#feels like a good occasion for it now

[myrmica]

The Sensitive Girls - Frog Eyes; LOL WE ARE DYING - PrinceZam; Dreamsong - Moonface, Sparks - Vitalasy & JumperWho; Odetta's War - Frog Eyes; LOL WE ARE DYING - PrinceZam; Cold Reactor - Everything Everything; The Wormhole - PrinceZam; Odetta's War - Frog Eyes; Crescent Moon - ItzSubz_; ...Like Clockwork - Queens of the Stone Age; Paul's Tomb - Frog Eyes

#m #lifesteal #oh right i made this the day vi left #feels like a good occasion for it now #him telling zam to leave is so crazy to me because it's another instance where vitalasy is failing to understand him. badly #and i think part of why zam just Cannot listen to him because as much as zam apologizes to him vitalasy never stops being responsible for #bringing the server to that point in his eyes

[stagefoureddiediaz]

Eddie diaz dealing with his mommy issues arc in season 8 is feeling realer to me than ever right now

#Helena diaz is responsible for so much of Eddie’s issues #she is a massive part of the reason Shannon left the first time #the way she spoke at ramons retirement party just reenforced things #she is the matriarch and rules with an iron will #it is ultimately down fo her that Eddie was forced to grow up too fast - was forced into a heteronormative behaviour pattern #she is the reason he didn’t get to figure out who he really is and that’s what he’s paying for now #Ramon just went along with her - that has been shown on multiple occasions - he is like Phillip buckley - a weak man who goes along with his #wife for a quiet life #so yeah - Helena (and Ramon) showing up in 7x10 - perhaps to take Chris back to Texas for the summer #feels very intentional to me - Eddie dealt with his issues around one parent - now in order to let go of Shannon and move forward he needs #to deal with the other #gonna be so good #it’s also worth pointing out that we see a far more soft and vulnerable Eddie with abuela and Pepa than with Helena - perhaps the contrast #will be explored - Helena not liking abuela or Pepa that much because she thinks they make him soft etc - would be juicy too #(can you tell I’m not a Helena diaz fan!!) #911 spoilers #eddie diaz #911 speculation #911 abc

[cold-neon-ocean]

Posting this by itself because :) I just feel like he should have gotten to wear the mech pilot suit at least once..

(my AU black version and the og green)

#Legend of Korra #Baatar Jr. #LoK #WIP #[ since this is from something silly I wanted to post this bit because he is serving very cunty #even if you know he's talking about accidentally ingesting caustic chemicals lol #this was def self indulgent but also why couldn't he have worn the suit at least once sobs #we had one chance #I don't actually think he uses the mech suit hardly ever even though he has his own personal one #but on rare occasions he does and gets in this outfit and Kuvira are you okay? Are you good? Has anyone checked on her? #I feel like this outfit is what causes her to take a serious sanity hit LOL #she just drags him away by the hood and no one sees them again for like 4 hours #or she's just like “You know what I think he could use my help :)” and proceeds to be everything but helpful #idk how anything in this regime gets done I swear #the most Baatar ever used the mech suits was when they were first being built #idk dude I love a man in a working uniform sobs #I knew someone would recognize the mech pilot suit hehe that made me smile because yeah :))) #it felt good to draw Baatar again sobs I love him so much I've missed him #I do kinda wish this sketch was cleaner but I wanted to at least post it now in case I never did lol #I should to a proper illust of him in the pilot suit one day just for the pure self indulgence of it all #give myself a lill treat you know? ] #Neon Ocean Art

[ante--meridiem]

Extremely confidence boosting to me that every time I've read my poetry out loud in public at least one person has come up to me afterwards to say they like it. More confidence boosting than people telling me I'm good at anything else which usually just feels very awkward because poetry is something I don't feel I can self evaluate at all because I know how easy it is for something to accidentally come out cliched/overwrought.

#personal #this sounds like a brag and I guess I can't say it isn't but it does feel very reassuring #context here is roommate talked me into reading something for a poetry reading thing he organised #which was mostly a bad time because the room was extremely overstimulating & very little of it was in English #(which to be clear: I don't expect everyone to cater to English speakers or anything. it's just that roommate assuring me I'd understand #enough to make it worth it was integral to talking me into this) #(I now think he overestimated how much Swedish I speak) #(not enough to understand an even slightly complex poem that's for sure) #but people did like my poetry & that was a huge ego boost #enough different people have compliment various enough selections of poems I wrote on enougn occasions that I'm starting to think I might #actually be good at this #which is dangerous. stop boosting my ego before I do something dumb like think I might be good enough to try publishing #< only half serious

[scranbatteries]

my front bottoms cds came, infinity on high is 17 today*, good kid announced a new single, bad day for anyone who has to deal with me

*when i wrote this people in other time zones were saying it was the day but it came out on the 6th which is actually not the 5th Oops

#one of the tfb cds is self titled i have been desperate for self titled like foaming at the mouth like oh my god #and also going grey which like underrated as hell love that album #and then infinity on high is old ??? whats it done that for #good kid announcing a new single this soon after bubbly gk4 seems like its gonna come Fast and that scares me #i put a guitar pick in my phone case in front of the camera to see if it looked funny if i took a picture (it didnt) #and now when i hold my phone it feels uncomfortable #ALSO new ts album ??? #tortured poets ?? you know who else is a tortured poet ?? #PETE WENTZ happy ioh 17th #i think i stole the pete wentz thing from someone on twitter very sorry to someone on twitter #i could write in these tags for weeks and NOBODY could stop me #speaking of weeks do you know who else is a tortured poet #DALLON FUCKING WEEKES love that man #did you know . gloom division this month ????????????????? #i think #i am going to listen to csh now cos in the middle of maths earlier i got lost because my teacher made a train station analogy #and it reminded me of csh #and also i had the bit of beach life in death where its all 'the ocean washed over/open your grave' in my head just now #i have been called a furry by my friends on several occasions and i dont think this is helping much Oops #but have you LISTENED to csh damnn #OH YEAH yesterday i got a screw stuck in some lego cos i was like “hm wonder if the screw would fit in the lego” and it fit PERFECT #but its fine cos like i wasnt planning to use that lego brick anyway #or the screw #which i didnt even buy #i Kinda Accidentally Stole it #except someone pinned it on my hoodie one time #cos it was in a crocodile clip #i stole the crocodile clip on accident basically and theres a screw in the crocodile clip sometimes for SOME REASON #i dont know what its meant to do #sorry if you read all this lol i think theres a limit to how many tags you can have cos it cut off everything after.ran out of things anywa

[dipstick-university]

share if you'd like to spread my curiosity! Also feel free to add how old you were, the rough year, and what type of nicotine you first consumed

#poll #nicotine #vaping #addiction #I was 15 in like the early 00's and it was a cigarette a boy in summer school gave me #and i was soooo good at keeping a straight face when i inhaled #and the for a while smoking was only for shows or special occasions. I feel like five years ago i barely saw anyone smoke or vape #and now i see people vaping everywhere #like they vape on public transit or wherever. super inappropriate places when people have sensitivities or are trying to quit (ahem me) #and definitely more people smoking cigarettes than before #its so insidious and addictive #more successful than Joe Camel could have possibly imagined

[suncaptor]

the thing about viewing Jack as a child versus not is that if you're basing it in most ways you would view children and look at it as "infantilization" because Jack is physically developed & communicative in a way that makes you take him seriously then the issue perhaps is how you view children and how they should be treated in the first place. because the ways in which children are vulnerable Jack very much of the time ALSO IS. that is WHY what is happening to him is specifically child abuse. everything that is happening to him is a formative experience regardless of the lack of neurological development that has to happen because it is all he knows. children should be respected the same way Jack should be and children should be protected in the same ways Jack should be. the idea he can speedrun all of the things that make children vulnerable because of being able to control his physical development is kind of ridiculous. time alive allows us to have different ways of forming schemas and understanding how this world and the people in it works. Jack spends this time being abused & traumatised by war. that impact is foundational to his development of his perception even if his brain development stayed the same throughout it.

#he VERY MUCH is in his first and earliest stage of life. he just jumpstarted his development and communication. #AND THAT IS INTERESTING. but he like. absolutely is still vulnerable the way children are as a result. there are of course major difference #like in terms of he has physical strength & powers as well as the way he thinks goes beyond a lot of early markers #due to the development #but man I developed the way I think that matches much of how I do now EXTREMELY young #due to asynchronic development in part #that didn't make me less vulnerable. it just make it way more frustrating the way people treated me #the issue with my perception wasn't due to development it was due to the fact I Didn't Know As Much beyond what was immediately around me #short term. i didn't have time for that age. #that's why like a fully developed teenager isn't necessarily ready to be in a relationship with a grown adult for example. #in humans these sort of age and development we know on a particular scale #but the way we treat children in general is an issue!!! #regarding Jack & sex I feel like so many ways you would slice it there's extreme power imbalances on his end. but I don't really care to #get into all that but I'm not going to be like 'yeah bc supernatural a show where the main character has on multiple occasions flirted with #or wanted to flirt with teenage girls' is like. a good barometer for that anyways #and if calling someone a child is an insult then you need to change how you perceive children. #however!!! children SHOULDN'T be heading armies in the apocalypse. this is an opinion I do think exists for both children and Jack. #he makes me so sad oh my god #jack kline #jack #spn #supernatural #incoherents

[redhotarsenic]

It’s so fucked that the main source of unease I felt building up over the past several months was me feeling pressured to perform femininity to be seen as desirable to other people. It was never ever said said out loud in that space but I could FEEL it and I never knew until it was pointed out to me.

#it’s so agonizing to want to purposely appear desirable and never feeling like you’ll measure up #compared to everyone else #because of eurocentric beauty standard bullshit #like unironically a giant portion of those people in there were white/white passing/fell nearly within those lines #and it was fucking with my head so so bad. because I don’t have ‘dainty faerie like’ (heavy air quotes) facial features #a good portion of what exacerbated the problem is that I have a very good feeling that most of how those people are acting #or how they’re trying to appear physically #is them trying extremely hard to look sexually attractive to that individual #now mind you I’m sure that isn’t all of them but fuck #feels like shit too when you’re very much brushed past 80% of them time on the rare occasions you take a selfie #for the ‘pretty boy with socially favored facial features’ (even heavier air quotes here) #it’s for the best that I’m not in there anymore #some of those people were annoying as shit anyway abd a select few are on my shitlist forever. which could be an entire nother post lmao #and believe me that’s a big fuckin deal. do you know how hard it is for me to outright have vehement hatred towards people?? #im not even trying to appear all angelic and pure n shit here I just have a hard time not trying to think positively of people #something something people pleasing tendencies adjacent shit #ESPECIALLY because someone from that space went outta their way to harass my friend. as far as I’m concerned the majority is gutter trash

[liskie]

i just had my first edible…

#i have no idea what this feels like #i’m feeling like i’m light and heavy at the same time #just thought i would mark down this occasion somewhere #rabbit stamps #tired and awake #i feel like my brain is stuttering like a cd #cheesecake is so good #now i understand that jerma clip when he’s high and thinks he’s in his car #i just thought i was in my family’s old pt cruiser #those little dreams you get inbetween waking and sleeping

[eepybubble]

i think when i'm at home i don't really mask bc my family is equally as weird as me so i can basically do whatever shit i want

#like i just #sat on the floor after dinner and started bouncing #and ended up sort of ranting about everything i do to act like a human #and my mom was like how do you act literally all day for eight hours everyday?? #also i mentioned good omens on two different occasions like twenty minutes after the convo that i related to it was over #like i'm genuinely kinda happy rn? #it feels weird #to be this happy #ive just been existing #literally bouncing around my kitchen #making weird noises #and saying pretty much whatever? #my dad also related to a lot of what i was saying so now idk if either of them are neurodivergent #but then in public around people #if this is how i naturally am then i'm definitely masking #i can't tell whether or not it's disabling me so i still don't know if it's autism #but whatever #i've been posting a lot today i think i should shut up lmao #borf barks #i'm really glad my family is like this

[anonymocha]

KAALAA BAUNAA................

#GOD SHE HAUNTS ME GOD THAT ENDING GODDDSSS #WHY DID 1.3 END LIKE THAT IM STILL WHIPLASHED LONG AFTER IT ENDED #Kaalaa Baunaa you poor woman; i dont wish for whatever you witnessed to happen to my worst enemies #Gosh the side story left me feeling unsatisfied too purely because it is a prequel to the events of Mor Pankh #KUMAR WHY KUMAR WHY KUMAR WHY *head in hands* #Kaalaa Baunaa you poor sad overworker overserious overrepressrd and overtired woman 😭😭😭 I need her to get therapy/vacation/both NOW #I hope she has a little fun after all that or at least try to heal cuz ohhhh my god #what happened with Kumar just felt like a beginning to her story I need to know more about what happens after that #that DEFINITELY changed Kaalaa Baunaa and I gotta see it (or make it the fuck up) #BLUEPOCH PLEASE ELABORATE... HOW DOES SHE HEAL... HOW DOES SHE COPE.... ARE THEY TAKING GOOD CARE OF HER? #There's NO way she's that chill about Kumar; the moment she's alone and away from the others I bet she BAWLS #SOMEONE GIVE HER A TISSUE AND WARM SOUP AND CUT UP FRUITS.... #mochats #mocha brainrot #I will only forgive Bluepoch if they give her a sick skin #Rare occasion where Mocha uses capitals properly

[sangfielle]

favorite songs last week

#1 - i had this list a little different before sunday night, but then i saw jhariah live again (i saw them for the first time during their i believe first tour in '21), and this song live is really special - to them, i presume, given the fanfare they give it, but also to me. it's not quite the same as when it was performed for a group of people so small it couldn't be reasonably called a crowd, but it still means a lot to me. i didn't want to put two songs from the same concert on here, so this beat out reverse (also fantastic to hear live) because of the personal significance. these are both some of his older works, and he expresses that he thinks he could do way better with them if they made them today instead of when they were in high school, but i don't know, i think they're really good as is. i acknowledge that i have nostalgia goggles on. i've just been into them since before any of their newer shit that they like better came out, and s/r in particular helped get me through a really rough patch in late '21 after the show.

#2 - g-d, danny brown is such a good artist. he had, apparently, been adjacent to my music taste for years and has featured on a number of songs that i loved in high school and really early adulthood without realizing it, but i didn't really start listening to him until i saw him live during the scaring the hoes tour last year (i'd liked him on that album a lot, but i'd listened to it for peggy). i now... have my issues with peggy, but the two of them put on what was almost certainly the best show i've ever been to. he's a captivating performer, and i always love live music more, but even without that, he's got a fantastic backlog of music & is basically always putting out cool and creative shit. i love the sound of this song. it's much softer in sound than a lot of music i tend to seek out these days, but i do need a break from all the shit i put in my ears that's designed to be abrasive now and then. i think it's great, the production is great, q-tip is obviously a powerhouse, and danny's always fantastic. this one is mostly my track of his of the week because i hadn't paid attention to it before. i'm so put out that he's not coming back to my area for the quaranta tour.

#3 - i'm a huge clipping.head. everyone knows this. i'll like to love anything they put out. this is no exception. it's probably my most played track of the week (and the week before last). i played it enough in the first day after i heard it that i immediately forgot what the original sounds like. i've relistened to it, and i prefer this version. the b-side midnight is also a pretty cool little project. though not as earwormy as the first part, lol.

#4 - this one's another cover. i like covers, okay? i like when they sound different than the original. i'm very taken with this one. spotify recommended black alley to me recently. i don't remember why and i don't know what the context of it was, but this was the first song of theirs i heard and i really enjoy it. i'll be going through their original music shortly.

#5 - paramore is good. i like paramore.

#reverse live made me feel a little sick (in a good way). felt. #anyway. hi. i am not going to keep myself to a schedule of doing this weekly. lol. we all saw how quickly i threw away the sotd thing. but #i like to share music. so i might throw together little lists of my favorites of what i'm listening to right now on occasion. #effortposting #personal #music #sotd #Spotify

[minicy]

i gotta say, a cool $5k in my bank account would be really cool right about now

#combo of my good gas mileage car getting held ransom and my brother suddenly moving out and raising my rent 50% has me. augh #mostly making the post bc the barely-more-than-interest payments on my credit card feel Fucking Bad and if i could just. not have that. wow #like i can still get takeout on occasion and eat gluten free bagels and chicken breasts. i will be fine. but also. augh. #also though dont even get me started on the gluten removal tax. it triggers my fibro shit really badly so if i want to work.. #i will pay $6 for a box of crackers and $9 for a loaf of bread. and thats most of the easy lunches to take to work right there. #and the adhd makes it hard to plan other lunches in advance... you can see the issues #i cant even have. like. backup lunches or anything. no cup noodle in my classroom or anything like that. cos they have BREAD #and FLOUR. #actually though now that i think about it i could leave some cans of soup in my classroom. thatd be a good idea. anyway. #contribute to the random-tumblr-asshole's curry takeout and can of soup fund today #squawk

[the-kneesbees]

I've had a really really bad day.

#its just. everything was bad. theres no other way to put it. #i cried on at least ten different occasions #im so fucking sore #and ive also been really emotional about stuff thats not even relevant right now. #i just. cannot do this. #the cherry on top that hasnt really set in is my history test tomorrow #i have no fucking idea wht its about #qnd i actually studied #i read the whole chapter and notes that the test is one #and i still dont have any clue about half the stuff on the outline #not as in im confused #as in we straight up didnt learn it #and i cant find it in the reading #i have a concert to go to tomorrow i cannot be feeling like this then #i really wanna have a good time #theyre one of my favorite bands #post posting #vent tw

[nomaishuttle]

i do fr need to work on differentiating between "actually middleclass" and "doesnt live paycheck to paycheck" lmao bc that is something i struggle with... obviously ik i have more in common with like. even somebody whos fr middleclass disney vacations every year. I know i have more in common with them than i do with bezos but god at least i dont have to see bezos being annoying in front of me every day KJANDJKLNLJD

#bc its like this. i obviously have way more contempt for a billionaire. obviously. but ive never met an actual billionaire yfm. and i Have #met middleclass ppl and A lot not all but a lot. are so insufferable and ikkkk not all of them or whatever but like. i constantly got shit #for being poor from middle class kids and like. ik im supposed to be class solidarity with them bc were all poor when compared to a #billionaire but goddd fucking damn they make it difficult . ik its like well the upperclass Wants the lowerclass and middleclass to be at #eachothers throats bc it means they dont pay attention to the upperclass walking over the both of them. i knowwww. but i can multitask #major in hating rich people minor in hating the middleclass... #THIS ISNT RLY RELATEDFTO THE LAST POST AT ALL i just have a lot of like. complicated feelings abt classism basicallyy. #like. i wouldnt wish poverty on anybody it fucking sucks. but as a kid i did sometimes fantasize abt swapping lives with my classmates who #had more money than me Not even bc i wanted to live their life but just so they would like. see the apartments i lived in and see the room #i shared with both of my siblings (weeman didnt exist yet lmao) and just like. look in the fridge. bc i just rly wanted ppl to get it lol.. #there was this one assignment that was like. wants vs needs and ppl kept putting needs as like. A big backyard. vacation once a year. my ow #personal bedroom etc and ik they were kids but it was like. insanely frustrating to have these kids who had like. never had to live without #Wants. yk. bc then i would just write down like. food. shelter. water. thats it lmao i even had clothes as a want instead of a need. and #they were making fun of me bc my list was so short and its like . look man i have gone without these three things on multiple occasions. yk #and now i try to be like. its good that there are ppl who have never experienced that i dont want ppl to have to experience that especially #like. that was in 4th grade lol. i was 9. i shouldnt have been worrying abt bills and stuff and none of my classmates knew anything abt tha #and thats a Good thing they shouldnt have. but theres this selfish part of me that wishes they did KANDJNS bc its so insanely isolating to #have ppl like. interrogating you abt why your shoes are so worndown or why your winter jacket is too small yk. and you cant say 'my family #cant afford better/new ones' bc they dont even understand what money is. yk. IDK. im just very sensitive abt these kinds of things KANDNW.. #perhaps a bit too oversensitive at times but yk. im working on it and im working on not being spiteful abt it bc like. yes it was isolating #but it was a good thing that the kids didnt relate to it yk. kids shouldnt relate to that and i shouldnt have felt that way bc no kid shoul #im also Ik i bring it up constantly but im still so mad abt that time my friends heard me say Yeah i have to go to court against my dad nex #wednesday . and they didnt say anything and then one of them went Ughhh my dad wont buy me the newest iphone hes buying me the newest #samsung instead But i have an iphone app that i spent 50 dollars on that wont transfer !!!!!! and then she endedup getting the iphone #anyways. sry ikk its grudge and i need to let it go but im still peeved... brinn there are people that are dying . #and also now i know that like. a lot of the other kids in my class Did understand and were just like. posturing. yk. a few of those kids #were from the same neighborhood as me lmao i was just too autistic to realize we werent supposed to be honest 💀 but yes. sry for this like #manifesto i am just thinking out loud..... well not bc this is text famously a written form of communication but we all understand. anyways

[sheepwasfound]

after a few days have passed now, it was interesting to read through a transcript of the instagram dm’s which dream confirmed he believed were real. seeing them just on their own like that with nothing around it is a valuable experience i feel like

#watch out though the reddit post and most of the comments under it are very biased #make your own decision on how you feel! #cw discourse #and dream just completely did not address the snapchat stuff which is what i find to be the issue #and him not addressing it does not sound good for him at all #but i am waiting to hear more detail about that and get to the truth behind it #but as for the dm's? i know there's people who are very vehemently against them #i can't bring myself to feel that way and these are the types of messages we've known over the years that dream sends #he replied to her messages a total of 19 times over a year and a half #i don't know where i feel like the limit is for what is too much to message a fan #but 19 times in a year and a half ain't past that limit for me #not to mention how short and dry his messages are #and it was essentially on 6 different occasions over the year and a half (when they were within a couple days and continuing the same topic) #that's not enough to make someone depend on you or mistake it for friendship #HOWEVER even if a cc sends only like two messages but they're flirty or otherwise inappopriate that's not ok #and i also don't find it ok to send many messages back and forth regularly in a friend-like way #but i just can't read that from this interaction y'know #and for the ppl condemning any dming with fans i don't know why they didn't find it a problem the gajillion times we knew about it before #but at the same time i know the other allegations even if they turn out to be fake they just sour the whole thing #it can make you realize that in your mind even just dm'ing fans is a red flag now even though it wasn't that for you before #and that is completely ok and i hope everyone makes their own conclusions based on their own morals and feelings #but for me? i don't find these dm's wrong certainly not to the point where i feel like he should be deplatformed #BUT if the snapchat stuff is real that's a whole different thing that's where i think the problem lies #i'm waiting for more confirmation on that side of things