#fuck it making this its own post this is. so much ok

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i think its weird that i have to make this disclaimer but the internet is crazy so wtvr,, anyway,,

if i say i dont like something, that doesnt mean "that thing is bad and nobody should post it.."

i swear literally every time i even mention that i dislike something, people will go "wow does that mean u fucking hate me cuz i post that thing? ur a fucking stupid bitch and all ur opinions r wrong" LIKE ?? er.. no. just because i say i dont like certain characterizations of certain characters (the saiki k fandom is CRAZY about this cuz i can state an opinion on literally any character and a group of people will still go 'well only we're allowed to post our opinions about them because we're always right!1!1!'), or certain ship tropes (mentioned my hatred of toxic yaoi maybe once or twice on here months ago and people STILL get mad at me as if i said toxic yaoi lovers r evil or something), or certain ships, or WHATEVER, does not mean that i HATE the people who are posting them or that i think they shouldnt post them at all, NO, im just posting about my personal tastes on my personal blog and it would be extremely weird and hypocritical if i decided that i was the ONLY person that was allowed to do that,,

i think the only reason people assume that is because there are a lot of other people on here who ARE like that, and a lot of people toe the line between posting that they dont like something and posting that they think everyone who likes that thing is stupid, annoying, and wrong,, so i guess all i can say is, sorry for whatever made you make these assumptions but they arent true about me so plz leave me alone ʘ‿ʘ ur doing the same thing to me that ur accusing me of but i didnt do it in the first place so ur just actively being a dick for no reason

#crazy that the mindset some people on here have is that theyre the only ones allowed to post their opinions #ive repeated this a lot on this blog but i rlly think people forget that the person on the other side of the screen is in fact a person #if ur harassing people and publicly making fun of them then ur just as bad as any real life bully #that shit isnt as funny or harmless as u like to pretend it is #not once have i ever targetted anyone or went on someones blog to harass them over my opinion #yet people think its fine to do the same to me and treat it as if its like. revenge or something #like ? me saying 'i dont like toxic yaoi' is not equivalent to someone going on someone elses page and going 'how tf do u like toxic yaoi' #I DONT CARE !! all ive ever done is sit in my own little bubble and had opinions and that makes people mad #honestly though the people who will publicly talk and post abt it are significantly meaner #and i want to act like im not bothered by it because i know most of them r just angry that someone has a different opinion #and they want all their followers to bandwagon off of them (idk why maybe for validation or whatever-same reasons anyone would bully) #but seriously if u actually do think that something i said was out of line and crossed thise boundaries- just fucking tell me ? #im a person bro. ur solution to disagreeing with me shouldnt be 'lol im gonna post abt this and make everyone harass them' #have a conversation with me dude i dont bite ? if u cant talk to me like a person then just dont fucking say anything wtf #its so cowardly to be like 'well no i didnt wanna say anything to u cuz i didnt wanna be rude.. so instead i publicly made fun of u!' #LIKE WHATTTT STOPPPPP </3333 #ok anyway this post wasnt supposed to get THAT serious. #MY POINT IS just be considerate of other people and dont base ur hatred off of assumptions #ur deflecting the blame onto someone else because u dont want to admit that ur just a fucking bully lol #being inconsiderate on here is something ive also been guilty of back when i first joined the fandom and was clueless #but grown ass adults who have been on here way longer r still doing that shit which is crazy #and i cant say anything because they have so much leverage over me and idk if its on purpose or if they dont even realize #ok im putting fandom tags cuz i want people to see this sorry. this is my one post thats actually targetted but its at a lot of people #so if u look at this and think 'hey i do that' pls evaluate urself<3 #i mean its also targetted at everyone who does this anonomously so i dont know who it is OKOK IM DONE BYE SORRY HOPE THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE #watch nobody read this fr #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #meows post

[drawlody]

It's time I contribute to the Adam nation with my interpetation of Sinner!Adam >:DDD

Going over some design choices here yes yes:

1 horn cause i saw some fics on ao3 where he would, in mad denial, ripped off it on his own n its just so cool??? like the self-rejection there? lovely 💗💗💗

Skirt also ao3 again ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ wanted to use a leather jacket but that aint working well with robes so here an alt:D I thought it would be hella funny to have the skirt be imagery of the exorcists causing mayhem, like fallen or not, the hatred for sinners n the pride of a general is still very much there (The excorcists r 1 big fucked up family n no nothing u said will convince me otherwise:))

Revoke wings privilege cause yes , i saw the hc of Adam hugging himself with his wings while in distress going around n yeah thats totally him alright. SooOooOooo what better ways to ensure misery than to take away his 2nd fav bodypart :))) I swear i love him

Angelic steel tail, so i have a certain scene i wanted to draw n for that to happen he need smth enough to fight ok?

Lamb characteristics, everyone know the whole ''sacrificial lamb'' deal we got going on with Adam so yeah it's that (๑•̀ㅂ•́)و✧ He got hooves but he will kill himself before letting others see them:D

I got the "underwear with his own name" thingy from *cough*rule34*cough* ( ͡~ ͜ʖ ͡°) dont question it

Charlie is like the least enjoyable to draw , idk why tho

Doing all this really get rid of my perfectionism cause the need to get these out fast is stronger:D (like this panel is 30m of work)

I am also digging this b&w colouring on a grey bg thingy

He's not "Daddy", he's "Grand-daddy x1000" ( ͡°( ͡° ͜ʖ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ʖ ͡°) ͡°)

Never has my ref board got this messy omg i mean half of them r for the Overlord! design (coming soon give me a few days:))so yeah its a 2 in 1

I spent like 30m or smth coming up with the actual designs n several hours just to choose the palette (i really hate this stage(╬▔皿▔)╯)

Wait the Overlord! may take longer since im kinda make this into an AU maybe? So i'll need to come up with a Fallen!Excorcist design, peferably with bird traits . Ya can check this post for the initial ideas ✍(◔◡◔)ada

#hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel adam #sinner adam #charlie morningstar #vaggie hazbin hotel #angel dust #hazbin hotel husk #angel dust hazbin hotel #adam the first man #chaggie #who name this ship #its so tame compare to every other ship names in the fandom #character design #digital art #artists on tumblr #shitpost #adam hazbin hotel

[andoutofharm]

“it's conceptually kind of based around these two halves, right? it’s like the smiley face.”

it’s this nihilistic side where he’s like ‘i could just - you know, do whatever cause none of it fucking matters’ // and the other half….that’s about breaking out of that feeling of nihilism.

x x x x

#fuck it making this its own post this is. so much ok #fall out boy #fob themes #half doomed and semi sweet #patrick stump #pete wentz #webweaving.txt

[raccoonnutella13]

why are ppl always so mean about taz :(

#every time theres a new arc everyone who only liked balance is like 'oh if u dropped off after balance u have to listen to THIS arc bc its #JUST LIKE BALANCE' #every damn time. #it happened with ethersea a bit but especially w steeplechase and vs dracula #and u get ppl in the notes of these posts saying 'oh yeah i fucking hated everything after balance sooo glad theyre finally doing exactly #what i want them to!!' #like. its ok to have personal preference but dont be mean about it :( #and comparing every campaign to balance is rlly annoying sry #let them be their own thing #stop being so blinded by nostalgia ig #like not to be rude but. i think ppl think balance is the most Perfect Thing Ever but its rlly...not #all the campaigns have flaws but i aint canceling them for that #like what happened with grad #idk its like if balance came later ppl would probably be much more mean about it #bc they wouldnt be blinded by nostalgia as much or smthn #anyways #at the end of the day the mcelroys shouldnt be expected to make a replica of balance every campaign #and thats not what theyre trying to do. theyre doing what THEY personally want to do. like they clearly dont care abt what others think lol #theyre experimenting and having fun #its like. a free podcast with a bunch of silly dudes playing for funsies. they shouldnt have such high expectations or be demonized #in any way #my point being. if i see anyone being mean abt taz u get blocked #>:( #coon speaks #not tagging taz. i dont wanna see nasty ppl in my notifs ty

[oatbugs]

pls i need to provide updates

#basically yesterday night was chaharshanbe suri . which is a solar new yr tradition where we let go of the past suffering in our year #and like...start the new yr w fresh vigour . anyway so my friend was at the event and we were abt to leap over the fire #and she was like bro im im glad u blocked her (situationship) etc etc . and then. my phone started vibrating. and i look at it. and my f #friend looks at it. and its her. and were both like what the fuck?? i blocked her things r Over and anyway so i pick up the phone and shesl #acting like nothing happened (bc nothing DID happen for her) and she was like ohh ur doing chaharshanbe suri im not doing anything etc what #are ur new yr plans so i jusr .IDK WHY I DID THIS . but ig i didnt wanna come off as like lonely i said probably hanging out w family and #friends maybe reading poetry together . et cetera and she was like wait that sounds so fun why didnt u invite me! #LIKE WDYM YOUVE BEEN CONSISTENTLY MAKING IT CLEAR U DONT WANT TO BE IN MY PRESENCE . and i told her that after #everything i thought she didnt want to see me again and she was like you always think that 😐 . like. ?? ok anyway so she expects me to #invite her . and like. there is an above 0% but sub-5% chance she will actually show up . but the panic that gripped me #i started making calls to my friends asking them if they can come on the 23rd bc there must be an event and also i asked my mother #and she said actually yeah i am doing a thing on the 23rd :D it involves over 16 ppl (we live in a v small flat) of which like...7 are kids #so you wont have space to be in ur own room let alone invite others. which tbh like ...being around a bunch of loud kids doesnt seem fun fo #any of my friends or me etc so i thought maybe i should arrange things so that we all go out together and if she shows up she shows up 🤷‍♀️ #but . im so. WHY DID I SAY THAT . i had to panic-call my research partner and ask him to get from oxf to where i live on the 23rd #and when he heard the explanation he like. the light in his voice disappeared 💀 but he potentially agreed so idk #THE ISSUE IS. 23rd im supposed to also have . a date #w this girl that i had a huge crush on when i was 15-16 (posted abt this b4 but id get shitty black coffee in the mornings just to spend a #few more minuted w her each day and she was the cleverest girl in school and she cared abt nothing but her academics but now shes very gay #scraggly homosexual etc etc shes cute) and YEAH IDK #like id have to go there on the date come back fast meet ppl POTENTIALLY (again under 5%) meet situationship girl #like is that even doable #but the thing is it would be so so so funny bc all of my friends dislike her sooo much #.........what if i invited the girl im supposed to have a date w over to hang out w us #god that would be so hilarious and chaotic . i wont do it tho im a mature person x #but it would be soooo funny #I HAVE AN ASSIGNMENT DUE TMRW 12:30PM IT IS 10:49PM RN I HAVENT STARTED IT bc i was rotting sadly in bed #popped a ritalin pill tho so here we go x #i have found myself in a state of such sheer agony and rage and sorrow and grief over this girl that atp i feel like #its just so entertaining . like i feel vaguely over it? ik nothing will come of it so its like just . have fun . vibe

[lesbiradshaw]

i wish nonlesbians could be Normal about lesbian headcanons or characters

#both having/stanning then or watching other people who have/stan them #but No somehow it always gets made weird #most often by nonlesbians taking lesbians stereotypes (ex mean lesbian/manhating lesbian/etc); assigning them to x character & running w it #or seeing that someone (usually a lesbian!) has this opinion or view about a character & either: #rushing to say shit like ‘i never wouldve seen it that way’ ‘not really my thing but so valid’ ‘i ship her w [man] but this is interesting #OR just piggybacking to say they hc the character as a different sexuality (which is like ok cool make ur own post then) #sorry but i actually feel like im going crazy sometimes because this happens almost every time i post ab lesbian hcs or lesbian fics. like #the word ‘valid’ gets thrown around so much and i know its not maliciously meant but it feels so backhanded 😭 #like Yeah i know its valid thats why im talking about it. why would i need a stamp of approval #anyways #maybe i Am crazy and no one else has picked up on this but. well #it has been irking me for so long. #also nonlesbians should not be joking ab m/f or m/m ships being ‘lesbian coded’ or ‘giving lesbian vibes’ SHUT THE FUCK UP ALREADY!!!! #carolcore

[upsidedowngrass]

look, i know cheesy mostly answered that liam would listen to metal 1) because he was put on the spot and 2) likely because its funny to imagine liam ‘literally just some Standard Guy’ plecak as listening to music far more intense than he is, but tbh?? it is so fitting. like yeah, thats abt right for him. i cant even figure out how to explain how/if it coincides w what we see of him but like. its just the truth

#hfjone #hes literally so silly #bryce drives him to see a band he likes post one #and bryce is like. i thought you were gonna listen to fucking beatles covers. what #amelia ? also wouldnt have heard much music like this pre one but i think shed be SO interested #liam and amelia just chill on the floor listening to the loudest music possible #and bryce doesnt seem like someone who would care for like. more intense and noisy music #so hes like. wtf #(charlotte would join amelia and liam obv. bryce is on his own) #all four of them end up seeing a band together and bryce feels like hes herding cats #bc liam and charlotte both try to join the mosh pit and bryce is. hell no #and he has to force amelia to wear ear plugs (she is simply very invested in the music) and shes so sad #she doesnt take them out bc yeah ok that makes sense. but shes sad that the music is no longer as loud #(amelia and liam have a headache for two days after bc liam never put any in and amelia was sdidnt have any for at LEAST an hr) #(bryce tells them yeah. thats your own fault) #(he still gets them some ibuprofen tho lol) #also if this seems rambly its bc i went to a metal concert recently and it was fun and i acquired new knowledge #(idk if its the type of metal liam listens to esp since i am a bit new to the genre. but i still know things i didnt know b4 #and now i can write these highly specific interactions better now)

[onemillionfurries]

I think everyone needs to make a "peace and love on planet earth" tag for their blog. A tag where videos, images, memes, and stories can be compiled of humanity showing kindness, empathy, joy, beauty, and love. A respite from the horrors that are shoved in our faces on a daily basis. A reminder that no matter what, we are all human, we are all one, and that we are all capable of being kind to each other and bringing beauty to this world.

#lab notes #the tag doesnt need to specifically be called 'peace and love on planet earth' but yknow #god i just love humanity so much #sorry this post is so rambly and repetitive i just think its so important that we have a reminder like this yknow #pls excuse me while i cry over my love of humanity and people just being so so kind to each other #bc yeah so much fucking horrible shit is happening in the world caused by humans #but that is an extremely narrow few who are influenced by greed and power and capitalism #the vast majority of humanity is filled with those who love and care for each other #and those who love and care for complete strangers #i see way too much nihilism around humanity and its blights to the point where there are people out there who genuinely think all of #humanity is nothing but greed and suffering but no!!! we are a social species! we evolved to work together and help each other and love. #to save humanity first you have to fucking love humanity!!! #if you want to make the world a better place first you have to find a reason to love it! and we are a part of this world so you need to #have a reason to love us! to love yourself!! #go outside and spread some fucking joy to others. hold open a door for a stranger. compliment someones outfit. help someone carry #their groceries. please even just the littlest of things can mean the world to others and can make the biggest of differences. #WOW ok. speaking of rambles. #anyways #peace and love on planet earth #<- an easy way to just click this tag n go to my own #bc i think its important for people to see

[beesholmes]

.

#tw rant #ok so i have a group presentation that is due on monday and that'll be our final grade #and i made a template for my group mates and sent them on wednesday #like they just have to write their own topic on that template right #2 of them did but #one of them didn't even use it and used a different font etc #BRO U LITERALLY HAD ONE JOB ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID #im not the leader btw i just do it because they are lazy af and don't do anything unless you make their job easier #im so sick of group projects it annoys me so much #i cant stand people's stupidity AAAA #i mean if she asked to change the font i'd do it but she didn't say anything and like there's 5 of us and 3 people made their presentations #using that template #YKNOW WHAT I MEAN?? ITS SO STUPID #rant post #dan.txt

[10-dutchies-12-bicycles]

"ugh im bored :/"

*remembers that im rereading the stravaganza series and i just started book 2*

"holy shit. if i continue Readinge Böök i will get closer and closer to the quintuple murder game of thrones wedding scene 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀"

#book 3 fucking SLAPS. i like books 1 and 2 and 5 very much also!! :3 book 4 is nice. Choices Were Made (medium-key derogatory) In Book 6 #stravaganza #mine #actually ykw im back to add more tags. book 1 ALSO fucking slaps!!! its so solid. man ive been having ThotsTM the past week.... #these need their own posts tbh. but maybe not at 6 am lol #ok so i wanted to make a post abt rodolfo characterization but maybe do that at the end of my reread? and one abt b1 character-driven plot

[galacticlamps]

The Doctor, explaining his concerns to the psychologist treating Jamie: I’m worried that these Shard implant things could be altering people’s characters, changing who they are and making them behave in ways they normally wouldn’t. Take Jamie for instance, he’s been off ever since we got here, but you can’t spot it because you just don’t know him like I do.

-30 seconds later-

The Doctor: here Jamie take my arm

Jamie: ah no thanks I’m alright

The Doctor: ヽ(ಠ_ಠ)ノ

#im sorry i know there was no mention of the dr's reaction but why write those lines unless it's e v i d e n c e #second doctor #jamie mccrimmon #the phantom piper #companion chronicles #big finish #fuck it you all know what im getting at here #two/jamie #sorry but i put it on again just to have in the background while i did some tasks #53 dead 847 injured etc etc #i think if anything i liked it even better this time? #the first time i heard it there were a couple of small things where i was like #'eh ok i guess but idk how much i believe jamie would do/say that' #but now im like wait maybe that was the point??? #(and maybe not. maybe some of them are too small to matter & i just differ with the author) #(but the plot still leaves it totally open to be interpreted that way so hey im not complaining) #i still have real thoughts on it i wrote into a draft from the first listen to stop myself making 85 posts #idk if i'll ever bother with sharing them but this bit just demands its own post either way #for the record i do realize that taking this bit as proof of jamie's character being altered as his more distressing memories are erased #kinda makes the argument that his clingyness is somehow directly related to his memories of loss and trauma #im not sure if i wanna be the one to take it that far but. i see the argument. i acknowledge it

[imwritesometimes]

god gives his biggest, honkin-est shoes [only caring abt old blorbos from, by today's standards, badly flawed media] to his silliest clowns [me 🤡]

#I went back and read some of my old fic for an *old* pairing and it is so fun! and I can tell like #I had so much fun writing them. they're actually quite good tbh like characterization is good dialogue fits plot is sturdy #and its like. it was so much fun! I enjoyed it! I would never write fic for the ship again cause of.... disc horse. that I caught wind of. #after I wrote the fics. #the blorbos I have been feral over the last couple weeks... like I enjoy them. immensely. but. #I think I overshot the scope of what I could actually do and the lingering omg don't ever actually post this cause disc horse #got way into my brain and killed my joy for it #then the like only current still airing media I had a ship for decided to cast aside one blorbo entirely #like a doll left in a sandbox at the park just... completely forgotten. so that's 🤷‍♀️ #like I get that there's always fan works but. unpopular opinion. I don't like to entirely rely on just fic #I want the fic to be established off *something* and if they just toss blorbo out the window on the freeway #there's nothing anyone can do abt it #so here I sit. blorbo bermuda triangle. can't work on my wip. don't want to work on anything else. #back is out. again. my fckn nerve damage bro is so bad. gotta loe around all weekend and not do fuck all nothing #makes me CRAZY ok I get way too far into my own brain. #erin explains it all

[ocglaze]

#Jerejon #TEARING MY HAIR OUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT. WHAT JEREJON LIKERS/LOVERS DONT KNOW IS THAT JEREMY FUCKING DIESSSSSSSSS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <- SO NORMAL #ABOUT HIS OWN CHARACTERS #LIKW OBVIOUSLY YOU ALL KNOW SHE DIES. BUT JONNY HAS KNOWN SHE WASDOOMED SEINCE DAY *ONE* AFTER SHE (Jonny) GOT THE SIGHT. LIKE OK LISTEN TO #E. HE (Jonny) KNOWS. HE KNOWS OK #HE KNOWS HIS TIME WITH HIS PARTNER IS SOSOSOSOSOSOSO LIMITED AND THERES NOTHING. HE CAN DO TO STOP IT. BUT HE CANT DEAL WITH IT. HE WONT DEA #L WITH IT. FATE WANTS TO STOP HIM FROM LOVING BUT BOTH JEREMY AND JONNY REFUSE TO BE DEAD AND STOP LOVING. BEACSUE THEY LOVE EACHOTHER SOSOS #OOOOOOOOOO MUCH. LIKEEEEEEEEE OK LISTEN. THEIR SO IN LOVE WITH EACHOTEHR AND NOT NESSESARILY ROMANTICALLY BUT IT IS LIKE THAT SOMETIMES. BUT #ITS LOVE OK. ITS LOVE IN EVERY WAY LOVE CAN BE AND ITS SO SO SO STRONG YOU CANNOT TEAR THEM APART. SOULMATES DONT EXIST BUT THEY HAVE MADE T #HE OTHER THEIR SOULMATE VIA TRYING. THEY LOVE EACHOTHER SO MUCH ADN THUS THE UNIVERSE BENT. ITS LOVE ITS LOVE ITS LOVE ITS ALL LOVE GUYS #Me after making an insane post: Tehe anyways

[thatwasntlikeridingabikeuasshole]

what i fucking hate about anxiety is that you can just have a random anxiety attack just! whenever!!!!! and then bad timing and BAM UR ENTIRE LIFES RUINED cuz now whenever ur slightly worried when before ppl wouldve been like "bro just chill out" now theyre like genuinely concerned abt u and I HATE IT SO MUCH LIKE I GENUINELY JUST WANNA PUNCH PPL IRL WHEN THEY ACT CONCERNED ABT ME especially when im having NORMAL CONCERNS abt a situation and people treat it like im gonna go off into a panic attack any second. why because ONE TIME i just randomly started like shaking and my chest got all weirdly tight and shit and it wasnt even like i was anxious at that moment and the whole time i was like "guys im chill i think i just have like too much sunburn or smth" and everyone was like "oh no hon ur having a panic attack :(" which yeah but everyone can just shut the fuck up bc i was saying out loud that i was fine and laughing it off and the entire time did not lose my goddamn composure and i think i should have the chance for literally any dignity in that respect like goddammit now i cant be like a normal anxious high school student anymore i have to be a concerning anxious high school student and i hate it so much i just i dont know what to do cuz im leaving all my best friends irl on read and i want to be able to talk to them without them getting irrationally worked up whenever im having my usual typical high schooler energy and i just right now i honestly dont want to talk to any of them ever again and i know i dont really feel that way like obviously i love them all but if they dont stop overreacting were gonna have some serious fucking problems

#tw vent #sorry guys i just its just #like i dont know what else to do tumblr is the only goddamn place where i can be an unhinged mess sometimes for actual real which not even #the goddamn panic attack was like that was not me being actually unhinged and concerning #compared with like i act way more worrying on this website a lot of times and nobody fucking is weird aboutit #like i can have a full on spiral of crippling anxiety complete with a real life actual anxiety panic attack for a real reason and #post about it on tumblr dot com in real time and people will just be like 'bro r u ok lol' and it is so much more comforting #ppl never bring it up unless i explicitly say im not ok can i talk to someone #ppl respect ur shit so much more online tbh #BUT LIKE PPL R JUST CHILL #GOD IT MAKES ME ANXIOUS AND SO FUCKING ANGRY WHEN PPL ARENT CHILL AND ITS ABT ME #like mind ur own goddamn business

[agelenopsis-potteri]

stardewvalley......

#i checked yesterday and i had something like 101 hours and #i checked just now and i have 111 i think #lots of stardew. too much stardew. but i love my husband and i need 2 provide for him and ... #need to expand my fucking HOUSE #and maybe get a shed for all this extra brewing & aging i'm doing now that i have wine and mead and cheese and ALSO hops #i'm just excited :3 i love rediscovering how addicting a game is.... especially when there's no microtransactions or whatever #it's all just your own effort to get things #my course is nearing its end also. very short course. excited to be done with it. i need to make a resume. augh #my mum is like 'ok u gotta make a resume & cover letter so u can go right to the school board and be like GIVE ME A JOB #as soon as u get out of school' #so i should have that ready. this week #anywaybs. wish me luck #mayhap i will post screenshots of my stardew progress cuz i like my house and animals n stuff #and it just turned spring in the game so i'm all !!! yay sunshine and flowers and plants and farming weeeeehehehe #and more coffee plants so i can give harvey coffee every day..... i am a good spouse

[waluijoe]

me when i post art on social media and i immediately think all my art school buddies&friends must hate me cause no one gives a shit about liking stuff or about saying anything abt your drawings except if it's relevant to them (ie. youve drawn them) i want to kms every time + i know my brain is sick but i can't help but imagine them sipping a soda going like wow i cant believe how badly this bitch's art is evolving like wow can't believe they don't draw in a refined cartoon style anymore wow what a boring fuck ass bitch now

#i hate myself so bad it makes everyone around me sound like they hate me too ill be really honest w that one #vent #txt #literally im a mess i get so much fkcing panic from posting i do it so if i meet new pple/artists/older people they can have a look #at what i do when we talk abt it #like FUTURE ME needs it ok i need to force myself to exist in my own fkcing sphere #by god i fucking hate doing it tho #artschool + animation industry fucking obliterated any self confidence i had its amazing to witness #i wasnt even doing that bad.. honey i really wasnt the environnement just sucked massive ufkcing ass