#gets yh in on the idea

[oatbugs]

I REFUSE TO LIVE A BORING LIFE

#whatever job i get i think it will have to be . at least partially remote bc the idea of being tied down to one location for the rest of my #life is horrifying like even if its just 3 days a week out or smth i need to be able to fly over go to the club be back the next morning #like its one of my issues w wanting to be a researcher . a lot of the jobs esp in academia do not allow u to work remotely #:( #I NEED TO TRAVEL AND GO OUT AND MEET PPL #as soon as i have money . yh #its holding me back sm #i need to live fashionably and deliciously #and also donate to charities etc

[bunnieswithknives]

Teehee, teehee, I finally finished my YHS fic!! It is extremely horrible and depressing to be prepared for that

It takes place after the halloween episode and focuses on James, Coolment, Sam and Nova!

#Yhs reboot #yhs #samgladiator #coolment #fic #I had a few ideas for it that I didnt get to fully explore but Im happy with it anyway #One of the important things I wanted to get across more than I did was James' obssesion with Nova #Which you get glimpses of but I wanted to have more #Like being a ghost his brain is literally melting. His personality is deteriorating. Everything about him is flaying #And the only thing he has to hold onto is *Nova* the last person he saw. the last person to comfort him. to even care about him #James would be absolutely horrified by the knowledge that she cannibalized him #but in his melting mind he cant bring himself to cope with the conflicting images so he just doesn't #despite his morals despite everything #BTW this is based on my own lore about how ghosts work #Which you might be able to tell I am obsessed with LOL

[ribs02]

NONONONONONONO NOUAGHHHH GUYS GUYS SPAM RAZI CHILL RAZI CHILL (how i feel when i get artblock

#HELP ME #anyways i saw this one fanartist and i really liked the idea of seeing zoro in a mohawk so yh #one piece #one piece fanart #op #roronoa zoro #no bc im trying so hard to get out of doing hw and artblock im gona cri ffs #cant wait for friday <3

[somaticmilk]

I’m like actually burning alive rn

Everlong yapping in the tags <:3

#soma says #I have so many ideas regarding TPoF and BTD and I’m slowly getting back into writing but like #idk?? #I’m like not?? not?? #idk see me in a week and I’ll snap out of it #promise^^ #insert shrug #also cause I low key don’t think people want to see my art and or know about what goes on in my head- #..yh- insecure soma we trust <3 #see y’all ig. #do people even like me on this app?? #the cow goes MOOO. #I think I’m like sick with something - not physically but mentally - #fuck this shit I’m going to bed #the rooster goes COCKADODDLEDOO-

[ruler-of-the-universe-boy]

Me when im planning something big but it has this guy

#samgladiator #yhs sam #yandere high school #yandere highschool #yhs #when you delay the Yhs Reanimated project for around a year #how? idk #im lying yes i do i get procrastinated so hard that once i finally get back into it the project dreads in #i have a problem but have no way of solving it so im very sorry to the people who actually did their part I should’ve put a big red sign #saying ‘this will take years but not for you but for me’ #but i have gotten things together i just need. to do them. #im not the best person to do this stuff #yall don’t understand how many project ideas i have chilling in the corner but i keep making new ones #like fun fact i keep all my comic ideas in a doc and the list somehow keeps getting longer. then i have a lot of animation/animatic ideas #bro cant leave the yhs fandom till they do everything they planned so im staying here till its 20th anniversary/hj #this was about the yhs reanimated.. back to that so yeah im trying very hard to do work on it because i gotta do a lot of the parts

[yersina]

Something han brothers

It starts with a cough.

-

“This treatment is still experimental,” his doctor says, as if this is just a normal procedure that’s been done a thousand times and not something that was just invented recently for a disease that only appeared within the last few years. “We’re still uncertain what the full range of side effects may be, but from previous accounts, it could include anything from confusion and memory loss to flattened affect and anhedonia.”

“Yes, I’m aware,” Yoojin says as patiently as possible. He read the pamphlets. He signed the consent form. He knows what he’s getting into. 

She gives him a steady look. Yoojin wonders if it’s pity that he sees in her eyes. “Alright, then. Let’s get you breathing properly again.”

-

At first, he thinks it’s a cold. In fact, he’s excited to call it a cold, because it’s the simplest explanation and he hasn’t been able to look to the simplest explanation in so long. He coughs a few times while he’s in a dungeon, takes some cough medicine when he gets out, and calls it a day. 

After all, what else could it be? 

But the cough never quite worsens and never quite heals, always lingering in the back of his throat like he’s trying to cough up something that’s refusing to come out of his body, and it scares him, it terrifies him, because he knows what it means. 

It’s just a cold, he repeats like a mantra, and relearns that he never quite managed to figure out the art of lying to himself. 

-

After all the warnings that the doctors and nurses had given him, all the trepidation that Yoojin had pushed down in favor of grim determination, he feels… fine after the surgery. Tired and sore, but that’s normal, they assure him. Nothing a healing potion can’t fix. 

“What’s your brother’s name?” a nurse asks him after she listens to his breathing.

“Han Yoohyun.”

“How old is he?”

“Twenty-one.”

“What’s his current occupation?”

And down they go on the list of questions that Yoojin had signed off for them to ask after the surgery. It’s almost funny, in a way—he still remembers how much he’d agonized over these questions, how he’d coughed out flower after flower while writing the answers. It’d hurt, he remembers, and yet he’d still held doubt deep in his heart over whether he should go through with the surgery, even as he was penning his signature. The doubt seems paltry in the face of the relief of being able to take a full breath of air, now. 

“It seems like you’re in great condition,” the nurse tells him with a smile. “How are you feeling?”

“Good,” he answers with an echoing smile, and knows that he truly means it for the first time in years. 

-

The first time that he pulls a petal out of his mouth, he stares at it for an interminable moment. Somehow, he didn’t expect it to be red. 

“Oh, shit,” he hears from next to him. Yoojin turns his head to see the doe-eyed, dewy look of one of the hunters that he’s clearing the dungeon with. Song Dohyun, he thinks his name is. A little older than Yoohyun, probably—he feels a tickle in his lungs and reflexively cuts off that train of thought. “Hanahaki, right?”

Yoojin lets the petal fall from the cup of his palm. “Yep.”

“I’m sorry,” Song Dohyun says, still managing to emulate a sad puppy. “I hear that it’s really painful.” It is. Yoojin shrugs and adjusts his gloves so he doesn’t have to keep looking at the mournful expression. He hasn’t had to talk to someone quite so… earnest in a while. “Are you… thinking about getting the surgery?”

Thankfully, the leader of the dungeoning group calls for their attention before Yoojin has to really wrap his mind around the question. 

-

Out of curiosity, he takes the bus with the route that he knows passes by a billboard for Yoohyun’s guild to get home from the hospital. He’s been avoiding it for almost a year now even though it’s the only line that goes directly to his apartment. 

The bus ends up passing by the location too quickly for Yoojin to catch anything other than the silhouette of Yoohyun’s head and shoulders against a fiery background. It’s anticlimactic, for something that Yoojin has been so desperate to avoid for such a long time. Still, it’s his brother on a billboard—something that neither of them ever would have imagined for themselves just a few years ago. 

Good for him, Yoojin thinks deliberately. It comes with none of the malice and jealousy that had plagued him for so long and brings a lightness to his chest that lingers for the rest of the bus ride home. 

-

It takes two weeks for Yoojin to start carrying tissues around. A month after that and Yoojin is having to stuff whole blossoms into his pocket in between punching overgrown rats and collecting ingredients. It’s fast, he notes dully. Faster than he would’ve expected.  

It takes two months for him to start coughing up blood.

There’s a pamphlet for a hunter-specific doctor hanging on his fridge, one where the number and website to set up an appointment is circled in black Sharpie. On the other side of the fridge is a photo of Yoojin and Yoohyun from years ago, decked out in winter gear and covered in snow, laughing together and not looking at the camera. It’s one of Yoojin’s favorite photos of them together. 

One day, while he has a sleeve—black, because he’s getting tired of doing laundry—pressed to his mouth as he coughs, he slides it back into the photobook it came from and thinks about how he’s had to do this twice now. He wonders if it’s making the disease worse somehow.

The pamphlet stays up on the fridge.

-

When Yoojin gets back to his apartment, he surveys the space and realizes how impersonal everything looks. Over the years, he’d gradually taken down or thrown out anything that reminded him of Yoohyun, and the hanahaki had only sped up that process. And the things that had reminded him of Yoohyun had been… everything.

He starts by taking out one of the winter blankets that he’s been keeping in storage, one that he’s been putting off using because Yoohyun had been the one to pick this pattern, and he wasn’t sure if it’d bring back other painful memories. While he’s there, he pauses over a box of photobooks, untouched since he’d shoved it there in anger and misery a few years ago. He’d forgotten it existed.

It takes him hours to flip through the photobooks again, looking at the pictures with new eyes and a touch of curiosity. Everything had been so painful before that he can’t quite remember what it felt like when these photos were first taken. It’s sort of like there’s a black hole in his memory, except instead of amnesia, it’s only his feelings that he can’t remember. 

It’s a bit strange, to look at his own history and feel detached, so he takes one that he likes and puts it in a place of honor on the fridge. Maybe he’ll warm up to it, eventually, and remember.

He leaves the pamphlet up there too. Just in case.

-

“Hi,” he croaks into his phone. His stomach had been churning from downing too many healing potions in a row, so he’d been experimenting with just letting the coughs happen. Now he’s starting to regret that a bit. “I’d like to make an appointment.”

He gives the nurse his information and stares out the window of his apartment while she looks up his records. “What are you coming in for?”

“Hanahaki surgery.”

-

After a few days, Yoojin’s… not quite sure what to do with himself. He still keeps an eye out for dungeons, but it lacks the fervency that used to fuel his actions. He’d needed to prove himself, needed to know that he could survive on his own and wasn’t trapped in the shadow of someone who didn’t give a damn about him, and now he… doesn’t. It leaves an empty space in his life that grows more and more unnerving the longer he stays in this apartment that’s both empty of and filled to the brim with emotion.

That’s the problem, he’s starting to realize. It’s not as if he’s been wiped of all emotion—far from it. It’s that he doesn’t have any emotions related to Yoohyun anymore. 

And who is he when he doesn’t love his brother?

-

“Han Yoojin.” 

Yoojin smiles wanly at the doctor who’d been assigned to him the last time. What are the odds? “Hello, Doctor Kim.”

She gives him a look before flipping through his chart. “I wasn’t expecting to see you here again. You were one of our best successes, you know. Hardly any side effects. What’s giving you trouble now?”

Yoojin reaches into his pocket and pulls out a clear plastic bag filled to the brim with red anemones, the flat round petals a stark contrast to the pink carnations that he’d shown her last time. “It came back.” 

#mycookiesvenomousyestheybite #sina writes #fanfiction #sctir #s classes that i raised #hanahaki #i'm not sure if it's clear?? but this alternates between the 'present' when yj gets his surgery #and the 'future' where his hanahaki comes back again #my other idea for this prompt was a time loop/groundhog day au #where yh is trapped in the time loop and the point is to reconcile w yj #but alas this story wrote itself first :')

[tiffanylamps]

i wrote nearly a thousand words about why i didn't like barbie. but i cba to finish it. just know that it isn't a bad movie but it has numerous big issues that kind of pissed me off (especially regarding the disabled character) if you liked it, you liked it. i'm not gonna come on here and try to change anyone's mind. i could see what they were trying to do (and i did enjoy some of it ngl), but i feel like they just really missed the mark on a lot of the themes and sociopolitical conversation(s) they were trying to engage in. there was a lot of potential, but the execution wasn't my cup of tea

the memes are better than the movie unfortunately

#on the walk home i was ranting and raving about it lol i kinda wish i had recorded my thoughts 'cause i made so many good points #it's not the film i thought it was going to be and maybe i'm too british to reallllly get it #its idea of inclusivity is weak and the tone of the movie was off. i was boooored from about halfway through to the end #great concept. great sets. good costumes. good plot outline. but i think the storytelling didn't give the plot the substance it required #it had interesting subtext and some tasty themes but did they do anything with them?????????? no. the potential was right there 😩😩😩 smh #i've deleted so many tags lol #anyway yh. go watch it so you can get your own opinion or don't.. do whatever idc lol #chatty lamps

[petratherrock]

I wanna buy the book cuz i wanna CONSUME One Day and its characters from another different media but I'm also considering ripping the damn final pages where it's SAD so how's that for a plan, how many pages are we talking about here

#one day david nicholls #dexter mayhew #emma morley #ambika mod #leo woodall #i didn't know that the ending would be that sad or Sad in general that emma wld die i had no idea i went into the show not having known #anything about it or the book i just thought the couple looked cute from netflix sneak peeks #i was watching ep 4 and telling my sister i liked the show and she told me that yh it's great but get ready for the sadness in the end #and i just 🧍🏻‍♀️ WHAT SADNESS ?

[orchid3a]

so today i woke up and thought about a crossover between corpse party and honkai star rail, i will elaborate in the tags <3

#🎀- vitium #so i headcanon stelle and caelus in this au as twin for plot purposes #they are yanderes towards yn #first a little bit of lore: yn will transfer to a new town the next day and stelle-caelus cant let yn go away from them #thats why they convice everyone who gathered for the yn's goodbye party to fo the sachiko ritual to be friends forever #however that sachiko ritual (like in the corpse party game) its a curse and they get teletransported to a curses school (lile in the game) #and like in the game slowly all the characters die however the twins manage to stay with yn and protect yn from the danger #at the end when they manage to get to the real world again #they kidnap yn and chain yn to their house so that yh cant leave them #at the end its revealed that the twins' plan was to make yn so dependant on them that yn eouldnt ever leave them again #and they succeeded since yn now cant live without them <3 #i love yanderes #this is just a scrap idea but it would be more interesting if i plan to use also the bad ending ehehe

[mspaint-flower]

did u ever notice I’m rebloginb all ur posts lol

yes and you have no idea how many times i wanted to directly kiss you in the forehead for that everytime i see you like a post in my notes i just know you're gonna go batshit and reblog everything and i love you for that. IT JUST MEANS A LOT I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO

#asks #IM SO SOCIALLY AWKWARD I HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO THANK PEOPLE WHO DO THAT #but just know that i remember you in my heart. when i see you in my notes i instantly know and my heart gets warm #i love EVERYONE WHO REBLOGS MY STUFF SO MUCH IT JUST HELPS A LOT AUHGUHUGTUHETG£HT£YHT£YH£

[peanutblowandjobsandwich]

no srsly tho is like the concept of like letters to my younger self and knowing how your younger self would feel about your present self figurative or do ppl actually like have a connection with their younger self and remember things their younger self wanted and stuff like that???

#on one hand like most of my memories dont go further back than 16 or 15 at most #anything i remember younger than that is just vague snippets and like snapshots #i have no idea who that kid is in a like idk 3d sense if that makes sense? #it's just a like oh i see that kid going to the museum field trip in pre school #or rather i dont see tht kid but i have heard and seen enough pics of it #n i just know the kid went idk how the kid felt why wld the kid feel anything idk #even like ok yh i remember more stuff from 16 upwards but it's still so vague to an extent #i feel like the one emotional situation i recall is 19 after a levels crying bc i didnt think i wld get thru to major in french at my uni #bc of lack of enough students and i was crying at my desk thinking of a second plan n also not being sure if i wanted to do it still #and how beneficial the degree wld be so i was thinking of telling my mother i'd do the comp sci degree she did at the uni she did idk #i dont remember much of why i was thinking all that i just know i cried so hard at my desk and it was a moent #n like thinking now trying to imagine telling that moment in time me that we're doing the french degree #n tht we also got to do so some it and coding stuff as electives idk #i cant picture it or how tht me wld react #like seems fake #cloud nonsense

[oatbugs]

lmao looking at her insta highlights was a mistake

#i feel worse WHY DOES SHE HAVE TONED MUSCLES UGHHH #also my confidence has gone down a tiny bit bc why is she hanging out w all these cool ppl #how is this girl simultaneously a lawyer and also has her social life on max like give me a break #thered a photo of her walking around in heaven either before closing or after opening shes sooo #HOWEVER. i just had a call w her yesterday that made me realise my idea of romance is more romantic than her idea of romance #but also that she doesnt want to do smth super romancey on a 3rd date which according to my friends is fair but according to my heart #it is not. like why are u on a date if u dont wanna do anything romancey at that point just hang out w friends #odd of her to say that too considering our first two dated were quite romantic . anyway #yo this cafe is playing persian music nice. anyway yh #also she makes being middle eastern so gay yk the goodbye fake cheek kiss thing we do . where u like . kiss the air on the sides of the #persons face when ur saying goodbye. ygwim . yeah she doesnt do the fake air kisses she gives u two tender kisses like . anyway #i discussed the stuff she does w my friend and like why r her words so aloof and her actions so...not . and my friends reaction was #basically this is fuckboy behaviour. apparently he used to do that to girls ?? like tell them he rly liked them #and be all charming and romantic even tho he rly wasnt invested at all and he mostly wanted to hook up. like ok #im gonna kill myself then. why would u stroke my hair w my head on ur LAP THEN. WHAT IF SHE TURNS AROUND AND IS LIKE #oops it was nothing #....ill kms actually. no i womt. but anyway #also got added to the gc w the other lecturers givjng talks on the 6th so its getting more real #my friend was like did u do the script yet :))) . almost died shes so scary i love her . but . fuck two exams . crush. talk. ucl cambrdige #three conferences aaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAA im so anxious i dont even feel anything atp #......I HAVE NO MONEY!!! TO TOP IT OFF #my crush and i are both iranian (aka born w extremely expensive taste woven into our genes) but i wanna like #treat her w the entire 2 quid in my bank account ig ♡♡♡ #crushposting

[ficsandfandom]

Harry Potter and Welcome to the World of Grey by sobsicles

so so so good! i spent basically the majority of the day reading this and finished it in that time and omfg the ROLLERCOASTER i have been on.

i went from laughing ACTUAL laughs to genuinely just sobbing- within the space of a single chapter.

reluctant guardian fics are my weakness anyway but the way this fic was written and just UGHHH everything made it perfect.

the characterisation, the morality, the FEELINGS!!! just made it seem so real and amazing and just so good!!!

pls pls pls go and read it bc like it’s needed.

and ik there’s gonna be a load of ppl annoyed bc drarry or guardian!voldie etc but cmon i couldn’t be annoyed if i tried to find problems with it bc of the way harry struggled with it too like get over it or just don’t read it xx

anyway

ITS SO GOOD PLS GO JUST BINGE IT PLS

(also i put effort into the tags and they’re rlly very fun to write and might acc give u a better idea of the fic than my rec so read them x)

#drarry #harry potter fanfiction #harry potter #harry potter and welcome to the world of grey #questionable morals #but they get questioned and worked through so stfu #yh the idea of a grudgingly caring voldie makes me happy what abt it #lucius malfoy is a changed person every day and idk if i love or hate him for it #draco malfoy is struggling with his hero complex having arse of a bf #harry potter is traumatised #like very traumatised #morally grey wizard with severe issues who’s been groomed to be a hero reluctantly adopted by the snake man he’s meant to be defeating #sunglasses r a hogwarts trend #hermione and pansy are a girlbossing duo

[wheelie-butch]

Exploding this website if i see one more post declaring physical strength as an inherent and essential trait of butches

#mez speaks #im grumpy this morning ok i cant walk properly and it hurts and i see lameass takes being applauded #even if we accept ok ur ableist yeah #are u saying old ppl cant be butch ?? #what a bizarre outlook #like yh butch means different things to different people #to me its a gender and if i remember rightly #isnt the idea that ur body doesnt make ur gender a pretty fucking important one round these parts??? #i dont have a gender i have a wheelchair is something the wheelchair user gets to say!! #not something that can be imposed by ableist idiots 🙄🙄

[glorfindelssword]

Sorry, but I disagree with you on the merch being way too expensive. Yes, 36€ is a lot of money (I'm a broke student too), but it's not too much all things considered. For example, the t-shirt without any print is not the cheapest (I looked it up, basic t-shirts for men from pure waste start at 25€). I've seen cheaper merch from other artists but they were bigger names, the merch was sold on several platforms and the material was cheaper. Of course I would prefer it if the merch would be a bit cheaper too, but saying you should be able to buy like 3 shirts for that price is not fair to anyone who is part of the production process. This is not fast fashion. And yes, shipping is also very expensive especially international shipping and I'm annoyed by that myself but that's not really something the band/people in charge of the merch store can change

I'm sorry if I sounded too harsh!!! I'm not mad at anyone, definitely not the band or merch store.

3 shirts was definitely an exaggeration, I'm well aware it's different for merch. I didn't consider at the time that I was comparing it to fast fashion! Merch is definitely worth its price, even if I'm used to getting multiple pieces of clothing for it. Also I did mean shipping included !! So like, 3 shirts for €60, which is still an exaggeration, but more plausible- But yes, I should have thought about the whole process, €36 is definitely a fair price all things considered

Obviously shipping prices is something none of them can do anything about, and ngl that's where most of my issue comes from because I had to pay almost double the price of the tshirt. But like I said, I'm not mad at blind channel or anyone else, I just wish I could buy this stuff without worrying so much about how much it costs :))

Again, I apologise :( the original post was meant to be light-hearted, but looking at it all now I definitely let out my frustrations a little too much considering I did actually pay for it in the end lmao (rip my bank account)

#every time i get an anon like this I have no idea what to say because i suck at articulating myself :/ #but yh i totally get what ur saying i was just a bit frustrated #anything for bc <3 #i hope i didnt upset anyone !! #post

[skrunksthatwunk]

I'm about to be so tired ghejeje

#os already tored fot rh same reaspns #been tring to microdose sleep forna bit moght just have to dp yh tadks mow #not honna edit yis. yall get yo dee the raw footage tnight #ok alarm done im up for real now 🤞🤞🤞 #also i did not allow enough time actually lol #please let me qork let me work let me WORK #thats all i need baby just be a working good body/brain for a few more hours so i can get this shit in please and thank you #oughh..ok #ok im done with 2/3 of the things.. just gotta do number 3 okay you got this baby go fuckinf batshit go wild do that homework cockslayer #ouuu ra ra ra #sorry don't mind me I'm tryna hype myself up #the first paper was shocking easy but now i gotta figure out another idea #girl i got TWO ap tests on wednesday... i can't study OR sleep for them bc of this shit. ik it's my fault but what the helllll #ive never done 2 in one day before so im a Little Worried BUT at least one of them's lit analysis which is like. my niche #at least it is in a way economics n government n shit Arent Quite