#don’t think I’m gonna get to sleep tonight :

[dante-mightdie]

just a thought that i thought of after reading the angst fics 😖:

Pretend the guy who took her home was some rando she became close with at the bar, and that she told him about all her troubles and issues that she encountered with 141 recently. He comforted her and then they drank together yadayadayada he takes her home, the boys tuck her in despite them being mad, the cute “princess” moment, then morning.

When morning comes, they all talk it out, only catch is that now they’re back at square one when getting Reader to open up, and get intimate. Let alone even hug them.

Another catch is that they seemed more comfortable with literally anyone else BUT them. They all went out? Reader brings the guy friend to come along, then falls asleep on his shoulder accidentally, even though Gaz offered his shoulder first instead. They all are gonna cuddle and sleep in the same bed together and want Reader to join in? Reader opts for a plushed animal (The big plushies— Like a giant bear or shark) instead. It was like getting Ghost to let down his walls, just a little harder since instead of short answer “no’s” and grunts, they’d feel like they’re bullying Reader even though all they asked was want they want for breakfast.

Ex: *They all are talking, then Price turns to Reader* “Where do you wanna go out tonight, sweets?”

Reader: *literally sweating and looking at every other place thats not any of them, fiddling with their fingers as they mutter out a soft,* “Dunno.”

here’s a lil something something i’ve been thinking about

c/w: reader has trust issues, boys attempt to make amends, not a happy ending really but still more to come, panic, anxiety

it had been a stressful few weeks for you after that night at the bar

when the morning came, you woke up to find yourself in the centre of their bed. sheets all tangled with up in the knot of limbs made up by you and your lovers. heavy arms slung over your waist and sleeping faces smushed into the side of your neck

this may have been the norm for you a few weeks ago but with recent events, this makes you feel trapped. especially since you can’t recall the events of the previous night. your brain had switched off after your fourth daiquiri

you must have gotten hammered and crawled into the bed after hours, you think to yourself. must have gotten so lonely and desperate that you crawled into their bed. you have to get up and leave before they find you

you carefully pull their arms from you, untangling your legs with a painfully slow pace. no risky movements. when you think you’re just about to make it, you feel a strong arm snaking its way back around your waist and pulling you straight back into the flesh pile

“where’re you goin’, darlin’?” price grumbles in your ear, his prickly bread tickling your skin when he pushes his face back into the side of your neck. your eyes widen at the situation you’ve found yourself in

price perks up a bit, lifting his head when he feels you push at this arm wrapped around you like you want it off. he lifts his arm slightly for you. you twist and turn to get out of his grip, scrambling to your feet and watching him with a nervous expression

“woah, calm down. please don’t act like i’m going to hurt you, you know I’d never do that.” price says with a soft tone, hands out in surrender as you step away from the bed. he frowns at your skittery nature

“what happened last night? why am I in your room?” you ask, wrapping your arms around you for comfort. your hands feel soft cotton rather than the black silk you wore the night before and you look down to see one of soaps old band t-shirts, “did I put this on?”

the boys begin to stir awake at the sound of hushed voices. soft groans and joints clicking filling the room but you don’t take your eyes off of john’s. he seems sad, like you’ve just subtly devastated him

“you came home in a bit of a state so we bought you to bed. why’d you look so nervous, honey?” john coos, the rest of the boys are fully awake now, sat up and watching this scene unfold in front of them

feeling all those sets of eyes on you makes you close up, looking down at the floor and not saying a word. like you’re trying to make yourself small, hard to see and perceive

john climbs out of bed next, placing a gentle hand on the top of your head. “let’s go get something to eat, yeah? we all have a lot to talk about today.”

all you can do is stand rigid and stare at them with shock splattered on your face as they all climb out of bed, walk over to you and plant a kiss on your forehead before following john downstairs

you stare at the empty doorway for a few minutes before creeping downstairs, brow furrowed the whole time as you watch them move around in the kitchen. john grips your tense shoulders and nudges you into a seat before placing a cup of steaming hot coffee in front of you

johnny and kyle are setting the table, smiling at you and asking how you slept. playfully scolding you for drinking too much before popping a few painkillers in front of you. you feel like you’ve been placed in the middle of a tv sketch. like at any moment someone with a camera is gonna run out and tell you that you’re being punked

“how was your night out, darling? we see you made a new friend.” john gives you his classic close lipped smile, the one you used to tell him made him look like a quokka. you jerk away when you feel simon walk over, ruffle your hair and place a bowl of cut up fruit in front of you wordlessly

“uh… it was… fine.” you mumble, staring down at the ceramic bowl. kyle connects his phone to the speaker, letting the kitchen become filled with morning news reports and music as they cook breakfast. you barely touch the food they put in front of you, your paranoid brain telling you that something bad was about to happen

they fill the tables with plates full of food, all the fixings for me a full-english and more. fruit and pastries, jugs of freshly squeezed juice, courtesy of kyle and that ridiculously expensive juicer that he asked john to buy him. they start helping themselves to the food, piling their plates high whilst you just sit there anxiously, hands kept firmly in your lap

your coffee has since gone cold, only taking one sip to help you wash down the painkillers. you can’t take it anymore. you don’t like how normal they’re acting, as if they haven’t spent the past few weeks putting you through hell at home,

“need to do the food shop today. why don’t you come with me, princess? we’ll pick up some lunch and sit in the garden. the weather is-“ john begins talking but you just cut him off

“what the actual fuck are you talking about, john?” you blurt out, hand coming up to silence him. everyone stops eating and turns to look at you. “have you lost the plot? why are you acting like everything is just normal?”

“I ken it’s been a difficult few weeks for ye, hen but we just want-“ johnny begins to speak, a frown tugging at his lips as he reaches his hand across the table to grab yours. you snatch it away, looking at him like he was insane

“I don’t give a fuck what you want!” you scoff, snatching your hand away before he can touch you, “I don’t know what joke you lot are playing on me but it’s not funny. I can’t- I don’t- just fucking stop, okay!?”

you struggled to find your words for a moment before bursting out, your lip wobbling and eyes welling up before you stand from the table abruptly. you turn on your feet and storm upstairs, going straight to your room and slamming the door

the second the it’s closed you slide down the wooden door, tears falling from your eyes as you bury your face in your hand. meanwhile, downstairs the kitchen is silent. cutlery placed firmly on the table, untouched as all the boys comprehend the situation they’re in

“we fucked up.”

#mw2 #cod mw2 #simon ghost riley #simon riley x reader #simon riley #ghost #ghost x reader #captain john price #john price x reader #john price #kyle gaz garrick x reader #kyle garrick x reader #kyle gaz garrick #kyle garrick #john soap mctavish x reader #soap mactavish #soap #soap mactavish x reader #soap x reader #soap call of duty #simon ghost riley x reader #ghost simon riley #john mactavish x reader

[disasterhimbo]

I had a very tiresome day and I’m totally worn out but I saw a lot of good Palestine posts that I’ll try to reblog soon and in the meantime, everyone who sees this should go look at the free Palestine tag (and participate in the global strike, do whatever you can to get governments’ attention and force them to stop killing people).

#my post #personal #the tags are just me talking about myself so you should go read the free Palestine tag instead lol #I had to go to the dentist urgently for pain and it was very stressful but at least it’s over now #hopefully I won’t get covid 😅 #I did have energy to call my reps and I’m probably gonna try to do that every day this week #I always do it at least once a week now but maybe if I’m annoying enough they’ll pay attention? #you’d think being a good person and standing up for human rights would be motivation enough but alas #and I’m not buying anything of course #I don’t have a job or school to strike from #I wanna organize events but I am so goddamn tired all the time #especially tonight #I’m about to go to sleep and it’s not yet 9 pm (for context I often stay up until like 5 am)

[arionawrites]

1. it’s my 24th birthday today, so my goal of being published by the time i’m 25 is now a one year looming monster, but i never specified what kind of published and am currently looking in various literary magazines that are recommended for writers who have yet to be published, so i’m surprisingly confident that i can make it work? and tbh even if whatever i write isn’t officially published before my 25th birthday, if i have someone in the process of being published then i’ll be happy!! no matter what though, i’m gonna try to be proud of myself for at least giving it my best shot!!

2. i honestly love that my birthday is on the ides of march because the ides of march meme shitposting is only a thing on tumblr but it also being my birthday makes it easier to like. be excited about the ides of march outside of tumblr. like even in person i can be like “it’s my birthday! i’m an ides of march babe (:” and if someone is like oh what’s that? or if they say something along the lines of oh like julius caesar? i can be like yep!! and even if it’s a small thing outside of tumblr it brings me immense enjoyment and amusement being able to bring it up off of tumblr

3. transportation situation has been very rough since june 2023 when i totalled my car, my gap insurance are being assholes and i ended up putting my foot down on the phone with them yesterday which i’m pretty proud of because i am NOT a confrontational person (something i’ve been working on this past year, so seeing some improvement with my ability to hold my ground and not be a pushover yesterday was very cool!!) i was told i’d get a response from them by friday next week no matter what, and if i don’t then friday of next week i will continue to wreak havoc upon them. but my moms car which i’ve been using since my accident broke down yesterday, hopefully it’s fixable but my parents were saying it might be done for, so trying to think of how i’m gonna get to work next week is kind of stressing me out lmao, but for now i’m just gonna focus on enjoying my birthday the best i can because i don’t want to start off being 24 with an overwhelming anxiety for something that won’t be a potential issue until monday. plus i already messaged my boss today to let her know that i’m going to do everything i can to make it work out but just so she’s in the loop and knows of the potential of me not being able to make my morning shifts (one of my coworkers said she’s more than happy to give me a ride for our afternoon shifts which does help relieve some of the stress!) and i told her i’d let her know for sure sunday so that if necessary she can have time to figure out someone to fill in for me in the mornings!

overall: life is weird and i ended being 23 yesterday with a shitty situation but a positive outlook and i am going to enjoy my first day of being 24 no matter what because honestly i fucking earned it. happy friday everyone, i hope it’s a good day for you and me both!

#aritalks #i did cry a little bit when i first woke up because i dont really know what to do about work and also i hate not having a car i can use #not only because of the work aspect but also getting my license when i was 18 gave me a freedom i didn’t have before #and i don’t like having to rely on other people just to like go to the fucking store or something yk #but then my best friend/roommate messaged me happy birthday and i was like fuck it! today is going to be a good day! #the stressful uncertainties can wait until tomorrow #also one of my best friends who hasn’t said happy birthday to me the past two years #(not intentionally im p sure they were just busy on my birthdays the past two years #and then had that moment of ‘oh shit i didnt send a message fuck i think its too late now’ which i totally get bc anxiety things yk) #was one of the first people to message me happy birthday!! #i’m also hoping to still be able to go see my mom and then stay the night at my dads tonight #so i can see both my parents and also my baby siblings for my birthday #my dads working today but after he texted happy birthday i sent him a text asking if he thinks we could still make it work #my mom is asleep still i think (she called me at midnight and left a voicemail singing happy birthday!! but her sleep schedule has been all #over the place recently so i’m waiting until 11:30 to call her which is in like 30 mins) #but she said something yesterday about driving out to me to give me a hug and also bring me my diabetes stuff that got delivered #(her house is my mailing address because i know it’s not going to change bc it’s my great grandparents house that she’s partially inhereting #when my great grandpa dies but since i have moved out of my dads my address has changed twice and i didnt have a mailbox at my last place so #just for the sake of consistency and not having to worry about important shit getting sent to the wrong address i’ve had her house as my #mailing address since i moved out of my dads at 19) #so i think i’m gonna ask her if she can just pick me up instead so i can go to her house w her and hang out with her #and hopefully my dad will be able to at least stop by with my siblings so i can see them too #i’d like to stay the night with them but if we can’t make it happen then i can also stay the night w my mom and hopefully tomorrow figure #out the car situation. might have to rent a car for a week if i can afford it? best case scenario is my moms car can be fixed but i still #dont know whats wrong with it ik there are two potential problems and one is fixable the other is not #the fixable one would cost like $150-$400 to fix depending on if we get a used part or a new one #if its $150-$200 ish i can probably afford to pay for the whole thing or at least most of it #but if its more than that hopefully my dad or one of my family members can help #and i can just pay them back in like $50 increments with my next few paychecks #just realized i said i wouldnt worry abt the car thing today and also i think im at tag limit to i’ll stop now lmao xoxo gossip girl ❤️

[exopelagic]

okay facing consequences of my actions

#I thought I’d gotten away with it this time #okay it’s 3am and I may have discovered something that completely ruins me #everyone is asleep so I can’t tell if this is me being sleep deprived or not! #so I need to sleep now but I haven’t cleaned my code up or written my answers #I do Not have time #if I don’t sleep now I’m gonna be having a bad time tomorrow morning and I am significantly less productive rn than I could be #with other people around I kinda need that y #so I should go to bed. but also. this code needs cleaning. but also. even if I fall asleep now I’m only getting like 5 hours MAX #I need a good few hours tomorrow morning to have a shot at doing this properly #so it would be more useful to sleep now and wake up as early as possible than keep going tonight bc I’m not going to finish tonight #okay. fuck. I hate this #if I could think straight I’d be able to fix this easy which is probably a good reason to sleep #it’s just an annoying logical problem that I gotta follow through bc currently I’m stuck between three possibilities and there might be more #I have these two rasters and I gotta calculate the area overlap #the first method counts the number of presence points in each (probably) and then counts the number in overlap raster w manually set values #the second counts total predicted points and points where they’re predicted to be alone and does a calculation with that for each species #that one with all points from both species + pseudoabsence. vs method 3 which does that with just individual species coordinates #method 1&2 are now homologous now I JUST caught the logical error but method 3 is what he gave us #but actually he might have fucked up in not including pseudoabsence #i don’t know if method 3 works for two different species either honestly #it gives me results I like much more (my overlap is 100% for one of the species and that shoooouldnt rlly happen even if it’s possible) but #I think it might actually just be wrong because it can’t account for #wait so the line is taking the prediction for all coordinates for each species for each species’ initial coordinates. and not pseudoabsence #and that set of predictions for each species coordinate set is then taken and yeah it’s no longer comparable you can’t count each alone #not with two different species bc you need an overlapping dataset to do that OKAY I have solved that logical problem my initial method works #which is annoying bc the result sucks but whatever I checked the rasters and it’s actually identical so #okay now I’ve figured that out. twenty minutes later. sleep I think it’ll help most #luke.txt

[gcsememesarchived]

GCSE art students casually questioning their life choices as they attempt to meet coursework deadlines in the midst of revising for a hundred other subjects

#gcse2022 #gcse art #don’t think I’m gonna get to sleep tonight :/ #oH well #gcsememes #gcse edexcel

[iguessitsjustme]

One time I was on a date with a guy and I told him I liked roller blading and that I was trying to find a pair of roller blades so I could go roller blading with my coworker and this dude looked me dead in the eyes and asked “Do you know how to roller blade?”

My brother in christ

#rae irl #I don’t think I’m gonna be able to get any sleep tonight so sorrynotsorry for my tired brain thoughts I’ll be posting #this is what I’m currently thinking about because like how #how was he THAT bad at making conversation #I know first dates can be awkward but ffs I’m an interesting person with plenty of hobbies and I always respond by asking about your hobbies #like just how does one fail at a conversation that hard #no I just said I enjoyed it cause I’ve never done it ever #the thing that kills me is that I didn’t realize until after the date how weird that was #I just went on to tell a story about how I was roller blading backwards and managed to injure myself #because of course I did #after the date though I had a full wait a minute…. moment where I thought about that conversation #and neither of us spoke to each other again the end

[rosicheeks]

Maybe you could do audiobooks while you paint, I know I love listening to podcasts when I’m doing things like that.

OoOOoO that’s a good idea!!!

#I usually throw on a movie or show that I’ve seen a billion times #but I feel like I’ve been replaying the same movies over and over again #I love them with all my heart #but I need something different #so maybe I’ll try that tomorrow!! #I would tonight #but I just took a shower and fuck that took all my energy #I’m surprised I had enough energy to lotion and change and everything #and of course after I was done I went in the living room and saw a daddy long leg chilling #tried to get it but idk if I did #and now I feel all creepy crawly #anyone else feel like spiders plot their revenge #like if you try to kill them and you don’t they just watch and plan their revenge #get an army of spiders together to attack me in my sleep #ok gonna stop thinking about that cause I’m genuinely getting freaked outtttt #anywayyyyy #thank you for the idea!!! #im gonna try that tomorrow #any good podcasts you want to recommend??? ☺️ #ask #anon

[arthur-r]

emily wilson out here translating the iliad and i am once again wishing i knew how to read and translate ancient greek

#listen where there’s a will there’s a way but i just finished my degree audit and looks like i will only be able to manage a classics minor #with latin emphasis (unless i abandon latin for greek which i’m not going to do even though it pains me) #but i really want to make my own iliad someday…. #at this rate i’ll only ever end up making a queer prose adaptation and be criticized for projecting modern notions of sexuality onto a #completely different set of values and social understandings of homosexuality…. #(which. if anything there should be more gay people in the song of achilles. don’t be mean to me i promise i understand ancients) #anyway i might just have to make a book of poetry or a novel adaptation or whatever whatever but what if i want to learn the script #and painstakingly translate every single word through years and years of dedication. while also being a librarian as my main thing #shdhdhdf i’m never gonna be classics scholar enough to professionally translate. and if i were it would be latin. but i can dream…. #anyway i’m no longer failing my french class (have a 70% that should only be going up) but i’m still failing historical linguistics #my latin grade is great i’m acing it but my library science class is a D (which should be fixed in two days though — just needs more data) #so i am giving myself permission to sleep early tonight and go into class well rested for once. i’m not feeling well but that’s a constant #anyways if anyone reads the wilson iliad let me know!! i’m a fake fan of her work and haven’t read her odyssey (something about the iliad…. #there’s a brutality and a raw humanity to it that puts the odyssey at a lower priority to me) but im so freaking excited to read her iliad #i have to prioritize schoolwork but soon. i’ll have to ask my latin teacher about it tomorrow though she’s an iliad enjoyer #anyway good news i think i’ll be able to get a history major with certificates in digital studies and classical studies (the two genders….) #and graduate comfortably in four years with honors in the major. this is ignoring how i’m failing my classes. i promise i won’t be forever #anyways the point is: wilson’s iliad — i will read it as soon as possible and i’m very excited #also i checked out a book from the library called the lexicographers dilemma: the evolution of proper english from shakespeare to south park #but i haven’t had the chance to read it and soon it will be due…. college is evil i’m too busy learning things to learn other things!!!! #anyway if i do honors in the major then i’m excited to eventually earn credit from a capstone thesis which i would do on lexicography #throughout history with an emphasis on classification systems and basically peter mark roget #ok anyway. wandering all over the place but the point is. wilson’s iliad. very exciting. can’t wait to find the time #and eventually i will write an iliad adaptation of my own i will. just not a full translation shdhdf that’s an unrealistic goal #especially when again. my capstone project is going to be about taxonomy of ideas. ancient epics are secondary…. #anyway i hope everybody is doing well!! i am going to bed soon-ish but other than that i am around so lmk if you need anything #me. my post. mine. #college talk #delete later

[lovelyisadora]

got a ten page proposal due tomorrow ✌️ have zero pages written ✌️

#what’s wrong with me lmao #anyway I feel horribly sick again!! and have to work tonight #and did not get any sleep #so uh. I don’t think the writing is gonna happen #in my defense I am in the middle of a horrible family emergency #but my prof was like too bad I’m only paid to work through June 15 get me the draft now or you’re being inconsiderate #and I was like ??? ma’am my sister relapsed and lost custody of my nephew and CPS didn’t give him to my mom and now we’re in a legal battle #like Jesus Christ sorry I’m trying to help my family get custody of my autistic eight year old nephew #grad adventures

[deancaskiss]

today really really sucked in every way possible and I just hope tomorrow is better :(

#bex talks #honestly just gonna go to sleep because I’m so freaking tired #sorry I didn’t get to reblog all the drabbles tonight yall #i literally just don’t have anything else left in me #work sucked and it was one of those days where I question if I’m meant to be a vet #and then I felt down about my writing too #so I think it’s time to log off and get some rest and hope I feel better tomorrow #good night yall

[apathyfairy]

i’m not even kidding everytime i experience any sort of joy whatsoever something bad happens it’s like in friends when phoebe was killing people everytime she went to the dentist but for real

#speaking of dentists. lmao. #first of all i have a broken wisdom tooth that i’ve been putting off removing for 2 years now but i have all of them #tonight i was actually in an ok mood like it’s early i was gonna go to bed early and just relax #but i was like hm maybe i want to trying doing something new with my hair so i was fucking around with that and listening to music #and just being fine! like contentness which is v rare. anyway i was like ok i’m gonna start taking better care of my teeth #so back to wisdom teeth the one on my bottom right didn’t fully come out so it gets like plaque on it so i got a small child toothbrush #to really get in there and brush it yeah tmi i guess but in front of that wisdom tooth i have a temprorary filling #from 1 year ago bc this one dumbass dentist i went to well actually i went there as a kid but she’s terrible but i needed a filling fast so #i went there last year. anyway she put a temp in and said ok come back in 6 months and i didn’t because i wasnt gonna go to her anymore #and i couldn’t go to my good dentist bc he told me to remove my wisdoms and i didn’t lmao. anyway long story short i was brushing that #wisdom bitch really good and a chunk of my temp filling tooth broke off. not the filling of course but my real tooth and i’m like ok. #so god isnt real for real then. like. the reason i put all this fucking shit off is bc i don’t have money and now i fucking have to go fix #it so i’m 100% fucked i’ll never move out from my abusive gr*ndmothers house and i’m just completely fucked i’m so upset. #anyway hope i die in my sleep tonight #*temporary. if i die tonight i don’t want u guys thinking i can’t spell temporary i’m just fucking upset #it’s literally gonna be thousands isnt it like. i don’t even fucking know if they CAN fix it and who has thousands of dollars not fucking me #idk i have literally no idea what i’m supposed to do now

[starbuck]

my body is so weak… it is soooooooo tired of fall birding and the season’s only halfway over!! it’s a good thing i’m so damn determined!

#my back fucking HATES me this time of year it’s so funny #birders call the pain in your neck you get from constantly looking up during migration ‘warbler neck’ #but i personally think the true and underlooked evil here is ‘warbler lower back’ #i try to do stretches in the field but it only mitagates it so much… #i am still in a lot of pain #and like. yeah i could take something for it but painkillers don’t do me that much good #and i sleep better when i’m achey anyway #and GOD knows i need the sleep #the getting up early is another thing my body HATES #no matter how early i go to bed tonight - i can already tell that tomorrow morning is gonna be Rough… #and i’m planning to go out Friday morning as well!!!! #truly i have a death wish 😂😂 #but then we get the rain from the hurricane and i get a few days off #so it all works out in the end! #after that my friend will be visiting and i’ll be Out There yet again! #like i said - it’s a good thing i’m so determined and find this all so fun #or i’d be throwing in the towel from the pain and exhaustion alone #but ANYWAYS… off to have a little Ice Cream Treat and then have the best sleep of my life ❤️❤️

[inthewild-flowers]

babes i’m gonna finish writing this fic tonight. i’m gonna do it. !!!!!!!!!!!!

#dan talks tag #i don’t think i’m gonna be able to sleep much tonight so i might as well use that for something !!!! #gonna try my best to finish it but tbh if my brain hits a stopping point i’ll just pick it up again tomorrow morning #i do think it would also be nice to get in my pjs curl up in bed and put on a movie on my computer but we shall seeeeeee #first fic that’s more important

[winchesternova-k]

okay on second thoughts re: nobody sleeps in the woods tonight,, they somehow managed a bury your gays twice with the same character?? the single gay character rlly only seemed to be there to lecture the audience on homophobia but in a way that felt it was written extremely disconnected from actual queer ppl & also v white centric. then he was given a speech by a homophobic priest who tied him up in a way that felt predatory (ball gag on a teenager???) and this was after a v graphic sex scene between two more minors. they also did that thing like scream where they were self aware abt horror rules except,,, they played it straight??? fatphobia, misogyny, slut shaming and all. the girl who was killed for being too promiscuous (she had sex w one guy) gave a speech abt how she was more than just an airhead (while comparing that to homophobia) and was promptly killed,, and idk if it was the english dub or whether the dialogue in the original is just Like That but a) the speech sucked and felt v unrealistic, b) that’s not how u give a character depth bc u did nothing to back it up and c) lazy! bc y’all still killed her for being a ‘slut’!

also english netflix dubbers: referring to ur villains as ‘the fat guys’? bad! rlly rlly bad! it’s a) fat phobic and b) lazy! it’s not even their defining feature!

tbh the characters all just felt extremely undeveloped (even for a film w a larger cast who were mostly going to be dead by the end) the only two characters i found particularly compelling was the horror nerd who died right at the end & a man who survived an attack and was disabled but willing to fight who we saw v little abt. even the final girl was v underdeveloped and her tragic backstory? hardly mentioned or explored

like the music was rlly good and so were the practical effects but like so much of it was just yikes in the end. like it was rlly hard to keep focussed by the last 15 minutes like srsly this is what netflix is renewing? movies w homophobic garbage, oversexualised teens and an all white cast?

#when netflix said it was similar to friday the 13th i rlly didn’t think they meant it was going to be as bad as #a little higher ig simply bc the effects and the music were so so much better #i like summer camp horror! i do! why is so much of it bad? #i get the impression i would’ve been better off just watching the hills have eyes #similar premise probably a similar amount of ableism and at least bc it was a wes craven film the writing would’ve been better #i rlly rlly wanted to like this based on the trailer and the synopsis but yikes! #anyway i’m gonna try and go to bed #emily watches horror films #horror tag #nobody sleeps in the woods tonight #nobody sleeps in the woods tonight crit #(just in case. i don’t want this showing up in the main tags)

[yellobb]

We’re about to make the terrible decision to work for 18 hours straight so I don’t get fired 🤪

#m rambles #I’m almost out of paid time off #and ive had four depression days this pay period #so I have….. #almost 40 hours to make up in the next three days? #and I know that if I go to sleep tonight I am *fucked* #because I will not wake up to my alarm when I need to #so I guess I’m just gonna suffer tonight and then hope I can pull my shit together next week #life will be better soon because I get to start earning more time off at the end of the week #which is amazing because I’ve been steadily losing it since I got hired #all because of my depressive episodes so it’s not even like I’m having fun #also I don’t care anymore that the Prozac may have been causing my hives #I’d rather deal with the hives than this shit #so I think I’m going back up to 40 #since 30 clearly doesn’t cut it

[exopelagic]

I wiped out so hard tonight my KNEES

#I fell over. so many times. including two of the worst falls I’ve had in a WHILE #god the first one literally like minute and a half on the ice i lose a foot under me and do the splits. crash into the barriers #I am notably Not flexible I cannot do the splits. I don’t know how I kept skating afterwards #the worst fall I have ever had however was right at the end and the thing that made me get off #we were playing a thing and both me and this other guy we’re trying to catch this girl who turned out to be Also going very fast #three way collision all falling forwards on top of each other #we SLID there were BLADES BY MY HEAD im lucky im short im amazed nobody got actually hurt #except like. my knees which are now staging a coup I rlly should ice them but I don’t have ice and I just wanna sleep #but GOD tonight was a mixed bag #i have acquired the instagram and will probably get him on committee if he sends me the thing #also slowly thinking hrm yeah he’s probably straight #anyway good news: i think we’re pretty solidly friends now. bad news: prooobably regrettably heterosexual #idk straight guys shouldn’t be allowed to be cute and funny and good at skating it’s not fair #aaaanyway. it’s my own fault bc I meet most new people through hockey now and this sport is pretty notoriously not queer #it’s a little different here but the people who end up Good are largely not yknow. and I am unfortunately into guys who can skate #also they end up being the people I actually get to talk to with what I do. dumb as hell. they should invent gay hockey players #anyway my assessment is still vibes based there’s time for me to be proven wrong but we will see. it’d be funny if he was queer after this #will think abt texting him on a day that isn’t tomorrow bc tomorrow’s gonna be too much and I would like to have some time to chill sometime #anyway this is my periodic reminder to myself that I’m literally just Allowed to have feelings. fucked up that it’s true #but like it’s just. allowed. and it’s not even that I’m dumb or have bad taste or smth like that and over like what. #almost two years? there have been 5 guys total. mr prick who WAS queer unfortunately. and while the other four did turn out to be straight #that was due to 1. guy literally had rainbow fucking stick tape and Everyone thought he was gay. also I was just kinda fucking around there #2. talked to him like three times before asking him out. agrees to dinner bc he thinks it’s funny. 3. many signals bc bunch of queer friends #still unconfirmed but be does have a girlfriend ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 4. okay maybe I should know better by now but he’s cute okay I’m allowed to hope #it’s not even like I’ve DONE anything other than talk to him dude you’re fine you’re allowed to feel things #aaaanyway. bed now. eepy. will talk to him later. he complimented my hair okay I’m done now going to sleep #very sorry to anyone who reads these tags for just going on abt this guy but also no I’m not scroll down #luke.txt