#happen in the state i life and is like

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[royalarchivist]

I love the QSMP. Not only has it introduced me to many amazing international creators, it's also introduced me to the French and Brazilian community, who are so sweet, funny, and chaotic in their own unique ways. I love seeing fans sharing their culture and learning from one another, and I myself have learned a lot this past year. I think it's incredible how QSMP brings so many different people together – all of us united in our love and passion for this project and its goals.

But passion can often evoke strong emotions, and these strong emotions aren't always positive.

The past few months, I have seen multiple waves of hate, bad-faith generalizations of communities, and racist remarks directed at fellow fans – especially those who are part of the French / Brazilian community. This kind of behavior is inexcusable, and is in direct conflict with the mission of QSMP, which is to break language barriers and unite communities.

We are a global community with a variety of people from different backgrounds. Miscommunications may occasionally occur because of cultural differences and/or language barriers, but we should use these moments as opportunities to learn and engage with other people rather than assuming the worst about them and starting fights.

Although certain issues can be resolved with communication, sometimes it’s better to block and move on. Avoid spreading negativity or hate, and save yourself the headache of interacting with people who are just looking for someone to argue with.

No matter what community we're a part of or what languages we speak, we're all here to have fun. Please remember to be kind to each other. We have more in common than we have in conflict.

#QSMP #mod talk #Additionally: we should avoid stereotyping entire communities for reasons I hope are obvious. #I think everything will work out in the end #I don't typically see this kind of stuff on here but I figured I'd post this anyways since I'm posting it to Twitter too #It's understandable that emotions are high because of everything that's happened to the QSMP community the past few months #but it's very sad to see fans attacking each other #everyone's a bit on edge it seems. I rarely use my personal Twitter but I opened it today and saw some close mutuals snapping at people #then after stepping away and calming down coming back to a conversation and apologizing #it's sad to see everyone in this state #So... comments from the peanut gallery I suppose. I do hope this helps someone though #I don't usually post things like this because frankly- #I don't think every single drama / controversy / whatever necessitates a public statement from every single member of the fandom #but I've been thinking a lot about this #Anyhoo. Hopefully I can start sharing clips again tomorrow. I've been moving the past week and life was hellish #hopefully things ease up a bit now

[stuckinapril]

I’m happy for the little life I built for myself

#there’s a lot of ways to go #i am nowhere NEAR the dream life I really want to attain #or the dream person I want to be #but high school me #hell even freshman in college me #would GAWK at the life I have so deliberately made happen. #the solid network of friends I have #the confidence I’m slowly but surely growing into #the discipline I’m harvesting bit by bit. i do not claim perfection but I am 100% improving #I’m just happy idk! i don’t compare myself at all now bc I know I’m on the right track #especially compared to where I was like 5 years ago. such a different mind state from now #and no one can take that away from me #there’s a lot more to go. a lot more. but I thought I’d pause and be intentionally grateful for what has been accomplished #bc it actually puts things into perspective to look at the past rather than just look to the present. it creates contentment #i get so caught up being hard on myself for not accomplishing certain things yet #that I forget I pulled myself out of such a deep rut by the skin of my teeth #and that’s important to keep in mind even as you progress to your goals #anyway <333 happy content in my own lane etc etc #p

[wekillitwithfire]

#this is a joke poll #but also i genuine question i asked myself in the shower today #i feel like i got an early start on the whole. horrid terrifying mental state thing #and then i was able to pull myself out of it pretty early too #(based on what other people said. i had gotten out of the worst of it by the time most people like. Start the Bad Years) #(broad generalization) #and then highschool was spent trying to move on from it. but like i didn’t Really move on i was just ignoring it #and pretending it never happened? #and now i’m like. man i didn’t plan this far #and i think i might feel this way for a long time #idk life is full of uncertainties and i think it’s ultimately useless to try and plan it all out #let’s get through this #alright deeply personal post OVER

[essektheylyss]

I do think it's worthless to try to argue with the "amount of screen time = relative significance" crowd, but I really cannot stress enough how great this episode was for me personally, as an Essek stan.

I was doing the math between the mention of the war in the prelude (instead of a more general, 'since the Mighty Nein largely parted ways') and Trent saying, "Don't you want to know what I have?" and sat in my chair for ten minutes before Trent actually said it like, "Surely this man is not about to threaten Essek. That is way too much wish fulfillment for me personally. There is no way that's what he's about to say." AND THEN.

Fundamentally my opinions of an episode are not predicated on whether my fave was physically in attendance, nor even whether he was relevant, but it does show how reductive the measurement of screen time is as a metric considering Trent didn't even have to mention Essek by name to drag his living soul in kicking and screaming to briefly haunt this narrative.

#meanwhile essek is somewhere living his best life aka taking arcane measurements trying to figure out what the fuck is happening #like he's probably a little anxious but he's doing wizard things so he's thriving #critical role #cr spoilers #essek thelyss #this is partially inspired by the weird grumbling about 'wdym you enjoyed the episode if you're an essek stan you're supposed to hate it' #but especially cuz literally I don't understand how you witness 'dragged in to hang like a sword of damocles over caleb's head' #and go 'okay well he wasn't on screen so clearly you all should be bitter that he wasn't there' #like you don't have to be physically present to be relevant guys. this is narrative 101. that's what haunting the narrative MEANS. #tbf this was a low level narrative haunting cuz it was explicitly stated but like. that's more about time limitations. anyway.

[danmeichael]

"shen qingqiu is a liar who is lying about his feelings so we can't ACTUALLY tell how he feels about anything"

so you admit that you can tell he is lying and by extension you can actually discern what his true feelings on the matter are and that he's just unwilling to admit to them.

#svsss #shen qingqiu #i read fantl of a manhwa once where the translator changed a character saying “I hate that guy” to something to the effect of like #“I really like that guy but i don't know what to do with my feelings” #which was you know. just stating the intended subtext laid out very clearly by the story #however the translator said they thought it would be “confusing” and they didn't know why the author wrote that when it was untrue. #and i don't..... get it #like part of the appeal of subtext is letting your readers feel the excitement of being in on a secret #knowing something that even the characters don't know and feeling pleased with yourself #and adding a layer of frustration because you know what's REALLY happening and this idiot DOESN'T and keeps making decisions #that are logical when you examine their worldview of the situation!!! #but OBVIOUSLY DISASTROUS when you know what's actually going on. #and that's on purpose!!! you're supposed to be frustrated and feel your smugness turning into dawning horror #because you are omniscient but have absolutely fuckall power to do anything with that knowledge #and you have to watch blorbo ruin their fucking life. #more people need to have faith in their ability to interpret subtext #and more people need to have faith in the author's ability to write it intentionally

[lunarharp]

thingies

#witch hat tag #orufrey #nother small post (it's not small..) meek post. mild post #sensei QRTed the last one with a sweet message and made my week <3 #drawn bc she randomly announced that originally qif & eas were going to be more openly hostile with each other #but she decided after feedback that qifrey would. Restrain himself now he has children in his life. #like pikachu with togepi in pikachu's vacation. She didn't say that part #just love that since i always say i see them as having this kind of autistic warfare expressed in ways other than actual fighting #since their youths. but i guess we don't know how much they had to interact as kids #i just know they're both opposite ends of Autistic Kids: one do-gooder kid who gets REALLY irked when others dont follow The Rules #and the non-verbal autistic kid who IS one push away from actually biting people #Sometimes autistic people shouldnt be friends. #anyway why did she randomly state this now of all times. Are they interacting in the next chapter. But why. #the next chapter scares me. a teaser piece of art she posted is like.....What is actually going to happen here. #What is going to happen . #anyway hope all fans of my silly drawings are doing well out there

[slythereen]

imagine the scenes if we somehow get greater coordination with max than with carlos in lap 1… it would be completely insane of rbr/max. it would also be such a diabolical unhinged move by rbr like i would laugh for 20 years

#it would be SO embarrassing for ferrari 😭😭 #listen I know max isn’t really about that and is way too competitive #but like. We know max will catch him anyway #if he happens to catch him after overtaking and blocking off Carlos’ inevitable dove bomb into turn 1???? #that would be nice just saying #and funny #don’t get me wrong 80% of my motivations in life are what would amuse me #rbr Charles #charles leclerc #lestappen #max verstappen #id just like to state for the record this is a joke I’m not THAT delulu #but it is worth noting that Carlos is such a bad teammate to Charles (not lando tho…) that max could literally be more helpful on ACCIDENT #mexico gp 2023 #*delphi #f1

[sol-draws-sometimes]

me starting wtnv: I'm gonna assume Cecil's censoring himself cause authoritarian government!

Continuing the show: Oh Cecil believes the shit???? Or at least believes more than I thought he did???

Me during the episodes where he is off the air(ep 88-90 or during Stex Corp): WAIT SO HE IS CENSORING HIMSELF!!!

I sometimes struggle to pick up when people are lying, especially in a show like wtnv, where it's very absurdist. Anyway, I think my sister's right about part of the reason Cecil is mad at Steve is cause he poses a threat to Janice(like he gets in trouble and so does Janice), and less that he's saying "wrong stuff." Wow, what do you mean it's nuanced?!?!?! Anyway, I can't figure out Cecil sometimes but I like that, it's fun to try to parse out what's going on if that makes sense???

#sol talks #wtnv #I feel like I'm the only one that cares about it but it's like one of the things that facinates me about this show #ALSO I LOVE HEARING CECIL WHEN HE'S DISTRESSED #Cause he's always so hehe haha about how fucked everything is so interesting to see him react correctly if that makes sense??? #But also if that's your life you can't be horrified every time something happens cause then you'd be stressed all the time #anyway it feels like I'm just stating the obvious but it's still interesting to me!

[mindstriker]

on a random ass fallout kick, who wants to hear my far fetched wheedling about how funny it could be to rework deacon from fallout 4's backstory to make it plausible that he's actually arcade gannon from fo:nv after either the NCR ending where Arcade's past is revealed and he's headhunted out of the province by the NCR, Brotherhood, and random bounty hunters simultaneously and/or the one where he leaves purposefully after a Mr. House win

#please this is my new favourite thing #like i love deacon as is but just consider the pure unadulterated SNAZZ of a universe in which he's arcade gannon after 6 years on the run #chased out of the state. lost the one friend he had that he could trust with his past. slowly becoming a pathological liar and never- #trusting anyone enough to tell them what his life has actually been like for fear of it happening again #still an idealist halfway across the country he finds a new organization dedicated to helping the underdogs and runs with it #has a mild disdain for the minutemen because they remind him of the NCR in a way #obviously doesn't like the BoS #there are so many things you could use #if you shimmied things around a bit it could be perfect #this is me yelling #fallout #fallout 4 #fallout: new vegas #arcade gannon #deacon fo4

[starlooove]

Ppl will say fanon v canon doesn’t matter and it’s all jokes and I’m sooooo close to going sure sometimes and then I remember y’all removed a major role of one of the if not THEE most prominent black character in Bruce’s story who was created a whole decade before tim and gave it to tim based off a run where he literally handed the role back! Like IN THE COMIC Tim was CEO in name only and handed it back to Lucius relieved when he didn’t need to front anymore like.

#also if I said y’all took a lot of what tam does and her character traits and handed them off to tim…. #like from that run #it’s crazy bc I always say that’s like the only comic tim stans read #but if that’s true the racism isn’t even covert anymore el oh el #tim Drake #it’s actually about him this time #I’m not gonna clog Lucius or tam tags any further tho #oh and on the tam note #her quick thing and sheer insanity was seen as naivety from tim even tho it saved his ass quite a few times #mainly that Vicki vale shit #which is hung up on LUCIUS’ wall #bc it’s HIS office #bc HE is the CEO. #I think it’s so funny how Bruce quest was like unreliable narrator knows their unreliable and thinks that knowledge means that everything t #they say is true bc they acknowledge that maybe they’re not thinking healthily #which is so fucking fun #but y’all go ‘yesss this is Tim!’ #like no! it’s not! and tim knows that! and he’s too high strung to be pissed or scared about it! #AND THAT IS WHAT SHOULDVE HAPPENED NEXT #IK cómics don’t like to acknowledge that kinda trauma and shit #but something going deep into Tim’s mental state at the time and how he was impacted in daily and personal life #(bc instead of black characters being written out and ignored I’m choosing to believe tam distanced herself bc he was such a Dick) #Like that would’ve been craaaazy #like even tims lack luster reaction at seeing Kon in Paris after he was DEAD #And then later having the emotional reaction like he really kept that shit on the backburner #but noooo he’s so badass and a killer 🥺 #anyways justice for the fox family #at least for Lucius like he and cyborg are in the same boat for me #where they’ve been around for so long and have been so important (cyborg on a waaaay wider scale) #that the fact that they don’t get their flowers in favor of making shit up for tim is SICK

[anarchy-and-piglins]

On that same note: I MISS TECHNOBLADE

#i always miss him but the last few weeks I've been hit with even more missing him #and yes I do know that a lot of bad stuff going on lately would still have happened whether he died or not #like the state of world politics or the rise of AI art or the alt right taking over or the LITERAL GENOCIDES #nor would he have much influence on other CC being terrible people #but maybe I just relate Techno being alive to things being calmer #and the fandom being thriving and active and SBI making content #and just all that stuff that made my life a little less bleak...

[asgardian--angels]

I honestly just think it's funny that so many people have been watching ofmd as a 'comfort show' lmao like I'm over here specifically watching for the angst. I crave pain and suffering. As soon as High On A Rocky Ledge played in the pilot I was hooked because I knew I was in for intense emotional turmoil. Red Flags is now my favorite episode of the entire series. I honestly didn't expect Izzy to survive as long as he did. His fucked up relationship with Blackbeard has fed me so well.

Of course I adore the love story, and the fact that Ed and Stede's love is an absolute, an immutable fact, of the show's premise allows me to enjoy the angst all the more. But I feel like some people need to be reminded: David Jenkins never promised you fluff. He never promised no deaths, no tragedy, no violence, no difficult topics. Personally I think including a fair deal of all of those makes the hope, the love, and the comedy shine all the brighter and have more meaning. You don't have to agree, but you can't assign expectations to a show that never made such promises. There was never false advertising. David set out to tell the story of two troubled, complicated adults navigating love and a long-term relationship in an often harsh and unfair world, finding community and making meaningful gains in self-actualization along the way. Ultimately it is a 'feel good' story but it's a rocky and winding road meant to mirror the messiness of our real world. Maybe you need to step back and re-evaluate where canon ends and your headcanons begin, and what the 'goals' of the show actually are that may differ from what you're looking for in media, and not blame Jenkins et al. for 'betraying you' when they're just telling their story the way they set out to.

#ofmd #ofmd s2 spoilers #our flag means death #actually this is a comfort show to me but our definitions of comfort differ i feel #like literally Seinfeld is the only show i watch when i want nothing bad to happen ever #this show causes me so much emotional distress but in a fun and good and cathartic way #it in no way bleeds over to my actual life or affects my mental state in any lasting way #and if you have built up a version of the show in your head that is so incongruent to how the plot ended up going #that you think you know the characters better than the creator (in season 2 of a show no less...we're not talking supernatural season 15) #or that your mental health spirals when a character dies because you 'trusted' djenks not to hurt any characters in the PIRATE SHOW #please seek professional help i mean it #i do honestly wonder if some of the people being the most drastic are teenagers because #i literally have not been this affected by a fictional character's death since i was like 15

[thundergrace]

February 18, 2023

The GoFundMe:

#msu shooting #michigan state university #direct aid #i hope they can get at least five million #i don't know what they think they will need #but this is an extremely expensive circumstance #along with regular expenses #and it is for the rest of his life #😔 #Republican governors who refuse to take action on gun reform #should start a fund for injured victims of mass shootings #like we will do absolutely nothing to prevent this from happening again #like next week probably #BUT if you survive escape it with an injury we will at least help you with that #(of course this would not include Michigan) #signal boost

[polysyndetonaddictsupportgroup]

based on your asks responses & characterization of yuuta this is what i’ve gathered — yuuta is like that one high school senior who looked at the new coming freshman’s & just adopted them on the spot. there’s no out. now his friends sees the kid & adopted them too. it’s a family now. a very young, close in age family. (i was yuuta in this situation 😔 i was use to be megumi in this situation but i carried the tradition out. as i should. high school & middle school was wild.)

YUUJI THOUGH. we will probably never see him in your sea glass garden au but your asks is killing me. like his one sided beef with yuuta? he’s just like me fr. i too would fight over megumi if it comes down to it.

i just know yuuji thought that yuuta & megumi was a thing at first cause of the whole “his boy thing”. i know he screamed into a pillow about it. i know he went to gojo to ask for permission to court megumi & gojo was flabbergasted at such a medieval act so he had yuuji do the dumbest shit to get his blessing (ha).

i just know nanami is sighing at the idea of his son yuuji being a jealous little brat because of his other son yuuta. i just know yuuta was so confused until he witnessed yuuji & megumi awkward ass flirting. i know he acts like a little shit to get on yuuji (& sukuna) nerves.

you know what. this is my jujutsu kaisen. this is my sorcery fight. gege who? i only know you. PLS TAKE THE PEN FROM GEGE.

Yuuta is absolutely that senior who adopted that new student and made a little family. That is His Kohai now okay megumi is their collectively raised flour sack baby and they will kill for him.

Yuuji came back to life finally met the second years had just leveled up with his cursed energy and gained a new dad got his old friends back he was so so ready to go live his best life and then his new self appointed brother opened his mouth and started rhapsodizing about some impossibly beautiful and perfect man named okkotsu yuuta and yuuji is absolutely whacked in the face a la rubber squeaky hammer that there’s some gorgeous son of a bitch out there already living his best life.

His death sentence was overturned. He’s so powerful that he can save everyone if he wants. He is the legally adopted child of Nanami Kento. The curse attached to him 1) actually liked him and 2) moved the fuck on which some people (Sukuna) could take a few notes on.

Fushiguro Megumi is his boy.

This could not have devastated him more thoroughly. Even his newly acquired self appointed brother thinks okkotsu yuuta is the perfect man, which he manages to express at length in between warnings from the second years that Yuuta’s going to fly back from Africa purely for the sake of kicking his fucking ass for touching His Boy, which yuuji simply cannot handle.

Yuuji lowkey had a new lease on life and thought “hey! Fushiguro tried to kill someone with an elephant for me! Maybe I have a shot and he’ll let me hold his hand!” and then there’s god’s perfect man off in Africa who’s enticing megumi away from movie marathons with his fucking FaceTime calls right when yuujis almost hyped himself up enough to try the yawning arm stretch thing.

He spends at least three weeks trying to figure out if Megumi’s His Boy because they’re in a long distance relationship and it only ends because maki starts finding it more annoying than funny and establishes that it is not in fact a romantic arrangement. She thinks. (Okay it’s still kind of funny.)

Yuuji resorted to a terrible wikihow on how to get someone to date you and it insisted “get their parents approval” was his in and gojo could NOT have been more of an asshole about it. Nanami had to intervene to get it to stop. He is very tired and very confused. Why are you so upset about okkotsu he’s a lovely young man why is this making you more upset

Of course if yuuji ever found out that megumi became Yuuta’s boy after Yuuta personally restarted his heart he’d instantly understand why everyone acts like Yuuta’s the best thing since sliced bread. He is that amazing.

Yuuta and Megumi are completely oblivious to all of this.

Gege pls call me I just want to help gege pls

#sea glass gardens #just remember YOU can forcibly displace gege and turn the creative property over to me #I will be making several. SEVERAL. changes. #yuuji absolutely goes back into his room and screams into his pillow over Yuuta #he was going to try to hold Megumi’s hand and Megumi left to go talk to Yuuta just because he was ‘calling all the way from Africa’ and ‘the #movie ended five minutes ago why were you just sitting there looking like you were really stressed are you okay itadori’ #nobara is exhausted just watching this #she’s the most homophobic lesbian alive why do lgbtq things happen to people who don’t deserve it #god she just wants a girlfriend with a sword and these fucking assholes are the ones who get their high school romance they don’t even #APPRECIATE the gay things happening to them #ignoring all canon since we’re never getting there in sea glass gardens #when Yuuta’s coming back from Africa Megumi’s very simply stating that Yuuta’s an important person in his life and he’s glad yuuji wjll #meet him soon which might as well be a DECLARATION OF UNDYING LOVE yuuji has a total crisis #yuuta gets off the plane and fucking hugs megumi yuuji had to get boyfriend privileges to do that who is this son of a bitch #gojo watching this: do you think I can get yuuji to wash my car again if I tell him I’ll distract Yuuta so he can take Megumi on a date #Nanami: why on earth would okkotsu need to be distracted for that to happen #gojo: that’s the beauty of it it is in no way necessary but yuuji doesn’t seem to know that

[ye-xiu]

will i ever feel genuine joy about life again more often than once every six months or is this just it. like is this just going to be that for now.

#and i get the ‘it’s about small joy’ i live by that too but sometimes you just want to feel good about your life in general u know #sincerely feel like i fucked up one thing and now it’s just. ramifications of that forever and ever. well we will see i guess #one of the things is that what happened made it really really hard for me to talk to people and be a good friend again #and like wanting to talk about myself bc well the last time i did that it came down so horrendously i don’t know how to work through it rn #i am working through it but i feel like it will take months and years longer to come back to a state of myself where i feel genuinely good #i will unpack 2022 / 23 for years to come anyway just had to put this somewhere #gonna delete it later peace and love on planet earth #al.txt #tbd.