#how am I to emotionally recover from THAT

[twin-books]

Speaking of other topics.

I found one of my absolute favorite shows of all time on complete accident. It's all thanks to Drew Gooden and IDOLiSH7 (also a very good show).

IDOLiSH7 is a very nice feel-good idol anime. I adore it. It makes me unreasonably happy. It's based on a game of the same name that happens to be a rhythm game. They even have official music videos of their songs which I immediately found every single one of and watched them.

Then less than a month ago I finally watched that Drew Gooden video about Guitar Hero. I have never once played Guitar Hero and I barely watch Drew Gooden because I have like an endless list of YouTuber's I'm subscribed to that I just cycle through so this was at random.

But I guess watching that one video about Guitar Hero onto of all those IDOLiSH7 music videos had the YouTube algorithm go "Hmmm... she must really like rhythm games" and it recommended me one rhythm game based YouTube video. It immediately gave up on showing me anymore afterwards because I guess it realized I don't actually care too much about them. I just really like music.

But luckily this one video had this absolute banger of a song that someone had put into the rhythm game and tried to match the game to the beat. I freaking adored this song but it didn't give the name of the artist, just the title of the song so I told myself I'd like the video and then look into it later.

I completely forgot about it until a week later where I was looking through my liked songs on YouTube Music and saw one with a thumbnail of two animesque boys. I literally could not remember what this video was so I clicked it and then I saw it was that rhythm game. But I wondered why on earth these two dudes were the thumbnail when they were absolutely no where in the video.

So that song was Dive Back in Time from the first opening of the donghua, Link Click. I looked it up, saw that the same two anime-like dudes were on the album cover and thought to myself, "Huh, is this like a game or something?" The song was completely in English which threw me through a loop.

So I looked up Link Click, realized it was a donghua, then immediately looked up the opening this song was attached to because I figured based on the song title it had to be something about time travel.

Here's a fun fact about me... I absolutely adore time travel for a story narrative. It's so fun. But good time travel content is extremely hard to find because apparently it's super easy for people to absolutely screw up this amazingly creative and fun premise.

With that being said, I was willing to do just about anything to figure out if this was not only a time travel show but a good time travel show. So I watched the season 1 opening and it gave me absolutely no clues whatsoever. Absurdly unhelpful without context.

Yeah, I turned to wikipedia for the answers. And yes, it was about time travel and the premise sounded so gosh darn amazing. Here's the wikipedia synopsis;

After finding this I realized there was apparently a season 2 so out of pure curiosity I looked up the season 2 opening. It's called VORTEX. Amazing. If nothing else this show would be full of gorgeous animation and breath-taking music.

I immediately hit up @koo1creations. She is also an avid enjoyer of some good time travel stories and she also adores sci-fi which time travel stories tend to fall under so we were hyped. We also both took the same short animation course when we were young so we absolutely adore animation and we both adore music. This show looked like an absolute winner.

So like fools, Monday night we started Link Click fully intending to stop at like 4 episodes. Ha. Nope, absolutely not. We loved it too much, we binged the whole first season. Tuesday night we binged what was out of season 2. Thankfully for us there was only 2 episodes left of season 2 to be released as soon as we finished it.

I cannot begin to give this show the praise it deserves. Season 1 is still the best so far, I'd say. But season 2 is still very good. It's such a fun show full of twists and turns. It really makes you think and it's full of nuances. The animation and style is gorgeous, the music is amazing, the characters are intriguing, and the story is addicting.

So thank you Drew Gooden and IDOLiSH7 for like my new number 1 favorite show. Gotta be the best way I have ever actually found anything I liked. I have had many times where I had quite a few hoops I had to jump through to find another thing I liked but this one takes the cake.

#link click #I have seen quite a few different culture's animation and cartoons #but this one is my first donghua #what an amazing way to start #season 2 absolutely broke me #I can't believe I gotta wait for season 3 #how am I to emotionally recover from THAT

[coldbasementruins]

THAT'S IT.

YOU WILL NEVER HEAR FROM ME EVER AGAIN.

YOU DON'T GET IT.

REI AND KAZUKI STARTED A DINER.

FRENCH TOAST IS REI'S SIGNATURE DISH.

THEY STILL KEEP CONTACT WITH KARIN AND KYU-CHAN.

THEY ARE STILL HAPPY TOGETHER.

THEY ARE FUCKING FAMILY.

I AM EMOTIONALLY UNWELL.

#YOU CAN'T DO THIS TO ME #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO COPE #I AM CRYING MY EYES OUT #GOD HELP ME #I CANT BELIEVE ITS OVER #FUCKING HELL #I AM NEVER EMOTIONALLY RECOVERING FROM THIS #buddy daddies

[in-naeher-we-trust]

SO GUYS I GOT TO MEET ALYSSA NAEHER

I WILL NEED FIVE TO TEN BUSINESS DAYS TO PROCESS MY FEELINGS

In all seriousness, she was so sweet and went along signing and taking selfies until they started hurrying her along and so I had one shot to get my jersey signed and I FUCKING TOOK IT

SHE WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE AND THEN SHE NOTICED MY USWNT JERSEY AND SHE STOPPED TO SIGN IT AND IT WAS THE LAST THING SHE SIGNED SO AHHHHHHHH

I just kept repeating thank you over and over again I was so happy!!!

In short, Alyssa Naeher is the best motherfucking goalkeeper ever and I would lay down my life for her

#alyssa naeher #nwsl #uswnt #chicago red stars #i will never emotionally recover from this #how am i meant to sleep now

[itsgonnagetinspiringsoon]

It's 1 am and I am losing my goddamn mind

#dimension 20 #oscar montoya i am in your walls #and aabria #ohhhh aabria i know the players are loving it but i will never emotionally recover from this #it was NEVER DELIVERED? #how fucking dare you #wuvvy i am COMING for you #i know there's probably reasoning and resolution but don't talk to me I'm so fucking mad right now #oscar montoya #brennan lee mulligan #delloso de la rue #k. p. hob #knickolas pnackolas hob #a court of fey and flowers #acofaf #acofaf spoilers #a court of fey and flowers spoilers #ruehob

[tempestat-ignis]

everyone stop talking to me, i am fighting for my life!!! 🫠🫠

(sorry to my moots, i am clearly going through it and i fear i won't be stopping any time soon)

#i need her #i love her your honor #and i will not apologize #i am never going to emotionally recover from this #how is she real #mike flanagan thank you for casting her please never stop #the fall of the house of usher #tfothou #carla gugino #verna #behind the scenes #barking

[starsscarmyceiling]

Cameron Monaghan and Tina Ivlev together at the Los Angeles premiere of The Last of Us

#i am on the floor and i am never getting up again #they are SICK HOW COULD THEY #they not only coordinated their outfits but it is also the nightsister aesthetic i am never going to emotionally recover from this #THEY #yes the merricals are unwell #UNWELL #okay i have to leave i have to go backflip into THE SUN #cameron monaghan #tina ivlev #sw cast #merrical #jfo #jfo cast #jedi fallen order

[androidboy]

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#ive got this awful feeling i just want to scoop out #i feel stupid and sensitive #like ive hardened myself to all this shit so the fact that i’m being affected by it is also making me mad at myself #my family didn’t want me around for thanksgiving and didn’t want me there for the family christmas party and didn’t want to #spend christmas with me because my mom doesn’t want me around the extended family because of how far in my transition i am #and my gf put off asking her fam about bringing me over for christmas for a month #and barely just asked and it sounds like they don’t want me there either #and tbh i kinda knew they wouldn’t #but also i feel like my gf also didn’t actually want me there which is why she put off asking for so long #and idk #i felt like with how far along i am in emotionally and physically recovering from stuff #and then also having a partner for the holidays for the first time #i would’ve left my sad sandra bullock era. but i have not #the only person who wants me around for the holidays is my dad and ive got such a weird relationship with him #and it literally would just be me and him alone #my dads side of the family doesn’t want me there either bc of the trans thing i just feel really fuckin #disgusting #feeling very goop monster

[feelbetterlove-books]

Live 'Be (Acoustic)' reaction:

#Hozier #Wasteland Baby! #Be (Acoustic) #I cannot be calm or coherent about this I woke up to see the vinyl and merch release and listened to Be #and WOW if I was shaking before I listened out of excitement #I am now trembling like a leaf. WEEPING real tears. my heart was racing. sobbing. nauseated. jumping up and down. #HOW am I supposed to go to work today and act normal??!! #Wasteland Baby! my beloved you will always be famous happy 5th anniversary to all those who celebrate <3 <3 #for real though I am never going to emotionally recover from this #I mean “true to the time and the place you've been given” #“YOUR HEART IN THE WORLD AND A WORLD THERE WITHIN” !!!!!! Andrew?????

[kethabali]

i seriously can't comprehend not having a summer or winter break when u get a job. what do u mean i have to work all year around

#no i need my three month reset #ideally i dont need a vacation to recover from daily life #but thats capitalism <3 #at least school is fun #what if work is just stress and no fun #thats why i wanna work at the nonprofit i am a member of i like going there and i like the staff and i already do that work #as a volunteer and in internships so i could enjoy it maybe how i enjoy school #as long as the job is mentally and emotionally stimulating and not physically strenous #i can work for like 8 months of a year #same as how i go to school #ideally i only work 6 months of the year and 6 months i do something else #but once again <3 capitalism #actually audhd #actually autistic #actually adhd #🧃 #see the reason im thinking ab this is bc i realized working means regular paychecks so less financial paranoia #and stability.. which i like and am always desiring with school i get a big sum of money every few months and then pennies rest of theyear #except last semester when i got my work study and now i realize i like being paid more regularly it helps with my financial trauma #so now i am thinking i wouldnt mind working (if i wasnt in school bc two at once is too much for me) #i could work 10 hours without being burnt out i think 15 max but that is pushing it. this is why i need my diagnosis lmao #at least i have affordable housing and benefits for food and utilities so i actually could work 10 hours and have enough to pay for things #but like adult jobs are usually full time idk like to be a staff member at a nonprofit like i want to be #idk im sure theres a way to do it how i want #or i could get a semi boring remote job thats early hours and i have the rest of the day to myself like summer 2022 #i barely remember work from that summer bc early hours and i did what i wanted for the rest of the day that was a very good summer.. mMM #i want my whole life to be like that summer thats my picture board #but not broke ahah

[cacaocheri]

Happy Valentine's Day!! \o/!!!

hi I'm hanging this on my wall so I can look at it forever

#THANK YOU #SO MUCH #WAAAAHHH #💖💞💖💞💖 #HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO EMOTIONALLY RECOVER FROM THE KINDNESS #THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU #ask #my art #other's art #security breach

[sassy-assassin]

Realizing I'm literally cycling through the 5 stages of grief because of that episode

#I'm upset bc of this anime #like i dont think i have ever been so emotionally affected by a show before #i cry from shows and other media all the time but this GOT to me and i hate how stupid it sounds to be like #but i am legitimately upset 😭 #it's got me in a deppressive spiral #like partly bc i have not been in the greatest place emotionally anyway but fr how they gonna do em like that #how am i supposed to work on my Master's capstone project now #i just been switching back and forth from here and twitter to vent about it #5 stages of grief #buddy daddies #buddy daddies spoilers #buddy daddies ep 10 #why did this show hit so hard gd #i am a mess now #i am literally crying #plz let ep 11 and the rest of the season be happy #like i cant #and if kazuki and rei lose each other (bc rei's dad is still against Kazuki so i doubt he's just gonna let them chill) i will never recover

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[malonarky]

convinced that anyone who is like oh.. men are so shitty to me I only date the WORST men, I want a girlfriend, have never actually had a sapphic relationship. They are more cruel babe, you i will cry 1000x harder.

#women have been so cruel to me this year #how do i emotionally recover from this #i am not your strongest soldier pls wuit giving me your toughest battles #crying snotting hyperventilating dying tears flowing like niagra falls curled in a ball self soothing on the floor #wlw shitpost #wlw heartbreak #sapphic heartbreak #sapphic #wlw #lesbian breakup #sapphic breakup #i am not your strongest soldier

[mistbornbaby]

Sooooo how bad would it be if I admitted I just finished Mistborn without updating this blog at all if I immediately followed that up with, I may be on vacation for only one more day but I found a bookstore and bought Well of Ascension anyways because I absolutely cannot wait until I get home to read more?

Gonna start it tonight!

#mistborn #well of ascension #my curse is finally broken!! I finished the book!! #and yes I am emotionally compromised about it #my son. my dear son. how dare you do this branderson #I am never going to financially (emotionally) recover from this

[blackbirdffxiv]

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Tfw one of my twitter moots found one of my really bad/nsfw fics on Ao3

Lord forgive me my twitter bestie bout to find out how nasty I can be

#OOC #Mun Shitposting #I am never going to emotionally recover from this besties #Yes I am being dramatic but I am a theater kid I've earned my dramatics #That being said I lowkey hope they like it cuz I am proud of this one #Despite how much it paints me as a complete heathen #This is one of those things that's gonna either give them something to tease me about #Or give them something that will earn me the bombastic side eye

[fivefeetfangirl]

giving you this honorary badge as soon as you are finished

putting this on my resume <3 although i am so so NOT WELL

#kdjfhksdjfh this fic is making me insane #i cant wait to snuggle up in bed soon and read the last part #91w #omg just thought about 'it feels like this' again 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #how will i ever recover from this #i used so long to answer this val sorry <3 #cause like...i am so not emotionally well lmao #ive either been shaking crying hurting or completely frozen almost the whole day hsjdhsjdhsjd #when i finished i couldnt even say a word lmaoo #anyways. its been a journey. and it has been super fun with everyone who has followed it <33 #still one part left tho #and the insanity is forever <3