#holding on to her actual history

[rearranging-deck-chairs]

only good thing abt the vous situation is that it lets me experience tecteun calling 13 the child that im 100% convinced she actually would bc shes the only one who uses tu for her

#what language do you think theyre actually speaking #bc like on top of all the other um disconcerting stuff abt the whole situation on that spaceship for 13 #iamgine walking into that tree room and refinding that woman there and then she starts talking to you in like. this ancient gallifreyan #like old high gallifreyan hours #a language you only kinda learnt at school a couple millennia ago #im a big believer of the doctor and the master speaking gallifreyan when theyre alone i have fun with that in fic #(i dont think they speak entirely the same native language i think gallifryan is a diglossia but not the point) #but neither of them Speak old high like thats a dead language #i think 13 would drop into gallifreyan after opening in english #'hello im the doctor' in you know good old sheffield english #and then tecteun responds with 'i know' but in like....fucking latin #latin is probably not the best analogy but i dont know the history of english #old english i gues but we dont really learn that in school #anyway imagine how disconcerting #and i imagine she'd switch to gallifreyan sure but like. her modern mountain gallifreyan from lungbarrow right? #that vs tecteuns fucking classical dead textbook gallifreyan #or thats how it would feel to the doctor bc tecteun is pre-timelord. this is just her language #or....her language would be what would later become old high #so maybe she speaks to her Child as she used to actual eons ago #and to the doctor the closest this sounds like is old high gallifreyan bc she doesnt remember this language any more than tecteuns eyes #it's close-enough-sorta-dead-gallifreyan-??? #so she switches to the closest shes got. which is just. lungbarrowian #tecteun trying to rewrite history and the doctor not-entirely-on-purpose re-establishing the one she has/knows/remembers #holding on to her actual history #which tecteun tries to rewrite/unwrite/dig out from under known history with this old old gallifreyan #anyway. more language thoughts of this evening

[irisbellemoon]

Camilla's being a question mark of a character is sort of the whole point. Like the person who's describing her is a repressed queer guy who's very much not interested in her, but rather her brother, hence the constant comparisons between the two of them.

It's not Camilla Richard wants but Charles and he can't admit that to himself so he projects her brother's qualities onto her with only a few of her actual 'characteristics' told to us. Hence her position in the narrative, which is narrated by Richard, is very superficial and 'soft'. Of course, Camilla was a bigger part of the entire plot (bigger than even Richard) but it doesn't really matter to Rich hence it's not given much thought.

In a lot of analysis about her, sometimes people get a little accusatory towards Donna but the person she chose to use as narrator doesn't really care about Camilla as her own person. So it wouldn't matter how much information was originally written for her, we still would never get a peak to it.

#the secret history #camilla macaulay #does this make sense? #i bet camilla had a personality outside of being 'the only girl in the group' but #richard doesn't care about it #he might hold some friendly affection towards her but it's always drowned out by his desire for yknow charles #I've been seeing a lot posts where people are like why is the only girl in the story a blank sheet donna #and im always like take a wild guess. yeah the narrator is gay that's why #man i wish donna would write about a female mc but if her thing is to write about gay men projecting tgeir gay desire on some poor girl #and turning her into a caricature of the actual person of their desire then who am i to complain #donna does it well too

[fitzrove]

Omg turns out Brigitte Hamann and Fredrick Morton beefed over Rudolf's depiction in Affaire Mayerling (das Musical)

#i'm kinda torn #i'm really attached to hamann's interpretation but idk if i'm like that for personal and fandom reasons #morton is a novelist ofc so i dont actually hold his opinion in huge esteem fjdkdkkd but there are other post hamann historians who disagree #with her #idk i've decided it's probably best for me to stay away from the subject unless in a fandom setting because my opinions are clouded #(like - many modern day historians really do emphasise rudolf and mary's relationship - the opposite of what hamann did) #and i don't really have the chance to go into primary sources AND the ppl around rudolf and mary are biased imo (the entire contemporary and #modern discussion of the case and the nature of their relationship is biased) #lol random ramble #history #but yeah i stan brigitte hamann - elisabeth is based largely on her work - and she cites reliable sources for everything #so whenever someone in fandom brings up a 'historical fact' that seems to contradict what she's written i will question it and the source

[popiellart]

Tell us ur DUNC thoughts pal! <3

what can I even say about DUNC other than i fucking love it!!! i've been a shameless dick rider for denis villeneuve ever since Sicario, and I went to the cinema to see DUNC and DUNC 2 which. one thing about me is i hate cinemas. i didn't even go to the cinema for scorsese or yorgo lanthimos or top gun 2 so you know it's serious

the visuals are straight up incredible, the casting is peak, the material is handled with a lot of what feels like genuine love and passion, the lady going ham on the arabic yodeling on the OST is a queen, and in general wrt dune fans watching DUNC, I imagine that's how people who like Tolkien felt when Peter Jackson's LOTR came out

i can't wait for the conflict between the matriarchal eugenicists with milking machines and the patriarchal eugenicists with breeding tanks

which is what the books are really about. oh, and i guess the galactic jihad also happens, so that's fun

#dune #dune 2 #dune spoilers #(sort of) #anyways dune is an incredibly hilarious series on one hand you have the very serious exploration of imperialistic politics #and manipulation of societies. and religion for herbert is what linguisitics was for tolkien. (except frank's hyperfixation actually fucks) #and u get these powerful conversations about power and fate and lady jessica says 'history will call us wives' #which. by the way. everything lady jessica says and does goes incredibly fucking hard. #one of the best and most problematicest female characters ever. <3 #one of my favourite features of dune is how vicious the women are. there is a sisterhood but theres no hand-holding and singing kumbaya #jessica uses the Voice on chani. irulan does what she gotta do to secure her interests. theres an understanding but claws come out #THEN on the other hand you have the 'hm. good effort' hitler talk between paul and stilgar xD i hope they put it in dune 3. please denis #i first read dune when i was a child and understood pretty much fuck-all from it. but i think that's what herbert would've wanted #in conclusion: i don't know. i hate cinemas and i still went to see dune #i hate heat and sun; i'm a winter child thru and thru. and denis makes me want to be there on arrakis when i watch his adaptation #i think that says something

[ragnarokhound]

"reading under the red hood and it's pretty good i think" - jason todd fan who has only seen the cartoon adaptation of under the red hood

#getting my hands on the comic for utrh is cracking my entire brain open about werewolf fic like you don't understand #the cartoon movie was pretty tight but the comic is more robust. and yall the themes for werewolf fic...they're all coming together #now if only i could write the girls fighting FR I'M TOO SOFT YOU GUYS OTL #i'm just feeling insane over the first confrontation with bruce and how Jason tells him that 'gotham is evil' #and 'you have to fight her where she lives' and 'i live there' LIKE #it's only fueling my crazed impression that the end to Jason's philosophy has only two ends #when he's done what he's set out to do and rid the world of evil by cutting it out (which is futile; blind and toothless etc but details) #either: he changes his philosophy and becomes the very type of villain he hates or he dies himself. because he also deserves death #'i live there' ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? #sorry if this is Not News to people or if Jason has had some serious growth vis a vis this entire mindset but like. #I'M INSANE ABOUT IT. I'M CHEWING ON IT FOREVER #and bruce is the wrong person to try to sway Jason off this path. theres way too much baggage too much history too many complicated feeling #but...tim...? >.> #tim i think has enough 'this is not my philosophy this is company policy and i'm the worlds okayest employee' energy to eventually do it #like obviously stuff would need to Happen for it to be possible lol but you guys. this is what made jaytim so tasty to me in the first plac #tim being capable of meeting jason halfway like bruce can't; tim being able to hold the conversation with jason without it collapsing #tim having rebuttals to jason's arguments that might actually get somewhere with him eventually... #i'm not saying it would be fast or easy or even make sense in canon lmao but think there's a lot of fic potential there owo #like tim's vicious streak is something jason would appreciate. :3c #local jaytim fic author rambles about jaytim in the tags once again more at eleven lol anyway #jason todd #dc

[sysig]

It’s all worth it to be close ♥ (Patreon)

#Doodles #Original #The Mouse and the Mermaid #Just some sketchy sketches this time ♪ Leftover doodles from a scratch page #If you remember the set of Pop singing that one cheesy love song :3c #But there's a specific line in the song that refers to the sing-ee as ''my pet'' y'know like a pet name - dearest/darling/my love etc. #Pop would get so flustered about it and feel bad haha poor lad #Soda had a history of being a poorly-cared for pet fish before Pop sprang her ♥ She'd feel bad about potentially reminding her! #Soda wouldn't actually mind tho lol she's quite easy-breezy #Couple more Pops :D She's just so cute! #I really enjoy the featureless orb hands of like Miis and Animal Crossing humans haha #It's just such a cute and simple way of drawing them ♪ #Big eyes are fun as well hehe - they have opposite eye styles! Pop's big dark eyes and Soda's blank eyes ♪ #Silly S-shaped idea of the two of them holding hands in their respective elements :) #They both have tails even! They can be all fun and silly and sweep-curly #And finally sleeping on each other because I Must Keep My Quota Up #Unfortunately for Pop her girlfriend is exothermic lol - feels great from Soda's perspective! Not so much for the mammal of the duo #I'm sure she'd feel great in summer but then it'd just be the opposite situation! #Unless they snuggled in a pool or something haha #Cove filled with bubbles and baubles hehehe

[orchideae]

Uncle Tian. The importance that is Uncle Tian. ... With a "cameo" of Yelan in the second half, exactly at 1:00, which is incredibly so very important if you really want to get a proper glimpse into her 'professionally'.

#[ important. important. important. ] #[ he's /so/ important. ] #[ he has so many lines that i'm gonna actually end up replacing numerous of yelan's current tags with because they... ] #[ embody her more than i realized. ] #[ he's such a peaceful man and she's quite a peaceful woman at the heart of herself-- but ruthless in what she does. ] #[ not a 'killing machine' by the way; not by any means. but the thing is; when you look at her-- you might THINK that she is. ] #[ she plays that line so incredibly well and while i'm not one to draw correlations-- ] #[ it really does make me think back to for example wriothesley during the final confrontation in his sq. ] #[ despite his history-- we don't know him as a 'mean' or 'bad' man. but in that moment; you don't know what he wants to do-- ] #[ to dougier. ] #[ and while yelan is different-- it's this reality of; she's explaining zhiyi the risks of essentially playing from both sides. ] #[ but then offers him a deal that either forces him to betray the other side. or at /least/ work with both. ] #[ which is exactly what she warned him against a moment prior. it's insanely dangerous for him; but she doesn't flinch. ] #[ if he gets hurt; from this scene alone-- you don't know whether she'd care or whether the outcome/reward would be worth it. ] #[ but also; every time uncle tian speaks and it's not often; his lines just play so well into how she operates. ] #[ that almost intimidating patience; the ability to just wait. and wait. it's literally like-- god. what video is it in; hold on. ] #[ “a spider doesn't need to be in the center of the web to feel the slightest vibration from each thread.” ] #[ /shakes everyone on the dashboard. ] #[ i hate that my two biggest muses have spider imagery but way differently so. well-- kind of. ] #[ but /this/ level of patience? oof. that's yelan. ] #[ but also-- 0:35. that ost. this version of the ost. help me. save me. ] #[ also yELAN WHAT DID YOU WHISPER TO HIM BY THE END. U G H. ] #[ ooc. ] don't try to make it logical or edit your soul according to the fashion. rather; follow your most intense obsessions mercilessly.

[sleepyjuniper]

I just had two dreams in quick succession that had me groggily coming out of them with tears in my eyes. Both of them centered around some symbol that was clearly of importance to me, but that I don't actually recognize. One I saved from its own guilt so I could embrace it again, and the other I tried to nurture back to health when she was on her last limb. Both dreams spoke to how much I cared about the figures in them— but I don't know that fox, I don't know that tree. Why did I want to reconnect with them so badly? Why did I want to save them so badly?

#I'm shaken #the last one was about the tree and i just transitioned out of the dream with tears *streaming* down my face #i was trying to replant it when it was barely even a shred of what it once was. just a section of its trunk i could hold in my hands #and i was receiving help from someone else who's opinion i valued. she didn't care that we were digging a hole in her yard #she knew it was important to me #i had so much history with that tree. it had clearly been in my life for a long time #same for the fox #he was represented first in the dream as a dog my grandparents used to have #but he didn't remember me #so i went on a journey to try and find the real him so i could talk to him #and when i found him he was this huge shadowy fox that wanted to hide from me #he actually sang? as i convinced him to let it go so i could hug him again #and the song was beautiful. a part of it is still echoing in my head as if it were real #but what does it all mean?

[like-butterflies-and-glitter]

i crave to be loved so badly but i am so scared of it, maybe even find myself undeserving or not capable of receiving it,

i wrote a self insert character who gets into a relationship with a character who loves so entirely with such devotion and yet find myself unable to write a story where that character does love my s/i enough, the way he has loved other characters in the past. what the hell is that about?

#vidhik.txt #2/3 iantara stpries have this conflict holding him back #the third one that i have not been able to finish doesn't really have conflict like that because it is just pure cuteness #and exactly i am unable to write it because how #am i analysing this too much maybe but i am also coming to this #after looking at my dating history the past year or so #i really liked a girl and asked her out got rejected but atayed very good friends and i love our friendship #but anyone who actually shows interest in me i start isolating and distancing myself from before they can reject me #and some of them made an effort but i almost keep looking for an excuse #because i dont know what happens when they see me naked what if they find my body hideous most days i have trouble with that myself #what if emotionally i am just not good enough to be loved well because i know i am a dysregulated mess and i try to work on it #but when i lose at it it is so so bad #i am aware i am not an easy person to love so i keep myself comfimed to people i almost know just will not try to learn me enough #thus not learning the veru bad parts and not leaving #i am so svared of rejection that i keep not letting people love me despite how much i want it #needed to vent because this has kept me up a bit too long

[devilsskettle]

nostalgia and dread are the two emotions that i feel the strongest but i’ve realized that they’re actually the same thing, or they’re coming from the same place, like nostalgia is the dread that you’ll never be able to go back to the past, dread is the fear that you’ll never find the things you’re nostalgic for in the future (not universally but the kind of general dread of existing that i get a lot of the time) and i’m working on a couple different stories in which characters are trapped in bad situations because of nostalgia or remain in situations and seem “stuck” to others when they’re perfectly content and have no desire to strive for a different future or continue to return again and again to the same places/people/behaviors out of habit or comfort and it’s just. hm. the stories and characters are pretty different otherwise but there is an undercurrent of this nostalgia/dread duality just under the surface of everything i’m working on

#like in my one horror story a character is very much trapped and manipulated by these feelings of nostalgia and family loyalty #where the other character holds himself back with dread of the future and potential disappointments #but my other story is like completely based in this exaggerated summer nostalgia in a somewhat positive way #but also with this sense of dread and decay around them and like this other duality of childhood freedom/neglect #and then my mystery story is concerned with personal history for the main character and her fascination with other peoples personal history #through objects that she collects and studies (she collects cursed objects) (curses are proof of deep history to her) #(someone has to care a lot about something to do a curse and it’s effects last and get passed down) #so she has to return to her hometown where her childhood best friend still lives so there’s that aspect to it as well #her friend being compelled to reject change vs her wanting to go out and explore the world #but her friend is the one who realizes how much their relationship has changed and the main character has to come to accept it #etc. this dread about not being able to return to what you once had but something is still there that’s worthwhile anyway #and then another character in this story corresponds with the friend and is very comfortable staying where he is as a recluse #and he’s a taxidermist so like he also has this concern with object memory #you don’t just taxidermy an animal you know? that’s done with a lot of intentionality #so like it’s not literally about ghosts but everything is a ghost basically #and then there’s this kid who like knows all of the urban legends so again like i want to kind of explore this memory theory kind of history #on like a small scale level like just one small town #or one small item or a relationship between two people #or like how we look for connections with people through the past but also by doing so do we isolate ourselves and actually trap ourselves #like get stuck in the past with no way of moving forward or even the desire to? #anywayyyy i think i just cracked some story things by writing this out #it’s gonna be so! fucking! good! when i actually finish it lol #okay #the end #also i’d love to talk more about this. i will be taking questions if anyone cares to ask them

[socksandbuttons]

Me trying to figure out who the 'canon' love interests are for the MCs in rf 5

#lucy or priscilla is one #ones got like THE animation in her introduction vs everyone #the other has Literally A History with the MC we have yet to touvh on but its very much a thing #the two girls im not really interested in #(beatrice and ludmila... beloveds. ludmila is fun i like her) #i cannot... figure out via the animations who the Canon guy is tho #something tells me its lucas but idk nothings Speaking to me other than he gets a Background #theres also rykers intro but that competes with cecil #so maybe they did intend lucas #however i... (looks at reinhardt... beloved hello u try ur darn best) #murokumo COULD be the bado of this game but it dont hit the same #bado was barely scraping by and also surrogating forte and her bro #he was stupid and himbo and incapable of holding a business.... #murokumo is clumsy maybe thats why #missin the mark rf5 with some of the love interests #misa is right there.... u COULD make her romancabke but yall arent ready for that conversation #(i just wish they just gave her a normal skirt but u do u misa) #heinz proceeds to be such a good character. hes a punny guy and his deisgn pretty good. i love him. but like platonically #simone.... we dont talk about simone #darroch actually isnt too bad seems to have a hearing problem but thats understandablr #he reminds me of a mermaid and its definitely the color palette #a shame they dont utilize him a little more tbh #palmo is palmo we dont need to comment on that fam #max and rosalind i miss u.... rf2 characters i miss u.... #barrett actually returning in rf4 was such a treat a shame i couldnt marry him in rf2 but i sure made him my bestie #anyway back into the game ill be around #rf5 posting #i should just make a tag so yall dont have to see my ramblings #altho theyre just in the tags

[soul-of-rei]

anyways i am once again thinking about totk zelink and once again i am Not Ok

#rei rambles #SERIOUSLY cannot get the thought of link talking to the light dragon while riding her out of my head #like . he tries to be cheerful and give nice updates #but he cant shake off the hollow feeling that makes itself more known whenever hes actually on her #at one point . he cracks. #'ik you probably cant even hear me. but i miss you and im doing everything i can to get you back' #hes throwing himself at all the history texts and records to see if theres anything he can find. nothing everytime #and he keeps on holding back even more and more tears everytime #AND hes definitely cried at least once while on the light dragon herself #it all got Too Much and he could only think of one place he wanted to be but even then it still makes him miserable #JUST AUGH #and ik that we get to take it back bUT SHUSH I LIKE DOING THIS TO MYSELF #totk spoilers

[froggi-mushroom]

I saw your post on how much you hate the reign (XD) and wanted to ask what is a show you feel intensely about and why? 👀

Thank you for the ask!

I’ll be honest, I kinda play up my hatred for shows like Bridgerton and Reign because in reality I know they’re fantasy and not supposed to be historical (my only real gripe with them is that they use real historical figures but eh, that’s more of a nitpick though I do have some legitimate criticisms for bridgerton but I won’t get into those)

I suppose if there’s anything that I intensely dislike, it’s not really one particular show but a whole genre, I think I’ve mentioned it before, it’s those series’s that claim to be telling the real stories of women from history but miss the mark entirely and make them a caricature of an empowering woman (not to use a bit of a meme word here but I think the word ‘girlbossify’ is very appropriate here)

This is particularly noticeable with Tudor dramas (like any adaptation of Philippa Gregory’s works like The Spanish Princess, The White Queen, The White Princess, The Other Boleyn Girl, etc. which are already bad for this I’d like to mention, the recent channel 5 Anne Boleyn miniseries, the recent(ish) Mary, Queen of Scots movie, and a few more I’m probably missing) but I have seen it with other time periods as well

I could talk at length about how reducing an actual human woman to a caricature is not the win for feminism directors think it is, but why would I do that when I can aptly summarise my issue with a quote from one of my favourite history youtubers The Laughing Cavalier where he described one of these characters as ‘Joan of Arc on steroids’ 🙃

#ask #needcake #froggi rambles #i could honestly go on and on about why I dislike these shows #but I won’t cuz this is already enough #a lot of these are from starz which is pretty funny tbh #it’s also why I’m really reluctant to watch the new Elizabeth drama because that’s also by starz #honestly I’m more so pissed off cuz we haven’t had many decent Tudor dramas since the 70s which is pathetic #the only one I can think of is wolf hall which is amazing btw #The Tudors is good for history shit for costumes and everything else #Elizabeth the golden age isn’t bad it’s enjoyable #but it doesn’t hold a candle to Elizabeth R #i don’t think we’ve ever had a good Mary queen of Scots adaptation and we’re probably never going to #the Spanish Princess especially annoys me because for once. we actually have someone who somewhat looks like how Catherine probably did #for once we haven’t got the stereotypical Spanish looking woman ever playing her #and yet they fucked up everywhere else

[drewsaturday]

actually. thinking abt trollhunters/lost world teevee show again and like,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i know i said marguerite and nomura probably fucked but marguerite was a spy in ww1. you know who else was a spy in ww1?

toby's fucking grandmother.

#trollhunters tag #THEY fucked #marguerite was like... a triple spy too so someone def broke someone's heart during it all #anyway. i have my lil cracky headcanons abt strickler/nancy during the spy days and this just makes it ??? worse??? better??? idk #but bc i place him in some ww1 shenanigans i feel like if i ALSO place him on the plateau innnn the '20s-ish #marguerite would recognize him and i cant tell if that's more fun or less #also marguerite is ... very much a scalie and if she sees strickler's troll form she's gonna wanna jump his bones hMMmmM #they probs think strickler's w the reptile ppl at first bc Green #when no he's just there trying to get a hold of some ancient evil artifact nbd #nomura might also be there bc theyre like racing to find something before the other can and theyre the #resident history bitch changelings #ij ust want marguerite to out-manipulate strickler and/or fuck him and/or fuck nomura #and then probably have another PTSD Cave experience forcing her to remember stuff that happened with nancy #like what happened in PTSD Cave Episode Number 17 with that canon girl form her past whose name i cant remember #strickler also would probs have ties to roxton's family actually #and maaaaaybe funded some of challenger's past expeditions #i think summerlee is a weird father figure to nomura but she wont admit it #etc #oHH MAYBEEEE :| maybe strickler was part of veronica's fam's expedition and he's kinda responsible. for what happened there. #or he tried to sabotage some stuff at leasttttt #:') lol #J;LDSF;LKJSFLKSDJFLKSD WAIT IM A FUCKING /FOOL/ MARGUEIRTE IS MORRIGAN RIGHT #ik there is no real tie between the morrigan and morgan le fay but lost world would be the place to mix them up #so maybe strickler is literally there trying to find morrigan as a vessel for morgana #BECAUSE. VERONICA'S PARENTS ARE IN AVALON RIGHT. AND THERE'S A CONNECTION W THAT AND MARGUERITE. #iu cant REMEMVER the connection but if it wasnt significant then maybe veronica is supposed to be the vessel??? #hhfj;lkjsldj im in hell #i think . they might after be veronica considering her lineage but whatever happens i think #the lost world fam would get some clue to where veronica's parents are #so it has some purpose for them

[cookiethethief]

I think Fulvia (the wife of Clodius Pulcher and Mark Anthony) deserves more attention

#if I am to every write a book I think it'd be about her #and that the only people who wrote about her life were her enemies or her husbands enemies does her great injustice #Cicero and historians really played her dirty #like they do with women who weren't 'classic house wifes' usually do #and her story is one of love and especiall revenge #she is just so impressive #fulvia #mark anthony #cicero #roman history #latin #she actually even fought a war for Mark Anthony while he cheated on her with Cleopatra #and then judged her for it and let her die alone of illness #I love Fulvia #she definetly deserves some love #i also think she must have been a great politician and orator #holding her ground even against Cicero #I think I could talk about her for hours

[blujayonthewing]

doing a bunch of unnecessary homework for the sake of a silly little sketch I thought might be nice, as usual

#'hehe felix hold pigeon like hamburger :) wait how big IS a pigeon. I should do an entire height chart for all animals' #kindly ignore how old the idri art is dfkjghgd I thought the one I'd made for her ages ago would be more useful #but the standing cat is weirdly proportioned and tbh aside from the squirrel idk how much use I'd have for the rest #(Idri's was a chart specifically for her familiar Monty so those are all possible Monty Animals. plus Rollo ofc) #felix is a forest gnome and was raised in a very typical forest gnome village BUT he is currently a largely urban person #so the animals relevant to him are gonna be rats and mice and stray cats and misc birds and soforth #honestly I'm not actually sure that the history of big feral populations of pigeons in cities goes back THAT far irl but #I think pigeons are nice and this is a made up fantasy setting so pigeons are urban birds for felix regardless cause I said so #about me #my art #my OCs #felix #idri #look at my gnomes boy