#god my dreams are so broken

[amagicalunicorn]

Last night, I had a dream where I wrote a fanfiction about Minnie Mouse (,I think). I published it on Wattpad, and it ended up getting over 200 reads. I panicked, and tried to unpublish it as fastly as I could, but for some reason, I literally couldn't find the ability to unpublish it. At the end of the dream, I was at school, and finally decided that I would instead just replace the entire story with the Bee Movie script. But before I could, I woke up.

#weird dreams #storytime #wtf even was this dream like seriously #im trying to remember what the story i wrote was #but i think it was about minnie #and she literally didn't take no ones sh1t and trying to be a musician #...wtf even was those sentences i just typed in the tages lmao #god my dreams are so broken #not art

[introspectivememories]

god i know i said i was tired of making eveerything sad but just imagine timber those first few months of reconnecting and they're both drunk on tim's boat, laying on the deck staring up at the stars and bear turns over to look at tim, his eyes are sad and wet, and he reaches out to touch tim's face as if to make sure tim is really there and not an illusion and tim whispers, "bear?" and bernard smiles a little brokenly and goes, "so how long do i have you for this time?"

#tim fully sober now: what do you mean? i'm right here bear #bear still drunk: i got you for almost a whole year last time. how long before you leave this time? #bear: 2 years? 6 months? #tim sadly: you can have me forever bear #bear laughing: i don't even get you that long in my dreams #bear smiles reaching out to poke tim's face: don't worry tim! anytime you want to come back‚ i'll be right here. #god tim who's constantly leaving and bear who knows but cant help letting him comeback into his life again and again #you cannot tell me that bear went to that first date in urban legends expecting tim to stay #he went to that date expecting to get his heart broken again but he loves this boy so he goes anyway #tim who always leaves and bear who waits patiently everytime #sorry im like sobbing in the library #bear is so 'right where you left me' coded #bear who loves tim so much he'll let tim break his heart again and again #head in hands head in hands #dc #tim drake #bernard dowd #timbern #timber

[zeeckz]

#i dreamed i was out at night in my countryside-village-next-to-a-forest where a bear'd always appear at a certain place very occasionally #it sat right in front of me and was as tall as me and i just. decided the smartest thing would be to pet it. so i did. #even put my arm around its neck n everything. i also had the urge to get my phone to videocall my russian friend and show her the situation #when i heard either her or whoever she was with say медведь (bear) i started explaining what was going on w my broken russian #and then it went away and as i was heading home i realized i had put my dog's collar on it (somehow????) #and was baffled bc i woudn't have it back in god knows how long #+yesterday someone req me funny vkaz. i was gonna make venom meet a bear but then. a revelation. idk if this is funny anymore but here it i #metal gear #metal gear solid #mgs #kazuhira miller #venom snake #vkaz

[colby-jac-cheese]

Had a dream last night that grian decided to do another AFK prank, where he would go to where a hermit was building in the shopping district and stand facing away from them.

Then, when they noticed him, they would go and see what he was doing! And the second they walked up to him he would

Slowly

Turn

Towards them

And everytime he had changed his skin to be slightly more and more creepy when he did. And then he would vanish.

Not like fly away or anything. It would look like he had just logged out, but he was still on the tab list. He was just GONE.

It eventually reached a point where he had done it to doc so many times that doc showed up on a stream, idk if it was his stream or someone else's, but he was talking about how 'grian was too good at being eldrich and creepy without even trying. It started with his scary backroom build and ever since he had just been the most casually horrifying thing on the server'

And then you heard grian go 'well that's not a very nice thing to say' and he just APPEARED behind doc and the man screamed

#grian #grian hermitcraft #grian chatten #grian hc #grian headcannon #docm77 #doc #docm77 hermitcraft #my dreams #dreams #casually eldrich #but in a funny way #at one point it looked like grian was looking away from them #and then as he we looking up #there was a copy is his face ontop of his head #so it looked like he had just broken his neck to look at them #and his skin god more and more HD every time #until it was like a hyper realistic version

[sincericida]

ANDREW GARFIELD

all black in Valentino - at the GQ Men of the Year Party 2023.

Yes I do

#andrew garfield #all black #valentino #andrew garfield all black makes me feel things #yes i do #he gives me sexy dreams #didn’t mean to moan like that my bad #the things i'd would let andrew garfield do to me #sir #the dilf-o-meter is broken #god i need to [redacted] with him so much #gq men of the year party 2023 #gq men of the year #gq #peter parker #spider man #the amazing spider man #tasm #tasm peter parker #tasm peter #andrew peter parker #andrew peter #sincericida

[aceofstars16]

It’s 7:30 in the morning and I’m exhausted but I don’t know if I’ll be able to fall asleep again any time soon….

It’s like I was *just* starting to heal from having my heart and trust shattered 3 years ago, and now it’s happening all again, only this time I don’t have the church to go to for comfort/prayer/encouragement. And instead of a friendship I had for 2-3 years, it’s a church I’ve been going to for TWENTY TWO YEARS

I feel like I’m living in the twilight zone, this can’t actually be happening, right?

(I’m not okay, I keep crying and I just want to wake up from this nightmare)

#I don’t even know what to tag this as I just can’t #I was literally just telling my counselor that I feel like I’ve never had the ‘years of plenty’ #only the suffering and trials…and now this happens to seem to confirm that #and it doesn’t help that I was already having trouble trusting the leader after last year #and now it’s like a big ‘I told you’ from my brain which isn’t gonna help me trust anyone in the future #I was already having a hard time taking chances and trying to trust again ans NOW THIS #I know I should at least try to sleep again I just…I don’t even know anymore #I’m not even gonna tag this as any normal stuff tbh #how about just #aceo get her heart broken again #not to mention I’m terrified I’m going to fallback into the numb empty depression pit I only just kind of got out of #and faith? bro I understand how people left the church or faith cause it is HARD to differentiate between the church and God #I’m still trying to pray and stuff I just feel so empty and I can’t do this again #it doesn’t help that the church claimed that they felt ‘lead’ to this crappy situation whatever THAT means #I only heard it second hand tbh…I just…can this stop please? can this all just be a horrible dream that I wake up from? please

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

hey friends is it normal to just feel. numb. because I think that maybe it is not. but what would I know anyway.

#really tho it’s like I can barely feel anything anymore. idk if it’s stress?? depression?? #the enormous weight of adult life suddenly and unexpectedly crashing down on me with the weight of the entire planet?? #I used to feel so *much* all the time and now I feel like I can barely feel anything at all… #and everyone around me is living life so much and I’m just here feeling like I can barely keep up with conversations as they’re happening #I’m tired… I feel like God is a far away idea that I’m struggling to hold onto… I feel like my mind is a bent and jumbled mess #like I grabbed hold of it and tried to crush it into the shape I thought it should be and now all I’ve got is a broken frame #I /know/ who I am and what I believe. I /know/ what my life is. but I don’t feel anything. #the only time I feel anything is sometimes when we’re singing at church I just cry at the sense of glory of something I can’t touch #and sometimes I shake with fear at the thought that I’ve ruined everything that could’ve ever been good about me #I’m oversharing on the internet again but I just don’t know what to do. I’m so tired. I want to see something beautiful and feel #the weight and glory of it again. but I feel like I can’t. all I feel is numbness. #I feel like I could sleep for months but every time I wake up I never feel refreshed. and I’ve been having bad dreams too. #adulthood kinda does suck can I please go back to being 5 #gurt says stuff #personal

[luciana-silentstar]

I decided because I love suffering that everyone gets their own halter.

#-pops on once in a blue moon to update and dip- #like what it's been. ten years since I've basically said 'hey life is crazy but I really wanna try to be active again!!' lmfao #somehow life keeps getting crazier in good and absolutely abysmal ways #have been sleeping on my floor for the past week due to Fun Health Issues which will probably be a thing for the next month+ #and I would b*tch about that but today is the first day in the past week that I have not been miserable so #I'm on a 'I do not feel like sh*t! :DDDD' high lmao #I'm good!! life is just funny and I really need to do standup tbh #when I suffer apparently I am hilarious so silver linings 💕 #chaotically toggles between emoticons and emojis bc f*ck the police no one can stop me #this is me a week *not* taking my prescribed amphetamines ahahaha #on them I am actually relaxed and chill which is funny #off them I'm either a sloth or nighttime kitty zooms basically #my body may b falling apart but you cannot stop my chaotic little mind apparently #ANYWAY broken record babey but I do... want to be more active.... if it happens I'll eat my hat but. #can I just say how elated I am that MORE SNOW #Winter Riders was my first SS game so. snow in game is v special to me and I literally dreamed about this and they MAGICALLY DELIVERED #I have a million critiques but clearly I still love the game and I am very happy with how they handled this lmao #anyway I hope everyone is healthier and a little more mentally stable than I <3 #I love this stupid game a lot it is still my comfort... n0n-object. sldkfj. #also everyone must know I am f*cking OBSESSED with the unicorn oh my god #still a ponygirl at heart ig 😒 owell #also ye Dragonheart got an update!! heeeee #Dragonheart #Illusion #Brilliant Vision #Myth #Chocolate Dream #mostly sticking to two part names but ngl. for certain special horses I'm enjoying the single name options #also the halter thing is to sorta discourage me from impulse buying horses lmfao #I am 99% positive it will have 0 effect lmaooooo but everyone looks fancy now

[mrs-kelly]

Good morning <3 I had a dream about an episode of aIways sunny where Charlie swore up and down he was gonna quit drinking for me, and then the gang started testing him and testing him trying to get him to slip up. And finally after a long day of them testing and then other stressful things happening to him, he did have a couple of drinks, and he felt so terrible about it and got rly sick :( my alarm went off before I could get to the part where he saw me but. I would’ve comforted him and told him it was ok 🥺

#God the gang we’re being such assholes every single one of them #*were #actively putting drinks in front of him with a smile on their face #because they thought he was ‘less fun’ without drinking #even Frank was in on it like ‘I want the old Charlie back’ #I was SO FURIOUS like. and they were blaming me! #I didn’t even ask him to quit! he said he wanted to quit to be healthier for me :( #and bc he didn’t rly want to numb himself to the world anymore. bc he was happy #and when he gave in and had a couple drinks he was just crying…. #my poor baby :( #a lot of the dream was that I was watching this episode so my heart was just broken seeing that happen #it’s too realistic tho; that rly sounds like a real episode of aIways sunny #ren’s dream journal #renlie #alcohol ment tw

[vcrnons]

man. why was yuta in my dream again

#shut up j #this time he was a cool older guy whose car had broken down and he asked me if I could drive him to work #so I pulled up at his place at 8am and there are like 30 people all dressed UP in these clubbing fits #meanwhile im in my fuckin JIMJAMS AND FUZZY SLIPPERS. #and one of his friends came to my car and was like heyyyy come inside he’s just getting dressed. And I was like :| look at the state of me #hair scraped back. hormonal acne all over the joint. it was BAD but for some reason I did go inside anyway #asked this girl how on earth she looked so good at 8am and she just laughed and shook her head saying I had nothing to worry about #LIKE MAAM I WASNT WORRIED UNTIL NOW WHAT DO YOU M E A N. anyway I get inside and yuta finally comes downstairs and is in a whole suit #pressed trousers white shirt tie jacket. a whole SUIT. and he’s like ‘oh did you bring the Jack Daniels’ and I was like bitch NO GET IN THE #CAR ALR YOURE GONNA BE LATE #also WHAT fuckin jack daniels. ITS 8AM WHY DO YOU NEED WHISKEY #never did find out but 🤷🏻‍♀️ anyway #so then I drove him to work and he was being a menace the whole time. just. making fun of my driving and saying the pyjamas were cute #and then he was like ‘can u pick me up at 5 too? and bring the JD with u. thanks’ kissed my cheek and skedaddled #I don’t know what triggered this I just know im gonna tear down a house over it. I hate him😭😭😭😭 #I DONT KNOW THIS MAN WELL ENOUGH FOR HIM TO BE UP IN MY DREAMS LIKE THIS😭 #can I pls have five minutes peace. good god

[dreamcast-official]

Hey I Think I Figured It Out

#eli.txt #i do not think its the Me that makes me want to cry all the time i think its the. I Am A Third Year Student Who Is Going Through A Lot #i mean. this is gonna get a lil darker than my usual brand of complaining so thanks for looking at my complaining post but yeah. #i mean i dreamed about my dad again last night. that hasnt happened in a while. i think i really am just way too stressed. #i think i am jsut going through it i :( god what the fuck what is going on in my funny brain #guy who has gotten broken up with recently and also is under constant stress #and has forgotten how to talk to people he loves because of the anxiety getting worse #who has started dreaming about his dead father being alive again after a long while #who has so much fucking shit to do and no time or energy to do any of it #let alone things he likes to do and barely has it in him to talk to people he loves and cares about #because he is just so fucking tired all the time. yeah no wonder he wants to cry all the time what the hell

[guntapon]

someone PLEASE give me the strength and courage to continue working on this video

#i was doing SO WELL at first #i was so excited when the idea for it sprung into my head that i nearly hurt myself when i exited the shower and ran over to turn on my pc #(don't worry- i got dressed somewhere between point a & point b) #but i've since hit a roadblock - bc of course i did - and it's hurting my brain #i really wanted to finish it before ep 8 bc i'm only using eps 1-7 for it #but i just realized that tomorrow is already thursday and i am not even halfway done yet :) so :) seems like that was a pipe dream #i'm really worried that i won't finish it at ALL because i'm highly likely to get discouraged for myriad reasons #and i haven't actually made a fanvid in like? 2 years?? #i also have so many other msp-related ideas #like gifset ideas and another video idea and a writing idea (the most miraculous of all) #and i'm almost overwhelmed by how suddenly and effectively msp has broken through all of my creative blocks #like i feel so free but i also feel like that sabrina pancake meme #oh god i'm going to forget like half of these ideas aren't i #i should write them down.... that's probably advisable.... #OR. or. i should stop procrastinating by rambling on social media and actually get back to finishing this silly little thing #talking to myself*

[uroborosymphony]

POST - IT NOTE ( for devari ❤️ )

"My Everything. Are you getting enough sleep? Are you eating enough? I found a little peace since Hrodvitnir and I came to this agreement, to keep you safe whenever able to. While I do not fully trust him, he gave me the guarantee you are free of your actions for at least the time he has you under his roof. I choose to have faith along with the fact he does know if anything happens to you under his watch, I will rip his throat out with my bare hands. I promise to find a way to visit you my Love when you stay at his home, I first have to secure a way for no one from the council to suspect a thing. Give me ten days, then I will finally be able to touch you again. The softness of your hair in between my fingers, the weight of your head down my chest, your nose in the cook of my neck, your scent all over my skin. I miss you terribly. While waiting for me I want you to use this little time of peace to create again, my Beloved. I finally unpacked your boxes back at home. I hate that place, because you're not there. But I had to. I found your pencils, your colors, your sketchbooks to send them all to you. You have a gift my Princess, my Queen, do not let the monsters of this corrupted hell steal that away from you. You will show me your new creations when you are done, yes? I still hear your voice whispering my name. No matter what I will always hear and listen to it, your voice. I love adore and worship you. Devora."

   Note left by Deva on a package delivered to Van's place for the hours Aeri is allowed to stay there.

#넷 𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐀 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆 / the victor. #넷 𝐃𝐄𝐕𝐎𝐑𝐀 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆 / interactions. #WOW MY HEART IS BROKEN I GUESS #Deva is whithering without her one and only queen of her life and dreams #There is no meaning to nothing she does since Aeri isn't by her side anymore #But there is hope #I picture this happening once Deva and Van comes to an agreement for Van to request Aeri's services #And so Aeri can stay at his place and take a break and feel like a human being again #Next plan is for Deva to manage to go near Van's place without anyone suspecting for them to have time together again :(( #My heart HURTS FOR THEM oh my god

[lehana37]

Oh god I just opened safari on my phone and all 241 tabs of AO3 are gone

What am I supposed to do with myself

How do I get them back

#No actually does anyone know what to do in this situation I’m freaking out a lil bit #big bit #actually going to start crying in about three minutes if I don’t figure out something #maybe just open up random fics in the meantime so I won’t see the barren wasteland of my broken dreams #will opening new tabs confine me to whatever hell this is though #where’s my blorbos #WHERE ARE MY BLORBOS #bring them back #god don’t play with me tonight #I haven’t eaten in hours and I’m one tick away from feral #do not test me against the gods tonight #I will take only one prisoner #and only so I can ask some /friendly/ questions #okay but actually I have like five followers and I hope to god one of them knows how to help #or can say oof same it gets better #I should’ve switched to Firefox months ago when bee told me too #this is karma isn’t it #listen to your best friend when he’s giving advice #or I’ll snatch your fics #can I tag this as dp x dc #I don’t think so #but that’s what a good 40ish of my tabs were #mmmmm frothing at the mouth #I never understood what the meant before #god I need to go eat some cheese or something #maybe that’ll make it better #I’d touch some grass but it’s cold #and I don’t wanna touch grass #I wanna read about my time travel some more please #I don’t know what anything is called!!

[hvbris]

𝐎𝐂 𝐓𝐀𝐆 𝐃𝐑𝐎𝐏 with the beta editor not saving up any tags with caps in them, I'm saving them all again in lower cases only!

lucretia (you bite the feeding hand and it will crush you where you stand) codrin (late at night i hear the trees; they're singing with the dead) eve & noah (my daddy's got a gun you better run) eve gideon (just like her father) noah gideon (fearless child broken boy) olive (all the good girls go to hell) grace (you've made me so hard i beg for softness) salomé (you are a monster from Hell) haniel (cause i'm sick of losing soulmates) dimitri (the man who sold the world) jill (i break the high and mighty) scarlett (one taste of blood is not enough) ava (where's my fucking teenage dream?) april (daddy's girl learned fast) aisha (i come from scientists and atheists and white men who kill god) deirdre (nothing cuts like a mother) lavinia (i'm gonna love you like a black widow)

#lucretia (you bite the feeding hand and it will crush you where you stand) #codrin (late at night i hear the trees; they're singing with the dead) #eve & noah (my daddy's got a gun you better run) #eve gideon (just like her father) #noah gideon (fearless child broken boy) #olive (all the good girls go to hell) #grace (you've made me so hard i beg for softness) #salomé (you are a monster from Hell) #haniel (cause i'm sick of losing soulmates) #dimitri (the man who sold the world) #jill (i break the high and mighty) #scarlett (one taste of blood is not enough) #ava (where's my fucking teenage dream?) #april (daddy's girl learned fast) #aisha (i come from scientists and atheists and white men who kill god) #deirdre (nothing cuts like a mother) #lavinia (i'm gonna love you like a black widow)

[oberon-king-of-the-cherries]

I think they should be allowed to put, idk, crack cocaine in cat medicine. Get them hooked so they want it stuffed down their throats.

#third pill was a two person job #I’m glad her stress response is to go catatonic but that doesn’t stop her from spitting it out 50 times and needing to be burritoed #and while she doesn’t bite me the response to gag and twist away accidentally scratches my knuckles ow #i watched some YouTube video but my technique is just not working god #today my mom burritoed her and held her on her back so I could use both hands to pull her #I’m very afraid this will simply wreck any and all trust and love between us. she’s quite hesitant over me now already #she used to sleep in my bed every night and now she’ll barely sit in my lap #and last night I had a bizarre fish stress dream where all my previous dead fish were still on the tank and actively dying of dropsy #so i opened their food and found. a bunch of dead angelfish in it? so I tried to pour them into the tank to save them #and all the food got in the water and started to poison the fish ugh ah god #this blog is becoming my rant space #which is funny because I queue everything so I feel like it’s all broken up by shitposts #sick pet #not fish