#did i mention he's also my ex?

[greencarnation]

he isn't over his ex!!!!!! i am a clown!!!!!! fuck everything!!!!!

#well technically they never dated but he was in love with her so . it counts fuck it #they cut contact because well she's a piece of shit but they just reached back out and he's having a crisis about what to say back #and idk even if he choses to not reply it still sucks bc he so clearly still has feelings for her #and was so clearly more in love with her than he ever was with me #it just sucks man #also for context which makes the situation messier #him and me technically aren't dating either #bc distance #however we both have feelings for each other and are planning our futures together and around us being boyfriends and stuff #idk gay people are messy af #did i mention he's also my ex? #that too #but since we aren't technically dating atm i don't have the right to be upset or jealous #which i'm mostly not #it just sucks because they're a shit person who will only hurt him and destroy all his progress again #I don't want her to do that #and also sue me i'm sad for myself too #i'm so fucking dilusional #i really love him #god i wish he was here so bad it's pathetic #vent

[sysig]

He’s my little meow meow, my darling, my bbygirl (Patreon)

#Doodles #Commander Peepers #I'm soooooo normal about him you guys <3 So normal! <3 <3 #*Looking back over the other Little Guys I've collected* Hmmmmmmm Evil Xisuma and Spamton and Sableye and Rick Diggins #I think there might be a theme here #Just casually making Venn Diagrams in my head - Evil X has the red/black - Spamton is trans - Sableye has Gremlin energy - Rick is too tired #And those are just the ones I can think of lol - if you look I did the same stretchy pose with EX when I was still drawing him lol #The Stretch Pose is how you can tell if I like a character lol - they stretchin'? I am infatuated <3 #I mean I'm normal I'm totally normal lol #Also had to give him a bbygrl pose - I for the life of me cannot find it again but the reference is very strong in my mind's eye! #Not that I couldn't go for another one at some point lol ♪ #Ugh the middle one lol - so that Word of God I mentioned in passing about female Watchdogs #I read it in passing as just a basic research of ''Oh here's what The Original Creator has to say alright neat'' #Except that it Immediately made me itchy and I was like ''What. What brain this is not that big of a deal what are you doing'' #And I was like ''No I'm being silly about this - just because I don't agree doesn't mean it's a big deal lol'' #Except then I had stress dreams and woke up Weird the next day and the last time that happened I left a fandom #And the time before that I wrote 4 consecutive pages of 20-something panels in like 18 hours of consciousness - I have normal reactions lol #But I opted instead to vent to smol about it and she agreed with me so basically I'm just saying I'm correct lol /s #Personally Peepers doesn't strike me as misogynistic - he's very much an Equal Opportunity villain in my eyes! #And yeah I considered a lot of different angles around it but like - based on the text of WOY I just don't buy it #If it's not in the show it doesn't count! For all we know there might not even be any female Watchdogs! Lol #Would also lead to the equally-to-Spamton interesting question of How Does Trans Work in that kind of situation #I've definitely not already put a lot of thought into it don't look at me lol #Don't ask me to write an essay about both of those things I'll do it and where will that leave us lol #ANYway lol ♪ He's still the absolute funnest to draw in distress and discomfort <3 And kneeling! He makes me want to practice :D #I always feel like I can try again and do better! >:3c

[theloveinc]

stoner!kiri who cant help but hold you close in his lap during the sesh n dry hump you with a hand down your pants fingering u as you hold the blunt.. opened mouth kisses on the juncture between ur shoulder and neck, all sorts of praises coming from his mouth.. wah :(

idk stoner!kiri smelling like adidas colgne and weed n a little bit of musk.. wahh i want him to destroy me :(

Sorry to diverge from the sexy, I’m just so 😖 at the thought of like… Kiri getting off of patrol the night before a few days off, and like… getting home, immediately getting high and then falling asleep on the couch (cuz he’s too lazy to shower and you probs wouldn’t want him in bed)… and waking up groggy, smelling all musky and manly and weedy and wondering why you keep trying to hug him LMAOOO.

I’d be all up on him trying to get a whiff, even if I’d still be calling him stinky the whole time hfndjfjdjvh. Also Kiri w/ big weed brain fog for the first hour after he wakes up… rhsmfjkfjckfk scratching his head and just following you around trying to get you in the shower with him… *zim voice* I HAVE A MIGHTY NEED🤲🏻

But also YESSSDDD to the sexy… He’s kinda like this anyway (thank you T), a very casual toucher… but when he’s stoned, his hand is going straight into your panties whether the attention is meant to be on you or not. All heavy breathing and spacey hickeys that bruise kinda badly cuz he’s not paying attention… not letting you move until you’ve cum three, four times and are begging (hyper aware of safe words though, he’s a hero Through and Through)…

Yeah. I’d sleep good after that, too.

(Bakugo always gets on his case abt wasting weed cuz he has a bad habit of not putting anything out before kissing you LMAOOO)

#kirishima #it’s funny what weed does to him. like he’s already pretty selfless generally but high??? #he doesn’t org*sm the whole night and doesn’t even notice #u mention f*cking for real the next day and he’s like !??? we did? no baby. I (you) did #people are like kiri what do u do in ur spare time #he’s like ‘get high and have s*x’ LMAOOO SO WEIRD #actually I should say ‘get high and h^mp my wife’ hehdjfjf #no weird but it’s kinda weird to think abt bc we never talk abt this so it feels unexpected #I know any of the heroes partaking in anything is a bit improbable… but I just pretend it’s 200 years in the future and the world is atpeace #anyway #boys looking grubby and tired in the morning after sleeping on the couch… when ur nice husband cosplays a divorcee for about five minutes #til u make him shower #LMAOOO that’s kiri + weed #toxic ex vibes #except he’s just st*ned #lmaoooooo also bakugo being stingy about weed I’m cryingggggg #he never smokes either so his is going to waste too but differently #he gets high and needs a p*ssyjob #gives u a really nice b*oty rub #what if I die #but he’s an edible dude.. or tincture #he also coughs a lot too it’s funny #and when ur like… bruh… he’s like THAT MEANS ITS WORKING #BYE #sorry I got distracted throughout this entire thing #bruising tw #caitie things #cognacqueen666 #drugs tw

[silverselfshippingchaos]

BASCH KISSER??? :D

AHSJAHSJQHS

Maybe just a little!!! (I say as if I haven't been giggling and kicking my legs all day thinking about kissing him)

#answered #AHDJQGSJEHRJWHRKEHJDHEJRHWJRHWJDJWJEHWKRJEJEHJWEHJQHEJWURJWHWJWGE #ahem #my face is all red!!!!! #i have yet to play 12. im playing 10 rn and i'll play 12 after 10-2! #BUT UM. THIS MAN... I saw him and uh. I felt a little spark and AHSJHAKDJA #sorry I'm very blushy rn ajsjajejw #i just. gah i have such a massive crush even if i barely know him!! i cant stop thinking about him... or his lips.. #he just. um. he's really handsome. #i also have a crush on o.lberic e.isenberg so i find it funny that like... i think two older ex-knights in their mid 30s with facial scars #are super handsome- #but yeah. i have a crush on b.asch #a huge crush. a crush so bad that even though its been a little less than two days... im all heart eyes #i really think hes so so handsome!!! and man sjehwkdhqd did i mention i have a thing for facial scars?? especially when theyre f.f men? #(looks at g.ladio. looks at s.eifer) #BUT YEAH AKSHAJSHQJRHQJE #i am indeed a b.asch kisser! #... i think- again i havent played the game yet! i do own it though akdjajs just havent played it #but um. im looking. i am looking so respectfully #even his voice gives me butterflies!!!!! #please sir one kiss please please pl-

[girlwithfish]

opened up to him abt my bpd maybe i shldnt have done that im just used to my ex using it agaisnt me lmfaooo

#hes dated someone w bpd before too i was like 🫣🫣🫣when he mentioned it on the first date #Ack #i like. never ever want to be dependent on anotehr person or unhealthily enmeshed or whatever and also #never want my bpd to show up like it has before #I think w the right person its manageable #i always feel guilty bc ik itnwas hard on my ex but the way he handled it jsut put like more oil into the fire Yk? #Idk #like i remenber the way he first wld handle when id habe an episode this was very early on was by sitting on me #wasnt like necessarily aggressive and i wld calm down but i remember my therapist saying like He shld nawt do that at all #And i shld habe listened i wld even tell him once tje physical stuff got more intense and aggressive my therapist said #no grabbing and stuff like that but he did nawt listen...... LOL #um #idk #but yeah #I just neber wanna b in that place of weakness again

[kxllerblond]

reading book? too much effort. sitting down and writing replies?? can't focus.

youtube rabbit hole of in-depth Barbie history and architectural design of dream houses and playsets? i got all da focus in da world baybeee!

#barbie has always been an Interest especially in adult years since i more or less refrained from being #a hardcore barbie enjoyer because ykno not to gender talk on a tues but i rejected just about everything typically femme because i did not #want to be seen as femme or fully femme from a young age #so even if i really liked barbies i distanced myself from them pretty fast :'( #so now i think im compensating by like. instead of buying them for myself because i dont really want to collect. i just like lmao #obsessively info dive and watch commercial compilations and shit kdjfgdg #anyway did you know barbie has two younger siblings besides her main three that were actually her youngest ones #tutti and todd and they havent been seen since the late 90s? like theyre recognized in terms of history but in terms of #barbie lore and canon theyve been completely retconned out cuz theyve never shown up in sets or movies or anything #did you also know they were made of a bendable soft plastic as opposed to hard and the wires were prone to poking through and stabbing kids #and that the plastic stored like shit and if you put them (soft plastic) on your other dolls (hard) they would literally #melt into each other?? :) #barbie also has lots of cousins just got mentioned briefly and then annihilated from technical canon lol #oooh and then there's also Blaine who is an ex bf of barbie that was made specifically to date her briefly during a sort of campaign #barbie broke up with ken and got with blaine but ofc she got back with ken and after that blaine was never seen nor mentioned again. he deA #anyway happy tuesday im gonna eat my soup and try and break out of this info consuming trance so i can wrITE #oHOH and last silly trivia being barbie has lots of canon relatives that havent been retconned or anything BUT they've also never been made #into dolls. off the top of my head i think some of these include like uhhh her mom and dad and some aunts and shit #tho i think these are either just mentioned in passing or from the barbie movies or some in books

[ihatebnha]

If Katsuki runs out of his black or white socks, he'd definitely raid your fun socks drawers and maybe you'd catch him in pink hello kitty socks

Catching him in the pink and white hello kitties that were part of a 5 piece set??? I’m not sure whether the right response would be finding it cute or getting mad he was stretching them out with his big ass feet.

Would still love to see it though🥺 esp if it meant catching him in the act of digging through all the socks too LOL. He’d look soooo guilty, huh?

#bakugo #you know what they say… big feets means a big co— #:-)))))) #no but reminds me of the time my ex boyfriends socks got wet #so I gave him the pair I had in my bag #which were these cute Spider-Man ones #and he was like #‘they won’t fit’ #and I was like yes they will #and they DID #I used to have a picture of it but it’s lost now #anyway this was so cute anon thank u #I’m also taking the worst sh*t of my life rn unfortunately #but that’s unrelated #I’m just here suffering that’s why I mention it #ask #anon #caitie chats

[imaginepostingonmain]

gay people can't even flirt normally these days i swear 😒 it's all "ohh you were like super concerningly quick with being willing to murder me in order to advance with a killing game you didn't even want to be part of and now im going to perpetually haunt you until you finally actually deal with the guilt of it all" like. goddamn. just buy each other flowers.

#castielposting #hi :) #im aware every time i go nuts abt castiel on here (which isnt actually that much!! goddamn!! well i assure you im verh insane abt him) #im sitting there like. they dont know. abt the ghosts. so yeah. this dude?? SUPER haunted. #most haunted fuckin guy you've ever met #honestly that wasnt supposed to be canon but felix mentioned smth offhand about it and ive just been rotating it in my mind ever since #like. yeah you know what what if the ghost of his ex-boyfriend DID exist. wouldnt that be horrible??? #also fun fact this is the first time ive ever drawn bradley #(<- thats the ghost dude. hes called bradley. love that for him) and honestly?? shits fun i shoukd do that more goddamn #sorry ill fix this all in the morning lmao i aint comprehensive rn #tobyart

[sateurn]

😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

These sobs really limited my tags?????

I have so many more thoughts this is so so much less than 1/2. Broski. Big dislike

#its ‘i watched a tv show and i need to talk about it in the tags of this site im not on anymore’ time #ty to the void for always accepting my thoughts <3 #so honestly its just me thinking about the andromeda tv show. i just finished it and it left me destitute bc i clung onto the first 2 season #s as a basis and had ten thousand questions i *assumed* would be resolved. spoiler alert: they were nto #not*. and the coda addition helps but like. not enough. it explains some of the #oh fyi if anyone is reading or cared there will be spoilers #anyways it explained some of them ex for the cosmic engine bit. seemed pretty relevant and then was never mentioned again #i also MUCH prefer that version of trance — i had speculation she was a sun avatar which i took as confirmation when i finally noticed her #tattoo when harper used it to remind himself he put that data in the sun etc etc but i much prefer the sun-as-consciousness-astral-poject- #ing-slash-dreamjng-itself-a-body / being a little devil. i think that feels much more true to what we got in worldbuilding early on and tbh #the bar is on the floor bc any explanation would be better than what we got. also im sorry but s5 i trusted SO hard that that whole virgil #vox bit in the finale was insulting. couldnt even tie up the loose end you invented at the last minute????? MY god. i understand getting you #r budget halved but like. broski. it would have been better to ignore it at that point imo. #anywhoodle. i also have just ISSUES w the lack of resolution & not doing justice to literally any character #listen. why would you sink SO much effort into tyr just to have honestly what i feel is a disrespectful end to that character. like #tyr required me to do a LOT of thinking bc i sympathized with his position in exile etc while thinking also bro thats real fucked up. bro #stop thats fuckinng e*genics again dude. tbh with the entire species (im not looking up how to spell that rn) bc like the foundation of #their entire race is e*ugenics. (sorry censoring bc im in the tags just venting about tv) which obviously is a terrible idea but i think the #so it was like i am fundamentally against the concept but in show universe theg obviously did it etc but for me provided such a huge like #context to the universe. i fundamentally am not on board with all the commonwealth stuff like yeah i get it the magog are bad and scary but #like the neitzcheans (sp??? idc) are also Right There bein scary. then theres the ‘enhanced’ debate re dylan beka etc that like. is the same #but ‘’different’’ i guess. 🙄 anyways that is just to point out like. the level of thinking this show put me through just to blindside me w/ #no resolution. i had SO much hope. tyr selling iut to the abyss is disrespectful to all of the established work the actor did for him and #to the character as well even if i think the ideology is icky. he was shown to be even less and less self-centric survival guy as it went on #and also tbh i didnt understand the him stealing his kids dna thing. i really thought that was gonna gi in a different less bs direction #okay also while im here can i just say. that tyr and dylan had THE most romantic tension to me. everyone else felt very friendshipy and i am #NOT one to usually fall into a ‘they obviously should be together’ pipeline that the writers dont make themselves. but the back and forth ( #and intense eye contact) had me sitting there like. it was made in 2000 i know they wont do it but for not doing it they sure did! not that #i think they’d make a good couple (they would not) but that there was definitely something there on the dl you know? something more than #‘mutual respect’ you feel? and tbh! they also ruined the tyr beka thing by making her the matriarch. big ew huge ick.

[notjanine]

i’ll stop talking about this mf eventually but like okay. i hate being taken care of. 99% of the time, i HATE being taken care of. but i am also not naturally skilled at social stuff, like i’ve learned and i can do it and i’m good at it now, but—iiiii hate to admit it—but i’ve always wanted to be with someone who can like. take the driver’s seat, socially. and Bookstore just knows exactly how to shine the spotlight on me in a group setting. sometimes i get so overwhelmed taking everything in that i forget to talk even when i have relevant things to add! but they know just when to say Oh al said/did/made me watch/read/listen to xyz, and then give me the space to elaborate. or they’ll be more subtle and say like [Nearby person who likes something i like], have you seen/do you know about [specific thing they know i love] and it’s. gosh it’s really nice. also they are very big and warm. gosh

#ngl this was a pretty significant part of why it didn’t work with my ex and why i’d be hesitant to go aut4aut again #like i was just so much more socially competent than him i knew i would have to take the lead in most social settings and #the idea of that was just so exhausting #so to stumble into this… #also i think i mentioned before that Bookstore is like WEIRDLY… autism friendly?? #we like them. they have a lot of us in their life in big and small ways #their best friend is one of us and apparently they told him that i’m autistic and he was just like Yeah that tracks for you. #and this started as a blind date!! wild. WILD. this shit weird. but good #very good #ANYWAY i didn’t die at the outdoor bar and i did have a very good time #but also this was the second time in a row i’ve gone to a social gathering where someone i met for the first time already knew who i was! #and it wasn’t even one of Bookstore’s friends this time! aah! 😰

[mushroom-winners-proof]

countdown what are the top kingdom hearts homosexual moments of all time

fuck man anything involving xehanort and eraqus tbh we gon be here all day if i list those

#snap chats #countdown's in the tags LMAO #I WAS GONNA MAKE IT THE MAIN BODY TEXT BUT WHEN I WAS MAKING THE LIST #I TRULY JUST REALIZED I WAS LISTING XEHANORT AND ERAQUS MOMENTS LMAO #anyway here you go #1.) them fuckers dying. just that whole shit idk how they did it but they did #2.) xehanort ranting about eraqus exactly like an ex-husband would to terra #3.) the bbs novel. nuff said. but not the part where xehanort's manipulating eraqus #but eraqus just responds to tenderly to xehanort that you think for exactly two seconds there's actually something #also just eraqus in general tbh his whole birth could'a taken up seven slots #4.) eraqus getting xehanort to turn to face him int he graveyard one more time before he leaves #5.) any time xehanort mentions eraqus in his reports #yeah we'll stop the list there #there are more tho outside of these two this i know but you know. my brain is made of fucking mulch

[shijas]

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#delete later #loud in the tags cuz i haven’t been here properly for a while ! #oh em geee so i listened to kill bill by sza yesterday for the first time cuz i’ve been avoiding the album for fear of having it be #forced down my throat right ?? THAT SHITS INSANE #like me of last year wouldn’t have gotten how insane that is i woulda been like oh kill bill the movie #and then now i’ve seen the fucking movie i was like … ahaha kill bill?? #and the i’m so mature i’m so mature i’m so mature ?? #also the i might to i killed ?? yeah she’s insane like honestly honestly it’s a fun little beat whcih got me at first and then on my third #listen i was like wait wtf is she saying ??? like she meant kill bill fr ?? and #yeah she meant that shit fr #i don’t even got an ex but i’ve been ?? i’ve been i was 15 when ctrl came out and i have as much dating experience as i did then and STILL #she makes me feel like someone has fucked me up irrevocably #insanity fr #i’m scared to listen txt he rest of the album cuz i can’t be a saw girlie look at me 🧍🏾‍♀️ #the worst thing to do with love that has ever happened to me is like … jjk spoiler for shibuya happening come on #not to mention i pick goofy! disgusting men! that are hot bjt come on #then again she did say dirty shoes and dirty men so maybeee #anyway yeah kill bill ! fair ply sza you got me again

[elytrafemme]

today might be a lyric posting on main kinda day

#nightmare.personal #GF said she was excited to see me later and sent me a heart and a smiley emoji #and it's the PINK hearts which I think in her heart rankings I learned last May that's a good thing? #but maybe purple is better but like why would she make me the worse one compared to what she made my ex #that doesn't make any sense also did i mention that my ex's first kiss i think was with my current girlfriend #i feel like this is some ruse but i was the one who pitched the date so nothing bad is going to happen but i don't think she likes me? #like i don't think my girlfriend actually likes me because i haven't seen her in forever #like i didn't see her at ALL yesterday and i mean i had to mediate an argument with her and my other friend #and that was like a week ago and we definitely spoke after that but i think she still remembers #and i HAVE to look good today but it's really cold outside so i don't know how to impress her #because I don't know what traits about me that she actually LIKES and that's like so difficult? #because I don't know what i need to play up to get her to really like me she isn't giving me ANYTHING #does she think i'm attractive? does she think i'm smart? does she think i'm kind? like WHAT IS IT. #because if i don't KNOW then i have to just be me and that's not going to work! #dating is so fucking difficult what the hell i'm going to explode #maybe I do my makeup today OOH I COULD PAINT MY NAILS #maybe that iwll make me better #no but then i have to hide the nails from my mom God dammit. #oh and i can't listen to music because my brother wants me to change my spotify username!!! #so if he sees me listening! he'll know i haven't! but i also don't think he follows me? #i don't think i like my brother very much #i keep trying to decide if there's something wrong with me and honestly i'm not so sure i think there isn't #but the fact i said that will make you think there is so there's no point anyway

[thebuttsmcgee]

so. um. 👉👈

hi guysies.

Ig I should just say like. Hi

I haven't been posting here as much cause. Idk. Might be depression? I keep thinking its cause I've been so busy, which also wouldn't be not untrue, but these past, like, 3 weeks I think so far? I've had some free time but I haven't cause. I dunno, then again, I haven't been doing too much in general? I gues, besides very mandatory things, hell I've even been lacking in my regular skyrim hours of playing.

That, and as said, I get super melancholic when I remember just how sad and bittersweet it is that t0h is. Actually legit over. The show and experience, that is.

Oh all that and also becuz my headphones broke! Fuck! That's like number 2 in my bare necessities for when I post, do almost anything really! It's seriously been painful this past month going without headphones holy shit. Dude I've been scratching at the bit for some relief for headphones, I NEED music legitimately. Even right now, as I'm typing this on my phone, my music is on low levels.

But yerp. Its been. Rough. Really rough. I really do appreciate yall, everyone of yall. Have a sweet week everyone, ✌️!

#the butts chronicles #ogh but yea. been rough. #as said I have no idea if we'll keep this house cause man shits been fucked #uhhhh. lets see. recently my sister got into a fairly nasty argument with her husband since they were both drunk and hes a bit of a. hm #quick to being mad guy? I spose? but yea they made up and he actually apologized to me and my family for that so. its okay? #OH YEA FUCK LOL a few weeks ago fuckin tecksas got hit nasty with a hurricane and GUYS. I FREAKED OUT SO BAD LOL #cuz there was hail with the rain but since. I dont think we even ever experienced hail here I was scared that my ceiling roof broke again #and that it was the rain leaking to my room ceiling and was about to burst my ceiling so I legit started hyperventilating and panicking #with like. short and heavy breathing and almost crying badly until I went to look outside and saw hail and only slightly calmed down #oh but yea it was nasty lol. then the next day almost the entire block lost power and apparently sparks were happening cause fallen trees #uhhh. lets see. hmmm. OH OH RIGHT DAMN I FORGOT WE GOT A PUPPY LOL #we've gotten a lil pup all the way back from dec? iirc and she is now older and a shit lol shes in her teething phase and whatnot #still p cute tho and very puppyish. oh yea also during dec our power went out and ogh man dec was so freezing literally. #almost as bad as the one from. uhhh I cant remember the exact year but I remember it being within these past 4 years at least cause I read #a t0h fic during it lol. oh yea speaking of. we also changed our light company and damn. its been not bad so far! we had to pay up to 300 #in our old company and now we dont even get to 200 so far! hope Im not jinxing it! hmm oh did I already say before that I had to get a new #phone? cause I did and I did not enjoy it lol. had it for a while and now and its arguably worse cause no damn headphone plug-in #I think I did mention this but in case. I did finish counseling. well more accurately they required payments again since things and whatnot. #I think? I mentioned the stuff I got for my bday and chmisas. I got mostly neat stuff. I guess. one of them has still yet to arrive lol #uhhhh. hrm. I did get Mr. Martinet's autograph as a present! hrmmm #my other sister got another surgery a while back and its been relatively the same since. hmm. my only other living grandparent passed away #me and my ex got into a. not great argument cause mistakes and whatnot. raccoons in the attic thats hopefully taken care of for now #aaaaand the plushes I ordered a damn near year ago have been technically canceled cause of unfortunate circumstances for the creator #who just kinda. posts things now lol ig. #but yea. lots. holy shit guys. lots has happened. fuck man. I think Ive been way more tired than I thought. #not to mention the past weeks of just. reflecting. man #uhhh #long post #LOL i gues #but yerp.