#guts over fear

[disgruntled-lifeform]

Thank you to all the very lovely loomers who helped me in my hour of need, here is what I settled on for my potential warp

I will be trying to figure out how to set up Kettricken later this week and would love to drag you all along for that wild ride ^_^

#For one so adverse to feeling stupid I sure am throwing myself into a lot of new experiences as of late #Guts Over Fear #weaving #1960 fanny leclerc #Kettricken #counterbalance #loom

[transjudas]

Frank Iero + the fear that people will hear your deepest most personal thoughts and feelings and think you’re “crazy” and walk away. (x, x, x)

#frank iero #frankieroedit #userkam #like i feel like this is such a human fear #that all of a sudden you will share too much or the wrong thing #and people will be like oh god you're 'nuts' and just leave you #whether it be artistically or in your personal life #and he's so open about it #like everything else #gonna tag this #trauma cw #for the last bit #also the fact that he feels this and still puts out the raw shit he does #mr iero you got guts of steel all over the place #except for your literal guts sorry about that

[rawliverandcigarettes]

You said you're excited to spend more time on Sur'Kesh in Empire of Preys, and I'm excited for that too! We only got to spend like a minute on Sur'Kesh in canon, and I've always wished that we'd gotten to see more of that world. What do you imagine salarian architecture and design sensibilities as being like? I won't ask you to spoil the story, but I'm curious about any worldbuilding you've done along those lines that you'd like to share!

HELLO!!

Sorry for taking so long to reply to this wonderful ask! I kind of pondered a lot on what to talk about and how much I should talk about; but since you focused on architecture, I think I'll focus on that!

So, in The Empire of Preys, we spend most of our time (barred from one scene that takes place in a more remote city) in the country of Nkoma. What we call country and what salarians call country differs slightly, however: think of it more as an administrative district that exists more for the sake of resource repartition and ease of organization at a medium scale rather than a place, or an identity with strong cultural attachments that would involve nationalism or things like this --this would be much more true for cities (a practice encouraged and mirror by asaris) and clans in general.

There are two main focuses in Nkoma.

The first one is the city of Talat, considered a hotspot of diplomacy (where the administrative body called the Grand Symposium has its seat --basically where the Salarian Union is being ruled), business and tourism that spreads from the remnants of an old volcano all the way to the seaside coast. Its main landmark is a huge water dam used to control the level of the internal lake, assist with irrigation of the agricultural activity spreading around the city, and also partially turned into a luxury hotel. It's also the city that looks the most like the Citadel, Thessia, Armali, and every huge metropolis in the galaxy: it has tons of immigration and is the most overtly capitalist, with the least amount of relics from their past that isn't directly turned into museums.

The second is the city of Leyjung, which is Nkoma's second biggest city (and the biggest focus of the two within the narrative). It is much deeper inlands, deep within the rainforest --it's actually pretty close to the STG quarters that we see ingame (and MAYBE, maybe, we could see it in TEoP as well....)

It's a very old city with tons of history: it is roughly divided between the old town (tucked inside a valley following a large river) and the newer town that looms over it from the cliffsides. Both towns are riddled with technology; it's just that the old town still preserves a lot of its ocher-based and troglodyte buildings that allows for natural temperature regulation on top of being monuments to the city's past as a huge capital of the (since defunct) phassen empires.

The traditional structure of the salarian clan does not account for individuality. Therefore, the oldest kind of salarian building is the House: a very long building built over generations that try to account for the needs of the clan, a place where every salarian with a clan is always welcomed (but they have, for example, no concept of individual bedrooms; though people with importance within the clan have individual offices). The whole clan very rarely live together all at once; they generally have small individual open rooms that will sustain a dozen of salarians at a time (for example a ton of small kitchens rather than one big room where everybody eats all at once, and no real concept for group meals except for big celebrations). They also include walk-in showers everywhere; the goal is just to let water splash over you for a few seconds to cool off, and you're not even expected to remove your clothes while doing so (they also have communal pools for longer soaks, where public nudity is 100% fine).

Leyjung still has a large number of old clan Houses that have not been repurposed into commercial hubs or broken into smaller apartments like in Talat; most notably, the biggest Linron House is still in use while being considered a remarkable historical artefact as the history of that clan and that town stretch back for at least a thousand years.

One of the biggest challenges of the architecture of the town is to account for the extreme humidity: the rainforest surrounding and permeating the town is so dense that, twice a day, once at dawn (feshe qer) and then a little after midday (selecat qer), huge clouds of vapor start rising from the surrounding canopy as the air gets more and more suffocating, until it all breaks down into a brief torrential rain that soaks everything back late in the afternoon, and makes the evening and night the most pleasant temperature-wise. It happens... basically every day.

The town's architecture is therefore very concerned with avoiding wind and thunder damage, as well as trying to prevent stagnant water from swamping down the infrastructure. For example, hydrophobic plexiglas is very widely used. A lot of streets meant for pedestrians, especially in the older town, kind of follow this format (sorry for the janky perspectiiiive I'm bad at thiiis)

Using a lot of non-corroding mesh fence and avoiding to put salarians directly on ground, using a lot of triangular structures to let the rainfall glide to canals that are pushed back to the main river, with a ton of plants to absorb the excess humidity as much as possible and provide some relief from the heat.

The main problem that Leyjung face is: when is modernization too much modernization? What is preserving tradition, and what is refusal to change? What's opposition to galactic gentrification, and what is straight-up xenophobia? What's power to the individual VS what is the destruction of the collective?

Let's have Elections about it, maybe!! Surely that will solve everything!!

#salarians #salarian #salarian oc #sur'kesh #the empire of preys #halfway home #my writing #asks #thank you for the aaask!! I have more but I think that's a fun first overview #lots of plants #lots of tradition VS modernity #lots of people sweating together #also pretty wack city fare in leyjung #they do be gutting a giant river fish for funsies #and bathing in psychedelics and absorbing it through their amphibian skin #while glueing fluorescent scallop-parasites over them and dressing up as non-binary demigods of ancient times #in order to make the jungle fear them back

[burning-sol]

i cant help it. im just. i cant get over this dialogue it's so sus. how are you gonna banish thanatos rumi??? gonna ask the angel that you fucked??? that confessed their love to you????

#jrwi spoilers #jrwi apotheosis spoilers #📚 my posts #🖍️ art #i like doing these mspaint doodles. #it helps me get ideas out and i dont stress as much over flaws. #just for funsies :) #just roll with it #jrwi apotheosis #jrwi rumi #jrwi exandroth #jrwi eldritchstrings #eldritchstrings jrwi #jrwi miraclevessel #miraclevessel jrwi #im not going to tag peter this time to be polite #im getting very scared tagging this ship btw i have a fear people are trying to be polite but actually hate my guts. #i get so anxious gonna throw up and shit and piss just like peter.

[dutybcrne]

Kaeya is rather touch averse, cringing away from casual contact people give him under the guise of being distracted or idle movement. He's used to it, the Ragnvindrs and Adenlinde got him used to frequent affectionate physical contact, but it can still be entirely Uncomfortable if he's touched by someone outside those he is close to or someone he's otherwise Allowed to touch him.

#hc; kaeya #//Mentioned before; but am Elaborating on other aspects since Aven get brain juices flowing for this #//Unlike Aven; he's FAR more tolerable of people who touch him unprompted. & more willing to indulge for himself outside his comfort people #//Unless he himself had actively given the indication he doesn't want it; in that case THEN he's likely to anger & retaliate #//But yeah; his response is usually Discomfort & trying to get away from it one way or another. Can tolerate it to appear friendly; sure #//But would rather not want people to touch him so easily. Is decently okay with brief touches tho; like shoulder pats or the like #//Will actively lean into it & encourage further touching ONLY as a means to an end; adjusting any wandering hands only when going too far #//Esp if he can use that like a carrot on a string–if they concede to what he wants; they can touch him more. Maybe MORE than just that too #//He won't initiate any touch unless he deems it Absolutely Necessary; WILL internally scream if they Immediately reciprocate the contact #//Uses it as a 'reward' sometimes; a little pinch of the cheek; a hug; getting right into their space; if he sees they'll react favorably #//Maybe more if they have connection enough; like Huffman or one of his longer-running liaisons. Is p ok w/ sleeping w/ them as reward #//Sometimes he forgets some people don't like that he does this; like Rosie. Tries the tactic to get a favor then Remembers #//Absolutely apologizes; feels mortified when she scrutinizes him for it. Esp since she'd be one of few ppl who KNOWS just how Averse he is #to it in the first place. Him slipping up like that in front of HER is smth he'd STRESS over. She could hold over his head for all he knows #//How can he even joke abt it? Worse if she asks abt his way of doing things or indicate she doesnt Like that he uses himself as bait #//Has absolutely accidentally tried to seduce/bait sb like that who he absolutely should Not have. Like Jean. Ended up playing it off like #a joke between friends; but damn near had a panic attack from the guilt the moment he was safely in his office. bc Jean is SPECIAL to him #could he treat her like THAT? How could he almost let her SEE that side of him? His casual charm and facade are ONE thing #//But him actively doing something like THAT; esp for Jean of all people; is COMPLETELY off-limits; no matter his feelings #//Actually; especially BC he harbors feelings for her. Ppl like Lisa on the other hand; he is VERY comfortable doing this with/to #//She GETS the flirty habit & dishes it back without losing image of him in the way someone he regards at Jean's level possibly could #//And as far as Lisa knows; it's Only a playful habit; not a means to an end. The ones who prolly Know might be certain folks in the church #//But that's just bc he gets frequent checkups after every lil Rendezvous of his. Which is why he's got dirt on Every Single Person There #//Except Barbara; but he absolutely makes SURE she's not the one he's dealing with whenever he goes. Wants to spare her his messes #//Damn; veered a little but it's alright. 'A little'; HA. Nah; my tags are but the cluttered corkboard of my thoughts jhdbfjdf #//Diluc; Addie & Jean are the people he most Fears finding out abt his methods. Doesnt wanna THINK abt how they'd feel/regard him after tha #//Knows for SURE it'd be painful if the way they treat him changes even a SLIGHT. ESP Addie; he can bear the other two; but Addie??? #//Nah; he'd be fucken DEVASTATED. That's the ONE person he knows hold true unwavering unconditional love for him; no matter what #//To do anything to damage that? He'd be so fucken GUTTED. He expects everyone to get fed up with/disdain him at some point. But not HER #//Keeps this shit on the down low by always having dirt on the people he gets Involved with; if not using keeping it up as an incentive

[bunny-heels]

kinda tempted to try and make some sort of space for people who enjoy gore who aren't weirdos

#the bun talks #i really really love gore and blood and all that stuff. #but 90% of other gore fans are either in t.c.c. . or only like anime school girl gore. or theyre into other weird shit. #bestie i just like guts and organs i do not want to hear you talk all gushy about a shooter. #or see you posting the same type of anime gore images over and over again #please can i just look at a large intestine with someone without fearing theyre gonna try talking to me about real horrible people

[tmae3114]

Sometimes I think about the dynamic between the MQ Hero and the Mysterious Stranger because it’s just so fun. The way the hero knows that the Mysterious Stranger is Up To No Good but has no proof and ends up helping anyways because ultimately these are problems needing solved. The no-nonsense attitude the hero takes with the sheer I’ll help fix this mess but this conversation is Not Over energy every time they talk. The immense knife cat energy the Mysterious Stranger exudes in every conversation. There’s something almost playful to it, in a way

And I wonder

Zorbak tells us that the Shadowscythe weren’t directly affected by the Reset the way the rest of reality was, so we can deduce that the Mysterious Stranger wasn’t affected either

Do you think the Mysterious Stranger ever missed the pre-Reset dynamic? The errand running, the deliberate sneakiness, the banter?

#mechquest #dragonfable #do you think that the mysterious stranger appreciated the dramatic irony in selling doom weapons #to the person who indirectly helped with their very invention? #side note: I will NEVER be over that #also I was looking back at the Mysterious Stranger quests and #EXTREMELY funny that the hero's gut instinct to seeing weird Shadowscythe-y tech glowing red is ''OKAY TIME TO LEVEL THE BUILDING'' #I want that to be an impulse that they retained over the Reset #I want the hero to see the Shadowscythe manatech core Akanthus got his hands on #and go ''I NEED TO OBLITERATE EVERYTHING IN THAT THING'S VICINITY'' #Warlic's reaction to seeing a Shadowscythe mecha without fully remembering what he was looking at was obvious fear #fear enough that he started shaking without even knowing why #and that is EXTREMELY fun I like it a lot #but I now really want the hero's reaction when they encounter Shadowscythe tech like that #if they have any flicker of memory returning #to be ''KILL KILL BITE DESTROY REND TEAR KILL KILL KILL'' #(technically I don't think we have any proof that WASN'T their internal reaction in the Myalos stuff...)

[beecampbell]

my absolute worst red flag is that feeling of disgust that shakes through me whenever i find out someone is a christian and i think ill keep waving it

#like just... ew #and i knooooooow people are allowed to believe what they believe #but when Micarah Tewers said people within her faith told her god would be disappointed in her for being depressed #my heart fucking sank #i just dont understand how someone could be in that atmosphere of constant fear and guilt #over every damn thing they might do or want to do #and be like yes this is fine this is how im gonna live #girl get out!!!! #born to fish forced to post #idk how to explain it #it kind of feels like a betrayal #when i thought someone was cool and they pull something like 'thankfully god helped me through that challenging time in my life' #a gut punch fr #like awww fuck i thought u were actually cool but you're just a fake cool christian

[homosociallyyours]

(cw for gun violence & racism mentions in tag post)

#was reading about the kid who got shot for ringing a white man's door bell #and feeling so angry bc i can't help thinking that white cultural demands perfection from black victims #oh a kid got shot? how were his grades? what extracurriculars did he do? #i would be just as sad and angry about this shit if this boy was a high school dropout #i would feel like screaming even if he had been ringing door bells as a prank instead of trying to pick up his siblings #i want to live in a world where children don't get shot #where white people aren't ruled by the irrational fear of black and brown people that's been taught since this country was colonized #and as always I'm sitting here looking at the situation & knowing that my whiteness keeps me at a distance from being like the victim here #as much as it repulses me to think about it-- i know I'm closer to the shooter #so many years of watching this violence unfold again and again is like staring at your guts spilling out of you #viscera and mess and rot all spilling out. #and just when you start to think you've made progress cleaning it up it all explodes out again #ugh. #sorry for the imagery it's just. this kid shouldn't have been shot and neither should trayvon martin or mike brown #or the countless others who have been turned into cardboard cutouts with lists of achievements and names we're supposed to keep saying #over and fucking over #i don't want to say any more names. bc i don't want there to BE anymore. #sorry i just had to get that all out

[rineedagger]

#i.r dagger #spilled guts #tarot cards #symbolism #trauma #dishonesty #betrayal #fake love #fear and anxiety #of letting go #materialism #over humanism #new era

[b0d1ly-st3w]

made this bc me and my bf where talking about berserk and i decided that aaron stampler and guts would be besties

someone should draw them together

#aaron stampler #primal fear #guts #berserk #bonding over trauma #as they should

[mayclair]

the whole max and mike’s lives being foils of each other’s is so insane to me bc its like. for mike max is a representation of everything that could have happened to him if his mom left his dad earlier on (and what can still happen when you look at the way things are between them) and for max mike is a representation of everything that she could have had growing up if her mom hadn’t decided to leave her dad as fast as she did

#there is no way they don’t resent each other for it just a little bit. no fucking way sorry #mike knows max grew up with a shittier home life but still wishes his mom had the guts to do the same her mom did and left his dad bc #at the end of the day there is a little bit of bitterness towards both his parents for not making their relationship work out specifically #towards his dad bc his mom is actually involved in his life and did try to pretend that everything was normal when it wasnt which directly #ties into his desperate attempts to make his relationship with el seem normal to both of them when its not bc theyve both never been normal #they dont even know what normal really IS which also ties in to his very deep fear that the two of them will end up like his parents and so #meday he’ll become his dad and he doesn’t know which one is more terrifying so instead he blocks it all out in True Mike Wheeler FashionTM #and just keeps wishing that his mom left his dad because maybe if there was a distance between them when he was growing up maybe things wou #ldve been different maybe he wouldnt be this much like his dad #max on the other hand LOVES her dad they had one of those relationships where he wasn’t neglectful but wasn’t a great parent either but she #still loves him for trying and while her mom did try she gave up after a while while her dad didn’t. that was the real dealbreaker for max #and while after all this time she keeps saying im going to run away to cali and im going to live with my dad. but its not just the need to #see someone who cared for her the most during her early years its also the childish hope that her mom will notice that shes missing anf #come looking for her and that maybe when her parents finally meet again they can reconcile and get back together bc that is really all shes #ever wanted in her life since she was a kid and she feels bad for it bc she knows that her mom and dad’s relationship was never supposed to #last but she still wishes and wishes which is why that little bit of bitterness against mike will never fall away no matter how irrational #it is bc its like. his parents dont love each other but are still together for their kids. why couldnt my parents do the same? was i not en #ough reason for them? and this ties into her breaking up with lucas over and over again bc shes seen her parents and how they never fought #for each other and shes afraid that somewhere along the line her relationship with lucas will turn out the exact same and hell leave her so #its better to just leave now before it gets serious then later when it will hurt too much but lucas keeps coming back for her which makes #her realize that maybe it doesnt have to be like that maybe they wont be like her parents #anyway this is incoherent as fuck but shane mandej voice IVE CONNECTED THE DOTS #mike wheeler #max mayfield #stranger things

[pinkfey]

one of the neighbors called the police on my brother bc he’s been yelling at my parents outside for the past half hour

#they’re not gonna help king/queen but ty for trying !! #anyways.txt #delete later #okay wait i’m gonna voice some negative thoughts again bc #like i’ve said before #i cannot get over the fear #that he’ll kill us one day i mean #and we’ll be in headlines #all of the warning signs are right here #the anger the addiction the violence the yelling the double digit 911 calls #i can’t shake it off. it’s all i feel this is building to. #someone is going to die he’s going to kill someone #if not one then all #it’s horrifying. it’s so helpless. i feel it in my gut. #the neighbors can tell there’s violence in the house #my childhood friend lives next door and they text me asking if i’m okay every time they hear an argument #they say their mom will take my in if i need it #it’s such a scary thing to feel like it’s not enough and i’ll die in this house #idk. ruminating bc there’s nothing else to do right now. #i’m just. living in a warning sign. there’s nothing else. there’s a warning but there’s no help.

[labyrynth]

wwx stan/jgy anti salt shh

i just think it’s SO funny when ppl are like “umm wwx is NOTHING like jgy bc wwx is Moral and Good and Kind and Just whereas jgy is Evil and Greedy and Power Hungry and Selfish. wwx ONLY ever did what he thought was RIGHT and JUST!!! jgy MURDERED his father AND his sworn brother AND all of those innocent women!! wwx would NEVER!!!”

uhhh except that wwx would. bc he did.

like are we forgetting the whole mutilation and torture and “feeding a guy his own flesh” thing or are we just ignoring it?

like okay we’ll put that aside. are we forgetting the whole “intentionally and gleefully torturing hundreds to thousands of enemy cultivators to death” thing or are we ignoring that too?

okay fine. we’ll put that aside too.

what about the whole “intentionally and gleefully torturing potentially hundreds of non-combatant wens and others tangentially affiliated with them who may have been caught up in the war” thing? are we ignoring that too?

yeah that’s the funny thing about military bases is that actually, there tends to be a lot of non-combatants there too. you know, doctors, servants, prostitutes, etc. all i’m saying is that wwx wasn’t exactly discerning when he was on his happy fun torture joyride.

(it’s ok tho we all make bad decisions sometimes. unless you’re the son of a whore. in which case you’re just evil. uwu)

#salt is salt #basically boils down to ‘yeah my blorbo killed innocent people but so did yours. at least i’m not pretending my blorbo was in the right.’ #mdzs talk #jgy tag #cough #this post brought to you by war crime apologism on account of ‘YOUR blorbo is evil and MY blorbo is a moral paragon’ #posting without fear bc i have op blocked and they have me blocked right back #i’m soooo tired of ppl being like ‘wwx has never done anything wrong ever’ #like are you implying that war crimes and torture are good or are you just stupid #especially when it’s compared to jgy #like yeah jgy did some fucked up things #he’s also responsible for the greatest amount of cumulative good in the entire book #he killed TWO of the biggest threats in the book (wrh and jgs) and then invested in public infrastructure #like no offense to wwx but maybe his little commune might have been more successful if he tried to AVOID antagonizing powerful people #who already disliked him immensely and were itching for reasons to take him down #like maybe…get this…you might have been more successful if you had played the game #instead of flipping over the table and running away with the pieces #shhh #i love wwx but he thinks with his gut more often than is advisable

[neonpigeons]

in my "afraid of everything" era

#is it anxiety? probably #i've been extra paranoid lately over things that are legitimate threats but not like. a real pressing concern #like bears? grizzly bears? was in the woods on saturday and i was like ''if i see a bear im gonna shit'' but we didn't #i didn't want anything to happen to noodle #but my friend had a shotgun to scare them off so we were fine #i also heard coyotes the other night while walking and im also afraid of them going after noodle so i haven't walked in over a week #AND ALSO THERE'S A SERIAL KILLER that's in a town that isnt THAT far away from where i live #the funny thing is that my fears are making me fall asleep at a decent time cuz I don't like being out at night alone anymore #gah I've also always had a fear of predator animals attacking and eating me but it's been worrying me more lately idk why #when i was a kid my aunt lived in the deep woods of oregon #and a mountain lion killed some of their baby cows and i unfortunately saw the dead cows. when i was a kid #it fucked me up more than i wanted to admit and i was always so fucking scared of an animal gutting ME #like when i delivered pizzas at my last job and i had to go to the more remote areas closer to the foothills #the fear i always had in the back of my head 😵‍💫 #everyone always thought i was silly for it!! they were like ''cougars are afraid of cars they wouldn't bother you'' #okay but im holding a tasty fucking pizza in my hands? covered in meat? im a walking slab of meat? what if one is especially hungry?? #hgkfnkshfsk okay sorry im fine it's fine i am safely in my home it's okay. i need to stop freaking out over nothing #ari speaks #sorry for the long ass tags #if you've gotten this far i love you and i hope you have a wonderful day 😚💌🫂 #oh this also doesn't even dive into my fear of love and human interaction. but i should maybe save that for a therapist #...if i ever get another one

[bas-writes]

not me having a realisation - thanks to answering an ask - that my life philosophy has taken a whole 180 turn once I got hooked on one piece.

mostly because at some point I started selfshipping. and coping certain traits of my fictional others because I'm autistic and mirroring is how I cope with people.

life can be weird, huh.

#bas mumbles #actually I caught myself on it earlier a few times #the last time when I got a HUGE anxiety attack #like full gut-wrenching fear out of ass over basically nothing #and my brain at some point went 'okay we can worry about this fear later now we're hungry' #so I went to shop (mid anxiety attack!!) bought myself sandwich with meat #ate it #and realised anxiety went poof gone #idk what happened there's prolly some scientific explanation for this but I like to believe that the 'nika' part of my name kicked my ass #and solved the problem with the most primal solution ever alskjldjh