

so i'm just thinking abt the reputation pete must have post-canon among main family bodyguards.

like as we know from pete himself, word travels fast amongst main family bodyguards and there must be a few who survived the ep 14, confrontation. obviously people would've known pete at least in passing, he's tankhun's head bodyguard that must mean something. and suddenly he's missing for a few days, rumour has it he went to the minor family's house (with the fit tankhun threw (rightfully so) surely people would've heard abt it right? right) and everyone knows what happens to bodyguards who are sent to the minor family's house. except pete returns and word spreads fast about that too. pete returned, covered in blood and injured but alive. then the family showdown happens, a lot of people die but surely a few main family bodyguards would survive. and they would hear abt it. pete left. he resigned. and they let him. which i'm sure not many bodyguards can say for themselves. rumour has it he went after vegas. and then shot a bodyguard of the main family dead for him. and that he's with vegas now.

vegas who has A Reputation, everyone knows that. so pete not only made it out of the minor family's house alive, he also managed to resign and then went to be with vegas.

and maybe they'd even see him sometime, pete coming to visit porsche or tankhun and he looks fine like he's doing well.

and like. they must be terrified of him. and like even when they get new bodyguards word would spread just as quickly. u don't fuck with pete bc pete has seen the worst of the worst of this world and not only come out alive the other end, he also willingly walked back right into it.

#thinking abt pete maybe this even qualifies as dark!pete #like i'm sorry i feel like i'm really bad at articulating my thoughts in a good and coherent way #but brain goes brrr #pete must have a killer reputation #like if they main family bodyguards aren't terrified of him then idk either #like mans survived the minor family literally resigned and they let him. and now he's just chilling with Vegas Theerapanyakul #u know the murderous evil cousin #like FUCK #people would be scared i know it #especially abt the part where pete quit To Be With Vegas #bc from an outsider pov it'd take a special kind of insane to want to be with vegas right #they're terrified of him i know it. some are even more scared of him than of vegas #and like him being super nice and polite and smiley makes people not believe it at first #they're like really this guy???? no way #but like there's moments in between where u can see how smart and calculating he is #and people would insist like no really this guy did all of that don't underestimate him #and people would be scared they would i know it #vegaspete #kinnporsche #kp analysis #bl shows #dreamy talks #pete

[cuntwrap--supreme]

I've been doing a lot of grocery delivery in the country lately, so I ordered myself a nice bumper sticker so I fit in with everyone else's stuff :)

I've seen a lot of these lately, but they were all of a pride flag I don't recognize. Not sure which gender/sexuality has the red and white stripes with the blue with white stars in the corner, but I guess it's an ok design. The rainbow is the traditional LGBT flag, though, so I feel it symbolizes the collective queer community a little better and will be a little more noticeable/recognizable than niche flags, like this stars and stripes guy.

#queer #pride #rainbow #flag #gay #lgbt #fr tho I've seen so many q-anon and trump stickers that i feel like this'll either be really funny or I'll get my windows smashed in #for some reason the country here isn't just chill people eeking out a living doing what they can #it's all super well off people who immigrated from elsewhere in the us and are incredibly aggressive #I'm from the middle of nowhere. country folk are typically very kind even if they're a little ignorant to shit like being gay or trans. #but this is the kind of people where i got called a dyke twice just walking through kroger #i had the person behind me at mcdonalds yelling about my sticker that says i don't break for kids #anyone i know who has lived in that area for a long time hates all these new people #they've driven up housing prices to be just as much as in the city. they're all republicans who fled California or Illinois... #...and they brought with them their more radical views and hateful big-city attitudes #like yeah. this wasn't a place to be comfortably out as gay beforehand. now it's actively hostile instead of you get weird stares kinda shit

[dootznbootz]

I think some folks MAY have gotten the wrong idea about how I feel about Circe with some of my posts. So, to clear the air...

Homies, I love that fucked up sorceress.

I love how we're never given a reason why she turns people into animals. That's so funny and so awful. And another potion-making magic gal?!?! I love that she's just basically vibing on an island doing whatever she wants. I even love the fact that she scares Odysseus shitless! She's morally gray and that's why she's FUN.

I just sincerely hate when people try to girlboss her or have her be a victim of SA when she never was Looking at you, Miller. Especially when she was actually the one who coerced Odysseus in exchange for his men being transformed back into humans. And even then, while he was clearly afraid of her, (it's in the language of the Odyssey) she likely meant him no harm after a certain point. He just didn't know that.

Why does she need a reason to do awful things? Why can't she just be a goddess who does whatever she wants? That's the reason why I love her!!! She's fucked up!!! :D

I hate what the Telegony did to her as well! >:( You're telling me, this sorceress goddess, who makes potions (!!!) wouldn't have magic contraceptives??? Would WANT CHILDREN?!?! WITH THE PATHETIC WIFEMAN?! No. Fuck no. Eugammon of Cyrene, I have beef with you 🤬

Anyways!!! Understand all the "#anti circe" I have is simply Anti "Girlboss Circe" or the book. I genuinely think she's neat af as her morally gray, fucked up sorceress self and just get frustrated with...everything :'D

#I have these same feelings with Medea and Medusa and so many others. Penelope too. Let them do something fucked up just to be fucked up #I'm a “god forbid women do anything” in the sense of 'she did a fucked up thing. That's why she's fascinating. Don't take her awfulness #away from her!!! please! I wanna study her under a microscope!'😭 #PLEASE #...I actually kind of don't like the idea of her actually caring about her nymphs :P maybe she “protects them” but like... #I see her as a “Why are all of you dancing? Oh. it's a birthday? hm okay. Just make sure your duties are done.” while not caring #whose birthday it is. She's not really shown to be close to them during the Odyssey and idk just seems in character for her to not give af #save me morally gray circe #<-making that a tag now because...yeah. She absolutely wouldn't save me though. #Mad rambles #shot by odysseus #anti madeline miller #anti circe #<-THE BOOK! I HATE THE BOOK! LET HER BE AWFUL YOU COWARDS #Why do women need to be SA'ed to be strong Miller?! >:( #...Ima say it. The pathetic wifeman is more relatable to me than Hot Snake Monster Lady when it comes to this stuff.😤 #I just sincerely hate the fact that people erase what happened to him you know? It's silly but it means a lot to me. #Also I think she got bored of him immediately and simply let him chill at her place. #She's a goddess. She's got better things to do and she absolutely doesn't love him and he absolutely doesn't want her. #I don't have with Eugammon btw. He's dead and I'm exaggerating but I STILL hate the Telegony >:( #tw sa #kind of??? idk #barely mentioned but yeah #Calypso though?? Yeah. I hate her in practically everything except Pirates of the Caribbean because that's not Odyssey Calypso

[vynnyal]

A little something like this, right?

#From memory for the most part #I've drawn these characters more times than I expected 😂 #I cheated and fixed a few things when I went to pick colors (and then didn't even use them) #Idk I felt nostalgic and decided to crank out a few bugs #Lesse... What stories do I got. It's been a while so I have quite the selection #Oh jdbdjvskhff my dog died from cancer of all things. Like seriously what the heck #While we were recovering I jokingly mentioned something about getting another rescue dog #Within the WEEK we had a pomeranian in our house. A pomeranian. 16 pounds. Pomeranian. #See the reason I mentioned it at all was to give our other dog- Tiger the 11(?) yr old maltipoo- company in his twilight years. #You know. Maybe another old pooch like Lucky that was chill and kind #And now we have Rudy aka SPITFIRE #He's fun though! I like him. He's always smiling and it warms my heart. I swear I can walk out of the house for an hour #and he'll greet my like I've been gone for years every single time #What else. Oh lol so I'm taking care of my neighbor's house for two weeks #A wwwk in and the cat decides to RUN OFF. In the middle of a THUNDERSTORM. #36 hrs later and I'm like aight this isn't great #After posting notices online etc I was sitting around and thought to myself something kinda dumb #See he likes listening to me play on their grand piano. They never use it but I do and the cat always lays at my feet while I jam #So I thought... what if I pied piper the cat home. So I threw open all the doors #And played for oh idk 20 min? #CAT WALKS IN. SITS ON THE FLOOR BESIDES ME #Cats. I stg #Eh that's all for now I'm sleeby #hollow knight #art tag #See ya!

[chemicalarospec]

pro tip: if you ever find yourself in a situation with people, you can leave.

#thought up this post this morning before i encountered any situations or people #but employed this advice right now #acquantiance 1: 'well i'm friends with trans people but living with them...' #me internally: umm....? like i get being more comfrotable with living somone with the same body type and gender identity as you #but phrasing it that way is uhhhh... #acquantance 2 (trans): 'yeah there are different kinds of trans people' #me internally: no way they're about to discriminate against trans femmes trans mascs and stuff.... #acquantine 2: 'like some are chill but some are aggressive... i mean i used to be that way when i was younger but...' #me internally: ur doing Gay People I Don't Respect in 2024??????? #so i got up and left. wild. #I said this #i knew acquantiance 2 was an ass cuz i had a friend who says they bullied her but damn ok i forgot how much i dislike them

[sophieswundergarten]

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#Holy cow #I found my first forgotten attempt at fanfiction the other day #AND I WROTE IT IN FIRST PERSON #I'm gagging over whatever on earth this abomination is #(It's not MBS in case anyone's wondering) #I just kind of forgot I had this hidden somewhere #But it's kind of nice to see how much I've improved in the last couple of years #SUCH AS REALISING THAT FIRST PERSON IS A GARBAGE WAY TO WRITE #Not that I think anyone who does that is bad #I just don't like it for my own writing #But man was that weird #I see now why you guys do these nothing posts with rambles in the tags #It's kind of nice to have a release #I need to write more about Sticky #I want to #But it's on the list with my Cannonball fic and Wolf 359 ideas and also that Enlil fic I'm supposed to be working on right now #Yeesh Sophie chill out #Okay. #I'm going to take a deep breath now #Sorry to anyone who read this #Love you #I hope you're having a good day #rambles

[lesbiansanemi]

I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao

#i have had to piss for probably the better part of an hour now #because they decided to take a shower together and have been in there for well OVER an hour now #and this is a nightly occurence atp sometimes MULTIPLE times a day #we have one bathroom.... can yall not be considerate enough to not be in there for up to TWO HOURS AT A TIME??? #also it's such a waste of fucking water.... #idk we've hit a point where i literally hear the bf doing anything and i get pissed off #but also tell me why i'm sitting in my room (which shares a wall with the bathroom) and i can hear this man hacking and spitting shit up #and this is also something that happens multiple times a day #like.... dude.... why are you spitting up toothpaste so fucking loudly oh my fucking god #but yeah no i'm like my roommate's only friend atp and he's about to not have me lmao like we're about to reach #'i'm cutting you off when i move out' levels of me being pissed off with this whole situation type shit #and apparently the bf convinced him to come out to his family which his mom was chill which is good #his dad's side of the family though....? not great. and my roommate KNEW that would be the case cuz we'd talked about it before #also love that my roommate has constantly talked about moving out of the city we live in because he hates and also there's no good career #opportunities for him here (which is true) #and now. MAGICALLY. he's like 'idk i think it'd be best for me to stay here' #like oh my GOD???? are you hearing yourself???? are you fucking stupid???? you fucking hate it here??? #but sure throw your life away and ruin all your meaningful relationships for a guy you met six months ago jfc #and the thing is i *know* my roommate we've been close CLOSE friends for nearly a decade now #i know he is not like this.... like yeah he's being insane by allowing this but also i know these aren't the kinds of decisions he would ma #and also i know he wouldn't treat me like this all on his own #it's the deranged fucking control freak of a guy he decided to date and my roommate has too many of his own issues to put his foot down #about certain things and tell the guy no so he's just allowing him to completely take over his life #and fuck everything up until the bf is the only thing he has left once it's all said and done #and yeah. it's painful to watch. but also wtf am i supposed to do because obviously my opinion is not respected nor wanted regarding this #that has been made PAINFULLY clear #ugh this is so fucking horrendous #what is it with ppl who start to date someone and then go clinically fucking insane and destroy their lives all for this one person #who. realistically. they barely know in comparison to all the other ppl in their life #like explain it to me jfc

[keeps-ache]

hehe. crackling

#just me hi #hey do your ears crackle and get kind of uncomfortable when people yell lol #sometimes regular loud noises do it but not really #it started happening like a year or so ago and blahh hfh #and then like a chill goes down from my ears to the back of my neck ? it's weird man #do i probably know why that is? yea lmao. do i wanna speculate anyway? Yes it's fun ehehehehegh :33 #the fairies dropped some dust on my bed during one visit and now it makes my ears itchy on the inside i guess #the ocean is whispering but reception is poor #old tissue paper from some birthday some years ago is still hangin around #tv static lives in my head and goes for walks sometimes :) #the characters stored inside are opening their packages #Thought Blender 3000 (Guaranteed Blending (Max Puree)) has been invoked #my neurons are playing musical chairs #brain is doin a little jig #the possibilities... Endless......... #//anywhoooo i have GOT to write #not because i have to but because i Need to. you understand #so i'm going to see which part of the universe will decide No. Not Now when i start hbvfhs :3 #let's seee #ofc i'm going to reblog a handful of things beforehand though. it's just the way things are done lol :33 #toooooodles :>>

[skydigiblogs]

y'all bandai themselves is assigning me with the apocalymon autism

[ID: A photo of a someone holding a copy of the parallel art of Apocalymon from the Exceed Apocalypse expansion of the Digimon Card Game. The alt art depicts Apocalymon's humanoid body with an intense expression. The card itself is in a gold sleeve.]

we only bought four packs (the first time we have bought packs since 2021) and this was the last card in the last pack

we're getting the whole pizza with this one fellas

#sky talks #digimon card game #yes i know apo is a restricted card #but i have that apocalymon autism real bad right now so even though i barely know shit about DCG #i'm like determined to make it work #also the dcg tutorial app is really good for what it is but. god damn. #i am remembering why we stopped playing card games in college because worrying about interactions is a pain and a half #one game takes me like 30 minutes minimum even with the app making the flow easier for my brain #anyways #when i tell y'all i screamed #i could not chill for about an hour after this #he came home fr #now i feel like i HAVE to find a FLGS that actually has people playing digimon lmao #(as if i wasn't already gonna try to) #ALSO having not played card games since like? 2018? #(and considering the only card game we really played was MTG) #i am losing my mind over how pretty and intricate foil cards are nowadays??? #like i also collect pokemon cards and YES there are some very gorgeous older pokemon foils #(there's this one pidgeotto card with starburst sparkles that is dazzling) #but the intricacy of the pattern work in some of these foil cards is nutty #i have to wonder what kind of tech goes into making card art do that #anyways uhh #i'm going to bed now that i've spent 6 hours riding this high #download the DCG tutorial app

[crimeronan]

now that the elation of being on-paper sick has worn off i'm back to getting my feelings hurt by innocent posts. anyway someday within the next few months i'm gonna be on a bunch of prednisone or other steroids and then i'm gonna do all my dishes and clean my whole house and go swimming and do my job and fix my life and it's okay that i fucking suck at doing any of those things now because i have a debilitating physical disability.

snide posts about how depressed people need to put on their big-boy pants and take care of themselves are not actually about me because what i am contending with is not depression. what i am contending with is a progressive disease that destroys my muscles, skin, joints, and potentially lungs kidneys and brain. that is not the same as being too sad to get up and wash a dish.

generalized spoonie advice and outlooks feel too optimistic or out-of-touch or non-applicable to me because they aren't applicable to me because what i am contending with is not an average spoonie experience. it is a specific progressive disease that destroys my muscles, skin, joints, and potentially lungs kidneys and brain.

if i feel bad and need to rest and don't pull my weight in my relationships it's because i need to wait to be treated with steroids and in the meantime i just need to hold on. i am not required to do anything else to take care of myself. my body is eating itself with a condition that has a high rate of fatal complications and literally my only job is not to die.

my only job is not to die. that is the only thing i need to do right now. any posts saying that people need to do anything else for self-care or for being a good person or for having healthy relationships are not applicable to me, because my circumstances are highly specific. healthy people need to take steps to better their lives. people like me need to rest until our doctors can help us because overtaxing ourselves might kill us.

a depressed person being too sad and hopeless and miserable to get up is being lied to by their brain. my brain is not lying to me when it tells me that i need to rest because my body is on fire.

my only job right now is not to die.

#i know none of YOU need to hear this. reasoning it out for myself. #all of this remains true whether my final diagnosis is lupus or MCTD or both. #i'm very unlikely to die unless my pulmonary function tests indicate i have the fatal kind of MCTD #which would suck. but is unlikely. #the 10-year survival rates for MCTD and lupus are both good barring complications. my job is not to let those complications happen. #that means sleeping when i need to for however long i need to. eating thoughtfully. keeping a positive outlook. doing things i like. #reducing overall stress. not engaging with things that upset me. forgiving myself for being useless. being incredibly zen and chill. #taking steroids and seeing a neurologist and doing chemo if they need me to (unlikely). being patient. #it's okay for me to be in limbo right now. it's okay for me to sleep 18 hours a day. #i'm not depressed. i am very sick. #autoimmune tag #on this note i'm gonna figure out something nice to do with my day and see if i can get a few dishes done.

[eosofspades]

in these trying times, please keep in mind that people who claimed cayde was coming back all along can enjoy their vindication and people who claimed his story was over and he was not going to come back in beyond light/witch queen/haunted/lightfall were ALSO right and we don't have to have another fandom war a la season of the haunted please let the main tags remain functional

#like his story was over for the time being. arguably his story is STILL over. like trailer cayde is very distinctly not our cayde #i dont know how to elaborate on this but i'm seeing so much of 'we always knew he would come back to us you were all stupid' #and like. no we were correctly interpreting the lore lmao #that cayde died in forsaken and that his story was functionally over was the correct interpretation of all the info we were given #and even now i am 100% confident that man is not going to be OUR cayde (my money says hes a phantom/manifestation of some kind) #and like. however this goes. the cayde stans and the cayde antis were both WAYYY out of line for a LONG TIME #(some of you are still severely weird and toxic about this. im not naming names but this is still a weird ass problem) #i was always on team 'his story is over he's not coming back' and i still think thats a correct interpretation of whats happening #but like. okay. we have cayde in final shape. is it our cayde??? unlikely but we'll see #EITHER WAY. I AM ASKING WE STAY CHILL ABOUT THIS #PRETTY PLEASE. #destiny 2 #cayde-6 #cayde 6 #mine

[mokeonn]

Since my mental health has been getting so much better lately, I'm honestly super excited for 2024. I'm not gonna prematurely say "2024 is my year" but I'm definitely excited to see where I'm going from here, since it definitely seems like there's nowhere to go but up.

#simon says #I'm absolutely being a little chattier here but i dont care #just giving a general update #turns out your mental health improves when you quit an addiction and focus on your mental health #and it also turns out that your mental health improves when you take the time to be kind to yourself and learn new things #anyways i really hope I can get some work done on my creative projects this year #but I only have 1 new years resolution #soup quest #it's where I try a bunch of new soups I never had before #try some new stuff and get out of my comfort zone... but like with soup #microdosing leaving the comfort zone via soup quest so I can get that practice in with more important learning moments #but yeah there's the update #im probably gonna post on patreon soon #but for now im just gonna listen to music and chill #good night tumblrinas

[buzzcat]

today's wordcount brought to you by: there is no way on this green earth that Gale Dekarios doesn't have a good relationship with his mother, and i'm going to write nice cozy friends-and-family fic about it

#bg3 #gale of waterdeep #anyway i have Thoughts about Gale that have me chewing the drywall #so for now i'm just writing fluff about Gale and family and coming home with friends #like you KNOW Gale's mom was worried about her son being lonely. nerd magic protegee who hangs out with: #Mystra the Goddess of Magic; Elminster; Tara #like that's Gale's entire social network #you KNOW what his mom wanted was just for him to have friends. just friends not Forces of Nature just friends #and he never really had those because he was being a Big Cool Wizard from the age of like six #so anyway Gale comes home with his friends and his mom goes full Mean Girls Mom mode #she's just so excited her son has friends but she's also trying to be chill #one's a vampire? chill what kind of blood does he want #one's a warlock? okay; that's new but rolling with it #like Gale could bring home three goblins but if they didn't hurt him and he called them friends his mom would make it work #anyway this consumed my thoughts for like three hours today so yes i'm writing fanfic about it #Gale has a good relationship with his mom and you can't change my mind

[forcedhesitation]

the dialogue you get with shovel in the apothecary's cellar is so funny. I can't believe I've not seen this until now. enjoy your new murder bestie astarion <3

#bg3 #thoughts about media #given astarion likes when you are kind towards monster-types I'm sure he'd sympathise with shovel who was treated cruelly by mr. toth. #and well. they both like murder and causing chaos. #she was his familiar in corydalis' campaign. I just didn't know there was special dialogue for her in act 1! #SHE CALLS HIM BEEFY #but not beefy as in “muscular.” beefy as in “made of meat” #shovel. what are YOU made of if not flesh? #also she's apparently afraid of sorcerers??? #not super surprising given that the game suggests that the magic of sorcerers can be very violent & unpredictable. #she is chill with draconic sorcerers though. apparently she'll call a draconic sorcerer “a fake dragon.” #which wouldn't bother corydalis considering that he is. well he's not exactly an Actual Dragon now is he? #he'd fail to see how her words are meant to be an insulting when she's merely stating a fact. #I think she'd find him very boring at first lol. but he'd win her over eventually.

[skyward-floored]

Yeah fr idk if you knew this but you can’t write a fic with Vio and Shadow without ONE person thinking it’s a ship. I had Vio call Shadow him his BROTHER for that reason and I still had people thinking it was a ship 😭😭 it’s not a ship not everyone likes it

I KNOW IT DRIVES ME CRAZY Just because something is fandom norm does not mean everyone goes along with it. Some people just aren't gonna agree, no matter what it is.

And yep yep. Exactly.

#answers from the floor #smiles my beloved #I've had people actually mad at me before for not liking it and I just. dude. chill out. #Shadow is kind of FROM Link so shipping him with Link/the colors just makes me personally uncomfortable #they're kind of the same guy-ish (or at least related in a lot of ways? don't the links straight up call him their brother at one point) #but I'm not gonna attack somebody for liking it??? #people are so weird about ships just chill out GAH #I'm probably not in a good headspace to talk about this right now sdhfhsfskjgj