#couldn’t put down at the end

[andreai04]

“My imagination could tiptoe slowly into the unthinkable before I realized where I was headed.”

#reading #books read in 2023 #bookblr #books #book photography #book blog #bibliophile #the push #ashley audrain #psychological thriller #not being believed #mothers and daughters #motherhood #expectations of women #expectations of mothers #creepy child #nature vs nurture #page turning #fast paced read #couldn’t put down at the end #dark #sharp objects vibes #4.5 stars #january reading

[pennyserenade]

dana scully you didn’t stand a chance and neither did i. this was one of the top ten romantic things i have ever seen in my entire life

#misc. #x files #i think about the sixth extinction i & ii: amor fati more than i should #bc i just wanted to kiss his forehead and put him to bed in it #that scene where diana said she wondered what fox was dreaming abt #and the csm said he was dreaming of what all men like him do: normalcy #the way he imagined an entire life with diana — the wedding and the babies and his sister living just down the street #with her own children #but at the end he was old and dying and alone and it was dana standing there #holding his hand telling him this wasn’t the end. that he couldn’t die. that she wouldn’t let him #that’s true love for fox: not a fantasy but someone who will remain real and constant and true even when it is hard #bc no one in his life ever was. dana won’t leave him. not in dreams. not in life. it makes me so 😭

[myglassesareinkansas]

I’ve never dogsat a puppy before, much less one that was only 16 weeks old, and I am. Very overwhelmed

#k speaks #i’m not kidding when i say i’m genuinely considering asking friends to help me for the first week #just like a revolving door of friends #i even asked my parents to come and stay with me for an extra week bc i’m already sleep deprived and overwhelmed #i don’t have time to myself anymore #and these are my last two weeks before i move and like #i won’t have any time to adjust to being on my own by then #he’s cute when he’s asleep but only then #and i feel really bad for saying it but i don’t like him #i’m now gonna have a scar on my leg bc he wouldn’t stop jumping and i couldn’t get him down and he ended up scratching me #he barked for an hour bc i put him in his crate for bedtime and then pouted bc i needed to take a shower #how am i supposed to make food or sleep or shower or go to church or any of these things #i need sleep but i also need my me time #he was SUPPOSED to be in the other room for bedtime but then he cried. for an hour #the thing is!!! the other dog is fine!!! i love that dog!!! he’s never given me problems before #but the puppy is. a lot #anyways i’ve decided i don’t want pets or kids lol can you believe it

[the-hopeless-haze]

Ok but Wilson baby girl this isn’t why House told Stacy to leave.

I think it’s interesting how House didn’t tell Wilson that he talked to Mark. That scene is probably the best Mark is in and like the desperation like he’s at the end of his rope and he’s where House was five years ago. House’s face when Mark says “I don’t know how to stop yelling at her” he recognizes that…. I don’t know how to not transfer this pain I’m feeling and I don’t know how to not resent you. That scene where both of the men Stacy fucked over (the original girlboss fr) that scene where both of them are struggling to walk up the stairs and Mark has to lean on House like it’s so good.

But Mark will get better. House knows Stacy is running to him because it’s bad right now but Mark is going to get better. House is not. And… he knows the pain of being left behind by a partner when struggling with a disability.

#house Md #s2e11 #Stacy lowkey sucks so bad though #I think when he was on the roof with her and she was saying she didn’t know what to do he already was realizing #I mean I get it sucks both the men she loves ended up with disabilities but the fact she’s so quick to up and leave both of them? #idk I mean I can only imagine House must have made her life a living hell. #but still like. idk. she just sucks. #I think he was also realizing she can’t do this long term. she can’t be with someone with a chronic disability #she couldn’t do it for him when it first happened and his leg is never getting better #there was a lot of truth in what he told her when he told her not to stay but I think it’s a little deeper #I think he genuinely couldn’t stomach doing it to her or mark #house is more selfless than all the characters give him credit for even Wilson was like #‘oh so you just ended this so you can be miserable.’ #like no. #he kind of deflected it to himself too when the patient gave up her liver to lie to her husband #he said he can’t even put the toilet seat down. and yes he has disregard for a lot of things #but so does Stacy. Stacy wouldn’t sacrifice anymore either

[this-blog-needs-a-new-name]

I don’t know nor wanna know how this fits into the wedding AU but if you are one that loves your heart to be broken, stepped on and literally tear apart… this one’s for you 💀

#some writers are just pure bliss #I didn’t finish reading it #it broke me #Lilith cried and I wept #everything in me was just sadness…my tears hurt and I just couldn’t continue reading #that’s how fkn good this piece was #one day I’ll finish it but not today #the heavy sadness in my chest was too much to handle #so fkn real #i can’t believe myself #I put the dam phone down and spend the whole day thinking wtf sei #lol #warrior nun #warrior nun season 2 #avatrice #sister beatrice #ava silva #this isn’t a happy ending but I hope it’s not the ending to that wedding au #that shit would suck and I’ll never read another story like that ever again #gawd I need Jesus in my life #f this shit #fuck 😭😭😭😭 #warrior nun spoilers #this can’t be the end #!!!&@/&)389/!:!

[idkhowtopickausername]

I’ve really not been functioning well mentally lately 😔

#I can’t seem to do my assignments and everytime I sit down to I just space out again and again and forget what I was even doing #I missed my bus stop last week and didn’t notice for a while and had to bus back at 11 at night #i made two kind of scary mistakes while driving today that I would usually never make #even an event I wanted to go to I ended up missing because I spaced out and was 20 minutes late and by then they’d left #I kept forgetting what I was doing in the middle of making dinner and talking to my mom on the phone #I haven’t even eaten dinner and it’s 3am and there’s soggy pasta in the pot that I never got to straining or putting sauce on #I have turned in very few assignments and I keep getting zeroes and I’m pretty sure I flunked a midterm because I couldn’t focus when I #tried to study #I’m worried I’ll genuinely fail out of college this time but I don’t want to leave bc I at least sort of have friends here now who is miss #*I’d #people keep recommending me like focus apps and setting timers and stuff but I forget about those too #I just feel like I’m on a completely different wavelength like I’ve procrastinated before but this is different #like I don’t even remember that I’m supposed to be doing something until I suddenly remember and start to do it and then I forget again #this has never happened before I don’t know what to do #personal

[rottengurlz]

I need to start a book club so someone can read the black dagger brotherhood series with me there’s like 22 books in it and the writing is awful but I’m obsessed with fucked up vampire brothers being named like rehvenge and zsadist

#I got the first one free and couldn’t put it down it was like watching a car wreck #all I remember from the book was there was this vampire darius who had a daughter who didn’t know about him #and she was a half vampire but didn’t know it #but soon she was going to like turn soon or something #but before he could do anything he was literally BLOWN UP in his car #because there’s this group of people who kill vampires #but anyways before Darius died he asked one of his fucked yo brothers to watch over his daughter and have her drink his blood #because he has pure vampire blood #I think the vampires name was Wrath or something like that #but obviously they fall in love with each other #I don’t remember anything else besides at the very end Darius has a chance at coming back and he’s pissed #that Wrath is now basically married to his daughter

[malewifespike]

do I get bdg3 on my ps5…..it’s eyeing me….it’s not a financially responsible choice but I’m tantalized……

#I’m still playing horizon forbidden west but I can tell I’m nearing the end :( #I also have elders ring i haven’t started yet but it’s so hard #like. I started it technically but I couldn’t even beat the tutorial boss and it was super frustrating so I put it down lol #elden ring #whatever

[andreai04]

“He has wondered lately if that’s all living really is — one long goodbye to those we love.”

#reading #books read in 2023 #bookblr #books #book photography #book blog #bibliophile #recursion #blake crouch #back in time #time travel #memory #uncovered memories #fast paced read #couldn’t put down at the end #alternate timeline #true love #barry x helena #false memory #dead memories #january reads #3.75 stars

[good-night-space-kid]

Just “re-pierced” (read: spent 30 minutes trying to painfully shove a dull earring through my ears) and I finally got a pair of earrings in and. Ouch 🥲

#I got a new pair that’s silver that I was going to wear since I’m the past my ears have tolerated silver well enough #(my ears were infected literally nonstop when I consistently wore earrings so I stopped) #anyways they’re too big and I couldn’t get them through my ears #so I’m wearing my gold hoops thst I don’t love because they’re too big and catch on things #and I’m trying to sleep but my ears hurt to touch #do not recommend #and to be clear I take efforts to keep my ears from being infected #when I take my earrings out they immidiately go into hydrogen peroxide #unless they’re silver which tarnished in peroxide so I just wipe them down extra well #then I wipe them off #then I dip them in alcohol before I go to put them in #and dip the ends in antibacterial cream #and use saline solution twice a day on my ears as well #but unfortunately my ears hate me and are permanently infected when I have earrings in

[vitruvianmanbara]

finished stone ocean

#each part is better than the last jesus christ #i don’t usually binge read stuff but i couldn’t put this down #that fucking ending though. i’m in pain

[simplysummers]

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#tw sui attempt #this is about to get real ranty and I’ll probably end up deleting this later but I’m really upset #so yesterday my stepdad and i got into an argument because he yelled at me on the stairs because he playfully went to push by me and I #replied completely neutrally with ‘I’m sorry I’m not really in the mood can I get by?’ #he proceeded to shove me and scream about how moody I always am and how I’m the one bringing animosity into the household. he has a habit #this. i got very upset to a point where my older brother had to calm me down outside. he ended up going out and I calmed down #my stepdad has an awful habit of being very rude to people including me both my brothers and even my mom #and I’ve finally snapped. I’m not putting up with it anymore #he is one of the key reasons for my extreme self criticism and I’m not dealing with it now #I’m almost 19 years old. i will not be spoken to like this. #and so today he’s come into my room demanding an apology from me. and I very calmly explained that while I wasn’t going to ruin my moms #birthday (which is on Friday) that we would not be on speaking terms before and after the event until he can admit how he’s treating me is #out of order. he constantly deflects whenever he does something wrong and he can never swallow his pride and apologise #there was an incident in November where he told me it was my fault my mother had anxiety and if she got worse he would blame it on me #because I was ‘crazy’. that same day I left my house and headed straight for our overpass because I couldn’t handle the guilt #i was talked out of it by my bio dad who I called on the phone. he picked me up and held me close and my eyes are welling with tears just #thinking about it. it was a terrifying experience as a suicide survivor from last February #am I out of order for this? wanting respect from the man who has been in my life since I was 3. who is married to my mom who I love with my #whole heart? i keep claiming to not be perfect. I’m my own worst critic and yet he parades himself as the victim because I’m finally #standing up to him #and Idk where to go from here

[helennorvilles]

so i’m not totally sure what i think of piranesi beyond general enjoyment but my brain is Thrumming

#i just kinda feel like i need to reread it to straighten it all out now?? #bc like… definitely couldn’t put it down once i got past the first… quarter? maybe third of it? #but also the mystery and end has left me… not sure?? not in a bad way but in a…. idk? #but i did love the writing and i enjoyed just unpeeling the story with no idea what was happening #definitely need a reread one day i think! #my post tag