#he’s never finishing that essay

[goddidntdothis]

distractions

#he’s never finishing that essay #rip #pathologic #daniil dankovsky #peter stamatin #andrey stamatin #pathologic fanart #threefold bullet

[kvetchinglyneurotic]

Thinking about love in season 2 of The Bear and how Carmy seems to conceptualize "love" and "fun" as opposites — because for him, they historically have been. It's something I really noticed in Fishes (2x06): how vocally and genuinely everyone in his family — including in-laws and functionally adoptive members like Richie and the Fak siblings — loves each other, but also how deeply entwined that love is with stress and chaos and criticism.

Natalie is nicknamed, by people who love her, after a mistake she made years ago and which is still held over her head when she tries to help in the kitchen. Donna loves her children and is loved by them in turn, but she's constantly on the edge of a meltdown, unable to offer or accept support. She spends hours cooking them a beautiful dinner, and then she drives a car through the wall. Michael reminds Carmy he loves him and tries to give him advice, and then he gets in a massive fight with Uncle Lee at the dinner table and starts throwing forks. Cooking is clearly so important to his family, but doing this activity they love, and especially doing it around the people they love, so rarely results in a feeling of "amusement or enjoyment."

And so it's no surprise, really, that the career Carmy loves is one that gives him panic attacks and made him throw up before work every day, or that he (and Natalie and Sydney) not only decide on such a radical transformation of the restaurant but give themselves a ridiculously sort timeline to complete it. He's stressed and miserable a lot of the time, but is it really something he loves if he doesn't feel that way?

#the bear #the bear s2 spoilers #carmy berzatto #slightly unformed bc i just finished watching and my brain spat this out #side note: i think this association between love and chaos is why the family but especially carmy has such a problem with pete #he's too normal and sweet #everyone claims not to understand the 7 fishes but he's the only one who threatens the tradition by bringing an 8th fish #he's also the only one who never calls natalie sugar #i'm not actually that invested in pete as a character idk how he ended up as the subject of my tag essay #kvetch oc

[itsalwaysforyou]

jay not asking coach about letting lonnie onto the team bc he doesn’t want to do anything coach might disagree with…….

#‘coach trusts me…’ like what if i cried #man i wish they made more of a thing of jay being TEAM CAPTAIN #<- i’ve made a post before abt how easily he gives it up & jay not liking positions of power etc etc #but i do think he treats the role like it could be taken away at any moment #coach TRUSTS him. holy shit coach trusts him #the first positive adult figure in his life trusts him to take care of the team #train them and critique them and lead them to victory #and coach probably wouldn’t have cared abt lonnie being on the team #but jay is sooooo hesitant to ask #coming from the ‘if you want it take it and if you can’t take it break it’ guy #like this is the one thing he doesn’t want to risk breaking……. #and then obviously he gives it up!!!!! #he gives up the thing coach TRUSTED HIM WITH bc it was the only way to let lonnie on the team #& mr ‘my only dislike is women being unhappy’ was like I CANNOT REST UNTIL LONNIE IS ON THE TEAM #it’s suchhhhh a sweet gesture not only from a hashtag feminism standpoint #but also character wise for jay #like this precious thing that coach has trusted him with but didn’t really want that much anyway….. #it’s going to mean more to lonnie if she had it. even though it means everything to jay #oh it makes me crazy #damn my mum was right. i think too deeply about things #im like i analyse things a normal amount and then i’m writing essays about 1 line from descendants 2 #I AM UNWELL #anyway. jesus christ #descendants #jay son of jafar #EDIT i’m not finished actually #do you think jay fears the repercussions? what would happen if he went against coach’s word? #bc sure. he knows coach is nice. he knows auradon isn’t like the isle #but. ‘you don’t want to be at my house at dinner time’……. #he is still scared of his dad. you know. he can never get the lamp he can never do anything right

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Why is the red underline missing underline missing under LWJ's and XL's names in the mario kart comic? /gen q /love your stuff /have a nice day

Truthful Answer: I forgot to ink it and didn't want to rescan the comic.

Funny Answer: They never finished the course.

(post for context)

#ask #I was also running late to something which added pressure to not fix it. #Usually I try to make these comics with enough time to catch errors like that but....yeah sometimes there are whoops. #I *did* have it in pencils but sometimes the pencils fools my eye into thinking I don't need to ink that part. and then it's erased. #Did you guys know that mario kart kicks you out of the course if you take too long after at least one person finishes? #thats How Bad I am a the game. I lose to the timer #I main yoshi btw I love how he warbles and honks. #I meant to have Jiang Cheng be dressed as yoshi but drawing those carts was already putting me at my limit. #I think Lan Wangji would love racing games. Where he also follows the speed limit. #His genre is simulation games but he doesn't play enough games to realize this. #WWX has been trying to get him to play stardew valley with him for years. And LWJ keeps putting it off. #Xie lian is the kind of guy who loves video game theories and lore but never plays the games. Video essay in the gackground kind of guy. #Make Hua Cheng play the games while he watches kind of guy.

[callmetippytumbles]

Just write a response they said. It wouldn’t take long to write.

How it’s going:

LOL I honestly believed I was gonna keep that short.

🥴

#so since i cannot annotate your post directly like comments on google docs or word i picked a section and commented #this is just about the black hair section #i am about halfway through the actual essay itself - writing commentary as i read #it started simple enough by asserting kiara’s hair choices are part of how she assimilates into cordonian upper class society #then…it grew #also i never played the ‘drake pranks kiara’ scene in a way that he messes with her hair product…EVER* #*that i remember and i feel like i would remember something like that #3400 words later and i am only *now* getting to talking about actual hair products and how your location can affect access to them #see what you do to me lizzybeth?!? #and i have javascript homework to finish 😳🥴🥲

[eerna]

the fact that the anime changed Yato blowing a raspberry into Bisha's face to a regular kiss speaks louder than any anime VS manga analysis I could come up with

#like it's fuckin HILARIOUS she's having a mental breakdown and he snaps her out of it by BLO W I NG A RASP BE R R Y #it makes everything funnier idk why they changed it into a shoujo sparkles moment they are so ddumbbbb #noragami liveblog #yes this is a reference to that longass comparison essay form 2020 i never finished <3

[trainingdummyrabbit]

getting people to analyze a difficult dynamic between two difficult characters without insulting surface level aspects of them challenge. Fight

#knyposting again liking both zen and kai has to be a very special version of hell just for me #'zen did a good job in that encounter!!' Yeah!!! 'he did us a favor that other guy is the worst character in the series' Try Again!!!!!!! #'kai is horrible but his motivations are interesting' Yeah!!!!! 'anyone would do that if put next to zen anyway.' I Will Kill You!!!!!!!!!! #<- got jumpscared w a video essay and now im fucking Haunted again. #piktalk #kny spoilers #i GUESS. #unfortunately iam cursed with strong opinions on a hastily written antagonist that shows up to be a bitch and Die. #iam cursed for my hubris and my work is never finished. (<- writing essays about kaigakudemonslayer)

[colorful-horses]

finished season 2 of miraculous ladybug!

I dont mean to sound nitpicky about a children's show meant for children. Buuut it feels a little weird to me that the neglect/abuse Adrien experiences from his father is never played for laughs, but Chloes extremely horrible mom being awful to her is literally the whole punchline of their relationship?

Like I realize part of it is "Well Chloe is mean too, so they can bond over how awful they are Together", but that just makes me feel kinda icky because it means Chloe can never improve as a person UNLESS she's fine with her mother not loving her lol

#not to overanalyze a show meant for 10 year olds #im more just pointing out the difference in how their abusive parents are portrayed and how......strange it is #adriens dad is constantly being shown to be horrible. and they never ever make a joke out of it #but i guess since Chloe is the designated 'Mean Girl' its funny to watch her mom constantly forgetting her name #constantly yelling at her and treating her like shes garbage #chloe gets really good small moments of humanity here and there #but then they had that scene where she finally gets her mother to show interest in her and #its literally just because chloe is like 'i can be an bitch too mom!!!'. which just makes me very sad #chloe redemption arc please. i wanna see her yell at her horrible mom lol #miraculous ladybug #i finished season 2 today. there was so many good hawkmoth moments this season #but i do find it very funny that he akumatized like ..... 5 different six year olds this season #i am making such an extended list of notes about this show as I watch it #im gonna make the next 7 hr long video essay. but itll be about miraculous ladybug lol #my favorite character is still chat noir btw #thanks for reading this far #i will now kiss you on the lips. mwah #tell me who YOUR favorite miraculous ladybug character is and why. i am not super into the fandom side. ive just been watching the show #i wanna know what characters are popular and which ones are hated hehehe #not pony

[silverislander]

prof said congrats for writing up a proposal so early i am going to get a good grade in. well this is literally going to be graded. but yk the meme

#i really hope its decent proposals are really hard for me to write. i never really understand how much im supposed to say #also i dont plan stuff in advance! i hate drafts and proposals why cant i just jump in and run w my topic #i dont Know exactly what im going to cover just yet can i get back to you once ive covered it #levi.txt #i spent One page just opening the two page proposal so. i know it needs some cleaning up #but the last time i wrote one of these i only got a 75 (not a bad grade but i could do significantly better) bc. and i am not kidding. #i wrote a several page intro abt the themes of a story i was super pumped to write. and forgot the /plot characters and title/ #a 75 was honestly generous. that prof already liked me and knew my work so i got very lucky #also i just think the guy im working with for my essay is so cool and i want to impress him bfhshsk #ive taken 2 classes with him before he is so smart and so enthusiastic. i was 1 of only 3 who was there for every class both times #everyone whos helped me has been so cool and very nice to me i want to do a good job and prove that im as capable as they think #and also jesus fucking christ ive worked so hard for this degree PLEASE #if i dont get honours im walking into the forest laying down and letting the fae take me as they will #side note: i have 1.5 movies left (its late and im finishing army of the dead tomorrow + watching evil dead rise)!! thats so exciting #theyve (mostly) been really fun and i feel like i have a really good general idea of where im going w my essay now #the movie eras are starting to kind of organize themselves into coherent themes in my mind #i think its smth along the lines of racism/xenophobia -> social change -> satanic panic -> action and militarism -> prejudice/bias #and i actually think were in smth of a thematic reckoning w zombies rn as a culture that im excited to discuss!! #for so long weve accepted that zombies arent people but weve really been starting to interrogate that since abt the mid 2010s #w tropes like searching for a cure (not just a vaccine) or movies like warm bodies or evil dead where you can truly turn back #and im really excited to see where the future takes the zombie genre!!

[commanderfloppy]

Gw2 Huevember Week 4

I've been thinking a lot about Laurence and his past recently, and this cool color-scheme really went with the feeling.

Though he later found ways to escape it, there was an incredibly tight grip on his life. His purpose was to be perfect, be beautiful, be a shining jewel for the Bellamy family, not as an heir but as a trinket.

#gw2 #gw2 huevember #my art #Laurence Bellamy #So I kinda decided to make my 'break' week last week bc I was superbusy helping family with stuff #and then I realized today that the reason why week 5 was a 'break' was because it was half as long #and uhh #LOok this still counts for huvember I finished it at 1 am which..is 1 hour away from it being november #tw scopophobia #I thinkthat is the right tag #ANYWAYS Uhh Laurence has been on my mind A LOT recently #been really thinking about the details of how fucked his father was and what was going on with him #I realized that after his father lost his heir and wife #he would take a sudden turn from being horribly abusive to being 'nice' to laurence because he was all he had left #and if he lost anything else his future would be ruined #Of course even at the age of 10-11 Laurence knew that something was wrong with this sudden shift #and was deeply upset by the fact that his father now just pretended like he never did anything horrible to him #I should at some point make a longer post about all this and not just put an essay decribing abuse in the tags lol #new coping mechanism dropped: #make a blorbo with a somewhat similar past to you but make it so their abuser eventually goes to jail

[hella1975]

why is there a twenty marker analysing empirical evidence of game theory on this saturday exam

#t-minus three hours this is the one im MOST unprepared for so somehow it's gonna go worse than all the others #and idk if my mental state can handle that bc ive been working stupidly hard since DECEMBER every single fucking day #just to this week fail three exams consecutively going on a fourth today #like a twenty marker on pure essay-style waffle would usually be a DREAM for me #bc it's literally my coursemates' worst nightmare bc they're all maths-brained and cant form a sentence to save their life #so this is literally the first time in two years that english is gonna help me out with my degree #but we've NEVER done an essay-style question in game theory before or ANY of my modules for that matter #and he hasn't given us any practise questions so we literally have no idea what to expect #like i have no fucking clue what im doing #im so mad at everything rn like im just so ANGRY and i know after today im gonna be forced to acknowledge #that that anger cant go anywhere so it's just gonna turn into one very burnt-out exhausted self-loathing breakdown #im guessing that's gonna hit tonight at some point <3 weekend plans! #BUT STILL AFTER TODAY IM FINISHED #EXAM SEASON YOU HAVE BEEN HELLISH TRULY MY WORST ONE YET #hella goes to uni

[colorousme]

*feels unsatisfied by The Witcher season 3 and the way it was told and edited and how everything in the end feels the farthest from earned anything could ever be* Hmm I better watch 15 different hour-long video essays about it so I can understand what it is Exactly that makes me so angry and unsatisfied about this show!

#i am feeling Very Normal about this #that said I'm currently watcjing 'Netflix's Witcher doesn't understand Destjny' by Alien Platypus #and he is really going in on the underlying themes of the books and the show and how the framing they used in the show kinda fucks it #it changes the story about how destiny is Not what drives people it's that people's choices and bonds drive them together #and That can lead to destiny but never the other way around because that's not earned #as in it doesn't earn the bonds the characters say they have #the show doesn't Show us that it only tells it by saying it but not by letting us actually feel it by showing it aaaah #f Uck #I really really want to read the books now tbh #anyway might link to this video essay in a reblog once I've finished watching it #the witcher #the witcher s3 #this video essay was made before season 3 was even out but it's tackling the series as a whole and showing the underlying problems #that were already present in season 1 and 2 #very insightful #colorousme says things #i forgor what my original tag was #ALSO THE PACING IN SEASON 3 FUCKING SUCKED AND THAT'S WHAT HAD ME GO hmm why does this suck....

[godsfavoritescientist]

*collapses on the floor and starts having visions (new fic ideas)*

#godsrambles #godsficideas #tags essay #the idea is: in his early portal travel days. ford thinks he has discovered a way to quickly and easily confront and kill bill #it sounds almost too good to be true. but he has to try. #the random alien stranger/s who sold him this 'opportunity' for a high price are like 'ok. setting up the death ray now. brb' #'meanwhile a portal to bills dimension will start opening up. its safe youll be fine.' #so ford is sitting in this tiny storage room place with an alleged portal to the nightmare realm slowly opening up before his eyes. #and bill is on the other side of the so-called 'portal.' he can look right back at ford. fords like 'hmm i hate this actually im going' #turns out the door is locked. fords first thought is 'uh oh they sold me out to bill it was all a trick'. but bill is unable to reach him. #it isnt even a portal. its just a glorified interdimensional video call. they locked the door to give them enough time to run off #before ford realized the scam. so bill laughs at him for a min. and then they have a conversation. ford finally asks 'Why??' #'why would you ruin my life??'. and bill kinda. obliges him just this once. drops his cheerful annoying act just this once. #and answers him plainly and honestly 'I didnt. i didnt try to ruin your life. it never even crossed my mind how your life could be affected #'it was all a means to an end. i wasnt ever out to get you. you never factored in at all beyond your use for making the portal.' #'i never even thought about you when we werent interacting. not even once. you think i had some big evil scheme that youre at the center of #'youre insignificant to me. all that happened was: you fell for a scam.' #'will the guys who locked you in here ever think about you again? theyve probably forgotten your face and name already.' #'im not out to get you. i just want my job finished. the same way those guys just wanted their money.' #the bottom line of the convo being: bill really *doesnt* give a single fuck. and ford never mattered to him. #not even enough for him to *think* about ford every now and then. #fords holding a grudge against a guy who barely even remembers him. #obviously this goes against my interpretation of canon but it would still be fun to write #au where bill Truly doesnt care about ford in any way and isnt even interested by him at all #the inspiration for this was just the concept of: how crushing the realization would be for ford #the horror of realizing exactly how insignificant you are in the eyes of the eldritch being that ruined your life #i am willing to write something that feels ooc for bill when it is for angst purposes lmao #indifferent-eldritch-being bill is such an angsty concept. very fun to explore #an ao3 fic called 'the bolt that busted off the lever' (iirc) has this interpretation of bill and it is great #bill looking *bored* while interacting with ford??? absolutely heartbreaking concept 10/10

[thesunsethour]

if i have to be in the same room with my father for one more minute i’m going to lose it

#me five days ago: i love my parents it’s so lovely to be an adult now and talk to them as people #me when my father pokes his head in my room again: internally screaming louder than i ever have before #i have an essay due and i finally remember why i never do college work at home #he will open my door (no knocking) and ask the stupidest questions like ‘are you planning on packing your bag later on’ like YES. OBVIOUSLY. #BUT ONLY AFTER I FINISH MY ESSAY WHICH I CANNOT DO UNTIL I HAVE SOME PEACE AND QUIET #oh god i miss my flat. t-minus 10 hours until i’m back there instead of at home #my mother never annoys me like this because she is SENSIBLE #also we got into another row yesterday over the MOTD drama. he can never take anything seriously

[goblinroleplay]

hes so babygirl i need to woobify him NEEOOOOOW!!!!!!!!!

#treasuresposting #he was maaaaaaade for me to draw him #this is the alwin situation again #designed just for me<333 #yes he engaged children in combat what about it<333 #so funny that you never fight a person in treasures #like let me stab gustav out of love #like the end of hannibal #gonna draw him 2morrow #i have a sylv piece im halfway thru ill finish that too i promy #dq hyperfixation GO #me playing dragon quest on my dragon quest ds next to my dragon quest 11 sylvando corkboard while watching a video essay about dragon quest #im autistic about skyrim and dq in such different ways #i can identify every single npc in the game #i do mean every npc #but i have no strong attachments to any of them #except cicero neloth nd muiri #but dq? #i know fuck all about the lore or whatever but i rotate all of the characters in my brain CONSTANTLY #i once infodumped to a room of people sylvandos entire backstory and arc #with diagrams there was a whiteboard involved #im autistic about skyrim in theory (i dont even play the game that much) #but autistic about dragon quest in practice (if i go a day without some form of dragon quest in my life i will genuinely feel ill)

[yarrowleef-babbles]

someone explain to me why i am so defensive over adam parrish, like I have a personal very very long list of complaints about him as a person and character and yet anytime i hear someone else breathe in the direction of calling him awful or annoying, some knee jerk response in my bones starts internally screeching “SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP YOU DON’T GET IT NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO HAVE AN OPINION ABOUT HIM OTHER THEN ME”

#trc #yarrow reads trc #THIS IS A JOKE I DONT CARE IF YOU DISLIKE THIS FICTIONAL MADE UP PERSON #i am making fun of myself #i mean ronan is probably my favorite character as he is objectively the coolest #but when i think of blorbo for some reason adam comes up first #idk!!! #i have not engaged with fandom as a whole much but. i get the feeling this is probably a divisive character #like i fully understand why someone wouldnt like him even i dont understand why i am like this #LIKE I WILL WRITE AN ESSAY SOME DAY ABOUT HOW FRUSTRATED I AM AT HIM AND HIS WRITING #IN THAT HE NEVER ACTUALLY MADE UP WITH GANSEY AFTER THAT BLOW UP IN BOOK TWO AMOUNG OTHER THINGS #AND YET I CANNOT READ A WORD AGAINST HIM WRITTEN BY ANYONE ELSE #at least not right *now* because I just finished it two days ago and my brain is fragile #im still in a hype state where i dont want other people bumming me out #give me a couple months and i will be able to engage with other people criticism in a more normal way #its always like this