#but only few actually remember them all

[chirpsythismorning]

#byler #stranger things #no but why did they need his stand in present doing shoots in the blue while he’s in the yellow that’s my question?… #like why wouldn’t he be wearing yellow like Noah if they just came from a different shoot #also Millie is in the milkshake dress #which means the priority for the time of this shoot was those shots of her getting the milkshake on her #they had like 4 days to film at the rink o mania location #meaning the stand in would not be there unless he had to shoot something and the same applies to Noah #if Noah wasn’t getting paid to be there to actually film he wouldn’t be in costume #basically them having only 4 days means those 4 days were dedicated to only rink o mania shooting #they can film in studio anytime so using precious location time to film elsewhere would be really poor time management and uneccesary #but what I find interesting is it honestly doesn’t look like anyone is on the rink except these guys? #I remember a few TikToks/videos coming from Noah on the rink with his stand in plus Millie #(was it just them all alone with their stand ins at this moment bc they were filming a spoiler filled s5 opener vecna sequence???) #👀👀👀 #birthdaygaters chillin #(with fear)

[mattodore]

found out while putting together matthias's oc page that his name has the exact same etymology and meaning as theo's name...

i’m sure this is information matthias is very normal about…

#theo is in fact a gift from god so jot that down ! #river dipping #i've been throwing myself into oc stuff bc i'm not doing hot mentally which is... tbh when i do my best writing 😭 #none of this is new tho i wrote the bios and 'at a glance' intros months and months ago when i first made an oc page #which is why i do plan on rewriting them but for now i'm leaving them like this... so i guess the echthroi page is done? #obviously echthroi has more characters than this but i haven't taken new screenshots of everyone yet... #i put the gray cas bg back in my game a few days ago only to completely forget i wanted to take new headshots for the oc page 😭 #like these are just placeholders... i want the backgrounds to match the oc page. oh... or maybe i could just do transparent pics? #i think i remember vyx made a post abt how to do that... will look into that when i open the game again. rn i'm at my keyboard 🧑‍💻 #like i am writing new things! started a google doc for theo yesterday and have been writing on it here and there since then #i've already cried in there... lmaooo. i like oc pages for sure but i think a huge google doc is what i really need to keep track of things #i drop so much lore in tags on here and it's like! river write that down somewhere else or you'll lose it 😭 #like i fr have never actually written down any of the info i've shared on here. i've just had all this oc knowledge stored in my brain. #so i went through and copied over a tonnn of tags and posts i've made into google docs but i just know i'm missing things i've probably #said in the tags of their core tagged posts... 🧍 if my blog didn't have so many posts i'd have an easier time going through it but 🤷 #and on top of that i've been making a bunch of posts about theo and matthias on my main acc. which is like 🧍 well great now there's more #i'm gonna lose track of...... i fr have gottt to get into the habit of actually putting things down in theo's google doc!!! #i'm just trying to figure out the best way to format it all but i've downloaded a few templates that i've been messing with. #...anyway. if it isn't obvious i'm trying to get back to posting on here. i'm opening my inbox now with the intent to just. #sit here in my inbox until i can get myself to reply. lads... avpd is actually so torturous i'm not kidding. #i feel like i'm dying trying to get myself to interact with people sometimes even despite how badly i want!!!! to interact!!! #theo and me and our avoidant trauma responses holding hands and skipping around together

[perenlop]

oh so when moth flight has kittens as a medicine cat and gives them away to strangers, one of which let his own son die and considered killing babies, because she can’t deal and somehow cant ask her clanmates to help, shes noble and brave and wise and shaped things for generations to come and she gets to die peacefully with all her children being like “wow mom that was so cool of you, we’re so happy and you are so smart and epic”, but when leafpool has kittens as a medicine cat and gives them to her sister who she knows wont mistreat them, she’s treated like shit by most people around her and shes so unforgivable that her children can’t help but snark about this at her funeral and shes almost sent to cat hell. ok

#no lets talk abt how fucked up moth flight was for that actually. like heres the thing atleast the three grew up together #at least they had a family at least they were happy. and they were too young to remember leafpool nursing them #so its understandable when theyre mad but leaf did what she could with the circumstances #moths kittens were attached to her and each other and her clanmates. and she ripped them from all of that #this was FAR from her only option like the rule wasnt even set at that point. her hand was not forced at ALL #yes she struggled but she was not by herself and she didnt have stigma around it stopping her #not to mention uh. clear sky held her hostage a few chapters before. he let his own son die over his pride. #hes considered killing kittens before for the sake of it. #but he ''deserves'' her child more bc he lost a son and this is so cute and wholesome for him #even tho he hates outsiders and treats them like shit #nah lets demonize moth flight a bit more for this bc she was actually so morally fucked up and in the wrong for this #and it drives me crazy how this is not portrayed as a heinous act but a bittersweet noble sacrifice thats shes rewarded for #ntm leafpool only suffered as bad as she did over moth flights actions. #echoed voice

[kasiobite03]

the empty frame in bobbys castle tower is a metaphor for jaiden and roiers family. they shared a house a bed items son, roier showed her his basement, melissa, his betrayal scars, and his home that was meant to be a community house. and jaiden couldnt fully believe she wasnt taking too much when it was her house! it was her base too! she moved out of the home she was building to move in with roier but she still felt like an intruder to her own home! she saw it as a temporary home for until she could move out and build her own base. but she still cared for and accepted every part of roier. and roier loved jaiden back too! when they died in that airship, he cleared out the dungeon and gave jaiden armor and spirit orbs and when jaiden accepted his anger and blame it just fizzled out. jaiden understands. so then roier left a empty frame at the bottom of the tower for jaiden to fill whenever she came back and they laughed and joked while tucking bobby in and jaiden said i bet you a hundred million dollars we'll see bobby tomorrow and roier said are you sure and it was a joke and then tomorrow came and jaiden was an hour too late. and then roier joked and laughed and when jaiden came and he had to break the news he couldn't anymore. because with jaiden roier can let down the jokes and with roier jaiden can be sure he has her back and support and when jaiden fell off the edge roier jumped down to join her before she could even say anything and they had pvp lessons together and a heart to heart as the sun rised and in the end the community house lays abandoned and bobby fields is filled with copies of the best day they had together and the attic is never looked at again and the top floor of bobbys tower isnt either.

#o'-|-< #im missing some things and my words are toomany but JAIDEENNNNNROIERERRRR AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #I dont want to write it like Oh jaiden has to do all the emotional work for ro because shes a girl that NOT their dynamic at all. #i dont know how to write my feelings about jaiden and roier. but this is close enough #bc they were both so lonely youknow? and for a long time j felt like she had only ro and a few acquaintances #it wasnt until after bobby died that she opened up to the rest of the server and even then she faced some issues #(all cubito btw all rol. incase that wasnt clear :P) #and like with ro he only showed his true basement to those he trusted. which was j bobby and eventually cb. #and he showed melissa to his friends but the ones who reacted positively were j who hyped her up and cb who also hyped her up even though s #he doesnt actually know yet lol #they looked for ingridents for absurd amount of time... j was so confident in ro she was so relieved when he appeared with sl attacked #and the rose fields. the best day on the server for jaiden was adventuring with bobby and roier and taking pictures with gifts. #and they both loved her so much. remember how bobby caught every hummingbird around bc j said she liked them #the pizzas in the cabin #Im so chill. :D #kb.jaiden #kb.roier

[anormalkidingotham]

one of the robins just asked me for directions to wayne tower, which would already been weird even if it hadn't been clearly visible from where we were standing

#i know it was an actual robin tho #i recognized him #i've definitely seen him a few times before #not always in the same costume tho #they all constantly change their costumes and names #i usually just call all of them robin #it's just too much to remember #and it's not like they ever officially announce it #but i know this one has been in gotham for at least four years #so he really should know his way around the city by now #wonder what that was all about... #only in gotham #just gotham city things #unreality

[zackmartin]

henry 🤝 zack

hanging out with an eccentric inventor that exclusively wears coveralls

#i'm rewatching the suite life and i'm picking up on some insane parallels #like they're so specific??? #they've literally both been on a game show and said while standing on the game show set #that they can't fight a girl #only to promptly get their asses kicked by said girls #i mean they both also ended up winning in the end but still #and that's just one. there's so many more #they've both traveled to an alternate dimension that was caused by a storm. and everything was like. backwards #the only time we've ever seen either of them drive a car it was a toy car #(i don't really count the truck because Hen wasn't really driving it. it was basically self-driving) #altho that one is kinda up for debate because I know henry took the wheel a few times when ray was being stupid #and zack may have driven his dad's red sports car in the movie?? it's been so long since i've seen it #i can't remember if we actually saw him driving it or just parking it #whatever. even if that one doesn't count there's still more #being involved in cheating during a spelling bee without actually being in the bee #being like 14 and heavily flirting with an older girl they have no shot with #having only one canon girlfriend that lasts more than one episode but ends up leaving them in the end #i know i've said it before but their canon superpowers are both speed based #i KNOW i've brought up the ghostbusters costumes 6 million times #i need to stop cause honestly i could go all night but who has the time

[running-in-the-dark]

am I really gonna watch Texas Chainsaw Massacre just because John Larroquette did the opening narration? sigh... probably, yeah.

#I've had it downloaded for ages #think I might have watched it already actually #but I can't remember #it's not really my kind of horror movie #and I guess I could just watch the beginning lol #but that feels like cheating lol #oh my GOD did he narrate more of them?? noo that's too much to ask I don't wanna watch all that #but I will 😔 #gotta start somewhere and it's the first thing chronologically so. #ohhh mark knopfler was in the snl episode that he hosted? okay I guess then I have two reasons to go look for that #yeah it's a bad sign when I start going through the wikipedia filmography section 😩 #hmmm. I think the only things I would've seen him in are an episode of arrested development and one of parks and rec #fascinating. sooooo many shows and movies and I have seen none of them #do I just let myself do this? do I really want to make this my thing for the next few months? I guess so. 🤷 #john larroquette

[skyburger]

"fnaf is the scariest game ever" "no its silent hill" "well i think its resident evil" everyone shut up!!!!!! youre all wrong. its actually zack & wiki quest for barbaros' treasure (on the nintendo wii) but only the level "keeper of the ice". that level scared me so bad as a kid and you can tell because its the only individual level i remember the name of off the top of my head. like there is nothing scarier than a) being chased and b) being on a time limit. and you know what this level has? BOTH OF THOSE. this level is still scary to me im like AHHHHH!!!! and then i die

#i had to google horror games after i thought really hard for silent hill and fnaf #because like. resident evil is just not a horror game in my mind... its just cool zombie game... #to be fair though. the only one i actually played a portion of was re6 which is probably the least scary one in the whole series #anyway do the kids still find silent hill and fnaf scary. i dont know. #well the former id say yes given how prevalent ps1 horror has been in recent years #fnaf i have no idea. im a massive wuss so its scary when i play it for myself #but watching someone else play them especially when i know them well isnt scary #and ive watched fnaf videos for YEARS #so i dont know. (old man voice) these damn kids... back in my day we watched markiplier scream at freddy fazbear and we LIKED it! #anyway its objectively a horror game and thata literally fine thats all i needed for this post #MY POINT HERE. my point here #IS THAT HIT ZACK AND WIKI LEVEL KEEPER OF THE ICE. IS SOOOOO SCARY #its not that scary but i see tjat level and im like 3 years old making my mom play this level for me again #and for the record yes me and my sister really did make our mom help us with z&w #she remembers helping us with frost breath the most because we like did notttttt get that one at all #and she could never remember how to do the mirrors based on what combination of stands is there (because tjeres like a few variations) #so she always had to look up a guide 😭😭 #my poor mother on fucking gamefaqs or something in like 2010... legends only #anyway if you have no idea what level im talking about (any of my oomfs reading this that isnt end) (hi end) PLEASE look up this level #and i need you to think of like a 5(?) year old making her mom play this game. #this aforementioned child is still a massive wuss as an adult btw. some things never change #anyway watch that level and think about how someone like me. whos already a scaredy cat! #imagine how someone like me felt at age 5 possibly younger playing this level #I WISH I COULD LIKE CONVEY EMOTIONS OVER TUMBLR. why cant i attach a .emotion file to this post #anyway ramble over <- hes said that like a million times today #scariest level in a game ever...!!!!! FUCK that keeper of the ice bitch im GLAD he died #muffin mumbles

[whumpy-wyrms]

can someone just like spam me with tllr things you want me to draw. can be anything i just neeeed motivationnn

#wyrms says stuff #speaking of asks #i should PROBABLY answer them shouldn’t i #i’m not ignoring u guys i’m just lazy or busy or i forgor #it’s weird i have soooo many wips but when my art has a deadline i can finish it EASY and FAST #(i did an art secret santa yesterday and i finished mine in 4 hours ON the due date and even though i finished it at the last second #it turned out AWESOME. and i drew so much cool stuff during art fight in only a few hours. but when it comes to my ocs or fanart #i’m just slow without a deadline) so guys. honest to glob just threaten me in my ask box. #i wanna get all my cool tllr art wips done but i have no motivation!!! feel free to threaten me with a deadline. or something else #in fact just scream at me to finish chapter 12 i actually work very very well under pressure you guys #anyway i don’t know what im rambling about. its just me procrastinating drawing/writing again isn’t it #OH SHIT I JUST REMEMBERED MY GOOSE CAME IN TJE MAIL

[defness]

→ drawing the same pose over and over again and feels cringe

→ realizes that these drawings are simply pre-ref drawings to figure out one's design so I can Draw Them

→ no longer feels cringe

#jic ur wondering why all of them are drawn w that same arms out legs semi open pose #do i obsessively worry about this to an unhealthy degree? yeah #do people not verbally tell me that seeing me draw the same pose over and over again is Boring or Lame or stupid or smth? yes but i get #like. stupidly anxious and start thinking about things like that which i obviously know probably isn't the case and that in actuality #no one cares about how i draw more than i do #but it's still difficult not to ruminate on thoughts of people subconsciously rolling their eyes at my art because its so plain and boring #and static and stiff and it doesnt feel lively and dynamic like the artists i aspire to be like #but then i also remember im only just starting my art journey. by this year I'll only have been drawing for 4 years. 4 YEARS. #which seems like alot honestly? especially w the progress I've made #but most; if not everyone who isn't me have spent 7+ YEARS of drawing and i remind myself that. oh #yeah! im on the same path they were #maybe they had the same issues i did #but ill get through it :) i want to experiment more this year w my art #i say that but i need to COMMIT #i need to commit. to actually put in effort to learn posing and perspective instead of trying to lazily scrawl color on a digital canvas #but it all seems so daunting #but; you know; in time it'll come. seeing the difference only a few months has done to my art is also truly refreshing #it lets me know that im still learning and improving my technique and that really helps iron out any anxieties i have. #sorry this got super rambly super quickly lol

[dyketubbo]

random thought of the day i think people who used to be aphobic should have the same weight held to them as people who used to be bigoted in any other way. i dont mean this in a punishment way, im proud of anyone who used to be a bigot and realized that they were wrong, genuinely. but i hate how past aphobia is treated as just some quirky thing everyone did, just some phase. its bigotry and it should be taken more seriously because the way people will brush aside someone being aphobic is fucked. and the fact that people dont take it as seriously means theres still so many people who think they arent aphobic just bc they arent harassing ace people anymore

and its hard to really word what i mean bc i dont want it to come off as "i think if you used to be a bigot it should be held over your head for the rest of your life" but at the same time like. theres so many people i see who said really aphobic shit and STILL hold aphobic beliefs and say lowkey aphobic things but just because they arent actively saying that ace people arent lgbt outright its ok like no. just period if you think being aro and/or ace doesnt inherently make you lgbt/queer thats STILL APHOBIA. if you still completely erase aros from the discussion thats STILL APHOBIA!! if you still truly hold that kids cant identify as ace but wont say anything abt aromantism and still believe kids can be any other kind of queer thats STILL APHOBIA. if you still see queerplatonic relationships as just best friends+ and consider queerplatonic to be the same as platonic thats STILL CONNECTED TO APHOBIA. its all still bigotry!! youre still being a bigot against aro and ace people!! and the fact that people dont take any of that seriously and dont take more obvious forms of aphobia seriously either directly leads to lowkey forms of aphobia still existing and results in bigots either staying bigots or never properly addressing their past bigotry outside of "well i dont believe that anymore so thats it right im good"

#mask mews #aphobia #aromantic #asexual #i just. ughhh #i was a young kid during the period where nearly everyone who wasnt aspec was aphobic #and it. ruined my fucking life for a good while. i hated myself i had to stop being friends with people #and i see those people. still being known in the community. still making friends with people i thought i could trust to not be aphobic #all while those people still hold aphobic beliefs #one believes minors cant be ace. the other still believes ace isnt automatically lgbt n claims he doesnt remember telling me there is no a #in lgbt #and fucking no one calls them out on it. because they arent Fullout exclus even though theyre still exclusionist #its like instead of aphobia actually being dismantled people just decided it wasnt fun anymore and thats the only reason it isnt the same- #-as it was a few years ago #they didnt stop being aphobic. they just stopped having fun with it

[mossflower]

ok i’m gonna set an alarm but it is not the end of the world if i miss the lecture tomorrow

#i am quite frankly concerned by my attendance. i am not academic weaponing it up. i am being academically attacked #it’s fine it’s fine. i always get caught up and i’d say i’m making it to a solid three quarters of them. but it’s not ideal yknow #turns out living alone is very hard and i am oh so tired. all of the time #which yes is in part bc i’m struggling with sleeping. and also low iron is low ironing bc i’m bad at remembering to take my tablets #and social awkwardness is quite frankly reaching the point where it’s probably just actual anxiety. teebeehaitch #it’s better than it was when i first got here but uhm. not by much #even posting on here is freaking me out a bit bc i keep remembering that i have like. 1700 followers for some reason #like you’re telling me that what amounts to my diary is hypothetically being read by 1700 people. that’s fucking insane. what am i doing #like i only get a few notes on personal posts obviously but still. it kinda freaks me out #might make another blog idk. not right now i am going to have a nap <3 and hopefully attend my lectures <3 #i can hear birds singing outside. why do i keep doing this to myself #morganposting

[hydrasaura]

when i said that mha ripped off naruto (which i said only to piss off mha stans anyway) I didn't mean to sound like i was praising naruto. it was actually more like a sigh of disappointment, a reaction to seeing that all the problems that naruto had as a show transpired trough mha too and i was tired because watching naruto was enough for me but then i realized that my problem actually is that i can no longer stand watching shonen anime and i chose not to tire myself by cringing at the repetitive tropes and cliches anymore

#demon slayer falls under the same category sadly #actually it was more a combination of these 2 that made me realize that i had enough of this genre #me judging other shonen having as reference only naruto #but look! i watched both mha and demon slayer and my personal point was proven that i would get bored by them #(with the exception of some rare moments that were really good in mha but the bad and cringe moments made me forget abt them) #like i remember crying bcs this dude who trained deku died but then i remembered that a few episodes earlier he ''punished'' #one of his female students by tying her up a ledge and tickling her with a feather :| #LIKE WHY DID YOU NEED TO PUT THAT IN THE STORY? HORIKOSHI OR WHATEVER THE MANGAKA'S NAME IS #WHY YOU FELT THE NEED TO ADD THAT IN??? #and then you tried to make me feel sorry for the guy too? #that was such a jiraya death moment like they were playing it a sad but all i could think abt was ''rip bozo'' #not saying that other anime don't have cringe moments. even moments that i had to skip because of how gruesome they were #but they sorta make sense in the big picture of the story? but other characters experience it too not just a category of people? idk #also it's funny how pissed mha stans get for having their show insulted like #when i tell ppl that my fave anime/manga are evangelion; black lagoon #and berserk they look at me like i deserve to be put in an electric chair #like they are right but at the same time i find it funny and i rly don't care #but these guys always go bananas if you insult their fav show as if you broke the geneva convention #i'd say that it's because the majority of the fans are children but i know for a fact that they are not 😭

[perpetuallyfive]

I thought fully catching up to One Piece would make me feel a little less obsessed, but it's somehow made it worse. I know I'm over a quarter of a century late, but oh man do I have it bad now.

Why does a part of me want to start a reread?

#reading those first few hundred chapters that introduce characters so fast i couldn't be bothered to remember them all #only for them to become SO IMPORTANT and meaningful to me later #getting emotionally attached to the entire dumb world #something about the tenderness and care oda puts into the world building #like obviously all writers are working with original creations but the way even his minor background characters #often turn out to have a whole backstory you learn about hundreds of chapters later #is so great #supposedly he's been working on this world since he was a kid right and inventing and investing in all of these characters #and it really is the feel of someone sharing all their most beloved ocs with you #and you don't even realize that this or that character IS one of those truly beloved ones for a while #it's patience but it's also so much LOVE #letting them exist like they're real and not just devices used in the narrative #revealing them slowly over time - over the span of YEARS - instead of making them all throw aways #i guess he's kind of actually a genius #one piece

[theladyfae]

nothing to me will ever be more iconic than my beloved mutual managing to get me so invested in a (rarepair) ship for a media i had no previous interaction with that i was actively making my own headcanons abt their potential relationship dynamic and making song associations and engaging in others’ brainrot for months before i ever even considered getting in to said media. and now a year later i’m finally writing fic for them but still know next to nothing abt what they’re like in canon cause i still haven’t made it to that part of the story, the memories of the shared delusion are genuinely the only thing keeping me going.

#poppy if ur reading this ilysm ylne has been a constant over the past year (consistent in ruining my LIFE) #the most mundane things are them i was running a bath the other day and bam suddenly had an insane fic idea #was just putting my hair into a small plait rn and remembered the time i used that as insp for an angst idea. every song can be them too #i don’t really talk abt them on tumblr cause i’m still technically not actually. IN the genshin fandom #i play the game (now. entire months after i first was introduced to the ship) and i like characters and find the story intriguing but #my love for ylne transcends all that and the vision is both v simple and v insane & only my 3 twt mutuals bar poppy Get it #but also its really funny one of them isnt a playable character and probably never will be and he’s got like. a few mentions and #there is literally only one image of him out there (2 but the second was part of leaks drama). but im attached to his nonexistent wife #who he’s cheating on. the hannigram brainrot was easy to transfer across because they feel so similar but somehow even w/o cannibalism #they’re Worse and they’ve taken up permanent residence in my mind #and yes i’m only thinking abt all this as a way of procrastinating writing said fic its soso hard trying to do them justice 😔 #i think its genuinely become a pattern where i will write things that are So divorced from their original media and honestly. what a slay #faera's

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya is rather touch averse, cringing away from casual contact people give him under the guise of being distracted or idle movement. He's used to it, the Ragnvindrs and Adenlinde got him used to frequent affectionate physical contact, but it can still be entirely Uncomfortable if he's touched by someone outside those he is close to or someone he's otherwise Allowed to touch him.

#hc; kaeya #//Mentioned before; but am Elaborating on other aspects since Aven get brain juices flowing for this #//Unlike Aven; he's FAR more tolerable of people who touch him unprompted. & more willing to indulge for himself outside his comfort people #//Unless he himself had actively given the indication he doesn't want it; in that case THEN he's likely to anger & retaliate #//But yeah; his response is usually Discomfort & trying to get away from it one way or another. Can tolerate it to appear friendly; sure #//But would rather not want people to touch him so easily. Is decently okay with brief touches tho; like shoulder pats or the like #//Will actively lean into it & encourage further touching ONLY as a means to an end; adjusting any wandering hands only when going too far #//Esp if he can use that like a carrot on a string–if they concede to what he wants; they can touch him more. Maybe MORE than just that too #//He won't initiate any touch unless he deems it Absolutely Necessary; WILL internally scream if they Immediately reciprocate the contact #//Uses it as a 'reward' sometimes; a little pinch of the cheek; a hug; getting right into their space; if he sees they'll react favorably #//Maybe more if they have connection enough; like Huffman or one of his longer-running liaisons. Is p ok w/ sleeping w/ them as reward #//Sometimes he forgets some people don't like that he does this; like Rosie. Tries the tactic to get a favor then Remembers #//Absolutely apologizes; feels mortified when she scrutinizes him for it. Esp since she'd be one of few ppl who KNOWS just how Averse he is #to it in the first place. Him slipping up like that in front of HER is smth he'd STRESS over. She could hold over his head for all he knows #//How can he even joke abt it? Worse if she asks abt his way of doing things or indicate she doesnt Like that he uses himself as bait #//Has absolutely accidentally tried to seduce/bait sb like that who he absolutely should Not have. Like Jean. Ended up playing it off like #a joke between friends; but damn near had a panic attack from the guilt the moment he was safely in his office. bc Jean is SPECIAL to him #could he treat her like THAT? How could he almost let her SEE that side of him? His casual charm and facade are ONE thing #//But him actively doing something like THAT; esp for Jean of all people; is COMPLETELY off-limits; no matter his feelings #//Actually; especially BC he harbors feelings for her. Ppl like Lisa on the other hand; he is VERY comfortable doing this with/to #//She GETS the flirty habit & dishes it back without losing image of him in the way someone he regards at Jean's level possibly could #//And as far as Lisa knows; it's Only a playful habit; not a means to an end. The ones who prolly Know might be certain folks in the church #//But that's just bc he gets frequent checkups after every lil Rendezvous of his. Which is why he's got dirt on Every Single Person There #//Except Barbara; but he absolutely makes SURE she's not the one he's dealing with whenever he goes. Wants to spare her his messes #//Damn; veered a little but it's alright. 'A little'; HA. Nah; my tags are but the cluttered corkboard of my thoughts jhdbfjdf #//Diluc; Addie & Jean are the people he most Fears finding out abt his methods. Doesnt wanna THINK abt how they'd feel/regard him after tha #//Knows for SURE it'd be painful if the way they treat him changes even a SLIGHT. ESP Addie; he can bear the other two; but Addie??? #//Nah; he'd be fucken DEVASTATED. That's the ONE person he knows hold true unwavering unconditional love for him; no matter what #//To do anything to damage that? He'd be so fucken GUTTED. He expects everyone to get fed up with/disdain him at some point. But not HER #//Keeps this shit on the down low by always having dirt on the people he gets Involved with; if not using keeping it up as an incentive