Today I had the best time volunteering for a teaching project (which is led by our chief vascular surgeon).
That is, apart from the fact that we ran into some of our abdominal surgery attendings, who gave me a massive (verbal) side-eye for technically hanging out with the vascular surgeons in my free time. (Some of them don’t really see eye to eye, both medically and personally).
And I’m soooo sick of it, can’t I just try to figure out what I eventually want to do with my career without having to navigate a social and political minefield?
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I'll take literally anything Sherlocky - meta, random ramblings, incoherent thoughts. The fandom is as dead as the show I'm finally starting to accept. But as I apparently like pain, I'm still here.
Dearest anon, I will post something soon even if I don't get a juicy prompt (which I would enjoy). Never worry about taking a break from the game, it's been on for over a century, and there will always be people playing it in some corner of the world. Many of them are here, although there's not a lot of posting going on at present.
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Good job! You’ve successfully erased a whole season worth of plot, congratulations. Would you like a fuck you with that ? It’s on the house!😄
On a more serious note. The fucking second your coping mechanism, as direct consequence of your environment and the abuse that comes with it, is any type of angry or violent y’all just… don’t know how to fucking act. Victims are only acceptable if their way of coping is convenient. Hate to break it to you, but abuse doesn’t work that fucking way. You do not get to choose how it effects you. I promise we’d have chosen a more convenient way. And hell, at this point I’d have preferred it if they just straight up admit that abuse victims are an inconvenience in general, rather than handing me that ‘did he deserve to be saved’ bullshit.
As someone who’s going through similar abuse, if not ‘worse’, (than what we’ve seen on-screen) that shit felt like a punch in the gut. In a way it feel like I have deadline, an expiration date. I won’t be worth jackshit in a few months, because what redemption is there but death for people like us?
And yet even amongst all my jealousy, and the white hot anger that comes with it as I watch my 2 sisters get to have things I never will, and be treated differently just because they’re not ME. I still love them to death. So I hope they cherish the small moments, it’s all I have I left to give.
stranger things is nothing a cheap version of what it promised to be.
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May 2022
The path is built on sand
A thousand years' worth
Firm and narrow directing your feet
Keep going forward
And there is no chance of getting lost
Flowers line both sides
Pale pink bell-shaped and
Fat thistles budding and
So many small orange poppies
Cups eagerly open to collect the fog dew
All peaceful quiet except
The ocean surf below
Gently crashing waves
And the funny bark of elephant seals
Lazing on the beach
To your right the hill crests
You scramble up it
Anticipating
Breathless
The beauty still catches you by surprise
Blue ocean and
White surf and
Tan beach and
Grey sky
Everything vast and timeless
Limitless
Like the breath in your lungs
Your mind is empty
But in the best way
Revelatory
You don't need to get high when
You have this
Quail on fence posts
Deer roaming where they will
Cows in the road
You drive past slowly
And stop to stare
Locking eyes with a badger
For the first time in your life
This was a wrong turn
But it doesn't feel wrong
Knowing you would have missed
The quail and the cows and the hawk and
The badger with its mouse dinner caught in its teeth
If every path takes you somewhere
Maybe there is no getting lost
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just had my employee review. glowing. perfect score. no notes
i got the highest possible “merit increase” of 3.5%, same as last year.
the rate of inflation in 2021 was 7%, and this year so far it’s 8.3%. it will be higher by the end of the year.
in order for me to break even - not have more money, just break even! - with the purchasing power of my wages back in 2021, i would need to be making $4,400 more than i’m making now. i have effectively been given a wage cut of $4400 over the course of two years in spite of them admitting i’m one of their best employees.
failing to tie annual salary increases to the rate of inflation is wage theft dressed up as benevolence.
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my relationship with the sciences is complicated because a lot of my life was spent being abused in order to excel at this subject I wasn't naturally good at bc of how tied it is to high-paying jobs and "respect" in society, so it took me a long time to undo the hatred I had for it and realizing it was more the fault of a hypercapitalist society that prized it above "useless" art. I really do like math and learned to enjoy it in college despite still being not fantastic at it, but it definitely...needs a lot of reform with how it's still seen as the only path to success.
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