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[gunkbaby]

i think shuu's overall arc throughout all of tokyo ghoul is so much more compelling if u view him as anorexic and autistic.

#tw ana mention #tw ed mention #ed mention #chomp.com #gunk #shuu gunk

[gunkbaby]

a lot of people fail to understand that lots of people with eating disorders are fully aware they are unwell. that’s the point.

some of u so genuinely believe eds are ‘just’ wanting to be thin, ‘just’ the result of diet culture, ‘just’ fatphobia. you fail to realise that part of the appeal is getting sicker, that death is part of the appeal. Even if being thin was the original aim, at a certain point it stops being about that. Eating disorders are so much bigger than that, they’re so much bigger than just one thing.

EDs are some of the most dangerous illnesses because of suicide, not the ed itself. People with eds are most likely very well aware of what they’re doing, you telling us we’re not is not helping us the way you think it is. We are aware we are sick, and we want to get sicker.

When you tell us we’re sick, we’re going to die - etc - that’s not helpful for many of us. Most of the time, all it’s done for me is make me feel more alone, and more inclined to take my illness further.

#tw ed #tw sui #tw mental illness #tw eating issues #tw ana #tw ed mention #chomp.com #tw ed rant #ramble

[gunkbaby]

I know im femme presenting and all but it makes me hate myself so much when people refer to me as a she/her or a lady or woman. makes me so uncomfortable and i cant even do anything about it

#gunk #gender issue gunk #i keep hoping that when im not fat anymore it will stop and people will just see a skeleton #i dont want to exist to anyone #i just wanna be like. bones #just a little skeleton rotting away. #thats all #tw ed #tw ed in tags #tw vent in tags #personal in tags #chomp.com

[gunkbaby]

I might 🤔make a post compiling the canonical evidence that Shuu is autistic and has an ed. 😮😮😮

Like i do consider the ed very canonical 👍but people seem to forget about it and i think it’s crucial to understanding more depth in his character. 🫠🫠I think a lot of people Still Think it’s Just Steph’s Headcanon!!! That’s Not Good You Know!!! 🫢🫢🫢

His potential autism is definitely more based on headcanons 🫡 or perhaps you would call it fanon? 🧐 i really Do not Know What the tumblr Fandom thinks outside of my Blog Interactions!!! 🫤🫤🫤

My twitter mutuals did seem to have come to the same conclusion Though! 🤩 and all the Shuu fans i have met are almost exclusively autistic 😌themselves so maybe it is some kind of folie à deux ? 🤨 or maybe he is just actually autism. 🤔🤔

But i think it is something i can look at when im bored 🥱 and want to post something more than a shitpost 🥰😊

#tw ed mention #ed mention #chomp.com #gunk #shuu gunk #shuucore

[gunkbaby]

when someone likes a post from my ed tumblr and then a different blog reblogs it immediately after

#tw ed #ed #ed mention #tw ed mention #tw ed memes #chomp.com

[gunkbaby]

i want hummus on toast so bad,,

like there’s this specific rye bread at the supermarket with hummus that just—😭😭😭😭

#i am so strong #so strong #cw food #gunk #chomp.com

[gunkbaby]

i love my forums and they help me so so much but sometimes i'll just see the most heartwrenching post from someone who's obviously very young and i just...

fuck eating disorders man

#tw ed mention #tw ed not sheeran #tw ed #tw ed implied #tw ana related #chomp.com #it's like. i feel like i deserve an ed but whenever i see anyone else struggling i just want to give them a big hug #tw ed in tags

[gunkbaby]

i might have to delay the build a bear poll and the minecraft server. sorry y'all. just today i was so poorly. terrible ed day for me. i just think i need to destress and work like mad tomorrow xx

#tw personal #tw ed mention #chomp.com

[gunkbaby]

maybe i'm pathetic and stupid for letting shuu - a fictional character - affect my life so much within seven years but like.

because of shuu i love flowers, i realised flowers make me feel very joyful. i love colour and fashion because of him. he helped me realise i was Not Straight. when i first started struggling with an eating disorder, with depression - he made me feel seen. he made me feel a little more ok with myself. he helped me understand that being 'overly emotional' or 'dramatic' wasn't a flaw.

shuu quite literally had saved my life. several times. i don't care how stupid anyone thinks i am for being so attached for him, i won't get rid of him. ever. he's been the only thing i've had to latch onto some days. i can't ever forget that.

he may be fictional, but he's real inside my head. my love for him is very much real. i will never not love him. he's changed my life only for the better. i love him so much.

#tw personal #tw slight vent #tw ed mention #tw ed #chomp.com #musings #what was happening today huh #shuucore #shuubert #zuki #personal #rambles

[gunkbaby]

tw self harm ///

thinking about that time when i was 13 and i was in inpatient and the therapists deadass started talking in extreme detail about how another kid had self harmed + where they'd found the 'tools' whilst i was in the room

i had literally od'd the week earlier btw

#tw sh #cw sh #tw sh mention #tw mental illness #chomp.com #gunk #so guess what i went home and did that day

[gunkbaby]

When u find ur new friend online but it’s on an eating d*sorder forum :

*reminder that my ed mention tag is chomp.com so please block that to avoid seeing this sort of thing!

#idc if its cringe bunnyama ride or die #they go to The Clinic together and try to recover…just girly things u know #tw ed mention #gunk #queue #wip gunk #tw ed related #chomp.com

[gunkbaby]

if i see one more white girl whipping out her guitar sing about anorexia i swear to god—

#less indie white girl more eat by poppy and 4st7lb plz #tw ed #ed ment tw #chomp.com #tw ed mention #tw ana

[gunkbaby]

tw ed shuu stuff //

speaking my truth again and adding to my last post :

i honestly think shuu would think his anorexia was his peak gourmet era.

like as someone with an ana subtype i know damn well how he would be thinking. he has the anorexia delusions. calling it.

#tw ed #tw ana #tw ed mention #shuu ed stuff #chomp.com #british people love to queue #queue #tw ana mention #tw ana shit

[gunkbaby]

If anyone ever uncovered my ED/Vent blog or any of my forum accounts I would be absolutely screwed bc I feel like I am immediately identifiable bc of my obsession with one man

#fs in chat #tw ed mention #ed not ed sheeran #chomp.com #tw ed #tw ed forum

[gunkbaby]

sometimes i do remember that shuu’s ED is actually not just me projecting but a canonical thing that happened and then i am sad.

#gunk #tw ed #tw ed mention #chomp.com

[gunkbaby]

Gah! Sometimes I go on my safest ED forum to hang out and be comfortably disordered and then I see someone that looks like I someone I used to be friends with (the guy that sort of caused my relapse to begin with) and I have a total panic. I know it isn't that person but the little anxiety spike makes me feel so awful!

#tw ed #tw ed mention #tw ed not sheeran #chomp.com #tw ed stuff #tw ed forum #forum gunk #gunk