#i do not even know my abcs

[letmetellyouaboutmyfeels]

As if I wasn't already exhausted enough this morning...

It's been brought to my attention that people are taking my fanfics, editing them, and sharing them around. I don't have the words to describe how not okay this is. If you don't like something about my fanfic, then I'm sorry to hear that, but there are a lot of other fics out there you can read instead.

I put time and effort and care into my writing, as does every writer. To take my work without permission and change it feels like someone just punched me in the gut. Frankly it makes me not want to share my work at all and to take down all the writing I do have up, because why should I share anything with people if all they're going to do is decide it's not good enough and they're going to do what they want with it and make it "better"?

And before anyone comes at me, this is not what a transformative work does. This is not the same as fanfiction. I'm fucking exhausted from working two eleven hour shifts over the weekend so my brain is not working so someone smarter and more articulate than I am can explain why. I'm tired.

This genuinely makes me want to take down all my works and not share anything new. It's very simple, kiddos: Don't like it? Don't read it. You will miss out on some fanfics that way, just like you'll miss out on some films, or books, or TV shows. I've missed out on really good fic, novels, films, etc, for the same reason. We all do. It's a part of life. Stuff will sometimes have things in it that you don't like. Skim those parts, fast-forward those scenes, grin and bear it, or just go and read/watch something else.

Normally I would make this post unrebloggable but I worry other writers in this fandom might experience the same thing and not realize it. So people are welcome to reblog this. Anyone who's an ass on it will be blocked, no second chances.

Just. Don't do this guys. Holy shit don't do this. What the actual fuck.

#mads writes stuff #911 abc #911 fanfic #yes unfortunately tagging the fandom since that's the fandom it happened in #I'm just #holy fuck #genuinely I want to message every writer I know in this fandom #even if we've never spoken #to like... warn them this is apparently a thing #I wish I could make my brain work right now but I'm so fucking braindead #I'm working three jobs and this is my fun relax safe space except NOT ANYMORE 'CAUSE PEOPLE ARE BEING DICKS #just... don't fucking do this what the FUCK is wrong with you #actual CHILDREN are more respectful holy fuck

[housewifebuck]

4x05 -> 4x14

#I know this had been giffed a thousand times over but fuck off I wanted to do one too #911 #911edit #buddie #buddieedit #911verse #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 abc #🪐 #my gifs #the way these scenes are even composed/framed so similarly like #this was so #………. #cmon now ……

[lover-of-mine]

Eddie Diaz + Hesitation.

#911 #eddiediazedit #911edit #911 fox #911 abc #my edit #well #i dont know okay #when i was looking for the correct shots to add to my eddie fell first essay i was like #huh dude pulls back before saying someting a lot #thats a set idea #dude bites his tongue a lot aoksaoksaoskaoks #anyway #i dont even know if this makes sense i just needed something to do that i can do because my brain is telling me im a bad writer #and i needed it to shut up #and gifs are a mechanical #anyway yeah #have this #i miss him :( #911verse #eddie diaz

[watchyourbuck]

U are even reading and sharing tuck fanfics. I mean are u crossing over? I don't understand how you can root for them this much when buddie isn't even a done deal. Ur betraying them

okay, lets maybe stop for a second alright. i ship buddie like pretty much everyone else in this fandom, that hasnt changed. its not gonna change, not even if Buck gets a whole, three season arc with Tommy.

having said that, why wouldn't i be allowed to enjoy other ships? partake, write, reblog, etc? "You are betraying them" they're not real dfghj this is a fandom for fictional characters. they dont exist, im not betraying anybody.

fandoms exist for our enjoyment, for our exploit. part of that is sometimes seeing the meaning and fun into other ships that arent your main, that arent your endgame.

i like buddie, i ship buddie, its in my bio lmao, but i still like bucktommy. i dont necessarily want them to be end up together forever but this is CANON bi Buck's first relationship with a man, and i support his journey of self discovery. as ive said before, i actually think its good he wasnt paired up immediately with Eddie. whatever happened to slow burns!!! to multishipping!!! to ot3s!!!

lets people vibe yeah? create and consume the content they want??

#might pin this lmao #partaking in a ship doesnt make it your ride or die my darling #i enjoy multiple things i know i wont do forever #this is one of them #for now im riding both trains (like buck lmaoooo) #and im writing for both #even a polygam buddietommy #911 spoilers #911 abc #911 tv show #buddie #evan buckley #evan buck buckley #911 #911 on abc #911 season 7 #bucktommy #tommy kinard

[simpingforhotfictionalcharacters]

y'know I've been thinking about buddie a lot since buck being bi became canon and as much as I love bucktommy I really wonder if/how they can make it endgame. my biggest concern right now is that buddie makes so much sense narratively that anything else would feel forced because for bucktommy (or buckanyoneelse) to be endgame it'll feel like eddie will never find love. I don't necessarily think that's true but it will feel like it. at least in that moment.

both these men have been in and out of relationships for the whole time we've known them and their north star has still always been them. they still always go right back to the other. and that can be done in a platonic way and they can have a platonic soulmates buddie alongside a romantic bucktommy but i dunno

even though I personally do headcanon eddie as arospec and love buddie as both a qpr and a romantic relationship I don't think abc is gonna do a qpr. and I don't think they'll do a poly relationship either and give us bucktommyeddie.

I'm just so worried about how they'll handle this because there's so many people who joined the fandom after 7x04 and have bucktommy as their endgame ship. and I cannot imagine the pain of having a canonical queer otp with a bi main character that you love and hold dear be ripped out of your hands just for another relationship that you may or may not care about. I can see how it would be devastating. I would be so upset if we got buddie only for them to break up and another relationship to take its place down the line.

and while i love buck and tommy together so much I still really only see buddie as endgame with how I perceive the story so far. if bucktommy or anyone else becomes endgame I won't be angry or anything but unless it's well done I'll probably question how they got there.

like it's possible. I'll never say never because they could completely surprise me and Eddie will have a compelling love interest or maybe they'll even go the qpr angle or poly relationship route.

I love multi shipping and I've never expected any ship I have to become canon so I'll survive and most likely be happy no matter what happens. I ultimately have always only wanted buck and eddie and now tommy to be happy.

but I can't stop thinking about whether or not the writers room will completely fumble this. I'm worrying so much I'll give myself a ulcer.

#i dont know when i became a worrywart over relationships in a show but here i am worrying #bucktommy #buck x tommy #tevan #buddie #buddietommy #buck x tommy x eddie #evan buckley #tommy kinard #eddie diaz #tv: 911 #911 abc #911 discourse #saf.txt #saf rambles #does this even make sense #i wish i was eloquent and could write for shit #even though i dont really believe bucktommy is endgame i can see it and i do really like the ship theyre currently my favourite

[tokenofmydevotion]

I'm not a writer but I have this Buck/Tommy/Eddie 3 dads fic idea that won't let go of my brain, so I'm just gonna spit it out here:

Chris is in high school now. Eddie gets a call from the school that Chris is in trouble and a parent needs to come meet with the principle. They're all off work, so they all go to the school. Hilarity ensues.

Principal: so which one of you is Chris's dad?

Eddie: I'm his dad, Buck is his other dad, and Tommy is his stepdad.

Principal: Ah, child of divorce. Which one of you is married to Chris's mom?

Eddie: oh my wife died when Chris was young.

P: So Chris has no mom?

E: well Carla has been his nanny for years, she can stay with him overnight if we're all working. Or my Tia Pepa.

B: or my sister Maddie

(P glances at Tommy)

T: oh I don't have any family here, but if we're just listing strong positive female role models there's...

(all 3 begin to tell P about Hen, Karen, Athena, etc)

P: I'm sorry, what is that you do that would keep you away from home so much?

E: oh we're all firefighters

T: I'm also a helicopter pilot

P: ok, so Chris has 3 gay firefighter dad's-

B: umm, actually I'm bisexual

E: I'm demisexual

(P once again looks to T for his response)

T: me? Oh yeah, I'm gay.

P: ok... I think I've got the picture here.

E: now that that's out of the way, why are we here?

P, sighing heavily: Chris hit a kid with his crutch for "being homophobic"

Chris is called into the office and explains that Mark was saying nasty things to Marie and her trans gf, so he whacked him in the shin.

E: Chris, you know that was wrong.

C: I know! That's why I hit him!

At this point they can barely keep from laughing.

T: You know, we're also both medics. We could take a look at his leg if you like. Unless you think he might be scared of the big gay firefighter.

P, head in hands: No. Just... just go. Make sure it doesn't happen again.

E: Chris, we'll discuss your punishment when we get home.

Halfway down the hall:

C: Am I really getting punished for this?

E: No bud, you're not.

B: No, you're getting ice cream.

T: No. No ice cream.

All stop to stare at him. Tommy puts his hand on Chris's shoulder and leans down to eye level.

T: Chris. You didn't earn ice cream...

They're all holding their breathe cuz Tommy looks really serious.

T: You earned Cheesecake Factory buddy.

And scene.

#bucktommy #911 abc #buddie #christopher diaz #i don't know what throuple name is being used #if someone wants to actually flesh this fic idea out please do #i would love to read it #even though it's been playing on a loop in my head for a few days

[feelingthedisaster]

i left the 911 fandom for so little time and BUCK IS CANONICLY BI NOW?????? LETS GO!!!!!!!

#i didnt even know there were new eps #fuck i have to watch them #I TOLD YOU SO MOM YOU DIDNT BELIEVE HE WAS BI BUT WHAT DO WE HAVE HERE #(yes i watched with my mom it was our bonding time) #911 #911 abc #evan buckley #911 spoilers #911 fox #911 buck #bi evan buckley #bi evan buck buckley

[littleraeofsunshineda]

okay yeah I like an OTP with deep unhealthily codependent history (buddie) and I'm not gonna pretend I'm not hoping by maybe s9 they might be there

but

I can like relationships on the way and

Buck grabbing Tommy "you're a beast" - the man wants to fuck him so bad

#haven't even got to that ep yet but i feel those gifsets in my SOUL #Yeah go you buck #Get taught how to fuck boys with this cute dude #Then you'll know how to teach Eddie when he needs you to #(Cause let's be honest that guy isn't gonna be picking up anyone he ain't in love with #and one of them needs to know what they're doing) #Basically bucktommy is hot and cute yo I'm here for it #The journey etc etc #Even if buddie personally hits my ultimate endgame joy buttons #If they stick with Tommy forever that will be cute too #buddie #911 on abc #bucktommy #bevan

[giyuulatte]

has anyone made spider-buck fanart? if so please point me in that direction. thanks !!

#BIG yap time #had a thought while i was walking to work #pictured myself swinging peter parker style like the loser i am #then i was like BUCK #please someone has to have had this same though as me #what i would do to have my art skills back rn y'all don't even know #like buck is spiderman right and is still a firefighter and no one knows (obviously) but he ends up with more bruises than ever #he tries to balance being spiderman and doing his job AND hanging out with the 118 and burns himself out faster than ever #chris loves spiderman and wants to be him and all that good stuff #lots of angst too #the 118 finds out and eddie gives his whole “you're not expendable speech” #ooooooooooo #i'm about to HUNT for this content #911 #911 show #911 on abc

[identitty-dickruption]

terrifies me sometimes that the US politics I have learnt largely against my will is still regularly more than the amount USians seem to know. like. yeah okay I am a political science student so that doesn’t help the situation. but when I, an anti-US Australian, am able to summarise the recent national security bill while USians are claiming that they’ve never heard of said bill……. what is happening

#rhetorical question. ‘what is happening’ is imperialism #someone said it took them ages to see reporting on the security bill #whereas I got a notification from the ABC about it the moment it happened #and that’s the AUSTRALIAN ABC btw #if you follow the news even a little bit here. you will end up knowing way more about the US than you need to #anyway 👍✌️ #the thing is. I do watch Planet America. but that’s 30 minutes of US news a week #and I largely watch it so that I can see some analysis of the bullshit I’m gonna find out abou #anyway #US news is unavoidable #might as well get the most well rounded version of it #ugh. #why is it that I am made to be more aware of the IVF situation in the US #than like. anything about reproductive health here #I have to go out of my way to find that shir #*shit #anyway. whatever. I hate the US

[caswlw]

the idea that they’re writing the season as they go so they’re seeing the reaction the audience has and that it (even in the smallest way possible) could have an impact on what happens this season (and in future seasons) is so wild to me. not saying that they’re seeing our response and saying “oh that sounds good, totally writing that in,” but it’s not impossible to say that they will see what the people want, realize the best way to generate buzz and excitement and increased viewership is to keep your fans happy, and then actually do something about it instead of killing characters/storylines just for kicks

911 has the opportunity to be that bitch even more than it already is and they shouldn’t squander it while they’re on top

#911 abc #yall remember dabb’s 10% comment bc i do!!!! #i just think they’re paying a lot of attention to promotion and audience reaction in ways that they never did before Because they want it #to continue performing as well as it is (which is to say better than it did on fox) #and because of that they can continue to make moves that benefit them and not hurt them ykwim #i want to be clear that this isn’t me saying buddie should go canon or even anything close to buddie specifically #but more that angering fans by just Deciding to do things or even worse KNOWING it’ll piss ppl off and doing it anyway is the wrong way to #make people want to keep watching your show #like if everyone is begging for more ravi (which we are) and they go okay! here’s more ravi i know you guys love him! that would be great #instead of slowly writing him off (god forbid even worse) just bc they wanted to or bc they know we love him #and they’re in the PRIME position to take advantage of the extra eyes on the show and making moves to make this season (ABC’s First with us) #and have it go down as not only one of 911’s best seasons (by ratings and views and fan opinion) but also a damn good season of television #is this just a pitch for ravi main s8. idk at some point it might’ve turned into one #i just think it’s cool how they’re doing the work they have this season with interacting with fans/the GA and doing promotion #it’s so well done it makes my marketing major heart squeeze a little #anyway. gay eddie 🤔 #notes from the prime minister

[skateboardtotheheart]

why am i legitimately nervous about tonight's episode, like my chest is tight about it

#I CAN'T EVEN WATCH THE EPISODE I HAVE TO WAIT UNTIL TOMORROW #but trust that i will be immediately looking at the spoilers #i just want buck and tonmys date to go well 😭 #i need them to be the cute i have in my head 😭 #i think marisol is fine but also i do not need her and eddies relationship going further #maybe “you dont know me” isn't about buck and eddie but actually about eddie and marisol #EDDIE IS GAY STOP GIVING HIM GIRLFRIENDS #911 abc #911 season 7

[tethered-heartstrings]

10 and 31 for the fanfic author asks?

10. What makes a fic 'successful' in your opinion? - ideally, enjoying what you write, feeling good about it, writing for yourself. for me also, the characters I am depicting being well characterized/represented as well. people enjoying it is obv the goal with sharing it, but i try not to make that the Main Thing about a fic. it is great to see a fic be enjoyed and commented on etc., but even if a fic were to "do well" but I hated the fic, I wouldn't consider that a success imo

31. Do you listen to music while writing? - no, i write in complete silence

send me fanfic author asks <3

#10 was hard to answer bc i am someone that struggles with what they create and feeling like ''it did well'' if that makes sense #working on it though bc its unhealthy lol #i do know certain types of fics do better than others at least in my experience so the ''numbers'' on a fic vary #people liking what i write is a great motivator but if i focus too much on that then i wouldn't be creating as much as I do #bc i would get very stuck on and tied up on 'xyz type wont do as well as abc type so i won't write it' even though i really want to write i #if that makes any sense lol #long answer and lots of rambles sorry #niannianyabao #the curious clown

[lover-of-mine]

Fought 'til you tethered me, swept under surfaces, never enough of it...

#911 #buddie #911edit #buddieedit #911 on fox #911 fox #911 abc #evanbuckleyedit #eddiediazedit #my edit #otp: you don't need to pretend with me #usercam #at this point i should have a cemetery tag lol #flashing tw #i need a gracie tag dont I? #die on their watch. #so i was thinking earlier and if youve been around here any length of time you know i think about that cemetery scene a lot #because narratively its very interesting scene because i changes the tone of their relationship in comparison to the rest of the show reall #and its a fascinating choice. even the whole point that of the conversation happening at a cemetery where theyre visiting someone who didn' #but i have a tendency to look at that scene from eddies eyes #because when you look at it along with all of eddies reactions surrounding bucks death and the reactions eddie was having to bucks words #that feels like a breakup. if feels like were watching eddies heart break in real time yk? #BUT buck is very purposeful in this scene too. he's basically daring eddie to say something but eddie just thinks that he needs to agree #and if you look at it that way and think about it as buck asking for a reaction you can argue buck feels rejected here too #even tho eddie thinks hes being supportive #they are saying things and they are being misinterpreted. both of them leave that talk with different views of what happened #and thats VERY interesting with how strongly the show pushed buck eddie and chris as a family unity in the episodes before #and well i dont really know how the show plans to recover from that. if they plan on doing it at all. but like #that was a breakup. but if its a breakup where both of them think they got broken up with. how do you come back? #eddie diaz

[sawedofffeet]

'Marge looking at her potato'-voice: I just think he's neat

#leigh whannell #abc recovery #babygirl #the wa #he stutters and makes a mistake #and then smiles and saves it in a charming way #ANYWAY!!!!!!!! #i'm good #i'm fine #not as fine as him if u catch my drift huehuehuehue 😏 #there's not even CLOSE to being enough leigh recovery content on here #so i'm doing myself and like 3 people a favour and making it myself #is it great? no. it's literally lil clips and shitty screen shots #but beggars can't be choosers i guess #i'm the beggar. and i'm choosing to giggle at silly little leigh clips all day everyday #he's so precious #i like his dark short gelled hair too <3 #he's pretty no matter what #and he's so much more confident in this recovery era than he was in the beginning #i mean duh - but ya know

[professionaljester]

love being 25 and not knowing how to socialize bc i’m autistic and off putting and cringe so no one wanted to talk to me/wanted to be my friend growing up so now i’m an adult with very few friends or ppl i talk to on a regular basis bc i never learned how to socialize or text properly bc no one taught me how

#abc shut it #vent #i’m so lonely it’s not even funny #my talking to myself has just gotten worse in the past few months alone #i just want some friends i can do watch parties with and play games with damn it #i’m so bored and lonely all the time #my life has just been work sleep and chores and it’s driving me insane bc i have nothing breaking up the routine #like it doesn’t help no one texted me bc i was poor and had didn’t get a smart phone until is was basically too late :) #like i know part of it is the depression but #idk i just don’t do anything when i get home #sometimes i do art sometimes i game but usually i just lose track of time staring at tumblr and the next thing i know my few hours— #after work are gone and i have to go to bed #like don’t get my wrong i LOVE my coworkers but i need some more friends within my own age bracket #like is it to much to ask for a group of friends that will watch anime and movies with me in our own discord server #like is that literally to much to fucking ask of the universe can i be allowed to feel like an actual normal human being that’s connected #to the human experience for once in my fuckkng life #and not feel like some sort out outlier that doesn’t fucking exist to anyone #i’m to a point where i think and feel like i’m not even real! lol #like idk i would just like there to not to be days where i literally don’t communicate with anyone #and know what to say when ppl DO text me bc when ppl do text me i half the time don’t even know what to say #and forget the message is there and get to scared to reply after too much time has passed like #i know it’s a me problem that therapy would help but im terrified that it won’t #that i’ll just be going therapy and still be a lonely autisic looser who doesn’t know how to communicate without being off putting #or being too much