#but they're at least sympathetic

[a-god-in-ruins-rises]

i can’t even celebrate the death of the queen because so many of the people doing that are cringe and i don’t want to be associated

#fuck the left for making me sympathize with the british and their monarchy #fuck the queen #not because she was racist or colonialist or white or whatever #fuck her for being ineffectual and impotent and overseeing the decline of the british empire #and the introduction of the neoliberal world order #i think the brits who are crying over the death of the queen are cringe #but they're at least sympathetic #like most of them are probably good people and upstanding citizens with patriotic feelings #and i can respect that #but all the degenerates who mock them are repulsive and sickly creatures #and those irish dudes who were dancing in front of the palace #oh my god so fucking embarrassing lmao #i am pro-irish independence and everything #but seeing shit like that makes it difficult #go have a parade and shoot off some fireworks or something instead #don't give me some sassy clapback video you made to go viral for epic internet upvotes #lmao #just the aesthetics of it all is so fucking sad #i wish the reaction was something more like the french during the revolution #common men and women marching together and singing patriotic songs and demanding a republic #instead we just have these cringe hyenas foaming at the mouth #so superficial and full of ressentiment #just jumping at the opportunity to be a victim

[solarpunkani]

Yknow there's one thing that's always gotten on my nerves about the way people discuss news/current events on sites like Tumblr and Twitter, where people presume people know things and are just maliciously not-talking about it, even though they'll then later admit that many news platforms flat out aren't talking about it.

Like. Maybe I'm being a big optimistic in my hope in people. But it feels... skeevy, in a sense?

"How dare people care about this event that's being heavily covered by news outlets in papers, online, and on TV, but not care about this other event thats also happened recently that no major and few minor news outlets have covered, its like you hate people or something" maybe people just haven't heard about it? Since it's not being covered much? If I haven't heard of a tragedy taking place elsewhere, whether its because I was just away from the phone for awhile or because I just didn't come across any news of it, I don't think that marks me or anyone else who hasn't heard yet as a bad, heartless person?

"This event happened 3 hours ago and I haven't heard ANYONE talking about it, guess none of y'all care about abcxyz" if its so recent, I can't necessarily say I'm surprised no one's talking about it yet? News takes awhile to spread.

There's been plenty of times where I haven't heard about a tragedy until hours or days later, not for lack of caring, but simply for lack of... hearing about it? I don't imagine I'm the only one, either.

I dunno what my point is here. But starting off posts with guilt-trippy 'how dare you not yet know what I do' before getting into the actual news just feels skeevy at best and inflammatory at worst?

#out of queue #ani rambles #yeah this is about the sub thing but also other things #i used to see posts like that and be like 'oh no how awful could I be to not have cared about this before now!' #but now they're just. annoying? like the additional guilt tripping isn't necessary to make someone sympathetic towards a tragedy I feel? #like being frustrated at news outlets and such for not covering it? yeah that's fair! #but getting pissed at people for not knowing what they didn't have a way to hear about prior? that's weird dude #at least in my opinion it is

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#man ive never seen an eating disorder kill someone else besides a parent infecting a child but my nana is really trying #shes like 1000% orthotexic. will not eat anything not filled with vegetables or fat. and my grandpa is 87yo with a heart condition currentl #in the hospital for covid bc thry went to Christmas church and dont believe in being vaccinated and my dad is so frustrated #bc he knows his mom is not gonna give his dad hearty foods. he needs to eat like protein shakes and meat and ice cream. anything thats not #her cooking which sucks on top of being extremely healthy. except its not healthy bc they dont eat a balanced diet #so its my nanas eating disorder killing her husband and shes so fucking frustrating. im like 99% sure she has obsessive compulsive #personally disorder bc she fits to a T and has zero insight. she may have full on 0cd bc talking to my dad he has more obvious 0cd #compulsions than i do. he used to say phrases before going to bed and would take 2 steps across the floor to prevent bad things from #happening. so like im pretty sure my nana is where i get my perfectionism and 0cd. god. i wish i could express how fucked up she is #like my dad said at least he had a stable home to grow up in but like she has zero sympathy for other people. cannot look past herself. wil #not wear a mask bc she doesnt care enough abt other ppl. my dad was like: u would not have survived in that house. which is fair bc i am #barely keeping it together coming from a stable home with two sympathetic parents who i know love me #and like its sad that they're suffering the effects of buying into the fox news bullshit and its killing them #but also. genuinely. i think theyre not very good ppl. theyre the type of people who think they're better bc they're religious. white. and #thin. and theyre not better thsn anyone. their grandchildren cant stand them. well cant stand her at least. papa is just quite so its hard #to say what hes thinking. apparently he was confused last night and saying something about eating dinner on the golf course. which sounds #nicer thsn being in the hospital lol. ugh. he seems not long for this world tbh. may he pass peacefully to b with his 1st wife who died of #brain cancer at age like 20 or something. so it goes. bleh. how many funerals are intended for me in the next 5 years? hopefully none but #that seems improbable with the unspoken drain circling that seems to b going on in this family. old age and like almost 10 years of cancer #defying the stats but for how much longer? #i dunno. its just so weird to watch these things happen and not talk about it directly to the other ppl who see it #i worry that ill come off as too callose or inappropriate bc i have that tendency when something bad is happening but thats everyone else #excuse? idk i just feel like its better to talk abt things #unrelated #ed mention #i tell u this so i can say these things to someone and also bc if i were u. i would like to hear the drama #bc im nosey and i assume other r too ;-]

[gloriousmonsters]

dsm really is like well about every other PD is determined by abuse, neglect, poor relationships and bad experiences as a child, and trauma. narcissistic personality disorder is largely defined by a desperate terrified need to never seem weak or like a failure and hunger for praise and approval. who tf knows what causes it tho

#vic talks #was reading the dsm-v-tr for character reasons and of course had to check out my own entry #which is. not very good #'pwNPD are soooo entitled and arrogant and they think they're so SPECIAL and you'll probably notice them #because they're huge jerks. anyway their actions stem from a feeling of utter emptiness #an inability to sustain their own self-worth and vicious self-criticism. did we mention #they're more likely than other disorders to commit suicide successfully? like with a plan? #anyway those who relate to them usually find them emotionally cold or disinterested and they're so invested in status amirite' #'they often usurp special privileges and resources they think they deserve' <- me stealing granola bars from work as a teen #i mean at least there's acknowledgement of the internal side of things #and there's a small note of 'often they have low empathy but they can have cognitive empathy' #but it feels like it meshes awkwardly with the 'symptom: HUGE ASSHOLES ALL THE TIME ugh they're probably really annoying. we don't know y' #side of things #anyway much love to the HPDs (also no speculation on Y Are They Like This) #and my ASPDs (must suck to have the Is A Criminal diagnosis) #very happy that my BPDs are getting a bit more fleshed out sympathetic stuff in their entry even tho you still deal with lots of shit

[soonhoonsol]

you guys ever get tired of friends who only talk about themselves? how do you respectfully tell them off?

#personal #like i love them but also im sick and tired of hearing them talk about themselves #every conversation feels like im interviewing them bc i leep asking them questions and they just answer #but there's no turning the convo back to me #it's like 'hey how r u?' and they're like 'oh im not doing so well like life sucks' #and I'll be sympathetic and ask them why and then they start ranting about 70 different things #AND IT'S ALWAYS A VAGUE RESPONSE SO I HAVE TO KEEP ASKING QUESTIONS #and they act like they dont want the attention but it's obvious they want it #and even once they're done with their storytelling they dont even bother to ask me how i am or anything #and it's pissing me off these days bc i feel like i dont even matter to them; im just some person they can talk to about themselves #it's like they don't give a shit about me at all #if i ask them what their fav colour is theyre gonna tell me it's purple and then move on from that topic #at least ask me what my fav colour is!! instead of not even caring...am i even ur friend or what #im so sorry for the rant guys but... if anyone knows to politely tell these kind of people off please lmk #i need to tell them respectfully before i lose my mind and start yelling at them

[unproduciblesmackdown]

truly something that, amidst facing / going through a dramatic Life Change ft. unavoidable emotional effects of that, there are instances where i can't conceal any & all degrees of being distressed / upset, & repeatedly getting "it's hard for me too" as a Direct Response to that: really something & a half how the asserted theoretical Sympathy of [i feel similarly!] is invoked so as to, oh you know, preclude sympathetic Treatment. such as that what would be More sympathetic in these instances would be to say Nothing, "if there's nothing but dismissal / making it first & foremost about someone else's feelings to say, don't say it at all" style

#reading also that original Lovelessness essay ''love is meant to make me human / love is also the mechanism by which my humanity #has been denied'' always preferring to have [sorry! couldn't fully bottle up this Emotiona externally manifesting at all!] Ignored rather #than ''nicely'' interacted with so as to Invalidate; Dismiss; someone's annoyed at you for having it; etc #for bonus context like we are not in the same boat with it. #not a case of ''the same situation; mine is worse though'' like no; fundamentally different situations here lmao. mine is worse #If You Feel So Bad. Or At All. then at least now do me the favor of Not Saying That; Repeatedly #their feelings put on me too in other ways. stewing resentment into lashing out; tossing out ''but i'm justified'' like ok! Your business!! #the ol like. If You're Going To Do Something Anyways then how you justify it to yourself is Your business / b/w you & your god as they say #& the last thing to do is be making it the problem of ppl Most Affected by what you're gonna do anyways & Also ask their Absolution..... #like if you need more moral support abt What You're Doing Anyways: turn to Anyone Else. even No One if you have to. #bit going tf through it when it's spilling over into Posting but such is life!! we all have that [the horrors. girl help] blogger on dash #again the tl;dr like oh you don't say. the [umm but have you considered? My Feelings! (they're so sympathetic at all. yor welcome)] is #the mechanism through which Really basic sympathy is being denied & replaced with [Saying Nothing would've been less hurtful] #misgendering me the other night too while Also all 'hey I'm trying to talk to the customer service. why are You going up & talking first' #(that was me experiencing the latter. i didn't say it but i was like cmon. my glasses are fogging up w/surgical mask (don't have access to #more effective masks so doing what Nonzero i can there) i'm a bit carsick i'm weathering a crisis. can i have anything here lol) #just Oh You Know. The Horrors.... #balancing ofc trying to endure trying to self soothe etc etc. with ''it's the horrors. it's gonna be horrific & you're gonna be affected'' #ah the [being kind to oneself] like also means knowing how reasonable it is to Not solo contain & endure & Cope Through everything.... #crushing a paper cup in my hands genuinely i would like to generously thank my virtual allies out here today. mic feedback #irl In Real Life? life is Real asf here & nobody Realer than them

[thefirstknife]

Following up on the ask about the Titan supers, going for the fantasy expectation question specifically- Titans are, thematically, front-line tacticians. People throw around Spartan, Paladin, Soldier, titles like that. What bungie seems to see them as is a big gorilla, or the Hulk, and I feel that does a disservice to the actual characterization of the class. Even if it does different things in gameplay, debuffing for example, running around punching is creatively boring. I'd like a utility supe

The problem is, how do you translate "front-line tactician" into a playable ability? A tactician is someone who makes plans to execute a strategy. Titans are well known to be able to make plans, both ahead of time and on the go, as well as improvise in the heat of battle, but that is simply incredibly metaphysical to make first person shooter gameplay out of.

As an example, would I like if, as a Titan, I could use destructible environment to quickly create a throwing melee or super? Sure. A game where a piece of concrete can be destroyed and then you can pick it up and use it to throw it at enemies or create a temporary barricade or do whatever else you might come up with to simulate a front-line tactician would be unfathomably cool. And also impossible to do in Destiny as it exists right now.

We can extend that to other classes as well. Warlocks are scholars and students of the arcane space magics and should be able to specialise in specific fields and then weave them as they see fit in millions of different ways, but instead their supers are; throw void orb, throw void orb but it tracks, you are void orb, solar sword on fire, solar sword on fire in the ground, electric fingers, electric beam and stick.

Hunters are supposed to be agile scouts and explorers who trek the wilderness and map the unknown, but I'm forced into known missions with fireteams instead of having an open world to map out alone for others. My supers are gun with three bullets, gun with six bullets, knives, bow with one shot, bow with three shots, knives, spin stick, throw stick and tornado.

There's very obviously a limit to what the class is in lore and setting and what it can be in gameplay. I totally understand the disappointment about the new super being seemingly "the same" as the last one ("element on fists, punch"), but I feel like a lot of the complaints and demands are quite literally impossible and unreasonable. And some of the complaints can be applied to other two classes as well.

I think it's good to tell Bungie that we would like more variety in supers, especially as it pertains to their viability in various content. I would 100% love for an additional super for stasis and strand and for Titans to have more ranged options because in a lot of cases you can't really get close range to enemies. Stomps, pushback, environmental hazards and other issues limit what we can use melee abilities for.

Obviously I've not played the strand stuff so I'm working with what we've been told and shown, but I think it's fairly obvious that strand IS a utility super. It's the most utility since void and overshield; strand not only gives you and your teammates damage reduction, but also controls the battlefield by suspending enemies. Like, by all accounts strand is a utility subclass with a lot of debuffing and buffing options and movement utilities.

I also think it's reductive to say that the new strand super is just "gorilla." It really isn't. I am not aware of gorillas being able to control the battlefield by suspending enemies in the air and locking down a whole section while empowering allies with damage reduction utilities. And being able to control the battlefield and empower your allies while you plan out your attack and dish out damage is, quite literally, a tactician move.

I think both Behemoth and Berserker are much closer to the front-line tactician fantasy since void. If anything is "gorilla" it's Fists of Havoc. A lot of people shit on Behemoth but if you really want utility and being able to perform multiple tasks at once with your super, Behemoth is one of the things to pick. Need to kill enemies? Got it. Need to freeze them while you deal with something else? Got it. Need to block off an area? Got it. Need to create barricades for your team? Got it. Your team needs overshield which you can give them by making stasis shards with your super? Got it. The problems with Behemoth not being used much are with a completely different section of issues, which is activity, encounter and enemy designs.

If Berserker is truly similar in any way, then it's in this this way imo, as it gives you options to use your super in different ways for different purposes depending on what you need. Like a tactician. I think people are way too focused on the idea that you use your fists and not at all focusing on the actual utility and options of the super. Though obviously if someone just isn't vibing with it, it's not something that people can change.

#destiny 2 #lightfall #strand #ask #long post #again i'm fully sympathetic to people who wanted something different. i would not be opposed to something different #but i think a lot of the complaints are just not something that is feasible as a gameplay mechanic #in destiny at least. destiny won't turn into a turn-based combat game or fully fledged RPG over night. or... ever #also if any titan super needs changing it's fists of havoc. they simply have no utility or any special use #they're vastly overshadowed by thundercrash and both other melee based supers have more utility #behemoth can also be used at range because you cast stasis crystals forward in a cone so it can be used while you're in cover #and it also provides more cover for you and teammates if you need it as well as freezes enemies if they're not immediately killed #strand also does cc and empowers allies. fists is just close range damage and nothing else. you can just use thundercrash #berserker seems very interesting to me and i can't wait to try it out. it may turn out bad or it may turn out op. or just average #i would ALSO love for a second super for stasis and strand. i will be banging my pots and pans about it until it happens

[ducktracy]

as a Porky Fanatic i’ve always loved just about every classic iteration of his character, but the more i analyze and comb through these cartoons i find myself becoming more and more enamored with Clampett’s approach: blundering and oblivious, but incredibly endearing and charming whose humor is largely (and anomalously) derivative from his sincerity.

 this particular clip is such a perfect combination of embracing that sort of sincerity and almost encouraging it, but also poking polite fun at how eccentric and comically naïve he is (as reflected through the dog’s very succinct commentary.) only Porky would find it acceptable to breathlessly explain his life’s story to some random dog he found then feeling the need to politely excuse himself and leave with absolutely no warning, and that in itself is just as funny as any other visual gag or screwball escapade. a-ma-zing!

#i posted this back in 2019 and went to reblog it with the above thoughts but the tags were so long winded i just made a new post for it #the curse of getting access to better prints and being more articulate outside of 'THIS IS CUTE he is silly' #i really do miss this sort of sincerity in the filmmaking though as much as i love some of the more cynical cartoons and realize how they're #able to capitalize on their individual strengths to maybe a greater degree #i think you can have your characters be earnest and poke fun at their genuineness without being callous about it (or at least direct said #callous approach to characters who aren't as sympathetic in nature and work well with that sort of humor) #i say this while adoring the McKimson/early Jones approach of having Porky seen as a ruthless antagonist LOL. Freleng too to a degree #sincere doesn't equal boring you just have to sometimes dig a little further to find the humor and honestly i feel that makes it so much #more rewarding and why i love Porky as much as i do he's the only character who makes me laugh purely without doing anything on purpose #and if you've made it this far:this is animated by Bobe Cannon #lt #wise quacks #clampett #vid

[vxctorx]

[ you're telling me that the Jokester is to play Thomas Ripley? Why are they treating him like James Bond in the trailer ]

#[ he was the antagonist in the book and only in the film (which i hope they're not trying to remake) was he a somewhat sympathetic character #[ so i have no idea what they're trying to do here lol but if he brings his Jokester Moriart.y style to this series I'll definitely watch] #[ at least it'll be funny ] #[ also someone on tumblr saying 'he was born for this' afjskalkh no he wasn't ] #; out of tea

[todayisafridaynight]

something something some yakuza antagonists ideals are completely valid and if they just went about them a different way the whole situation wouldnt have been life or death something something. something something i will agree with an antag (nishiki WHO SAID THAT) more if their reasoning behind what theyre doing is solid enough (yeah girl be mentally ill i support you i'll get you help too) something something

this goes for outside of yakuza too idk why im adding it but like. personally i love antags more than the protags because 1 more interesting 2 bro 99% of the time theyre just so mentally unwell if they had help as a child or just someone by their side supporting them enough in life they wouldnt be doing any of that shit 3 half the time theyre just. right. about the status of things? and i got that autistic sense of justice behind me so i automatically side with them like they go about it the wrong way but theyre right my bad 4 not all antags are evil even theyre literally there because the protaganist needs a foil the whole light needs dark dark needs light thing blah blah 5 theyre bad bitches i cant deny a bad bitch their non-heroic deeds.

i need to type up another slideshow about the intricacies of characters and why so and so did what they did or why so and so shouldnt be faulted for their ideals. god i love writing about characterization i love writing i need to write of course people can dislike "bad guys" theyre written to be disliked because of the perspective you see them from but i love being like oooh hoo hoo you are a hidden gem you are a diamond in the rough damn ya ass fat whats ya trauma? oh god this is long uhm. yeah :]

anon you're spitting but im too drunk to make a good response just know im nodding and listening and agreeing

#snap chats #i stand by that aoki's only flaw was that he was a republican #but Real i get you i usually like antags more than the protags #or i at least gush about them more #maybe its a psychological issue where i see bits of myself in them and can ergo relate #cough cough masato cough cough mine sorry who said that #moreover antags are just funnier. i can excuse 90% of crimes if you're funny #like antags are fun because they're like. they're like if we listened to every intrusive thought we had #like 'damn thatd be fucked if we did that let's watch this guy do it from the safety of our couch' #tho tbh anon ily but i feel like youre tping this mostly from a nishiki lens #cause what nishiki did is probably the easiest to justify from our antags ?? #i mean ryuji was just fucking around tbh. his motives are funny #but mine wanting to kill a man he loves because he sees his life as useless now is p twisted #and i dont have to explain aoki we know. like there's no justifying those two's actions #there's reasoning but it's harder to justify them compared to akira 'everything went wrong so i became stronger' nishikiyama #he's the most sympathetic villain out of the batch My Drunk Brin Is Telling Me #idk where im going with this ramble anymore point is Ask Good

[leqclerc]

I saw some comments of Italians saying that in the beginning of last season, when ferrari had their first issues, charles still sound positive and hopeful in the post race interviews. And now in the interview after the first race he already sounds apathetic and defeated like seb and alonso were before. Like he already realized this isn't going to work.

I don't know about that. Obviously it's a big shock (derogatory) and disappointment to unexpectedly DNF in the very first race of the season (especially if it was preventable) so he's hardly going to be all smiles in the immediate aftermath. I believe the drivers are expected to head straight to the media pen after a DNF, which means he basically didn't have a chance to speak to anyone from the team before heading to the media, save for Andrea, who knows about as much as Charles does. His first DNF in 2022 came in Barcelona, at a time where they had a much more competitive car from day 1 and it looked like they could still turn things around pretty easily (Max was ahead by 6 points after that race and that's after RB swapped the cars; had Checo won the race, Charles would've still had the lead in the standings.)

Whereas in this race Ferrari already knew they were on the back foot relative to Red Bull, and that podium was much-needed for the team. So obviously the frustration and disappointment is going to show. However, he looked pretty happy in the pics from his visit to the factory today, so I think the motivation is still there. I remember seeing quotes going around of Charles admitting he's feeling better in the car than he did during testing, so that's already a tentative positive. They supposedly have all this straight line speed banked, so it'll be interesting to see how they'll do on a track where tyre degradation is less of an issue, plus the rumoured wing upgrades...

There's been a lot of defeatism going around, both from the fans but perhaps more surprisingly from the teams themselves, after just one race that probably wasn't all that representative. Remember, some people really, truly believed the season was already decided after Australia last year. Does it look like more of an uphill climb this year compared to last season? Yes, no doubt. But to publicly throw in the towel, like Mercedes is doing, after one race? All this talk of this being the longest-ever season of F1 and people are just shrugging and writing it off. Sure, it looks predictable from where we're standing today, but it's still F1 and there's always a possibility of crazy unexpected shit happening. 🤷🏻‍♀️

#replies #anonymous #realistically it doesn't look peachy right now for anyone who's not a red bull fan i get it i see it #but deciding the outcome of the entire season based on one race alone feels a bit hasty all the same #i get it for a team like merc playing the defeatism card this early on only ensures that they'll be seen in a more sympathetic light #and yknow should they bag any podiums or whatever down the line (even if it's thanks to on-track insanity rather than on performance merit) #then they're automatically making themselves look like the big comeback kings and this grand underdog narrative is alive and well #idk maybe it's idealistic of me but if you don't stay at least a bit open-minded you're probably hampering your enjoyment #there's always some kind of drama and narratives and surprises playing out across the season and im sure we'll get some this year too #discussions and predictions

[picory]

i need to draw them too. i just have to figure out how.. what situation to put them in...

#phoenix would first think keaton's a bit weird and absent-minded but nice #then he learns the guy used to be a high ranked military soldier and maybe shits his pants a little #but THEN he'd think ''how is this guy both so cool but such a dork...'' #but i think they'd make good friends. or at least acquaintances #they definitely have a few things in common. like their determination to find the truth to help those in need #no matter what it takes! they're both perceptive. though keaton is more so... scarily perceptive #they're kind and sympathetic. but phoenix can be snarky and sarcastic unlike keaton #they're investigators! but for keaton that's his job. phoenix is not supposed to do that as a lawyer lol... #aaand they're both single dads with daughters. so they can bond over how much they love their smart little girls #yuriko and trucy have to form a friendship. for me #characters from my various favorite media have to be friends because i say so #there's probably more similarities i just can't think of any at the moment #on the other hand keaton is much more level-headed than phoenix. he always keeps his cool in dangerous situations. but that comes from #his military background i guess. also he's 40 so more seasoned. at the start of his career phoenix was only 24 and he did NOT expect #to be punched in the face by a shady company's CEO or be confronted by the mafia or be tased by a prosecutor #the man just wanted to be a lawyer. who knew that job attracted so much danger. of course he wouldn't be very calm #fast forward to disbarred phoenix who gets hit by a car but he doesn't give a shit. like he's used to this. just another tuesday tee-hee #quacks

[jlf23tumble]

We (it’s me, I’m the problem) lie to ourselves if we think Harry can’t be at the level he is/aspires to be without publicity in whatever form that takes. We can be annoyed or disgusted or feel like it makes him look a certain way (spoiler alert: everyone already thought he was a himbo homewrecker fuck boy who is straight anyway), but talent only gets you so far. Being closeted means he really has to double down on the BS and keep narratives alive. If he were a cishet dude he could probably have a different approach but since he’s never been able to actually publicly date a person he’s sexually interested in, it’s all about feeding the sharks with these antics.

Yeah, I feel this, and I wonder what happens behind the scenes on the anxiety front because the higher you rise, the sharper the knives (as someone once famously said, and I hate him, but yeah, Mr. Ginger Spice was right on that front). I also increasingly feel like for both of them--Harry and Louis--the loud larrie contingent is a huge liability, not some kind of mega support system they can rely on. When you start atting people and shouting about how it's all so loud loud loud, that's why you see what you see (which is literally nothing).

#lookin' at you everyone screaming about babygate #the lenny with his rabbit phenomenon #it's real! #anon about sam smith and lil nas x #i'm only gonna say that i doubt they resent it #if anything i bet they're sympathetic #not least of which because one of those two was actually outed before he wanted to be #and i doubt he would want that for ANYONE #and nobody should want that for someone #which is my major beef with most larries #that is ACTIVELY the goal #outing them #and it's so fucking gross

[marshmellowtea]

lila/tanya is. first of all a severely underrated ship but second of all perpetually funny to me because i always picture it in one of two ways, those ways being "seriously angsty enemies to lovers that may or may not also involve william in some way" or "lila has an existential gay crisis because she's never had a crush on anyone before and it's on the ONE girl she's decided to have a (probably one-sided tbh) rivalry with and that's terrible. for her at least. everyone else thinks it's kinda funny"

#william sympathetically letting lila vent to him in the second scenario but inside he's also laughing at her just a little #also just to be clear they don't think it's funny because she's having a crush for the first time they're appropriately sympathetic about #that part. it's moreso that it's on the ONE girl she decided she hated for what seems like (to most people at least) no goddamn reason #even william who knows the reasons knows that they're extremely petty ones so like. she's lucky he's NICE #cuz he could easily make fun of her for it aghkldjflk #who's lila #who's lila? #lila #tanya kennedy #marshy speaks #btw. not that anyone cares lmao but i was gonna say 'write' when i first started writing this post #but i haven't.....written anything for this ship yet. i haven't been working on any of my projects ghkldsajf #i do have aus for both of these thoughts though #for the first one i have a 'lila takes over will but doesn't kill tanya so she just kinda torments her until oops they catch feelings' au #and then i also have a vaguely killing eve inspired au #(don't ask about that one) #(or do idk maybe i do wanna talk about that one ghldsjfl. it Haunts Me) #and for the second one i have an au where lila and will are a system that's. coughvaguelykininspiredcoughhRK #where lila having to deal with her feelings was a major plot point and it just so happened that one of those feelings was her demiromantic #lesbian ass dealing with a crush for the first time OOPS good luck girl #and then also i've been entertaining a regular high school au with human!lila with this ship #idk could be fun. i just think they should be Gay #anyway that's enough tags on this thing if you read this you're basically a saint HGLKDSJFKLSDF

[bxdtime-ceai]

rough

#i have so much respect for everyone who is posting so much about palestine rn #when blm started getting more in the mainstream a few years ago i was big about it on social media when i couldnt attend the protests #and it made me a target for everyone in my community #i knew it was coming #but i didnt realize how unprepared i was #now years later i had to move to another country to get away from them #even though they were all i had #and all i still have while also not having #the israwl-palestine stuff is even more polarising for them than blm #it's such a weird thing to grow up in a racist community that actually has a history of oppression in our home country #you'd think that would make them more sympathetic to the palestinian cause or at least the oppression of the global south and poc in genera #but no #they live in this weird world where they're still being oppressed #i once reported them for having huge gatherings without masks without any safety measures during peak covid #all it did was push them more in the opposite direction #my honours thesis was on palestinian activism #i didnt even tell my mom what the actual research was #when i told her it had to do with palestinians she immediately gave me a speech about how im on the wrong side of history etc etc #and now seeing it all over social media even more often than before #im happy to see it #but #i wish i could join #without becoming a target again #i already lost everything but i know i could lose it again #but is it that important? #it's my only connection to my heritage #esp now that i moved there are no ppl from my country here #i cant talk to anyone #i can barely speak the local language here #they've sent someone to 'watch me' to make sure i am not doing stuff they dont like under the guise of 'helping me'

[opqrstuv04]

Was almost an hour late to work today because I mixed up my shifts and lo and behold I had TWO appointments (5 and 5:45), which is 1) the busiest I've been since I started, and 2) I've been sitting here playing mahjong io for the past hour and Nobody has dropped in, which makes me feel even stupider. Also I've lost like 11 straight mahjong games in a row. Hell world.

#I did complete the appointment with the 5:45 guy he probably didn't care too bad that I was 5-10 min late #I gotta remind myself that most people are probably chill like I would be if somebody shows up a little late #or at least they're sympathetic cos I was clearly flustered #but I fully missed the first guy and now I'm positive my boss hates me n I am going to get fired (I won't). Whatever whatever whatever #(<- said with an obviously faked air of nonchalance) #it will all be okay. #💌