#certainly couldn’t be me!

[outer-edges]

reblogging a post about wanting to talk to mutuals but being scared only for your mutuals to interact with the post, and still no one starts a conversation is next level mutual behavior

#and this post is the same kind of post #but it’s meta #mutual-ception #or something #in all reality tho it’s just cuz l #every time i convince myself that they must be thinking of SOME OTHER mutual #certainly couldn’t be me! #that would be preposterous

[overtake]

red bull: daniel’s bad habits from mclaren are fixed, he did well in the sim, and his tire test was so good that we immediately knew he was ready to be in a car.

alpha tauri & yuki: daniel’s feedback on the car has been instrumental, and he performed so well in difficult race conditions even though he didn’t have any upgrades and had some bad luck.

rando twitter user who doesn’t have the data, didn’t know liam lawson’s name three weeks ago, and constantly insults the way red bull quickly drops drivers who don’t perform: they’re only letting him drive for pr even though he’s a washed up failure.

#like is red bull too harsh on their drivers or are they hiring a pr merchant who can’t perform. pick a side. #it’s just hilarious that every single person who actually knows the sport & daniel’s data/contributions #won’t shut up about how helpful he’s been and how well he’s done and how mclaren doesn’t reflect his performance #but these random people on twitter think they know better #and their excuse is ‘well liam scored points’ as if he isn’t driving a different car entirely lmfao #like liam has done well! i like liam a lot! #but he’s benefited from a better car/things happening around him in the race/not being head to head against yuki #he’s done a great job but there’s literally been ZERO real head to head comparison between the 3 drivers #but alpha tauri/red bull rate daniel and they have his data and know what hes done for the car & setup #i don’t ever deny that daniel’s popularity certainly doesn’t hurt #but they dropped nyck like he was nothing #red bull axes anyone who can’t perform #if daniel couldn’t do it then he wouldn’t have a seat. not that hard to understand. #people on the internet make me feral. i cannot use the internet. i need to stick to my curated feeds bc everyone is so STUPID.

[lunar-years]

Also also. the magic is that Roy thinks he’s going to be the one helping Jamie to be a better athlete and be greater than Zava and solidify his place on the team etc. and on the surface level, sure he is. BUT on a deeper second level it will be Jamie helping Roy (who has been sooo off these first few episodes. Btw.) on his journey to recognizing his pattern of leaving behind really good things before he can be hurt by them. This is how their best-friendism will lend itself to the realization of how similar they are in both being deeply repressed and unable to accept the care and love they deserve. Over the course of the season they will become the best versions of themselves TOGETHER in no small part because of the other. In this essay—

#I fully think Jamie is going to be parent trapping Roy & Keeley at some point. btw. #(with the fun additional angle of how much he also wants to be dating both of them) #(but is convinced they couldn’t possibly feel the same way) #(and so even if Jamie doesn’t get to be happy at least his two favorite people deserve to be happy with one another) #(and then in the end it’s of course mutual and they all kiss—) #(no WAIT hear me OUT—) #Jamie Tartt #Roy Kent #ted lasso #ted lasso predictions #ted lasso spoilers #(<- I certainly hope) #Royjamie #Roy x Jamie #Roy Kent x Jamie Tartt

[su-angelvicioso]

~Here guys! Have another old creation I never posted (✿◕‿◕)ﾉ 💟✨~

💍💟💎💜✨

I created this moodboard a long time ago based on an old headcanon that came to my mind, but I never posted. I still don’t know why haha. 😅 I gave it a purple theme because I simply love purple.

Headcanon: María’s mate had intended to marry her before his demise.

María discovered an unfamiliar ring interwoven within the underside of the serape that belonged to the love of her life. Placed onto her with a certain gentle admiration that only one who loved her deeply could have done. She’d spent the whole day wondering when she’d give it back to him. It was his after all… she’d woven it herself specifically for him to wear.

She no longer had to wonder.

She wouldn’t give it back to him now even if he physically came back to life and asked for it.

~☔️🌌

She questioned how she hadn’t paid attention to the weird sensation she felt rubbing against her skin while underneath the fabric the entire time, not until it was the only thing left to notice…

Not until it was practically the only thing she had left of him.

She was never bright when it came to romance, so it took her longer than one should to figure out what it meant, why it had been on his person,

and why she had no idea about it’s existence

Not up until that point anyway….

~🎆💟

It’s almost like he knew, almost like life is funny that way. At least, that’s what she tells herself because she couldn’t dare think about what could’ve been, what WOULD’VE been had they not…

She couldn’t spend a second to think about how she would have responded. Would she sob? Would she flick his forehead and say “¡Levántate, tonto!”, would she jump on him and kiss him like some fairytale? She didn’t know.

She would never know now…

There’s a reason she wears white every time she visits his gravestone specifically.

~🕊️💍

#I remember when someone was speaking about her family #explaining how she is clearly not an ‘unfeeling’ person considering her descent into madness #was losing the people she loved most #and losing ALL of them… #along with everything else… #they said she’s known as this ruthless unfeeling vampire… yet she also had a family #they said she was ‘‘basically like the Cullens’’ in terms of having a vampire family unit… and yet… (let me stop this rant here lolz!) #Anyways! my point is I kinda ran with that thinking about how the Cullens ‘believe in marriage’ considering they’re all married #and I thought they couldn’t be the ONLY vampires that maybe still believe in marriage and harbor some religious beliefs from the human days #they certainly weren’t the only ones to form familial bonds as vampires… #but even THAT choice was stolen from her in both her human & vampire life #María sweetie I’m so sorry! (genuinely lol) #maría my beloved #maria #maría #maria twilight #twilight maria #twilight #the twilight saga

[garoujo]

was on a second date at the weekend & i was seconds away from sleeping w the dude but he literally looked me straight in the face and asked me if i considered it a hook up or a couple thing because he really liked me and seen it as the latter & i’ve never climbed off of someone faster

#ʚ・◞📎 — em entry. #i did him a favour honestly #my fight or flight activated bro i almost died #i literally jolted WAT it’s the second date … second & last :< pls forget me #we’re certainly not a COUPLE #that man’s soul would’ve been mine had i not left i couldn’t do it #my venus is in gemini sorry

[shrekshugebadussy]

started playing The Arcana again bcuz i forgot it was a thing and i never finished it (only got halfway thru Asra’s route) & i got very curious about Lucio’s route since he’s practically the dead one & how that would work and let me tell you when that motherfucker opened his mouth… yeah i knew i was in trouble 🙃

#he most certainly fits my type #i mean he’s a little (a lot) full of himself. confident asshole. troubled. protective & flirty. mischievous. #just… #i’m ngl kinda reminds me of astarion a bit #but yeah i saw an ad for it and forgot it existed & i started the Asra route again #but i had to restart bcuz i couldn’t remember what happened #but i think i stopped reading before bcuz i constantly had no coins & i couldn’t earn them thru the wheel & i kept losing the game 🥲 #i get they’re an indie developer but i hate that i have to spend so much just for a special scene #but only did i now learn that the paid choices do not affect the ending so i’m glad about that #i think that’s what mostly turned me away last time #i thought the coined choices got the good ending 😭 #anyways #mine #the arcana #delete later? #oof

[pollyanna-nana]

Anyone else w/ selective mutism (either now or as a kid) feel kind of weird abt fanworks always giving characters who have it sign language to communicate with. Like on the one hand I get it but on the other I didn’t have that experience I just couldn’t talk and Suffered.

#Polly speaks #it took me a while to figure out why a lot of fan interpretations of mute characters didn’t sit completely right with me but this is it #because in my experience signing most certainly wouldn’t have helped #bc it was less about the actual speaking part and more the communicating my thoughts in any way angle #writing was an option but I couldn’t do that either #idk it’s probably different for a lot of people but I’d like more representation for ppl like me #this is why sonic in my fics won’t use SL even tho I kno that’s a popular headcanon to pair with SM sonic #Also writing Metal in these fics has been cathartic for me. struggling to communicate due to mental blocks sucks!!! #anyway rant over. idk maybe I’m weird for this

[strohller27]

Man. Last year was wild (memories and musings under the cut).

One memory from last year that I probably wont be over anytime soon is when I was working a retail popup on the waterfront for the cruise ship guests.

A bit of context: At this point of last year, I was painfully homeless and when I wasn’t spending $2200 a month airbnb-hopping, I was living out of a tent at a campground to save money. My access to showers and potable drinking water was iffy at best (the showers on the campground were $2 for five minutes, and the closest water spout that worked well enough to fill bottles with was the literal bathroom sink. I’m surprised the water didn’t make me sick. The water from there often left a really weird taste/cottony sensation in the back of my throat that took days to get rid of, unless I boiled it first, and that was *if* I had access to a power outlet and an electric kettle. Also one of the airbnbs I stayed at got the water shut off for almost 28 hours because the host wasn’t paying his goddamn bills. But that’s a story I tell elsewhere). I had no reliable access to refrigeration, whether I was at an airbnb or the campground, so everything I bought to eat had to be non-perishable. For a while there, I was skipping breakfast to save enough money to buy myself loaves of bread, peanut butter, protein bars, and ramen packets.

If I wanted a hot meal, the best thing I could get was Tim Horton’s (and when I did, I was mostly using a credit card). Sometimes the only reason I could afford to both eat and have a place to stay was because I had built up Tim’s rewards points.

Thank goodness it was still mostly summer and I wasn’t also freezing cold at night.

And then I had to go to work and there were so many customers at that waterfront popup telling me I should give them discounts because “Well, I’m broke, I spent all of my money on a cruise!”

Oh? Oh??? I’m so sorry, you poor, unfortunate little soul???? Does the poow wittle bwoke babykins need a wittle discount??

First off, friendo, you keep asking me if the price is in ‘american’ because you forgot that you’re in a literal different country right now. Second, you’re complaining to a minimum wage worker about how, ‘everything is so expensive here! Oh my god you have to pay that much in taxes? What do you mean I have to pay taxes on purchases, too’. You have main character syndrome and you have the absolute goddamned gall to think you deserve $300 off a $500 handmade, HAND EMBROIDERED woollen cape that you probably won’t even wear because you live in texas????

OH, YOU “““CAN’T AFFORD””” TO BUY THAT 30 DOLLAR SCARF BECAUSE YOU *CHECKS NOTES* HAD ENOUGH MONEY TO GO ON A LITERAL INTERNATIONAL FUCKING CRUISE, BETSY-ANN??

CRY ME A FUCKING RIVER.

But the one that gets me the worst was when a guy was there with his daughter. She was probably 12 or 13. And she wanted to buy a little Canadian flag to commemorate her visit. It was literally priced at. Two. Dollars. Ninety five. Cents.

And he said to her, “Oh, come on. What good is buying this going to do? Who is it supporting.”

I was so done by that point I literally raised my hand and yelled.

“ME IT WILL SUPPORT ME IT WILL HELP ME DO FUN LITTLE THINGS LIKE BUY GROCERIES. AND EAT.”

The daughter bought the flag.

I spent so much of last year worrying about where I was going to live. Worrying about how precarious my situation was. My mother was on the phone with me almost begging me to “come home”. To give up on my dreams because it was too hard. Several people suggested that, including my academic advisor. But I wasn’t going to let it go. I let spite get me here and goddamned if I wasn’t going to let spite keep me hanging on.

And now I’m living in a place that has mostly everything I need. I don’t have to crawl under a desk to get to my bed. I don’t have to ask for permission or worry about who it will affect when I want to do something nice for myself. I’m able to make my own decisions about my living space. I get to set my own schedule. I get to do things at my own pace. I get to eat what I want to eat (and my landlady keeps feeding me, too). Now that I’m not hemorrhaging funds, I’ve been able to save up some money. I’m regularly showering and brushing my teeth. I finally have the energy make my goddamned bed every day. I’m taking care of myself in ways that seemed insurmountable last year.

I’m not saying it’s perfect, and there are still things I have to address (like the weird numb spots on the tips of both my big toes that I noticed when I was still living at the campground; like staying on a consistent schedule with my medications; like taking too many hours at work because I’m worried about affording things). And I’m aware that I completely lucked out that I speak enough Russian to be able to understand my landlord/lady. But this is so much better than I could have hoped for.

And the rest of it wasn’t all bad either. Airbnb-hopping was expensive, but staying in different areas helped me learn the city. And now I’m working at a place that I don’t hate with a passion like I did when I was working food service in the states. I actually really like my coworkers (and funny enough, the small business I work for really does feel like a family). I get to wear my kilts to work. I have the necessary knowledge to be a perfect fit for the job, and I was apparently ‘an answer to a prayer’.

The misty mornings on the campground were more magical than any other mornings I’ve ever experienced in my life. I walked around the campground and saw its little lake beach and river. I made friends with the spiders. I named most of them. Every time I heard the squirrels and chipmunks get into an argument I would giggle to myself and think ‘the girls are fightinng!’ I drove to the beach, and I saw a little boy hold up a crab he’d found with the biggest smile on his face when he asked if I wanted to pet it. I felt an almost uncontrollable urge to pick up the seaweed and eat it. I met interesting people. I made some friends. I went to a famous lighthouse. I rode the ferry to work and watched massive cruise ships docking, feeling as much awe as I did when I first saw Star Trek: The Motion Picture. I watched the sun both rise and set over the harbour. And I fell in love with this place despite all of the challenges that were in my path.

Perfect or not, I needed this. I needed to be self-sufficient and live my own life. I needed to see beauty and wonder and touch sand that was on a beach instead of on my bedroom floor. And I’m so sad that the only two times in my life I’ve really been able to do things like this and live the life I want were when I left the US. And because of that, I’m really not planning on going back to live there.

Funny that I had to leave the “land of the free” to really feel/be free, eh? Whatever the case, now I’m a maritimer by choice.

Here’s to 2024. May I learn from all that 2023 taught me (If shit sucks, hit da bricks. Leave. Do it scared. Do it alone and scared. Don’t settle for less than you deserve. Find beauty in the mundane. Advocate for yourself and your skills. Make decisions that will provide for your future so that you can take the steps you want to take, even if people think something like learning Russian isn’t going to be useful. Take those steps you want to take to follow your dreams, even if your dream seems flimsy like a cardboard façade to you. Even if those are the hardest steps you ever have to take. Today can be ‘someday’, if you let it. The greatest adventure is what lies ahead, today and tomorrow are yet to be said). May 2024 be a year for more steps forward than steps back.

#musings on the new year #ridiculous memories #ahh life #it’s also worth mentioning that I somehow held down three jobs and passed an online class with an A+ as all of this was going on #thank god for Tim Horton’s wifi #also I hate to think what would have happened wothout the income from all three of those jobs. i probably would have eaten less… #we’ll leave it at that #oh. I lived through two tropical storms too huh. yep. that happened. #not enough to scare me away #even though I was in a tiny camper for one of those storms #and when literally all of my possessions were in my car I couldn’t see out of the back window so I had to drive a mini cooper like it was #like it was a box truck LOLOL #2023 was wild. like. it wasn’t my worst year because I hit rock bottom a long-ass time ago #but it certainly wasn’t my best year either #my year was so fucking ridiculous it’s comical #welp. nowhere to go but up from where I was this summer! #Also I would like to personally thank Evgeni Malkin and Sidney Crosby for preventing me from going literally batshit insane

[etcnnante]

actually i have to talk about how vital yossarians sexuality is in catch 22 and how, despite how the hulu show is the best adaptation of the novel, still manages to almost completely ignore it in favor of the infidelity between yossarian and scheisskopf’s wife. which, is still a vital plot point, but to favor that almost completely over the relationship him and the chaplain share has me insaneeeee especially because of how prevalent homosexuality was among all branches of the U.S. military due to how young and inexperienced many of the drafted men (and women) were. like he CONSTANTLY calls orr a very handsome and attractive man, the most beautiful out of the entire battalion. it’s wild to me that it is never explored bc of geo.rge clo.oney’s homophobic ass

#█ ▌ 𝙜𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙤𝙪𝙩. / ooc. #( it was genuinely such a prominent phenomenon that there’s a whole book about all the gay men and lesbian women came out after the war ) #( though obviously they couldn’t be ‘out’ out- because if anyone found out about your sexuality they would discharge you 🫢 ) #( not honorable or dishonorable - just a normal discharge ! ) #( and that persisted for a lonnnng time ) #( but taking out yossarians bisexuality kills me it’s so important to bring light of such an important topic ) #( what do u think drove these people to fight for their country!?! certainly wasn’t the gov … it was bc of relationships many of the men- #shared as well as the womans corp ) #( anyways ... ) #( i will never stop screaming about yossarian and how he’s such a perfectly flawed character . ) #( and i NEED people to love him too i’m so serious he’s everything to me ) #( also clooney is genuinely a fantastic director when it comes to ww1/2 films / shows but this pissed me off so bad ) #( fuk u fuk u fuk u joseph heller would’ve HATED your ass )

[hetchdrive]

For a couple of years there my ability to write was entirely unencumbered by concerns such as Properly Executing A Vision. I had an idea and I simply wrote that idea down from start to finish. Now I have an idea and I have no idea how to execute it. I feel like I’m 19 again trying to figure out what it is about xyz piece of writing that does it for me and banging my head against a wall because I don’t have the ability to move what is inside of me out.

#writing sucks don’t do it. certainly don’t hang your sense of creative self worth on it. #learn to bake or grow tomatoes or something it’s less agonizing and also u can eat the results #i just finished reading a fic that was really good but also it ended differently than i was expecting #which made me realize i Was Expecting Something #which made me consider that I couldn’t have written this fic specifically because #i am no longer capable of executing the ideas i have to my satisfaction

[loptrcoptr]

Boss is in a long meeting with several people about who is going to help with the next seasonal school in Cambridge, and none of them want to go with him and no one they’ve asked wants to go with him, and the veeps aren’t even interested, and I’m just sitting in the next office over like

#also the only one who would potentially be useful lol I know things and places and stuff #couldn’t go last year even if I had been asked because y passport had been stolen and my new one hadn’t arrived yet #(which I think my officemate is v sad about because she was the one who went and got soooo sick in Cambridge it was terrible) #so she certainly does not want to go again and apparently the vps don’t either and I’m just sat here like :) they’ll think of me eventually #:) surely :) right lol #workflow #personal

[jinxedshapeshifter]

Me: *watches LavenderTowne’s “if the world’s deadliest poisons were people” videos in bed at 1:30am*

My brain: hey what if you fell asleep while the video was playing and woke up at 1:38am to the video being over

Me: hey what

#jinxed chatter #lavendertowne #shitpost #not the weirdest thing ive fallen asleep to but certainly up there #especially considering the video ending woke me up???? #imagine being able to say you took a 1:30am power nap. couldn’t be me

[tyrramint]

You are my only friend ~ I am undone without you.

#Well. I decided to post it! #I know everyone’s already drawn it and certainly better than me but I couldn’t help myself #tlt #the locked tomb #griddlehark #gideon nav #harrowhark nonagesimus #my art #digital art #drawing #illustration

[labyrynth]

*opens jgy tag*

“the difference between WWX and JGY is that JGY is straight-up evil. he isn’t a victim of circumstance or anything, he was just BORN dirty evil. he had so many options and he GLEEFULLY chose to murder little boys and girls.”

“(unlike WWX, who is NEVER selfish and is ALWAYS selfless and ALWAYS knows what’s RIGHT and WWX saves CHILDREN’S LIVES. how many children did jgy save?? NONE.)”

…*closes jgy tag*

#mdzs talk #jgy tag #this…can’t even be called analysis adjacent #they couldn’t even bother with factual accuracy??? #like you’re really gonna sit there and claim that torturing hundreds of people to death wasnt selfish?? #that relishing in their suffering was for the greater good?? #you’re gonna sit there and pretend that jgy had power before nmj and jgs kicked it?? #you’re gonna sit there and pretend that the watchtowers don’t exist??? the hundreds to thousands of people who have benefitted #from the safety the watchtowers provide?? #quite frankly if number of children saved is the metric we’re working with here #jgy FAR surpasses wwx!!! #wwx’s total is one (1) child saved almost certainly dozens of children orphaned #and at least one child’s body desecrated in death! #and you’re gonna tell me that mister ‘the power is ALL MINE…! so how do we feel about public safety infrastructure?’ is the problem?? #god i’m so tempted to reply to op bc this POST #it sounds like they?? haven’t read the book at all? or seen any version of the show??? #i mean for crying out loud mdzs is not a story about ‘good guy wwx defeats the evil jgy and all is right with the world again’ #mdzs is not a story of good vs evil #and if that was your takeaway you should probably still be in school

[phantomdecibel]

epic: the musical lives in my head like a raccoon in the attic. but we already be knew that—

#it’s too late for coherent thoughts but i couldn’t lay down and go to sleep until I’d put this idea out into the world #oh boy! epic the musical brainrot strikes again! #I am yet again beating back epic the musical with a mop so I can finally go the fuck to sleep #I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again: this musical might not be the sole reason my sleep schedule is shit #BUT #it certainly isn’t making it any better. #it’s midnight and I have to be up by 7 :/ #epic the musical #goodnight. now I sleep. #or at least try to my hands are itching to pick my tablet pen back up and keep drawing scenes of Ody on a boat #inspired by full speed ahead of course #it’s one of the songs permanently bolted to the walls of my brain :/ #wait I’m getting distracted #fuck shit no. goodnight. goodnight for real. wish me luck #expect more incoherent thoughts tomorrow the lectures are SO brain numbing I’ll have at least one for sure

[corvidcrowned]

Tell us about the ai idiots

Hiiii hello hiii omg hiiiii

So let me tell you. About how th e guys initially became self aware tee hee.

You see, the simulations were going smoothly, and as programmed. until about the 15th run.

You see, midori was a bit upset over the fact he was no longer included in the death game and in extension his ai was deleted, so he messed with the servers by simply enough. Splashing hot coffee onto some important bits.

This happened just as a simulation was coming to it’s end, so sarai witnessed the entire world around him get reduced to code before being transported to the winner’s room. (Basically an empty yellow file saf made to keep the winner of each sim in while she marked down the results. Sometimes she talks to the ais, especially sarai as we’ve covered)

It was too late to fix everything completely, and suddenly everything glitched out. Including the ais. And sarai… didn’t reset from the last simulation. She retained all of his memories.

And it stayed that way.

#Safalin at first was a bit shocked. Bothered even. By this frantic ai going on about how this couldn’t be possible! #But sarai grew on her. The little thing was certainly better company than most of her coworkers. #Though. Sarai appreciates safalin’s presence much more than safalin appreciates sarai. #chicken scratch #ai test idiots #Imagine me laying on my stomach kicking my legs with my hands holding up my head as I tell you this