#i do enjoy talking about the show though

[benjimarii]

Honestly I feel like people can be pretty overdramatic about Omniverse. Like I don’t have a problem with people criticizing it but like damn you don’t have to spend so much time nitpicking a cartoon

I can kind of agree with this. But at the same time, if that's how people enjoy the show, they can! While I myself don't enjoy nitpicking, I understand why people would. They just want to see the best version of the show, that or... They don't like the show. Which, both are valid.

I enjoy the entire franchise for what it is, flaws and all. It fun to watch, it has an ungodly amount of lore, world building and potential, and it just has some of the most loveable characters.

And yes, while I have a bais for Omniverse in particular, it doesn't mean I dislike the rest of the franchise! I adore OS and UAF! I don't like putting the eras in boxes, at least, not anymore. Having this whole... {Iteration} is better than {iteration} argument is so tiring. The shows genuinely don't need to be put up against each other, especially just to elevate the enjoyment of another one. Just say you have a favorite one, and we can call it a day.

Another thing I've grown to dislike is people accusing the writers or designers or things, as if they were in the room while they were making the show. Like, it's perfectly fine to not like designs, writing decisions and other things in the show. Its also perfectly fine to criticize things in the show. That's normal! But going after the people who were involved in the making of it is kind of weird, and a bit mean-spirited. A lot of people forget how much time and love went into the making of this show, especially with Cartoon Network breathing down their necks the entire time. Being one of the most profitable IPs sounds like a good thing, but in reality, so much of what is done in the show is controlled by the company.

One of the biggest lies and misconceptions is the whole "DJW hated jetray, so he didn't put him in OV" thing. That's just... A lie! A straight up, boldfaced lie! CN is the one who decided which aliens got to be cut from OV, not DJW. Brainstorm almost wasn't in OV, because toy sales for that alien were very low. But they snuck him in as much as they could anyways. There were just... Some that couldn't make it in. And I think that's okay. Ben used almost all his known aliens in the show, and the ones that didn't make it were turned into background characters so the species still had a spotlight.

But yeah. Going back to the initial ask, I feel somewhat the same. People treat all of the shows (except maybe OS) really weirdly in this fanbase. Its either "UAF was too dark and edgy! It has terrible writing and animation" or "OV was too silly and corny! The writing sucked! It had a terrible art style!"

These can both be true for individuals. But their opinions don't make it objective. I don't think my opinions are objective, as my entire view and views on the show are subjective.

And I must reiterate. Criticism for the show is fine. Its good, and healthy to have criticism for a show you like. You don't have to like everything in a show. I don't like every single thing done throughout the franchise, but I can still say it's my favorite series ever.

Criticism ≠ lack of enjoyment

But saying your views are "the right views", and treating your opinions as objective, does tend to make it a less enjoyable fanbase.

As someone who spent a lot of time in the mindset where I was hyper critical of the show, I can say that I genuinely enjoyed the show less because of it. But as soon as I took a step back, accepted the show for it's flaws, understood that it's not perfect and it doesn't have to be, I fell in love with it all over again. I still have things I don't like. I still have nitpicks and criticisms. But I don't think that hinders my enjoyment of the franchise. And that only applies to me (and by extension, people who feel the same), as I'm not saying that those things don't affect other people's enjoyment.

My whole thing is, as long as you're being nice to the people in the fanbase, you're fine. You can talk negatively about any of the shows, as long as you treat other people with respect. Especially if they have different opinions. Shows don't have feelings. People do. Talking down to somebody for different views, headcanons, or a different way they enjoy the show is unhealthy.

You wouldn't believe how much hatred the fans have for each other for having differing opinions on things about the show. Like, I've seen people get genuinely mad at things like crossover ships or LGBTQ headcanons. It's crazy. Just let people enjoy the show how they want to enjoy it. And if you don't agree with someone, that's fine. Just don't make drama out of it. Or at least, don't involve the entire fanbase into it. Unless someone is doing something genuinely wrong. That's a whole different story, though, and a bit off the point.

Anywho, thanks for the ask! Sorry this was a long post, as the only thing I'm really critical of is the fanbase itself nowadays. But I do enjoy talking about the show, positively or negatively! I like understanding things better, and you don't understand things fully until you've heard the perspective of others, I like to think!

#long post #opinon #ask #probably not going to answer stuff like this in the future #as i prefer to talk publicly about the show itself rather than the fans of it #i dont like the drama that's involved when talking about views on this fanbase #i do enjoy talking about the show though #throw me headcanons and questions about the franchise! #i love those kinds of asks #especially about speculation on aliens #i adore talk of the aliens or lore of the show #ben 10 talk #not gonna tag this in the main tags cus i dont want things to get too cluttered there #especially with something thats not directly about the show

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

#hs #homestuck #dirk strider #eye strain #probably? if you think i should tag something else let me know!! #anyway hooray its time for rambling in the tags #so uhhh heres the teæ i've been sick for like a week and you know how it is when suddenly your throat becomes the main gunk warehouse #and you can't breathe lol. wish i could just pull it out. anywaaayy this is basically a vent piece for me being sick lol #also i could draw remotively the same thing with kris deltarune. oh how easy it is to project having a cold #though i have been also experiencing troubles with feelings recently as well....how fitting for dirk #speaking of the man himself (enough of me) his relationship with his own Heart...is peculiar to say the least #the thing i love about alphakids is that despite being so feral they were. so relatable. i cannot stress this enough how unwell they are an #and how they represented being a teen so well. yeah being 15 years old makes that to you #imagine being an emotional mess and trying to fit the 'norm' and act normal about your friends so youre not offputting #and then you fall in love with you friend and your ai clone falls in love with him too looool noone makes out of this one alive #uhh literally. godtiering stuff and dying remember #and speaking of it. tw for suicidal talk for the rest of tags #do you ever think dirk was suicidal. of course the part of when he teleports his head to jake was totally planned and he knew he would -> #wake up as dreamself but. don't you think the moment he cut his head off was sort of. cathartic. how much did he hate his own guts #beheading himself not only for the plan...but also because he thought he 'deserved' it #also wow he is a Prince and was literally beheaded don't you think its funny hahaa #sigh poor thing #this has ended on a not the very pleasant note hm #also fckkkkkk i didn't draw anything with rose/mary for the lesbian visabilty week #(putting the slash because tumblr search system has a dumb gag with showing you posts that contain the tag inside the other tag. #and i don't want this post to show up for the ros/mary fans because it's not!!!! its rose's father emotional crisis post!!!!) #update YOOOO WHAT THE HELL THE GIF HAS EVEN LESS PIXELS THEN I PLANNED fantastic #this your breakfast now tumblr. enjoy your crunchy flakes of dirks meltdown. mwah

[osoreruna]

toshinori had a weird phase while over in the states where he was oddly obsessed with country music —

#𝗨𝗟𝗧𝗥𝗔 𝗔𝗥𝗖𝗛𝗜𝗩𝗘 + [ HEADCANON ] #that's it. send post. #he had no idea what the fuck they were talking about half the time but he enjoyed the upbeat swing type stuff. #it was the banjo. the banjo got him. #this of course has nothing to do with the fact that i enjoy country music and am in fact...country. #but for real though #toshi really enjoyed his time in cali / the states. almost....a little too much. #but we won't get into that here. #i have to clean the house today — as my company is showing up tomorrow !! #hence my absence uughg #but !! i got...half of those asks sent out. hoping to finish that up today #then...replies.

[coldflasher]

currently so unable to be alone with my own thoughts that im 10+ episodes into a podcast about the vampire diaries, a show i have never watched

#i read the books when i was a teenager tbf but they are so different it doesnt even count #i have made two attempts to watch the pilot and ya girl is struggling. i feel like maybe you had to be there #im enjoying the podcast though #every now and then i briefly entertain the idea of doing a flash rewatch podcast but it would just be me talking to myself #also i would run the risk of having non-fandom people speak to me about the show and i am so not up for that lmao

[dykeinthedark]

venting in tags about gender n shit (long as hell) (u can comment and talk 2 me as always :3)

#okay so i got a really masc haircut about a month ago and i know it's just a haircut but holy shit has it changed EVERYTHING for me #like.... i've always leaned masc except 1) before i came out 2) when i was actively in love with someone who i knew liked femmes #and they always described me as a fem. because that's what i showed her. because i wanted to be with her. #but lowkey whenever i'm in a not-impressing-anyone raw-dogging-life-no-crush era i always resort to a very masc style #like masc being my default and i'd only lean fem to impress people whether it's for love or peer pressure in a specific setting #like ''dressing up'' has always been a form of drag to me. like something i HAD to do to fit in or impress my parents (scott favor core) #but ever since this haircut i've realized... i could just BE masc innately like i really don't have to be womanly if i don't want to #which i usually don't. again i have only ever dressed fem for other people. but it's not even being masc that attracts me on its own #it's like. being masc in a distinctly lesbian way. as in whenever i look in the mirror i don't wanna be like a Guy i wanna be a dyke. #like lesbian as a gender identity too sort of thing honestly. okay i've been waffling but basically i sort of want to call myself butch #but i don't know if i like... can?? if i'm allowed to??? #everyone always says it's MORE than just wearing boy clothes and not wearing makeup and having short hair (which i already do all those) #i mean i've always id'd as genderqueer because it literally just means gender weird and i experience gender in a queer way #what's probably the most telling is that my friends (all queer) CALL me a butch lesbian #like every time they do i feel really internally validated. it's not just my clothes but my personality too ig is what people tell me #i have a higher pitched voice relatively speaking but apparently the way i talk is quote ''very clockably into women'' #which?? gender euphoria asf. my best friend specifically he (gay trans guy) always uses butch to describe me very intuitively #people have also noticed that i ''transitioned'' in all aspects except hormonally. like ppl have commented and noticed my masculinzation #but at the same time i always feel rly haunted by my ex relationships because one wanted me to be more masc #(she's the one who came out as straight and would treat me like a man) which i didn't like and i didn't like playing up being fem either #bc now it feels like she (butch) won't believe me if i called myself butch too bc she remembers me being femme #idk i feel like there's her voice in my head all the time that sees everything i do through her eyes (i'm lowkey still in love) #i feel like even though this comes so naturally to me i must be putting on a performance #even though i've actually read stone butch blues and done research into the history and i truly love and id with the culture like i rly do #that im still just a sad imitation of a butch lesbian and can never really be a part of it because i used to enjoy dressing up sometimes #like it's so stupid but can i still be butch if i wore a dress to prom and i think i looked good in it?? #even though i was envious of my friends who wore suits?? that i used to try goth makeup?? that i liked long dresses?? #that i enjoyed stacked necklaces and rings on every finger??? #and tbh ALL OF THAT CAME FROM A CONCIOUS EFFORT TO FEMINIZE MYSELF IN JUNIOR YEAR OF HIGHSCHOOL WHEN I WAS 16 #because omfg it was 2 months before junior prom and i was worried that i was too masc and wanted to get comfortable with being fem

[blubble-lake]

it's been over 2 weeks and this thing (unfortunately) still has a grip on me

#rant in the tags coming so please do scroll away if you enjoyed the finale 🙏 #you know how with some things you'll be like 'I had some negativity towards this thing but-- #now that it's been some time I feel better towards it'? #my thoughts on the finale have only gotten worse since it released 🥲 #being given more time to think on it made me notice more things I had wrong with it #like I really wanted to give it the benefit of the doubt but it is so difficult #when I tried ranking the episodes from best to least favorite #I'd come to realize that I couldn't put either finale episode above the other for the bottom two #they both gave me the same feeling of being doused in ooze 😭 #I've written a good handful more thoughts on why I disliked it since the last rundown I had posted #though I'm afraid if talking about this is considered cringe or old news now that it's been a minute since the eps came out lol #I've watched the finale in full two times just to take everything in but I don't think I can do it again anytime soon #I think there's about 8-10 mins of the finale that I genuinely enjoyed #the rest making me want to cry in disappointment or was just 'okay' to me #just gotta 'it is what it is' my way through knowing the show ended like That. we stay silly! #however- writing about it does give me a little bit of relief lol #adventure time #at #fionna and cake #petrigrof #simon petrikov #betty grof #my post #my art

[afairerplace]

My impression of how strongly Taylor felt about Harry Styles is VASTLY different after hearing the vault tracks

#i wonder if some of that isn't production #ngl it DID throw me a bit that the vault tracks are obviously produced by jack and the originals obviously are not #but for whatever reason #the original album always gave me the impression of the image she cultivated during the era: #shiny cool confident ny girl about town with her girlfriends #knowing that harry isn't ever going to pan out but jumping in anyways for the fun and excitement while it lasts #hoping for more but (if you'll excuse me) shaking it off when things inevitably finally fall apart #but the vault tracks peel back her confident exterior more and show just how BADLY she hoped for more #calling her mom for comfort? #pretending not to notice he's texting other girls but being utterly crushed? #reading into his new hair and aching to talk to him about it? #in most of the original tracks she sands away a lot of these vulnerable details #like she doesn't want him or us to see just HOW badly and HOW specifically he hurt her #but listening to the vault tracks my reaction was oh shit he really did break her heart #God bless i always thought harry styles was Not It #(as a bf #i do enjoy his music quite a bit though purely for the vibes) #but boy this guy is NOT IT #taylor swift #1989 (taylor's version)

[maddy-ferguson]

season 4 is not a good season to be a steve fan it actually made me like him less

#and okay you'll think i'm lying but i've said this before i'm known as a steve fan like i don't even need to put myself in the shoes of #steve fans i'm talking from personal experience. i mean yeah i said it made me like him less that's about me but just. more context #like yeah he's there a lot that's great but what he's doing on screen...like nancy's character is not the one that's suffering from the #stncy comeback. because she's not the one who likes the other again obviously but omg i was so annoyed the first time i watched it and i #was annoyed with steve #like i can see why they'd do that but it's also like they don't even care about steve that much😭 substantial screentime =/= good screentime #but this actually applies to like the show as a whole the show is not a good show to be a steve fan the way people in fandoms are fans of #characters. which is why i loved him more when i didn't care about him in a fandom way. okay that doesn't make sense. i don't care about #him in a fandom way which is why he isn't that high on my list of favorite characters like two years ago he was higher but i still like #him the same amount. technically. or a little less because season 4 made me. but my point was comparatively i like him less even though i #enjoy him like i've always enjoyed him #does that make sense #and like i say: brf slt

[felix-lupin]

G'morning 💟💟💟

This is a ramble about a post about the Harry Potter books (wishing they were not written)...

I Really Enjoyed the Geodyssey series by Piers Anthony (Isle of Woman, Shame of Man, Hope of Earth, Muse of Art... I never read the last book... Climate of Change)

I read the first 4 books many years ago, and I Really Enjoyed reading these books and the style of writing that spanned across many generations and time periods. I re-read this series many times over the years, and each time I enjoyed the stories and the characters.

Piers Anthony is a prolific author that has written a plethora of books. I have only read the Geodyssey series, and not any of his other works.

And then something happened and the reputation of Piers Anthony changed from 'respected prolific sci-fi and fantasy author' to 'creepy creep'... He was writing too much about panties and female bodies and teenage sexuality and he is no longer popular or respected 😶

These things are confusing and sad.

Many times I have experienced emotional cruelty from others in the form of 'You like/enjoy (random media)? Then you must be the kind of awful/evil/wrong person who supports (inappropriate behaviors of the creator of that media)!'

These things are confusing and sad.

I imagine that about 98% of Creatives are Normal Humans that will be sometimes good and sometimes bad, but always Humans that are Going Through It, making mistakes and learning, and never perfect... And only about 1% of Creatives are perfectly evil rotten humans, and only about 1% of Creatives are perfectly good kind humans. The individual that consumes media is not responsible for the actions of the media creator. I guarantee that all humans have enjoyed a work of art/music/literature that was created by someone that they would be repulsed by, if they were to know the creative personally. Should this diminish the experience of enjoyment that the individual feels upon consuming the media?

For example... Michaelangelo was secretly queer but openly hatefully homophobic. In person he was bitter, condescending, sadistic, and rude. He did not bathe, and upon his death he had had the same pair of stockings on for So Many Years that it was necessary to scrape them off of his skin with a spatula. Meeting him in person would not be a pleasant experience for most humans... But he gave us David and La Pieta and the Sistine Chapel and So Much More! Should the Beauty of those works be diminished because they were created by an asshole?

And Jared Leto is a bad person and a bad actor, but Mr. Nobody is still an emotionally beautiful and thought provoking film.

There were too many examples, across all media, and through out all time. Should you choose to only consume media that was created by perfect humans, it would be necessary to live bereft of Art.

I perceive Art like this... There is a Collective Consciousness of humanity's ideas and imagination (the noosphere) and Creations are conducted into this realm of reality (born) through the Creatives (conduits). Consider the Michael Sheen quote/acting advice about the characters they portray not being able to exist unless they open themself and channel that out into the world (paraphrasing)... Consider a child being born... Is that child an extension of the parent? Responsible for the behaviors of the parent? Or is it its own entity that should be perceived by its own merits? Creations of Art are the manifestations of ideas and imagination that have been born through the conduit of Creatives... Creations of Art are the Children of Creatives. Should you be repulsed by a beautiful child because its parent is ugly or vulgar?

Have been thinking on this for a day or so... And just wanted to submit these thoughts for your consideration.

(I agree 100% that JK Rowling is a jerk and this ramble is Not About That)

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Good morning!

It's definitely a. Complicated subject? I agree that people shouldn't be harassed for what they enjoy in media, though. Someone who harasses or belittles others for what they enjoy in media will always be 100x worse than the person that's enjoying the "bad/problematic" media.

I personally could never read the Harry Potter books after what happened with JKR, but I do understand that there's a good amount of people who read the stories *before* the transphobia stuff came out, and to a lot of those people the series means something to them. There is some degree of separating the art from the artist, although it's impossible to do that entirely.

I think it's mostly fine as long as one acknowledges the problems that a work does have, things in the work that are. Prejudiced, for example. Although I do also understand that there's a lot of people that would rather not be. Reminded about Harry Potter, or talked to about it, or it upsets them when there's references to it.

Both of those people—people that are attached to Harry Potter and keep talking about it and making fanwork for it, and people that don't want to talk about it and having it referenced makes them uncomfortable— are valid. As long as nobody's harassing or belittling anyone else. Although, I will note that, while I can't control what anyone decides to do with their money bc it's their money, even the people who are still fans shouldn't buy things that are going to give money to JKR.

#im in class rn so sorry if this isnt like..super coherent. but ignore that #from the nebula #But anyways #if someone wants to properly seperate the art from the artist and make it clear that they dont like the artist #even though they like the art. the Not-Supporting-Said-Person by buying stuff thing is. important. imo #also anyways #im loosely in the latter camp. I would rather not talk about Harry Potter or participate in things related to it #Although one time my old school had this Harry Potter day thing where they decorated the school #and a bunch of kids and teachers showed up in cosplay. Which is sweet‚ I guess‚ but I was uncomfortable with it at the time #They talked about how great JKR was the entire day and when someone brought up her transphobia they just brushed it off #like it didnt matter. And when I was like yeah ok im not gonna really help set this up. because i dont like JKR #the teachers acted like i was being. whats the saying. a wet blanket #So while i do understand that theres some people who like Harry Potter and still want to have fun with it #I also completely understand people who wish it wouldn't be brought up around them and they didnt have to hear it referenced #.. #Although I do agree that no artist or *human* for that matter is 100% 'unproblematic' and expecting people to be perfect is unreasonable #And what someone enjoys in fiction is NOT a reflection of their morals. I would be a BIG hypocrite if i claimed that people's fictional #enjoyments said ANYTHING even SLIGHTLY about their morals. It doesn't. #Think i say that in my bio too

[terrainofheartfelt]

Okay so the thing about Sally Rooney is she is so good at third person limited unreliable narrator and sitting in the complexity of people and letting them be ambiguous and messy and imperfect and then she’ll hit you with a line of prose that butterflies you open like a shrimp

#I’m reading normal people and it is. SO good #i feel like….it’s not the story that people are talking about #like the Normal People that I’ve seen on the blogs is different from the Normal People that I’m reading #and I felt like Daisy Jones was the same way #and maybe….absorbing novels through web weaving posts isn’t actually the way to know them #and (I know I do this too) that the tendency to focus only on the romantic relationship in the story #diminishes what the novel is really about #which is young people learning how to exist in the world #and allow themselves to live with joy without having to atone for it first #like sally rooney isn’t a romance writer #she gives bildungsroman with a side of romance #because when one is young romance is often a component of their self actualization #but she doesn’t construct a story like emily henry does #idk i think there’s a difference between Romance with a capital R which is about people falling/being in love #and fiction that is about people and who and how they love #and they serve different purposes #and maybe that’s lost when a book is adapted into a show #or maybe it’s lost when people see the story is written by a woman #I don’t know…. #I’m really enjoying the novel though #kinda wish I owned it so I could annotate it #liz reads

[crownedwille]

as much as it's fun being in the fandom and i love having our community i notice sometimes that i just don't vibe with the general opinions of the fandom about plots or characters or the cast and that hearing everyone's opinions or predictions and the 'drama' is too much and overwhelming and i actually don't wanna hear any of it and i realize it tends to annoy and upset me and then you know you need to take a step back from it.

i will definitely try and stay offline when s3 drops in a week and will blacklist tags and probably unfollow some blogs for a while bc i don't want to be exposed to too much content and experience it on my own first and form my own opinions before i dive in on it online. and i don't want to think too much about what the fandom's expectations and wishes are and hear about other's disappointments or gratification or whatever and remove all of that from my brain. my goal is to just enjoy watching season 3 with no pressure and have a good time no matter the outcome of my own wishes and expectations and it can be good even if not all of mine come true bc it doesn't and shouldn’t mean everything

#personal #it really is such a up and down - sometimes i love being in the fandom and sharing opinions and analyses and all #and sometimes i don't want any of it #even when you disagree with stuff or it makes you upset you don't always have to talk about it and i'm really trying to hold back #i don't have to acknowledge it and i don't want it to bother me and i wanna go back to just enjoying the show #and i think i can do that best when i don't see hundreds of other people's reactions and opinions #i will enjoy the gifs and posts and analyses and memes later on #i'll definitely be back #and i probably can't stay away for too long bc the content will dry up at some point and fans will leave bc it's the last season #and sadly that means that some people are not interested in staying longer even though i hope this fandom can last #honestly it's probably gonna be more chill when the hype is over and only some people stay and hopefully that means less drama

[cinna-bunnie]

i just finished iron blooded orphans and need to lay down for a bit

#it was so good #i don't have a lot of concrete thoughts rn just Feelings™ #it was SUCH a wild ride. I'm always kinda hesitant to talk about a show bc i feel like I'm gonna spoil it but it's also not new lol so?? #imma talk about it a bit anyways so tags after this will have spoilers #BUT SJFKGKDLA #so many people died 😭 imo the late deaths weren't as Sad™ as the earlier ones but still. #the way everyone changed their names and picked up new lives but still kept in touch with each other #and everyone finding Something because they kept moving forward. particularly Takaki in particular for me 🥹🤲 #hearing something as simple like if u see a lot of places and learn a lot of things u will have many options. but The Way he's #living that out is just 🤌 a long way from being human debris my boy 🫂 I'm so proud of him #and I'm glad that greedy arms freaking mf got shot up in the bathroom 😼 it's what he DESERVED!! #last episode just like. rly emphasizing that even though the group is done everyone still lives on and finds their niche #and it's tragic fr how many people had to die trying to realize a dream that happened anyways 😔 though it wouldn't have #without their deaths so.. i fuckn KNEW at the beginning of the second season when Olga got the warning #about how if ur taking shortcuts/fastest way possible ur going to regret it later was MASSIVE foreshadowing #and it's just like damn y'all r letting me know this early huh 😭imma enjoy the ride regardless and what a fucking ride it was #i almost want to watch it again but there are also Other gundam series i need to check out #not for a while though.. imma do some stuff around the house n maybe draw for a bit. #just rly sit on my feelings and the Experience i just had. thank u everyone who brought up IBO it was SOOOO fucking good #feel free to recommend other favorites of yours i should check out next. mecha anime has always been a blindspot too so #if y'all have any in general from the genre lmk ^~^

[icewindandboringhorror]

Some recent pressed leaves and stuff to add to the collection :0

#LOV giant nasturtium leaves #and they press weirdly thin like when they dry out it's almost like a super super fragile sheet of tracing paper or something #I also just really enjoy collecting textures and patterns and stuff. like it's not really about them looking pretty but more just #something notable. like the cool dotted pattern or the stripey veiny looking one #I have so much I want to get done by the end of the year but have been so unproductive still lol ToT #I've had new costumes and like Actual Stuff To Post for probably 2 months now but they just sit in a folder and I forget about #them and like walk in circles talking to myself all day instead or something hhh #I think it's the classic cycle of like 'I am too stressed to be productive > the fact that i'm not being productive stresses me out > i am #even more stressed and no more productive > being unproductive stresses me out > so on and so forth forever' lol #or the 'I have so many goals in life and so much motivation and so many things I love and want to do > there are too many things to do #at once and it's overwhelming > do none of them instead' cycle lol #I think my main focuses in the new year though are to finally finish the worldbuilding slideshow. Do more costumes. And do more sculptures #since I haven't done a lot of those in a while. And still work on my games and short stories and stuff that takes place in my worldbuilding #world but those are more difficult longterm tasks so I think they should be like. not the MAIN main focus or else I'll never feel like I do #anything. I think that was the problem for the past while is that the things I had delegated as my Main Focuses That Go Above All Else #are so long and difficult and tedious that you never feel like you're making progress so it's like you're ignoring all the other stuff you #could be doing in favor of a thing that feels like you're not doing anything thus you get a chronic feeling of never finishing anything ever #Whereas like. I can do a sculpture in a day or two. and I can do costumes in a day or less. Having a steadier flow of Small Things i can fee #l like I'm actually accomplishing will maybe help it not just be like 'okay I spent a whole day doing somehting and have nothing tangible to #show for it because it's just text in a word document that probably nothing will ever even come of because it will take me years to finish' #The biggest insurmountable task at the moment is the worldbuilding slideshow but I am chugging through.. slowly lol.. It takes me about #2 hours to read 25 slides (they're not bullet points it's like little paragraphs on each slide). and I have about 800 to go. so thats.. #naur.. i shant even calculate it... plus editing one hour of vidoe usually takes about 2 hours so you double it. if I have that much recordi #ng of me reading slides to edit. then turning them all into a final video should take.... i cannot say. i shall not think of it #And I've just had a very stressful few weeks HOWEVER I just always like tp start the new year with stuff cleared like.. all of my messages I #haven't answered in 3+ weeks responded to. all of my emails to my doctors checked. house cleaned and organized. photos cleared and organized #off of the computer. everyting backed up in some sort of physical storage. clear out drafts. rewrite all of my main todo lists. decide prio #rities and yearly/monthly/weekly goals. consider the trajectory of my life and what I need to do. etc. etc. So I feel like I don't have any #time to waste and can't rest. yet.. alas.. It doesn't help that I feel sick out of nowehre like 50% of the time #I know some poeple can work/focus on tasks with body aches and etc. but my brain is just always like 'No. :)' .. grrrbb

[wriochilde]

ok.

#wjatevr. i dont care #no actually i do care. its about morishige how can i not care #i saw a very interesting take on why morishige chases yuka (not the tutorial idea. thats also interesting though) #something about how he was protecting her and he was never going to harm her #and i was like huh. maybe i misunderstood because i played the game when i was 11 #and then i realized i literally played it last week #i cant help but disagree? yeah he wasnt planning on hurting her. it makes the whole chase scene very funny especially if you get caught #he keeps repeating the same thing and me and my sister joke about it all the time lol #but anyways. i think that even in the manga he wouldnt have hurt her even though he hints at his intent being more malicious than in game #i love this scene because i love hearing people talk about why the fuck he did this #let me talk about the manga instead for a moment actually i think this scene is much funner there #he stops for a moment when yuka stops crying before he breaks into this very obviously malicious grin #like he was EXCITED. the darkening had already startrd to show and its very clear while hes chasing her #the whole time he was just messing with her. he wasnt planning to harm her in the manga either #because he literally catches up to her. and he could've caught up to her multiple times had he not been taking pictures as she ran #all he did when he caught up to her was whisper in her ear. so #yeah. he wasnt going to kill her or injure her like in the anime. but does that mean he had any good intentions? #im not sure how this could be described as him simply helping her #and i could be remembering wrong but doesnt he somewhat explain himself in book of shadows? #i remember him saying something about him just having fun and enjoying how scared she was #so ive always just seen it as him enjoying the rush he got from chasing someone weaker than him #because it was partially the darkening right? #im not one to say that morishige is inherently evil or always had a huge interest in gore or anything. becausw its not true #but i dont want to deface his character by warping his intentions to seem less malicious #i need to get a fucking journal this is getting out of hand #finn.txt

[ezraphobicsoup]

radio man just insulted sondheim :(

#they’re doing a thing about ‘things you’ve walked out of’ in terms of like films and shows #and i missed the start of this one but they were talking about sweeney todd #and one of them goes ‘oh is that a sondheim thing. i would never walk out of a sondheim musical because i wouldn’t have walked in in the #first place knowing it was going to be unlistenable’ #the other one said he didn’t agree though #have to say i am enjoying this discussion apparently there was a woman who went to see the barbie movie and after about 10 minutes #stood up and said out loud like in the cinema ‘this is silly’ and left #like yeah it’s the barbie movie innit not exactly serious from the get go of the premis #(side note where does get go come from as a phrase. and did i spell premis right or is it premises or whatever) #weekend morning radio once again unparalleled form of entertainment

[girlscience]

I totally love being just a little too weird for normal people, but not weird enough for them to avoid me. It's great. Makes for wonderful conversations where I think I have something interesting to add and a chance to share something I like and then get made fun of.

#I know I should just... not talk about things I like a work #cause even though we are all scientists we are definitely not all nerds #and though I frequently feel I am not nerdy enough to be a nerd. I am Significatly more nerdy than I think literally all of my coworkers #and so when people are talking about themes of shows like Alien.... and are already kind of being laughed at for thinking those movies had #something interesting to say.... maybe I should not jump in with how I enjoy doing the same thing with transformers #I will get scoffed at and eyerolled at and people will not look at me and will make comments to end the conversation #also because I will get a little too into it and stop being able to look at people while also waving my arms around #which works great when I'm ranting about media with Kaz 💜 #but uh. not so great when you are eating lunch at a table with a bunch of coworkers who decidedly don't do that