#down indescribable

[robotsweater]

stupid sexy vampire got me writing fake bard songs smh

#bg3 #bg3 astarion #bg3 tav #tav/astarion #i’ve officially fallen for him #dang flab it #anyway i’m playing a hafling bard and it fills me with indescribable joy to make this vampire man bend down to compliment him ”(ᴗ_ ᴗ。) #more to come omg #bonus alfira because i love her

[polycrews]

ddcds. for u (hopefully ur day will b a bit better!)

had to take a second to respond to this because dear GOD this made me lose coherent thoughts. ahem

#asks #ddcd #i. i want to start up a good feral tag ramble but the only thing i can think of is to break down wailing /pos #my friend. beloved acquaintance of mine. you canNOT keep doing this one day you will fuckinf kill me of heart attack on the spot #i keep stepping away from this every couple minutes i haven’t felt this much emotions in eons. please have the courtesy to picture- #-my tone as that of soft awe. i am barely forming comprehensible sentences out here dear god #i’d also like to mention that i am in love with how you draw carapace. it all flows very smoothly and feels correct in an indescribable- #fuck the tumblr tag limit #-sort of manner. #your expressions are immaculate and manage to perfectly encapsulate these two #just. everything in general makes me even more fascinated with. well. [gestures abstractly] #please be ever so kind as to excuse me while i yell into a pillow for half an hour. i will be delivering you all of my money- #-as compensation for this on the morrow. thank you #fave

[thewiglesswonder]

My greatest and most cherished concept for a live action Transformers film is the idea of getting a minimum of like eight actors, who all look completlely different, and having them all play the holoform of one bot through the course of the movie.

#it doesn't have to be this many but still #think about it! holoform design saying something about the nature of the bot that makes them! #the only thing that optimus' holoforms share is a haunted look in their eyes #starscream keeps making his tall because he likes looking down on humans #knock out has the most and they share nothing except for red clothes and an indescribable air of sexiness #bee makes his look like charlie at one point. for sentimental reasons #the POSSIBILITIES PEOPLE #wig's words #tf #transformers #maccadam #tfp #knightverse #transformers prime #holoform

[petricorah]

based on ur tags on ur on sokka art post (amazing btw everything is so…him) anyway can u please draw hair down hakoda at some point, i think we all deserve it

asjhfajskd will do 🫡

#the m&m guy got me. he makes me feel an indescribable feeling #i saw this ask this morning and i feel like it's been staring at me ever since #also hair down hakoda....incheresting....much to think about #asks #hakoda keeps his hair up because he pulls too many people with it down. he'd be too powerful #dilfbending #glad ppl liked that idea drawing him has been circling around in my head for a while #mydoodles

[sonic-adventure-3]

sonic the hedgehog is so sonic the hedgehog (unknowable, incomprehensible intent)

shadow the hedgehog is so shadow the hedgehog (derogatory) (affectionate)

#they’re so them but in such different ways #sonic is indescribable in a such a verbose way that i could give a thousand words that boil down to nothing more than sonic the hedgehog #shadow is describable but what comes out of my mouth is shadow the hedgehog #rambles

[paperwizards]

Thank you to @hellofromthehallowoods for providing a quote that I could use for a piece celebrating the one year anniversary since my parents top surgery!

#and feel better soon william #the halloween cold has been hard on indescribables this year #also I think Marolmar would be down for antler top scars #extra armour for the days ahead and all that #hello from the hallowoods #hfth #marolmar #sort of #top surgery #trans art

[crimeronan]

i'm thinking about 2023 in retrospect but it's weird because this was a more intense year than i'm guessing most other people had. one of the worst and one of the best in ages. like i came closer to dying than i think most people do before encountering the thing that actually kills them, this year was All About Illness, it was all about being sick, there wasn't anything else. i can't remember large portions of it because of being sick & what i do remember is about being sick. i met new people in real life and picked up some new habits and explored a lot and learned a lot about myself and the year was still all about being sick.

but it was also a year in which i was finally finally FINALLY taken seriously by doctors, in which i finally got in to a team of specialists at a really good hospital, in which i finally got a lot of vital testing done of my internal organs. my long-distance qpr moved in with us to help out bc i was so sick. the heart and lung and kidney and gut tests happened So Fast once my positive antibody test came back. i found out that despite two years of increasingly struggling to breathe bc of the inflammation in my body, my lungs actually work Better than they should, which is an insane piece of news to get when you're a swimmer and a singer and think you're about to lose both those things.

so all in all it was like. it feels like a nothing-year because i wasn't awake for most of it. but also a fuckload of shit happened. i guess the best way to think of it is as a transition year. this was my time of transitioning from being the sickest i'd ever been to being mostly functional. barring natural disasters and other complications, 2024 is going to be VERY filled with opportunity and potential. i needed to use All Of 2023 to make that possible.

#autoimmune tag #what a wild series of ups and downs this year has had. i know i keep saying it but i was indescribably sick #like the reason i keep repeating it is bc i feel like i do not have the words to impress enough. how sick i was #anyway. gonna do some chores now #i know we're not supposed to look forward to next year for superstition reasons but listen. #i almost died this year. i'm allowed. ok.

[kikizoshi]

I came across the realisation that Nikolai's motivation to kill Fyodor, as we understand it now, isn't compelling. I think that's my biggest issue with him. There are all these fanfics about it, and yet the one I've read where Fyodor's death is compelling, Nikolai hasn't ever even thought of killing him and doesn't want him to die (and yes, I'm including my fics with Fyodor's death in the "not compelling" category).

So, I tried to reframe it, taking some of my current experiences and what I know about Gogol, and I think I may have figured something out: Nikolai's core motivation right now could be to escape from reality.

This could be foreshadowed earlier on with things like a distaste for factually accurate (read: dull) stories, a love for acting and exaggerated impressions, and an aversion to talking issues out in his personal relationships.

But now it's worse, and has grown to an extent where he can't stand anything--he just wants to escape everything, but he can't. (This change would be brought about by some sort of terrible or tragic event--something that makes all his flawed coping mechanisms collapse entirely in a way they never have before. In my story, it's Fyodor disappearing and Nikolai finally giving up hope that he still lived. Anything awful enough would probably work, but I think a lot of care needs to be put into exactly what is the thing that pushes Nikolai over the edge--it says a lot about what he values.)

I visualise his wanting to escape reality with Stanzcyk (the Polish painting). Nikolai is the jester, but desperately wishes he could be carefree like the celebrating nobles in the background. But he can't. No matter what, no matter how he tries, he can't escape reality, and so he does the next best thing: he does the unthinkable. He becomes what any normal person can't even fathom, does what any sane man couldn't, and desperately tries to lose himself in it. (In my story, this is a worse version of what's already occurred: a few years ago, Nikolai became an actor in hopes of losing his misery to the stage, but when that failed and he became suicidal, Fyodor helped him pull through. Now, Nikolai tries to lose himself in a much more involved and self-destructive way (notably still through acting), and Fyodor, though much more negatively now, is still the force that's keeping him alive.)

At first, he may have even deluded himself into thinking he'd somewhat succeeded in losing himself, but then Fyodor makes his "in opposition to God" comment, and Nikolai is at once violently dragged back into himself. It's a wonderful feeling to be understood, yet terrible, because as long as such an anchor exists, he can never escape (bonus points if in a backstory fic, Fyodor being Nikolai's anchor to reality was a positive in their relationship, creating a contrast here).

And so now, every time he thinks about wanting to share a thought or idea with Fyodor, the only person with whom he can genuinely converse, he first gets a nice feeling at the thought, then falls into despair at the thought of losing that connection (Fyodor is constantly putting himself in mortal danger, and as much as Nikolai believes in him, it also makes sense to me that he'd be worried out of his mind at times), anger that his emotions still control him, and this reinforces his feelings of needing to escape. It's a constant merry-go-round of love and misery, and he just wants to be on stable ground, essentially.

And I think if I do that, it starts to be compelling. It's not quite there, let alone polished, but it's a lot farther than I've gotten before. And 'Arcane' story analyses are really helping me with contrast, callbacks and foreshadowing.

#as I'm terrified of losing the one person who understands me I've come to understand that part of him a lot more #it's a truly awful feeling--indescribable #but that's why it's so compelling #and I think it being his love for Fyodor that drags him down. but also pulls him up is a lovely idea #it adds a human element that's sometimes missing in his character #BSD #BSD Nikolai Gogol #BSD Nikolai #BSD Gogol #BSD Gogol Nikolai #BSD Nikolai Analysis #BSD Gogol Analysis #BSD Analysis

[selenealwayscries]

This transition caught me so off guard I actually screamed out loud irl

#mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitblr #zedaph #zedaphplays #Zedaph Ethology™ #i think he majored in psychic damage actually cuz what the heckin heck is this #the amount of whiplash i felt from this is truly indescribable #i think i need to lie down actually . what even the fuck #moondrop.txt

[scootkiddo]

not to god of war post on main but I just finished ragnarok and I just want to say I religiously love kratos and atreus more than ever and I would happily offer them greek hospitality

#no listen they are like #just behind joel and ellie in terms of parent-child blorbos #they are bound by blood and still technically meet the criteria of found family #they are just so indescribablely special to me and the sequel doubled down on what makes them special to me #oh my god I just love them anyways #god of war #atreus #kratos #god of war ragnarok

[tybaltsjuliet]

all right. about to make myself a london fog and see if the tim burton sweeney todd holds up. i REALLY liked it when i was a teenager, especially HBC as mrs. lovett, but i haven’t watched it in a decade, so we’ll see.

#i do remain as down indescribably bad for jamie campbell bower as i was at 13 though. clearly. #;swan has a word.

[meownotgood]

he only appeared for ten seconds but he was still perfect

#he's always perfect #the horrors are indescribable but he's still gotta slay #the blood dripping down his chin HHNNnagg #LET ME TASTE IT #GIVE ME JUST ONE DROP #aki <3

[girlaskew]

Having a chronic non terminal illness is such an evil state of being like I feel like I want to die 99% of the time and yet it’s technically not that serious

#literally the amount of time I’ve spent laying down just trying to bear it and pushing through indescribable pain and discomfort #there’s a whole life in that

[cryptids]

[crawling out of my grave] good evening friends.... today's covid update is I have now lost both taste and smell

#🐊 #i'm alive but at what cost #at least the fever is gone and coughing attacks have slowed down.... last night was just indescribably awful

[pillowmoment]

coming out post hi guys i’m trans. If you somehow were unaware. Hi guys i’m also gay. If you somehow were unaware. Hi guys i’m also objectum. If you somehow were unaware. Hi guys i may also be interested in horrors beyond my comprehension (also known as “scary monsters”). If you somehow were unaware.

#pillow activities #Down bad for the indescribable and terrifying #Put me out in the middle of a haunted woods filled with creatures of unidentifiable origins and i will not leave

[sunnnfish]

IM FUCJUGN INSANE IM INSANE IM INSANE THE SASAMIYA OVA THE OVA THE OVA OH MY GOD. OKAY.

- SECRETLY A HANZAWA CHARACTER ANALYSIS ???? OKAY KING

- SASAKI AND MIYANO. THEYRE CUTE AS ALWAYS

- THE CATS

- TASHIRO AND KURESAWA :D

- THE. THE . THE KAGIHIRA. IM AM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE. FUCKING HELL. KILLING KILLING KILLING. I CANT EVEN. EXPLAIN. OHHHHH MY GOD. Okay. Okay so. This takes place when Miyano & Kagi are second years and I think it’s after they get back from their junior trip which is in November which means this takes place approximately 9 months after the latest hirakagi chapter (February) which means it ALSO takes place after the bad boy cafe which also lines up with this taking place after the sasamiya fireworks scene. ANYWAYS. THE PET COMMENT. THE INDIRECT KISS. THE. THE. HIRANO BLUSHING A L O T AFTER KAGI FREAKING SMILES AT HIM ????!!????????? IM. I. I CANT DO THIS IM ILL IM SICK. ALSO SASAKI COVERING FOR THEM. SOBBING AND CRYING AND THROWING UP

#FUN FACT. I THINK KAGIS ENG VA IS FUCKING. LINDHART FIRE EMBLEM #BUT HIS JP VOICE. MADE ME CRY #HES SO PRETTY ????? #ANYWAYS. #THEY HAVE TO BE RIGHT. THEY HAVE TO BE TOGETHER #Ohhhhhhhh my god. okay #i am so normal. #indescribable how. normal I am #if this is how I reacted at one singular animated scene of them. I’m so sorry for who I become when that featurette comes out with the movie #I’ve already rewatched this three times #my god. okay #I’m down horrendous #Hirano to kagiura #sasaki to miyano #sunnfish.kghr