#come home Karen i miss you😭😭

[itwasthereaminuteago]

|| As It Was ||

Frank Castle x Matt Murdock

Tags/warnings: blip angst 😭 but don't worry I wouldn't hurt you like that 😊 @munsonownsmyass gave me the title for an ask game where I'd answer with what kind of fic I'd write for it. I didn't even know it was a Hozier song when I replied that I'd write a blip fic where Frank loses Matt... then I listened to it so many times, read the lyrics and I was just like, fuck.

There is a roadway, muddy and foxgloved

Never I'd had life enough

My heart is screaming out

And in a few days I would be there, love

Whatever here that's left of me is yours just as it was

"I'm just looking after the place y'know, for when he gets back."

Karen nodded, her hand resting softly on Frank's arm as she hoped that them all just believing it would happen would be enough.

When he had found that Karen had been covering the rent and bills for Matt's apartment, Frank had taken them on and eventually with her encouragement, he moved in.

At that time it had been almost a year since half the world went away, since half of Frank's heart was lost. A void that suddenly appeared in his life and sucked everything into the deepest, blackest hole.

Of course there were others, close friends and all the everyday figures in their lives that they must have taken for granted before, all disappeared without trace, but none of them hurt as deep as the love he'd lost. He was shredded up inside, hollow and empty but for the small sliver of hope he held up, the only thing still keeping him going. Keeping him alive.

The empty apartment was both a blessing and a curse. There he could be closest to what remained of Matt, his scent ingrained into the place. Sometimes it was the biggest comfort, but the memories also made it the hardest place on earth to be. He had wandered at first, like a lost dog looking for his owner. He had to try to look, people just didn't vanish into thin air, it just wasn't possible. Although with the kind of shit that had been happening in New York in recent years who knew.

Eventually he admitted that he had to find a coping mechanism. He threw himself into work, helped Foggy and Karen as much as he could, tracking down case leads and threatening those that stood in the way of justice for the people who had lost everything. And before returning 'home', he'd work second and often third jobs just so he didn't have the time or energy to think or dream about him, using hard labour to try to achieve such a state of physical exhaustion so that sleep came sterile and dreamless.

Even so he'd wake up with red eyes, dreaming of Matt reaching out to him and then blowing away on a gentle wind, disintegrating right before him. It didn't even happen like that. He wasn't even with him. They were miles upon miles apart, Frank chasing yet another gang across Middle America for vengeance. Fuck, how selfish he'd been in hindsight. If it wasn't for his blind rage he could have been there with Matt, maybe it could have been different. Maybe it would have taken him instead somehow, he didn't know but it killed him that he hadn't been there.

Just as it was, baby

Before the otherness came

And I knew its name

The love, the dark, the light, the flame

He knows it's futile but his iron grip never lessens even after the months turn to years. The worst part of it is it's not like missing someone as if they had died, at least then you know they're really gone and never coming back. Sometimes he'd experience something, hear something and think, you'd love this, Red.

Years passed and he witnessed others 'getting back to normal', trying to make something of their forever changed lives, some of them meeting to talk through it as therapy, some moving on and dating again.

"You'll always love him Frank, I know that, but it's okay if you want to. Matt would want you to live your life." Karen would tell him, but he would shake his head and give her the same stubborn look.

"I don't wanna live my life without him."

The eyes at the heights of my baby

Let's hope at the fight of my baby

The lights were as bright as my baby

But your love was unmoved

And so Frank didn't move on. He carefully tended the memories he had for fear they would fade, honoured Matt's way of doing good for the people of their city, and prepared for the time when his lover would walk through that door and back into his arms again.

Except he wasn't prepared, no-one was.

When it happened, Frank was backing up the truck in the workyard.

"Woah woah! What the fuck dude?!" A female voice was screaming from behind.

Frank slammed on the brakes, his eyes darting up to the rearview. He could have sworn there wasn't a single soul around when he checked his mirrors and blindspot just a second ago. He cut the engine and got out. The girl he saw in the mirror strode angrily up to meet him.

"Hey buddy, look where the hell you're going next time, you nearly leveled me coming out of nowhere like that!"

Frank squinted at her for a second as she looked around in confusion.

"Where's my car? I parked up right here a couple of minutes ago…"

He shrugged. "Look, I'm real sorry for the scare but there ain't nobody else here but me lady, and I ain't seen no car either. You okay?" Frank asked. The girl was clearly convinced someone had stolen her car.

"It was literally just here! I just locked it to go to the sto-" she cut off, her eyes flicking around the building site they were standing in the middle of. "Where's the… store?"

Frank shook his head. "Ain't been a store here for 'bout 3 years now, you sure you-"

Realisation hit him so suddenly that his heart felt like it was going to fall through him, his awareness spreading out to the frenetic sounds of the nearby street, yelling, car horns honking and a hell of a commotion. Frank paled. The girl tipped her head as she heard it too.

"Are you going to tell me what the fuck is going on, mister?"

Frank takes a deep breath to try and keep his heart from exploding in panic. "Kid, do you have family nearby? Can I give you a ride someplace? I'll explain everything on the way, trust me."

.

Frank sped home as fast as he could after dropping off the girl to elated and tearful parents, but the streets were pure chaos with nearly everyone trying to do the same thing, desperate to find their loved ones. He caught himself trying to make rare contact with the Big Guy under his breath, a prayer, a mantra that Matt would be there when he got to the apartment, that he'd just appear like the others did. His phone rang out as he ditched the truck streets away and took to running. It was Karen.

She was yelling the words out at a hundred miles a minute. "Frank, they're back! They just appeared, we blinked and there were clients in the office! They don't know, oh god they don't know what happened! Frank where are you you've got to-"

"I know, I'm on my way, he's gotta be there… he's gotta be."

She murmured her agreement. He could hear the tears in her voice. "Let me know, please let me know. There's people I need to- we all need to check on–"

"I know sweetheart. Don't you worry, I'll catch up with you later. You be careful alright?"

She sobs. "Frank… they're back."

He stops before unlocking the door, gives himself a beat.

To do what? Prepare himself to be heartbroken again?

Fuck it.

Just go in, get it over with.

He opens the door, it's quiet. It's like it always is, empty.

Then he feels it.

A draft from upstairs where the door is ajar.

The roof.

He takes those fucking stairs three at a time, slamming the door open all the way when he reaches the top.

"Frank?"

And tell me if somehow some of it remained

How long you would wait for me?

How long I've been away?

The shape that I'm in now is shaping the doorway

Make your good love known to me

Just tell me about your day

Frank stares. He's looking at a ghost. Matt is right there, standing on the roof turning to face him. He doesn't dare blink in case he loses him again. Matt is there. He starts walking quickly towards him, bundling him into his arms, holding his face, kissing him all over and squeezing him so tight that Matt starts laughing.

"Hey! You're back earlier than I thought." Matt says in surprise, momentarily turning his attention away from the unusual commotion he can hear from the nearby streets and apartments. "What's going on?"

Frank buries his face into Matt's shoulder, still hugging him like a bear. He tries to stop his hands from shaking by pressing his fingers into the soft fabric of Matt's hoodie, feeling him so solid and real under them.

"I–I'm gonna need you to say my name again, please baby…"

Matt's brow furrows in confusion but he does as he asks. "Frank, you're only been gone a few days, did you really miss me that much?"

Then the tears come.

"Baby, you don't know, you don't know–" Frank sobs against Matt's shoulder, his voice breaking.

Matt holds him steady. "Hey, you need to tell me what's wrong, what happened? I can hear so many people crying, so much confusion… the air smells different, your heart's beating so fast, I know something's changed, tell me…"

Frank pulls back a little, tries to wrangle his emotions for long enough to try and explain this unbelievable thing, but where the hell do you start?

"God, I don't even know how to…"

Matt's hand comes to his face, he strokes over Frank's damp cheek with his thumb. "It's alright, just take your time."

Frank chokes out a sad laugh. "Fuck, I've had nothin' but time, five years of it, Matt. You… and half the world… you were just gone, nobody knew where, what had happened." He leans his forehead against Matt's, "but I knew you'd come back, goddamn I just knew it somehow."

It's Matt's turn to hold onto Frank as he tries to process what he's hearing.

"I… was gone for five years?"

"C'mon let's go inside, huh?"

After he does his best to explain the Avengers, Thanos, and the infinity stones, Frank finds he's not so surprised with how well Matt has taken the news. He fills him in with the work he'd been doing with Karen and Foggy and Matt beams with pride and relief that his friends were okay.

He doesn't know if Matt's ready to answer such a question, or if it's too much, but he has to know. It's been eating him up since that day.

"When it happened, did… did you feel it?"

"It was strange. I guess it was like, everything just kinda… falling away." He reaches for Frank's hand, placing his own on top.

Frank scrubs his free hand over his face. "Jesus-"

"Hey, it's okay, I'm here." Matt soothes, interlocking their fingers and leaning his body against him.

Frank can't stop pinching himself, making sure this isn't just another cruel dream, that Matt was definitely here to stay and wouldn't fade into a whisper on the wind again when he least expected. He stays close regardless, sits with him on the couch as he touches his face, feels his way around those rugged features even though to Matt it was only a few days ago that he last mapped them out in bed. He's not much changed, maybe the lines around his eyes are a little deeper. He can feel Frank's body as they hold each other, he's leaner, muscle distributed differently to how he was before. Some of his edges have worn, he's softer in his demeanor.

Frank draws Matt's hand to his chest just above his heart. "This is the one thing that ain't changed. Never once stopped thinkin' about you. Never stopped loving you."

Matt sees a reel of what Frank has gone through in his mind, waiting for him, holding on to the thinnest morsel of hope, never moving on. It's a bittersweet thought, his own heart breaking thinking how he'd feel if it had been the other way. His eyes shine with tears.

Frank caresses the side of Matt's face, runs his fingers through the strands of his hair as he peppers kisses along his jawline, treasuring the small gesture so much more now.

The eyes at the heights of my baby

Let's hope at the fight of my baby

The lights were as bright as my baby

But your love was unmoved

"Couldn't bear acceptin' that you were– you'd gone for good y'know? I just couldn't. It kept me goin'."

The tears fall down Matt's face and Frank does his best to kiss them all away. His voice is cracked and rough and he's a mess, they're both a fucking mess but they don't care.

"You waited for me?"

Frank can't help acting like it's an insult to think he wouldn't. "You kiddin' me? You're worth waitin' for baby. I'd wait twenty, hell, I'd wait fifty years if it meant I got to see this face again."

"God, I'm sorry… I'm sorry I left you like that. I'm sorry I left you–" Matt croaks the words out and Frank's shaking his head hard, pulling him closer, holding him to his bones. He can't bear Matt feeling like it's somehow his fault.

"Nah, c'mon don't you do that. Don't you try and take on guilt that ain't even yours. You're here baby, you're back, everyone's back and that's all that matters, right?"

Matt sniffs and finally nods. They sit in silence for a while, content just to exist with each other.

"There's so much to catch up on."

Frank can hear a slight lift in the tone of Matt's voice and it makes him chance a smile, hoping it will stick, that there will be so many more reasons for him to smile like this again.

And the sights were as stark as my baby

And the cold was as sharp as my baby

And the nights were as dark as my baby

Half as beautiful too.

#frank castle x matt murdock #fratt fic #blip fic #frank castle angst #matt murdock angst #fratt fanfic #punisher fanfic #daredevil fanfic

[thepaintedlady00]

Well, reader is the reincarnation of who was the love of Morpheus's life, and this is the present day so she is a bright and talented young woman, has a scholarship to Harvard medical school, a job as a barista/florist, but even so, she suffers from a very very severe depression.

Throughout her childhood, she was plagued with violence from her father (only her father, her brothers, and her mother love her too much), bullying from her half-sister and half-stepmother, and she has very low self-esteem.

One day, her half-sister and half-mother (whom she hates) starts teasing her and telling her the cruelest things possible, then the reader attacks them with not-so-serious but necessary injuries from a hospital because she was tired of all their shit for years (because her half mother/sister is a karen and pick me girl hahahaha), and her father decides that he will send her to a psychiatric hospital and they have her in one of those rooms full of white padded walls. Then Morpheus finds this reincarnation of his wife (who doesn't remember her past life) and decides to spend time with her, in her dreams he takes her to The Dreaming with Lucienne, Mervyn and Matthew, they both start to fall in love (well, only her, Morpheus was already completely in love with her haha). She starts to tell the doctor and nurses about Morpheus but they think that him is just figments of her imagination and that she is getting worse.

The saddest part is that at the end she is assaulted by a nurse who wants to be in a non-consensual-sexual-way with her and she says no and then he start to hurther and then he stabbs her with something, and Morpheus shows up and he's devastated that he's practically losing the love of his life again, so she asks him to please gave her "eternal sleep" so as not to die bleeding and in pain. And Morpheus, after she practically begs him, does so, leaving himself devastated and guilt-ridden.

This is both so cute and so devastating! 😭🥺 Sorry, it took me so long to finish! I hope you enjoy it 🥰 TW: obviously this ones gonna feature mentions of abuse and violence, mental instability, attempted SA (I will not be going into any detail here), and character death. I gave it a bit of a happy ending

You had a hard life. Not from the start, obviously, but the moments of good did little to lift your spirits now. Now it just hurt to think of how life had been before, how you'd had so much ahead of you; a medical scholarship and a job you didn't hate. You'd been depressed then as well, constantly plagued by this inescapable sense that there was more to life than you had... that something important was missing.

That feeling, mixed with your complicated and troubled past with your family, resulted in your low sense of worth and many of your issues. Because of your father's violence, you were timid, and because of your step-mothers and step-sisters' constant slew of hurtful words and despicable acts of cruelty, you were closed off from the world. Your mother and brothers did their best to make you feel loved and to protect you, but in the end even they couldn't have predicted the outcome of your particular tragedy.

You'd taken their hurtful and vile words for too long... something was always going to give, you only wished you could have prepared yourself better for the consequences. You didn't remember what they'd said that had broken you... it didn't exactly matter now... all you remembered was breaking one of your step-mothers fine china plates and throwing a handful of the shards out toward them. It hadn't even been that bad of an injury. One tiny cut to your step-sister's arm and before you knew it you were being carted away.

They'd insisted you were crazy, that you were a danger to yourself and others, and because of your father's influential name, everyone that heard believed them. Your mother and brothers tried to help you. They pleaded on your behalf, they insisted you'd get better if you were allowed to come home, but no one listened to them.

Trapped in the padded walls of your prison, you'd had nothing left to do but dream. You dreamed of the world outside, of your old boring job and your family, the ones that truly loved you. You dreamed so much that you unwittingly drew the attention of a being older and more powerful than you could fathom.

Dream of the Endless hadn't truly known what to expect when he first entered your dreams. They were simple and, to a mind such as his, dull. You recreated your old job at the flower shop. Surrounded by hundreds of beautiful plants and faceless customers Dream saw you for the first time... or rather for the first time since you'd died.

You still took his breath away, even after more than a century apart. The kindness in your voice and the soft glow of your skin in the light, everything about you was the same. Everything except the sadness that hid in your eyes. You looked up at him and your smile faltered for a moment. "Hello?"

"Hello, dreamer," he answered.

"Have we met before?" You inquired, your forehead creasing as you examined him closer.

You did not remember then. Not your past life with him ruling as his queen and beloved wife. You did not remember the years you'd spent beside one another through all manner of hardships. Dream wanted to cry at the thought of you living this life with no recollection of him or of home, but he did not. Instead, he smiled. "I have met many dreamers, but none as fair as you. Though I rarely see such mundane visions from such marvelous creatures."

An embarrassed blush rose to your cheeks as you looked around at the simple shop. "Oh, yes, I just chose the quietest place. It's been a loud day."

"You work here then?"

"I did," you said.

"Do you not anymore?"

With another sad look, you shook your head. "No, I... I don't do much of anything anymore."

He hummed softly, "That is unfortunate. When you sleep again I will see to it that you find something to do."

"What is your name?" You asked as the edges of the dream began to blur.

"Morpheus," he answered, and the dream was gone, faded away until you awoke to the white of the room and the sounds of other patients.

Just as he promised, Morpheus returned the next time you fell asleep. He took your hand, and he led you through The Dreaming, his world. Here you felt light and free. You made friends with every dream and nightmare, had tea with Cain and Abel, and read every book Lucienne recommended to you. In your dreams you lived the life you'd been denied. You raced Matthew across the long bridge and helped Mervyn with his projects and most of all you spent time falling madly in love with Morpheus.

The two of you were inseparable. You'd sit beside him while he worked and he would ask for your opinions on things, even letting you help create more dreams with him. It was everything you'd ever wanted, everything you felt you were missing before and you loved it. But, humans cannot live in dreams... not without having to wake up.

Every time you awoke it felt as though you'd been torn away from the world you knew and loved and forced into a nightmare that Morpheus could not protect you from. Everyone you spoke to thought you were insane. They heard your stories about Morpheus and about your beautiful life in a realm beyond that which was known and had only placed more chains around you.

You'd begged Morpheus to help you, but he could not. Barred from doing anything to help free you of your torment by ancient laws and traditions. It was not until harm had already befallen you that the Endless being could interfere. And harm came.

One of the men that had worked in the institution had been infatuated with you since your arrival. He often overstepped with lingering touches or whispered words of profane nature. One fateful night though, he seemed to commit to acting upon whatever dark urges he possessed and you were powerless to stop him. Or so he believed.

Dream came to you as quickly as he was able, but it was already too late. The man was dead, stabbed by the knife he'd brought with him to intimidate you, but he'd managed to stab you as well. The wound was a mortal one and Dream was forced to hold you in his arms as you lay dying again. You were tired, so tired. "Morpheus," you whispered. "Would you grant me a gift?"

"Anything for you."

You looked up into his eyes and smiled. "I wish for eternal sleep."

He shook his head, tears streaming down his cheeks. "You cannot ask this of me."

"I would rather die in The Dreaming than here in this cage of blood and bone." You lifted a shaking hand to his cheek. "Please."

He granted your wish, laying beside you in the fields of Fiddlers Green while his sister came to you in the Waking World. He watched you die again, felt it this time as your spirit slowly faded from his realm.

Pain and grief and guilt consumed him every moment of the centuries that followed until Death came to him. She walked with him in the Waking World as the two often did, but this time she led him to a small café. "I am not interested in these human foods, sister."

"I know," she answered pulling him inside. "But I am so you're gonna come with me."

"Hello?" Your voice felt like a wave of relief washing against him.

Dream looked at you over the counter, breathless and wide eyed. "Hello, dreamer."

"Have we met before?" You shook your head with a light giggle. "You look familiar."

You did not remember. For the first time he was gladdened by this, at ease knowing you would not be haunted by the pain you'd endured. "I have met many dreamers, but none as fair as you."

The blush that rose to your cheeks was one he adored as you looked away from him and nervously fixed your hair. "I bet you say that to everyone you meet."

"Only you," he assured you. "Only ever you."

"What is your name?" you asked.

"Morpheus."

"Morpheus," you repeated with a happy gleam in your eyes.

#dream of the endless x reader #dream of the endless x reincarnated reader #dream of the endless x you #dream of the endless x y/n #morpheus x reader #morpheus x you #morpheus x y/n #sandman dream #king of dreams #dream of the endless #dream the endless #dream of the endless imagine #morpheus the sandman #lord morpheus #morpheous #morpheus #morpheus dream #morpheus fanfiction #morpheus lord of dreams #morpheus sandman #dream sandman #the sandman dream #dream the sandman #netflix the sandman

[riverstardis]

thirty years:

charlie inviting duffy round for dinner and wine👀

ethan and lily watching cal and alicia together and lily’s like “just when i was starting to think she wasn’t quite as dumb as she looks” and ethan goes “you’re not jealous are you?” and she’s like “no, just full of pity. some women are beyond help.”💀

iain and jez come over and say how alicia and cal must be official now then and lily’s like “it’s like watching a baby antelope at the watering hole” HELPSJDKFJJ

ohhh this is the scene! iain says a few of the lads are going out for a drink later and invites lily and she says sure and when iain’s gone ethan goes “well, someone’s going home with a hunky paramedic” BI ETHAN BI ETHAN BI ETHAN🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈 bc describing your male colleague as “hunky” is a very heterosexual thing for a man to do /s lily goes “ha, please” and he goes “don’t forget the five year plan lily! tick tock!” I MISS THEIR FRIENDSHIP SO MUCH😫😫

yknow if ethan’s gonna go travelling with bodhi i’m gonna choose to believe he’s going to go visit lily in hong kong. i should write a fic. i have actually been to hong kong myself but i was like 4 so i don’t remember what the city was like or anything.

lmaoo alicia comes over and ethan’s like “i think lily needs our help” “oh?” “yeah, trying to find a man.” lily goes “no i don’t” and ethan mouths “she does” to alicia behind lily’s back sjskdkfkg

why did ethan just fully take on a gay best friend role in that scene😭😭 this made me wonder if this ep had the same writer as handcuffs (rashan date ep) but no it doesn’t so there are TWO writers (at least) who were absolutely determined to make ethan queer! i thank them for their service!

also why is matchmaking ethan and alicia’s thing sjdkdjfj like them teaming up in s33 to get rash and gem back together, and, like here, they weren’t actually together themselves then either! (though they ended up getting back together at the same time, leading to them overhearing rash and gem having sex sjsjjfkfk)

lmaoo why is elle going “karen please don’t do this! karen!” while her patient runs away while making no actual effort to stop her😭

sjdkfkfk now alicia’s trying to help lily find a man, asking her what her type is and lily isn’t telling her so she looks around and suggests dylan “consultant? very eligible?” and lily goes “i once considered dr keogh but he still has that dog and mental health issues can be genetic, plus he lives on a barge” alicia’s face while she’s listening to that SKDKFKKF can you imagine dylan and lily though they would not work at all😭 too different flavours of autism

alicia’s begging for something to work with and lily’s like “someone like ric griffin” and alicia’s like “isn’t he acting ceo now??” and lily goes “exactly” wkdkfkkfkf

duffy’s son threatening charlie shdjfjjfj

poor tanya😢

ah sebastian’s dad. he’s locuming there so he can check up on him?

aw seb tries to stand up for his patient but his dad just shoots him down, and dylan also tries but mr grayling asks his name and then goes “ah yes, i know the name. curious business with the number 4?”

sjskfkfk alicia and lily were watching and alicia looks horrified and goes “what a—“ and lily goes “him.” saying he’s her type😭😭

lmaoo alicia introduces herself and lily to mr grayling and leaves lily to speak to him and goes to stand the other side of the nurses station and like motions for her to check his hand for a wedding ring and stuff SKDKKFKF

LMAO alicia goes up to mr grayling and fully just asks him if he wants to take lily out on a date😭😭 he’s like “extraordinary. you can tell dr chao to meet me here at 7 o’clock sharp”

lily’s like “i cannot believe you just did that! what am i gonna wear?” sjsjfjfkfk

aww duffy’s granddaughter is born

charlie and duffy talking about how they’ve had 30 years of friendship and duffy’s like “it wasn’t just friendship though was it?”👀👀

aww lily all dressed up for her date! sebastian’s like “seriously, dad? she’s my age!”😭😭

lily talking to ethan and alicia while seb’s standing up to his dad. and she tells iain she can’t make drinks anymore. aw ethan’s like “have fun!”

oh are charlie and duffy about to kiss?

yup now they’re snogging in a store cupboard

#classic casualty #thirty years #if you watched just this episode in isolation not only would you not realise that ethan liked alicia #you’d probably think he was gay

[faulty-writes]

Hi Faulty-san! How are you? I recently got a new hair cut and uh..I look like a Karen. I come to terms with what it means to have thick hair– so I never got the cool tomboy cut I want. 🤣😭😭

The hairstylist asked and guesses that the amount of times I tie my hair up... Even going to bed... For almost 3 years. So it explains why my hair has so much volume. It's really really hot where I'm from you so you can't exactly blame me. 😭

So for my ask, what is your past hair cut experience? Was it good? Bad? Funny? Cool? Wanna'hear ya! :DD

Oh, my dear Cole is back, missed you! Honestly, my life has been kind of shitty lately. My cat has been missing for the past week, and there's lots of drama at home. So, dear old Faulty is drained of all her energy right now and to make matters worse, I almost broke down crying in the bathroom at work today. So not cool. As for the haircut, that's... unfortunate. Honestly, I feel that, I live in Florida now and the heat kills my hair. I hate it, and I'll be looking at all these other people with their perfect hair in this Hell-like weather and wonder what the fuck kind of shampoo and conditioner they use to keep their hair slick and shiny. So, I actually had long hair as a child. It was to my mid-back and when I went to High School, I said screw it and cut it short. Like ear-length short. Then during my last two years in High School, I decided to cut it even shorter (Like a boy). But honestly, I do recall the hairdresser being so hesitant to cut my hair short and it's like they'd try to talk me out of it and it was just weird. I decided I wanted to grow it back out in my early 20s (I'm currently 29) and I liked it long. Then whenever I went to the hairdresser and asked for a trim, they'd always be like "Okay sure!" but to be honest I hate getting my haircut. I'm not much of a conversationalist so it's like kind of awkward to exchange words back and forth and then have that weird silence fill the air. Then I turn into Tamaki and be all "I wanna go home." Then last year, I decided I wanted to try and get a shag-style haircut, and uh...meh. It was alright, didn't look like a shag to me and I'm not sure if the hairdresser knew what she was doing. But she was pretty compliant with me wanting to get the shag haircut even though it's "outdated." Then I went back to that same hairdresser at the beginning of this year and took about two inches off my hair and I instantly regretted it. I was thinking about getting my haircut again, but haircuts in Florida are $45 and up, which is total bullshit. Why am I gonna pay that much to get my hair cut? Hell, not even cut, fucking trimmed! It's insanity.

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Ohhh it's the bachelor party lol thaaat makes sense

Oh gosh o.o

Guys you look so bad xDD

Uhhh oh

GO OFF MADDIE :'DDD 😭

She shouldn't have to be but xd

SORRY DOING THIS AFTER THE FACT IT'S LIKE 10 MINUTES LATER AS I TYPE THIS AND UMM SINCE THEIR PARENTS ARE THERE THAT MEANS THEY'RE GOING TO SEE BUCK WITH TOMMY I'M NOT OKAY-

I KNOW MADNEY WILL BE THE MAIN FOCUS OF THE EPISODE AS THE ABSOLUTELY SHOULD BUT I WANNA SEE THEIR REACTION O.O GOOD OR BAD

Anyway 🥰🥰

OPE call center o.o

LOL nope yeah not her xD

Go off guys <33

Also Hen looks so pretty

And MADDIEEE don't even get me started <333 beautiful :'))

Ohh goshh guys 😭 not okayyy :'))

UHHH???? OPE OH MY GOSH CHIMNEY??? SIR

WHAT THE HEECCKKKKKK

WHY DOES HE LOOK LIKE HE'S FREAKING DYING EXCUSE ME 😭😭😭😭 O.O O.O

"I have somewhere to be" SIRRR 😭😭😭😭😭🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💔❤️❤️❤️❤️

I AM NOT OKAY

Oh my gosh what the heck 😭😭 xd

And I thought no wedding (at least of what I watch or this universe) could be more dramatic than the Lone Star wedding xd

Though to be fair that's wedding week lol

Oh gosh xd

Wow lol

Okay, that's the last of my last thoughts, now it's time for the. . .

REVIEW

I loved this episode!! AAHHHHHH it was so good :'DDD.

OKAY HI it's me from the 2nd lol. The next episode is in two hours so I better hurry this up xD forgive me if I miss things lol.

Everybody was great this episode! I'm glad everything worked out in the end - or rather, the directly before end, because the end was kinda wild xD. Fun to have a preview at the end of the episode lol! Anyway, the calls were great this episode too :D. And the first one was so hilarious oh my gosh xD 💀. Poor guys lol.

Anyway! Onto the individual parts :).

Hen and Karen! I'm so happy they were able to get a kid :'D AAHHHH!!! I do feel awful for Mara though D:. Her whole story was super traumatic :((. I really appreciate Hen, Karen, and Denny being so supportive though <33. Even through midnight stalking and screaming, and getting hit in the head, they're all there for her. At the same time, I really appreciate that Hen and Karen remembered their duty to Denny. The reason they were genuinely considering asking for help/giving up Mara was Denny's safety, and I love that they were thinking about that <3. However, I'm still glad Maras sticking around :')). Also AAAHHHH Karen getting her to talk at the end :'D. I imagine it'll still be real slow going but it's a start <3. Also the video feed was such a sweet and understanding gesture :'). I love them all so much <33. Welcome to the family Mara :'D 🥰.

Bobby and Athena! We didn't see them much (iirc) but they were awesome :D. We love Bobby calling out Eddie too 👀. Needed to be said xD. Also him suggesting Eddie go to confession SLFJDKGS he is an icon <33. Anyway, I'm glad they're doing okay (and they looked beautiful at the end by the way, in the flash forward to the wedding), and they were amazing :D. Slaying as always. I love them <33.

Ravi! He is an icon as always <33. Sir has never known a thing going on ever and I love him for that :D. I also love him besides that lol. Anyway, loverly <33.

Maddie and Chimney!! Y'all I am so not ready for the next episode xdd. I live in fear lol. Still, they are of course adorable and they did of course slay <33. And Buck's coming out to Maddie :'DD!! I love that it was just a slip lol xD. Also, I'm glad we got to see the confusion and surprise because even though we love supportive reactions I need a little bit of that in my life too slfkdjhs lol. But, still, she was supportive :'D 🥰🥰. Also Maddie immediately asking for more information on the hot pilot :')) <3 she's so sweet, and iconic. I love her so much <33. And of course, I love Maddie and Chimney (and Chim individually lol) so much <333.

Eddie! My idiots <3 xD. Sir xD. He was really going through it this episode sdlfkdhjs, but just the "do I have to go home 👀?"s and such were so good xDD. Bro was going to GREAT LENGTHS to avoid his girlfriend lol. Anyway, the revelation that Marisol was a nun was wild o.o. It's not a bad thing, it was just definitely a surprise xD. I am glad it all worked out though :)). I understand where Eddie's coming from, but I'm glad he wants to keep their relationship going and just have some time with it :'). Also "was he not before?" "now it feels like he's got eyes on the ground" is still SO FUNNY SDLGKHDS XDD lol. Anyway, Marisol's emotions 🥺🥺. Again, I'm really glad Eddie reacted okay in the end, for her <33 she deserves it :). Also I'm glad they're moving back out (well she is, but yk moving in together moving out of living together slfjskd). They're not ready for that yet, and I'm glad they can admit it :). Anyway, I love them <3.

Buck and Tommy! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH :'DDDD!!! Y'all they are so cute 😭😭😭❤️❤️🥺. I could talk about them for hours but I will limit myself xD. Okay, so first of all, I've barely watched that date scene (most of it) again because it gave me such bad second hand embarrassment xD. He's just a bit of an idiot your honor <33. Now, here's something I will say: I do think Tommy was telling the truth later when he said he didn't wanna pressure Buck. But I feel like that was part of the reason xD. It's perfectly okay if he was miffed! Or if he just didn't want to put himself back in the closet, or at least be pushed that far away by Buck's overreaction xD. He's allowed to have flaws (though that isn't even a flaw). Like I said, I think it was multiple things, but he's allowed to be annoyed lol. I do think he should've made it clear earlier, but hey xd. Once again, he ain't perfect. Poor Buck though :((. I understand why Tommy did it but Buck 😭💔❤️. Anyway, I'm so happy that Buck told Maddie first :'D. Even if it was an accident, which was hilarious xD. But he was pretty comfortable with it afterwards anyway, and I'm so happy for him :')).

Buck trying to help/listen to Eddie was wild xD. Mainly because the cause of Eddie going through it was wild, but eh lol. It was hilarious though XD. And then again at the end lol, Eddie's hiding at Buck's apartment. Buck seems even more carefree now, even while still being nervous about telling Eddie in that scene, and it's just so sweet :')). Anyway, the coming out scene. AAAAHHHHHHHHHHH AUGAHH IT WAS JUST SO GOOD 😭😭😭🥺❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰!!! Once again, I LOVE that we got to see Eddie's shock but still his support :). And that most of his shock was about Tommy at first xD. Amazing lol. But seriously that "This doesn't change a thing between us" was everything Buck needed to hear :')). And AAAHHHHHHH "I can't stop thinking about him" STOPPP they're so cute 😭😭😭🥺🥰 :'D. And Eddie telling him to call Tommy :')). Plus we LOVE Buck turning that back on him lol. Friends helping friends with their relationship problems by needing the exact same advice 😌😌 xD. And. That HUG!!! YOUR HONOR THEY'RE SO ADORABLE I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🥰🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰!!! It was perfect and I love them so much <33. And the last little "Call Tommy" :')).

And of course, we cannot forget the last scene (before the wedding preview). AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SIR YOU DON'T U N D E R S T A N D 😭😭😭😭❤️❤️❤️🥺!!! HE INVITED HIM TO COFFEE AND HE TRIED TO GET HIS ORDER RIGHT AND TOLD HIM THAT HE'S NOT SURE BUT HE WANTS TO TRY WITH HIM AND AAAUAGHHHH-!! I love them so much <33. But seriously, Tommy is the sweetest and Buck is the most earnest person ever :')). This is just another example of him absolutely wearing his heart on his sleeve and putting it out there. Also Tommy's "Mmh, so not like that" was so funny oh my gosh xDDD. Anyway, I'm so glad Buck asked him to meet and he agreed :')). Buck saying he wasn't sure but that the something could be with Tommy is just the sweetest thing ever I 😭😭😭 my gosh <333. And then AAAHHHH INVITING HIM TO THE WEDDINGGGG :'DDD and Tommy's shock and Buck saying he'll already know half the people there lol xD. And then Tommy asking Buck if he's sure because he always checks with him and just auoagh :')). And the HAND HOLD!!!!!! Don't even talk to me <333. I love them so much <333.

Overall, I loved this episode so much!! It was SO good, and everyone did really great in general :'D. The ending was wild o.o but they also all look beautiful :'D. And even throughout all the drama (though let's be honest, I enjoy that too lol) I am SO excited for the next episode :DD!!! Anyway, the calls today were great, and really fit the episode (like with Hen's call with the dog). And the first one was just straight up hilarious xD. All the little details and expressions are amazing lol. Anyway, I'm glad everything worked out :)).

So yeah! I really enjoyed the episode, I thought it was amazing. So many cute moments! I'm so excited for the next episode! This has been my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 7, Episode 5: You Don't Know Me

It was so good!! I'm so excited for the next episode but also absolutely terrified. I'll be back next time with my review of. . .

9-1-1, Season 7, Episode 6: There Goes The Groom

See you then!

#9-1-1 #911 #oasis's 9-1-1 chatter #okay AAAHHHHH I got it done in time and I didn't skimp on my thoughts :D #now I'm gonna go watch last week's episode of ghosts and be back for 911 tonight later lol #I'm so excited y'all :DDD!!! #see you guys soon!!! <333 🥰❤️

[leossmoonn]

could you do a concept where matt breaks up with y/n to protect her, but then like they meet up again and he realizes he needs her back in his life because he misses her so much.

YES OMG 😭

“I thought we were stronger than this!” You yell.

“In order for us be strong, I have to let you go.”

“That is so fucking cliché.”

“It’s true, Y/n. Fisk was following Foggy. What happens when he starts following you?”

“Then I’ll protect myself!”

“You have no idea how evil Fisk is.”

“No, but I know how to take care of myself.”

“I couldn’t live with myself if anything happened to you. Please just understand that.”

“I do because I feel the same way, but you can’t just give up!”

“I’m not giving up. I’m trying to keep you safe.”

“Bullshit.”

“Y/n, please. Please just hear me out.”

Tears fall down your cheeks and you step back. “I’m not hearing you out.”

“Why not?” He sighs.

“Because you’re just afraid and you’re giving up. But because I know you won’t budge, I’ll leave. If that’s what you really want,” you sniffle.

“I don’t want that, I —”

“It’s what needs to happen, right?” You sigh. “Yeah,” he nods.

“Fine,” your voice breaks. “I’ll have my stuff packed by tonight.”

“No, you can stay here. I’ll live at Foggy’s.”

“It’s your apartment, Matt. I can stay with my friends.”

Matt nods in acknowledgment. You see his bottom lip quiver and you know this is painful for him, too, and that’s why you can’t understand his reasoning.

Cut to a month later. Matt is in pain. Mentally, physically, and emotionally. He doesn’t have his girl with him, he comes home to an empty house, the breakup has been effecting him so his fighting technique literally sucks. He cant sleep well anymore and he spends his day at the office thinking about you.

Why did he ever let you go?

Well, he knew why. Fisk was getting too close to Matt, which meant he was getting too close to you. So instead of protecting you while being with you, he decided it was best to protect you by breaking up with you. Huge mistake that was.

Matt had been following you home from work, making sure you get home safely and you sleep well through the night. You had been suffering too. From what’s he’s heard, you’ve done nothing but listen to your guys’s song and cry. It was worse the first week of the breakup. The only times you get up was to use the bathroom. But now it was the second week, you were beginning to shower every day and eat good meals. You also made a daily call to your mother whom you talked with on the phone for hours and she helped you were the heartache. Matt wanted to be there for you too, but he couldn’t.

You two didn’t see each other until Josie’s. You were out with your friends, attempting to have a fun night out. Foggy, Matt, and Karen were just out drinking. As soon as you walked in, Matt perked up. He could smell you perfume the second the door opened. The way you walked and your laugh confirmed that it was you.

“Holy shit, it’s Y/n,” Foggy said.

“Wow. She looks great,” Karen said. Matt’s fingers twitched at on his cup. He wishes he could see you.

“What’s she wearing?” Matt asks.

“Um, let’s not talk about —”

“Please, Karen.”

Karen gulps and stares at you. “She’s wearing black jeans with a red spaghetti-strapped top that dips down. She has black heels on and a matching red purse. Her hair is curled and her lips are painted a dark pink.”

“In other words, she looks beautiful,” Matt sighs sadly.

Karen and Foggy look at each other like 😬. But then Karen gets an idea

“Why don’t we go say hi?”

“U-Um.. That’d be weird,” Matt said. “It won’t be. We’ll go with you!” Karen nudged his foot.

“But I’m wearing jeans and a sweatshirt.”

“She won’t care.”

“What if she does.”

“He obviously isn’t gonna get up,” Foggy muttered. “Yo, Y/n! Y/n L/n!”

“Foggy!” Matt kicks his shin.

You look over to the three, shocked to see Matt. You didn’t notice him. Foggy waves you over and you nervously walk to them.

“Hey, guys,” you smile tentatively. "Hi, Matt." You look at him with sad eyes.

"H-Hey, Y/n," Matt gulps and fixes his glasses.

Your eyes gaze over him and your heart flutters. He looks disheveled, but handsome nonetheless.

"You look good," you say. "Thanks. You, uh, you sound good," Matt says.

You chuckle, "Thank you. Um, well, it was nice to see you guys. I gotta go. I came with my friends." "No, no, yeah. Of course. Enjoy your night out."

"You too." You smile at Karen and Foggy before slowly turning around.

"Man, I can't believe you let her go," Foggy sighs. "Foggy!" Karen punches his shoulder.

"No. Foggy's right," Matt frowns and takes a swing of his whiskey.

Matt spends the next hour listening to you. Your friends have attempted to get you to dance with a couple guys, but you've refused every time. Every time you say no, your eyes pan over to Matt. He can feel your gaze, but he does his best not to react.

He ends up making a plan to get you back. Luckily, your friends go order more drinks, leaving you alone. Matt walks over, flashing a smile.

"Hi."

You sit up, surprised but happy he came over. "Hey. What're you doing here?"

"Just wanted to see how you were doing. It seems like you're having fun," he said.

You chuckle, "You've been listening in, haven't you."

He gives you a shy shrug. "Seems like you have lots of suitors."

"Yeah, well, they're not the one I want."

Matt moves closer to you, putting his hand on yours. "Who do you want?"

"I…" You begin to talk, but you stop yourself. "You should go."

"Y/n," he sighs helplessly. "It was nice to see you again, but this is so painful for me, and I know it is for you, too," you say.

"Wait, I need to tell you something," he says.

"What is it?" You ask. "I want to say I'm sorry. I've realized that I let you go for the wrong reasons. I shouldn't have let you go at all," he says.

"Thanks, Matt." "And I want to ask if you'd take me back."

You sigh, "Matt…"

"I love you. I'm so in love with you. I'm sorry I let you go. You were right, I was afraid and I did give up. My life has been hell without you. I can't eat, sleep, work. I feel like I'm falling apart. And I understand if you really don't want me back, but I figured I would try."

"I do want you back, Matt. Trust me, I miss you so much and I love you so much, too. My life has been insufferable without you. But I don't want to get back with you just to have this happen again."

He nods, "I understand that. If you do take me back I promise to not just give up. I promise to trust you and that you can take care of your self. I promise to protect you while I'm with you."

His words swirl in your head. You take a good five minutes to answer.

"Alright," you say. "Alright?" He cocks his head to the side.

"Alright. I'll take you back."

He sighs in relief. "Thank you."

"I'll come back to your apartment soon, okay?" You suggest.

He smiles, "That sounds great."

"I love you, Matty," you squeeze his hand. "I love you more, sweetheart." He slowly turns around, walking back to Foggy and Karen with a lil pep in his step

#matt concepts #matt murdock x reader

[wolfcamellias]

Okay as the person who accidentally brought abt teacher wukong through a string of events, have some food.

Wukong having to deal with Karen’s when the parents visit, to which the student who’s parent it is apologizes in advance.

I wonder if Bai He is in there. I want to see Mac unapologetically having a favorite student.

On a tired day, Wukong just puts on a nature documentary, unbeknownst to him, it had a sections about monkeys. And wouldn’t you know it? ADHD MK imitated the chirps that were heard on screen. Wukong almost chirps back but turns it into cough and sipped his drink, panicking.

But guess what? it becomes a new vocal stim for MK. And every time the urge to chirp back gets stronger.

He immediately warms up to Mei after she called a misogynist the most well put together string of insult that he had ever heard.

Nezha came by once, and Mei began talking to him about bikes. She was one of the first mortals that they had a good conversation with mortal that they genuinely seemed interested in the topic/person.

MK one time is talking excitably with his teacher before he trails off an apologizes for rambling. Wukong is having none of that.

A therapy dog comes in one day and class is put on hold as every student is adoring over a golden retriever.

And the jttw debate club isn’t always debating serious things. One time they debated on whether or not zhu bajie stood up to wipe or sat down, much to Wukong’s amusement.

Whichever team gets MK on their side automatically wins, except when Mei is on the opposite team because she will pull all the stops to be competitive towards her best friend.

And last thing, Mei starts leaving origami flowers on Wukongs desk after he’s nice to her. I have a hc Mei leaves origami for people she likes to find, and Wukong had many a time seen them at MK’s desk for him to find, and even Red Son and Nezha started finding them at one point.

PPL COME GET YOUR TEACHER MONKEY CONTENT

I love that I was in the midst of writing something for Teacher!SWK right now as the next big fic of Valleys so this couldn't have been sent at a better time; I'm staring intently at the Mei ones because 👀👀 that's very interesting (snickers in author knowledge)

SWK dealing with parents who are Less Than Patient is handled through a series of smart-mouthing and "so you agree; you agree that you can't force a kid into being a perfect model A student if he does not want to be one and you cannot have higher expectations of them because it puts too much stress on them physically and mentally?" to the point where he's had several parents yell at him before leaving with the glamoured immortal throwing a sympathetic look at the student

And Bai He's a little young to be in the same classes that Macaque will, eventually, teach. However, since she is homeschooled, sometimes Macaque will take her to school since he doesn't want to leave her alone (or gods forbid a babysitter) so she hangs in the classroom, spinning in his chair and, sometimes, just to startle the students, sitting where the students sit and playing along with her baba that she's just a "super advanced student". The other classmates assume it's a prank and then Bai He correctly answers most, if not all, of the problems on the board because she and Macaque go over these lectures at home.

The Nezha and Mei moment made me smile sm they're the best of content ngl;;;

For the therapy dog, I'm going to put my card down and say it's the one (1) dog Wukong doesn't flinch away from or leave the room for since his cynophobia is big (stares directly at the battle against Erlang Shen)

Glad to see more JTTW Debate Club content.. those guys will be missed dearly for the day Sun Wukong decides they're taking it a little too far in trying to analyze the River That Shall Not Be Named (also Remix Medley battling it out on opposite teams is my favorite thing to imagine NGL)

The origami flowers Mei leaves Wukong,,, they're balcamines 😭😭

scrumptious, than kyou for the food ella im FEASTING

#ask #jttw: dc #valleys au #🌿 #sun wukong #I COULD TAG THE OTHER CHARAS... #but they'd all get lost in the sauce that is my blog #man #NCDJSKNCKDS #THANK U THO ELLA THIS WAS SO NICE TO READ

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here friend and it looks like you were as pleasantly surprised by last night's episodes as I was! Of course there was too much L (and will be until she's gone at the season's end) but the fact all her scenes got butchered is just hilarious. Instead, they made room for some truly delightful Henren detective shenanigans, Eddie and May as besties, Chim bring back where he belongs (mostly), and the reminder that even with characters we have no connection too 911 can deliver some truly TBC

devastating rescues that will emotionally wreck you (I feel like it's been awhile since we've seen one and its a shame because this is a wee woo show and it's part of what makes it tick). Also you're right, Ryan would have nailed a heartbreaking version of "You Are My Sunshine", but as an alternative may I suggest Can't Smile Without You? On top of that LS was an joy, and I absolutely want a future episode to have Grace and Carlos wine-drunk and bitching about their husbands.

Our PR friend appears to be looking out for us by reminding us to keep our expectations in the ground and allowing us to be pleasantly surprised! I agree that any L is too much L (especially with her sitting in Buck and Eddie's usual seating configurations), and her moments we do see continue to be things that would work better with other characters. The firetruck scene and everyone talking about youth would have played better with one mostly younger person like Ravi around, plus seeing him and Buck competing to find the car first would have been fun, and the reality TV set was the PERFECT place for Chimney to be (and Eddie 😭 when is he coming HOME?!), and he for sure would have had some delightful commentary instead of putting down the institution of marriage as a whole to a group of people who are all either married or want to be 🙄 (*Chandler Bing voice* could she BE any more of an "I'm not like other girls" character?!) But I find the fact that they literally cut everything they possibly could, to the point that you could clearly see that the scenes in the firetruck were edited to remove her moments hilarious because they would rather have the editing looking a little awkward and disjointed, than leave in scenes of her “bonding” with the team and “poking” at Buck. 🤣🤣🤣 But honestly thank goodness for the editing team. A young woman was having her face melted off on a livestream and they had already wasted a ton of time just trying to figure out the general area where she might be! It was not the time to have them making a “fun” competition about who found the car first, or who got to use the drill to get into the house, same with whatever they had planned for those 2 minutes they disappeared into a dark tunnel together while a woman was planning to say her final goodbye to her kids. None of that fit the tone of those moments! It did make that sauna call a little weird because there was SO much set up, only for the actual rescue part to be over almost immediately, but the fact that nearly the ENITRE scene that was used in the majority of the stills got cut makes me giggle, and then they deleted their watch post on Instagram that had her and I downright cackled, because I’m a petty bench.

And what did we get in return for those missing moments? We got SO MUCH good Karen content!! Every single moment with her and Hen was GOLD and they deserved to have some fun, free, lighthearted shenanigans for once! Plus the actresses play off each other so well, and they just sparkle together. Truly something to add to the blessings pile in this very mixed bag of a season and I can’t wait for their vow renewal!  

Eddie and May are SUCH an unexpected delight and I’m going to miss it when Eddie goes home to the 118 and May goes off to college (very likely, so the actress can focus on her college studies!). I hope they don’t entirely abandon that dynamic (or his with Linda) when he’s out of dispatch because it’s truly been so much fun. (It’s also proof that there are enough characters who don’t interact that they don’t need new ones to shake things up and keep the dynamics fresh, but that’s a whole other post)

We also got so much good Chim content! We got sunglasses Chim being so funny in the truck, grossed out Chim at the sauna call, we got Chim (and Hen!) on the ropes which is rare, Certified Dad Chim with Maddie and Jee’s baby box/first time using the spoon herself, and of course he was perfect on that tragic call (as was Bobby) making sure the girls had their dad. We also got some good Maddie/Madney/Buckley siblings content and I can feel the “second (or is it third?) first date” for Madney coming soooon!

911 doesn’t often have tragic calls but when they do, whooo boy they utalize them to their fullest effect! The music, the mom’s talk to her girls, the flipping “mom doesn’t need them anymore” line from the oldest sister? 😭😭😭 It was all done SO well, and showed Chim and Bobby especially taking charge in all the right ways that case needed to be handled. Bobby being the calm one staying behind to watch the girls, Chim making the decision the dad needed to be the one to talk to the kids and that they would load the mom up like they normally would, and them letting the girls wear their helmets and keeping them busy in the firetruck while Chim contacted their dad himself, it was all just so beautifully done and absolutely strikes at the heart of the show which has been so hit or miss this season. But when they are good, man, they are good.

Lone Star may be what it will be with regards to Owen, but this episode was an absolute DELIGHT! The Ryder family drama with Uncle Dave was SO much fun, and TK and Carlos getting to have a totally whimsical, fun, and funny plot was so, so, so refreshing! They have earned this lighthearted moment and it was a JOY to watch. I too need to see Grace and Carlos getting wine drunk and bitching about the strays their husbands keep around for too long! 🤣

I know this is our anniversary week and I was hoping to put together a masterlist of our posts but a whole week of being ill last week and recovering this first part of the week have put me a bit behind, but I’m sure you’ve got something for later this week so I look forward to that!

#my sweet nonnie friends #sleeping at last anon #911 #911 spoilers #anti lucy donato #911 lone star #lone star spoilers #this is my third attempt at this post because tumblr hates me #i had to save this as a draft and not use the new post editor format because my screen kept randomly going white #and then i couldn't do anything until i refreshed the page and that deletes the draft #i also kept a copy in a word document just in case #and then i had to cut a whole ramble about L that's going to be it's own post #but i did it today like i promised! #and next week is may day which i think is going to be THEE serve of the season for the main cast as a whole #we've gotten some great eddie stuff but aside from some madney/maddie stuff everyone else is just kinda...there #so it will be good to see everyone involved and getting their redemption moment #i can't wait!

[boydykedoctor]

Ok but that Mr. Clarke and Mrs Wheeler post dhdjd There’s a part of me that’s wanted her to leave ted for him for a while now lmao jk jk ... unless 👀

but also like ...when Karen was talking to Nancy about the world telling them what they can and can’t do all I could think about was how back when Karen was growing up women and science didn’t really work out, so idk I always had this idea that she was super into science in high school but,like for survival tbh, ended up in the housewife life

So all I’m thinking of is Mr Clarke igniting her love for science again byyyyyeeee 😭

sorry this took so long to answer!!!! but OMG yeah. listen, if scott isn’t gay then he should totally steal mrs. wheeler from ted. that would be ace.

i ADORE the idea of science nerd karen. especially because it explains where mike gets it from!!! scott and karen should absolutely get to bond over some science junk. 

maybe they reconnect when holly enters hawkins elementary because they run into each other at parent-teacher conference night at, like, the snack table. and he asks about how mike is doing in high school, and she admits that his grades have been slipping, even in science, and she doesn’t know what to do about it. and scott misses these kids so dearly because they really just hung off his every word and made him remember why he started teaching in the first place.

he’s like, “what if i stop by your house tomorrow after school and drop off some tutoring materials? do you think you could spare some time to work with him?” and karen’s like, “of course! you know, i used to be a real geek.” and scott's like “Oh, please do tell.”

mike comes home the next day to see his middle school science teacher and his mom on the couch with glasses of wine. karen is laughing so hard that wine has spilled out of her nose. this is SO much worse than seeing your teacher at the store on a weekend.

#ask #anonymous #scott clarke #karen wheeler #stranger things

[i-want-a-bagel]

Apparently I love live reacting to things via Tumblr posts now so here's me listening to the first Lockdown Lads liveshow of 2021 as I didn't have electricity earlier (yes, bless my soul, I survived 😅 - it was very painful, but I survived)

*****

Oh god I missed their voices

I always do, they're such comfort voices, they've just been in my life on a regular basis for so many years

*****

Phil you 😂 stuck in a freakin jacket, of course

*****

Aw Wholesome Dan already! 🥰

*****

Lockdown Lads is staying, uh? I prefer that anyways

*****

Same emotional wavelength -> fucking anx--

GAY BUTTERFLY?

Phil is a gay butterfly, yes

yes, just yes

*****

Dan is alive

Phil is so awkward at phrasing things for fuck's sake

*****

We've been together for, how long?

I swear Dan was like anxious sweating there

*****

Keep sane by talking to US?

wow, lubricate, Phil? for fuck's sake

you could pick any word in the word and you picked that??

*****

Dan telling you you're not valid is something

*****

Dan thinking he can look ugly 😂

you are so wrong boy

*****

undressed and unfiltered 👀

*****

Dan and Phil force us to witness their insanity - The Show

(that's my pitch)

*****

THE DIL HEAD

*****

ah yes, the snow penis

I had FORGOTTEN, DAN how dare you bring that back

"As a gay, maybe you're more likely to recognize a penis" what the hell

*****

Ladydoor Liveshow, yeah okay, I can accept that 😂

*****

Dan, you CANNOT remind us of your fucking penis drawing then say we cannot mention Ladydoor

dude

*****

IS THIS JOINT CONTENT?

yeah, DAN, is THIS joint content?

*****

Phil holds the key to Dan's sanity

and he threw it into a ditch never to be seen again

they feed off each other's madness

*****

Hello, my name is [Dan and Phil Dan]

*****

Chaotic Companions? CCs?

*****

They still don't know when they'll move? fuck that sucks, I can just imagine how stressful that is

*****

Box Boys -> VAGINAL ENERGY?

Dan what the fuck

"what are the rules?" good question

*****

Dan, no one can expect you not to swear

in a Cards Against Humanity video

*****

honestly, vaginal energy is much worse than any swear you could conjure

*****

So Tuesday is Dan's day and Thursday is Phil's day right?

oh wow I finished typing it and Dan just says it, I'm a genius 😂

*****

"Me and Phil just wanna complain about what we hate about each other"

I'm sorry, how is this different from every single video you've ever made before???

*****

so, "video call that went wrong" stories

*****

I would go crazy if I lived with Phil so props to Dan for not murdering him in his sleep

*****

"The home invasion incident" ?????????? what the fuuck

YOU LEFT THE DOOR OPEN?? PHIL!!!

"sometimes it takes an hour to get it" ???? your food usually comes in less than an hour????? wow, lucky you

Guy came IN the house? what the fuck

I mean, I guess if the door is open, they could think you want them to come in, I know a lot of handicapped / physically impaired people do that, but COVID

"Phil was shook" understandable

"You gave him a tip to say 'thank you for making me shit myself'" 😂

*****

"Freak comedy big sister" my goal in life, as the eldest of three

*****

my favourite part of the beard filter story is that they were together joining the meeting on one computer

*****

Phil getting angry at 13 year olds on the internet : you need to find other hobbies / games, Phil

and Dan being a chill gamer just makes so much sense

*****

I live for chaotic cat content

*****

Dan is being such a little shit

"no, youuuu"

*****

Dan's Dan and Phil's desires to lick things is

uh

*****

HIT THE CLUB?? boomer confirmed

*****

Dan's laugh! my soul is fixed

*****

Dan: "oh, I feel mean" *continues anyway*

Phil is 100% a boomer Karen

Phil asking Dan what it means 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

*****

Phil has boomer camera skills -> none

*****

"no to the body pillow"

ironically

bitch,

*****

"same"

*longest silent ever in a Dan and Phil content"

😂

*****

Dan trying to fuck things up for Phil before calls like they used to do before going on stage during ii 😭😂

*****

Sorry Phil, but the emo hair died like 5 years before you changed your hair

*****

upward scissoring is actually the technic, yes

*****

Straightness? not here honey 😉

❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

*****

a lawyer bad mouthing a judge

in front of the judge

😫😫😫😫😫

*****

I would have gotten out of the taxi, so I can fully support giving that guy a bad review

*****

Phil is me 100% with the fucking social anxiety, but I also have Dan's "fuck no" attitude, and it causes me so much fucking stress

*****

The teacher did the Phil thing!

egg-y vinegar catastrophe

(props to that teacher teaching online, it is FUCKING difficult and takes SO MUCH MORE TIME than in-person lessons and it's a very different dynamic, congrats to everyone who managed to convert their teaching and make the best of these conditions ❤️ love you fellow educators!)

*****

the planets lining up for Phil's ass to show up in Dan's zoom is 100% the chaotic energy these two create

*****

"Oh Dan, he's just weird like that, randomly screaming to hide his partner's naked ass"

*****

I agree with Dan, I would NOT connect if I had to turn on my camera to listen to this

Everything should be a phone call, Zoom IS horrible

Podcasts and radio shows are where it's at

*****

Dan's day's last segment

for next week: what would Dan ban?

"sand" 😂😂😂 I actually laughed out loud, congrats Phil!

Dan you little shit "but Phil, do you love the sea?"

*****

// sidenote: I need the sand for the seaside, and I HATE bugs and grass is full of it, I 100% agree with Dan here, sorry Phil

*****

Phil wants some more interactions before they conclude

*****

Concrete beach sounds awesome tbh

*****

they're COLLABORATING on the house and sharing the space 😭❤️

that's so cute

that is such an equal relationship, they're so cute

*****

Phil stop bringing it back to sand 😂😂 Phil just wants to keep saying he hates sand

*****

next time is Phil Day

gamenight! ("wot IS game night?!")

*****

They 100% saw we all want the cube didn't they?

the cube is the selling point

*****

Dan thanking us for being there as if we haven't been desperately begging for a sign of life for the last two years

❤️ we love you, man

*****

that was just so lovely???

so chill and sweet and funny and domestic???

they just sound radiate so much happiness and love and wholesomeness

with Covid canceling everything, I had nothing to look forward to, but now, i've got there

and twice a week, we are so fucking lucky

They can't even begin to understand the impact this, and all the future ones I'm sure, has on my mental health and the well being of so many people

thank you so much, foreign dads, for this ❤️

#daniel howell #danisnotonfire #dan & phil #dan howell #dan and phil #danielhowell #amazing phil #phil lester #amazingphil #lockdown lads #dan and phil stereo #stereo #dan and phil podcast #me #live reacting #live reaction #lockdown lads 1 #lockdown lads e01 #straightness not here honey #ladydoor liveshow #box boys #vaginal energy #the home invasion incident #phil's ass on zoom incident #beard filter story #phil is boomer confirmed #phil is boomer karen #gay butterfly

[enigmaticxbee]

✖️✖️✖️✖️ 4x22 Elegy

The one where... the dying (including Scully 😭) see visions of the dead at a bowling alley.

Best: The way they weave the cancer arc into this MOTW episode is so well done. It really brings home the fact that Scully is dying - to us and to the characters. More on the therapy scene and their confrontation at the end of the episode below, but GA’s acting just phenomenal throughout.

Worst: Scully thinking mental illness = murderer is not a great look. Also the explanation on why the nurse was murdering those girls was kind of weak/glossed over (to make room for the meaty stuff between Mulder and Scully which is really the climax of the episode so I get it).

❌ Flashlights

❌ Woods

❌ Slideshow

❌ Autopsy

❌ Evidence Disappears

❌ Scully Misses It (actually Scully Sees It this time)

❌ Mulder Ditch

❌ Sunflower Seeds

❌ Voiceover

❌ Catch Phrase

✔️ Scully is a (Medical) Doctor

❌ Mulder is Spooky

❌ Scuuullllaaaaayy! Muullllderrrr!

❌ Fox/Dana

✔️ Inappropriate Touching (that I am here for)

✔️ Casual Scully

❌ Casual Mulder

✔️ Trench Coats

✔️ Bad Tie Watch

❌ Glasses Watch

✔️ Taking! It! Personally!: Scully

50 States: D.C. x36 (34/50)

Investigate: Together & Apart

Solve Rate: 61%

✔️ Bechdel Test

MSR: 🐝🐝🐝🐝

Goriness: 👽👽

Creepiness: 👽👽👽

Humor: 👽

Rewatch Thoughts:

Cancer Arc Check-in: This one’s a doozy. Scully is dying.

Ok the cute moments first: Scully lying half on top of Mulder at the bowling alley; how impressed Scully is at Mulder’s bowling prowess; whispering at the back of the briefing room and getting called out on it.

Mulder’s soft oh Scully when he sees her nosebleed 😭

Scully says I’m fine FOUR TIMES this episode. When you need to say it that much you are not fine.

I love, love, love that they brought back her therapist Karen Kosseff from season 2’s Irresistible. Wish we’d seen her again in later seasons - these therapy sessions are so insightful and there is SO much I wish we’d gotten to see Scully open up about. Unclear whether Scully has been back to see her since season 2. Certainly not regularly - Scully tells her that she was diagnosed with cancer several months ago.

Why is it important to Scully to keep working? Mulder. His support. His passion. His strength. When her little chin wobbles as she gets emotional 😭. I feel Scully on how hard it is to articulate your feelings to someone. I can be very eloquent in my head and then when it comes time to speak, to be emotionally vulnerable, it’s so, so hard.

Karen Kosseff’s comment about her fear of failing Mulder is very interesting. In what way is she afraid of failing him? I think she would think of it as failing him if she left him alone - whether by leaving the X-Files, or being too sick to continue working, or even dying. She’s afraid to show him any weakness, even admitting her fear about what she saw, what it means about her health. She can’t be vulnerable with him like that. To relinquish control would be to admit defeat.

To Mulder hiding the truth from him is the only way she could fail him. And he’s being pretty righteous to yell at her about how that means she’s working against him and herself when we know he hasn’t told her about her ova - which means he’s hiding some truths that are pretty consequential to her health and as avenues of investigation into the source of her cancer. So pot calling the kettle black or whatever that saying is.

It’s so well done that they are both in the wrong in this confrontation. Scully’s wrong for hiding what she saw from him. And Mulder’s wrong (see the point above) for responding in a shitty way when clearly this is something that she’s scared to believe in and scared of the implications of. And they don’t really come to a resolution. Scully shutting down and leaving and then crying alone in her car is devastating.

Episode-Related Fanfic Recs:

Importuning Life for Life by Circe Invidiosa. Post-episode where Mulder drives her home. Very psychologically insightful. I love the way this author has Mulder examine his own motivations and reactions and make the choice to do something different.

#xf rewatch #xf fanart #the x files #the xfiles #thexfiles #xf #txf #xf motw #i want to believe #truth is out there #xf review #fic rc #msr #4x22 #elegy