#i don't think it'll be like. soon soon but i think it will happen as soon as one of us figures out how to be an adult on his own

[ghostofhyuck]

NCT Dream confessing to you. 

AN: Wow this one was long too because I got carried away.

Mark Lee

Mark would be the type that wanted to keep it quiet and private. Just the two of you. In your apartment, over two cups of coffee. It was a peaceful moment where in you two are enjoying the peace when Mark couldn't stop himself from staring at you. He likes you ever since you two were in high school. He doesn't want to confess because he's afraid of ruining your friendship. But in that moment, he just feels like doing it. So he holds your hand, starting with something like, "There's something I wanted to say," and then before you could say anything, he tells you that he likes you. You'll be flustered with the sudden confession, but only smiles, confessing to him that you also like him too. He'll be happy to hear your confession and once the tension is gone, you two will start teasing each other, asking when did you two start liking each other.

Huang Renjun

Renjun would do it during a late night walk from a coffee shop run. You two just finished a huge school paper and are now on the way to your place because Renjun wanted to make sure that you get home before he goes to his place. Your neighborhood has always been this quiet, making Renjun nervous. This is the moment that he's been waiting for. For months, he has been pining over you and it was a risk for him to confess to you, but he just wanted to tell you so that he wanted to know if he should stop pining over you or not. So when he grabs your hand, you were surprised, but Renjun acts like it was nothing even swaying it lightly. His hands never left yours until you two reached your place, that's where he confesses to you about his feelings. Surprised, you weren't able to answer his confession because he ran away quickly! (You texted him that you like him too.)

Lee Jeno

It's been bugging him for months! Jeno's pining for you is so hard to watch especially for his friends, they think that he should just confess to you because they don't like seeing Jeno's love strucked pining over you and the other one is that, they know that you like him back! (they're just keeping it as a secret.) So after many convincing, Jeno mustered up the courage. He said at first, he'll do it through text but he couldn't find the right word to do so, so he asked you if he can call and you said yes. As soon as you said hi, Jeno bursts. Literally confessed to you so fast that you weren't able to pick up anything other than, "I like you." he seems so out of breath after the confession but apologizes to you because of the sudden confession but you only laughed it off and told him that you like him too!

Lee Donghyuck

I feel like Haechan follows some superstitions like when you confessed to someone during the first fall of snow, they'll be yours forever something like that. Haechan thinks that it's true that's why he asked you to meet him during the first snow, as predicted by the weather forecast. You met him at the school's playground and Haechan thinks that you look cute in your winter coat, even placing his scarf around you so that you'll be more warm. He looks at the sky and then thinks that any minute now, it's going to snow but it didn't. He'll ask you to wait for a few minutes glancing at the sky once again, making you realized what's happening. You told him that he doesn't need the first snow to happen, because you like him too. Haechan would be in relief to hear those words from you, you two will end up laughing because of the situation. When he walked you home, that's when the snow fell, making you two be in awe with the weather. 

Na Jaemin

Oh I think that Jaemin would confess to you at the spur of the moment. It'll be on a vacation trip. The two of you are sitting on the chairs, watching the waves crash while the moon glisten on the ocean. You two are just sitting there, talking about the future and something deep, like what would happen to you and your friend group once you guys graduated and you two are just laughing and being silly, until Jaemin stops and glances at you. That's when it caught you off-guard that he's been staring for too long. "Do you know that I've always liked you?" and you tried to laugh it off, telling him to stop fooling around until he says that he's serious. You two will have a staring contest, his eyes looking at you lovingly. Waiting for an answer from you. Instead of answering him, you pulled Jaemin for a kiss, which surprised him but he only smile as he leans to kiss you once more. 

Zhong Chenle

"After this, there's something important that I wanted to say to you," would probably a hint Chenle will give you. He's the type who'll confess after a huge event, let's say, you're the main star of a musical prod in your university. You've been working hard and have been practicing nonstop for the show, and then Chenle told you that he's going to say something to you after you finish the show because he wants you to focus on the prod first. But it distracts you more! because you're curious about what he wants to say to you! You tried to ask Chenle about it but he brushes it off. So at the day of your final show, Chenle shows up with a bouquet of flowers on his hands. It'll be just the two of you, somewhere backstage, hidden from the crowd. He'll say first that he's proud of you, and that he likes you which made you cry, overwhelmed with joy. 

Park Jisung

You know those romance high school anime where they confess during graduation? Yeah that's how Jisung confesses to you. It'll be during your graduation because it's a risk for Jisung. It's now or never, so if you even rejected him, at least he won't be seeing you anymore. He'll be the type to text you to meet him at your classroom or maybe at the school's rooftop (if you guys are allowed there lmao.) When you reached the meeting place, you'll see him with his diploma, wearing his school uniform and you'll be caught off-guard at how incredibly handsome Jisung is. He'll approach you and then it took him a minute to say word, eventually, stumbling through his confession. "I don't need your answer yn, I just want to tell you I like you before we part ways." he added. And instead of answering him, you gave Jisung a hug, surprising him with your action. 

#nct dream #nct imagines #nct dream fic #nct fic #nct x reader #nct #nct dream imagine #nct scenarios #nct fluff #nct reactions #nct dream reactions #nct drabbles #nct mark #nct jeno #nct renjun #nct haechan #nct jaemin #nct chenle #nct jisung

[otomehoneyybearr]

Golden Week Happy Bag 2024

Kagari’s Story

One day, during my stay in Kogyoku, I had been whisked away by Kagari.

Kagari: "Princess."

Emma: "Wah...!"

Suddenly pulled back by the shoulders, I instinctively cling to Kagari sitting beside me.

Kagari: "...You were leaning too far forward. You would have fallen if you stayed like that."

Emma: "Oops, Sorry, I'll be more careful."

Kagari: "You better be. If you get injured, it'll ruin the cherry blossom viewing."

(Even though it was you who forcefully brought me here...)

(But you don't often get to see such a beautiful view, do you?)

The place where Kagari took me to was atop a cherry blossom tree in the castle with red tiles.

The fully bloomed cherry blossoms filling my sight, along with the blue sky and the town visible through the gaps, create a fantastical scene like a painting.

I gaze in wonder, as a gentle breeze caresses my skin, carrying the cherry blossom petals that fluttered around.

(It's beautiful...)

Kagari: "In Kogyoku, it's said that if you can catch falling cherry blossom petals with your non-dominant hand, you'll find happiness."

Kagari: "I suppose you want to try it, Princess?"

Emma: "Of course. I'll make it happen in one go, so please watch."

Focusing on the fluttering petals, I waited for the right moment.

(Now!)

Kagari: "..."

(Here it is!)

Kagari: "..."

(This time for sure!)

Emma: "That's odd, seems like I'm off my game today."

Kagari: "Just admit that your reflexes and visual acuity are lacking."

(Well... that's harsh.)

The result was a crushing defeat, ending with me just grabbing at thin air.

Kagari: "Your hair seems to be doing a better job."

As soon as the hand wrapped in red gloves touched my hair, petals began to fall from it.

Kagari: "That’s one, two, three... four petals."

Emma: "That's a lot."

Kagari: "It seems you're fond of this cherry blossom. Hold still since there are still some left."

Emma: "Uh, okay."

(It feels like being petted on the head. It's nice, but a little embarrassing.)

Pretending not to notice the warmth on my cheeks, I wait for Kagari to withdraw his hand.

Kagari: "..."

Emma: "Um, is something the matter, Kagari?"

Noticing the intense gaze, I keep my gaze on Kagari without averting them.

For some reason, Kagari takes a cherry blossom petal from my hair and puts it in his own, then tilts his head towards me.

(Is he… asking me to take it?)

Reaching out to his fiery red hair, I pluck the petal.

Occasionally, my hand is pressed against his head, and instinctively, I start to stroke it...

(Ah… it feels like being affectionately approached by a big cat, it's cute.)

Seeing a slight softening in his expression, my heart tightens.

Kagari: "Is it over already?"

Emma: "Yes. I've taken all the petals out."

Kagari: "...I see."

(Somehow, he seems disappointed.)

(Come to think of it, why did Kagari bring me to see the cherry blossoms?)

Subordinate: "Your highness."

I lowered my gaze at the sudden voice to find Kagari's subordinate standing there.

Subordinate: "The preparations for the meeting are complete."

Kagari: "Alright. You may proceed with it."

Subordinate: "Yes, understood."

(A meeting...)

●●●●●● Flashback ●●●●●●

Emma: "Um, Kagari, you seem to be injured..."

Kagari: "It's not my blood."

Kagari: "Your timing is truly terrible, Princess."

●●●●●● Flashback End ●●●●●●

(Is another battle about to begin?)

Anxiety and fear crawl up my spine as the image of Kagari covered in blood flashes in my mind.

(I’d been taught that battles are like everyday occurrences in Kogyoku.)

(Still, I hope the damage isn't too severe.)

Although I'm an outsider, I can't help but earnestly wish for it.

Kagari: "...Apologies are meaningless now."

Emma: "Huh?"

When I looked up, the expressionless emerald eyes that had been staring at me turned towards the cherry blossoms as if passing by.

Kagari: "The cherry blossom viewing is over. It was a good distraction."

The wind once again stirred the cherry blossoms, showering petals.

Kagari effortlessly plucked a petal dancing in the air between his thumb and forefinger, and offered it to me.

Kagari: "A petal caught by a demon should have some effect."

Emma: "Only some effect?"

Kagari: "Don't want it? Fine then, suit yourself."

Kagari: "Did you want to become that happy?"

Emma: "I want it because it's a petal you caught for me."

Kagari: "Is that so?"

Emma: "Yes, it is."

Kagari: "...I see. It feels good to hear that."

Emma: "Thank you. I'll treasure it."

(An apology... Was that the meaning behind the cherry blossom viewing?)

(Yasha and battle maniac are terms used to describe him, but at heart, he's a kind person.)

I carefully cradle the received petal in both hands, making sure it doesn't get swept away by the wind.

(Another memory that's been made in here in kogyoku.)

Kagari: "You're that happy over just one petal? You're an easy-to-please Princess."

Emma: "Whoa...!?"

As I’m forcefully pulled closer, Kagari scooped me up in his arms and descended from the cherry blossom tree.

He’s always abrupt and forceful like this.

As my feet touch the ground, a sense of loneliness washes over me, as if signaling the end of a dream.

Kagari: "Farewell, Princess."

Emma: "...Yes."

(I've met Kagari many times already.)

(Yet... he never says "see you later," does he?)

▼・ᴥ・▼

#ikemen prince #ikepri #ikemen prince spoilers #ikepri spoilers #ikepri translations #kagari amagase #ikepri kagari

[rain0tes]

(Happy you like the Goose!Hacker!Reader idea. And here's how I picture the interaction with Sir Pent goes.)

Reader: And yeah, all you need to do is close this line with a curly brace, and the computer should do the rest of the work for you. See? Congratulations, Pent. You just printed your first 'Hello, World!' Going from steampunk into the digital age. You're a natural at this!

Sir Pent: *Eyes widening* A-am I?

Reader: Sure? Anyway... I'll bring some 'Python for dummies' books up for you to read. I think that programming language would be very... fitting for you.

*A week later, the airship is being filmed flying over Hell. Shooting its death ray everywhere.*

Sir Pent: AH HAHAHA! COWER IN FEAR DENIZENS OF HELL! COWER, AT MY LATEST INVENTION! FOR I, THE GREAT SIR PENTIOUS, HAVE ENTERED A NEW AGE OF TECHNOLOGY!

Cherri: Okay Edgelord. But that won't make any difference, it'll still just be me versus you and your little egg minions.

Sir Pent: AH, that's where you're wrong, Missy! For I, have a new allie!

Cherri: *Chuckling* Oh really? WHO would want to team up with YOU?

Sir Pent: I'm glad you asked. BEHOLD! For I, Sir Pentious, future overlord and ruler of Hell, have teamed up with none other than the mysterious anonymous Hacker Demon, READER! *Holding up a photo of him and Reader holding up twin peace signs and a piece of paper with 'Hello, World!' printed on it.*

Cherri: Wait... You... and the Hacker Demon?

Sir Pent: Jealous? I know them personally, we're close, in fact. They even entrusted me with their secret identity! With their genius and generosity to help me, I'll be unstoppable! Thanks to them, my defenses are impenetrable! My death ray is far more powerful than before! Soon, we'll be able to take over all seven rings of Hell! TOGETHER!

*Hacker!Reader slowly curls into a ball of shame as Sir Pent continues to describe what will happen when 'they' take over Hell together, more embarrassed by what's going on than all of Hell now knowing their face.*

*Vox is pissed as he watches it all happen on TV. He watches as his ship with Hacker!Reader, TelePrograms, is no longer trending, and the new Sir Pentious and Hacker!Reader ship, PythonCoding, now is.*

OH MY GOD, THE SHIP NAMES HAD ME CACKLING THEY'RE SO CREATIVE.

I don't actually have anything to add to this, but oml😭 thank you, nonnie. I'll giggle about this as I fall asleep tonight.

#🌧hacker!reader #hazbin hotel x reader

[dazais-guardian-angel]

I'm finding it difficult to reconcile the fact that what I've always wanted and envisioned for Nikolai and his relationship with Fyodor based on fanworks and the very very little canon information we've had to go off of so far, will very likely be very different from what we actually get.

While I understand the appeal of Fyodor taking over Nikolai's body via his blood ability, and the inherent, romantic, ironic tragedy of that — for Nikolai, the person who yearned for freedom, to meet an end by having his soul eternally trapped in the body of the person he loved the most, while Fyodor lives on in his body, never truly knowing how much he was adored by him — I would just hate the idea of that happening now? It just feels far, far too soon for Nikolai to be dead, for his character to no longer have a role or a purpose; his mind and behavior is so utterly fascinating in all its bizarre contradictions, there's so much more to explore and discover with him, he's one of BSD's most complex characters, or at least he's set up to be, and I really hope Asagiri wouldn't throw him away this soon without doing anything more with him.

I never really thought that Nikolai would be the one to end Fyodor for good, way down the line (that can only ever be Dazai's job, to me, since he's his foil), but I always imagined he'd at least have some kind of role in attempting to kill him, since that's his ultimate wish. I imagined that it would be ugly, frenzied, unhinged, desperate, Nikolai finally being forced to acknowledge the horrible truth that's always been buried within his subconscious but he's never wanted to accept: that going against all human reason and killing someone he cares so deeply for will not, in fact, simply make those feelings go away, and will instead make them unable to ignore in his despair. The realization that he'll always be chained to human emotions, to love, no matter how much he thinks he can be free of them. And then, the ensuing breakdown from that. Yes, it's extremely fanficky lmao, but that kind of drama makes sense to me for him and them. It's interesting.

There was also the angst angle of Fyodor being immortal, and Nikolai's agenda perhaps stemming from wanting to save him from that, and being able to finally free him from it in the same way he himself wants to be freed. Killing being the ultimate expression of love, not too dissimilar to Mushitarou killing Yokomizo, both putting on an act of being hateful/vengeful/hostile towards the other in order to cope with the fact that deep down they can't bear the thought of them being gone.

But then we got Fyodor's "death" here, and Nikolai's reaction to it was so unbelievably underwhelming and calm that it made me question everything I thought I knew about Asagiri's writing skills him, and what the story is going for with him. And combined with this revelation now that Fyodor is (unsurprisingly!) immortal, but specifically in the way that he can be killed but supposedly resurrects endlessly (which I really like in of itself, don't get me wrong)... it makes me question what exactly Nikolai knows, or will know, and it somewhat destroys the potential angst we could get with them in the end, or at least drastically changes it.

If Nikolai already knows Fyodor can't be killed, that means we'll never get a moment where he tries to kill him and then has to face the fact that he did the deed and it didn't make him feel freed, and he instantly regrets it. It also means we'd never get a moment where he tries to kill him and then discovers he can't truly die, and the ensuing insanity that would occur from that. It also makes me even question the legitimacy of his reaction to Fyodor's "death" here... was it so damn apathetic and lukewarm because he already knows it wasn't permanent? I mean, I'd like an explanation for it feeling so ooc, it would make me feel better about that, but I can't deny that it would be disappointing to have yet another part of this arc that was just an act and not genuine feelings....

Now, that isn't to say that it's impossible to do anything interesting with Nikolai already knowing the truth. He could be wishing to try to attain free will through the illogical pursuit of an impossible task: in this case, killing Fyodor. There's a beautiful, tragic paradox in him wishing to attempt something to gain his freedom that he and we know is impossible, especially if subconsciously he takes solace in the fact that he'd be able to kill Fyodor without actually losing him for good. If Nikolai doesn't already know, assuming he's not dead he's likely going to find out the truth soon when he next sees Fyodor alive and kicking — I can't imagine a way he wouldn't find out. In that case, we wouldn't get the aforementioned scenario where he tries to kill him and discovers it's futile, which is the most juicy to me I won't lie, but I am still fascinated by the idea of how Nikolai will respond just seeing him suddenly alive again and having to process this after having just mourned him. It's interesting to imagine how he might respond to and treat Fyodor after at last knowing how it truly felt to lose him, and realizing how much he didn't want that, and then suddenly having him back. It might cause him to finally understand that his desire for freedom is unobtainable, and cause him to spiral, and fundamentally change their relationship going forward. An eventual tragic end for him such as Fyodor taking over his body would not feel out of place to me in that case, perhaps, but still not until we've had more time to see Nikolai reflect and see his possible change in perspectives.

I don't know, I'm just rambling at this point lmao. I know very well that so much of my expectations and desires for Nikolai and Fyolai are built up from fan content over the years just because there's been nothing else to work with, and that it's unfair to judge what Asagiri decides to do with him/them based on preconceived notions. Whatever he does could still be interesting in the end, even if it's not what I initially wanted or expected, and being open to being surprised is always a good thing. At the end of the day we still know barely anything about Nikolai, so it's not completely fair for me to judge something as ooc for a character we still know so little about.

But... it's because we know so little about him and have gotten so little of him, that at the very least, I'm gonna be really upset if he does die here from being possessed by Fyodor like people are worrying about. I really don't think he will, because I'm pretty confident the helicopter pilot is the one Fyodor swapped with/resurrected in the body of as per soup's theory, and again I'm not saying it wouldn't be fitting eventually... but I really don't want it to happen now. :/ I just think Nikolai still has so much potential as a character and so much more we need to see of him before his likely inevitable and tragic demise (however it happens), so whatever Asagiri decides to do with him I just really, really hope we don't lose him so prematurely; it would honestly be such a tremendous waste imo.

#bungou stray dogs #bsd 114 #is this meta? i don't know #more like just incoherent rambling lmao #i just don't want Nikolai to die man....... I really don't #i get that people are hyped up on the juicy tragedy of it all but plssssssss it's too soon for him to go #we need so much more of the enigmatic clown...... he's too interesting to lose just yet!!! #i'm sad at probably losing the outcomes i always hoped for him and fyolai but right now i just want More Of Him #he can't die so soon when he's barely even had pagetime #it COULD be fascinating to see Fyodor's reaction to taking over his body but....... i don't think he'd /have/ any right now #they need more time together before one of them dies #i always thought/hoped Fyodor would die first and Nikolai would be left alone to angst lmao but ugh........ #now it's really feeling like it'll be the opposite #which again doesn't HAVE to be a bad thing depending on how Asagiri executes it........ I just think this is way too soon for it to happen #i'm gonna be so mad if Nikolai just dies offscreen without us ever hearing from him again because Fyodor possessed his body #poetically cruel and tragic? yes. but also so anticlimactic at this moment in time #never getting to hear from him again......... #ugh i blame all the Fyolai fan creators; they've raised the bar too high 😭😭😭 #idk maybe i'm just talking out of my ass though. i probably am. i just feel conflicted about all this and need to see where it goes

[byanyan]

if you spend any amount of time around byan, but especially if they're in your home regularly or you share a living space with them, you will have to deal with them looming over your shoulder, invading your personal space, so they can watch you do whatever it is you're doing at the time. a lot of the time they'll get bored really quickly and fuck off, but sometimes they'll just stay there for an absurdly long time, watching so intently. ...in those instances, they also have a tendency to just start leaning on you.

#sometimes they'll just be fascinated or it'll simply hold their attention really well #soon enough they're literally flopped against your back #arms hanging over your shoulders with their chin perched atop one of them #...i do think there are people this happens with more often than others #but i'd say that most people they spend a lot of time with will be faced with it at least once #anyway that's ur random byan thought for the night... i'm gonna see about writing bc my queue is empty & i'd like to fix that lmao #━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ooc ⋮ don't @ me.

[daz4i]

uh oh i think my laptop's officially dead

#i really hope not. but. the keyboard stopped working suddenly 😭 #idk maybe i turned smth off accidentally?? idk if that's even possible #I'm trying to restart it now but it's going. very slowly. which is also worrying #even holding the off button isn't doing anything. shit #it was so sudden too??? it was actually still working like i could use the mouse and it was playing music #this is so weird I'm so scared 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #it's like 5 years old man don't do this to me 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐 #update: well it's not turning off so i took the charger out and hope it dies from a lack of battery power soon #and then I'll plug it back in and see if it helps 😔 #i THINK it happened before?? like that it didn't turn off and i had to wait for the battery to drain first #I'm so worried i really hope it doesn't die 😔 it'll break me mentally i fear. #(yes it's an object but like. i need it man. and it has a lot of my stuff there. and a lot of distractions from the fact I'm alive) #bro why is this taking so long #usually when i use my laptop and it's not actively being charged it dies within 5 minutes #it's been over 10 now and it's still going?? now?? when i actually WANT it to die?? #:/ think I'm gonna leave it alone for now hhhhh whatever. I'm very anxious but there's not much i can do besides waiting anyway

[ayakashibackstreet]

You know what, joining that Discord show club was a great idea, like half of my favourite PKC folks are there. And is there anything more wholesome than someone going '1!! hey, I remember that dog!! she's adorable, I'm glad she's doing well!' about a little pixel friend they made for you years ago?

#someone also said they liked one of my older petz that I got from a member of the Polish Petz community back in the day #and we went on to reminiscent about how the community used to be back then #honestly? in a way that talk is the closest thing I'll ever get to closure in regards to what happened with the PKC #and I think that with that I can actually try and move on #even though it's pretty damn tough when a niche site that's been around since you were born just...... falls apart due to technical issues #but I've done it before. SHiR felt like it would never go away too after all #and I was there with PTI practically since the very beginning and until the very end #anyways the Petz community is still so vibrant and cool #it hurts but it'll heal. It somehow hurts way more now that I'm an adult though. #maybe because now the Polish Petz community basically /has/ no home? and I've known some of those people since I was 11? #still.... all good things must come an end and I can accept it. I feel I'm slowly getting closer to that point. #maybe I'll slowly warm up to the concept of using my RKC account ahahaha.... the RKC people were always really nice after all #the Petz community at large won't die anytime soon I don't think. Most of us have been here for at least 10 years after all. #a huge chunk of them for 20+ years #again. some people have been here longer than I've been alive #it's not something that can entirely disappear

[geniusphilester]

I GOT THE SHIPPING NOTIF FOR MY MERCH

#i will probably get my calendar pre-2024! #i'm less likely to have to email the shop now! #idk why it took so long but! soon!!! #sadly i don't think it'll be in time to wear my catboys for family occasions over the weekend #but if ordering day 1 wouldn't make that happen idk what would #my ramblings #merch #i have been pining so much lol

[moe-broey]

Hmmmm.....

#i've been at my sister's for like? four days? three? idk i have no sense of time #decided to just stay once she got back/weather was real bad anyway. unexpected snowstorm #power's been out for like? two days? at my place? and a bunch of our friends places too lmfao #i think it'll come back soon people are working on it. but. hhhhhh #i actually have A Lot of trouble focusing deeply if i'm not in my own space and ESP if i'm around others #idk why i'm built like that. i brought all my art stuff but i am so aimless....... head empty......... #and then there's my thoughts that just unceremoniously got cut off LMFAO sorry #was gonna do an in-depth look at thrasir/veronica through an aromantic lense #i've been meaning to do that for a while but like. for certain things the vibe has to be Just Right #like if i'm not actively going insane about it it's just not happening LMFAOO #same for my bigger project too........ my comic............ please come back to me........ #i really don't know what to do though. i'm not discontent i'm just bothered i'm not making use of my time #LIKE. ESP. when you take meds to be A Functioning Human. you feel a deep need to make the most of it. #not even like capitalist productivity propaganda wise. but honestly the fact that i do have to pay to live 'normally' #is a side effect of that tbh. capitalism is the problem. as always. we should destroy america #hhhhh.... i will. attemtp to draw. 🫡

[adara-writer]

Ok so chapter 6 is probably going to be posted Saturday morning as I don't have much written right now and I'm exhausted from today. However, life should get a lot easier for the next two weeks, so writing will definitely be happening soon! I've been wanting to write more, but I've just had no time/energy to unfortunately. But because of how delayed this chapter is, please take this very small snippet (and also because I want to share something rn):

When he fell asleep, he dreamed of Jesper, his smile, his eyes, and the feeling of his hand holding Wylan’s. It was a good dream.

#behind the writer #yes there is more wesper happening next chapter #i'm very excited about it #i hope you are too! #i want to get on a more regular posting schedule #and i think it'll be possible soon #my ideal schedule is like 2 times a week #but that is obviously dependent on how busy i am and how motivated i am #and don't worry i am still prioritizing myself #aka why i'm not pushing to get this chapter out sooner

[running-in-the-dark]

I'm still feeling super dizzy (I guess it's vertigo, it's not quite dizziness, more like everything else is moving) but I'm getting my ears pierced today... I was already pretty nervous about that, and I unfortunately have fainted in similar situations before (from seeing or having injuries/wounds/pain) so I should probably cancel? but I don't want to, because I can't be sure I'll ever be brave enough to try again, so I think I'll go anyway.

annnd while I was just writing this the problem solved itself - the piercer tested positive for covid, so she had to cancel the appointment herself.

#I don't think this would have affected the likelihood of me fainting anyway. probably. so I think it would have been fine/as fine as it #would ever be #and I didn't faint when I got my helix piercing or my tattoo. both of which hurt like hell. so I hope it'll be okay when it does happen 🤷 #my new appointment is next week and I fucking hope this will be gone by then?? I'm already pretty shocked it's still like this today #this body is garbage. literally useless. if this doesn't go away soon I'll have to talk to my GP about it and I don't want to do that so I #really hope it'll go away before Monday. it's the worst. I almost prefer being in pain over this 😭 #personal

[letterstotheflre]

things are so awkward at my house now i don't wanna be here anymore

#whenever my mom talks to me in that monotonous voice i want to burst into tears #i come back from class relatively happy cause i was with my friends and as soon as i step inside i feel this weight on my shoulders #and the happiness is sucked out completely #also not to be dramatic or anything but #my mom hasn't said anything about my birthday #and she usually starts asking me what i wanna do to celebrate it or what gifts i'd like at least 2 weeks before #it's 4 days away and she hasn't even mentioned it #nor asked me what i want to do that day #the only year i'm excited for my birthday and this happens #i don't think it'll be a very happy day #keeping up with tina

[theghostofashton]

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#my goal was to post my fic before the year ended which obviously didn't happen #and that sucks i am kinda disappointed #but i was rereading it earlier today and i am......actually really liking it? i think it's turning out way better than i was expecting #i'm trying a lot of new things and they seem to be working #and i really think it'd be better not to rush to take my time and make it what i want it to be #this story is so important to me for a lot of reasons and i think it deserves to be done right #all this to say i am hoping to post soon but i don't know when that will be #i used to be someone who would rush to get something up by some arbitrary deadline #and most of those fics i'm really not happy with looking back #i think i've learned the value of taking my time this year #i know it'll feel so much better when i post it knowing it's my absolute best #even if it is later than i imagined

[songofwizardry]

the autumn is so pretty this year. it doesn’t quite feel real. i sat on a train earlier this week and saw tree after tree filled with orange leaves, and saw the three o’clock already-golden sunlight through the gaps between the trees, and saw the houses going by all tinted with this fairytale-golden light, and it felt extremely storybook, and extremely beautiful. i took a lot of subpar pictures of beautiful things that were too lovely and went by too quickly to be quite replicated on my phone screen. there isn’t really a point to this post, but—the autumn is really pretty.

#i am learning to appreciate Seasons #it is always a double awe for me #a 'wow holy shit the world is beautiful' so-sweet-it-hurts-your-teeth awe #and then immediately after #a 'holy shit i am alive to notice that the world is beautiful and able to notice that the world is beautiful' awe #and it is awe #it's not quite joy #it is surprise and it is feeling small in this vast universe in the best way #and it's *good* #but awe is the best word for it #and i know i will eventually and repeatedly be less well and therefore not like the autumn or honestly any season #that is okay we move #but I currently really like the autumn #and it's pretty cool #and being able to notice that is also cool #i don't know if i will stop noticing or being a bit surprised by my ability to notice and appreciate stuff like this #i don't think it'll happen soon at least #but i don't think it's a bad thing #and #i have been pieced together by the grace and love and rage and solidarity of dozens of people #(and also by spite and stubbornness. less poetic but still important) #and yeah now i can sit on trains and wax poetic about what the sun looks like at 3pm in october #is that not what we piece ourselves and each other together for #the leaves and the trains and the chillies and the bad jokes and the fact that we know each others tea preferences #all those teeny tiny inconsequential earth-shatteringly important things #and maybe this is not actually about autumn but it is about the fact that i was on a train to see people i loved #and not only can i notice the autumn but i can do *that* #how absolutely wild is that #it is so lovely it hurts and #that is the best kind of awe

[gamebunny-advance]

Context: about every 100+ followers or so, I hold a "Follower Milestone Celebration" where I open doodle requests for a short time. I'm getting really close to the next one, but the last time I did it, there weren't that many requests, so I've kinda been discouraged from doing it.

But, this next milestone is kinda special since it's the big 1,000, and it'd feel weird if that's the one where I finally decided to stop doing it. So, I thought I'd ask what y'all want to do.

If you're not familiar with the general celebration rules, they are as follows:

One request per person per celebration. If you've made a request in the past, you can ask for another one, but only one per milestone.

One character per request. I might make exceptions for "animal buddies" or other small companions, but not 2 full-sized characters. I used to do them, but I wanna keep things moving and do as many requests as possible.

Don't be too detailed or specific. These are only doodle requests, something I can draw in less than an hour, so the art is gonna be a little simple. At most, keep it limited to 1 character + an action. Props are okay. Backgrounds are situational/simple.

Good Example: Kun3h0 eating a pizza.

Bad Example: Kun3h0 sitting cross-legged while eating a pizza slice in one hand, and holding a game controller in the other while playing Kirby Air Ride while GAB watches.

It's ONLY open to followers that followed before I made the official announcement. (This is not the official announcement.) This means that requests cannot be anonymous, since I have to verify the follower status. If you don't want your name published with your request, then just ask to be anonymous, and I won't mention your name when I post the doodle~

I'm being especially strict about that rule now. Anyone coming into my ask box with a sob story that wasn't following me is just gonna be blocked on sight now.

I don't do OCs. This includes other people's OCs. I used to allow them for mutuals and honorary mutuals, but it's both a confusing rule, and I actually feel a lot of pressure when drawing OCs since I want to make them as good as possible. I think y'all deserve the best, but that's hard to upkeep when I'm doing rapid-fire requests X(.

I will draw for fandoms I'm not familiar with, but I won't draw things that conflict with my moral values. I'm not gonna make a whole list of things/fandoms I won't draw, but if you've been following me on either of my two blogs, then you probably have a good idea of where my moral compass lies. Just ask if you're not sure. If I won't do it, then I'll just ask you to make a different request.

I don't do horny. It's not against my morals, but I won't do that kind of thing for free. Even if it's an innocuous kink that could pass under the radar, I'm not consenting to be a part of that at this time. Consider a commission if you want something like that from me.

That's the gist of it. There isn't a hard limit on how long the celebration goes or how many requests I'll do, but it's generally first-come, first-serve, but mutuals/honorary mutuals get priority. I like to think of it like microwaving pop-corn: I'll officially close things once requests either slow down or stop for a significant amount of time and/or I get burnt out.

Also keep in mind that none of this is an obligation to me, so I might reject a request for a reason not explicitly stated in the rules. It just depends on how comfortable I am with the request.

If you have any questions, feel free to ask (questions can be anonymous)~

#gbunny polls #we're *very* close to the next one #i'd like if this happened before may/june because i think i'm gonna be busy around that time and going forward #so hopefully this'll happen when i still have free time #who knows when this'll happen. sometimes it takes months just to get 1 or 2 more followers #but i've actually had some decent growth in the last month so maybe it'll happen soon. we're less than 10 followers away ^3^ #for the time being i feel like drawing things in a really cutesy style #i think i can do more requests if i keep things simple/cute #something that you'd put on a holographic sticker that came free with some candy i suppose #anyway i guess there's also a 3rd category of 'special' people #and those are the 'big fans' #they're not mutuals or honorary mutuals since i don't usually engage back #but they're the folks that are always active in my notes regardless #y'all will get priority too if you make a request~

[jellyloveru]

i put the fogs on hold for now...

#балаболим #cause. i doubt we'll see any snow any soon. #like. it's warm. in almost november. #and it'll be from about +5 to +10-15C° till the end of it. #anticyclon and all that crap. #anyway since i popped here for a sec. guess i'll complain a bit - turns out undersleeping REALLY weakens you lol) #um. been staying awake till 4am for about a week. not good. but thought i'd be fine in a gym #i was not fine in a gym. i've never felt more weak then today. i don't mean just not pushing like usual - it tired me even more. #took like. all energy. actually now that i think about it - been weak a whole week... #either way. my knees hate me now. i think they wanted to make me fall on the stairs - didn't bend) #well. that happens. gotta figure out sleep times. #hope yall are alright out there!