#he died like. six times

[sans-theskele-oof]

ethogirls how are we feeling after limited life ep 6

#bad. #the answer is bad #and not in the bad boys way #this session was awful #he died like. six times #and we didn't even get to see it :( #no etho perspective sadge #etho #ethoslab #limited life

[devils-little-sista]

The main reason why Percy does not immediately remember everything about Nico in Son of Neptune is because the last time he saw Nico was in the last Olympian almost a year ago. Since then Nico had grown 6 inches taller and his voice had dropped 5 octaves lower (his voice was still cracking sometimes tho) and his face had matured a good bit and his hair was a lot longer. Percy mainly recognized his clothes and mannerisms and the way he talked his slight accent and just the way that he acted. Percy couldn’t remember everything because Nico was so different from the last time he saw him.

#Nico di Angelo #Percy Jackson #one time I went without seeing my younger cousin for about six months and this is what happened to me I was Percy #I didn’t even recognize the kid at first he looks like a totaly different person #Son of Neptune #SoN #Heroes of Olympus #HoO #Percy Jackson and the Olympians #PJO #could be Percico I guess #Percico #Nicercy #Pernico

[quarks-pussy]

So I know we here at Startrekfandom love that "came back wrong but from the pov of the wrong" thing and apply it to many different characters and canon situations and I am far from trying to complain about it (I'm "came out wrong" trope myself so I was always gonna obsess over it) but having recently watched a very important episode (you'll know which one) for the first time I think there's a character who hits both tropes mentioned but llike, intertwined, opposite and subverted, and whom I wanna talk about.

Julian Bashir.

From his parents' pov he's "came out wrong but we got him help and he came back better" while from his own pov it's "came out 'insufficient', was destroyed for it, came back wrong and only later slowly came to terms with his new self tho never the process (justifiably so)" and it's heartbreaking because in a way, he's right! Jules Bashir died! His parents had an intellectually disabled child and decided to eugenics him! Julian is not the person he used to be and while I do love the person he is now, that doesn't bring back who he was! Part of me wishes we could've gotten to see Jules at least once and part of me hopes we never do because my heart would shatter.

This isn't a good comparison but nonetheless one I can't help drawing: it's giving similar vibes to anti-vaxxers. "I'd rather risk having a child who is dead than one who's autistic". Obviously this doesn't map over since Julian is still autistic and the procedure his parents subjected him to specifically targeted his intellectual disability and if any folks with id wanna comment on this I definitely recommend you listen to them over me, but it's a similarity I, as an autistic who has encountered anti-vaxxers again and again, can't help but point out. "Give me a normal child or give them death."

This may have been written about already but there needs to be stories about teenage Julian (after finding out and rediscovering who he was) practicing some good ol' recognition of the self through media. I need to hear about how he would encounter a story about someone who came back wrong (I'm gonna assume there's plenty of "wrong" pov stories floating around by the 24th century) and absolutely weep. I need to see Julian mourning Jules, taking years and years to process his feelings, experiencing guilt about how he, the imposter, didn't deserve to live Jules' life.

Came back wrong from the returned's pov but it wasn't an accident. It was done to you deliberately by the people who claim to love you. And now you are here, piloting the corpse of your predecessor.

Jules Bashir is dead. Long live Julian Bashir.

#i've called julian jules before simply as a normal nickname but i don't think i ever will again. not after this #and knowing that if it had been possible i would have probably gone the way jules did. knowing that at his age i would have gone willingly. #fuck dude i am literally actually crying literal tears irl right now this is not a joke #fuck!!!!! #julian bashir #jules bashir #doctor bashir i presume #came back wrong #star trek deep space nine #HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD!! HE WAS SIX YEARS OLD AND THEY KILLED HIM!!!! #i cannot stop crying i am literally crying and like not even just a little #i cannot... poor julian how the FUCK do you ever come to terms with something like that #and like... julian remembers. he has most if not all of jules' memories and also knows he was murdered simply for not being julian #like how did he cope #(im about to go off on a tangent that will contain censored names for the sake of not clogging those tags if you dont know who i mean hmu) #like this is literally the thing that fucked up j*ran so bad he went on a murder spree isn't it #he remembers the one who came before who was killed. very different circumstances of course esp since tr*ll are expected to replace one ano #another but he remembers this person he remembers BEING this person who was young and simply enjoying life and who died a sudden death and #he remembers the experience of that death as well and how it lead to his own creation. it's not remotely similar ofc but considering that #the only time we see t*rias in alpha canon is in julian's body... i need to lie down for a moment. #and jor*n couldn't cope! he couldn't! it was far too much and the weird thing is right now in this moment i GET it y'know?? like that's #so horrific. and i haven't watched any jo*an episode besides facets yet but do you think. do you think j*dzia told julian about all this an #he nodded along and kept composure and then when he was alone he broke down crying? like julian you're doing SO well ily you're coping and #you shouldn't have to obviously but you do nonetheless!! do you think julian still has something from jules? like i've heard there's a tedd #but i mean jules prolly didn't keep a diary he was a six year old with an intellectual disability it's pretty unlikely he could write but #does julian have drawings made by jules? i'd like to think so but honestly his parents probably threw them out. like they also moved so #sorry i'm just. many thoughts head full. ive stopped crying now but who knows for how long. also i'll have to tag this with my original tag #maybe i should've picked something less silly for when i make serious posts but like what am i gonna change my url as well? don't think so #original posts fresh from quark's pussy #and thats the tag limit folks it's been fun. i had to delete two other tags but my god. anyway. thinking about jules bashir forever & cryin

[greetings-humans]

no but if every near death scene gets the seriousness that the ones we've seen so far have I will lose it omg

like even as it fades in time, as they get more used to them (and the fact that they will is insane) and they lose some of that weight,,,

that's still a lot of near deaths happening for T W E L V E YEAR OLDS

#like huh???? that's already like six of them if we count every close encounter even when it's the same monster #and age accurate casting means THEY LOOK YOUNG #WDYM #they are actually my brothers age WHAT #he's never even gone to the other side of our (admittedly stupidly huge) city on his own #and these three kids have nearly died 6 FUCKING TIMES??? #as a young adult this is genuinely so fucking wild when I was a kid I hadn't realized how insane ths was #pjo #percy jackson #annabeth chase #grover underwood #pjo show #pjo ep 5 #pjo tv show #pjotv #pjo tv series

[the-meme-monarch]

well that's the worst nightmare I've had in a while

#we were at the grocery store and a shooter came in. my sibling and i were separated at the time. #they died. and i was theone to find their body afterward. so. that fucking sucked. #woke up and strted to cry bc i thought it was real for a second #dream journal #edit bc i dont eant to reblog it to say this but ive had time to process it now #i was the only fucking person who cared that xe died. the dream cut to after the shooter was arrested and we were preparing for xer funeral #i think the dream implied that yhe shooter was an ex employee at the store and my dad and i were trying to like. talk to the owners about Y #Your Ex Employee Killed My Fucking Sibling #and the manager or boss or ehoever just. didnt care. didnt have any sympathy #my dad was there. but he didnt speak. i had to beg the managet to feel anything for the child who was shot and killed in his store. #to pay for xer funeral? i dont know. #we were there getting a blind bag toy xe had talked aout going to get irl since it was a short walk there really #i was looking for those pink chocolate chips. #to make cookies fro my friends #thats why i eoke up thinking it was real i think #most of my set-in-reality nightmares hinge on something that Cant happen anymore. this one was based on Recent Events and Planned Events #i had woken up just before six. when xe gets up for school. so i stared crying bc Oh My God Xe's Dead Xe's Never Going To Go To School Again #i dont think ive looked them in the face at all today.

[ghostpebble]

make characters like each other? no.

make one character hate the other with a burning intensity while the other thinks it's funny how hard they try?

yes. always yes.

#sorry hiro #you really are so cat #or kitten really #little kitten man #none of your villains think youre scary #literally all of them are like #“yeah sorry youre adorable not scary” #“time to try and make the child work for me” #looking at you obake #and momokase #and di amara #and krei #except krei is more like #corporate “id buy your house to tear it down” kind of evil rather than real evil #which isnt REALLY evil #but he's mean about it sometimes and steals people's work so #WHATEVER #hiro. kitten man. end of story #big hero 6 #big hero 6 the series #hiro hamada #bh6 #big hero six #bh6 obake #bh6 momakase #di amara #alistor krei

[kennyomegasweave]

Phupha 2 telling Kram 1 he'd pick the first person he had even if he fell for a second person just made me gasp. Cause I mean. Well. Phupha 1 had a fiancée, then met Kram 1, then said absolutely nothing about her to Kram 1, but once Kram 1 did find out about her & met her tried to pull out some "baby I was gonna tell you, I promise it's not what you think!" And then he just died? And now Kram 1 is falling for Tai 2 while also being like "no you love Phupha 1" like that entire man isn't dead???

Please someone just hug Tai 2. Like my god. His whole ass man died and then his man's other world double showed up and he tried to keep his distance but caught feelings, but Kram 1 still thought he could just switch Phupha 2 in for his dead Phupha 1 just for Kram 1 to realize he doesn't actually want Phupha 2??? And he does what Tai 2??? Please someone just hug Tai 2. I'm begging.

#two worlds #two worlds the series #Tai is GOING THROUGH IT #and honestly I don't even get the sense he is still grieving Kram 2 #that's not to say he didn't love him and doesn't miss him #but his Kram died 3 years ago #he has had time to process it #that's why he tried say hard to keep his distance from Kram 1 #whereas Kram had six months to accept Phupha 1 is dead and Phupha 2 isn't his #yet he clearly hadn't started that process and probably wouldn't have if Tai hadn't kissed him #so again #someone hug Tai please #preferably Kram once he accepts he does want this Tai and Tai isn't trying to replace Kram 2 with him #having said all that #how the fuck is this gonna end though??? #like I would say maybe Kram will stay in Tai's world especially because his mom is there #but his world has his dad and is he just gonna be like nah fuck him it's fine #I'm still just so invested in this show #MaxNat really are doing it again! #regular clyde

[spencer-is-dead]

I feel like we don’t talk about the fact that Loid literally repressed most of his childhood to the point where he can’t even remember his mother’s face enough.

#spy x family #sxf #loid forger #just a thought #And I don’t think he even realizes just how fucked up it is #Like he was six or seven when his mother died #And he only has a couple good memories of her #He probably doesn’t remember having the flashback in ch 62 #I don’t have much time to analyze this but this guy clearly has trauma

[theboost]

I know it’s stupid to get embarrassed about caring about a fictional guy on the caring about a fictional guy website but I am literally having such a deadshot moment rn

#thinking as I often do about what to do to make Zoe interesting. and I think I’ve cracked the code. there have been a lot of moments where #it’s been teased that if. Christ I can’t call him Floyd I don’t think of him that way. if Deadshot dies she will take over as the next #deadshot. and they did something very similar to what I’m pitching here in the 2016 suicide squad but I think there should be a moment where #she thinks Deadshot is dead and shoots someone point blank and kills them #okay I lost the plot but I’m back #but anyway she kills someone which is naturally a traumatic experience for her but also incredibly traumatic for him as the first time he #killed someone it was to stop someone from killing his father. so they’re having mutual breakdowns. there’s a couple of fun ways it could go #from here. maybe she’s just like him and shuts down emotionally. maybe he’s like oh fuck she’s just like me I need to get away from her #before I ruin her. and then he can. idk voluntarily join the suicide squad again. or the secret six!

[capricioussun]

If you're ever wondering if I'm normal about these characters irl one time I killed off stretch in an idea I never even wrote down and cried about it for like ten minutes 👍

#I should emphasize: he died of old age so it wasn't even like. a tragic ending #thought I should share #idk why #ig I just get anxious when I feel like I've gone too long w/o posting #meanwhile I'll kill Edge six ways from Sunday and just be like. shame. anyway- #I don't think I've ever killed Rus...? not that I can remember #only ever killed red a few times and it was as a plot device so #sunny with clouds

[ghostlybumblebees]

turns out the solution to art block is to use a paper textured background and draw a silly puppet man

#welcome home puppet show #wally darling #hes so shaped #this is immediately what i thought of when clown said he likes to be picked up #procreate crashed liked six times drawing this and my pen died

[kaoharu]

hmhmm

#✧ chatting ! #thinking abt my forensics teacher. hes funny i think but also. half the time we arent talking abt forensics #like today we were playing this game where he wld read a statement and our little grouos of 4/5 wld discuss whether we dis/agree or unsure #and the first question was. shld not saying the pledge of allegiance be punishable #two groups out of the six or seven said yes. it was. interesting to say the least #but also those two groups were filled w the painfilly white white boys so. does that say anything #does that even make sense. ibcant explain it but its just True

[that-was-anticlimactic]

so anyways “you shine” from the musical carrie is a zukka song

#okay so it's a song that fits Literally all of my ships but like. it will always be a zukka song first and foremost #i have two zukka oneshots titled after lyrics in that song and a third in progress for zukka week lol #sokka would be tommy in the song because he says ily and then ya know dies at prom and sokka dies before zuko does-- #anyways no sokka would be tommy because like. this is what he sings to sue: 'if you could see the way that you look to me / i bet that you'd #be amazed at the sight / you'd see a heart that's fearless and true / from my point of view / oh you shine' which like #zuko needs to hear ya know and then he would sing to sokka 'i think you hide / so much you feel inside / but i know deep down there's a fire #burning bright / from where you stand it might not be clear / but you shine from here' which like. sokka Really needs to hear and just #y eah #i have feelings #i listened to this song like six times today lol #zukka

[wibble-wobbegong]

listen i don’t get to drink very often. my tolerance isn’t super high. im by no means over the top drunk but i was not expecting twisted teas to really do anything and i was very wrong

#YKNOW WHAT THOUGH #the researching skills i got from doing st st if helped me finish the short campaign my cousin has set up that involved dnd mtg and cod lore #i am very unfamiliar for cod lore but i was able to figure out who the demon gate was which ended up saving everyone BUT ME #these guys fucking hate me bro #it was fun though #it only lasted like six or seven hours tho 💔 #i saved everybody from the giant ape with a battle axe by seducing it and my other cousin gaslit it into thinking we were in love one time #HE LOOKED AT ME AND CRIED AS HE DIED #I WAS ON THE VERGE OF TEARS IM SOS ERIOUS #WE WRRE BABYGIRL4BABYGIRL #AND THEN I HAD TO WATCH HIM DIE /AGAIN/ #DO YOU KNOW HOW FUCKED UP THAT IS?????? #HE TURNED TO DUST IN FRONT OF MY EYES #hope the forsaken gods kts fr #i know ulamog personally and he fucking SUCKS dude #same with kolizek #ive never fuckd with emrakul but she seems like a bitch #i wish i knew if the duffers were mtg nerds because i could theorize that with the st lore but NO #why couldn’t they be my brand of nerd. i hate it here

[dmclemblems]

Dimitri + Edelgard

Azure Moon -> Azure Gleam/Scarlet Blaze Parallels

#Three Houses #Three Hopes #Three Hopes Spoilers #Dimitri #Edelgard #even without it being an AU who knows if two/three years could've made a difference #against five/six years #while I'd say probably not it's at least clear Edelgard wasn't as gung ho in Hopes to go it alone #bc even in Houses I don't think she'd really want anyone's help in Zaharas #in Houses she was MUCH more fervent toward the idea that Dimitri was her enemy #her treatment toward him in Houses was awful by comparison to Hopes #it wasn't great in Hopes either but she at least had enough clarity in her mind and was free of TWS in Zaharas #it's ironic how she says the world outside won't be any kinder to her than the one in Zaharas #bc if nothing else the world to her outside wasn't unkind or kind by the end of AG #even though Dimitri walks away from her at the very end he could've taken that chance to just kill her #she was confused and powerless and instead of just ending it despite her having started the war he just walks away #tbh you could argue that AG was actually a GOOD ending for her bc in Hopes verse for all we know #like I said in a theory before a couple times the Edelgard we knew might have been a fabricated creation by Thales #because not only did she lose her memories of Dimitri but when Thales died and his magic wore off of her #she got them back but also either regressed to her childhood self or she at least got all her childhood memories back #so in a sense in AG's ending she gets to start over and be who she was going to be without having met Thales #you could say it's bitter that she lost a good chunk of years off her life if that was really a fabricated personality #but that it's bittersweet bc at least she didn't die and had the chance to resume her life from the point of losing her memories #it'd still be bittersweet too tho if she got her memories back and her personality wasn't fabricated #because she'd get her memories back only to realize she had waged war against her brother and only living sibling #it could end up with her feeling guilt for the things she did in that time bc she did them without the knowledge that she hurt family #and if you played SB then she also murdered two of his best friends and his adoptive father and now has to live with that guilt #tbh AG is the closest thing to a golden ending between both games bc everyone survives AND there's the possibility that #Edelgard was able to start over with her actual memories this time with as many people possibly surviving #in a timeline where she got her memories back AND took his hand was one where everyone could survive and move on from TWS

[iirulancorrino]

Intergenerational friendships feel like that sowing/reaping meme. On the one hand they are such a blessing, on the other hand they die on you.

#this is like the second time in six months #(a member of our church has been in hospice for the past few weeks and I just saw he died yesterday) #he was at least in his 80s so I can't claim to be shocked but it's still sad news