#i cant be consistent for shit

[spaceyflowerswriting]

small efforts (gun park x reader)

details: fluffy scenario, gender neutral reader written in 2nd pov, general canon au, you and gun are dating

summary: gun worries about how sad you've seemed lately.

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Gun paced back and forth around the hall. He felt unable to sit still, and his chest was tight. What was this feeling?

Helplessness?

If so, he hated it. He wasn't sure if he ever felt it before, but that didn't matter, he just wanted it gone. What he wanted gone more, however, was the source causing this feeling for him: your melancholy mood.

While believing one must experience downs to properly enjoy the ups of life, Gun realized he didn't exactly want to apply this philosophy of his to you. Well... no, it was more like... as someone who deeply cared about you, he just wished you would never have to suffer. Or something. Who knows, ever since he got involved with you, he's had a lot to figure out about his emotions (in a good way).

Anyway, he found himself rather worried as of late due to how tired you've appeared within the past week. He had questioned you and respected that you wanted to keep things private, so he did what could to support you in the meanwhile.

Nothing seemed to improve your mood though, thus his feeling of helplessness. He figured all he could do was keep trying, so that was exactly what he did. The small smiles you gave him in exchange for his efforts was more than enough to keep him going.

#lookism x reader #gun park x reader #i cant be consistent for shit #idk why i started writing scenarios in present tense (?) but ive been trying to keep to that but now i think im just- #gonna go back to past tense 😭😭😭😭

[avenananana]

Druid girlfriend advantages

#pure shit doodle #i have a mental breakdown sorry #my arts will never be consistant fuck off #today i just cant draw okay? #astarion #astarion ancunin #astarion x tav #bg3 astarion #astarion fanart #astarion bg3 #bladur's gate 3 #bg3

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

more scribbles to throw in the salad

#ft. frank being a disney princess. except better #have mercy on me my experience with buterflies consists of VERY simple scribbles #the first one is just me trying to practice the neighbors tho #ive got barnarby down to a science and im getting there with julie #but howdy is giving me trouble #i've barely attempted eddie so far. he gives me issues #idk what it is about that funky felt man but i Cant Draw Him #i got him right once!!! Once!!!! #scribble salad #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #welcome home fanart #ah shit have i been forgetting to add my art tag to my latest posts. #softly but with feeling: ....fuck #now im gonna have to go back and edit all of em #but thats a problem for future me! after i sleep! im making these tags at 7 am! i have not slept!

[incorrect-league-of-villains]

Ochako: Hi, I'm Ochako! And you are?

Toga: not as straight as i thought i was, apparently

#incorrect lov #hey remember when horikoshi made the internet explode with doomed yuri and mfs were reading all 300 chapters just to get context #what a fucking legend #it wasnt even queerbait like that was just queer and it was amazing??? #like wow holy shit #toga himiko #uraraka ochako #dude what were the order of my tags before. i deadass cant remember #did i not have a consistent last name first name or vice versa ordering #helppppp

[keepingmyoptionsfluid]

The idea that Tommy, a closeted gay man who was desperately trying to fit in in a hyper macho and discriminatory environment, isn't allowed to have any growth from when he was over compensating and was a dick to Chim really pisses me off. He literally had canonical growth to the point he was going for drinks with Chim and Hen in Bobby Begins Again and they got him a fancy leaving cake.

Why isn't he allowed to grow and be better? Because he's white? Because he "gets in the way of buddie"? Because no one is allowed to say and change at all over a decade?

Like this is a queer fandom and I'd bet a lot of money that a ton of people in this fandom said and did things they weren't proud of when they were younger, especially before they came out so they could try and hide it.

I know this is quite a young fandom too but like, it was literally only a decade ago when "gay" was an insult at school and doing anything that could be get you accused of being gay was fucking social suicide. You guys have no idea how lucky you are that people at least get called out for that shit now cause they didn't when I was a kid. I would have done almost anything to just be ignored, let alone accepted, rather than being openly bisexual.

So yeah, I think Tommy is allowed to fucking change as a person because Bobby, Chim and Hen came into his life and allowed him to stop repressing. Stop being such fucking assholes. You aren't any better than him, and frankly the way some of you behave makes the way Tommy acted when he was first in the show look like a fucking saint. Touch some grass.

#911 abc #people are so so so so happy to ignore canon if it allows them to shit on a character they dont like #remarkable how the same people who say tommy isnt allowed to change and be better #are the same ones who accuse anyone who says literally anything negative about hen or chim of being racist #while openly justifying any abuse of athena because shes a cop #at least have consistency if youre going to refuse to respect all the characters #it just makesnyou look stupid otherwise #tommy kinard #am i a buddie shipper? yes #but i grew up in the era of fucking teen wolf #i can love with my faves not getting together #but the most important thing is a story that feels real #i cant see a way that buddie wouldnt happen somehow for the realest story #however if the writers do a good job #then i will still enjoy the ride #i do not want buck or eddie cheating on their oartner with the other #thats just not fun and i would HATE that to be the way bucktommy ended

[saturnniidae]

I will never understand how people will agknowledge just how jk rowling is as a human being, and still like Harry potter. You can't fucking "separate the art from the artist" when the 'art' is filled with antisemitism, racism transphobia and more! You can't even think about doing that when the 'artist' herself is a fucking HOLOCAUST DENIER.

(Also it's even more pathetic considering jk rowling is actually a shit writer. Like let's be honest, everything people love about Harry potter is from the movies. Every bit of personality Harry had was from his actors portrayal of him)

These people don't care that they're clinging onto the mediocre work of a holocaust denier that wishes death to trans people because they're too wrapped up in nostalgia or whatever. It's pathetic and honestly disgusting.

And it speaks volumes how pretty much all the people I see behaving this was are white

#kind reminder to hp fans! get the fuck off my blog! idc if you hate jkr you're still contributing to the problem! #Also it sure is interesting how jk rowling wasn't publicly acknowledged for her shit until the transphobia #another great example of white people not caring until it affects them 💀 #anyway this is rlly random #but its bc i saw someone who was gay and also claimed to be a trans ally but consistently posted abt hp #like mf you cant be both. #fuck jkr #fuck harry potter #anti jkr #anti hp #this goes for thr mauraders fandom or whatever too. like have fun with your gay ships but at least admit you dont care about trans ppl #like youre still actively putting a terfs work on a pedestal and you know it. you just ignore it because you dont fucking care #i genuinely hate ppl like that like if ur gonna be a horrible person at least stip pretending youre not #moth.txt

[slocumjoe]

Genuinely what the fuck was the point of the synths

#racism againsr enslaved black people pulling directly and openly from. actual slavery #but. also individualism and totalitarian/fascist government #but also this weird kinda. zombie apocalypse/red scare McCarthyism plot what with the oooh anyone could be a synth #but also something something evolved humans the only hope for humanity yadda yadda #what the hell is going on. pick one and run with it #AND DONT PICK THE SLAVERY PLOT FOR FUCKS SAKE #i have to go to bed but oooohghhh #WHY DO I LIKE THIS GAME #like #i see eugenics. thats like the only consistent thread that actually ties any of this shit together #but. ohgh #thjs isnt coherent im sorry i just. i cant #it hurts after all this time #WHAT DOES IT SAY ABOUT DESDEMONA THAT SHE LIKE. #FOR LACK OF BETTER TERM #APPROPRIATED THE UNDERGROUND RAILROAD AND THE CIVIL RIGHTS MOVEMENT AND CIVIL WAR #WHAT DOES IT SAY #ANYTHING? NOTHING?

[oozeandgoo-art]

#oc #haven #rex #monochrome #contents: a little raunchy for tumblr #doodle #really high effort one but it's about the shapes more than anything else lol #meme redraw #comic #i may color this. the original plan was to color it. however i spent all my energy for coloring on drawing an aftermath coda #im fond of this one. there's a lot happening in it #haven and rex are both dressed "up'' to annoy the other's plus-one minor enemy #<- specific au element #rex is wearing a weezer shirt because haven knows that'll piss off taran. haven is dressed up like rex's best attempt at a mid-00s surfer #because he knows felyx cant fucking stand haven and is also into buff masc dudes dressed in jeans with rhinestones and thinks it'll be funn #to put felyx in the Lustful Colander #(he is right) #haven's house is not actually a cool neat influencer home or whatever there's no like open floorplan white walls light bamboo floor bullshi #going on here. it's all like green and red granite tile and shit. the man has been around for a very long time he knows what kind of decor #he's fond of. those ARE fish tanks in the walls though. and a spiral staircase #the man has been around for a very long time. he does not give a shit if what he likes is 'tacky' #also when the one speechbubble he says gets weird it is because he is using a magic power and forcing rex to put his cigarette out. rex is #naturally kind of annoyed about this. it used to make haven wince when he put his cigs out on his hands so he keeps doing it every time thi #happens but he has not yet cottoned on to the fact that haven has fully stopped wincing and now just thinks it's a normal habit he has #and has no idea that it's specifically aimed in his direction #also haven has no issue with giving head but rex isn't aware of that. they don't communicate well #and what Rex is actually aware of mostly consists of 'asking him to bottom turned into a giant argument and then a physical actual fight #and he broke my jaw in like four places over it and it was awesome but i didnt get what i wanted' and kind of gave up on the subject #he couldve been getting his d!ck sucked this whole time and he didnt know it. so sad #lineart

[jennilah]

when the drawing skill fluctuations bring u to tears lmao am i right folks

#holy shit i was so excited abt this comic bc i was feeling like my hoffs and strahms are starting to finally be consistent #BAM they look horrible again and i cant get a successful sketch out of them to save my life and this is supposed to be 20 panels #but i just keep redrawing the same ones and im unhappy w them all #thats so cool thanks brain and body glad we're all working together here #jennilargh

[annakarenina]

not to be cheesy cringe and bare my ass in public but i dont think love is supposed to be a game bro…

#unless ure not looking for love then play that stupid game ig #like if the talking stage consists of Restricting urself and toning down ur needs…..next! #2024 out: playing hard to get 2024 in: no playing just let them get u……FUCK THE CHASE #thats for the bitches with insecure disorganized etc attachments this way u find the ones with the Secure attachments #also i need therapy. i cant be talking shit about my disorganized attachment bitches when i prob have one too lol #sorry amy winehouse love is not a losing game bc love isnt a game #basically i give up cuz why am i attracting losers when im a winner #2024 ins: get a raise and earn passive income #lext

[rinofwater]

So me and my friend were watching the dub for Ayakashi

And I'm usually the first person who would say "give the dubs a chance, I know they have a bad reputation but there are some pretty decent ones out there too"

Ayakashi Bakeneko is not one of them.

#mononoke #ayakashi bakeneko #mononoke kusuriuri #victor lee's work in mononoke? pretty good like i enjoy the energy he brings to the role #andrew francis brought bored fuckboi energy to the role somehow and that ain't it chief #that ain't it at all #also the shit they chose to translate literally versus leaving untranslated is SO ANNOYING #like there is no world where the taima sword is a katana there's just not #id say wakizashi if it's anything at all #or just stick with sword?? #and you have to choose between 'shape truth reason' or 'katachi makoto kotowari' you cant have both #(and really just stick with shape truth reason something about katachi makoto kotowari surrounded by english is just unbearably cringe) #(but if youre gonna go that route at least be consistent like shit) #and translating 'mononoke' as 'demonic spirit' is the kind of oversimplification that kinda undermines the themes associated with mononoke? #like it's an affliction of the soul that needs to be cured thats the whole damn point #this is not a good vs evil struggle and framing it like it is detracts from the message #anyway thats my rant for the day lol #dont watch the ayakashi dub #juuuuuuuuust stick to the sub

[breezere]

fuck u -tears off their sleeves-

#well kokichis at least. shuichi gets a trim and a roll up #and some gloves cuz why not #and an undone collar bc why does he have it all the way buttoned up. king how do u BREATHE #now i aint saying they wouldve looked better. but im saying they wouldve looked better good HEAVENS #sorry. that was the medieval peasant in me jumping out #i see a bare ankle i go absolutely hogwild #shuichi saihara #kokichi ouma #kokichi oma #saiouma #oumasai #breeze art #yet another hairstyle to add to my 'i cant fucking draw shuichis hair consistently' collection #ok it was partially a test but like why do i fw it tho. idk im really vibing w it #oh shit kokichis school symbol is on his sleeve isnt it. well thats not my problem #ok so i mandela effected myself w kokichis shirt bc apparently the only tear is down the line where the weird clasp things are?? wtf???? #ive been drawing the entire bottom torn up this whole time.. . . i feel LIED TO #ight well im still gonna draw it like that. idk the torn up style is a Look tbh

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

its 2am im posting the friend i made for Derry since they looked lonely. they're partners in crime except not bc Derry is too sleepy to participate past the idea stage

jesterly is not their real name 💅 their pronouns are whatever is funniest in the moment 💅 also i would punch them in the face if given the chance and they would deserve it

#drawing them together is solidifying the fact that i cant draw consistent character size/height differences #holy SHIT they are all over the place the lot of em #also i resent jesterly on principle now #bc it took my like. two hours of constant recoloring to get to a somewhat decent look #i wanted to make their color scheme a little unsettling AND NOW THEYRE BRIGHT FUCKING PINK AND RAINBOW- #jesterly i am in your house with a shotgun #they were gonna have like... dark maroon felt w/ violent orange cheeks #and an equally sinister outfit #LOOK AT THEM. THEYRE A WALKING BANANA CREAM PIE. FUCK. #scribble salad #welcome home oc #why is it that whenever i create two characters meant to be partners (platonic or otherwise) #they immediately start becoming a little fucked up #whats up with that. huh. why do they always get Violent #jesterly has existed for all of three hours #and i already need to keep them on a tight fucking leash #my brain: oh and they love pranks! fun! but sometimes they take it too far and whoops arson & blood is happening but theyre still laughing- #NO!! take it back a notch bitch!!! reel it in!!!! #originally jesterly was gonna be like... a park ranger or forest-dwelling type character or something #but. i really love jesters #people always talk about 'oh prince/princess/royalty & dragon' #or 'oh knight & dragon' #name a more iconic duo than jester & dragon. motherfucker. ill wait. YOU CANT. #and now jesterly exists and i dont like them. but also im attached #theyre in my brain now and they wont leave #as a visual: im trying to sleep and theyre blasting caramelldansen in the same room #sadistic little bastard.

[nyaskitten]

I hate the stupid fucking cunts who manage Xfinity I'm not sorry. Why the fuck are you always screwing everyone over with disgusting fucking prices??? We had to drop cable COMPLETELY a few months ago just so we weren't as overcharged, and this cuntfuck of a company decides to continue being shit, and continue overcharging??? Actually go to hell.

#im sick as fuck and i NEED to get my hw in #its all online #unfortunately for ME the dumbfucks at xfinity cant even maintain consistent wifi #there are like half hour spouts of great wifi #then it keeps cutting in and out #and i keep reconnecting and disconnecting #afaik my family has been with xfinity for well over a decade #maybe even two decades idk #and these stupid fucking cunts cant do shit right !!! #its insulting #it literally cut out again WHILE WRITING THIS POST #absolute shitfest i swear #raine's rambles #tw swearing #swearing tw #ig. #just cuz i did it a lot more here .

[sunnykeysmash]

something we have discussed is how dennis was the only one who could understand mac and that's great but can we also discuss how it must feel for mac that no one can understand him

this seems to be accentuated by how off he keeps being about things (offering of war/dennis being shot being "awesome"/being unable to read subtext both with dennis ["figure of speech"] and donald) and how much he's looking for a sense of meaning that he used to find in his identity until s15 made him realize how pointless it was (in a way that reminds me of his crisis in goes to hell 2...), but legacy, history, money and prizes are worth nothing if your heart is not in it.

and in a way I think dennis is coming to the same conclusion which is why he's the only one who can understand mac.

dennis "you're just being honest about how you feel" reynolds, so concerned with authenticity and upset by the perceived lies when it's just his own denial making it that way. that's building the biggest lie of all.

if we're looking for the Point, then the point is to have fun and embrace feelings. Big Mo already showed this.

it's interesting to me how it seems that mac and dennis are working off of each other in the way sunny works as a whole. because if mac is the structure and the text, and dennis is the subtext and the jokes (it's how he's trying to communicate in inflates but it's also the whole reason he comes with mac in madbu), they kinda NEED to be working together for the show to work... they need to find their harmonies, they can't just one or the other lead, they gotta have each other's back.

and also like, a small coda. this season deals so much with nostalgia vs how the past really was, there's so many flashbacks.

becoming aware of denial and reality can feel really upsetting but ultimately it's a positive development.

if "the hair is a lie" chopping off the head isn't the answer, that was the old way of doing things (in times of war... murder, betrayal, beheadings... "we figured out what works a long time ago"), but now we're looking for peace. basically, death isn't the answer. building your legacy doesn't have to be like pulling teeth. "this doesn't have to be a scam"

it's a good thing if we start seeing things for what they actually are, because it means less denial.

#iasip #s16 spoilers #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #macdennis #analysis #meta #i have decided that for my own mental health im not gonna do indepth meta until the season is over #by in depth i mean making extra sure i dont sound rambly as hell #i still want to make an extra post on charlie i have stuff to say about HIM but they closed soap so i cant screenshot shit #kms fr #the tldr is that charlie represents rcg's frustrations and fears to me pretty consistently since s14 #it's why a lot of his jokes have become ''thats actually not funny'' and ''this is so annoying'' or “can we just start?'' #and why he wants the status quo and laments that he ''wants his life to be simple and doesn't wanna live in a maze'' #and a lot more..... #sorry for metaposting do you still think im cool #i reread ''my thoughts on the first 2 eps'' and i basically already said all i think. except for this charlie thing #dare i say this season has a theme of truth? it's too early to say #but to have the meaning theme hit right after the identity one is crazy because its... LITERALLY WHAT RCG WENT THRU WITH SUNNY #anyway both mac and dennis are the jumper... theyre holding two big piles of darkness called denial rn #find yourself in him.... #it's 6am if this doesnt make sense thats why. but it does to me #big mo really was the key....

[lunaremy]

guy thats going through hell and back in the present vs guy that went through hell and back in the past except guy 1's issue is "im so tired of protecting people please let me rest" and guy 2's issue was "i hate people so fucking much please let me kill people"

#i was thinking about them really hard while getting started on ch8 #not to be overly spoilery or anything but #thinking about how long plasma might've had to suffer knowing that the people who made him betrayed him #vs white who suffers right now because he's the only consistent lifeline to a safe universe #if white goes down #everyone goes down #and plasma's still kind of a shit counseler even if hes a great friend #just #(sitting next to each other but perfectly still to signify that strained connection and shit. and then white flops down as his resolve is s #lowly crumbling and he just rolls over all emotionally exhausted and shit #after years of providing only now he demands #but nobody else really answers him do they now #he indulges one (1) time and the whole universe fuckin crumbles. because fuck this guy #i think im going nuts #i cant wait to write seriously my brain is so scrambled rn